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Calabasas Confidential Season 1 Episode 4
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00:01.
00:05Yes, V-jump!
00:06Let's go!
00:07Kind of amazing.
00:08Yes!
00:11So close.
00:12Wait, this could be our new sport, babe.
00:15Let's go, sister.
00:16Ready?
00:17I wish I wore, like, something so I could get a tan like you.
00:20My sumo wrestler suit?
00:22I feel like you're gonna get a great tan, though.
00:24You think? Hopefully.
00:25Yeah, cuz you'll get, like...
00:25I need some color stuff.
00:27Yeah.
00:29I've never had friends my age,
00:31so this is all very new to me.
00:32Emma, for example, she's such a sweetheart.
00:35I heard a preconceived narrative
00:36before meeting her from Gemma.
00:39Gemma said that she's this awful person
00:41and that she was weird in high school
00:43and all this kind of stuff,
00:44and I'm just getting to know a lot of them,
00:45which I think is special,
00:47because this is like I can form my own opinions
00:48and my own experiences with each and every one of them.
00:51Me, Rain, and Nicole played here a couple weeks ago.
00:54Oh, wait, fun!
00:55Yeah.
00:55Who won?
00:56None of us.
00:57Y'all look good out there, ladies!
00:59Yeah!
01:00We're playing our best!
01:00You guys warming up?
01:01Yep.
01:03Okay.
01:03Getting some cardio in?
01:05I brought cookies.
01:06I know it's 100 degrees, but...
01:07What's up, boys?
01:08You brought cookies, Preston?
01:09You look good. How are you?
01:10I'm so good. How are you?
01:12You look good.
01:12How about this?
01:13Y'all two versus two, too.
01:14Oh, is that what we're doing?
01:15Boys against girls?
01:16Yep.
01:17Is that what y'all want?
01:18Well, shit!
01:19I cover this face, girl.
01:22You guys serve.
01:28Go, Emma, go.
01:29You!
01:33You!
01:34Guys, look at us in our health and wellness era.
01:36I know.
01:36Start the summer off right, you know?
01:38Did everyone have a blast at the beach or what?
01:40I ain't gonna lie.
01:41Yeah, I did.
01:42I didn't like how me and Sterling was the only ones in the water.
01:44Sorry, I was caught up.
01:45There were seven girls attacking me at once, so...
01:47What?
01:47That's bad.
01:47Tell me.
01:48Tell me about that.
01:49It almost felt like I had all these girls, like, up against me because I showed up with Dylan
01:52at the beach when it really, like, wasn't that serious.
01:54Yeah.
01:54Not, like, thinking that I had any issues with anybody.
01:57Yeah.
01:57Minding my own business.
01:59Having a blast of what I do, normally.
02:01Yeah.
02:01I had Nicole coming up to me saying that Gemma feels betrayed.
02:05Yes, girl!
02:09I got it.
02:10That Gemma feels betrayed?
02:11That Gemma feels betrayed by me.
02:13And I said, hmm, the math is not math in here.
02:16I think Nicole likes to play messenger because she gets no collateral damage.
02:21But also, by the way, Gemma didn't say a word to me.
02:22Gemma won't come up to me and tell me that she has an issue.
02:24We talked about this.
02:25But all of her friends will.
02:26Nicole needs to stay in her own lane.
02:27Highly agreed.
02:28She needs to just mind her business.
02:30Huh.
02:30She's boring anyway.
02:31So now we're finding out who's the glue to this puzzle.
02:33I'm glad it's not me.
02:35By the way, I think she's the one who sent that TikTok to Gemma.
02:38You can't trust her.
02:39The more you know.
02:40You can't trust her at all.
02:43I don't think about Nicole too much.
02:46But it's like you can't really be, like, loyal to two different people on two totally different ends.
02:52And, like, if her and Suede are friends, I don't know why her loyalty, like, stood with Gemma at all.
03:00Do you guys want to, like, sit in the shade and, like, catch up?
03:02Yeah.
03:02Why are we torturing yourself?
03:03I'm out here getting a super tan.
03:05Call it a game.
03:06Tell me why I can always count on Preston to bring the homemade cookies everywhere we go.
03:09Lovely.
03:10And you can always count on me to eat them.
03:11They've been warming up for you guys.
03:13Nice little sizzle in the sun.
03:14Love this.
03:15Cheers, girl.
03:16Cheers.
03:16We slayed.
03:17We always beat the boys, like always.
03:18Yes, we earned it.
03:19Period.
03:21Y'all don't worry about that.
03:22I'll just take the rest of these.
03:24I think it's really difficult for me to fully, like, let my guard down just because of my history with
03:30friends.
03:31But I've just grown a lot.
03:32And I really, like, learned the type of people that are meant to be in my life.
03:37And I could see myself trusting Suede a little bit more.
03:41I feel like she's kind of gained that.
03:43Honestly, the one thing I am really confused about is why Gemma, like, won't come and say something to me.
03:51I don't know.
03:51Have you ever heard that saying?
03:53It's like people talk about other people because if they talk about themselves, no one will listen.
03:56Yeah.
03:57I feel like it's giving that with Gemma and Nicole.
03:59It's true.
