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As the truth collapses, Mia stops pretending and takes on the villainous forces alone as a top-tier powerhouse. At the critical moment, Silas leads his men to descend from above, clearing the scene with absolute power for the sake of love. In this dangerous game of hunter and prey, the two alpha figures stand shoulder to shoulder in a sea of flames, completing an utterly insane journey of revenge and redemption.
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00:00Four years. You'd think by now this place would feel like home.
00:04Mom died before I could remember her face.
00:07Dad followed when I was nine.
00:09Aunt Vera says I stubbornest to be back at Tunesu.
00:13Aunt Vera, I'm back on campus.
00:16Did you eat? Don't skip meals just because I'm not watching.
00:19I ate.
00:21Paloma, last year. Make it count, okay?
00:26I'll try.
00:32Senior year, one last semester, then I disappear from here and no one will notice.
00:44Have you heard about the new physics professor?
00:46They say she made a grad student cry on her first day at her last university.
00:50Ice queen. Apparently she never smiles.
00:57I am Professor Zinnia.
01:00I don't repeat myself.
01:01I don't accept excuses.
01:03And I don't care about your feelings.
01:05You.
01:06Last row.
01:09Entropy is the measure of disorder in a system.
01:12Poetic.
01:12Also imprecise, incomplete, and exactly the kind of answer that earns you nothing in my class.
01:20She looked at me like I was nothing.
01:22So why did it feel like she saw everything?
01:28She looked at me like I was nothing.
01:49Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god.
01:52Dead? Please don't be dead.
01:54I can't afford the lawsuit.
01:56You don't look fine.
01:58You look like someone who organizes her notes by color.
02:00Oh wow, you actually do.
02:02Can I have that back?
02:04Lyra.
02:05Transfer student.
02:06Chaos enthusiast.
02:07You?
02:08Late.
02:08Perfect.
02:09Me too.
02:10We're bonded now.
02:17So here's what I figured out in 48 hours.
02:19The soup here is a war crime.
02:20The library smells like heartbreak.
02:22And you?
02:22You eat alone every single day.
02:24Are you stalking me?
02:26Observing.
02:28There's a legal distinction.
02:30I've decided to adopt you.
02:33I'm not a stray cat.
02:35You literally eat in the corner and avoid eye contact.
02:37You're the definition of a stray cat.
02:39I don't need friends.
02:41Great.
02:43I don't need permission.
02:45Last week I assigned reading.
02:4740 pages.
02:49Who didn't finish?
02:51Voss.
02:53Stand up.
02:58Your assignment.
03:01Where is it?
03:03Professor, I...
03:04My laptop crashed and I...
03:05Are you blind?
03:07Or just...
03:08Brainless?
03:16The deadline was 72 hours ago.
03:20A laptop crash takes 10 minutes to resolve.
03:22You had 4,300 minutes.
03:25Sit down.
03:26Don't waste any more of them.
03:28That woman is a psychopath.
03:39Before you leave,
03:40Professor Zinnia requires a teaching assistant for this semester.
03:44Appellations are open through Friday.
03:45Details on department board.
03:48Don't even think about it.
03:51Friday.
03:57You're thinner.
03:58I'm fine, Aunt Vera.
04:00You always say that.
04:01Even when you were 12,
04:03standing at the funeral home.
04:04In shoes two sizes too big.
04:07I'm fine.
04:08You don't have to be fine.
04:09Not with me.
04:10I applied for a teaching assistant position.
04:12Professor Zinnia's class.
04:14The one they call the Ice Queen?
04:16She's...
04:17Precise.
04:18I want to learn from that.
04:19Just promise me.
04:21Don't disappear into someone else's world to avoid building your own.
04:24I promise.
04:28Good afternoon.
04:29I'm a volunteer.
04:31A volunteer who brings books.
04:33Sit.
04:33Sit.
04:34Poetry mostly.
04:35And one physics textbook wrong bag.
04:37Keep the physics.
04:38My daughter would say poetry is a waste of neurons.
04:42She sounds intense.
04:43She is.
04:44She got that from her father.
04:45I gave her the stubbornness.
04:47You have kind eyes.
