- 1 day ago
Category
📺
TVTranscript
00:28Transcription by CastingWords
00:35This is too fast!
00:36There is a bunch of kids to put in there.
00:37Then he gets a bunch of kids toÑŽÑ‚.
00:49There are so many kids in the garden.
00:52There is a ton of kids that have grown up!
00:55I used to go to the house!
01:02Oh, my God.
01:51I don't know what I have to do.
02:06I don't know.
02:39I wish I could stay, help you set up properly.
02:43No, this is great. All I need is your computer.
02:45Well, the food bank needs you. Saturday Kitchen at the church needs you.
02:50And I need money.
02:52I can lend you money.
02:54How much do you lend, Muriel? What, 200 this week, 200 the next?
02:58You cook for me. You make my meals. I'm saving on microwave dinners and shop lunches.
03:05I could pay you to be my housekeeper.
03:08I can do this.
03:12That is painful to watch.
03:14Why do you go away? I'm trying.
03:18Did you even meet a computer before you went inside?
03:20Inside?
03:22Well, look at you.
03:24Can I use your phone number?
03:27Of course.
03:28And your email address.
03:30We will get you an email address when I come home.
03:33Well, I can do it. I mean, it's free, isn't it?
03:34You just point me in the right direction.
03:36Anna, I know you want to get started, but this is going to be harder than you thought.
03:40Well, it's better I know how hard it is quite quickly.
03:43Let's get the poles in the ground before we put the tent up.
03:47I just want to prove that I can do this.
03:51I want to feel like I'm starting.
03:54You don't need to prove anything.
03:57You don't need to start anything.
03:59It's just details.
04:00We can sort it.
04:01I'm not living off you.
04:03You don't need to do it.
04:03No.
04:06You're living with me.
04:09I'll see you later.
04:12Have fun at work.
04:15Hope you see Marcus from Obstetrics.
04:39We were out of hosts.
04:42I fetched some from Father George.
04:44Pleasant man, but terrible dandruff.
04:47Not good for a priest.
04:49There were many sins they warned us of at the seminary.
04:53Dandruff was a tragic omission.
04:54You cannot wear black and malt head skin.
05:01For your sister.
05:03For her wedding.
05:04It's a bracelet.
05:06I didn't know whether it was ugly or nice.
05:08I bought it on the off chance it was nice.
05:11You bought her a wedding present.
05:12Oh.
05:13Is that the wrong thing to have done?
05:16It is today, isn't it?
05:17Look, I like your sister.
05:18She's fun.
05:20Look, she's having a registry office wedding.
05:22I know.
05:23You were working on the blessing in here.
05:25The blessing's just in the garden.
05:27Small party.
05:28Anyone's welcome?
05:30No.
05:31You should come.
05:31I should not.
05:33I haven't been invited.
05:34No one's been invited.
05:35My sister's terrified of rejection, so she doesn't like to make anything formal.
05:40Please.
05:41Look, this wasn't me trying to...
05:44Of course.
05:45Well, you will be there.
05:463 p.m.
05:47See how the heathens do it.
05:513 p.m.
05:52I'll be free.
05:53How's your mum?
05:55Well, that is a surprise.
05:58Tina's here.
05:59You'll never guess who she's with.
06:01The Lord be with you.
06:03And with your spirit.
06:06Lord, we have sinned against you.
06:07Lord, have mercy.
06:08Lord, have mercy.
06:10Show us your mercy and your love.
06:13And grant us your salvation.
06:16Let us pray.
06:18Thank you, Father.
06:21Hey.
06:27Hello.
06:30And hello.
06:32Don't get excited and thinking you're converting me.
06:34We've got an appointment at the hospital in a bit, and this one thought I might as well do this
06:38before.
06:39You're very welcome here.
06:40We've been having visitors every five minutes, sorting out this, that, and the other.
06:45I don't know who you passed me on to.