03:59Like, they're like, okay, like, how do we insert ourselves into this group?
04:02Let's just get mad and cause drama.
04:03Yeah, let's just constantly jab at everyone.
04:05Yeah.
04:05I think if Gemma has an issue with me, she can talk to me.
04:08But I don't owe her anything, you know?
04:09Yeah.
04:10Like, I'm not going to be upset over a girl that's unemployed and lives in the valley.
04:13I'm sorry.
04:13Yeah.
04:14I don't think she's unemployed, but yeah.
04:15Also, but like, if you want to go tit for tat, let's go.
04:17Yeah.
04:18Babe, I'm here.
04:19I don't know if she's intimidated.
04:21I don't know if she's scared.
04:21You're the big dog.
04:23She's intimidated.
04:24That's what I got to say.
04:25I don't see, like, why she wouldn't be.
04:26Like, the guy she likes wants you, you know?
04:29But like, I just think it's, I just think it's like so immature at this point.
04:32I agree.
04:32No, I'm not saying I agree with her at all.
04:34Stop having it in the past.
04:34It is what it is.
04:35You got to be like, oh, so let that shit go.
04:37Wait, so Swede, you're feeling Dylan, I'm correct?
04:40A little?
04:41I mean, yeah.
04:42Okay.
04:42You're feeling Emily.
04:43Oh, that's my good friend.
04:44Yeah, we're good friends.
04:45And then Preston, who are you feeling?
04:49Are you and Emily not friends?
04:51Yes.
04:51Are you and Dylan friends?
04:52Yeah.
04:52Yeah.
04:52I love that.
04:53Yeah.
04:54I ain't gonna lie, Preston.
04:55There's a bee flying by your head.
04:57Y'all, it comes over here.
04:58I'm gonna Scooby-Doo escape out of here, y'all.
05:00I'm running there.
05:02A million miles away, you took the sun, yeah.
05:06Oh, I been thinking we could get down, whoa-oh.
05:10Moving fast tonight in West Mound, whoa-oh-oh.
05:14She's chasing the sun, she's chasing the sun.
05:19Is Emily gonna be okay that we're inside, even though she's, like, coming for pool time?
05:23I couldn't tell ya.
05:25Oh, hi.
05:26Hey.
05:27Oh, look at Kristen Cavallari's here.
05:28How are you?
05:29I'm pretty, I'm good.
05:29How are you?
05:30Oh, thank you so much.
05:31Hi.
05:32How are you?
05:32I know we met once.
05:34So nice to see you again.
05:36You look gorgeous.
05:37Yeah, I missed the outfit memo.
05:39Yeah, sorry.
05:39Thought we were gonna have a pool day.
05:41We were freezing out.
05:41It got really cold, and now it's just a little easier to be inside.
05:44Yeah, it's actually freezing outside.
05:46It is so cold.
05:47How have you been?
05:48I've been good.
05:49So, my face is a little blue.
05:50You guys can call me Smurfette today, because I had this procedure done where they use the
05:55stem cells and exosomes.
05:56That's why I'm blue.
05:57If you were wondering.
05:58No, I can't even see your blue at all.
05:59You look great.
06:00Okay, that's a lie.
06:01The blue is kinda hard to tell, to be fair.
06:03Did you want something to drink?
06:04Yeah.
06:05I'll get it.
06:05I'll get it.
06:06Oh, okay.
06:07Oh, you want a Diet Coke?
06:08Yeah, that'd be great.
06:08Okay, sure.
06:09It's my favorite drink.
06:09I don't think I saw you for...
06:11No, I didn't see you.
06:12Maybe for like...
06:12Probably since like freshman year of college, because I remember I saw you maybe out and
06:16about somewhere in Orange County a couple times, early bit of college.
06:18Oh, yeah.
06:18Thank you so much.
06:19But never...
06:20Like Chapman.
06:20Yeah, never, never after that for a while.
06:23So what's gonna...
06:23Are you still with Matt?
06:24You guys went to prom together, right?
06:27Me and Matthew were never dating.
06:29Oh, I thought you guys were...
06:31No, we went to prom together.
06:32As friends.
06:32As friends.
06:33So you're not dating anyone?
06:36Recently, Hersey has been blowing up my phone.
06:39Oh, is he cute?
06:41Yeah, I've known him since I was like 12.
06:42Would you...
06:43Are you interested?
06:44No, I don't think I'm interested.
06:46That's not a hard no.
06:47It was like...
06:48It was like a no.
06:50Yeah, she asked me to hang out today and I was like, oh, I'm busy.
06:54Oh, okay.
06:55The issue with the guys here are they're fucking simps.
06:59Yeah, I think the boys...
07:00I don't want to run the show.
07:01They want me to do the first text.
07:03I have to ask to hang out.
07:04Yeah.
07:04What happened to Chivalry?
07:05Like, ask me on a date.
07:06Go do something.
07:07Isn't that what you just got?
07:10Yeah, is he not your type?
07:11What's your type?
07:12Like, why isn't he...
07:13I actually have no type.
07:14I don't really have a taste, but I do have a timeline.
07:17I'm like, oh, I have to be married by this age.
07:19And I started realizing, like, according to my timeline, I'm behind right now.