04:48The kind that have seen too much too early.
04:52You're very perceptive.
04:53I'm very old.
04:55Same thing.
05:06Professor Zinnia, the lecture summaries are organized by week.
05:09I cross-reference the syllabus with...
05:11Page seven.
05:12Third paragraph.
05:13Common entanglement describes part of metaphor connected.
05:15Fundamentally.
05:16Used isn't where precision is demanded a qualifier.
05:18I can fix.
05:19You can redo all of it.
05:20If one page is careless, every page is suspect.
05:23I'll have it back by this afternoon.
05:25You'll have it back by noon.
05:37No errors.
05:39Not as hopeful as I expected.
05:41That's all.
05:42Is there anything else for today?
05:44The Midterdam problem sets need formatting.
05:47Templates are on the shared drive.
05:48And stop hovering.
05:50Would it change anything if I did?
05:53No.
05:54But most people do anyway.
05:57This is an intervention.
05:58I'm fine.
05:59You've said I'm fine 6,000 times since I met you.
06:02You reek of printer ink and despair.
06:06She's demanding.
06:08Not unreasonable.
06:10She made you redo 30 pages over one word.
06:13One imprecise word.
06:14Paloma, you're defending her.
06:16That's the part that scares me.
06:17I just want to prove I belong there.
06:19You belong everywhere you stand.
06:22You don't need her to confirm that.
06:28Put that down.
06:29I'm sorry.
06:30It fell.
06:31I didn't get out.
06:35Professor Zaninia, Vos was selected through proper channels.
06:38His qualifications are...
06:39Irrelevant.
06:40His preliminary annotations.
06:4217 errors in 12 pages.
06:44Three of them fundamental.
06:47He's a strong student.
06:49I don't need strong.
06:50I need precise.
06:51He is neither.
06:53I'll select my own assistant.
06:54Or I'll work without one entirely and you can explain to departments where your flat chef
06:57course has no TA support.
06:58Who do you want?
07:00Paloma.
07:01The girl who applied and didn't make the cut?
07:04The girl whose application had zero errors.
07:13Professor Zaninia.
07:14I'll be brief.
07:15The TA position is yours.
07:17What?
07:18But the results have changed.
07:21Don't understand.
07:22This isn't charity.
07:23You are simply the least interrestating option available to me.
07:27When do I start?
07:29Tomorrow.
07:30Eight sharp.
07:31My office.
07:31Bring nothing you aren't prepared to have criticized.
07:33And Paloma, I don't repeat instructions.
07:36Ever.
07:41You're early.
07:42You said you don't repeat instructions.
07:44Sit.
07:44Rule one, everything in this office stays in this office.
07:47Rule two, I am not your mentor, your friend, or your confidant.
07:50Rule three, don't make me regret this.
07:53I won't.
07:56We'll see.
08:06We'll see.
08:09Hey!
08:10Did you get it?
08:12No.
08:12What?
08:13That's insane.
08:14You had the highest GPA and...
08:16It's fine.
08:18They chose someone qualified.
08:20You are someone qualified!
08:22You should...
08:23Chog.
08:24Please.
08:42Professor Zinnia?
08:55Get up.
08:56We're going to the night market.
08:57I don't want to.
08:58That wasn't a question.
08:59Pick one.
09:00The frog or the dinosaur.
09:03Chog.
09:04I really thought I had it.
09:06But moping in bed won't make Professor Ice Queen change her mind.
09:09Fried squid might.
09:11You're impossible.
09:12That's the nicest thing anyone's said to me today.
09:21Just like that.
09:22No explanation.
09:24No warning.
09:25The door was open, but the room was closed.
09:28He's been at this for 23 years.
09:30Never lost his nerve once.
09:31Must be nice.
09:32Knowing exactly what to cut and what to keep.
09:34We're not talking about surgery, are we?
09:37We absolutely are.
09:39He offered to mentor you.
09:40Part-time at the Veterinary Sciences Wing.
09:42Real work.
09:43Stable.
09:43I'm not telling you what to choose.
09:45I'm telling you choices exist.
09:46Not everything worth doing has to hurt.
09:50Yeah.
10:11What are you doing here?
