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The Affair-Season 5 Episode 11
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00:00:04Previously on the affair, I found some sort of shrine at dad's. What did you do with it? I threw
00:00:11it up. Why? Because I hate looking at her. Two astronauts meet by chance on the International
00:00:17Space Station. They fall desperately in love, but their love is doomed. They try to forget each
00:00:23other. They build completely new lives with new people, but deep down they secretly still love
00:00:28each other. Until one day, they run into each other again on the opposite side of the galaxy.
00:00:34Because all this time, they thought they were moving away from each other. They were actually
00:00:39in orbit. I love you. I don't want your love. It terrifies me, and it's caused me nothing
00:00:46with pain. We can't afford a wedding, can we? Come on, Whitney. You've been talking about
00:00:51having a wedding in this house since before your embraces. Okay, I just received the last
00:00:55part of my advance, and I can't think of a better thing to spend it on. I used to think
00:00:58when we had no money, and we had all these kids, and we were fighting, I would look at
00:01:01you sometimes, and I would think, one day this is going to be worth it. One day, I'm going
00:01:05to dance with him at Whitney's wedding. I saw the way you look at women like they're
00:01:11prey. How the fuck did you not know it was her in the hot tub? I would do anything, anything,
00:01:16to undo what happened. If I can just give her a good wedding with us all there together having
00:01:22fun, then... She doesn't want you there. Jesus Christ.
00:01:36I was screaming into the canyon at the moment of my death. The echo I created, I lasted my
00:01:47last breath. My voice, it made an avalanche and buried a man I never knew. And when I was
00:01:56dead, he died. His widow, bride, met your daddy, and they made you. I have only one thing to
00:02:03do, and that's be the way that I am, and then sink back into the ocean. I have only one
00:02:09thing to do,
00:02:10and that's be the way that I am, and then sink back into the ocean. I have only one thing
00:02:16to do,
00:02:17and that's be the way that I am, and then sink back into the ocean. Sink back into the ocean.
00:02:47Sink back into the ocean. Sink back into the ocean. Sink back into the ocean. Sink back into the ocean.
00:03:02And five, six, seven, eight.
00:03:11Sink back into the ocean. Sink back into the ocean. Sink back into the ocean.
00:03:20Ready? And pizza arms, pizzas. Like a pizza, yeah. Okay, turn. Spin. Spin. Spin.
00:03:31One, two, three, four, ride the tractor.
00:03:38Kick the puppy.
00:03:40Kick the puppy with your right foot, Trevor.
00:03:43Kick the puppy.
00:03:45Okay, sorry, guys.
00:03:48Stop, stop, stop.
00:03:50Okay, let's start again. Back to one.
00:03:52Trevor, you kick the puppy with your right foot.
00:03:54Kick the puppy?
00:03:55Yes.
00:03:56Dad, what the fuck does ride the tractor mean?
00:03:58Martin, I've told you three times.
00:03:59This, okay?
00:04:00This is ride the tractor, okay?
00:04:02Ride the tractor.
00:04:04Kick the puppy, all right?
00:04:05It's easy, okay?
00:04:08Come on, everyone.
00:04:09Your sister wants a flash dance for her wedding.
00:04:11Flash mob.
00:04:12A flash mob for her wedding,
00:04:13and that's what she's gonna get, okay?
00:04:15So come on.
00:04:15Let's go again.
00:04:17Everyone back to one.
00:04:21Okay?
00:04:22Once more with feeling.
00:04:23And remember, you're happy.
00:04:24Your sister's getting married, so smile.
00:04:28Okay, let's go.
00:04:30Hey.
00:04:30Oh, hey.
00:04:32What's going?
00:04:34It's going great.
00:04:35It's going great.
00:04:35It's going great.
00:04:36Mom, come on.
00:04:37Get in.
00:04:38I can't.
00:04:38I'm the videographer.
00:04:42Show me what you got.
00:04:43Yeah, but it's not, it's not, uh, it's not perfect yet.
00:04:45It's not...
00:04:46Be kind.
00:04:46It's still developing.
00:04:47Just show me.
00:04:48Yeah, Dad, are we doing this or what?
00:04:50It's fucking freezing.
00:04:55Yes, Trevor.
00:04:56Let's go.
00:04:57Ready?
00:04:59Five, six, seven, eight.
00:05:20I pictured a rainbow.
00:05:22Nice.
00:05:25You held it in your hands.
00:05:29Sierra, are you ready?
00:05:30I had flashes.
00:05:35You saw the plan.
00:05:38I wandered out in the world for you.
00:05:41Martin, Trevor, Stacy, go.
00:05:43Well, you just stayed in your room.
00:05:47I saw the crescent.
00:05:53You saw the whole of the moon.
00:05:55And everyone!
00:05:58The whole of the moon.
00:06:04You were there in the turnstiles
00:06:07With the wind at your heels
00:06:09You stretched for the stars
00:06:11And you know how it feels
00:06:13To reach too high
00:06:16Too far
00:06:18Too soon
00:06:20You saw the whole of the moon
00:06:39TERNESS
00:06:40Hey, Trevor, can I borrow you for a second?
00:06:42I can't.
00:06:45Need your help.
00:06:46I'm riding my toast.
00:06:49Trevor, I know you hate me
00:06:50but consider this a favor to your sister.
00:06:54I don't hate you.
00:06:56It's okay if you do. I hated my dad, too.
00:06:59No, really, I don't.
00:07:03I just...
00:07:05I wish you'd been around more.
00:07:14Me, too.
00:07:17Yeah. Good talk.
00:07:25Hey, how's it going?
00:07:28Perfect.
00:07:31I can't believe they're making me do this.
00:07:34Well, you said yes.
00:07:36What was I supposed to say?
00:07:37What the hell do I know about getting married?
00:07:41Well, doesn't she have some poems or something she wants people to read?
00:07:46Yeah.
00:07:47So, then they say their vows, exchange rings, and then kiss, right?
00:07:52How hard could it be?
00:07:53Well, she wants me to say something.
00:07:55Something important.
00:07:59Well, you like Colin, right?
00:08:01I mean, of all the boyfriends she's ever had, he's definitely my favorite.
00:08:05What do you like about him?
00:08:08He's not a dick.
00:08:10He treats her well.
00:08:12He's a decent guy.
00:08:14I mean, honestly, like, it could have been much worse.
00:08:17Well, why did you say that?
00:08:18I mean, not the part about being worse, but...
00:08:20Sure, I mean, she's getting a good deal out of it.
00:08:23I'm just not sure what's in it for him.
00:08:25What do you mean?
00:08:29I mean, I just don't know why anyone would want to marry my sister.
00:08:32Martin.
00:08:32Ted, come on.
00:08:34She's a lot.
00:08:35Whitney is a lot.
00:08:36Yeah, that's what makes her great.
00:08:38When I get married, I'm going to choose someone much easier.
00:08:43Yeah, well, you're welcome to choose whoever you want, but you may change your mind in a few years.
