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00:00The only way is up, baby, for you and me now.
00:12I'm like a young gun running loose.
00:15Yeah, yeah.
00:16Elmer clearly is running around and talking.
00:21I don't know if she's talking our business.
00:23I hope she's not talking our business.
00:24To me, personally, a frinter will always a frinter to none.
00:26Now this is how I lock it in.
00:28I pay to win, I pay to win.
00:31I'll be the last one standing at the end.
00:34The things that Ella is accusing me of saying is not true.
00:37I'm never going to know the truth.
00:40I pay to win, I pay to win, I pay to win, I pay to win.
00:45It's actually frustrating.
00:48I do hate it.
00:50Look, please don't get upset.
00:52I'm going to because I love you.
00:54That's it.
00:55I am going to.
00:59Watch me now, this is how I lock it in.
01:02I pay to win, I pay to win.
01:04I heard a rumour.
01:06Oh my God, what did you hear?
01:07What did you kiss?
01:08Yeah.
01:09Did you stay in a room?
01:10Yes.
01:11Hey!
01:12I didn't know that.
01:34Oh my God, it's really hard to sit down and manage this.
01:38Oh my God, I feel really unstable.
01:40Come on, it's good.
01:42It's the wind.
01:45What a trip, Rachel.
01:47Vietnam has changed us all, I think.
01:49Vietnam has been crazy, I'm not going to lie.
01:51Yeah, no, it really has.
01:52A trip to remember and I don't think that's like...
01:54Not in a good way, no, definitely not in a good way.
01:56Even waking up and being like, oh, the sun's on my back.
01:58I've not even done anything like that because it's like...
02:00I wake up and I'm like, oh, another day.
02:02On edge?
02:03Yeah.
02:03Who am I going to upset?
02:04Who am I going to shit stuff for?
02:05You know, there's been a very long list for me.
02:09You have actually had it hard.
02:10But are you in an okay place with Harry and Livy?
02:12I actually spoke to Liv yesterday.
02:15Yeah.
02:16She considered us, like, best of friends.
02:19So for her, I think it was just like, she's had my back in things.
02:22I think she just didn't feel like I had hers because she's not seen that I've had hers.
02:26Oh my God, she's so had her back.
02:26I know, I know.
02:27And if anything, you had her back so much, to the point me and Freddie felt upset.
02:31Do you know what I mean?
02:32I know, I know.
02:32So it's like, you can't win.
02:33I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't.
02:35And I think I've realised I obviously miscommunicate very badly.
02:38We're not perfect.
02:39No, I'm not.
02:40Like, I'm not perfect.
02:40But I don't ever claim to be.
02:42No, exactly, that's the thing.
02:43And all I could do is apologise.
02:45And I'd like to think that people know that my apologies are sincere.
02:47Like, I got so frustrated I was crying because I love everyone.
02:50And if I love you, I love you hard.
02:51But the thing is, I think there's just one of me and there's just a lot of everyone else.
02:54And I'm just spreading myself so thin.
02:57I don't know enough anyway, so I might as well not spread myself at all.
02:58No, but listen, she needs to understand that you're in a difficult situation.
03:02So there's certain things you don't want to hear.
03:04The dynamics of the friendship groups are wild right now.
03:07Strange, strange.
03:08Like, you're not really speaking to Harry.
03:10I'm not really speaking to Harry.
03:11Jo and Janae and Harry are best friends.
03:12It's all bizarre.
03:13It's been a lot.
03:15It's been a lot.
03:16Love needs breathing.
03:19I'm not his, I'm not hers, I'm not your.
03:22Oh, Lord, nothing.
03:25I'm more.
03:25How can we still be something in between?
03:29How are you feeling today?
03:31A little bit hungover.
03:33Hiya.
03:33A little bit.
03:34That's weird, I don't really get hangovers out here.
03:36No, you've been going to the gym.
03:38I know.
03:38The body's all crazy.
03:39I never do that after a night out.
03:40No, that's insane.
03:41Yeah.
03:42How was last night?
03:44It was good.
03:45Yeah?
03:45It was a good night, yeah.
03:46Yeah, it was fun.
03:47Yeah.
03:48Obviously, me and James left a bit early.
03:50Has he been a nightmare again?
03:52Well, I can see he's been a nightmare again.
03:53I don't even know where I'm asking you.
03:56He's always a nightmare.
03:57Is that why he's left?
03:59Yeah, because I just think, like, you fell over and hurt yourself.
04:02I think that was the time that we just needed to, like, go home a little bit.
04:05I know he was all right, but I was stressed out, was worried about him.
04:09Yeah, of course you are, yeah.
04:10But it is what it is.
04:11We've spoken about it now.
04:12I think when there's drinks involved, we don't ever see each other's points.
04:16And we bicker, but it's fine.
04:19Yeah.
04:20I don't want to keep arguing with him about the same things.
04:23No.
04:23I know it's probably annoying for you as well.
04:25Well, no, listen, all it is, you think, I'm around him 24 most of the time,
04:29so I'm just a lot closer to you guys in terms of I just get to see it and hear
04:34it all.
04:35So I'm obviously giving him more of the benefit of the doubt,
04:38but now I'm out here and I've seen it firsthand and see what you have to then deal with when
04:44he gets back home.
04:45Yeah.
04:46I understand it more from your point of view.
04:48Do you know what I mean?
04:50No, I do.
04:50I was so worried because I, like, don't want to be like Moni and, like, we both love you so
04:56much
04:56I didn't want you to feel, like, any type of way towards me, so, like, I really actually appreciate you
04:59saying that.
05:00Well, yeah, I just think these are little things that, for your relationship, that you need to iron out.
05:05I know.
05:05I love him for being a party animal and being, like, the life of the party.
05:09That's why I'm with him.
05:10Like, he's great, but I just want it to, like, sometimes, like, he is, like, kind of a stepdad now,
05:17you know?
05:17Yeah, cool.
05:18I know.
05:19We love each other so much.
05:20I think also he knows when he's in the wrong with all, like, he knows when he's being hard work.