10:13Visiting Auntie Meng?
10:15I come every Thursday.
10:16She's sleeping.
10:17I know.
10:20You should go home.
10:21You too.
10:23The vending machine only had green tea.
10:26I know it's not your preference.
10:44You're two minutes early.
10:46You said don't be late.
10:48I didn't say arrive early either.
10:49Sit.
10:50Sit.
10:50The mid or dom data needs recoding.
10:52The previous format was in AttaWit.
10:53The format you last week?
10:54Last week, I had lower standards.
10:57Sit.
10:59Column three.
11:00Your variable labels are inconsistent.
11:02Which labels?
11:03Here.
11:03Pomoma.
11:04You see it?
11:06You see it?
11:07Yes.
11:11Hold still.
11:14Why are you doing this?
11:17Doing what?
11:17This.
11:19All of it.
11:20You shut me out.
11:21Email only.
11:22No contact.
11:23A week of silence.
11:24And now you pull me back into this room and you touch me like I corrected your data.
11:28Don't dramatize.
11:30Why did you shut me out and then pull me back?
11:33Don't flatter yourself.
11:34Then look me in the eye and tell me I imagined all of it.
11:38You're dismissed.
11:39Leave the files.
11:41You look like a thermometer about to pop.
11:44I'm not.
11:44What happened in that office?
11:45Nothing.
11:46It's warm in here.
11:47It's warm in here?
11:48Paloma, I'm your friend.
11:50Your only friend, statistically.
11:53Talk to me.
11:54She confuses me.
11:55Is she not confusion on your face, babe?
11:58That's something worse.
12:02Stop.
12:03Stop this.
12:09You gave this a 62.
12:11I'm aware of what I gave it.
12:12The methodology is sound.
12:13The site and elus are current falls as every framework you outlined in lecture.
12:16And yet it's mediocre.
12:17No, you graded this differently because of what happened.
12:19Because you're...
12:19You think I'd compromise atomic standards over what?
12:22A power outage?
12:23A candle?
12:23A candle over the fact that you're scared.
12:25You don't know the first thing about what scares me.
12:28You want a lesson in fear?
12:30I have other ways to make you remember your place.
12:33Then teach me.
12:35Get out.
12:38Professor.
12:58She could have said anything.
12:59Done anything to push me away.
13:01She chose the one thing that would pull me closer.
13:05And she knows it.
13:20The thing about rumors is, they don't need to be true.
13:24They just need to be loud.
13:30I'm going to ask you something and I need you not to delight.
13:33Sure.
13:34Are you sleeping with her?
13:35No.
13:36God, no.
13:36She's my professor.
13:38That's not a denial.
13:39That's a job title.
13:41I'm not judging you.
13:42I'm scared for you.
13:44I'm scared for you.
13:45Miss Sue.
13:47Would you care to explain why your derivation skips three steps and arrives at a conclusion
13:50that violates conservations of energy?
13:53Implied.
13:54Physics doesn't deal in implications.
13:55It deals in proof.
13:59I'm sorry.
14:00That was necessary.
14:02Necessary.
14:03She humiliated me in front of 40 people and called it necessary.
14:09Annie?
14:10Mrs. Meng.
14:11She collapsed this afternoon.
14:12They've moved her to the ICU.
14:13I thought you'd want to know.
14:14What happened?
14:15I have to go.
14:24How is she?
14:27Stable.
14:29For now.
14:30Can I see her?
14:31Why?
14:32Because I care about her.
14:34Visiting hours ended at 8.
14:36I know.
14:38I'm not leaving.
15:01She held on.
15:03All night, she held on.
15:08I can't leave.
15:28I couldn't send it.
15:41I'll have it done by tomorrow.
15:45Tonight.
15:46Tonight, then.
15:47The hospital called.
15:48My mother's white cell count stabilized.
15:51I called the nurse's station this morning.
15:55You didn't have to do that.
15:57I know.
16:16I said, don't read into it.
16:18I had extras.
16:19You don't eat chocolate.
16:21You told your mother it gives you migraines.
16:24Then clearly they're not for me.
16:26Stop making this a conversation.
16:36She gave you the chocolates.
