00:00I want and will have the biggest implants in the UK.
00:05I love the best implants.
00:06Doctor, tell me, are they big enough?
00:09There are 2,100 cc's, which is crazy,
00:13and I'm aware that it's crazy.
00:14Let's get to the point.
00:15What do we think of the look?
00:16I was taking you in when you crossed the street.
00:19I enjoy the extreme look,
00:21and at this point, it's my destiny.
00:24This is what I'm like every time
00:25when I'm getting ready in the morning.
00:26Half the time, it's just me sitting,
00:27looking at myself in the mirror.
00:29I had a dangerous situation with my implants
00:33every single day, thinking the whole thing
00:35is just gonna pop open, and then one day it did.
00:39I would describe my look as cheap, tacky,
00:42in-your-face, I'm all of it.
00:45Cheers.
00:46I'm Isla, and I'm a doll from Scotland.
00:48The doll from Scotland.
00:50To me, it's a bit like a superhero costume.
00:53I feel powerful when my makeup is big and bold.
00:58I came out at 24, and then I started my surgeries
01:02as soon as I could.
01:02I have had 15 procedures to date.
01:05My first ever surgery would have been my face.
01:09So from top to toe, I've had my forehead shaved down,
01:13I've had my nose done, I've had my lips lifted,
01:16my jaw shaved down twice, my chin redone twice,
01:20my throat shaved, and then all my implant procedures
01:25and my reassignment surgery.
01:27I always say to girls, if you're gonna get your boobs done,
01:29make sure you've got enough money to get them done again,
01:31because you will immediately want to go bigger.
01:33They're not big enough.
01:34They're 2,100 ccs, which is crazy,
01:38and I'm aware that it's crazy,
01:39but the goalpost just keeps moving,
01:42going bigger to 3,000 hopefully by the end of the year.
01:44So I have tissue expanders for my implants now,
01:47so they just inject right into the ports
01:50and just pump up the implant.
01:52Your body gradually stretches.
01:55I can just go and be in and out within 15 minutes.
01:59It's never failed to make me happy.
02:02I'm never as excited as I am when I'm on that table.
02:07I'm sorry, I literally can't stop staring at myself.
02:10What I'm like every time when I'm getting ready
02:11in the morning, half the time is just me
02:13sitting looking at myself in the mirror.
02:16David, can you come through and help me with something?
02:18Today, my husband David is going to measure my breasts.
02:21David loves my look.
02:23He's a big implant guy.
02:26He likes glamour.
02:28You know, I want to be the biggest in the UK,
02:31definitely the biggest in Scotland.
02:32I love Ayla's look.
02:33I support her every step of the way,
02:35whatever she wants to do.
02:36No, I've never measured Ayla's boobs before,
02:38just measuring my eyes, so.
02:41Doctor, tell me, are they big enough?
02:45Your implants are 44 inches.
02:48Perfect.
02:49My target is 3,000 ccs by the end of the year.
02:54It would depend.
02:55We'll get to 60.
02:57We'll get to 60 regardless.
03:01Let's look at some looks.
03:03I've kind of learned, basically stay in the lanes of leggings,
03:07a little sports bra top, always in like three sizes too small.
03:10I often go to the kids section of a shop
03:12and get like little girl tops as well,
03:14just because they're like tighter.
03:16I would describe my look, I mean, it's in the name,
03:17the dirt road doll.
03:19I'm a little bit dirty.
03:20I don't care if my tan's patchy
03:22or if I look a bit tacky
03:23or if people think what I'm wearing is cheap.
03:25Like, I'm really not bothered about those things.
03:27Anything I wear is gonna show off my breasts
03:30regardless of what I wear, so yeah.
03:32Quite hard to hide these things.
03:35I've spent like 150,000 on cosmetic surgeries and aesthetics.
03:39I'm aware of the repercussions of it,
03:42not being able to get certain employment,
03:44but I love how I look and I love how I've designed my life.
03:48These implants, the expanders are much better
03:51than having a surgery every single time.
03:52There's still a risk.
03:53There's still a risk, of course there's a risk with everything,
03:56but the bigger, the better.
03:58Absolutely.
04:00She wants to go bigger, so I support that as well,
04:03but as long as it's done safe.
04:04You know, I had a dangerous situation with my implants.
04:08My last ones had a little bit of the incision
04:11that wasn't healing.
04:12And for the moment she came back,
04:14it looked to me like there was a couple of stitches
04:16that had burst.
04:17It looked like it was closing and then it just started opening,
04:20getting bigger and bigger.
04:22It like consumed every single day,
04:24thinking the whole thing is just going to pop open
04:26and then one day it did.