07:24I'm gonna date someone, get engaged for, like, what?
07:27Like, one year, then have a wedding, then, like, want time to yourselves, then want kids.
07:32I mean, I want to, like, pop out, like, at least four before I'm, like, 32 max.
07:36I started doing the math on, like, rough estimates.
07:38It's not looking good.
07:40It's not looking good.
07:41I don't know how people are getting, like, married this late, but...
07:43I mean, I feel like I have some options.
07:45I don't want to just throw all my eggs in one basket.
07:48What's up with you?
07:49I heard you have a girlfriend.
07:50Yeah.
07:50Do you like her?
07:51I love her.
07:52She's the best.
07:53I want to keep her forever.
07:55I'm, like, I said, I told her to get pregnant.
07:57I was like, just trick him.
07:59Well, don't, don't tell her that.
08:00I already did.
08:01Because then we'll have, like, a cute little Irish baby, and I can just watch it.
08:04Oh, my gosh.
08:05She's the only person I've ever been with where I can, like, picture a future.
08:08Oh, like Ring by Spring, maybe.
08:10Yeah.
08:11Mason was a little flirt in high school, though.
08:13I wouldn't say that.
08:14I would just say that I'm nice.
08:16I would say that.
08:16I remember realizing he wasn't a virgin when I walked by his room and I heard a spanking
08:22being given.
08:23And I was just like, fuck my life.
08:25My son's not a virgin anymore.
08:27And I think he was, like, 15 or 16.
08:30I was crying.
08:31I'm like, I'm so uncomfortable right now.
08:34But at least he's given a spanking, at least.
08:37You know, he's got some moves.
08:39Jesus Christ.
08:40Does this embarrass you?
08:41No.
08:41A little bit.
08:42I mean, I'm just.
08:42You're used to me.
08:44I'm used to you.
08:44You're the cool mom.
08:45Abs.
08:46Is anything new with you dating life?
08:49No.
08:49I haven't had sex in two years.
08:52So there's that.
08:53And then I was wondering if one of the really gross guys that I was seeing was the reason
08:59I got this horrible, weird disease that no one knows what it is.
09:02Maybe it was, like, stress-induced from an awful boy.
09:05I was thinking BJ's, but maybe stress.
09:10That could be it, too.
09:12Yeah.
09:12I mean, I call this Calabaster because I hate it, and you guys can have it.
09:17I'm leaving soon.
09:29I'm, like, so tired.
09:35Me, too.
09:37And it's so hot.
09:38I'm, like, drenched.
09:41And I just got my hair done.
09:42I'm, like, I can't let this sweat out.
09:43No.
09:45I curled my hair, but I think it fell out.
09:47It's all done.
09:48The curls?
09:48No, I see your curls.
09:49Really?
09:49They're giving loose waves.
09:50Oh, okay.
09:50I'll take it.
09:51I'll take it.
09:52I've actually never been here before.
09:54It's actually really good.
09:55Just a cute little Calabasas vibe.
10:00Wait for our girl, Gemma.
10:01I know.
10:02Ugh, I feel terrible, dude.
10:04Same.
10:05Oh, my gosh.
10:06The beach day was, like...
10:09It was a lot.
10:10That was too much.
10:11It definitely gave clicks.
10:13It was so clicky.
10:14I just feel so bad for Gemma.
10:16Like, she must be feeling so shitty.
10:18Yeah.
10:18Like, they were just sitting there in front of her.
10:21Yeah.
10:21You know what I mean?
10:21Like, Dylan and Suede.
10:23Seeing your ex with someone who you thought was, like, your friend.
10:25And she knows, like, what, you know, he put her through.
10:28Yeah.
10:29That brings her back to that, like, trauma state.
10:31Yeah.
10:32Like, this is literally high school all over again.
10:34Yeah.
10:34Because she said that Dylan would always date her friends.
10:37Like, this is happening again.
10:39That's, like, sad, you know?
10:43Deep of faith is hoping.
10:47On the edge, heart open.
10:51Head first down, straight into the unknown.
10:56Eyes closed, heart open.
11:01Hey, Denise.
11:02You look cute.
11:03How's this talk from?
11:05Oh, my girl.