16:38She said she had extras.
16:40Since she decided caring about people was a tactical Ezra, she'll never tell you what it means.
16:45But the fact that she let you see it.
16:47Palema.
16:47That's not extras.
16:48That's a woman who doesn't know how to say what she feels, so he says it and pretends it's chocolating.
16:52She went three stores.
16:53Three.
16:54For a woman she claims is just the least annoysing option.
16:56I know what chocolate means.
16:58I know what silence means.
16:59The question is whether she'll ever let herself mean it out loud.
17:06You won't even look at me?
17:07After everything?
17:10There's nothing to look at.
17:12God, you're still doing this.
17:13The Ice Queen Act.
17:14It was boring three years ago.
17:15Then why are you here?
17:19Because I heard you're teaching again, playing human.
17:22I wanted to see it for myself.
17:32Zinnia, wait, this isn't...
17:37And now?
17:38What, you'll just keep punishing every woman who gets close?
17:42That little TA of yours, is she next?
17:46Leave.
17:47Make me.
17:49Professor Zinnia, your three o'clock meeting is now.
17:53And you must be leaving.
17:55She's brave.
17:57You'll fix that.
18:07There is no three o'clock meeting.
18:12You shouldn't have done that.
18:15Probably not.
18:22The sound of someone trying not to break in public.
18:25I've been making it my whole life.
18:30That's three days now.
18:34Zinnia.
18:35It's me.
18:38At least eat something.
18:44Professor, I brought congee and the grading rubric you wanted for next week.
18:48I'll leave it here.
18:49You don't have to open it.
18:59I checked your office, the hospital, the parking lot.
19:02This was my last guess.
19:04Then your instincts are unfortunately accurate.
19:07You don't have to talk.
19:08I'll just sit here.
19:09I didn't ask you to come.
19:11I know.
19:12She said I don't know how to love without destroying.
19:15She's not wrong.
19:15She's your ex.
19:16She's supposed to say the cruelest possible thing.
19:18And if it's true, then you'd have destroyed me by now.
19:21You haven't.
19:22Why won't you leave me alone?
19:25Because someone should have stayed for you the first time.
19:36You should have let me stay lost.
19:47Get up.
19:48We're leaving.
19:50I have reading to finish.
19:52You've been reading the same page for three days.
19:55I checked.
19:56You haven't turned it once.
19:58I'm declaring an emotional detox day.
20:00Non-decadeable.
20:01Doctor's orders.
20:02You're not a doctor.
20:03I'm pre-law.
20:04Close enough.
20:05I argue people into wellness.
20:07You look terrible.
20:08Perfect.
20:09Let's go.
20:09Get in.
20:10Paloma.
20:11In four years, you have never once done something stupid.
20:13That's the real tragedy of your life.
20:15I've done plenty of stupid things.
20:18Name one.
20:20Exactly.
20:21Get in the cart.
20:22Ty!
20:23Ty!
20:24Ah!
20:25Ah!
20:30See?
20:31One day without thinking about quantum physics or impossible women and you remember you're
20:3522.
20:36I'm sorry.
20:37I don't know why.
20:38I'm...
20:39Don't apologize.
20:40Cry.
20:41That's the whole point.
20:46I don't know what's happening with you.
20:47You don't have to tell me.
20:49But I'm not going anywhere.
20:51Okay?
20:52Even when you're being annoyingly mysterious and emotionally constipated.
20:55I don't know.
21:28She always pulls me back and I always let her.
21:36Tomorrow.
21:36Tomorrow.
21:48You're early.
21:49You said nine.
21:51I said nine.
21:52It's 8.47.
21:56Sit down.
21:57We need to review the lecture material for next week.
22:00Black holes.
22:02Gravitational collapse.
22:03Event horizons.
22:05Singularities.
22:05You're covering all of chapter 12?
22:06Just the section on points of no return.
22:09Do you know what an event horizon actually is?
22:12The boundary around a black hole.
22:14Beyond it, nothing escapes.
22:16Not even light.
22:16Textbook answer.
22:17It's not about physics.
22:18Not really.
22:19It's about the moment you'd realize you've crossed a line pulling there's no inward and you can't
22:23fight it.
