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00:01:39Thank you, sir.
00:02:05If it's all right for the first part of my statement, I'd like to address the defendant directly.
00:02:10Go right ahead.
00:02:14The first weekend in September, my parents were out of town, and my little brothers
00:02:18were at their grandparents'.
00:02:21I wanted to host a party like I thought a popular cheerleader should.
00:02:30My boyfriend was there.
00:02:33Your friend, Justin.
00:02:37We had been drinking.
00:02:43We decided to go up to my room.
00:02:49I remember making out with him.
00:02:57And then I...
00:03:02And then I started to fall asleep or pass out.
00:03:12I just...
00:03:13I remember thinking that I just needed to close my eyes for a few minutes.
00:03:25And then he...
00:03:29And then he walked out of the room, and then I remember waking up to you pulling off my underwear.
00:03:39I remember...
00:03:40I remember feeling you pushed yourself inside of me.
00:03:45I may not remember all of the details, but I will never forget the sheer terror of feeling your weight
00:03:52on top of me.
00:03:56Of not being able to breathe.
00:04:05When I opened my eyes, I was alone in the hot tub with him.
00:04:09And there was...
00:04:12The way he looked at me, there was something in his eyes.
00:04:17And I was afraid.
00:04:19I wanted to slow down, but he told me not to be a tease.
00:04:23And he pushed me down on the couch and said he was glad I had waited for him.
00:04:29And then he pulled off my jeans and then my underwear.
00:04:33And he said that if I showed my body better, people wouldn't think I was a lesbian.
00:04:38He used a different word.
00:04:40And then he grabbed me on the inside of my thigh.
00:04:44At that moment, we were left alone, and he picked me up.
00:04:48He just picked me up and carried me behind the fence.
00:04:53And he lay down on top of me and started to take my pants off.
00:04:56I fought and I fought.
00:04:58But he was 18.
00:05:01And I was 12.
00:05:03I found out later this guard had a reputation.
00:05:05When he got up from my bed and left, my roommate rolled over and told me it happened to most
00:05:11of the girls.
00:05:12I was a second-year associate.
00:05:14He invited me to a strategy meeting in his hotel room.
00:05:18He answered the door in his bathrobe.
00:05:21I spent the evening insisting we work on the case.
00:05:24At the end of that year, I was let go.
00:05:26I had been babysitting for this family for, I guess, two years.
00:05:32He was my youth pastor.
00:05:33My second cousin.
00:05:34Your Honor, when we leave this courtroom, Bryce Walker gets to leave convinced that he chose the wrong girl to
00:05:43have sex with.
00:05:44Because I get to leave constantly looking over my shoulder for monsters dressed up as the popular kid.
00:05:52Constantly on edge and assuming the worst in every boy.
00:05:56The sentence you decide today can tell Bryce Walker what he did was wrong.
00:06:00It can say that to every boy, every man who behaves like he does.
00:06:07And it can say to victims like me that our story matters.
00:06:21Prosecution has put forth a sentencing recommendation.
00:06:25Does the defense have anything to contribute?
00:06:28Your Honor, this is a terribly unfortunate event.
00:06:33And two young lives have been changed forever.
00:06:36Bryce has lost all his scholarship offers.
00:06:39The school district has canceled what might well have been a championship season.
00:06:44There is regret on all sides.
00:06:46We urge the court to let these two young people start rebuilding and return to their lives.
00:06:52This is a tragedy all around.
00:06:55As a judge, it's my role to look at both sides.
00:06:58California law requires every judge to consider rehabilitation and probation for first-time offenders.
00:07:05I'd like to see these two young people look hard at their lives and their choices.
00:07:10But I don't want to do any further damage.
00:07:13Mr. Walker.
00:07:17I expect you to walk the straight and narrow, young man.
00:07:20I'm sentencing you to three months probation.
00:07:22So ordered.
00:07:23Your Honor, three months probation?
00:07:26That's all for you.
00:07:29I'm angry.
00:07:30I'm sad.
00:07:32And I still have no idea how what happened, happened.
00:07:36Talk to me about the sex doll that was found in Miss Davis' home.
00:07:41Or the dead rat that was inside Mr. Dempsey's locker.
00:07:45The vandalism to Mr. Badia's car.
00:07:48This is bullshit.
00:07:50What about the shooting range target you sent to my son?
00:07:53I didn't do any of that.
00:07:54We have several kids who say he intimidated witnesses.
00:07:57Engaged in felony vandalism.
00:07:59Everyone's saying all kinds of shit, but it's not true.
00:08:02Where's the gun?
00:08:05I never touched a gun in my life.
00:08:08Your Honor, Bryce Walker was released on bail within hours of his arrest.
00:08:13And Justin has been stranded in juvenile detention for almost a month.
00:08:16I'm aware of the timeline.
00:08:18The related case is complete as of today.
00:08:21Justin's plea is in.
00:08:22The paperwork is done.
00:08:24Understood, Counselor.
00:08:25But as a minor, he has to be released into custody.
00:08:28We have been searching for Amber Foley for weeks, Your Honor.
00:08:31She's nowhere to be found.
00:08:32Keep looking.
00:08:33Until then, he's remanded.
00:08:35Billiff.