11:05from urban too i love it hi you guys look so cute we're getting down to business you missed it
11:14yeah girl we were just recapping i know unfortunately the vibes the worst beach day
11:21i've ever that's what i she goes how do you think jemma thought go miserable yeah i want to hear
11:26about your conversation with suede because i didn't i feel like that will like kind of help me figure
11:30out where i want to go from here i was kind of talking from my point of view not even
11:34your your
11:34point of view because i want you to speak for yourself i'm not going to be like jemma feels
11:38like this jemma's like that's for you to do yeah i don't think she thinks there's a problem right now
11:42like i genuinely don't think that that's why she's dumb like dude okay we went to the beach we're all
11:47sitting there and suede didn't even sit with us is that normal like in the past if we had all
11:52been
11:52sitting there would suede have sat with us yeah yeah but she was like with her boo thing but that's
11:58what i'm saying that's how i'm already like see is already changing there's already a weird dynamic
12:03from what i saw i think she obviously likes dylan and then i think her judgment is so clouded
12:08by liking him i don't know what he has in his pants jemma but these girls go crazy for him
12:14i don't know
12:15what the hell dude but i think that you guys need to have a conversation now wait but so did
12:22she say
12:22anything about wanting to have a conversation with me because she's like if jemma has a problem like i
12:26know she had a problem she can come to me okay see like where i'm at it's like i didn't
12:33create the
12:33problem so i don't need to fix it yeah yeah if she cares enough about her friendship she will notice
12:38that i'm not engaging with her and it's up to her if she wants to fix it i didn't do
12:42anything to damage
12:43the friendship if you don't want to be friends with her because of what she did i'll support you
12:47but i just think like this this awkward like tension we need to come up with a solution
12:54it's so hard to be in the middle i never thought i would mix suede in with the calabasas crew
13:02and i'm like how how did we get here i don't think she thinks that she i don't even want
13:09to
13:09speak for her i think like i'm so i know she needs to talk to you about it because i'm
13:13gonna
13:14say it wrong and it's gonna be my fault and i'm already in the middle of this and i'm like
13:17this isn't my beef i'm both of your guys's friends and i want all of us to be good i
13:22don't
13:23know why i keep getting in this situation but even now even after everything that happened i'm still
13:29like i just feel for both i just feel for everyone but i don't know how much longer i can
13:34deal with this
13:35at this point i don't even really care what she has to say that's kind of where i'm at
13:43i don't know i think the root of the issue the sole problem is dylan and if i actually do
13:52think
13:52dylan is the one doing this on purpose to hurt me i do think that the only way to find
13:58out the
13:58truth from that is not me having a conversation with suede not me having a conversation with emma
14:02it's me having that conversation with dylan and it's going to be such a hard conversation for me because
14:07it's like i don't want to have the conversation because to have the conversation i have to tell
14:11him that like it hurts yeah so i think it's like as hard as that conversation is to have
14:17and i don't want to i get anxiety thinking about having that conversation with them because it's
14:22hard one thing about him is he will tell me the truth even if it's gonna hurt me it hurts
14:27me that
14:28i hurts you like you don't deserve this at all stop crying around look i don't want you to cry
14:32like it really upsets my sister i don't either but it just it's because like i feel like i'm like
14:36i have like so much anger we should be able like i also want to be able to like why
14:41can't i crack a
14:42joke with you or have a conversation with you and not it be like oh jemma's obsessed with me jemma
14:47has
14:47a crush on me i'm like we're deading that i a thousand percent agree with you you just need a
14:51nip
14:52in the butt you know then i just need to let the rest roll out yeah you guys are really
14:58genuine and
14:59it's in calabasas in la it's hard to find girls who move like we do and so i just i
15:05appreciate you
15:05guys i do i wouldn't be able to do it without you guys
15:18i guess i wish you used to
15:30uh-huh
15:33i've been trying to come up for a long time all my people see the hustle they respect the crime
15:37i can't nobody stop me i'm shining and watch how this pressure makes time
15:41very good one two three four one two three four five five five five five five
15:51two good there you go good stay with it stay with it good stay coming
16:01hey come here i was working i've been working a little bit it's your first day i didn't expect you
16:06to go down on your first day back that's crazy good here we go good run through that hey good
16:13job baby
16:15good that was a great job hurts we're gonna finish when i catch the shoot 25s but uh let's make
16:20sure we
16:21understand what we're doing okay so i want to make sure two things number one we understand what
16:27our goal is going into this year yeah what you think you talk to me so obviously i got dreams
16:31going
16:31to leave right you know it's possible with just me standing here right learning working on things i
16:36need to work on which is my speed like you said base it takes being in the right position sometimes
16:41opportunity i think that's what if i get this year better that's what i've been missing like just being in
16:45the right position
16:45like i'll be playing for my dad be back home in new orleans so i feel like yeah i'm praying
16:50for that like i need that
16:52i need that this whole summer i've been trying to be able to play for my dad obviously everyone loves
16:57to get
16:57an extra year to play basketball but for me this is bigger than just that like this is me making
17:01history
17:02me building different connections more memories that i can ever imagine like playing in new orleans
17:07like i'm imagining the whole stadium just screaming hurry see hurry see like all my family members
17:12so it's like i work my ass off every day for this exact moment it's like bigger than just me