22:23You can't even see it happening back.
22:24Every force in the universe pulling you inward.
22:26You can't fight it.
22:27You can't even see it happening until it's already done.
22:29What does?
22:30Gravitational collapse.
22:31Pay attention.
22:35Most people think black holes destroy everything.
22:38They don't.
22:40They transform it.
22:42That sounds lonely.
22:44It is.
22:46What if someone fell in winningly?
22:49Then they'd be a fool.
22:51Or brave.
22:57You should go.
22:58Why do you always do that?
23:00Open a door, then slam it shut?
23:02Because I know what's on the other side.
23:05So do I.
23:12Professor Zinnia, it's Dean Jovan.
23:14May I come in?
23:15One moment.
23:18Good.
23:19You're both here.
23:20I'll be direct.
23:21An anonymous complaint has been filed with the Factory Ethics Board regarding, and I quote,
23:27inappropriate conduct between a professor and her teaching assistant.
23:31And you're here to investigate?
23:34I'm here to inform you, formally.
23:36The board will review the complaint next week.
23:38I trust there's nothing to find.
23:45Get out.
23:47Now.
23:54Sit down.
23:55I'd rather stand.
23:57The Dean will call you in this afternoon.
24:00Standard procedural interview.
24:02You'll answer every question truthfully, which means you'll say there is no relationship,
24:06because there isn't one.
24:08We are professor and teaching assistant.
24:10Nothing more.
24:11Whatever you think happened.
24:12Whatever I think happened, or nothing happened.
24:15That is the truth.
24:17Say it.
24:19Nothing happened.
24:21Good.
24:22Now leave.
24:23And don't come to this office unless summoned.
24:25You know, you don't have to make it hurt this much to make it convincing.
24:31An anonymous concern was raised, and the university has an obligation to follow up.
24:37I understand.
24:37How would you describe your working relationship with Professor Zinnia?
24:43Professional.
24:44She assigns tasks.
24:46I complete them.
24:48Has she ever asked you to meet outside of academic setting?
24:51No.
24:53Has she ever made you feel uncomfortable?
24:56Professor Zinnia is demanding.
24:58That's not the same as appropriate.
25:00No, it isn't.
25:01Thank you, Miss Sue.
25:02For you, that will be all.
25:12You were called to the dean's office.
25:16It was nothing.
25:17Routine check on the TA program.
25:19Pomoma.
25:21What?
25:22I'm not stupid, and I'm not blind.
25:25The way you talk about her.
25:26The way...
25:27Don't talk about her.
25:29The hours you spend in that office.
25:31The fact that you cried for three days after she canceled classes, and you won't tell me why.
25:36You're in love with her.
25:40It's not what you think.
25:42I'm not judging you.
25:43I'm scared for you.
25:45She's your professor.
25:46She has all the power.
25:54She's your professor.
26:15I can literally hear you overthinking through the wall.
26:18I'm not ready for...
26:19It's coffee.
26:20Not a marriage proposal.
26:21One hour.
26:25You don't have a hamster.
26:27Exactly.
26:28Untraceable.
26:33One hour.
26:35Showgauge said you're a physics TA.
26:36That's intimidating.
26:37Former TA.
26:38It's complicated.
26:39Everything worth doing is...
26:40I switched majors three times.
26:43There it is.
26:44You have a great laugh.
26:45You should let it out more.
26:46So what finally stuck?
26:47Your major.
26:48Art history.
26:49I like studying beautiful things that don't love you back.
26:52I know the feeling.
27:06Sinia, the department meeting moved to...
27:08Don't do this to yourself.
27:10I'm not doing anything.
27:13That's the problem.
27:16Close the door on your way.
27:24She told me this could never happen.
27:26She told me to forget.
27:28So why does moving on feel like betrayal?
27:57Where are you?
28:01Professor Zinnia, you said you needed the Mitterdarm files reviewed.
28:04Close the door.
28:07There are no files, are there?
28:10No.
28:11How was your evening last Thursday?
28:13Excuse me?
28:14The cafe on Woming Road.
28:16Seven o'clock.
28:17The girl with the earrings.
28:18You were watching me?