00:08:41Hang on, Justin.
00:08:42We're working on it.
00:08:44I know.
00:08:45We're still learning all the ways we've been changed.
00:08:48All the things we've lost.
00:08:52I'm so fucking sorry.
00:08:57It's insane.
00:09:02But somehow I still feel stronger.
00:09:13Wait, where's Justin?
00:09:15They'll only release him to a guardian.
00:09:17And the judge won't move on it.
00:09:19We filed emergency papers, but it's a 24-hour minimum.
00:09:22I'll take the petition to Purdy.
00:09:24He owes us.
00:09:25Do you want to start on the order for the school?
00:09:27Yeah.
00:09:28We're asking for a court order to force the school to protect you.
00:09:33To keep him away from you.
00:09:36Mom, is your firm?
00:09:39I mean, are they cool with this?
00:09:40I've left the firm.
00:09:41To work with Dennis.
00:09:43On cases like this.
00:09:45Oh, that's...
00:09:48That's cool.
00:09:54And we're just starting to figure out how to go on with our lives.
00:10:08Coach said that we could leave our lockers till the end of the year.
00:10:10I'm transferring to Hillcrest.
00:10:13Hillcrest?
00:10:15You got the grades for that?
00:10:16Not exactly.
00:10:18Well, private schools need fields too, I guess.
00:10:23Yeah.
00:10:24And uniforms and all that shit.
00:10:29Speaking of which...
00:10:32Not all of my credit's transferred, so I'll be going in as a junior.
00:10:36Which means I'll see you on the field this fall.
00:10:39They're letting you play football.
00:10:40That's right.
00:10:42See you at the dance.
00:10:44Wait.
00:10:47So...
00:10:48You and Chloe?
00:10:50Yeah.
00:10:51Loyalty.
00:10:53It's a thing, huh?
00:10:57Take care of yourself, Zachy.
00:11:01I say go on and not move on.
00:11:03Because in some ways,
00:11:05we'll never completely move on from what happened.
00:11:08Your meeting with the district psychologist went quite well.
00:11:11And the reports from your diversion program were excellent.
00:11:14It was a good program.
00:11:15Tell me why.
00:11:18Well, at first it was very difficult.
00:11:20You know, the long hikes and the camping.
00:11:23But after a few days,
00:11:25with everything else stripped away,
00:11:27you're just left to your thoughts and...
00:11:30You learn things.
00:11:32And what did you learn?
00:11:33That I can choose how I respond to things.
00:11:36That even if I am feeling angry or lonely or whatever,
00:11:39that I'm in control of my own actions.
00:11:41I can't control what other people do,
00:11:44but I can control my response.
00:11:46And do you think you're ready to come back now?
00:11:48Do you think things will be different this time?
00:11:51Yeah, I think so.
00:11:53I'm ready.
00:11:58Principal Bolin is concerned that we keep a very close eye on you.
00:12:03I understand.
00:12:05And your return won't be easy.
00:12:09Oh, I know.
00:12:17Hey.
00:12:19Oh, hi!
00:12:21Hi!
00:12:22Hey!
00:12:23You're back!
00:12:24I am!
00:12:25Wow!
00:12:26You look good!
00:12:27Thanks!
00:12:27Yeah, apparently natural sunlight and physical exercise
00:12:30are, like, good for us.
00:12:31Or something.
00:12:32Something?
00:12:32Something.
00:12:33Look, the good news is that I'm back in time
00:12:35for the spring fling,
00:12:36and I was determined to make it back in time to take you.
00:12:40Oh!
00:12:41I mean, or we could just blow it off.
00:12:43We could do something else totally.
00:12:44Yeah, no, I mean, um, I'm going to the dance, uh, with Eric.
00:12:51Okay.
00:12:51Oh.
00:12:53Cool.
00:12:53Yeah.
00:12:54We're kind of dating.
00:12:55Just for, like, a few weeks now.
00:12:57Yeah, cool.
00:12:58You know, he's...
00:12:59Eric's a good guy, so...
00:13:00Yeah.
00:13:02That's cool.
00:13:03Shoot.
00:13:04I gotta run.
00:13:04Yeah, me too.
00:13:06I'm really glad you're back.
00:13:08Thanks.
00:13:09Glad to be back.
00:13:19And I don't say get back to normal.
00:13:22Because life will never be normal again.
00:13:26Before we start, I...
00:13:29am distrustful of religion.
00:13:32Okay.
00:13:33The service can be whatever you want it to be.
00:13:36It's just, my mother always told us we should abide.
00:13:40And have faith.
00:13:41Accept what's coming to us.
00:13:43And I think that teaches people to be passive.
00:13:46I think abiding and acceptance is bullshit.
00:13:50Excuse my language.
00:13:51I don't disagree.
00:13:54So, tell me, why choose a church for Hannah's service?
00:14:00We, uh...
00:14:01We, uh...
00:14:02We both come from religious families, and...
00:14:05It's something we drifted from a bit, and thought maybe it was...
00:14:09Something Hannah, perhaps, should have had in her life.
00:14:12We were ashamed.
00:14:17We were... ashamed to have a funeral.
00:14:21Or a service.
00:14:23But then...
00:14:24After everything that happened, if there is a God, I want him to see that...