06:47How much pressure you put on.
06:48I'm just pleased it's working out.
06:51I slightly resent it.
06:54I think it's kind of you.
06:58She's going to speak in court.
07:01He wrote to me, asking for forgiveness, telling me he was going to kill himself if I didn't, or if
07:07I did.
07:09Asking for forgiveness.
07:11What did he do?
07:13Nothing.
07:14He didn't kill himself, because he's full of shit.
07:21Oh, and, uh, I'm not Catholic.
07:34I'm happy.
07:36Happy?
07:37You?
07:38You should stop asking how I am.
07:40You care about me.
07:41I can't care about you.
07:42Something like that.
07:44Can I just say, I liked your man.
07:51I liked her, too.
07:53So you weren't a dick, then?
07:54I thought you'd probably be a dick.
07:56I don't, if I'm honest, know what I was.
07:59If you don't know, you're probably a dick.
08:03I think you're grateful.
08:06But you don't care what I think.
08:08Because you were thinking about her.
08:14Mom, can you wait?
08:17I'm pregnant.
08:18Mom.
08:20You know.
08:37Okay, I need everybody in the car.
08:40Very loud.
08:41Mom, Simon, I need you in the car.
08:46Molly, why aren't you in the bloody car?
08:49Mom, where are you going?
08:54You're not wearing that.
09:37Get out of here!
09:40Let's do it!
09:42You can't hook me up.
09:42Notch me.
09:42I have a headache.
09:43I can't, but...
09:46You can't.
09:47You can't.
09:48You do it.
09:50I don't know.
10:19I'm sorry.
11:00I don't know.
11:32We're going to be late. We're going to miss our slot and it's going to be all your fault.
11:36I love you.
11:39Oh, I love you, William.
11:41Get in the car.
11:42Oh, okay, okay, okay.
12:08What can I get you, love?
12:09I just saw the sign in the window.
12:11Which sign?
12:12I'm looking for work.
12:14Oh, that's an old sign, love. Sorry.
12:17You don't know if anybody else is.
12:18Not right now. There's a bit of a local dip happening. Everyone's struggling a bit.
12:23Leave me a number and I'll keep an ear out for you.
12:25Thanks. This is my friend Muriel's number. I'm just staying with her at the moment. I'm Anna.
12:36Okay, Anna. Good luck to you.
12:42Why listen to this?
12:44I've done a playlist. A song for every year. It's Susan and I could have been together and weren't together.
12:51It's the songs we should have danced to.
12:55That's crazy.
12:56Oh, it's romantic.
12:58Tell it out.
12:58He's flying in the face of fashion.
13:02He's flying in the face of fashion.
13:05He's flying in the face of fashion.
13:08Anna, thanks so much for coming in.
13:10What sort of work are you looking for?
13:13What about my mom?
13:14I'm not sure what I'm qualified for.
13:17Catering, I hope.
13:18I can cook and I can clean.
13:21Data entry skills.
13:23Sorry?
13:23What's your typing speed?
13:25I don't have one.
13:28Can you use a computer?
13:30I can try.
13:34You haven't filled in the book where it says previous work.
13:38No, well, I was a nun.
13:41I don't really think that counts as a job.
13:44I don't think it is a job.
13:46It's more a calling.
13:48Right.
13:49I could fill out the CV section, but it would just say none.
13:52And then none, and then none.
13:56Sounds like a joke, doesn't it?
13:59Does the way you're saying it.
14:01Um, have you got a permanent address?
14:05I have an address.
14:07Um, have you got a national insurance number?
14:10Ah, uh, I remember having one of those.
14:14I'd better could find it.
14:16Do you have preferred hours?
14:18No.
14:19Um, maybe you want to have a little think about that.
14:22Um, childcare needs, or...?
14:24No, no, no, I don't have any kids.
14:28I was a nun.
14:30You just, um, you don't look like a nun.
14:34Well, I, uh, I'm not one anymore.