00:08:49Your sister's really smart and passionate and believes deeply in things.
00:08:56And, yeah, she can be a little dramatic, but she's going to keep his life really interesting.
00:09:02I get from where you're sitting, you know, she seems like a lot of work, but...
00:09:05I think you realize as you get older, the person you want to live with is not the one who
00:09:10keeps telling you how wonderful you are.
00:09:12It's the one who you just can't stop talking to because you have no idea what she's going to say
00:09:16next.
00:09:21I think Colin got pretty lucky, too, you know.
00:09:24You should say that.
00:09:32I'm going to go.
00:09:32I'm really, really busy.
00:09:34Yeah, well, good luck.
00:09:35Me, too.
00:09:42Colin?
00:09:47Hey.
00:09:48Hey.
00:09:51I was just checking to see if you're okay.
00:09:53Do you need anything, or...?
00:09:56They just told me to get dressed in here, so...
00:09:58Of course, yeah, no, this is the son-in-law suite.
00:10:01I actually remembered shaving in that bathroom just before my wedding.
00:10:06Really?
00:10:09Wow, you used a straight razor.
00:10:12Yeah, it was my dad's.
00:10:15Oh, where are your parents?
00:10:16Are they here yet?
00:10:18Uh, no.
00:10:20They couldn't make it, actually.
00:10:22Oh, why?
00:10:24Well, they wanted to, of course.
00:10:26Got them a flight from Belfast and everything, but, um...
00:10:30My dad got arrested, so...
00:10:31What?
00:10:35Yeah, I don't know why I just told you that.
00:10:36Please don't tell Whitney.
00:10:37I just told her he was sick.
00:10:39No, no, of course I won't.
00:10:41I mean, is...
00:10:42Is everything okay?
00:10:43Anything I can do?
00:10:52I'm sorry.
00:10:54Colin.
00:10:58I shouldn't have gotten him a ticket.
00:11:00I knew he'd do this.
00:11:02It's such a waste of fucking money.
00:11:05What happened?
00:11:06Is he okay?
00:11:07He is fine.
00:11:08He's just drunk.
00:11:09He does this, especially when he gets stressed,
00:11:12and flying stresses him out.
00:11:15So I should have known.
00:11:17Colin.
00:11:20I'm so sorry.
00:11:22How about your mother?
00:11:23Can she make it?
00:11:27I don't think so.
00:11:29She...
00:11:31missed her flight.
00:11:32And it's too complicated for her to figure out
00:11:34how to get the ticket reissued, so...
00:11:38It's fine.
00:11:39I'll just send her some pictures, shit like that.
00:11:41Wait.
00:11:42Where is she now?
00:11:45What do you mean?
00:11:45Well, if I get her a new ticket,
00:11:47is she near an airport?
00:11:48I mean, how long is the flight?
00:11:51It's about seven hours.
00:11:52Okay, so...
00:11:53Wait, she could be here by ten or eleven?
00:11:55You want to try it?
00:11:56You really don't have to do that.
00:11:58This is all the way.
00:11:59Look, first of all, call me Noah.
00:12:01And secondly, I'd really, really like to help.
00:12:04Why?
00:12:07Because you're family.
00:12:10You get a pretty bad rap in this family, Noah.
00:12:14Yeah, well, they've done some things to deserve that.
00:12:17Also, the Soloway women are pretty tough.
00:12:21Good luck with yours.
00:12:24Here's the thing about the family you're marrying into.
00:12:27We're all batshit crazy.
00:12:29And we can be brutal with each other,
00:12:31but when the shit hits the fan,
00:12:33we show up.
00:12:38It's not much, but it's not nothing.
00:12:43Where I come from, it's a lot.
00:12:52Yeah.
00:12:53Okay.
00:12:55So, boarding in 90 minutes?
00:12:58Great.
00:12:59Okay, can you send me the confirmation?
00:13:01Yeah, that's my email.
00:13:03Perfect.
00:13:04Bye.
00:13:06What's that about?
00:13:08Nothing.
00:13:09Wow.
00:13:10You look great.
00:13:17This is really nice.
00:13:20Really, really nice.
00:13:31I think it's time.
00:13:34I know.
00:14:05What the...
00:14:13Hey, hey, are you, uh, Helen Butler?
00:14:20No.
00:14:21Uh, these are for Helen.
00:14:23Can you sign?
00:14:24Sure.
00:14:28Here's the note.
00:14:30Here you go.
00:14:30Got it.
00:14:31Thanks.
00:14:32Have a good day.
00:14:46Victor Hugo, you asshole.
00:14:50Hey, buddy!
00:14:51Can you move out of the way?
00:14:53Oh, fuck.
00:14:56Hey, Bruce!
00:14:58Bruce!
00:14:59Bruce, where are you going?
00:15:01It isn't safe.
00:15:03What isn't safe?
00:15:05They're after me.
00:15:05I have to leave.
00:15:06Come on, let's go back and...
00:15:07Don't touch me, you fucking pig!
00:15:08It's okay, okay.
00:15:09It's okay, Bruce.
00:15:10It's fine.
00:15:11You're safe.
00:15:12Come on, let's go back inside.
00:15:13Don't you understand?
00:15:15I can't go back in there.
00:15:16I don't know them.
00:15:17I don't know any of those people.
00:15:19Well, you know me.
00:15:21Don't you?
00:15:21You know me?
00:15:24Michael?
00:15:26Michael, is that you?
00:15:29Yeah, it's me.
00:15:30How are you, Bruce?
00:15:31It's good to see you again.
00:15:33Oh, you made it.
00:15:35You made it.
00:15:36Yeah, I made it.
00:15:37Oh.
00:15:38They said you were dead.
00:15:39They told me you weren't coming back.
00:15:42Well, they were wrong.
00:15:45Do Mom and Dad know?
00:15:47No.
00:15:47Not yet.
00:15:48No, I was, uh...
00:15:49They're waiting for us inside.
00:15:51I thought I'd come and find you first.
00:15:52Will you come back and see them with me?
00:15:54Oh, Michael.
00:15:55I can't believe it's really you.
00:15:58It's really you.
00:16:00Oh.
00:16:01Oh.
00:16:03Oh.
00:16:04Oh.
00:16:05Oh.
00:16:06Oh.
00:16:06My...
00:16:06My little brother, my boy.
00:16:09Come on, Bruce.
00:16:10Come on.
00:16:11Let's go find Mom and Dad.
00:16:12Come on.
00:16:13You're okay.
00:16:23What the fuck?
00:16:24Here, Bruce.
00:16:26Bruce.
00:16:27Come here.
00:16:29Quick.
00:16:29Hide there, okay?
00:16:30Just hide there.
00:16:35What are we doing?
00:16:36Is this a game?
00:16:38Yeah.
00:16:38It's a game.
00:16:38We have to be quiet, okay?
00:17:01It's a great hiding place.
00:17:03Mom and Dad will never find us.
00:17:11No, they won't.
00:17:18They'll never even know we were here.
00:17:45He was there in the forest.