05:24I know, but you don't see it there and then.
05:25He doesn't see it there and then.
05:26And it escalates and it gets worse because I'm thinking, how are you not understanding, asshole?
05:31To be honest, I will say to him, before we go home, when we get home, whenever, but I will
05:35say to him that I've seen it from a different point of view.
05:38I really appreciate that.
05:39Because when I say to him you're in the wrong, like, he gets it.
05:43Yeah.
06:00I've just got to say one thing really quickly before we get into anything else.
06:04Kissy chat.
06:07Can you believe I'm a cougar?
06:09I don't know, but I'm really glad.
06:11Welcome to the club.
06:12Oh, my God, I'm forgetting.
06:16Yeah, but yours was a great experience.
06:19No, it weren't.
06:20Maybe it's a side, just leave it as a holiday romance, I think.
06:23Yeah, I think that sounds great.
06:24I was actually calculating earlier, so I am closer to their mum's age than I am.
06:29Who are the twins?
06:29Yeah, I'm closer to the twins' mum's age than I am their age.
06:32You're joking.
06:32No.
06:33Oh, but they are sweet boys, to be fair.
06:35I feel like they've really slotted in there.
06:36Yeah, they are the loveliest.
06:37And genuinely, if they were older, I would actually go there.
06:40I've not been successful with either direction, so to be honest with you...
06:44Leave all the men alone.
06:46What's happening, girls?
06:47Oh, my God!
06:49Oh, my God!
06:49Listen, I told you we'd look after you for that.
06:51Is that for me?
06:52Oh, my God!
06:53Thank you so much.
06:53Oh, my God!
06:55Oh, all right.
06:56I want your girlfriend.
06:59You're not going to give her a kiss?
07:01You're not going to give her a kiss?
07:02That's not good.
07:03Should I pour this in here?
07:04Oh!
07:04Oh!
07:06Sorry.
07:06How are you, boys?
07:07Yeah, we're all right.
07:08We're all right.
07:09Oh, I missed you.
07:09I don't feel like you have, though.
07:11Are you joking?
07:13Babe, I'm sorry.
07:13I've been miserable for the last few days, but I want you to know that that is not my full
07:17-time
07:17personality.
07:18This is my full-time personality.
07:19Is it really loved?
07:20This is, yeah.
07:21Listen, I hope so.
07:21Oh, yeah.
07:22You should know, Si.
07:23You should know, Si.
07:24Yeah, you haven't actually seen Elmar on top form.
07:27You haven't?
07:27The day might be the day, as long as nobody bothers me.
07:30We've got a lot of time, though.
07:31Do you know what?
07:31I'm going to say something.
07:32Please don't hate me for it.
07:33I'm going to hate you for it.
07:34Yeah, I know you are.
07:36Johnny Joe.
07:37Can you actually...
07:38No, no.
07:39I can when yous are together, but when you're separately...
07:43Of course you can.
07:45You'd like to think she can.
07:46Oh, it'd be terrible if I could have...
07:48Could you imagine?
07:49I could, yeah.
07:50Well, I mean, it took me a little while, but I'm there now.
07:52Right, it's easy.
07:53Well, you two seem to be getting on.
07:54I'm not used to.
07:55Yeah, we are.
07:56Of course.
07:56Yeah?
07:57That's what we've been saying, though.
07:59It's just...
07:59It's natural, though, isn't it?
08:00It's easy.
08:00That's what I mean.
08:01I think that's why it's been so perfect, the way yous have come in,
08:03the way you've slotted in, like...
08:04That's what I'm saying.
08:04It feels like we've known...
08:05That's what I said.
08:06I feel like we've known you for years.
08:08That's...
08:08I said to the boys earlier about going back to Essex.
08:10What do you reckon it'd be, like...
08:12There's, like, a lot of drama waiting back home.
08:13There's a lot of things that need to be answered for when we get back home, so, yeah.
08:16Yeah, see, we don't know what's going on back home.
08:18You're going to meet...
08:20Yeah, we're going to introduce you to everyone else as well, and I think you're really, like...
08:24Yeah, there's no reason for us not to...
08:25No, no, you'll get on with everyone.
08:27Is that what I mean?
08:27They're going to love you.
08:28I think Saffron's going to absolutely love the boys.
08:30Saffron's going to be obsessed with you.
08:31You think?
08:32Yeah, yeah.
08:33It's going to be, it's going to be, like, a fight.
08:35We actually will fall out, because we're all going to be fighting over who loves you the most.
08:38That's what's going to happen.
08:41This is going to happen.
08:42No bro, boys, no new friends.
08:43I'm that pleasure, give me my hand.
08:45Ain't no rock, ain't no shade.
08:47Fuck all, me that you know he's paid.
08:49Look so good.
08:50That's all right, yeah.
08:51Yay!
08:51No bro, boys, ain't no shade.
08:54Fuck all, me that you know he's paid.
08:57Hey.
08:57Hey.
08:58How are you feeling?
08:59A little bit sore, a little bit, tiny bit sore.
09:02A little bit sore, actually.
09:04I love you.
09:05I love you.
09:06I'm so sorry for sometimes being an idiot.
09:08I know I could be an idiot.
09:09So can you.
09:10No, I know.
09:11And I'm sorry for being moany, but it's only because I love you.
09:13I know, I know.
09:14I like to feel, like, looked after and, like, protected all the time.
09:17And I want to do that for you.
09:18I know.
09:19And you know after that happened how bad I feel about that.
09:21So it's nothing that we can't sort out and go over.
09:23I know.
09:24And I've had a really, really lovely time out with you.
09:27It's been really, really nice.
09:28I've had the best trip.
09:29I'm looking forward to going home, seeing Bear.
09:32Same.
09:32I can't wait.
09:33I think when we get back, I've got a couple more days off from work.
09:36I'm going to come drive down.
09:38Yes.
09:38And we'll spend some time, me, you, and Bear.
09:40Yeah, that'd be nice.
09:41And take him to the zoo.