00:14:31My little girl...
00:14:33deserves his care.
00:14:36He will.
00:14:39He'll see that.
00:14:40A few of the other places we called.
00:14:45Given the circumstances of Hannah's death...
00:14:51Let me assure you...
00:14:54There's no judgment from me.
00:14:56Not regarding Hannah's decision...
00:15:00Or the circumstances that led her there.
00:15:03And I hope...
00:15:05One day...
00:15:06You'll release yourselves from...
00:15:09Any shame...
00:15:10You might still be feeling, as well.
00:15:24Life is divided into Hannah...
00:15:26And after Hannah.
00:15:29I don't really have anything to compare it to.
00:15:30I've lived here all my life.
00:15:34It's like asking Han Solo how is space.
00:15:38Wow.
00:15:39You're an actual nerd, aren't you?
00:15:42I admire that.
00:15:43There's courage in being a nerd.
00:15:50Memories are sometimes a relief.
00:16:01And sometimes they're tortured.
00:16:03I was right.
00:16:05You're the most courageous nerd I ever knew.
00:16:10You asked me to speak.
00:16:13At your service.
00:16:16Are you gonna do it?
00:16:19I don't know what to say.
00:16:23Or...
00:16:25If I can trust myself not to be angry.
00:16:28So...
00:16:28Be angry.
00:16:37What if I can say what I really need to say?
00:16:43I think you can.
00:16:44I think you can.
00:16:47But we hold on to the memories.
00:16:54Because they're what we have left.
00:17:02You're doing great this time.
00:17:10You can look now.
00:17:11No more common.
00:17:12No.
00:17:22And we have an urge to remember.
00:17:24To commemorate another time.
00:17:27To hold on to this as long as we can.
00:17:31The thing I'm most afraid of...
00:17:36Is forgetting you.
00:17:40Then do.
00:17:43The thing I'm most afraid of...
00:17:45Is I'll never be able to let you go.
00:17:50Do you remember the winter dance?
00:17:52Not the slow dance, but...
00:17:54That song where we jumped around like idiots...
00:17:57And looked like foals.
00:17:59Like absolute dorks.
00:18:03Yeah.
00:18:06I'm fine.
00:18:07I'm fine.
00:18:08No reason.
00:18:10I just wanted you to think about it right now.
00:18:12Isn't it lovely?
00:18:14All alone.
00:18:15Heart made of glass.
00:18:17My mind of stone.
00:18:20Tell me to be...
00:18:22Skin upon.
00:18:24Hello.
00:18:26Welcome home.
00:18:29But today...
00:18:32We begin to let go.
00:18:58We're here to say goodbye...
00:19:01To Hannah.
00:19:04One act...
00:19:06Does not define a life.
00:19:09We celebrate the richness of her life.
00:19:12Even as the tragic circumstances of her death...
00:19:15Cannot be forgotten.
00:19:19It does my heart good to see...
00:19:21So many of Hannah's friends here today.
00:19:25Hannah had the biggest heart.
00:19:27Which she so generously shared with all of us.
00:19:31So, please be kind to each other.
00:19:37She dreamed of going to New York to become a writer.
00:19:42I'm not sure when that dream...
00:19:45Began to feel impossible to her.
00:19:51Hannah...
00:19:51Was my dream.
00:19:55And now I get to dream...
00:19:58For Hannah...
00:19:59As well as for myself.
00:20:01And so do all of you.
00:20:04So please...
00:20:07Dream...
00:20:08Your dreams.
00:20:09And dream them for Hannah.
00:20:12And don't let anyone...
00:20:13Take them away from you.
00:20:16Don't ever let them go.
00:20:23Hannah Baker came into my life at the end of one summer...
00:20:26Like a...
00:20:27Star that fell to earth.
00:20:29Like nothing I had seen.
00:20:33Like no one I'd ever met.
00:20:36She was funny.
00:20:38And smart.
00:20:41And moody.
00:20:43And maddening.
00:20:45And beautiful.
00:21:10I loved her.
00:21:14I loved her so much.
00:21:16I loved her so much.
00:21:17I loved her so much.
00:21:19And I asked her every day why she did what she did.
00:21:24But I get no answers.
00:21:30She took those with her when she went.
00:21:33Leaving me.
00:21:34All of us.
00:21:36Angry.
00:21:39Empty.
00:21:40And confused.
00:21:44And I know that hurt won't ever go away.
00:21:49But there will come a day when I don't feel it every minute.
00:21:52And the anger won't be so hot.
00:21:54And the other feelings will fade.
00:21:59And I'll be left with only love.
00:22:06A good friend once said to me.
00:22:09I can love you and still let you go.
00:22:16So, Hannah.
00:22:21I love you.
00:22:24And I let you go.
00:22:29I'm gonna miss you.
00:22:34And I hope that wherever you go next,
00:22:38I hope you know that I love you.
00:22:38You feel peace.
00:22:41You feel safe.
00:22:44In a way that you never did here.
00:22:56Wherever you go next,
00:22:59I hope you know that I love you.
00:23:00Okay.
00:23:17Say hi.
00:23:27I hope you did.
00:23:30After all,
00:24:01Is everything okay?
00:24:05Yeah. No, I just, uh, I was just taking a minute.