04:28Yeah, the implant was completely hanging out of my chest.
04:32It was like a big reality check of the risk.
04:36Yeah, I love you too.
04:39I love you too.
04:45I stand out when I walk down the street,
04:48when I go anywhere, people are looking,
04:50like you hear the heels, you know instantly it's me.
04:53See you later.
04:54See you later.
04:55Love you.
04:56I am going to the Royal Mile
04:58to see what people really have to say about my look.
05:00Yeah, I'm judged for my look.
05:02A lot of sour faces out on the streets,
05:04but if anything, it just makes me laugh.
05:08They can say whatever they want to say about how I look.
05:10It's nothing I haven't heard before.
05:11Let's have a little chat with some people
05:13and just see what they think about all of this.
05:16See if they can handle it.
05:16I don't think they can.
05:17Let's go.
05:21Let's get to the point.
05:22What do we think of the look?
05:23I think you're slaying.
05:24I'd give it like 8.5 out of 10.
05:25Wow, that's a strong mark.
05:27It's fantastic.
05:28Wow, OK, that makes my day, thank you.
05:31I'm wondering how you're not cold right now.
05:34Yeah, yeah, it's a very good question.
05:36I am cold.
05:38I like the neon.
05:40Big fan of neon.
05:41And I think I actually have a pair of those boots.
05:43Oh my god.
05:44I'd actually love to see more extreme looks on the streets.
05:46I love that.
05:47Preach, preach.
05:49Well, she's not really bad.
05:51You know, everybody have different look,
05:54different understanding, and different wants,
05:57different needs.
05:58And she doesn't look bad at all.
06:00No, thank you.
06:02I'm like, well, after that, that's OK.
06:08You never really know what people think.
06:10They were actually really kind, gave me the time of day
06:12and said something really quite positive and inspiring.
06:15That was really nice.
06:16I'm going to meet my friend Zach.
06:18He's an old friend.
06:19He's been there from the beginning.
06:22You know, my whole life has changed since then.
06:24I know his life has changed since then.
06:26So I'm honestly about to have a heart attack right now.
06:29I'm so nervous to see him.
06:31Oh my god.
06:33Hi, Zach.
06:35How are you?
06:36First time I met her, I think it was at a drag show here.
06:40I was like, who's this person?
06:42Who's this person who's like in her tiny shell
06:44that needs to come out?
06:47She used to be like here.
06:49Sam, yeah.
06:50Eight years ago, yeah.
06:52That's crazy.
06:53It was like this connection that I've never had with someone.
06:57And it's like, you don't want to say it's like a trans connection.
07:00Yeah, yeah, yeah.
07:02That sort of thing.
07:03It's like I completely know what's going on in your brain.
07:06It's like, you just understand each other.
07:09And I think I saw how trapped you were.
07:12And that, like, it just hit me.
07:15You needed to explode to be yourself.
07:18Obviously, we dated for a while.
07:19I still have these feelings of like,
07:22I needed to protect you and I needed to help you learn who you are.
07:25That day that I told you to be happy, you need to be Ava.
07:29You went home as Ava.
07:30I didn't know that.
07:31Yeah, I'll always remember.
07:32You said you'd be so much happier.
07:34And now I see you.
07:35You live your life with confidence.
07:38You're true to yourself.
07:39And it's just so special.
07:41I genuinely mean it that you did, like, do all of this.
07:46Because I remember you coming to me like so many times,
07:48being like, I can't go home like this.
07:49I can't go out like this.
07:50I can't be me.
07:52And I was like, Ava, do it.
07:55Just do it.
07:56And then you did it.
07:57And it was like, I can remember that first time I saw you come through as you.
08:00And I was like, oh, my God.
08:02She's that one person that I look to and I go, she's done it.
08:05I used to worry how far she was taking her look.
08:11Do you think you're going to get the biggest implants in the UK?
08:14I think I've kind of proven myself, like, already.
08:17I feel like you're so headstrong that you'd be like, nothing can stop me.
08:21But it's really just like a moment to reflect on, you know,
08:25it's a whole last eight years.
08:26It was lovely to see you.
08:29We'll see each other again soon.
08:30I hope so.
08:31For the future plans, I definitely am looking to get my next fill for my implants.
08:36So 2,400 next.
08:39At a certain point, it's just like, why would you stop?
08:41Your life is your life.
08:42You like what you like.
08:42And I'm living my life in a very glamorous one.
08:45Everyone's on a journey.
08:46And if you're in a stage in your life right now where you're feeling some kind of
08:50compulsion to do that, then go with that.
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