09:42And we'll go and do something really nice when we get back.
09:44Yeah.
09:44But I love you.
09:45I love you.
09:51And I don't know what to do with it.
09:55The only way is up.
09:57You mean everything to me.
10:01You mean something, yeah?
10:03You mean something, yeah?
10:07You mean something, yeah?
10:08You mean everything to me.
10:11You mean everything to me.
10:18Hey, show us your tramp stamp.
10:19Come here.
10:21Tramp stamp.
10:22Get in.
10:22I forgot what your name is.
10:24Remind me.
10:24We're all set.
10:25Got it up.
10:35Really?
10:36You as well, Joe.
10:36I have no idea.
10:37What are you saying?
10:37You're such a shame a minute, guys.
10:38I have no idea.
10:45I'm such a shame.
10:47Don't you dare.
10:48No.
10:49No.
10:50You're so quick, your reflexes, man.
10:52I've never tried to have to have a no gay gang today.
10:53Go back to your point.
10:54I'm good, guys.
10:55I'm good.
10:55Bye.
10:56Bye.
11:10Oh
11:11Upload you something I did on upload. Cancel upload. Cancel upload. You all right girls? Yeah, yeah
11:17How are you? Are we on bean bags? Yeah
11:21It'll be bad. The yellow ones are always bad luck. Oh, I love it. I love it
11:29Listen, there's obviously a very very weird vibe going on and I actually don't like it
11:36Because that you are like
11:38Two girls that I fucking ride or die for in love and I'm really really don't want any awkward vibes
11:44Like I hate the fact that you've had to question our loyalty is because I am a ride-or-die
11:49friend when it comes to dying
11:50For people like yeah, as in Harry your situation what happened to you with you. That was a die situation
11:55Yeah, and then with amber and and ella that's a die situation
11:58I feel like with your situation. It is a ride, but not a die situation. I don't feel like cool
12:02You should play down how I've been feeling
12:08But when when I felt the way I felt on this trip, Bob's that from the second day on you
12:12I've been crying in my room kept myself in my room
12:14Like if someone that comes in the attack for me like if someone come in the attack for you
12:18I wouldn't have it that is just me, but I've still felt very isolated on this ship
12:23I just want to clear up with we when we did feel it something was off
12:26We did try and come and meet you's and come and find you's
12:29I just wish that you didn't have to get to this
12:30I wish that we didn't leave it as long like you said we were meant to be best friends
12:33I've got to be completely honest. I don't think it's a ride-or-die situation. I would die for you's
12:37all
12:38I'd die for you's all
12:39Yeah, but then you're friends with joe and janaid and they've been disgusting to us this trip
12:42Well, we're all solid friends here like yeah, you know what? I mean
12:45I don't think everyone needs to get involved
12:47No, but that yeah, but we're not gonna be in for like I could I could have a problem with
12:51you's
12:52About being friends with danny, but you're friends of her
12:54So I feel like what what happens is you do love to get in light and talk to everyone
12:59Do I love a gossip? Yes, I do do I ever pass on your information? No, I don't
13:02I do feel like everyone's just jumped on this on the scapegoat and the bandwagon of like
13:06Oh elma's been a shit server on this on this holiday and all of a sudden she's just a shit
13:09stirrer
13:10That isn't the case because everyone feeds me
13:12I don't think you're a shit server no one's ever called you
13:15I think the way you've just interpreted that is like oh, you've done this you've gone from person to person
13:19to person
13:19That isn't what I do
13:20We all go oh, elma's a little chapey. We've known that for years. I think the problem is I think
13:25You've kind of like made it out to me a couple of times that you like freddy your friends, but
13:30you're not as close as you are
13:31And I feel like
13:33The way he reacted on that boss
13:35He thinks you're ride or die. He thinks you are number one for her for him
13:40No, I think he very much shows I'm not
13:42He loves you. I think he went crazy
13:43I think if that was the case he would never have spoke to me like that
13:46I think the way he thinks the way he thinks no, I think that's why he went mad at you
13:50We all love each other. We all have each other's backs. We all have loyalty to each other and that's
13:55that's all that matters
13:57There's obviously something that's been said and that just really upset me
14:00What was here?
14:02Do you mind I'd rather talk to you just me and you that's all right. It's all right. Do you
14:06mind that girls?
14:07Yeah, we're gonna go sit over there. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you
14:15Listen I don't want to make things awkward because I just I just generally want to talk to you
14:19I think there's a lot of things that have gone back
14:21To Essex and I'm not blaming you if you want to speak to saffron. I'm not blaming anyone. What is
14:26it?
14:26That's gone back to her apparently you've said things like I have unfollowed joe and janaid for harry
14:34I've never said that well, that's come back. I've categorically I can swear on my nephew's lives. Those words have
14:39never come out of my mouth
14:41I'm just telling you that's what's come back to me all right
14:42Well, I'm telling you that that's that's not okay, and I believe you
14:45Okay
14:47Yeah, so you've not spoke to me for the last five days over that age
14:50But you've not spoke to me either because harry I was fine with you and you was but you was
14:53the one that was being weird
14:54And I come down that morning when you and live was having breakfast
14:56Neither of you really said two words to us
14:58And I kept saying to you right hate and you was at
15:00So I thought i'm obviously doing too much to harry. That was why I stepped back
15:04You don't realize that i'm being told okay a load of staff
15:07And then i'm having to pace but i didn't follow joe to start off with so that's that's a load
15:12of shit
15:12And I unfollowed janaid because I just don't like him and we've had murders on this trip and it's just
15:16Obviously something that has been said
15:19I'm not saying I don't think it's from me
15:21I'm gonna be honest i've had one facetime conversation with safran just the one and then I spoke to her
15:25at
15:25Three o'clock in the morning or four o'clock in the morning whenever it was for three minutes long
15:28It's the only conversations i've had with her to be honest it just it's a reach like it just that
15:31doesn't sound even
15:32What do you mean a reach?
15:33As in like who would have even said that to to start it off with?