00:17:46Come here.uca
00:17:53And
00:17:59we're not there. I'm
00:18:01not there, but I can't do anything else. I can't
00:18:05not see anything. I can't
00:18:06see the earth on you.
00:18:17Oh, my God.
00:20:23Hello?
00:20:31Hello?
00:20:33Hello?
00:20:34Hello.
00:20:37One second.
00:20:43My ears.
00:20:46What can I do for you?
00:20:48Can I get a cup of coffee?
00:20:51A customer?
00:20:53Welcome to the end of the world.
00:20:56You can sit wherever you like.
00:20:57I'll bring it to you.
00:21:09Oh, man.
00:21:44This is your first time in Montauk?
00:21:46No, I grew up here. Thanks.
00:21:49Did you now? Local.
00:21:52It's a rarity around here.
00:21:55My mom actually worked here for a bit before I was born.
00:21:58Where?
00:22:01Here. This restaurant.
00:22:08Well, I'll be damned.
00:22:13Um, can I just get some eggs?
00:22:17Scrambled?
00:22:20Coming right up.
00:22:27Hey.
00:22:30Do you know where I can get some gas?
00:22:33Gas?
00:22:34For a car.
00:22:37Not anymore.
00:22:37Oh, boy.
00:23:03Those are so tiny.
00:23:10mom this is taking too long okay i'm just gonna do it no no no i'm almost done i'm almost
00:23:13done
00:23:13stop stop hold still
00:23:18did everyone make it i think so no one canceled last minute right i'm worried they might colin's
00:23:26friends are such flakes i just i don't want there to be any empty seats what you have to ask
00:23:31your
00:23:32father why because he was keeping the guest list mom i i asked you to take care of that i
00:23:38thought
00:23:38you did yes i know but he sent out the invitations and it just seemed much simpler and it doesn't
00:23:43really matter i mean come on it matters to me okay seriously you dropped it i know i the fuck
00:23:50is wrong with you i didn't mean to it's just that it's just that you turn so quickly jesus helen
00:23:56why
00:23:56are you even here because i thought you might need my help oh my god do not make this about
00:24:01you right now i do not have time for that today where did you learn to be so hard on
00:24:08people whitney
00:24:15why am i here if i bother you that much why am i here why didn't you just disinvite me
00:24:21like you did
00:24:22your dad optics think about it it would have looked terrible
00:24:35i do not want to have the same relationship with you as i do with my own mother but i
00:24:39don't know
00:24:40how to avoid it right now you could try listening to me for a change that would be a fun
00:24:43start no
00:24:44you don't you listen for what you want to hear and that's not the same thing i don't i don't
00:24:48understand what you mean okay right ask me a question one that you don't think that you already
00:24:54know the answer to
00:24:59are you in love
00:25:04i think so you're not sure no why not
00:25:13i don't know i'm not obsessed with him i've it's not like you and dad i i don't think about
00:25:19him all the time i don't wonder if he's okay sometimes a whole day goes by and i just forget
00:25:23about him and does that worry you no it doesn't worry me mom i'm not like you i want my
00:25:29marriage
00:25:29to be the great adventure of my life is that what you think i wanted isn't it
00:25:36peekaboo it's almost time are you ready what the hell is going on in here whitney for god
00:25:43sakes get your shoes on god your mother is so useless i should have known when i sent her
00:25:48in here to help you get ready that absolutely nothing would be accomplished okay grandma look
00:25:52i'm ready stand over there so i can see what do you think i think she looks perfect she certainly
00:26:02looks better than you did at your wedding that's something grandma is that what you're wearing wow
00:26:06you are really in rare form today helen i've got 60 people in the backyard including some shifty
00:26:12hooligans masquerading as musicians it's a band they're whitney's friends it's 42 degrees outside your
00:26:17father has already wandered off twice he's currently tied to a chair the chef just locked her key in that
00:26:22catering van and can't get the crow kombucha out and the dog seems to be dying you don't have a
00:26:27dog
00:26:27i didn't say i had a dog i said there is a dog on the property that seems to be
00:26:32perilously close to its final demise how's that for an omen for my granddaughter's wedding shut the
00:26:36fuck up it's okay no it's not okay she's a fucking monster yes i know but she's our monster okay
00:26:41so you
00:26:42just go outside take a couple of xanax have a drink try to have a good time everything is under
00:26:47control
00:26:48whit you look beautiful but even if you didn't you know it doesn't fucking matter
00:26:52because this is really just one incredibly expensive day that has absolutely no influence
00:26:56or augury or bearing on the rest of your life are you ready i'm ready
00:27:03what's that it's um whitney's band oh god let's do this
00:27:12no you first
00:27:19gotcha
00:27:44oh my lady
00:27:47oh wait you look amazing
00:27:50i'm so happy you're all my children
00:27:59okay mom why don't you go out and tell them we're ready to start
00:28:02okay okay all right you two you're up get out there
00:28:16so handsome so beautiful thank you thanks mom all right you ready yep
00:28:45um
00:28:47how do you want to do this should i do on my arm or something
00:29:07i think
00:29:09i think maybe like this
00:29:17okay
00:29:27okay
00:29:35ready
00:29:36yes okay
00:29:55A little airplane in the sky
00:30:00You point up at it
00:30:03I watch your face as you watch it go by
00:30:08Everything is perfect
00:30:12Where would I be right now
00:30:15If all my dreams had come true
00:30:19Deep down I know somehow
00:30:24I'd have never seen your face
00:30:27This world would be a different place
00:30:32Darling there's no way to know
00:30:34Which way your heart will go
00:30:42I just want you to be happy mom
00:30:45Summer sun on the sandy slide
00:30:49Silver swing set shining
00:30:52How can life feel so alive
00:30:57And still feel without dying
00:31:00Where would I be right now
00:31:04If all my dreams had come true
00:31:08Deep down I know somehow
00:31:13I'd have never seen your face
00:31:16Testing one, two, three
00:31:18Hey everyone
00:31:20Welcome to my sister's wedding
00:31:21Holy shit
00:31:32Get into my car
00:31:35Now the sun is sinking
00:31:38Down we've got a vibe in
00:31:41Now let's leave the city
00:31:52Who has Eddie today
00:31:54His parents do
00:31:55They live in Great Neck
00:31:58Wow really that's convenient
00:31:59Yeah I used to do summers out here as a kid
00:32:03You know that restaurant the lobster roll
00:32:07I do
00:32:08Well um my greatest ambition as a kid
00:32:13Was to be a waiter there
00:32:15You're kidding
00:32:16No during the summers
00:32:17They had all these young tan gorgeous wait staff
00:32:21And I thought life couldn't get any cooler than that
00:32:25Did you ever get a job there?
