00:00Actually, how long have you been in the, like, I guess, I guess it depends on what you, one, considers the porn industry, whether being a content creator, OnlyFans girl is that, or you have to do professional scenes.
00:13So let's just say, like, how long have you been doing professional scenes for?
00:16Okay, so, oh, my anniversary is about to come up.
00:19Ooh.
00:19Yeah, I shot Bollywood.
00:20Your Porniversary?
00:21It is, yes.
00:22I shot a Bollywood tale in August 27 of 2023.
00:27Oh, wow.
00:27So it's really soon.
00:28Yeah.
00:28So almost two years.
00:30Yeah.
00:31Yeah.
00:31Oh, my goodness.
00:32That's my second year.
00:34I know.
00:34I'm like, I still feel like a baby.
00:37How has your experience been, and is it any different than what you expected?
00:41I think my experience, one, I feel completely blessed.
00:44I know that I, again, I'm not the only person to have a really big and beautiful start and go viral at the beginning of their career, but I also know that that is not a very common thread, right?
00:55So I feel like stepping into the adult entertainment industry has also come with immediate gratification, immediate praise, award nominations, and being told, wow, you're doing really great.
01:08I think it would probably suck if I, you know, fell flat on my face and never did anything great again.
01:14Yeah.
01:14But I mean, for me, it's been really wonderful.
01:17It has allowed me to really blossom and take care of my creative garden, and I've never felt more creative or more on fire, like, passion-wise about what I've been doing.
01:29I feel like when I go to work and I go to set and I create content, yes, I'm tired because it takes energy, but I feel alive.
01:37I feel emboldened.
01:38I feel like I want to do more and more creativity comes back to me from pouring into this cup.
01:44Like, my well is never empty.
01:47Do you have any interest in moving beyond just performing, like, any behind-the-scenes writing, directing, anything like that?
01:55I do.
01:55I actually, I enjoy writing.
01:59I want to kind of pick up scripts more.
02:01I've been playing with that more on my own time a little more and directing as well.
02:07I have taken more of a stance for some of my own sites of, like, writing and directing things.
02:12Like, when I was nominated for the Pornhub Awards, when I realized I was like, oh, I'm not going to be able to make it because, like, I have these last-minute things, I looked at one of my friends who does videography, and I was like, look, I came up with a...
02:23Because I was like, the theme is what, it was Western, right?
02:27And so I was like, what outfits do I have?
02:29And so I had two outfits, and I was like, what locations in New Orleans can I film at?
02:33And I was like, oh, I'll pick this location.
02:35I was like, okay, what can I do with this outfit in this location?
02:37So I came up with this backstory that I was like a Bayou bounty hunter chasing down a pleasure criminal.
02:42And that's why I couldn't make it to the awards, you know?
02:46Yeah.
02:46And I was just like, damn, I did that.
02:49And it feels good.
02:50But there are some things that have come to me that I'm like, this is really good.
02:54You know, I actually don't think that's meant for me, though.
02:56You know, and I think that's kind of like that itch that's like...
03:00Yeah.
03:01I think there's something down the line.
03:03It's not uncommon, obviously, for performers to move to the other side of the camera.
03:07And I think it makes so much sense because you're the only people that know what it's like to be a performer.
03:11Yeah.
03:12And I think that sometimes that disconnect between the director and the performer is problematic because you really like...
03:20I mean, this is a stupid and weak example, but I hosted a Playboy TV show for like three seasons.
03:28And I had never spent like that much time in front of the camera.
03:32And having to be on, like when you're not feeling on, when you're tired, when you've had a bad day, you got bad news.
03:41Like, I never comprehended how much mental energy that took.
03:45Like, I really didn't.
03:46And I remember there was actually one time we would do like confessionals after each episode.
03:52And I broke down and started crying.
03:53Yeah, I was gonna say, I imagine so, so much.
03:56Yeah.
03:56And I couldn't stop crying.
03:58And it was like something triggered in me.
04:00And I was like, you know, and I had, they had to give me an hour to like calm down.
04:04And I remember being so mad because I think about like the director self who would have been like, dude, this fucking bitch.
04:11Like, Jesus Christ.
04:12Like, it's late.
04:13We just want to wrap up.
04:15I mean, like, I wouldn't have said that, but there would have been a part of me.
04:18You would have thought about it.
04:18As a director, you're like, I would have thought about it.
04:19There would have been a part of me being like, oh, really?
04:22Like, get it together.
04:24We just only have like five more minutes to film.
04:27Oh, my God.
04:28You know, but it is.
04:29And when I see, you know, directors who are also in front of the camera that day, I'm like, how do you juggle that?
04:36Because.
04:36Yeah, that's also crazy.
04:38Especially when you have to be in front of the camera, not only acting, but performing.
04:41Yeah.
04:42I'm like, that's wild because a part of you as a director, not to say you have to be the mean guy, right?
04:46Because like you have an AD, you have other people who are mean, but like, you're not everyone's best friend.
04:50Yeah.
04:51Right?
04:51You can't be.
04:52There has to be, even if you're friendly, there has to be that delineation.
04:55Mm-hmm.
04:56Because you are the director.
04:57Yeah.
04:57And everyone needs to understand that.
04:59And I'm like, that is something I don't know if I would want to do.
05:02Yeah.
05:03To do, to have to play both roles.
05:05I would need someone who co-directs or something.
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