15:36Well apparently safran said it
15:38To who amy?
15:39Yeah
15:40Strange okay
15:41Well i guess i'll ask safran but i know for a fact i don't even believe safran would say it
15:45And i will take your word for it if you're telling me you've never said these things
15:49I will take your word for it okay
15:51But do you because i feel like yes i am taking but obviously we have to chat elmar
15:55So can we move on from it now yes because i feel like we've said the same thing for 800
15:58times
15:59Do you want a hug yeah let's have a hug come on
16:03I don't ever want to fall out with you
16:04Take the long way home fall in love real slow
16:10I hope that you get to take your time
16:18What are we saying boys we had a good time yeah we have some good night
16:21Yeah
16:27How lovely has it been though oh i've had that's honestly the best trip it's been nice to see
16:32you and Janae mingling with people yeah it's been nice to see you Janae's and
16:39Danny do you know what I can't hide that's very embarrassed of last night
16:45Elle sobbing my heart out to her oh babe I was going to you why are you crying I
16:51didn't even know why I was so upset but you know what I was trying to explain I
16:54wasn't sad I was genuine I think it was more like relief and yeah I think I'd
16:59wanted to talk to her for so long and just get everything off of my chest yeah
17:04and nothing having that chat with her yesterday I think she finally started to
17:08realize that I am a nice person and I think what is that hard about the whole
17:12thing is that she didn't know yeah look she had every right to think that I was
17:17a twat you know I mean I I did do shitty things to her but I feel like we're all
17:22at a space now where we can all just move past it and I think she accepts she
17:26genuinely I think accepts my apology and then you never know we might be best
17:32mates one day is a stepping stone into the right direction no it really is I feel
17:36like you've had a bit of a shit time oh god it's been a whirlwind you know I'm not
17:40gonna lie this trip has been probably one of the hardest tricks I have been on
17:45yeah because I just feel like how I feel is not ever gonna go that's so normal now is it
17:53normal
17:54though don't get this don't get upset it's so okay don't be upset oh come in I can't have you
18:04cry like
18:04that come here give me cuddle I actually don't want to feel this way anymore oh no honestly please
18:10don't cry I do believe that he does genuinely care about you a lot yeah I know he does and
18:16I know he
18:16always will but I just I just don't know what to do that a lot's happened and he's shit because
18:23he's
18:24with someone and you've poured your heart out to him but I did send him a text out here because
18:31for me
18:32sometimes it's really hard to say how I feel yeah I'm like I'm the same I feel like I've been
18:36like that what did you say though oh I feel like I've got to read it because I don't I
18:41just don't
18:41know right brace yourself go on it's a long one that's all right go I just said I can't help
18:48but
18:48say my truth and how I feel and that's all I've done I don't want you to think that I'm
18:53out to ruin
18:57oh well I can't bear to see you like this what's making you so sad you're okay what's it I
19:12love you
19:13so much and I'm hurting so bad at the decision I made and if I could take my time I
19:17would the chats
19:18me and you have had in private maybe I had taken the wrong way because my feelings are so involved
19:24but there's nothing more that I wanted other than to be happy with you I care for you and there's
19:29nothing more in this world that I want than both of us to be happy did he reply he didn't
19:37well you're
19:38breaking my heart seeing you crying like that are you okay are you okay though listen it's hard I am
19:44okay but I'm okay and you are gonna be okay then the hardest thing about it is and no one's
19:51ever
19:51gonna understand what you and Dan had together I know you still love him and I think he I think
19:57he still loves you and I think he where he cares about you a lot I think sometimes he don't
20:04go about
20:05things the probably way he should I feel like our relationship was very much in the end built on
20:11ego yeah I feel like things that I wanted to say to him back then I didn't say because I
20:17didn't I
20:18didn't want to get hurt so my best the best thing for me to do is just shut down and
20:22just yeah end
20:24things when it wasn't really what I wanted to do I know and I know you regret that you said
20:29it to me
20:29already that you regret it I just know how happy we could have been together if I just weren't so
20:34fucking self-centered I ain't got a crystal ball but I fucking wish you did I wish I did at
20:41all
20:41because I'd love to see you and Dan walk into the sunset together I genuinely would I think you're
20:44great for each other but who knows out come here give me a cuddle it breaks my heart to see
20:51you sad
20:51like this but come here I love you so much everything's gonna be all right okay thank you
20:56for being there for me of course anytime I promise you I'll always be there for you
21:02God only knows if you love me but he's been hard to find
21:11the only way is love
21:23I miss the bad times staring at the stars in the car I miss the sad highs looking for a
21:29light in the dark I'm in the good times every time it get kind of hard I miss the bad
21:34times bad times I miss the late nights dreaming like we never
21:40where do we start we need to move everything you can see in here has got to go this is
21:45the nursery
21:45this is gonna be the nursery
21:50hi welcome to hello I'm gonna help yeah I'd like to change my number please
21:58oh you want to go fully up no would you just get just out I know we're trying to go
22:02out but you're
22:03going up I'm like down here I think you need to be up and I push but when you don't
22:08you cleared all the
22:08cushions out yeah maybe it would have been better to put them around the corner
22:17well you look comfy though Oliver what's going on
22:22every time make it kind of hard I miss the bad times bad times
22:31yeah
22:36hi missed you so much I'm zoom scrolling
22:40oh I missed you so much you okay yeah how are you
22:44snack fun stunning love it our favorite guess what I've just done what have you done change my number
22:50oh you have ice so who's gonna get the number I feel like I need it you definitely need it
22:55because
22:56I do call you a hundred times a day yeah you do so who's gonna get the phone call I
23:00don't think anyone
23:01I'm gonna miss the phone call no yeah you're because you get the phone calls and I come and sit
23:06in the
23:06room with you it's true and no one would ever know um no no one's getting it I've just decided
23:11I've