00:24:10Of course. I'll leave you to it.
00:24:14Can I ask you?
00:24:20Do you believe in the immortal soul?
00:24:23I do.
00:24:25And do you think Hannah's going to hell?
00:24:28Because she killed herself?
00:24:35I don't.
00:24:36I think the God I believe in, a just God, would have mercy on a soul like hers.
00:24:46And if God forgives her, we should.
00:24:51I believe we should follow his example, sure, but it's not always easy.
00:25:01And do you think...
00:25:05Does God forgive us?
00:25:08The people who let her down?
00:25:11I think he does.
00:25:17Clay, you don't have to believe in the immortal soul to believe that people live on with us.
00:25:25Wait, what do you mean?
00:25:28Just that we've lost Hannah, but not the things she gave us.
00:25:36Compassion.
00:25:37Understand it.
00:25:39Love.
00:25:42Those don't go away.
00:26:00How do we take care of ourselves and look after each other?
00:26:07And celebrate Hannah's life and let it remind us to hold on to each other.
00:26:13And to the precious time we have.
00:26:20Do you remember when we first met you?
00:26:23At that table over there?
00:26:25You thought we were crazy.
00:26:28No.
00:26:28I was just, like, terrified and amazed.
00:26:32I mean, you guys were fearless.
00:26:35I don't remember being fearless.
00:26:43This is, um, this is really inappropriate at a wake, especially given the whole history,
00:26:49but I've been trying for, like, two weeks now to get up the nerve to ask you if you would
00:26:57want to go to the Spring Fling
00:26:59as, like, people who date, because I think that we are now, but I'm not really sure.
00:27:09I think we are.
00:27:11Yeah?
00:27:12I mean, I'm not sure how ready I am to be a person who dates, but, I mean, we are.
00:27:20So, yes.
00:27:22Yeah.
00:27:23Oh, God.
00:27:24Is it okay that I asked you out at Hannah's table?
00:27:26Oh, it's all of our table.
00:27:29And I think she'd be okay with it.
00:27:31She'd probably make you interpret some weird painting.
00:27:35Yeah, who picks the paintings?
00:27:38Yo, dude!
00:27:40Oh, my God!
00:27:42You're crushing me!
00:27:45Yeah, you're, like, down to nothing.
00:27:46We've got to get you on a program.
00:27:48Okay, sure.
00:27:49How the fuck did Bryce only get three months and you got six?
00:27:53Aren't you pissed?
00:27:55I guess I just wasn't surprised.
00:27:58Actually, I'm going to take a gap year.
00:27:59I'm going to Europe, which I know sounds like a cliche, but, honestly, Asia is the cliche.
00:28:04I mean, I could be going to Goa, but I'm not.
00:28:06I'm old school.
00:28:08I've actually been thinking about doing some traveling myself.
00:28:11Oh, my God, you should.
00:28:13You so should.
00:28:14It's kind of annoying how smart she is.
00:28:16I don't like it when people are smarter than me.
00:28:18But it's fine, because she's really cute.
00:28:21So nice that everyone came.
00:28:26Maybe I should, uh, leave the two of you alone to catch up.
00:28:32Maybe you have some things to talk about?
00:28:35Yes.
00:28:36Yeah.
00:28:37All right.
00:28:38Okay.
00:28:47What?
00:28:48What things?
00:28:52So, um, I think my mom explained to you how she got you released into emergency custody.
00:28:59Yeah, she explained it.
00:29:01The thing is, that's only temporary.
00:29:04And because you're not 18 for almost a year, once that expires, you become a ward of the state.
00:29:09Yeah, the social worker told me about that.
00:29:12Okay, yeah.
00:29:13And there's only, like, two group homes in this county to be eligible for, and you couldn't finish school at
00:29:18Liberty and stuff.
00:29:20And my parents, I mean, me and my parents,
00:29:28wanted to see if you might want them to adopt you.
00:29:35Wait, what?
00:29:38Like, adopt you.
00:29:40Into our family.
00:29:42You mean, like, I'd be your brother?
00:29:44Well, I'm not familiar with all the lingo, but...
00:29:48Wait, why are you asking me and not them?
00:29:52Because it was their idea, to be honest.
00:29:55And at first, I thought it sounded, um, idiotic.
00:30:02And they left it up to me, seeing as I was the person who brought you into life in the
00:30:06first place.
00:30:09And maybe it's a good idea.
00:30:12So.
00:30:18How are you?
00:30:20You're crying.
00:30:23You know I'm, like, really fucked up, right?
00:30:28Well, A, yes.
00:30:31But you're clean.
00:30:32I'm going to meetings.
00:30:34And B, I'm also fucked up in certain ways.
00:30:39So.
00:30:44Okay, yeah.
00:30:49I'd like to be adopted, yeah.
00:30:51Okay.
00:30:54Go.
00:31:10Everything affects everything.
00:31:14Everyone affects everyone.
00:31:17Okay.
00:31:18I'm going to put it in my locker room.
00:31:23I'm going to fight for that.
00:31:28Fucking Tyler Down is back.
00:31:31So?
00:31:32So?
00:31:33I'm going to break his head open.
00:31:35Yeah, that's a great idea at this particular time.