14:49You can't help me, can you?
14:53We don't really get catering work.
14:56What I do is get your typing speed up.
15:01Um, there's courses you can take online, and, um, come back when you're in a better place.
15:12Are we late, uh, are we late?
15:14Susan and Simon, we've got time.
15:19Morning.
15:20My name is Sandra, and as the Deputy Superintendent Registrar for Bristol, it is my privilege to welcome you here
15:27today.
15:27I'm joined by my colleague, Grace, and our interpreter, Bella, and we are met in a place duly sanctioned, according
15:34to law, for the celebration of marriages and civil partnerships.
15:38We're gathered here today for the joining and matrimony of Simon Ian Neve and Susan Grace Hicks.
15:47If any person here present knows of any lawful impediment to this marriage, they should declare it now.
15:56That's the difficult part. It's really easy for me.
16:25I'm starting with St. Fulgentius, which is love, indeed, is the source of all good things.
16:31It's an impregnable defence in the way that leads to heaven.
16:34He who walks in love can neither go astray nor be afraid.
16:39Uh, love guides him, protects him, and brings him to his journey's end.
16:43And I, I was thinking I could then explain that what...
16:45That sounds like Shakespeare.
16:48You don't mean that as a compliment, do you?
16:50What else do you say? Do you make any jokes?
16:51It's not best man speech, it's a blessing.
16:54Can you tell about the time when mum brought home that box of milk tray,
16:58and then I pissed her off, so she ate them all in her room?
17:00Oh yeah, that would really make them laugh, wouldn't it?
17:02She ate the whole box, two layers, and then she got really constipated and really complained about it.
17:08Bugger it! I can't do this, it keeps falling down.
17:12I might be able to help.
17:16I'm too early. I always am.
17:19A little girl let me in.
17:21I presume she's related to at least one of you.
17:24I'm a dab hand at DIYs, surprisingly.
17:28Hello, I'm Frances.
17:29Hi.
17:30David.
17:54Dad.
17:55Mum.
17:56Muriel called.
17:57I brought my own brushes.
17:59Brushes for what?
18:00Setting things right.
18:01Well, I'm not here to paint. I hate paint.
18:04And I've got three different shades of blue, so you can choose the one you want.
18:07One will be called Wistful Dog Breath, and the other will be called Shropshire Bed Crumpet, and they'll be...
18:12Of all things to be angry about, you're angry about paint names.
18:15Well, I brought the lamp you like, and a bedspread from your Auntie Penny.
18:19Am I missing something? What's happening here?
18:21I've got Zach's permission. We're going to paint your room.
18:23I told you, I never liked that we didn't redo your room at home.
18:28For a long time, he thought it was the reason you became a nun.
18:31That bloody, dear wallpaper.
18:33So you're redecorating the room?
18:35Your room. And that's the start that matters.
18:38Making a home.
18:39I have a brush for you.
18:41You can bloody help.
18:57Working on your blessing?
19:00Oh, um, Lindsay, the older daughter says only more jokes.
19:05Ah.
19:07As a younger man, I once got told off by a priest for getting too many laughs in a sermon.
19:13Humour is an underrated quality in the clergy.
19:18I wondered if you wouldn't mind...
19:21Would you mind hearing my confession?
19:24Now? Here?
19:26I'd like it.
19:27If you have a moment.
19:49I'm not much of what most would consider a man.
19:54You all?
19:55Well, I've lived most of my life with my mother.
20:00I've dedicated myself to God, her, and my allotment in that order.
20:05I didn't know you had an allotment.
20:07Good.
20:08You shouldn't.
20:10It's my quiet place.
20:11I don't talk about it to anyone.
20:13Well, except mother.
20:15My point is, there is no reason why you would take what advice I have in any way seriously.
20:21And it's not advice you are seeking.
20:26But I am a little older than you.
20:29I've seen and experienced some aspects in a little more depth.