23:11the poor girl in the shop I was speaking to her for absolutely ages I just don't think anyone should
23:16have you I feel like we need to take a minute because you're very frantic I am you're making me
23:20anxious I'm sorry let's take her anyway closing our eyes yeah deep breath we're not gonna shit stir we're not
23:31gonna
23:32relay any information we're not gonna call anyone ever we're not gonna answer the phone and we're
23:39not gonna give out my number so I'm not doing that anymore that's it so no one's gonna get my
23:44number
23:44but you are the loophole of everything I don't want to be you're like that you're you're like that on
23:49the
23:49pyramid yeah no what is it a spider graph yes a spider graph do you remember those no what are
23:54they
23:54well you don't remember those at school when you write something in the bubble yeah you're in the bubble
23:58and then everyone's that sprouted off of you because everyone calls you to the sprout I don't
24:02need a sprout oh my god and I thought I was dyslexic maybe I'm not dyslexic you're actually
24:05smarter than you think um but yeah I'm so happy we're home though same babe honestly just even
24:11silence I've had a week of dnd same I mean the phone's been off it's been great no your phone's
24:17not been off it's your phone has not been off Elmer don't lie it hasn't been off we have had
24:23a little
24:23catch up with Freddie Freddie and Danny done checked in and then I spoke to self very briefly
24:28didn't go into as much as I would like to go into I do actually need to see it to
24:31be honest
24:32um Amy called obviously didn't answer um yeah I couldn't I didn't have the brain capacity
24:38it was just it was over and out but I would like to know obviously what what she was checking
24:43in for
24:43really yeah but she's gone away so yeah that would be interesting I don't know would you reckon she's
24:47annoyed with Harry I think maybe yeah because because Amy did ride or die she rode or died she
24:55did ride or die for Harry she was she was she like got a lot of slack and a lot
24:59of backlash from doing
25:00that to be honest that we all have like at the end of the day when that all happened with
25:04Harry we were
25:05the ones that were picking him up off the floor we were the ones that were there and and got
25:10him to
25:10where he is now which is a very confident got his got his he's got his mojo mojo back I
25:16just feel
25:17sad because I feel like there is still a bit of awkwardness in like Alfred in that in our group
25:22I hope that it's not awkward I'd like to think and I've not spoken to Amber about any of this
25:28I'd like to think I've not I've not asked her her take or anything because I just didn't want to
25:32involve her really maybe she's going to be the glue met yeah to bring 2.5 back together yeah
25:38because at the minute we are we're drowning we're in the Vietnamese sea and we're so we're at the bottom
25:43yeah yeah
25:53One two three
25:55One two three
25:57There ain't no more one two threes they're gonna get off that that thing trust me
26:01What's going on I've got a really good idea break should I go make a cup of tea
26:06That's exactly what I was about to say yeah you're really not helping it
26:10I'm going to make the tea I'm going to make the tea
26:12Thanks Sam
26:14Break then yeah?
26:15Break yeah
26:17Well I'll be honest I don't want to you know be negative with this but I don't think this is
26:22happening today
26:23It weren't for me
26:24Why don't I feel like we're in bed together?
26:25It feels like we're in bed together yeah
26:26This bed's normally a lot more comfortable sorry darling
26:31How you been anyway?
26:32Oh mate all right good now I'm home yeah
26:35Well you didn't really have a group of boys did you?
26:37I didn't really have anyone so I had wills with me
26:39James was off gallivanting with Jo and Janae and Jodie
26:42What's that all about? He's dressed in the same as everyone was that?
26:44I don't know it was the strangest thing I've ever seen
26:47I see videos of him running in the sea with Janae
26:50Yeah no one had their little friendship groups
26:52I thought going out there it's only Elegan out there you know we're cool now
26:58We've got to a stage where all of the whatever from last time
27:03Listen when we went to Portugal last year I think there was probably still a lot of anger there
27:06And we were still a bit frosty with each other and this time we was around each other quite a
27:11lot
27:11And like I say trying to manage a friendship with someone that you've had something with
27:14I don't think it's a situation I've never been in before
27:16Normally my exes you just don't never speak again
27:18I mean after the first few days I ended up looking like the idiot do you know what I mean?
27:22Because it's like Courtney starts coming out with things that wound me up
27:25Because she got involved in something that was nothing to do with her
27:27But I ain't gonna lie I found it tough out there to do
27:29Of course
27:30I did find it tough and like I say I didn't have you out there
27:32I didn't have the rest of the boys out there
27:34Yeah
27:34And yeah I found it really hard at times
27:36I felt a little bit on my own with it
27:38Yeah
27:38And in my own thoughts with everything and it weren't nice
27:41But you're back now
27:42I've got you working
27:43You're happy
27:44Mate listen I'll be honest
27:45I missed her to be honest
27:46Yeah I did
27:47I did miss her
27:48Yeah
27:49As far as trips go
27:50Not like it sounded like one I didn't want to be on
27:52People flying home early weren't they?
27:54Freddie left the trip early
27:55I see that on his social media that he left early
27:56Why?
27:57Listen there's a couple things that went on when I was out there
27:59Got to the stage he was like
28:00I've had enough I'm going home at the end
28:01I was like mate you want to go home go home
28:03I'll come with you I have to be honest
28:05I should have got on a flight and all
28:07If it was anyone but Fred I probably would have got on a flight
28:10But I ain't sitting for 14 hours next to him
28:13Do you know what I mean?
28:15Cheering my ear off
28:16And then he's got home and he's decided he's going away for a while
28:22Tenerife
28:27Tenerife?
28:28He's sitting around
28:29Basically he's going on holiday
28:30Yeah
28:30I think
28:31He's going on holiday Tenerife
28:34I couldn't tell he was friends with you after that trip
28:36Nah
28:36Well I ain't seen it
28:37I've not obviously seen anyone
28:38I've seen James and Jodie since she's been back
28:40Obviously I've seen you
28:42You ain't seen so for a while have you
28:43Yeah
28:43I ain't seen so for ages now
28:45Oh yeah
28:45Bump's like
28:45He doesn't stop moving
28:47So
28:48We went to the theatre the other day up London
28:50She's sitting next to me
28:51She's going every like three, four inches
28:54Oof
28:54Oof
28:55I'm like what?