00:31:38The field?
00:31:39The thing with Marcus?
00:31:41He cost us our season.
00:31:42We need to do something.
00:31:43We are not going to do a goddamn thing.
00:31:46I'm on probation.
00:31:48Right, I know.
00:31:48I got you.
00:31:49I'll take care of it.
00:31:52Clearly your father didn't beat you hard enough because you're still a fucking idiot.
00:31:56The last time you tried to help, you almost fucked up my whole plea deal.
00:31:59Yeah, well, none of it came back to you.
00:32:01No one was going to believe that I didn't know about all the shit that you did.
00:32:04I had to give you my goddamn lawyer.
00:32:06I would have taken the fall if I had to.
00:32:08I kept you clean.
00:32:10What the fuck did you think would happen if you killed Clay Jensen in my car?
00:32:13I knew those kids could fuck everything up for us, and they did.
00:32:17Well, you helped.
00:32:21I, uh, tell me what you want me to do.
00:32:25Okay?
00:32:25I'll make it right.
00:32:26I want you to leave it alone.
00:32:30And leave me alone.
00:32:32We're done.
00:33:00We're done.
00:33:03You know, you know, you guys and Jocks were not happy about the field and the season.
00:33:07Yeah.
00:33:08I'll be careful.
00:33:08Good.
00:33:09You know...
00:33:12about everything.
00:33:13Yeah.
00:33:14No, me too.
00:33:15Yeah.
00:33:16Got a little fucked up.
00:33:18Yeah, totally.
00:33:20Hey.
00:33:22You know, being away, it was really good.
00:33:27And I realized a lot of shit, so, you know.
00:33:30It's good, man.
00:33:32so we're all right yeah for sure cool hey maybe we could like catch another show sometime
00:33:41i don't know man
00:33:45i don't think so but it's great to see that you're back and doing so well
00:33:53yeah thanks man
00:33:56i mean how are you even not crazy i just it's insane but it's like not a surprise i guess
00:34:03and i just feel this peace that it's over so it's over no trial no more legal stuff done done
00:34:13i'm good
00:34:31you're gonna go to this dance
00:34:35what the spring fling thing why in the world would i go to that i don't know it might be
00:34:42fun
00:34:43i don't go to dances you can go
00:34:46no i just thought that it'd be my first thing back and i could show people that i'm not like
00:34:57hiding or whatever
00:35:03forget it
00:35:08fuck fine we'll go
00:35:14i just thought since i hadn't heard from you after i told you about lucas yeah i left you three
00:35:20messages yeah and they didn't sound like you really wanted me to call back okay okay seriously
00:35:27i think you're used to people chasing you and you're used to getting away
00:35:35maybe
00:35:37well you're not getting away
00:35:48i should be on my way
00:35:52thank you for coming
00:35:53thank you
00:35:54for
00:35:56for having us
00:35:58i saw the
00:35:59the store's release
00:36:01i'm moving to new york
00:36:03it was always hannah's dream
00:36:05she never made it so
00:36:07i'll get there for her
00:36:10i
00:36:14i wasn't sure
00:36:16if i should share this with you but after hearing what you said i think
00:36:21i think it's all right
00:36:31i found it on one of the old computers when i was cleaning up the store
00:36:38hannah wrote it
00:36:52hannah wrote it
00:36:57at least once possibly
00:37:00twice
00:37:00did she call you
00:37:02helmet
00:37:06yeah she did
00:37:08yeah she did
00:37:1211 reasons
00:37:15she came up
00:37:16she came up
00:37:16too short
00:37:18but she left so many out you know that don't you no matter how many reasons there might be
00:37:26why there are always more why not
00:37:30i do
00:37:40i wish i knew you when she was alive
00:37:48i wish you'd know me then too
00:37:52well
00:37:55bye
00:37:58bye
00:37:59bye
00:38:17why the fuck did you come back
00:38:22i finished my program
00:38:24i finished my program
00:38:25yeah you fucked up a lot of shit
00:38:31i'm sorry about everything
00:38:34if i hurt you in any way
00:38:35they cancelled the fucking season
00:38:38i was acting out of a lot of anger and confusion
00:38:41yeah
00:38:41and i'm going to do better
00:38:43okay and i i hope that we can learn to talk to each other
00:38:48god
00:38:49you Texas
00:38:50you ruined my fucking life
00:38:51great
00:38:52fuck
00:38:52kill it
00:38:53kill it
00:38:55kill it
00:38:58he's upside
00:39:00hold it
00:39:01hold him
00:39:02look at him
00:39:04I'm upside
00:39:04I'm upside
00:39:08ho
00:39:09Oh, my God.
00:39:16Oh, my God.