00:32:27No but I think I might shoot something there one day
00:32:30You should that would be amazing
00:32:31Yeah it would make a great location
00:32:36If everyone wouldn't mind leaving the dance floor
00:32:38The next song up is a special one
00:32:40That Colin would like to dedicate to his bride
00:32:42Oh shit it's happening
00:32:43Let's go
00:33:06I pictured a rainbow
00:33:12You held it in your hands
00:33:15I had flashes
00:33:21But you saw the plan
00:33:24I wandered out in the world for years
00:33:30While you just stayed in your room
00:33:34I saw the crescent
00:33:39You saw the whole of the moon
00:33:45The whole of the moon
00:33:50You were there in the turnstiles
00:33:53With the wind at your heels
00:33:55You stretched for the stars
00:33:57And you know how it feels
00:34:00To reach too high
00:34:01Too far
00:34:04Too soon
00:34:06You saw the whole of the moon
00:34:10I was grounded
00:34:15While you filled the skies
00:34:18I was dumbfounded
00:34:21I was dumbfounded by truth
00:34:25You cut through lies
00:34:27I saw the rain dirty valley
00:34:34You saw brigadoon
00:34:37I saw the crescent
00:34:43You saw the whole of the moon
00:34:55I'm filming
00:35:22Now it's time for our father-daughter
00:35:24Mother-son dance
00:35:25So kids find your parents
00:35:26And get them out there
00:35:36So pretty
00:35:37It's a wedding mom
00:35:38Suck it up
00:35:49Maybe we'll be together
00:35:53When the sun disappears
00:35:57Who's Colin dancing with?
00:35:59Oh, this is his mother
00:36:00Really?
00:36:02She just got here
00:36:03She had missed her flight or something
00:36:04She came all the way from Ireland
00:36:06You could be my little sister
00:36:08I have to introduce myself
00:36:10You could be my mother too
00:36:13Oh, I'll race you to the light
00:36:16I'll race you to the light
00:36:19I'll race you to the light
00:36:21I'll race you to the light
00:36:23Yeah, I'll meet you at the corner
00:36:25You know what?
00:36:27I think you should go dance with your sister
00:36:28You sure?
00:36:30Yep
00:36:30Definitely
00:36:32No, I'm not feeling quite right
00:36:34But I want to see you still
00:36:36Yeah, I always want to see
00:36:39Cause you look inside my pain
00:36:41And you cup it with your hands
00:36:43And you call it by its name
00:36:45Then you bury it between
00:36:48In the dirt between our feet
00:36:50And we grow from it together
00:36:52Like a weeping willow tree
00:37:00Maybe we'll watch together
00:37:04As the stars write our names
00:37:09From a raft we've been building
00:37:13Out of headstones and flames
00:37:17And I could be your little brother
00:37:22I could be your father too
00:37:25Oh, I'll race you to the light
00:37:28I'll race you to the light
00:37:30I'll race you to the light
00:37:32I'll race you to the light
00:37:35Yeah, I'll meet you at the high dot
00:37:37Where the six are leaning tall
00:37:39Where the light is growing darker
00:37:42But we don't feel scared at all
00:37:44Cause your arms are wrapped around me
00:37:46With your face against my neck
00:37:48We know magic doesn't happen
00:37:51Without patience and respect
00:37:53And the halls have all blown open
00:37:55And the truth is running free
00:37:57There ain't nothing in this world
00:38:00More alive than you and me
00:38:02There ain't nothing in this world
00:38:04More alive than you and me
00:38:07There ain't no one in this world
00:38:09More in love than you and me
00:38:11More in love than you and me
00:38:13More in love than you and me
00:38:29I'll race you to the light
00:38:34I'll race you to the light
00:38:36I'll race you to the light
00:38:38I'll race you to the light
00:38:52I'll race you to the light
00:38:58I'll race you to the light
00:39:03I'll race you to the light
00:39:06I'll race you to the light
00:39:21I'll race you to the light
00:39:22What's wrong?
00:39:24Nothing
00:39:26Why aren't you at the wedding?
00:39:30Can I come in and freezing?
00:39:32Sure
00:39:37Posey
00:39:39Yeah, I think so
00:39:44Pringle?
00:39:45Yeah, I love one
00:39:47Thank you
00:39:50Here
00:39:52Thank you
00:39:59Why are you looking at me like that?
00:40:02I just want to know what you're doing here
00:40:03Not at our daughter's wedding
00:40:10I came to do you this
00:40:35She looks happy
00:40:36She is
00:40:42You should have joined them
00:40:45Well, I never do
00:40:54Do you remember our wedding?
00:40:57Yeah, really well
00:40:59I don't
00:41:00I think you were pretty stoned
00:41:02Yeah, I know
00:41:02That's not it
00:41:04It's not
00:41:05It's just I think
00:41:06What I think is
00:41:07I'm never present
00:41:08Anywhere
00:41:12I think I'm just always so
00:41:16Worried about what's gonna go wrong
00:41:18And how am I gonna fix it
00:41:19And what's the story gonna be
00:41:20And how am I gonna tell it
00:41:21And who am I gonna tell it to?
00:41:23I thought that was my problem
00:41:24I know
00:41:27But that's not really true, is it?
00:41:31I mean, look at you
00:41:32You've made one decision after another
00:41:35I haven't made any decisions
00:41:36I never make any decisions
00:41:37I just let shit happen to me
00:41:38And then I just
00:41:39Feel bad about it
00:41:40Sad about it
00:41:41I just complain about it
00:41:43I don't think that's necessarily true
00:41:44But okay
00:41:45I didn't even plan this wedding
00:41:46You did
00:41:48Well, you were busy
00:41:49Yeah
00:41:49And don't think I don't know
00:41:50What people would say
00:41:51If they knew
00:41:52That I showed up here right now
00:41:54There's Helen
00:41:55Codependent again
00:41:56What people are we talking about?
00:41:58Look, I don't know why
00:41:59It has to be a pathology
00:42:00That I show up here
00:42:01I mean, maybe I just wanna be with you
00:42:03You know?
00:42:06Okay
00:42:06And I'm also really fucking tired
00:42:09Of everyone telling everyone else
00:42:11What's good for them
00:42:12You know?
00:42:13Nobody does what's good for them
00:42:15And if they do
00:42:15They certainly don't enjoy it
00:42:20And another thing
00:42:22You have a couple
00:42:23That stays married
00:42:23For, let's say, 50 years
00:42:25You don't think
00:42:26That there's an element
00:42:27Of codependency
00:42:28In that relationship?
00:42:29I mean, you think
00:42:30These people would stay married
00:42:31For half a century
00:42:32Because they wanted to?
00:42:34That's insane!
00:42:37Helen, are you okay?
00:42:38Do you wanna
00:42:38Do you wanna sit down?
00:42:40No, I think I might be
00:42:41Having a nervous breakdown
00:42:42So I just
00:42:42It's better if I stand up
00:42:44Okay, but at least
00:42:46Have some more salt
00:42:47That's a good idea
00:43:08Do you know
00:43:08If you had had an affair
00:43:0950 years ago
00:43:10We never would have broken up
00:43:13We never would have mentioned it
00:43:15Really to anybody
00:43:16Who certainly wouldn't have
00:43:17Written a fucking book about it
00:43:22And if we had mentioned it
00:43:24I would have been given credit
00:43:25For standing by you
00:43:28You know?