28:56You don't think something's going on
28:57Just punch her in the stomach
28:58Like little kicks you can feel them all now
29:00Mate it's sick
29:01The baby's excited
29:01It's so good Dan
29:03It's just like his old man
29:03Yeah
29:04Just come out all excited
29:06Just all the time
29:07But
29:08We've been waiting a long time for these things
29:09And it's all coming together innit
29:11Yeah
29:11It really is
29:12But we need to get this room done
29:13I can sit here and talk to you all day
29:15We're having a break aren't we?
29:16How long's the break?
29:17What break do you have?
29:18Well
29:19When I used to work on the site
29:20I used to get
29:21Half hour at 11
29:23And then you'd get an hour at 1
29:25Seeing as we're not doing a full eight hour day
29:27I'd say that we're just making the use of the hour and a half
29:29As it stands
29:31You're a real hot hair
29:33With the body to match
29:35I'm falling out alive
29:37Cause I'm hoping to catch you
29:39Try to be sweet to me baby
29:43I see you in my cinema
29:47Hello
29:48Hello, are you alright?
29:49Yeah, yeah
29:49Yeah, good
29:51Freezing
29:52Nice bit of cake
29:53Bit heavy though
29:55So how you feeling?
29:56I'm just gutted
29:57Everything really
29:59Do you know what I mean?
30:00Like
30:01Obviously I want you to know that my conversation with Elma and Courtney
30:05Weren't with any malicious intent of like
30:07I'm going to come here
30:08I'm going to drop this information
30:09Yeah
30:09I want to ruin things between you
30:11It was just something that come out of my mouth
30:14To the wrong people
30:15Yeah
30:15And I felt vulnerable
30:16And I felt like I was getting somewhere with these girls
30:19Yeah
30:19And I actually thought maybe they do want to get to know me
30:21Maybe we can form some sort of friendship
30:22But I can know they just played me
30:25Really
30:25It was a shock hearing it from
30:27Who I heard it from
30:29I would have preferred to hear it from you
30:30If it was going to be anyone
30:32But listen Elma
30:33I've said to Fred like
30:35I'm never going to find out the truth
30:36But
30:37I want to move on with the friendship
30:39And just leave it there
30:40Yeah
30:41It was never said in a way of like
30:44I want this to meddle in between your and Freddie's friendship
30:47It was more so they asked me
30:49That how you two are now
30:51And how I feel about how close you are
30:52Yeah
30:53And I just said look listen
30:54I can't get my head around it
30:55Because he never used to say anything nice about her
30:57I just think like
30:58It's a shame that it's got to this
30:59Massive shame
31:00No tell me about it
31:00I haven't got it
31:01We're back to square one
31:03But if anything probably worse
31:05I think leave that for the minute
31:07Like what's gone on there
31:09It's blown up again
31:10You've tried
31:10It's failed quite quick
31:12I think time can only tell with that
31:15Yeah
31:16But Fred did come to mine
31:17Oh good
31:18And then I just said to him like
31:20Where are you at now
31:21And he is very emotional at the minute
31:23And he has decided to leave Essex
31:27Right
31:27So erm
31:28Which I was shocked about really
31:31And I don't know when he's coming back
31:34Do you know what it makes me upset?
31:37I feel like I was the only one that sort of
31:41Knew how to
31:44Tell him things in a softer way
31:45Where his head wasn't going to run away with him
31:47Yeah
31:48And I think a lot of people have
31:51Fuelled him and he's run away
31:52I feel like not being friends with me
31:53Has been the worst thing that he could possibly have done
31:55Or we could possibly have done to each other
31:57I don't want to see you upset
32:00But let it out
32:01I know
32:03I just want to get mad to me
32:06I know you do
32:08If you're my mate I'll give you the world
32:11And you'll mean the most to me
32:13Do you know what I mean?
32:14I don't know
32:15I just feel like a lot of things that I've been through the last year
32:18Has really affected me
32:20Yeah and I don't doubt they have
32:21Because obviously it comes out
32:23Of course it does
32:24Yeah
32:24And hurt people do hurt people
32:26We've all been there
32:27I've done the same
32:28But again
32:30You need to heal both of you
32:31And I think you just need time away
32:33Try and get happier
32:35And ultimately
32:35There's two best mates
32:37Who's had something special
32:40Anyway
32:40Listen
32:41We're at a place where it's like
32:42It's fine
32:43It's done
32:43Let's try and move forward
32:45I hope
32:46That things get better
32:47And just
32:48Let's just leave it there
32:50Yeah
32:50Do you want some coke?
32:52I might probably trim that
32:53Might cheer you up
32:53Yeah
32:55Cut it in about three
32:56Because it's massive
32:59Let me taste a bit of that sauce
33:02Oh it's a lovely sauce
33:04What a rocketướcin
33:13The only
33:14way is love ooooh
33:17When I'm
33:18seeing through his eyes
33:21in the beam
33:22I've had a spotlight lifting me up
33:26paradise
33:27Paradise, made of thinnest ice
33:31It was hot, fast, silk, cool
33:35Glamorous, so wondrous
33:39Shall I get the door?
33:41No, me!
33:43Hello!
33:48How are you?
33:51Oh, you're so cute
33:52I miss you!
33:53Are you happy we're here?
33:55Can I have a hug?
33:57Hi!
33:58How are you guys?
34:02I miss you!
34:03I miss you so much
34:16Hello!
34:19You're like, Mum, I miss you
34:21Oh!
34:28I feel really weird eating beans on toes
34:30It's like an old school dish, that
34:33Let's just have daddy for beans on toes
34:36No, that is
34:37It's a fucking special, ain't it?
34:38It's lovely
34:38Oh, it's a lovely picture of you
34:46Shall we tell you a secret, LaRose?
34:48Come here
34:48Shall we tell you a secret?
34:52I miss you so much
34:54Oh
34:55Do you miss me?