00:39:45we can get better we can do better but we still live in a world that is out to break
00:39:51us any way
00:39:52it can yo so how's the car it's getting pretty close i've been working on it every hour i'm not
00:39:59in school and someone i should be in school that was a beautiful car hey why don't we go to
00:40:04your
00:40:04place all right i think your place is closer i'm in the opposite direction
00:40:12you don't want me to meet your family no it's not that it's just i just need some time all
00:40:17right
00:40:18i'll see you tomorrow uh you know i got some bullshit i gotta take care of no it's a bullshit
00:40:24like a dance yeah yeah alex and jess are going it's like a thing yeah you see that's bullshit
00:40:30and i didn't want to subject you to it so i appreciate that you come by after it yes
00:40:40yeah my mom got me some game that's about i think being a flower or some shit i'm serious
00:40:46i talked my dad into driving since he won't let me drive for real yet excellent use of guilt sir
00:40:52yeah i thought so i beat off three times this morning i don't want to know that why would
00:40:59you tell me that because i thought you'd be happy for me
00:41:04actually i'm very happy for you that's uh impressive thank you
00:41:11i'm worried about dancing with jess like i i don't want to go to the dance and just sit there
00:41:17because
00:41:17that's stupid and it doesn't get me closer to kissing her so i want to dance with her but i
00:41:23think
00:41:23i'll just fall over no just um lean on her what like a middle school slow dance that's so dumb
00:41:31no just
00:41:31you know like let her help make it seem smooth okay yeah that makes sense you know what i am
00:41:39sick of
00:41:39your poor me attitude this one's easy come on get up this is embarrassing this is embarrassing
00:41:48yeah yeah okay you've done worse come on put the controller down let's go come on
00:41:57school you my mom made me chew some dance don't don't mind don't even worry about that so good hand
00:42:06on her waist left hand on her hip she'll hold it and just lean in there okay just try step
00:42:17there you
00:42:18go all the way in there yeah see i mean the song will have to be pretty slow shouldn't it
00:42:29so it turns out the sushi place doesn't in fact deliver so my dad and i are gonna pick it
00:42:33up
00:42:33you wanna come no i'm i'm good here these are kind of addictive yeah right
00:42:44you okay you just seem weird i think maybe
00:42:53i'm happy oh cool
00:43:08is it really this fun when you're on my mind
00:43:18is it really this cool to be in your life
00:43:28there's one thing i'll do
00:43:33if it ever goes wrong
00:43:38i'll write you into all of my songs
00:43:50and if suddenly i die
00:43:56i hope they will say
00:44:01that he was obsessed and it was okay
00:44:10because we're going downtown
00:44:25and we feel like running around
00:44:33and i'm going crazy
00:44:40crazy for you
00:44:44well how was the first day back
00:44:48good it was good it was um like i had to adjust everything but it was great
00:44:53yeah there's a new guidance counselor and she's totally smart so
00:44:58i think it's gonna work mom that's great oh that's so great tyler
00:45:07we are so proud of you
00:45:18uh
00:45:20uh
00:45:24uh
00:45:26uh
00:45:28uh
00:45:28uh
00:45:31uh
00:45:32uh
00:45:33uh
00:45:33uh
00:45:35uh
00:45:46uh
00:46:02uh
00:46:03uh
00:46:10uh
00:46:14uh
00:46:15uh
00:46:16uh
00:46:16uh
00:46:19uh
00:46:28uh
00:46:29uh
00:46:30uh
00:46:31uh
00:46:31uh
00:46:32uh
00:46:32uh
00:46:34uh
00:46:35uh
00:46:36uh
00:46:46so how do we survive
00:46:48how do we bring light to a world that seems only dark
00:46:53this is the first dance i haven't dj'd in two years
00:46:57so now you get to dance dude people become djs so they don't have to dance
00:47:02i thought it was because you had great taste in music that's just my gift to the world
00:47:16uh
00:47:17um
00:47:18uh
00:47:18uh
00:47:28uh
00:47:34uh
00:47:35uh
00:47:35uh
00:47:50Good evening.
00:47:53Good evening.
00:47:55Did you do this?
00:47:57I got him a guest pass.
00:47:58Apparently you forgot to.
00:48:03I didn't go to dances when I was in school.
00:48:06Because I always felt so awkward dancing with girls.
00:48:08So it may seem like high school bullshit to you.
00:48:10But to me, it's fine me to be able to dance with my boyfriend.
00:48:14If he will.
00:48:16Of course I will.
00:48:17After bitching about the DJ.
00:48:27Hey.
00:48:29Hey.
00:48:33You guys look good.
00:48:35Thanks.
00:48:35Yeah, I beat Dazzle the King.
00:48:37So.
00:48:39Didn't really.
00:48:40Well, if we have to do this, let's do it.
00:48:43Okay.
00:48:44All right.
00:48:45You ready?
00:48:46Yep.
00:48:47All right.
00:49:01All right.
00:49:04Tamika.
00:49:05Hey, Tamika.
00:49:06Hi.
00:49:07She's my girlfriend.
00:49:08Hi.
00:49:11She's my girlfriend.
00:49:14Oh.
00:49:37I don't want to sit.
00:49:38I want to dance I just need to work up to it you want to drink you know they're not
00:49:43alcohol any chance for sugar
00:49:51You would have been really good for Hannah I'm just saying
00:49:57Yeah, you know if I didn't fuck it up like I fuck up everything else dude you do not want
00:50:03to be having that contest with me
00:50:08I'm really sorry you couldn't talk to me
00:50:12You guys come on we gotta go in for this one okay, but it's full contact stands desperately
00:50:22Come on are you about kicking ass or are you not?