00:43:28For putting our family
00:43:30Before my own personal feelings
00:43:32I would have been
00:43:34Congratulated for my character
00:43:3750 years ago
00:43:38I would have been a good fucking wife
00:43:40And now I'm the problem
00:43:41Well, more like 60 years ago
00:43:43But that's a good point
00:43:44I mean, I just
00:43:44I don't even know what's going on here
00:43:45I don't know what I'm trying to prove
00:43:46I mean
00:43:47If we both die
00:43:48And you never find out
00:43:49That I still love you
00:43:50What, do I win a prize or something?
00:44:03Sorry, what?
00:44:10I don't know
00:44:11I think maybe I am crazy
00:44:19Well, you know that's not true
00:44:29Look, you know how I feel about you
00:44:31I don't know what you want me to say
00:44:34Yes, I do think it's strange
00:44:35That you're not at Whitney's wedding right now
00:44:38And it does feel like a familiar pattern between us
00:44:41Where I get exiled and you come rescue me
00:44:43And we know how that ends
00:44:44Don't we?
00:44:48But I'm not saying you got a pathology
00:44:50Or anything wrong with you
00:44:57But even if we do love each other
00:44:58It doesn't mean we're good for each other
00:45:10What does that mean?
00:45:13Good for each other
00:45:15Well, I think certain couples have hurt each other
00:45:17Less than we have
00:45:24I think certain couples have loved each other
00:45:27Less than we have, too
00:45:33True
00:45:43I mean, what's the endgame here?
00:45:46We're just supposed to get old
00:45:47And lose our hearing and our hair
00:45:52Our memory and then we die
00:45:57I guess so
00:46:06You know, I know the story I'm supposed to tell
00:46:08Is that this all happened for a reason
00:46:10And that
00:46:13I'm stronger now because of what happened
00:46:15And so I'm better
00:46:17Now than I was when we were together
00:46:20And most of the time
00:46:21I do really believe that that's true
00:46:27But some days when I'm feeling really
00:46:32Sad or really happy
00:46:37And I just think about how we're not here for long at all
00:46:40And when we're gone, we're gone forever
00:46:48Those are the days I just forget to remember
00:46:51That it all happened for the best
00:47:10Will you dance with me?
00:47:17On my daughter's wedding day?
00:47:35Tell me more about the wedding
00:47:36It was very nice
00:47:39It was a little twee, very Whitney
00:47:41How were the vows?
00:47:43They were sweet
00:47:46What did they say?
00:47:47Um, he promised to be nice to her
00:47:50And then she promised to be nice to him
00:47:52I think that's good
00:47:53Yeah
00:47:53That she'll keep them going for the first six months
00:47:58Maybe she won't make the same mistakes we did
00:48:02Maybe she'll catch them quicker
00:48:05You know, I used to think I could look at you
00:48:14I know exactly what you were thinking
00:48:18I know where I was
00:48:21Well, I'll give it a shot
00:48:26Come on, try again for old time's sake
00:48:28What am I thinking right now?
00:48:32It looks like you're thinking you want to kiss me
00:48:41See, you've still got it
00:48:44See, you've still got it
00:49:27Can I clear this away?
00:49:30Yeah.
00:49:33Is everything all right?
00:49:36What?
00:49:38You seem a little sad.
00:49:40I'm always like this.
00:49:44Well, that's a good book. I'm reading that myself.
00:49:48Yeah, it's okay.
00:49:49You don't like it?
00:49:52I'm sort of loosely connected to the author, so I have a kind of weird perspective on it.
00:49:58Really?
00:49:59What's that?
00:50:04Are you this curious with everyone who comes in here?
00:50:07Well, I don't have many customers anymore. You're my first this week.
00:50:16Look, I have a big decision to make, so if you don't mind, I'd like to be alone.
00:50:28Well, be brave.
00:50:30What?
00:50:32Make the difficult choice.
00:50:35I wasn't actually asking for your advice.
00:50:38Well, I'm offering it anyway.
00:50:42The universe rewards courage.
00:50:46Mister, I just found out that my mom's boyfriend murdered her 30 years ago and got away with it, so
00:50:51I don't need your fucking advice.
00:50:54How much do I owe you?
00:50:56How much do I owe you?
00:50:57What did you say?
00:50:57How much do I owe you?
00:50:59No, what did you say about your mother?
00:51:01You know what?
00:51:03Charge me anything you want.
00:51:04No.
00:51:05Wait.
00:51:06Wait.
00:51:09Wait.
00:51:14Wait.
00:51:20Wait.
00:51:22Wait.
00:51:35Oh, my God.
00:51:36What the fuck?
00:51:37You have a shotgun?
00:51:38What are you doing here?
00:51:39Where did you get a shotgun?
00:51:41It's my father's.
00:51:42No shit.
00:51:42That must be an antique.
00:51:43Can I see it?
00:51:44Eager.
00:51:45Okay, okay.
00:51:45Not the right thing to say.
00:51:47How'd you find me?
00:51:48Sorry, were you trying to hide?
00:51:50I took my bracelet off.
00:51:51Because we had sex last night.
00:51:52I left it at a restaurant.
00:51:53And I thought we kind of had a connection.
00:51:55I'm untraceable.
00:51:56My own husband has no idea where I am right now.
00:51:58It wasn't hard.
00:51:58I have a tracking device in my car.
00:52:00Wait, what?
00:52:00You have a what?
00:52:01What did you just say?
00:52:04I think you heard me.
00:52:06Can you put the gun down?
00:52:17Well, I have to admit, I feel kind of used.
00:52:20Sorry.
00:52:21You didn't seem like the type to lie.
00:52:24I'm kind of a disaster of a person, EJ.
00:52:27I thought you would have figured that out by now.
00:52:32How'd it go with Ben?
00:52:33Oh, it was terrific.
00:52:35I signed some kind of release when I first got there.
00:52:37Didn't look at it.
00:52:39And apparently I admitted to being mental.
00:52:43What?
00:52:45So when I brought the police back, he showed them the release and played them a recording
00:52:49of me saying I wanted to kill him.
00:52:51What?
00:52:51And they sided with him.
00:52:53Oh, my God, Joni.
00:52:55I'm so sorry.
00:52:58Yeah.
00:52:58I guess I'll just have to finish this myself.
00:53:02So what?
00:53:02You're just going to go back and shoot them?
00:53:05Looks likely.
00:53:07They'll put you away for life.
00:53:09It'll be worth it.
00:53:11I have a better idea.
00:53:12What?
00:53:13Run away with me.
00:53:15I just told you I was married.
00:53:18I don't care.
00:53:19Why not?
00:53:20Because you obviously don't care.
00:53:23You're clearly not happy with your husband.
00:53:25If you were, you wouldn't be here with me.
00:53:27I was alone here.
00:53:28You just stopped me.
00:53:30My job is flying me to Vienna tomorrow evening to speak at a conference.