34:58You're going to sneeze
34:58You know what, I think it's the UK, Lauren
35:00There's a lot of sneezing and stuff
35:02Oh my God
35:03Go and get a handbag
35:04Go and get a handbag for me
35:05I'm going to show you something
35:05Since I got back from Vietnam
35:07I'm like
35:07Sniff a lid, sneezing
35:09He was so okay in Vietnam
35:10Yeah
35:11Right
35:12Please, Lauren
35:12I can't believe
35:15That you
35:17And Harry
35:17Are friends
35:18It ain't normal
35:19No, it's so nice
35:21But I still can't get my head around it
35:23Is that not weird?
35:25No, I don't think it was
35:26No
35:26He loves it
35:27I love it
35:29I'm so shocked
35:30I love it
35:32Because it makes my life easier
35:33And I would rather you get with everyone
35:35But I can't believe you want to hang around Jo's ex
35:37What are you?
35:38That's not you
35:39No, but also as well
35:40We need to remember
35:41He was my friend
35:42True
35:42Hello
35:44Hello
35:45I got a real prize for you
35:47What have you got me?
35:49Clothes of rice
35:52I'm scared
35:52When can I open?
35:54Open it now
35:56Oh my God
35:57Oh my God
35:57Nata
35:58I'm going to do it on your face
36:00You're going to do it on my face?
36:02First I'll do it on Jo
36:04Do it on Jo first
36:05It's nice and pink
36:07Where does that go?
36:09It goes on the cheek
36:10I think it's fake though
36:11It looks quite pigmented to me
36:13Is it pigmented?
36:15Is it nice?
36:17What was the change?
36:18How did that happen?
36:20Obviously we were very close with Jodie
36:22We were just with each other every single day
36:24Yeah, was James alright with you?
36:25Amazing
36:25Was he absolutely cool with you?
36:27Absolutely fine
36:28He's never really got that involved though, James
36:30He's more to the banter side of it, hasn't he?
36:32And also I've known him for like 10 years
36:34Like him and Dan
36:34Thank you
36:35Because they've actually seen news for you
36:36Rather than what you did
36:38They look pretty
36:38And now I'm so glad
36:40That the rest of the group see
36:41How fun and cool and outgoing you both are
36:44It was honestly like just such a vibe
36:46Like having like hearts, hearts of Dan, James
36:48Elmer and Courtney were still very much on their own
36:50Elmer I'm shocked about
36:51She's a nasty nasty girl
36:53Elmer did a lot
36:53She is, she's a bitch
36:55I love Elmer, why?
36:57She's just a bitch
36:57Do you know what?
36:58I think Elmer acts like she's such a nice girl
37:00But deep down she's not
37:02Why?
37:02She's actually got very nasty traits behind her
37:04I think
37:05Really?
37:05Do you know what? It was really crazy
37:06Because when we was away
37:07She was literally hearing information
37:09From everyone
37:10And going around spreading it around
37:12And the worst thing was
37:14Like tactfully
37:14Yeah
37:15It weren't even like
37:15Just dropped a bit of gossip here by accident
37:17It was
37:19Almost like she knew what she was doing
37:21And what it was going to cause
37:22I hear what you're saying
37:23That isn't very nice
37:24And I get it
37:24But I just feel like
37:26Don't worry about that
37:27Stand the positive
37:28Yeah
37:28You've got so much more out of it
37:30You've made up with so many people
37:31You've had the best time
37:34I just hope this energy stays
37:36With Harry in Essex
37:37I do
37:38I'm intrigued to see what it would be like
37:40If we were in the same room
37:40With Harry and Amy
37:41Yeah
38:00Oh
38:01There you go
38:02Thank you
38:03Got that
38:03Lovely, thank you
38:04How are you?
38:34Yeah, all good
38:35Yeah
38:40Yeah
38:49Yeah
38:54Yeah
38:55Yeah
38:56Yeah
38:59Yeah
39:02Yeah
39:04Yeah
39:04Listen, there's no lies told
39:06Like I did have a conversation with them
39:08And it was nice
39:09It was civil
39:11It was quite refreshing to actually just get a load of stuff out and talk on a normal level
39:15Instead of arguing over a table
39:18Yeah
39:18Yeah, it has been nearly two years, mum
39:19Yeah
39:20Like, come on
39:20How much more can we keep going on with it?
39:22No, you can't
39:22No, you can't
39:23And it's obviously worked for them
39:25Yeah
39:25That's what I said to her
39:26It's horrible, we all said
39:27Oh, it ain't gonna work
39:28I'll really give that a month
39:29They've proved us wrong
39:31Yeah
39:31Yeah
39:31It's worked for them
39:32And for you to go and do what you've done now, you're obviously well and truly over it
39:37Oh God, a million percent
39:37Which I love
39:38I love that
39:39A million percent over it
39:40Yeah, you're in a different place now
39:41Yeah, I feel like
39:43Yeah, I was just a little bit frustrated because obviously I didn't have a chance to tell yous what was
39:50going on
39:51Yeah
39:51Because there was obviously so many people ringing around going back from Vietnam to Essex on the phones
39:56Yeah, well I've worked on that
39:57And it all went like around, didn't it, so quickly
39:59Very quickly
40:00There's more to it because obviously I've spoken with Livy and Amber
40:03Amber's obviously mentioned that there's a group chat that they've made that doesn't include me
40:08And a lot of reporting back's gone to Amber as well
40:11Aww
40:12So yeah, so I was a bit like, just a bit shocked, I feel like
40:16Aww
40:16Aww
40:16You just don't, you just don't expect you, I don't think you, I just don't expect my best friends to
40:20Do that
40:21I just feel like, yeah, she's just doing a lot of
40:24Mmm, I'm gutted
40:25Gossiping and I'm gutted, yeah
40:27Yeah
40:28Ooh, I'm ready to die
40:32I saw it in your eyes
40:35I found you
40:36I found me
40:38I found me
40:39I found you
40:41I found you
40:58Just tell me how much you missed me then
40:59No, a lot
41:00A lot
41:01A lot
41:01So much, no, yeah, so much
41:03Just give me an overall of what went on
41:05Everything
41:05It was very heavy with me, you, Courtney, Freddie
41:09Oh, Harry
41:10Livy, Harry
41:10Everyone
41:11Everyone
41:12Everyone
41:12Everyone
41:13From day one
41:15Vietnam was a lot
41:16I've changed my number, by the way
41:17What?