17:16hooping another year i think the thing that's keeping me from the league is if i go back to school
17:21or if i if i don't because i know how it is people go overseas and stuff it's like hard
17:25for them to get
17:25to the league because it's like people think you're done it's tough to get to that nba that's the that's
17:31the big thing okay so right now our our our cards are on going to school yeah what do we
17:37got to do we got
17:38control we can control and enjoy the process a lot of people keep trying to fight it yeah we gotta
17:44just hoop you gotta you gotta you gotta you gotta do something makes you want to move something deep
17:52inside of you you're still walking even when nobody knows where you're going
17:59is it weird that i'm wearing shoes in my own house i think it's fine no i feel like you
18:02should never
18:03not wear shoes in your house i always wear shoes yeah same or slippers or socks yeah yeah like i
18:07would never go
18:07barefoot in my house same because how's home how's everything it's good i'm kind of still
18:12acclimating good yeah still acclimating from moving home yeah yeah i know me too do you remember in
18:17high school when it was like me kimora and dylan and your dad threw out your clothes out the window
18:24and we were in your car and you were handing them through the window and he's like preston i'm done
18:28with you get out and you're literally like lexi take my jordans oh do i take the travis scotts what
18:34do
18:34i have to take the crew you remember you handed me cruise through the window your dog and then you
18:38were like okay i have to take cruise and then we went to your mom's and you were like i
18:42guess i'm not
18:42gonna see my dad for a while and you're like back at your dad's like the next day or what
18:46was he even
18:46mad at you for you guys had me all the time that's what it was yeah we were kind of
18:51like degenerates
18:52once upon a time yeah preston and i are besties like we do everything together like we kissed in high
18:57school like when we were young i had a couple boyfriends after because he has no game he doesn't flirt
19:00so
19:01you know i don't know maybe one day he'll grow up out of that i don't know when that one
19:04day is
19:04but i guess only time will tell hey the cookie monster is here we're making cookies we're making
19:09cookies have you ever made made cookies hercy yeah okay growing up we used to be we used to be
19:14making
19:14it up you guys were you guys were baking yeah i'm gonna create this oven so we can kind of
19:19get to it
19:20do you like have measurements or you just i i have measurements now like you made your own
19:26measurements so it's like a secret recipe yeah all right first thing we're doing we need to separate
19:30the dry from the wet ingredients i'm going to move my purse because i don't want it
19:34it's about to get crazy i don't want it to get flour on it
19:40i feel like we're really like pissing off his element
19:43i cross very a few people to bake with it's fun it's a little stressful when i do it with
19:49friends
19:49but it's fun i want to be gatekeeping from this recipe i'm like showing way too much i need to
19:55hide
19:55this that was a little weird what you want to go to the pantry and put some stuff in there
19:59he's
20:00poisoning us i just think knowing it's like mine you know it's like i made it and i i did
20:05my little
20:05tweaks to you know my recipe and it's personal did he lock this you can lock a pantry that's quite
20:12so hey hey how's it going hey i'm confident to say i'm a beast at chocolate chip cookies oatmeal
20:20raisin chocolate chip muffins blueberry muffins my dad is really into it also now he comes in
20:26there's like one cookie left he's like are you gonna make more what are we doing here so that
20:30happened yesterday i made the cookies with my brother he came in he's like where are the rest
20:33cookies i'll like i'll get on that so how long are these uh cook for i'm gonna give them like
20:38a
20:38man can't can't rush art see that's my problem with baking is i'm like a rusher wait you know
20:43that one tiktok that's like you have one hour you know you have one hour isn't that tiktok you
20:48definitely seen it was viral i'm just probably not it's not explaining you're not explaining you just
20:51said one hour it's like you gotta get your together oh yeah yeah like we're back home now we got
20:56things that we need to focus on and like figure out what you need to do yeah i'm more pushing
21:00on
21:00myself that i need to figure out like that's what i this is what i need to do i need
21:04to have this
21:04done before this and that my dad's like you're good you've been on it for a long time you just
21:08fucking graduated take a breath my mom is like the workhorse so she's like get on it get on it
21:13whatever you want to do it do it now does that kind of stress you out or like no because
21:19you're at
21:19home with your dad i'm not i'm here i keep thinking i keep thinking he's gonna call yeah i'm like
21:26it does help that i'm here right now yeah wait so when's the last time you called your mom
21:29her birthday was a few days ago so like a couple days ago brb going to the restroom um
21:35what'd she say she's kind of in like a weird place like a new relationship oh yeah yeah
21:40per usual you want to talk about it or no um i'm glad i'm like here you know i'm like
21:46i'm not
21:46dealing with it all so close i don't know kind of sucks like when your parents like divorce that's
21:53the one thing i'm like once they start dating and then it's another thing i'm like they want to
21:56like we're married and then it's like a bigger thing and then you have to like deal with both
21:59them talking to you about it and you're like i don't really want to be in the middle why are
22:02we
22:02always in the middle free us from the middle there's no like age where i feel like your parents
22:07getting divorced is like comfortable like at that time my mom was getting like a lot of exposure and
22:12stuff and she was like friends with a very famous family and it was just like all over the place
22:20you would think at that age when you're going to school it's like you're safe and like
22:24you're dodging the drama at home and it was like
22:29people who i thought were my friends would like make jokes and
22:32they're already it's like there's so much noise already like in the house
22:40like
22:47it's like
22:51i'm sorry