28:20I was passing by.
28:22You don't live anywhere near Woming Road.
28:25Is that what you want?
28:26Someone who smiles on command?
28:28Someone uncomplicated?
28:29Maybe.
28:30Yes.
28:31Maybe that's exactly what I want.
28:33Then go.
28:33Go be happy with someone simple.
28:35Don't do that.
28:37Don't pretend you're giving me permission when you're really asking me to stay.
28:43I'm not asking you anything.
28:45No.
28:46You never ask.
28:47You dismiss.
28:48You cancel classes and disappear in the next me at midnight like nothing.
28:51I told you this was over.
28:53Then why am I here?
28:54Did you call me to an empty building at nine o'clock at night?
28:57Because I can't stop.
28:59Can't stop what?
29:00Thinking about you sitting across from her, laughing.
29:03The way you used to my office before I...
29:05Before you what?
29:07Before I ruined it.
29:08You didn't ruin it.
29:09You ran from it.
29:10And I was right to.
29:12Look at us.
29:13Look at what this does.
29:15At least she's not afraid to want me.
29:17I'm sorry.
29:31This can never happen again.
29:36Cinnia.
29:38Don't.
29:42But it did.
29:53You don't have to explain.
29:55I could tell.
29:56That's not fair to you.
29:58You deserve an actual explain-splanation.
30:00Okay.
30:02Explain.
30:03My heart is somewhere it shouldn't be.
30:05And it wouldn't be right to keep pretending it isn't.
30:07You know, most people just say I'm not feeling a connection.
30:10You're wonderful.
30:11That's what makes this worse.
30:13Whoever it is, I hope they know what they have.
30:17They don't, do they?
30:20Yeah.
30:33You broke up with Morwen.
30:35It wasn't a breakup.
30:36It was one date.
30:38And you ended it because of her.
30:44I'm not going to lecture you.
30:45I just need to know, are you okay?
30:49No.
30:50Okay.
30:52That's honest.
30:53That's something.
31:09You kissed me like the world was ending.
31:13And now you can't even walk past me.
31:20You can't just...
31:21You kissed me.
31:23You don't get to pretend it didn't happen.
31:25Lower your voice.
31:26No.
31:27You dragged me into an empty room.
31:29You held my face in your hands.
31:30You kissed me like you meant it.
31:32And then you ran.
31:35It was a mistake.
31:37Say that to my face without looking away.
31:41That's what I thought.
31:43What do you want me to say?
31:45That you feel it too.
31:50Saturday.
31:527pm.
31:53My apartment.
31:57Don't be late.
32:08What am I doing?
32:17Hot date it with your mystery study group?
32:20It's not.
32:20I'm just going to dinner.
32:22With a friend.
32:23You've changed tops.
32:25Four times for a friend.
32:28Wear the dark blue.
32:30It makes you look like you're not trying.
32:33Whoever it is, you look terrified and happy.
32:35That's either very good or very bad.
32:38I don't know which one yet.
32:39Just come home, okay?
32:42I told myself I wouldn't come.
32:44I told myself 12 times between campus and here.
32:47My feet didn't listen.
32:51You're late.
32:52You said 7.
32:55It's 7.02.
32:57Then you're late.
33:02You cooked.
33:04Don't sound so alarmed.
33:07Is this supposed to be?
33:10It's carbonara.
33:13Approximately.
33:15Approximately.
33:19That bad?
33:21I've had worse.
33:23You're lying.
33:28I'm being diplomatic.
33:30I haven't cooked for anyone in three years.
33:32Then I'm honored to survive it.
33:47You drove 20 minutes to avoid being seen with me.
33:50I drove 20 minutes because they have better pastries.
33:55Stop smiling like that.
33:57You look conspispuous.
33:59I look happy.
34:00You should try it.
34:02Eat your cake.
34:19In public, I don't exist.
34:21I'm not her student, not her lover, not even someone she recognized.
34:26eyes. I'm no one. You canceled on me three times this week. I've been busy with TA work
34:44on a Saturday night, on a Sunday morning. I'm not stupid, Paloma. You disappear for hours.
34:53You come back smelling like someone else's apartment. You won't look me in the eye.