20:33And I do care so deeply about you.
20:36You've been a constant in my prayer.
20:38Well, it's very kind.
20:40I care deeply about you, too.
20:42But, um, just to check, is this a confession?
20:54My mother doesn't recognise me any more.
20:58There are moments when I half believe she does, but she doesn't.
21:04Not a kind woman.
21:07Not someone even particularly filled with love.
21:11I stayed with her because she needed me after my father's death, even if she did not think she did.
21:21Let's talk of your mother more.
21:24Her dementia in the last six months has become increasingly cruel.
21:30Violent, you understand, as some dementias get.
21:34The violence I can cope with.
21:36The words I sometimes find more.
21:40The hidden ways, she's thought of me.
21:43She accuses me.
21:45She has accused me of being attracted to her.
21:51She's accused me of watching her in the bath.
21:53She's an 86-year-old woman, you understand.
21:56She's accused me of being attracted to other women who come to the house.
22:00Carers and elderly friends.
22:02She's found lust in my every...
22:06In all of me.
22:10And the only reason I feel able to repeat these charges is because there is no truth to them.
22:20But that doesn't mean they aren't incredibly painful.
22:23I can imagine.
22:25And yet still, and this is the beauty of his love, still, I sit on my allotment, or in church,
22:32or anywhere, really, and I pray.
22:35And I find such love in my life.
22:40Not from her, no.
22:43I find it in the love I give her.
22:46My love, you understand, and I do not regret, and this is important to me, and it's true.
22:53I do not regret a single second I spent with her.
22:57I do not regret my life, because it is a love to this day.
23:05It is a life filled with a true love.
23:14You're a good man.
23:17You're missing the point I'm trying to make.
23:22You think I do regret my life?
23:25I wouldn't presume to judge.
23:28But I've noticed the light going out in your eyes.
23:33Your eyes are normally so full of light.
23:38And that...
23:42Well, I have noticed that.
23:48Adultery.
23:49That's all it is.
23:51I'm sure you've heard plenty churned up and messy.
23:54I tell them, in the confessional, you have committed a terrible sin.
23:59There's some I can sense just like the sex.
24:02And for those I lay it on thick.
24:05But others...
24:06I sense a deeper conflict.
24:09And to those I say...
24:12Love is the only gift worth fighting for.
24:17And this love comes in many forms.
24:21And God's gift...
24:22God's gift, which he gave to all humanity.
24:26Is that only you know which love is true.
24:34And then I forgive them and give them penance.
24:37That is my right and duty as a priest.
24:39You think I'm committing adultery?
24:42You were married to God.
24:44And now you're looking elsewhere.
24:47You're risking sin, but...
24:50Sins can get forgiven.
24:58What do you give all this up?
25:02What would you give up?
25:04A position?
25:05A trust, perhaps?
25:06A wage?
25:07But these are just trinkets and support mechanisms in life's great journey.
25:12They aren't an answer to anything.
25:14You would not give up God's love.
25:16And God would not give up on loving you.
25:20And those around you, the true ones.
25:23And I would hope to include myself in this number.
25:27They would not stop loving you either.
25:30A dot-collar David isn't the reason I do good things.
25:34And it isn't the reason you do.
25:41There we go.
25:43That's all I have.
25:45Your turn now.
25:47Hail Mary's, etc.
25:49Give me my penance.
25:50Let's keep the pretense up.
25:54She turned me down, Francis.
25:59She's come back to the Wi-Fi, back to where she wants to be.
26:03Ah.
26:06No.
26:07No.
26:09She's back.
26:11If no one's told you,
26:13she's left the convent.
26:15Again.
26:17You were quite right in your diagnosis of her.
26:20She is enormously flighty.
26:48To the left, to the right.
26:51Step it up, step it up.
26:54Step it up, it's all right.
26:55To the left, to the right.
26:59Check the moon right out.