22:54do they try and keep in the middle or are you you're usually not in the middle
22:57no not really yeah they don't really communicate though my parents
23:01that's what i'm talking about oh yeah that's like my parents like i know how that is
23:04yeah are your parents together they've been divorced when i was in second grade god children
23:08are divorced it sucks it sucks
23:13didn't did you not hear him five minutes ago tell me to not eat the cookie dough and look he's
23:16spoonful in it y'all know the key to my heart is food mercy oh my god
23:46i don't
23:47hi mommy
23:48hey bubba today we can put your hair in rollers yeah okay yeah let's do that
23:53nothing like the magic touch of mommy's hands it just feels so good to get your hair brushed just
23:58even getting it brushed right now i'm like this is this is when people people always open up to
24:02me in the chairs i know your hair yeah that's the you're most of my most vulnerable state
24:08i think everybody's vulnerable state right oh i'm so happy you're in town mom i miss you
24:13i love being here are you kidding i know and thanks thanks for cleaning my kitchen oh
24:20cleaning your kitchen doing your floor it's my job i don't like doing it so i know i appreciate that
24:26you do that well you know here's the thing you weren't you weren't around as a kid
24:30because you were you know busy so it's nice to it's nice to do this for you now yeah if
24:36it wasn't
24:36for my relationship with my mom i don't know where i'd be she's the one who anytime i'm having like
24:41if
24:41i'm crying or i'm going through anything she's the person i call i consider her like my best friend now
24:47you were so young when you moved out here and had to make all your own decisions and it is
24:52crazy
24:53i've always just kind of kept this kind of wall up and kept to myself kind of like a loner
24:57girl
24:57just minding my business and talk to my camera in my room because that's what made me happy
25:00and it's still that's what you did when you were 11 and 12. right and i'm like i'm 24 now
25:05i think back of all that content we just had i had so much fun i also think it brought
25:11so much
25:11life into the house too oh like with my camera i mean please i even look at the clips of
25:16me and dad
25:16growing up like in the garage where i would just set the camera up and he would just
25:20ramble about whatever and people ate it up i mean before he passed i was at the peak of my
25:26career
25:27my dad was my best friend he died abruptly of a heart attack that was in 2020 it was really
25:33traumatic
25:35my dad was my rock my everything i was a daddy's girl he always wanted me to just live to
25:42my fullest
25:46and i try to remind myself that every day still to this day it feels like i'm living for him
25:52he's my biggest inspiration he'll always be i still crave him you know of course and i don't think
26:00that'll go away no i think all of you kids are coming out of that cloud of the death of
26:05your dad and
26:07and just seeing you your your walls are coming down i think you feeling confident with yourself
26:12and confident with your emotions that it's okay to show emotions it's not going to make you weaker
26:18it's actually going to make you stronger and i think that what you've done in your career i'm so
26:23proud of you you know and and your dad is he sees everything you know yeah so um
26:32so do you are you seeing any boys have you been dating what's the tea no i think it's you
26:38know
26:38dating when you're my age is just totally different yeah i did have like the other night i had i
26:46had a
26:46kiss oh my god that's what i said wait tell me everything what well there's not a whole lot to
26:52tell
26:53it's just you know it's you know it's good to know when's it well when's the last time you've kissed
26:56somebody it's been a while it's like embarrassing you to say it's been a long time it's been it's
27:01been a year like a year it's not kiss someone isn't that weird to think you can kiss someone for
27:06a
27:06whole year well also it's because when you've kissed the same person for 30 years exactly it's a lot
27:12it's kind of weird um so it's good to know i still got my mojo you always got your mojo
27:18you want her
27:20you know it's like you don't use it you leave it you know mom got her first kiss in a
27:25year let's go
27:26such an accomplishment that's major my book well well yeah when was your last kiss um my last kiss
27:34you know that'd be smooth chin or whatever um i have been dating somebody i really like him he's my
27:42age
27:43jump scare i know shocker yeah i don't i just have never i've never heard of you dating anyone
27:51your age i always felt that you were always so mature that it was probably hard for you to relate
27:56to someone that's your age they have a hard time relating to you like you're very intimidating you
28:01know and you're which is what i get told a lot yeah like gosh how could i even date you
28:06you know i mean
28:07it takes a lot to yeah do that with suede brooks as a 16 year old 17 year old there
28:12wasn't a lot of
28:13boys my age that were making money and kind of doing what i was doing so i always just kind
28:20of went for
28:21the older men and i think that's definitely traumatized me i experienced a lot of lust but
28:30i don't think i've ever really been in that i feel like there's so much good in this kid
28:35his name's dylan he's a kid i'm calling him a kid because he's like my age it feels like we're
28:40kids
28:40i really like i like him yeah and i care about him as a person but i'm just on the
28:47edge he's the
28:49type of boy that's um that like bad boy that you just want to like the little devil on your
28:55shoulders like go get him go get him go get him and then the good side's like no this is
28:59not worth
28:59your time because he's cute and i think the devil won a little bit honestly i think the friend group
29:04has put a little bit of pressure on it too to make it maybe seem like it's something that it's
29:09not i don't know i'm just kind of stuck well that's hard that tugs on your heartstrings yeah
29:13you don't usually like your heartstrings no you know how i am with my emotions i'm not good at it
29:17i'm not good yeah so i go into this like fight or flight mode in a way uh-huh i
29:23don't really know
29:24how it's going to play out i care about him i want him to be in my life okay whether