00:53:34Why don't you come with me?
00:53:37And we can just keep going.
00:53:45Sorry.
00:53:47I have to finish this.
00:53:51What good will it do to kill him?
00:53:53It's not going to bring your mother back.
00:53:54That's not what this is about.
00:53:55You can't just get away with it.
00:53:57Joni.
00:53:58Hey, hey, I like you.
00:54:00I really like you.
00:54:01You're fucking honest.
00:54:03You live your life with your eyes still open,
00:54:05and almost nobody fucking does that anymore.
00:54:10I'm so sick of trying to fix my parents' mistakes.
00:54:14We didn't fuck this planet up.
00:54:15They did.
00:54:16Why should we have to fix it?
00:54:19Let them go, Joni.
00:54:20Let them all go.
00:54:22You don't owe your life to any of them.
00:54:36You okay?
00:54:39Wait, what?
00:54:40Really?
00:54:41That speech?
00:54:42That speech worked?
00:54:44Car's out of gas.
00:54:46I figured.
00:54:48I brought some with me.
00:54:49Okay, let's go.
00:54:52Okay, let's go.
00:55:19I have to tell you something.
00:55:22I, um, haven't been entirely honest with you, either.
00:55:28Oh, God.
00:55:29Are you married to?
00:55:31No.
00:55:31Well, but, um, my full name is Eddie James Hula.
00:55:39Does that mean anything to you?
00:55:41Should it?
00:55:42No.
00:55:43No.
00:55:44Not necessarily.
00:55:46It's just that my father was sort of loosely affiliated with your mother.
00:55:54What?
00:55:56Allison's second husband, Noah Soloway.
00:56:00His first wife was a woman named Helen Soloway.
00:56:03And after they divorced, she met my father.
00:56:08Your mother is Helen Soloway?
00:56:10Uh, no.
00:56:11Um, my mother's name is Sierra.
00:56:14My father's name was Vic.
00:56:15They had an affair when he was with Helen, and that's where I come from.
00:56:22Are we related?
00:56:23What?
00:56:23No.
00:56:24No.
00:56:24Are you sure?
00:56:25Yes.
00:56:26No way.
00:56:27My mother is your mother's ex-husband's ex-wife's new partner's lover.
00:56:32So, we could not be less related.
00:56:35Did you know I was going to be in the graveyard that day?
00:56:38How would I have known that?
00:56:39I don't know.
00:56:39Why didn't you just tell me who you were?
00:56:41Look, it's like six degrees of separation.
00:56:43It's not a big deal.
00:56:45Well, then why did you hide it?
00:56:46Well, I wasn't trying to hide it.
00:56:48Just stop the car.
00:56:48Come on.
00:56:49Please, stop the car.
00:56:58Joanie, you're overreacting.
00:57:00Nothing has changed.
00:57:01I'm still the same person I was 30 seconds ago in that car.
00:57:04You lied to me.
00:57:05I didn't lie.
00:57:06I just didn't tell you the whole story.
00:57:08And you didn't tell me the whole story.
00:57:10You've been married this whole time.
00:57:11I mean, come on.
00:57:14I thought we understood each other.
00:57:15What is it you thought you understood?
00:57:17That we're not sheep.
00:57:20That we both play by different rules.
00:57:24This is stupid.
00:57:25I can't go to Vienna with you.
00:57:27Why not?
00:57:28We were just fucking, EJ.
00:57:30That's all it was.
00:57:30Why are you trying to turn it into something else?
00:57:33Are you really so desperate for someone to love?
00:57:38I guess I am.
00:57:42What are you even doing here?
00:57:43Why are you so obsessed with my family?
00:57:45Is it some sort of transitive whore property?
00:57:48What?
00:57:48Your mother and my mother both fucked over to the same woman.
00:57:52My mother and Helen were friends.
00:57:53Right.
00:57:54Helen was like a second mother to me.
00:57:56There is such a thing as forgiveness.
00:57:59I realize that that's completely out of your frame of reference.
00:58:01But there are certain people who are actually capable of it.
00:58:04And believe it or not, this place was part of my childhood too.
00:58:07My mother and I came out here and stayed with Helen's parents when I was young.
00:58:11I worked construction here when I was in college.
00:58:13I even helped restore the lobster roll when Noah bought it.
00:58:16So you're not the only person who this town means something to.
00:58:19And yeah, yeah, I don't know.
00:58:21Maybe I was attracted to you because we shared a certain history.
00:58:26Because I thought you might be able to understand my pain and I might be able to understand yours.
00:58:30Is that such a crime?
00:58:32No.
00:58:33And I wanted to tell you.
00:58:34I was going to.
00:58:34But you were just always dealing with so much trauma, you didn't really let me get a word in edgewise.
00:58:41You're right.
00:58:52So.
00:58:56Okay.
00:58:59I meant everything I said back there.
00:59:04So will you please get back in the car now?
00:59:08Please.
00:59:09EJ, this isn't right.
00:59:11We're just going to wind up hating each other.
00:59:12No, I won't.
00:59:13Yes, you will.
00:59:16Maybe not today.
00:59:17Maybe not tomorrow.
00:59:18But soon.
00:59:19For the rest of your life.
00:59:21So you have seen a movie?
00:59:23That's my mother's favorite film.
00:59:25Why am I not surprised?
00:59:36So what, you're just going to go back to your husband?
00:59:41No, I don't think so.
00:59:45So where the hell will you go?
00:59:47I don't know.
00:59:53Your mother and Helen were really friends.
00:59:58Good friends.
01:00:00So it's possible.
01:00:02What's possible?
01:00:05To do things differently.
01:00:11Can I at least give you a lift somewhere?
01:00:18I'd like to walk.
01:00:20You know what?
01:00:36It's possible to hop on.
01:00:36It's possible to be a raise.
01:00:37It's possible to do anything else.
01:00:37But I think soav here in I'm corn.
01:00:46And but I try my best and beach now.
01:00:46I'm good.
01:00:46I'm sorry.
01:00:49You need to go back.
01:01:08Hello again.
01:01:11Hey, Noah.
01:01:17Your father knew.
01:01:20Knew what?
01:01:22You always said Ben must have killed her.
01:01:25Because she would never have chosen to leave you.
01:01:28My dad said that.
01:01:30That surprises you?
01:01:31Um, a little, actually.
01:01:34He spent his entire life saying the opposite.
01:01:38What did he tell you?
01:01:41She was crazy.
01:01:43That he tried to save her and he couldn't.
01:01:46And that we were better off without her.
01:01:49Oh, wow.
01:01:50That breaks my heart.
01:01:55You have to understand, Joni, your father was...
01:01:59...carrying a tremendous amount of pain.
01:02:02Sounds like you cared about him.
01:02:05I don't care is a strong word.
01:02:09No, I respected Cole.
01:02:12I think under the circumstances, that's the most one could expect.
01:02:19How long have you been back in Montauk?
01:02:22I moved back here after my oldest daughter's wedding, which was...
01:02:25...30 years ago now.