27:02It's all right.
27:03Silence in the season.
27:06There ain't no good in grief.
27:10Can't stop my mouth from breathing.
27:14Seeing what I see.
27:18Curves with destinations.
27:22Poetics in my tree.
27:26Cause I'm information.
27:30In my anatomy.
27:32Don't you see?
27:35Yeah, yeah, yeah.
27:37You can send me forget to know.
27:39Yeah, yeah, yeah.
27:41But I'll still reach out to your time.
27:43Yeah, yeah, yeah.
27:45Until the last day that I drown.
27:47Yeah, yeah, yeah.
27:52It's on you now.
27:54Of course it's on me.
28:03I love you too.
28:07I think I've missed something.
28:09What have I missed?
28:11What have I missed?
28:19What have I missed?
28:25What have I missed?
28:33What have I missed?
28:35What have I missed?
28:35What have I missed?
28:36What have I missed?
28:37What have I missed?
28:40What have I missed?
28:47What have I missed?
29:07Looks nice.
29:08Can I bring some more things from home?
29:10You're welcome any time, you know that.
29:13But now your father and I need to go.
29:16Stay.
29:16Hey, let me make us all some food.
29:19I'd like that.
29:21You'd like it?
29:22I'm not angry with you, Mum.
29:25None of this was your fault.
29:27I can't remember ever claiming it was.
29:31And I think I'm excited, Mum.
29:35It's okay to be scared, too.
29:40I thought you'd be going after him.
29:43No.
29:44No, he...
29:47He's not right.
29:48He's not ready.
29:50But I am still excited about what my life is going to be now.
29:54Okay.
30:00I'm proud of you.
30:08Tarragon chicken?
30:10Sounds lovely.
30:19I don't have anything to say.
30:21Just keep it short.
30:23Pick your hands up first, please.
30:24No, short is fine.
30:25But you do understand.
30:26I can't recognise your marriage.
30:28I applaud what you're doing.
30:30But I'm a priest.
30:31It would be a betrayal to my congregation.
30:33What can you do?
30:34I could have a go at blessing your love in some way.
30:38Yeah, we can...
30:40Follow our notes.
30:41Follow our notes.
30:48Hello.
30:49Hello.
30:51Is Muriel here?
30:53Oh, you look a mess.
30:54I've been running.
30:55Look, Muriel, I need to see her.
30:57Is this him?
30:58Yeah.
30:59Him or...
31:00This is Anna's mother.
31:02Oh.
31:03Hello.
31:04I'm her father.
31:05She's not home.
31:06She went to the shop.
31:08She wanted to cook us all dinner.
31:10We've been painting.
31:10Which shops?
31:11Yeah, hold your horses.
31:12Why don't you just...
31:13Which shops?
31:13Tesco.
31:15It's nice to meet you.
31:17Ah, it's very nice to meet you too.
31:21Hope we get to talk more.
31:27Sweet is thy work.
31:30My God, my King,
31:35To praise thy name.
31:41Hello, everybody.
31:43My name is Francis.
31:46I'm a priest.
31:47And I believe in love.
31:52Two are better than one
31:55because they have a good reward for their toil.
31:58For if they fall,
32:01One will lift up his fellow.
32:03But woe to him who is alone when he falls
32:06And has not another to lift him up.
32:09Susan,
32:10Do you take Simon to be your beloved?
32:14Will you cherish him?
32:17And...
32:18Trying to find other adjectives?
32:21Will you make him your home?
32:24Just as he makes you his?
32:27I will.
32:29Simon,
32:30Will you do the same?
32:32I will.
32:35Oh, do you wish to kiss?
32:37You don't have to,
32:39If you don't fancy it.
32:46I now pronounce you
32:49Nothing at all.
32:51Shall we have a party now?
32:53Yeah!
32:55Yeah!
33:00Anna!
33:04Don't run away, please.
33:06Just let me talk.