29:29we make it work or not i think if you just kind of wait and see i mean i have
29:34total confidence
29:34in whatever you decide to do with this young man and you're going to make the right choice
29:40it's definitely a very vulnerable thing and sometimes i can be a little bit too hyper independent
29:47but i do want to find love i haven't given up and i don't plan on giving up anytime soon
29:53this feels so good to just just to be able to talk and be humans instead of mom and daughter
30:00mom and daughter and you just realize we're both just we're just single women we're literally just
30:05girls girl hot walks hot girl oh by the way hot girl hot girl walks hot girl walk hot walks
30:10what i what i call it girl hot walks one of them yeah hot walk anyway
30:14i learned something new last night
30:16every day feels the same hey neighbor how you doing no complaints wouldn't want to have it any other way
30:22stepping out the house gotta put a smile on my face it's not like i don't ever try to find
30:26my state
30:27with grass so green and the fence so white i think we might be different than the rest of them
30:31right
30:32right go what's up fellas this is the only person i let do my tattoo so it's been one person
30:38i was 15
30:39but then once i realized the importance of them i'm like spiritually everything you got to be
30:43locked in the younger brother came he's like turned 18 and then he's like i know i got him addicted
30:49now
30:50so let me see what you gonna do i'm thinking you're fearless like right here yeah like big and bold
30:56them guys got bigger than big bros now i mean i'm still yeah i'll come back a little vacation
31:01i'm a little you still got me have a seat right here soldier don't know frink about get my tat
31:06done in
31:0710 minutes the good thing is you know we work fast because there's literally no games played
31:12this is going to be perfection going down
31:18you're getting fearless yeah yeah so what made you get this is there anything going on in your
31:22life that just made you kind of like i mean i'm kind of like the the crossroads where i'm trying
31:26to figure out everything school's about to start but i still haven't heard back from ncaa so i'm
31:30waiting to see if i get a fifth year okay which i've been on edge the whole summer just
31:35but just the whole year thinking about that it's a lot i think this is why it's so hard for
31:39me is
31:39because i literally eat sleep and grind basketball since i was three years old so it's like i necessarily
31:44don't really know anything else there is no plan b yeah somehow realize like going to the nba it's
31:49like winning the lottery you just realized that yeah just now that fearless attitude is everything
31:55i know that's the thing though but that's the reality of being prepared for other options
31:59yeah and that's something you're going to have to choose in your life like are you going to be okay
32:04being successful without the basketball in your hand thinking about like having to know like
32:11what's next what am i doing it's definitely a scary feeling because what if they say oh you finally
32:16denied or maybe i still could i might get a call for ncaa i always tell everyone like
32:23try five at least five times because you're gonna get one you're gonna get rejected sometimes but if you
32:29go to at least five things you're gonna book one wow have more than one basket right i mean your
32:35pops master p that's a real life mobile he played basketball but he didn't become successful from
32:40it he used those tools from basketball and i think over like over the time hold on a second hold
32:48on a
32:49second you you said you met him okay how was he when he was very flirtatious yeah yep that's probably
32:56you know you know you're all tourists runs in the blood i'm gonna say bye to everybody rolling
33:02out yeah i just came in a second she just came and you guys happen to be here she just
33:06came to drop
33:07some gems here i'll walk you out all right nice meeting you yes new bestie new bestie alert yes
33:12she's got the spirit she do for real and that's the side people don't get to see in your career
33:17little angel over here just coming through all right nice meeting wow it's not every day that's
33:27crazy bro carmen electrical watch you get tatted up and speak positivity i just met her five minutes ago
33:34so it's like her coming in here being able to relate it's crazy well because success is the same story
33:40people always see the success and i think you getting this tattoo right now and being here it
33:46wasn't by accident okay ncaa hasn't gotten back what's the plan if that don't come because the
33:52reality is looking like you may need plan b c and d now it's time to like really wake up
33:58and be like
33:59what are the other things that i'm good at
34:26okay this is so romantic here we are i didn't know you had a little yamashiro day up your sleeve
34:32oh it's a full moon tonight uh-oh keep your voodoo away from me i'm not no no voodoo for
34:38me but you
34:38know what i used to do when i was younger the ouija board have you ever done a read that's
34:42voodoo
34:42darling that's like straight demon talk but honestly it was a blast and you know what it worked
34:48worked what like it was moving and i wasn't touched yet you opened the portal for them agreed it
34:55was all my fault a hundred percent i don't drink so here you go well maybe we should do a
34:59voodoo thing
34:59together i'm trying i'm good i just found god in my life so wait really that way i feel like
35:05a lot
35:05of people have this like preconceived narrative like you back in high school and all the things
35:10that i learned about you before i even met you was like how crazy of a person you were and
35:14how rowdy
35:15and then i met you and i was like are we sure we're talking about the same dylan chill guy
35:20right
35:20so it just doesn't make sense i'm like i love the the 180 flip yeah you know just like a
35:25dumb
35:25kid and i like to party and yeah didn't really know and there's nothing when to stop no there's
35:30nothing wrong with it until there is though right now i think like i heard enough people to just kind
35:35of take a look at myself and reflect a little bit and be like you know i i gotta make
35:39some changes so
35:41i don't like choose to be sober i think i kind of have to be yeah you know there's definitely
35:48times
35:48where i wish i can just have a drink and let loose is it genetic or like hereditary yeah i