01:02:28That's when we left.
01:02:29I know.
01:02:30And the day Cole came back into town, he walked through that door and...
01:02:36...I think both of us nearly had a heart attack.
01:02:41Time has a habit of making these big things seem small, somehow.
01:02:49So good to see you, Joni.
01:02:51Really is so good to see you.
01:02:54Tell me about your life.
01:02:55What do you, uh...
01:02:57What do you do?
01:02:59I'm a coastal engineer.
01:03:01I'm trying to save the world from drowning.
01:03:04Really?
01:03:07Do you have any children?
01:03:09Two.
01:03:11Boys or girls?
01:03:13Daughters.
01:03:15Thea and...
01:03:16Madeline.
01:03:16That's wonderful, Joni.
01:03:20But...
01:03:22I can only love them when I'm away from them.
01:03:25When I'm away from them, I miss them terribly.
01:03:27And when I'm with them, I can't...
01:03:31I can't even hold them, and I don't know why.
01:03:39I have this friend who's a, uh...
01:03:42He's an epigeneticist.
01:03:45And he has a theory about trauma being passed down.
01:03:49What's his name?
01:03:51Uh, Eddie.
01:03:52He's like a...
01:03:52He's kind of like a nephew of mine.
01:03:56Fascinating.
01:03:57Go on.
01:03:58Well, he says that trauma can be passed from one generation to another.
01:04:02That it actually changes the DNA.
01:04:06And he says there are studies where, uh, where there are rats who...
01:04:15Who are shocked every time they, uh, smell cherry blossom.
01:04:21And then they breed the rats.
01:04:23And their babies are afraid of cherry blossom.
01:04:28Wow.
01:04:29Amazing.
01:04:30And even my point is that your parents went through a lot of trauma.
01:04:33They...
01:04:33I mean, they lost a child.
01:04:35So it would make sense that you, too, were afraid of loss.
01:04:40And maybe even a bit paralyzed by it.
01:04:44Yeah, no, I know a bit about that theory.
01:04:46There's a question about whether the children of trauma survivors also inherit their resilience.
01:04:50I didn't know that.
01:04:53That's wonderful.
01:04:55So maybe you inherited her resilience as well.
01:04:58You mean his resilience.
01:05:00No, no, no.
01:05:01I mean hers.
01:05:03No, no offense to Cole, but he never changed.
01:05:06I mean, your mother always said that Cole used to run away from his problems.
01:05:10But Allison, she was always working on herself.
01:05:13She was a work in progress, and she knew it.
01:05:15She was so present.
01:05:18Feeling everything so deeply, and she made herself stay awake and was so disappointed
01:05:26when other people seem so asleep in their lives.
01:05:34Noah, when I was four years old, she dumped me on Cole and Louise's doorstep and took off.
01:05:39To get help.
01:05:41And then six months later, she came back and she fought your father in court.
01:05:45She didn't.
01:05:46You don't know this?
01:05:48I thought they just let her have me back because they felt sorry for her.
01:05:54No, Joni, no.
01:05:55No.
01:05:55Cole and Louisa tried to keep you from her.
01:05:58She had to humiliate herself.
01:06:00It was devastating.
01:06:02They never told you this?
01:06:05Oh, Jesus Christ.
01:06:09Joni, it's very important.
01:06:10And you know this.
01:06:11You were her whole life.
01:06:15Everything she did, she did for you.
01:06:18She tried to get help so that she could be there for you.
01:06:23She was trying to give you a better life than she had, and she was succeeding.
01:06:31You know, she's one of the only people I've ever met in my whole life who actually managed to change.
01:06:42When I met her, she was the shell of a person, and by the time she died, she had a
01:06:46job helping other people heal from the same trauma that she had.
01:06:52And, and, do you know how difficult that is?
01:06:58How few people actually achieved that.
01:07:01She was still dating married men.
01:07:05Oh, she didn't know he was married.
01:07:07What happened with Ben, that was not her fault.
01:07:12What good did it do her?
01:07:16All those changes, he killed her anyway.
01:07:23Joni, if the lesson you're taking away from your mother's death is not to try, then that's a great, great
01:07:29tragedy.
01:07:32Change is hard.
01:07:35It takes a long time, sometimes more than a lifetime.
01:07:39What the fuck does that mean?
01:07:44Sometimes we can only start journeys that our children have to finish for us.
01:07:54It's too late to hear those things.
01:07:56It's not too late.
01:07:57Yes, it is. I've already screwed it all up.
01:08:01I can't go off with someone new, and I can't go home.
01:08:06So instead, I'm fucking stuck here in some sort of seafood purgatory.
01:08:16Talking to you.
01:08:18Why can't you go home?
01:08:23Why don't you tell me, Noah, you seem to know a lot.
01:08:26Why, why can't I go home?
01:08:32Well, maybe because it's hard.
01:08:34Going home is hard.
01:08:38Staying with someone.
01:08:41Loving them no matter what.
01:08:44That's hard.
01:08:47So easy to...
01:08:50Go find someone new.
01:08:53Reinvent yourself in their eyes, and try once more to live without flaw, but sooner or later you realize the
01:09:00only thing you're running from is death.
01:09:03There's not another person at all.
01:09:05It's...
01:09:06It's death, and...
01:09:10When that finally occurs to you, you...
01:09:14You yearn more than anything for someone who really knows you.
01:09:21Who really knows every inch of you.
01:09:25And will remember you when you're gone.
01:09:31And what are you trying to say?
01:09:34What I'm trying to say is that...
01:09:36If...
01:09:37If trauma and pain...
01:09:40Can echo through generations, then so can love.
01:09:46If abandonment can...
01:09:49Ripple across time, then...
01:09:52So can presence.
01:09:56I mean, you-you've suffered a lot of loss in your life, Joni, but you've also had a lot of
01:10:00love.
01:10:05And you may not be able to save the earth.
01:10:11But you can be there for your children.
01:10:14No matter what happens.
01:10:18Yes.
01:10:34No matter what.
01:10:40Right.