33:08Anna,
33:10I'm not running and you can certainly talk.
33:12Yeah.
33:14I came looking for you at Muriel's house.
33:17Oh, okay.
33:20I met your mum.
33:22Oh, okay.
33:30I believe you promised words.
33:33Sorry?
33:34You said you wanted to talk, etc.
33:36Um,
33:37I just,
33:37I just want to tell you that...
33:43I want to tell you that
33:44I'm leaving the priesthood.
33:50I haven't told anyone yet.
33:53But,
33:55yeah,
33:55I can't remain.
33:56I've told him.
34:01Okay.
34:03Why?
34:05Because,
34:06because,
34:09because I love you.
34:19Why do you love me?
34:23I think...
34:27I've always loved you.
34:32It's just taken me a while to wait to help.
34:38I'm really sorry about that.
34:53Now,
34:53do you want to say something?
35:04Let's not talk here.
35:22There was a boy at school,
35:24Adam,
35:25who sat behind me in French.
35:27Beautiful brown eyes.
35:30He never said anything to me,
35:31but he would sit staring at the back of my neck
35:34all the way through the class.
35:35I could feel it.
35:39He was probably just bored.
35:42Well,
35:43I did take to wearing my hair up
35:45whenever we had French lessons.
35:48And then there was a Benedictine monk
35:51at Lord's
35:52when I was a postulant
35:54called Francois.
35:56Also,
35:57brown eyes.
36:01I think
36:02they were my other
36:05temptations.
36:07I thought about both of them
36:08probably a little bit more than I should.
36:12But,
36:13well,
36:14the thing is,
36:16the thing is,
36:17with them,
36:18I knew,
36:18you know,
36:19that they were just
36:21urges.
36:22Horrible word.
36:24Whereas,
36:27whereas
36:28you
36:29changed my soul.
36:33And I,
36:34I just,
36:35I felt
36:35so angry
36:37that I
36:38didn't
36:39make yours change
36:42in the same way.
36:47Well, you did.
36:51It was humiliating.
36:53Do you understand me?
36:55You,
36:55you really,
36:57really humiliated me.
36:58You really hurt me.
37:02I could,
37:03I could hit you.
37:07I wouldn't mind.
37:09That would be,
37:11before too easy.
37:13I need to find a better way to
37:16pay you back.
37:20Is this all?
37:23Are you saying,
37:24I've lost my chance?
37:34Ahn.
37:37Ahn.
37:40Ahn.
37:57Fuck, you terrible, insecure, cowardly fuck.
38:09I hate that word.
38:14I like it.
38:16Sounds like a maths teacher.
38:19A maths teacher?
38:20A maths teacher we've never heard outside of class.
38:24It's a noble profession.
38:25I love you.
38:29I love you.
38:56I am a coward.
39:00Sometimes.
39:06I don't know if I'm going to be good for you.
39:09I don't know if I'm going to be good for you.
39:13I hope you know.
39:14I don't have a job.
39:16I don't have a house.
39:18Well, the good thing is I don't have any of those things either.
39:22I don't know.
39:27And I'm...
39:28Paromenopausal.
39:35I think it's okay to say that we're...
39:38We're both scared.
39:39Yeah.
39:41Angry.
39:41That's just me.
39:43But...
39:44Scared.
39:45It's worthless.
39:49He saved me.
39:52I was lost and he saved me and...
39:56I don't want to betray him.
40:00Well, then...
40:01Let's decide that it's not a betrayal.
40:05He saved me, too.
40:08You know, I'm just the same.
40:09I'd like to ring a bell and put my life back how it was, but...
40:16I'd also really like to kiss you again.
40:28Okay.
40:30Okay.
40:39Yeah.
40:56Hey, don't.
41:11What?
41:18How do we do this?
41:25I think I know.
41:28What have I done?
41:34How have I done it?
41:38How have I done it?
41:42Really?
41:43What have I done?