41:18No, no, I've
41:19Sorry?
41:20I've changed my number
41:20Why have you changed your number?
41:22Because apparently I talk too much
41:23And the reason that all of this is
41:25The whole, the whole root of every problem was
41:27That I'm, I talked to everyone on the phone
41:29Harry ignored me for the last four days of the trip
41:32He said to me, the reason was because
41:34I've rung Essex, Essex being Saffron
41:37I've rung Essex and told Essex
41:41That's what I keep saying now
41:44News of Essex
41:45It sounds like that
41:46Anyway, I felt like I was being used as a bit of a scapegoat
41:48I felt like everyone jumped in the bandwagon
41:49That I was this big shit-stirrer
41:52Which I wasn't
41:53I was just stating facts constantly
41:54I was relaying information
41:55What every single person has done
41:57Yeah
41:57But for some reason it was a bigger issue when I've done it
42:00So, am I making sense? I feel like I'm going mad today
42:01No, I get what you mean
42:02No, I do get what you mean
42:03No, you're making sense
42:03Oh, that's another thing
42:04Sorry to interrupt
42:05Amy called me
42:06The day we got back, Amy called me
42:08Amy hasn't called me in a while
42:09So, the fact that she called me
42:10Like, threw me off anyway
42:11Did you speak to her then?
42:12Well, no, I didn't answer the phone
42:13Oh
42:13I did see her
42:15And I said to her
42:16What's going on out there?
42:18And she was like
42:18Harry doesn't feel like he can fully trust Elmer
42:21She implied you were the mole in the camp
42:23And I made it clear that
42:24Whatever Elmer talks to anyone about
42:26Be it Freddie, me
42:28We talk about our own stuff
42:30We do
42:30It's never Harry's business
42:31Or Amy's business
42:33Or Livy's business
42:34That's never the case here
42:35We have our own friendships with Elmer
42:36But then she did go on to say
42:38I warned Harry about Elmer a little while ago
42:41About what?
42:43I then went, about what?
42:45And she went, Harry mentioned something to me a few months ago
42:47I then turned around to him and said
42:50You need to watch Elmer then
42:52That's such a horrible thing to say when I've not done anything
42:54Like, I actually haven't
42:55I'm actually upset
42:56That is a bit strong that she said that
42:58No, I don't get that
42:59He's actually upsetting me
43:00Oh, don't be upset
43:02Because I can't do anything right
43:03Like, I don't understand
43:05I literally can't do anything right
43:06It's a horrible thing to say
43:07Like, that's actually me
43:08You haven't done anything wrong to Harry
43:10Like, at all
43:10Like, at all
43:12It's quite confusing
43:13That Amy's saying this
43:14Harry's saying this
43:14It's bizarre
43:15I don't know if I've ever been the same with him
43:15That's a really horrible thing to say
43:17To be fair, we're away from that now
43:19I feel like
43:19Never had a trip like it
43:21Yeah
43:21Well, Freddie went home
43:22I know
43:23Well, I have seen Fred
43:25Have his wife to him?
43:26Yeah, so I've seen him, obviously
43:27I've seen Fred and Elle
43:28I believe it or not
43:29We've seen both
43:29Miss Essex
43:31What do you say?
43:31She's been active
43:33I'm going to get you a sash
43:34Yeah
43:35So obviously
43:35Look, Elm
43:37You're a good friend
43:38You was always going to tell me that
43:40Whether it was the right timing
43:41And everyone's going on about
43:43When you should have told me
43:44I think they're taking away from the fact that
43:45It weren't the best timing
43:46But it's also not the root cause of the problem
43:47No, exactly
43:48And also, you were going to tell me two weeks after
43:50It would have been the same thing
43:51And it would have been worse
43:52Yeah
43:52We're never going to know the truth
43:54There's the truth
43:55There's Freddie's side
43:56There's Ella's side
43:56Mm-hmm
43:57Yes, it's hurtful
43:58Yes, I did question everything
44:00Between me and Fred
44:02When you were away
44:03Of course
44:04When I've heard it, it's shocking
44:05Naturally, yeah
44:05Of course I'm going to react
44:05But what was important to me
44:07Is speaking to Fred
44:09How did that go?
44:10Erm, yeah, fine
44:12It's all dealt with now
44:13But he has decided to take a step back from Essex
44:19Yeah
44:20Yeah
44:20I'm going to cry again
44:21Hang up
44:22No, yeah
44:23I know
44:24What do you mean?
44:26Where?
44:26What?
44:27He's going to a retreat in Tenerife
44:32Listen, when Fred told me
44:33I'll be honest with you
44:34I was quite disappointed
44:35I do feel like as a mate
44:37I've sort of rid the storm with him
44:40For other things
44:41And then I've been left
44:43But
44:44It's because he's struggling
44:46Yeah
44:46He obviously ain't in the best of head spaces to do that
44:49He feels frustrated
44:50He's confused
44:51How do you feel?
44:52Well, I bowled my eyes out
44:53When he was like
44:54I'm not going to be around for ages
44:55I was like sobbing
44:56How long is ages?
44:57There is no timeline Elm
44:59He's really just done
45:00Yeah
45:01He is done
45:04When did we forget how to be held?
45:11Next time
45:12I feel like I did go to Vietnam
45:13And everyone's off their marbles
45:15I hate that I love Danica!
45:18You said that I was a mummy in the camp
45:20It's really nasty
45:22I've got about 14 weeks left
45:26Oh, don't try
45:28I'm just protecting my family
45:30Like I always will
45:31Ask me someone
45:33I've not shown you messages in a group chat
45:35No
45:36Oh my God
45:37I'm going to go mental