34:57I don't need to know who. I need to know you're okay. I'm okay. You've changed.
35:05And not in a good way.
35:13I want to tell Shayog, not everything, just that there's someone. No, she's my best friend.
35:21She already suspects. And if she talks, if she talks, it reached the department. If it reaches
35:27the department, I lose everything. What about what I'm losing? What are you losing? Her.
35:32My best friend. Because I can't stop lying to her face.
35:38Then that's the cost.
35:40Is that what I am? A cost you manage? She holds me like I'm everything.
35:45Then walk past me like I'm nothing. And I keep letting her.
35:51Am I disappearing into her?
35:58You've lost weight.
35:59I've been busy. Vinyls are coming.
36:01That's not what I asked.
36:02You stopped calling on Wednesdays. You canceled twice last month. And right now, you're sitting
36:06in my kitchen, looking like you haven't slept in a week.
36:09Auntie, I'm not interrogating you. I'm telling you what I see.
36:13If you love someone, and the only way to be with them was to become invisible, would you stay?
36:19I watched your mother disappear into a man who made her feel small. She stayed. And it cost her
36:24everything. You are not her, Paloma. You don't have to be.
36:31You look worse than I do.
36:33I'm fine.
36:34You always say that. It's never true.
36:37That girl, Paloma, she hasn't visited in two weeks.
36:41She's busy with coursework.
36:42I'm dying, which means I've earned the right to say what I see. You love her. And you're hiding
36:47her like something to be ashamed of. It's not shame. It's protection.
36:51For whom? If you love her, love her in the light. The dark will eat you both alive.
37:00I can't keep doing this. Doing what? Being someone you only want in the dark. Walking
37:05past you on campus like I'm no one. Lying to the only people who love me. I need you to
37:10let me in. Really in. Or I need to go. And what does in look like to you? I lose
37:15my career.
37:16You lose your degree. We become a scandal. We become real.
37:20Real doesn't survive institutions, Paloma. Real doesn't survive gossip and boards.
37:24And real survives everything if you're brave enough to choose it.
37:29Then maybe you should stop coming.
37:36I used to think you were protecting me, but you're just protecting yourself.
37:40Goodbye, Professor.
37:57Paloma, you've been here since six. Take a break.
38:04The body is a useful thing. It keeps moving, even when everything inside has stopped.
38:16Zinnia. The department meeting was an hour ago.
38:20Cancel it.
38:21I can't cancel something that already happened without you.
38:25How many days has it been since you've eaten a real meal?
38:28I'm not your project, Coralie.
38:30No. You're my friend. And you're disappearing.
38:32I made the right decision.
38:37Then why do you look like this?
38:39She's working double shifts at the hospital. She's not eating either, in case you were wondering.
38:43I wasn't.
38:48Eat or don't.
38:50But stop pretending you're fine.
38:52You're terrible at it.
39:01Open your door.
39:05Before you say you're not hungry,
39:07I don't care.
39:10I owe you an apology.
39:12What I said, that you changed, that it wasn't good.
39:14I was scared, not angry.
39:16I should have stayed instead of judging.
39:18You weren't wrong.
39:19Maybe.
39:20But I wasn't kind, either.
39:22And you needed kind.
39:23Kouge, I...
39:24I've been so stupid.
39:26Tell me.
39:27I fell in love with her.
39:28With Professor Zinnia.
39:30And I knew...
39:31I knew it would end like this.
39:33Then fight for yourself.
39:34Not for her.
39:35For you.
39:37Dear Zinnia,
39:38I'm not writing this to bring you back.
39:40I'm writing this so I can finally say everything I swallowed to keep you comfortable.
39:44You taught me that gravity is the weakest force in the universe.
39:46It held me to you long after I should have let go.
39:48This letter is not a door left open.
39:50It's my way of closing one.
39:57I didn't write it to get you back.
39:59I wrote it because there were things I needed to say while I still had the language for them.
40:03That loving you was not my mistake.
40:05That loosing myself was.
40:07You taught me that love isn't always gentle.
40:09Sometimes it's a hand on your throat disguised as an embrace.