01:10:50don't tell anyone but i miss dad yeah
01:10:57where do you think he is tonight he's here what do you mean he's here no no he's a monton
01:11:05i think at least he was this morning why we rehearsed your flash mob
01:11:12martin i don't think you're supposed to know that
01:11:24how could you not tell me he was in montauk i told us not to i thought it would have
01:11:30set you
01:11:31but he had to be here he basically planned the entire wedding i thought mom took over the wedding
01:11:36she told me she would no i think maybe you told her that she was going to look it was
01:11:42a group
01:11:42effort and we all pitched in yeah i don't know why you're so upset i think it came together really
01:11:47well but so he's just somewhere by himself right now while we're all enjoying the party well you
01:11:51said you don't want him here where the fuck is he even staying at the memory motel of course you
01:11:56know
01:11:56that stacy you're such a fucking daddy's girl hey she's 12. look i just think it's really awful that
01:12:03none of you told me that he was coming here as if i'm the crazy one like i don't think
01:12:08you're crazy
01:12:08with he just wanted you to have a good day all of us him included how could you let him
01:12:13come here
01:12:14i thought you understood you of all people i do understand your father's made some real mistakes
01:12:20and you've had to bear the brunt of them but he does love you with and he wanted to do
01:12:24this for you
01:12:25even if he couldn't be here to see it
01:12:38yeah he's got you all fooled
01:12:41he bought my mother a plane ticket
01:12:45he didn't have to do that
01:12:49he did
01:12:55fuck
01:12:55excuse me
01:12:57could i get a dance with the bride
01:13:00of course grandpa
01:13:26what's wrong kiddo
01:13:29you're awfully perceptive for someone with dementia
01:13:32well
01:13:33this is a good day
01:13:37so tell me what's on your mind
01:13:40it's your wedding day you don't look happy
01:13:43sometimes i don't know what to think
01:13:45about what
01:13:46if people hurt you very badly
01:13:48do you have to forgive them
01:13:51no
01:13:54sometimes it hurts you more than it hurts them to hold a grudge
01:13:59what's it all for then
01:14:03if people can act however they want and get forgiven
01:14:05then what is the point of trying to be good in the first place
01:14:10i think it's about what kind of life you want to live
01:14:14you will have plenty of opportunities to be angry in your life
01:14:19you have less chance to love people though
01:14:22really love them
01:14:24so you just
01:14:27you want to be careful how many of those opportunities you squander
01:14:31i think young people believe they'll just keep coming
01:14:34but
01:14:35they don't
01:14:52grandpa can you help me with something
01:14:56anything for you
01:15:05you really think he's going to do it
01:15:06he said he would
01:15:08what if he forgets
01:15:09he was totally lucid a moment ago
01:15:11it seems really dangerous he has alzheimer's
01:15:13do you have a better way to sneak out of this wedding
01:15:15we can just walk out
01:15:16she can't you idiot she's the bride
01:15:18oh my god here it comes
01:15:18okay okay
01:15:19do we know the plan
01:15:21cake knife
01:15:22check
01:15:23platter
01:15:23yeah check
01:15:48go find your sister
01:15:50let's go
01:15:55i love you so much
01:16:05i found you a babe
01:16:06i have the coat
01:16:07i don't know the thing
01:16:16i love you so much
01:16:18i love you so much
01:16:22i love you so much
01:16:46jesus christ what is it
01:16:47what is going on
01:16:49mom is in there
01:16:50so
01:16:52oh my god
01:16:54oh my god
01:16:56oh my god
01:16:59nice
01:17:00this is so difficult
01:17:01you do
01:17:02i don't know
01:17:04good
01:17:10i don't know
01:17:13me
01:17:14i don't know
01:17:28Still no end in sight
01:17:31Though I've traveled far and wide
01:17:34A dying man still in time
01:17:36Think a soldier terrified
01:17:40She will have her way
01:17:43Somehow I would still believe her
01:17:51She will have her way
01:17:54One day I will come
01:18:00One day
01:18:07And I'll do
01:18:09And I'll do
01:18:12And I'll do
01:18:15And I'll do
01:18:18Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
01:18:41oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
01:18:41oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
01:18:41oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
01:18:41oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
01:18:41oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
01:18:48Hey!
01:19:21Come on.
01:19:27No.
01:19:29You better work, Ray.
01:19:49Oh, yeah.
01:19:52Ah, yes.
01:19:54Chapter 3.
01:19:59My parents were an odd couple.
01:20:05Him tall, patient, but lazy.
01:20:11Are small, impatient, and assiduous.
01:20:16Ah, yeah.
01:20:19Assiduous is right.
01:20:36I knew this doesn't mean anything, right?
01:20:42I knew.
01:20:43I knew.
01:20:47Shh.
01:20:50Shh.
01:20:53You knew tomorrow we're gonna wake up and pretend this never happened, right?
01:20:56Because you knew we're both too old to change, right?
01:21:01I do.
01:21:05Okay.
01:21:05Okay.
01:21:06Okay.
01:21:07Okay.
01:21:09Then you know you're crying, right?
01:21:12Shh.
01:21:15Shh.
01:21:16Shh.
01:21:17Shh.
01:21:17Shh.
01:21:18Shh.
01:21:19Shh.
01:21:21You know I love you.
01:21:28I do.
01:21:33You want to try this again?
01:21:37I do.
01:21:43Shh.
01:21:49Shh.
01:21:50Shh.
01:21:53Shh.
01:21:55Shh.
01:21:55Shh.
01:21:55Shh.
01:21:55Shh.
01:21:56Shh.
01:22:10Oh, I have to go low.
01:22:25I'll be back tomorrow.
01:22:52I'll be back tomorrow.
01:23:15I'll be back tomorrow.
01:23:26I'll be back tomorrow.
01:23:41I'll be back tomorrow.
01:23:48I'll be back tomorrow.
01:23:50Mom!
01:23:51Mom!
01:23:53Mom!
01:24:12I've got to go talk to your dad, okay?
01:24:31Mom, I'm so sorry.
01:24:56I love you.
01:24:57I love you.
01:24:59I love you.
01:25:01I love you.
01:25:06I love you.
01:25:08I love you.
01:25:20I love you.
01:25:24I love you.
01:25:39I love you.
01:25:51I pictured a rainbow, you held it in your hands, I had flashes, but you saw the plan,
01:26:08I wandered out in the world for years, when you just stayed in your room, I saw the crescent, you
01:26:25saw the whole of the moon,
01:26:35you were there in the turnstiles, with the wind at your heels, you stretched for the stars, and you know
01:26:43how it feels to reach too high,
01:26:46too far, too soon, you saw the whole of the moon, I was grounded, while you filled the skies,
01:27:03I was dumbfounded by truth, you cut through light, I saw the rain-dirty valley,
01:27:19you saw Brigadoon, I saw the crescent, you saw the whole of the moon,
01:27:49I spoke about wings, you just flew,
01:27:58I wondered, I guessed, and I tried, you just knew, I sighed, but you swore, I saw the crescent,
01:28:23you saw the whole of the moon, the whole of the moon, with a torch in your pocket,
01:28:37and the wind at your heels, you climbed on the ladder, and you know how it feels to get too
01:28:44high,
01:28:45too far, too soon, too far, too soon, you saw the whole of the moon,
01:28:56the whole of the moon, hey, yeah, unicorns and cannibals, palaces and piers,
01:29:07trumpets, towers, tenements, wide oceans full of tears,
01:29:11slats, slats, rats, ferry boats, scimitars and stars,
01:29:16every precious dream and vision underneath the stars,
01:29:20yes, you climbed on the ladder, with the wind in your sails,
01:29:25you came like a comet, blazing your trail,
01:29:30too high, too far, too soon,
01:29:36you saw the whole of the moon,
01:29:42the whole of the moon,
01:29:46the whole of the moon,
01:29:49you saw the whole of the moon,
01:29:53you saw the whole of the moon,
01:29:54you saw the whole of the moon,
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