00:50:31I am I totally am
00:50:39Hey, come on
00:50:43Jeff Actons, we're here to get your asses up and come on
00:50:49Guys come on
00:51:09How can we find joy in our lives in this world after him
00:51:15Come a little closer
00:51:20Don't you come a little closer
00:51:27Why don't you come a little closer
00:51:31Something I could take
00:51:42How do we take what hurts most take the darkness and turn it into light
00:51:56I think the answer is we love each other
00:52:06Easy to say but what do we do when it's hard to love
00:52:35You want a real drink?
00:52:40No, thanks. I'm good
00:52:48Brings back memories, huh?
00:52:50I heard you were transferring
00:52:54Yeah, yeah, I'm gonna start over
00:52:58Lucky you
00:53:03I'm gonna miss this
00:53:07All of it
00:53:12You remember freshman year the night before our first day you stayed over
00:53:18We stayed up talking about how we were gonna be kings of this fucking school
00:53:24I remember
00:53:27I'll always remember
00:53:30You know
00:53:31Me too, brother
00:53:35And we have no emotions
00:53:39Justin
00:53:42You okay?
00:53:44He's fine
00:53:45But he's fine
00:53:46I can't touch him
00:53:48Or you, or I go to jail
00:53:50Funny
00:53:51I don't have that problem
00:53:56You're a good kid Clay
00:53:57you need to get laid
00:53:58you're a good kid
00:54:12you alright?
00:54:14yeah
00:54:17I'm gonna go use the bathroom
00:54:19for a quick minute okay
00:54:20I'll be right back
00:54:39and I know I can hold you like he does
00:54:43I don't have those emotions in me
00:54:47and it's true I can love you like he does
00:55:22I can't hold you like he does
00:55:47oh shit
00:55:48I gotta find Clay
00:55:50I am not the only traveler
00:55:57who is not repaid
00:56:00is dead
00:56:03I've been searching for
00:56:06a trail to follow
00:56:09again
00:56:10take me back
00:56:12to the night
00:56:14we met
00:56:18I had all
00:56:20and then most of you
00:56:21summoned
00:56:22now
00:56:22take me back
00:56:27to
00:56:28the night we met
00:56:32I don't know
00:56:34what I'm supposed to do
00:56:36hauling by the gust of you
00:56:38oh
00:56:40take me back
00:56:41to the night
00:56:44we met
00:56:46when the night
00:56:49was full of terror
00:56:54and your eyes
00:56:56and your eyes
00:56:57and your eyes
00:56:57were filled
00:56:58filled with tears
00:57:01when you had not
00:57:04touched me yet
00:57:08oh take me back
00:57:10to the night
00:57:12we met
00:57:16I had all
00:57:18and then most of you
00:57:19summoned
00:57:20now
00:57:20none of you
00:57:23take me back
00:57:25to the night
00:57:27we met
00:57:30I don't know
00:57:32what I'm supposed to do
00:57:34hauling by the gust of you
00:57:36take me back
00:57:39to the night
00:57:42we met
00:57:43take me back
00:58:08what are you doing
00:58:09alone in the dark
00:58:12it's creepy
00:58:16I'm not alone anymore
00:58:17am I
00:58:20what's with these mats
00:58:22they must have had
00:58:23a wrestling meet
00:58:24yesterday
00:58:25wait we have a wrestling team
00:58:26you were a cheerleader
00:58:28not for the wrestling team
00:58:31and I was a shitty cheerleader
00:58:34yeah you were
00:58:37what you said it
00:58:39still
00:58:44you look beautiful
00:58:50sorry
00:58:52for saying I look beautiful
00:58:54yes
00:59:00so you're like
00:59:02living with clay
00:59:03for real now
00:59:04huh
00:59:07yeah
00:59:09they're adopting me
00:59:12which like
00:59:13why anyone would want
00:59:14to do that
00:59:15I don't know
00:59:15I do
00:59:30do you ever think about it
00:59:34doing what Hannah did
00:59:37no
00:59:39I don't
00:59:42everything that happened
00:59:44I
00:59:46never thought
00:59:47that was the way to go
00:59:51I've had some shitty days
00:59:55but
00:59:57I always wanted to live
01:00:00yeah
01:00:02I wanted to be alive
01:00:03I know
01:00:06I know
01:00:19I know
01:00:23I'd go back to you
01:00:25I'll go back to you
01:00:29I'll go back to you
01:00:32I'll go back to you
01:00:35I'll go back to you
01:00:37I'll go back to you
01:00:38Zy
01:00:39you gotta look at this
01:00:40I just got this text
01:00:44Jesus
01:00:45Matt
01:01:00we can't let him do this
01:01:01we have to stop him
01:01:02no
01:01:02we need to get the fuck out of here
01:01:04we need to call the cops
01:01:05agree
01:01:05if we do
01:01:05his life is over
01:01:06his life is over either way
01:01:08it's either going to jail
01:01:09or he's dead
01:01:09Tyler doesn't want to die
01:01:11I know he doesn't
01:01:13where's Tony
01:01:13what's going on guys
01:01:14have you seen Jess
01:01:31Jess
01:01:32don't
01:01:32please
01:01:33what
01:01:34what do you want
01:01:35I don't know what to do
01:01:38really
01:01:39you don't know what to do
01:01:40Jess
01:01:41I'm pregnant