40:12I let you hold me there because I thought if I stayed long enough you'd loosen your grip.
40:15You never did.
40:16But I don't blame you.
40:18You held on the only way you knew how.
40:20And I stayed the only way how by disappearing.
40:22I love the woman in the dark office who whispered about loneliness.
40:25I love the woman who went to three stores for chocolate.
40:28I loved you.
40:30I loved you.
40:30Past tense.
40:31Because I have to.
40:41You look terrible.
40:43Let me guess.
40:44The student.
40:45What do you want, Manchuang?
40:46I heard you've been spiraling, canceling, classes, Coley's whispering.
40:53I came to see the wreckage in person.
40:56You came to gloat.
40:57I came to remind you what you are.
41:00You don't know how to love without destroying.
41:02You proved it with me.
41:03Now you're proving it with her.
41:08I destroyed us.
41:10You were in our bed with someone else.
41:12And you made it so easy to leave.
41:14Cold, controlling, suffocating.
41:16That girl will figure it out eventually if she hasn't already.
41:21Let her go, Zinnia.
41:23It's the only kind thing you're capable of.
41:46One last time.
41:53You said one last time.
41:55Sit down.
41:57I'll stand.
41:59I asked you here because you deserve a clean ending.
42:03Not silence.
42:04Not evidance.
42:05A clean ending.
42:07Yes.
42:08Is that what this is?
42:09I'm transferring.
42:10Next semester.
42:11Different university.
42:12So the paperwork is already filed.
42:15So you called me here to inform me you're running away.
42:19Properly this time.
42:21I called you here to let you go.
42:23You already did that.
42:24In your apartment.
42:26Remember?
42:27This is different.
42:28How?
42:30How is this different?
42:33Because this time I'm making sure I can't take it back.
42:42You read my letter.
42:44Every word.
42:46And your answer is a transfer form.
42:49My answer is removing myself from your life before I do more damage.
42:52Sylvie was right.
42:53I don't know how to love without...
42:55Don't!
42:56Don't you dare use her words as your shield.
42:58You want a clean ending?
42:59Then listen.
43:01Because I have things to say and I will only say them once.
43:08I loved you.
43:09Not the version you performed in reed halls.
43:12Not the version that knew exactly where to touch me to make me stop.
43:16I loved the woman who burned dinner and laughed about it.
43:19Who wrote makes physics feel less lonely in the margers when she thought no one would see.
43:23I loved you with everything I had.
43:25And it wasn't enough.
43:26Not because you decided long before you met me that no one would ever be enough.
43:29So here's what I need you to hear.
43:30I'm not angry anymore.
43:31I'm not waiting anymore.
43:32I will not let loving you teach me that I'm not enough.
43:34Thank you for loving me.
43:36Even badly.
43:37Even scared.
43:43I love you.
44:02Thank you for the extras.
44:07I had it.
44:09I had her.
44:17I had her.
44:19What if someone fell in willingly?
44:32Paloma?
44:33Can I come home for a while?
44:36The bed's already made.
44:42Auntie, I...
44:45I loved someone.
44:47And I lost her.
44:49I know.
44:50Loving someone doesn't always mean you get to keep them.
44:53But you'll always have yourself.
44:55And you'll always have me.
45:07Some people write love letters.
45:09She wrote equations.
45:10And buried the truth in the margins where she thought no one would look.
45:37You look different.
45:39Worse?
45:40Softer.
45:41I read your letter.
45:43Every day for a month.
45:44Then my therapist said I was using it to get punishment instead of healing.
45:47Was she right?
45:48She's always right.
45:50I hate her.
45:52I hate her.
45:55I forgive you.
45:58I forgive myself.
46:00But I can't go back.
46:02I know.
46:07Will you be okay?
46:09I already am.
46:13Some people are not meant to stay.
46:15They're meant to change you.
46:17She taught me that love is not enough, but it is not nothing.
46:19She taught me that choosing yourself is not things giving up.
46:22And she taught me that the bravest thing you can do is walk into the sun and let the light
46:26find you.
46:27She taught me that love is not enough.
46:28She taught me that love is not enough.
46:28I am.
46:29I am.
46:29I am.
46:34I am.