35:54think so
35:54my dad liked to party and yeah i think we've kind of definitely in the bloodline for sure yeah thank
36:00you oh amazing thank you very much thank you you're welcome but yeah i'm just like trying to stay away
36:08from you know problems honestly like you know just my group yeah yeah i don't pay attention to like
36:15what's being said well i don't know like what your side is and i don't know i mean it's definitely
36:20been a roller coaster for sure so there's this girl that you had an issue with in high school
36:25familiar unfortunately i know you're familiar with her work a little bit i wouldn't call it work but um
36:33i just heard that she was upset about me and you and which i don't even like really entirely know
36:38what
36:39that even is because we've just kind of been hanging out and kind of just messing around like having fun
36:44and i don't even know what like their perspective is on even us going to grab coffee right it's like
36:51god forbid we can't have a fun making a tick tock like i think that you know so i don't
36:55know if
36:55there's a conversation you're having that i don't know about i think that's probably something i'd like
37:00to be on the same page with you on it's just kind of like what is it you know just
37:05curious to know
37:05like where you stand with yeah with it i mean i like being around you and i don't want that
37:13to stop
37:14um i mean same here i like hanging out with you and just like uh taking it a day at
37:21a time um
37:23and if anything does come up i hope you would communicate it with me always same for you always
37:27i think i've done a pretty good job at doing that so far you've done more than a great job
37:31i think you
37:32could be a little better but agreed you know and i told you i'm working on it it's just but
37:36you
37:36know i'll go a stretch of like not talking to you or knowing what's up with you and then right
37:42you
37:42like resurface again and it's come off it's just like so casual that it's not and i don't want to
37:46really be like bearing over you or having to worry about things like that so yeah i do like and
37:51i don't
37:51want that i want you to know like i want you to trust me i mean i do i really
37:57do it's a big word
37:58and i i know i know i want you to like be able to call me stop it i'll answer
38:04really just check
38:05our call log i think there's a few missed calls if i'm being honest okay maybe there's one or two
38:10there's a few more than two but yeah yeah three one or two hundred being with suede is you're not
38:18with
38:18suede she's got 16 phones and doesn't answer any of them so like i just kind of like wrapped my
38:24head
38:24around the fact that like i was more like on her terms of like when she feels like it and
38:28for the
38:29amount of times that she felt like it i think that we definitely do live two completely different lives
38:35i'm not like a social media guy i'm not like i've never really been with somebody that's like
38:40in the spotlight like that so i don't want to call it scared cowboys don't get scared but yeah i
38:46guess
38:46like i don't know part of me was like questioning like okay well why me you know it's just really
38:51like
38:51oddly different for you to kind of like talk to a guy like me so because you're a handsome guy
38:56you're
38:56young thank you hot fun all of it i want you i care about you i'm just scared that's all
39:07i never thought
39:08that i would really care for you the way that i do and it makes me really nervous
39:27so i want to know your favorite meal favorite meal yeah just so i know in case you're really really
39:39mad at me steak you're gonna cook me a steak maybe you know what all right that says a lot
39:45i feel like that's it you're not vegetarian making your meat you're not gonna throw up on it now are
39:49you
39:52i want you to know that i'm not hiding anything you know try my best to answer the phone
39:58and text back it all sounds nice way it really does but i believe in action and being about it
40:15you got me spiraling in what way in every possible way i'm just not a super communicative person
40:23and i'm not used to keeping really people in the loop with my life i know i'm not even like
40:28asking
40:28like to be in the loop like i'm just kind of like a bit thrown off with like the hanging
40:34out i do enjoy
40:35hanging out with you but then we'll go like this stretch of like not even talking for like another
40:40three or four days and so i just want to be on the same page yeah because you're only gonna
40:45hurt me
40:46because you weren't what you're telling me right now that's it like i want to believe you and i'm
40:52trying to believe you and i don't want to be left hanging and i wouldn't do that to you either
40:57so
40:57glad you're here i think i should try harder than i will i think you should do whatever your pretty
41:03little heart desires that's what i think you should do and if it's not here and it's elsewhere i think
41:09you
41:10should go ahead and do that because i'm not gonna hold on to something that isn't there
41:25i know you don't want to be here i can feel it it makes me sound
41:33i do want to be here you just kind of throw me in for some curveballs unexpectedly and
41:37curveballs what curveballs and i think that with you it's just like kind of half-assed a little bit
41:41it's not that i don't want to be here i just want to know it's like legit i want to
41:44know it's real
41:44and you're about it so it all sounds nice when you tell me but you know that's not what i'm
41:49getting
41:52how am i supposed to feel okay well you seem like you have a chip on your shoulder i hope
41:56you have a
41:57great night thank you for dinner
42:01this is so stupid i'm not doing that because i'm so complacent
42:07when we're naked kissing on my skin
42:14everywhere he's been
42:15with the chuck please
42:15the way you see me
42:18tragic
42:20really
42:21i never loved what's mine
42:23Story of my life
42:38It's so first green in my wet dreams
42:44I know he's not an option now
42:46But it's something that I think about
42:49I'd live in his bed
42:53But I'm stuck here instead
43:47I'm stuck here instead
43:49I'm stuck here instead
44:20I'm stuck here instead
44:21I'm stuck here instead
44:25I'm stuck here instead
44:27I'm stuck here instead
44:31I'm stuck here instead
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