01:01:47the next time
01:01:48someone is in desperate need
01:01:53and they're about to make
01:01:54a terrible mistake
01:01:57what do we do
01:02:03Justin find Jessica
01:02:05get everyone you can
01:02:06lock the doors
01:02:07stay inside
01:02:08and don't call the police
01:02:09I gotta find Tony
01:02:11what the fuck
01:02:16do we look the other way
01:02:19do we just protect ourselves
01:02:21or do we help them
01:02:26do we do whatever we can
01:02:28to save them
01:02:32I think I know
01:02:33I think I know what Hannah
01:02:34would want us to do
01:02:39Tyler
01:02:41Tyler what are you
01:02:43what are you doing
01:02:50get out of here
01:02:51get out of here Clay
01:02:52go home
01:02:53no
01:02:54no
01:02:55I
01:02:56don't
01:02:56don't do this Tyler
01:03:00you need to leave
01:03:01right now
01:03:02Tyler please
01:03:03just
01:03:03just listen to me
01:03:04you
01:03:04you don't want to do this
01:03:06I know you don't
01:03:08you don't fucking know
01:03:09anything about me
01:03:10no
01:03:11no I do
01:03:12I do know
01:03:12because because I hurt you
01:03:14and I'm pissed off
01:03:15and I didn't realize
01:03:16how bad it was for you
01:03:17and I'm sorry that I didn't
01:03:19Clay
01:03:19hey
01:03:20go back inside
01:03:21Jesus Clay
01:03:22go inside
01:03:25get out of my fucking way
01:03:27Tyler
01:03:27please
01:03:28don't do it
01:03:30I have to
01:03:31you don't have to
01:03:34you can turn around
01:03:35you can go home
01:03:40everybody knows already
01:03:41no no no
01:03:43the only people that know
01:03:43are the people who know you
01:03:44and they want to help you
01:03:47bullshit
01:03:49Tyler
01:03:49Tyler
01:03:50they know
01:03:50they know you're hurting
01:03:51and we all are
01:03:52and
01:03:52and
01:03:52and
01:03:53and
01:03:53I don't know what to do
01:03:53about it either
01:03:54okay
01:03:55but I tried hurting other people
01:03:56right
01:03:56I tried hurting you
01:03:57and
01:03:58and
01:03:58it
01:03:58fucking helped man
01:03:59it doesn't do any good
01:04:01listen to me
01:04:01it doesn't
01:04:06Tyler
01:04:06listen to me
01:04:07you don't get out of this alive
01:04:08and I don't want you to die
01:04:13okay
01:04:18I don't want you to die
01:04:26if you think
01:04:27this is the way
01:04:29if you really think
01:04:30this will change
01:04:31a goddamn thing
01:04:32and not just be
01:04:33another fucking tragedy
01:04:34that adults cry about
01:04:35for a week
01:04:36and then forget
01:04:37if you really think
01:04:38this is gonna be different
01:04:44then do what you gotta do
01:04:56come on
01:04:57come on Tyler
01:05:04please
01:05:12there's nothing else I can do
01:05:20there is
01:05:21there is
01:05:21you figure it out
01:05:26okay
01:05:30I swear
01:05:49get out of the car
01:05:53get out of the car
01:05:53let me help you
01:05:55it's okay
01:05:56come on
01:05:57come on
01:05:58come on
01:05:58get me going
01:05:59come on
01:06:03get me going
01:06:07wait
01:06:09are you okay
01:06:12no
01:06:16this is fucked up
01:06:17right
01:06:25yeah
01:06:26yeah
01:06:27give me love
01:06:29give me hope
01:06:32let me do now
01:06:34give me strength
01:06:35give me someone to live for
01:06:51for help finding crisis resources
01:06:54visit 13reasonswhy.info
01:06:56that I need to survive
01:06:59who will be the lifeblood
01:07:02coursing through my veins
01:07:05like a river flowing
01:07:08that will never change
01:07:11I need someone
01:07:15I can't
01:07:18I can triste
01:07:24I can't
01:07:26I can't
01:07:43depend
01:07:45oh
01:07:45Oh
01:07:45oh
01:07:45Give me love, give me hope, give me strength, give me so much to live for.
01:07:56I need it now, I need it now.
01:08:09Someone write me a letter, I need to know that I'm still alive.
01:08:16Someone give me a telephone call, I need to hear a human sound.
01:08:22Someone open up a door and let me hide in this place.
01:08:28I've been placed on for all so long.
01:08:32I don't know if I'm living or dying.
01:08:46Someone say to me, give me love, give me hope, give me strength, give me so much to live for.
01:08:59Give me love, give me hope, give me strength, give me so much to live for.
01:09:12Give me love, give me hope, give me strength.
01:09:26Well done, Ed.
01:09:28Well done.
01:10:01So now, let's just finish.
01:10:02You've got to be a message, I'm not a person in this place.
01:10:02Amen.
01:10:05You're welcome, Ed.
01:10:05So what are going on here?
01:10:06We're going to hear you again.
01:10:06There is a message.
01:10:06We're going to hear you again.
01:10:09We're going to hear you again.
01:10:09You're going to hear you again.
01:10:14That's totally fine.
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