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00:04Best MDMA in Berlin, Dan, and take it from me, the MDMA in this city right now is, I mean,
00:10it's excellent.
00:12Have you ever read Primo Levi's essay on shame?
00:19He wrote it 40 years after leaving Auschwitz.
00:22He was trying to make sense of why he survived and others didn't, but he couldn't.
00:28A year later, he threw himself from the landing of the house that he was born in and fell three
00:32floors to his death.
00:36Dan, we're here. On a rooftop. In Berlin. The sun is setting. This club is gorgeous.
00:44And there is no one here who is not a grade one decent human being.
00:48There will never come a better time for you to drop a pill than this exact moment.
00:56Shall I just leave her?
00:58Well, you've never drunk or taken drugs. Half is sensible.
01:02But you did just bring her suicide.
01:04And the Holocaust.
01:06In a nightclub.
01:08So.
01:21We'll be back.
01:25We'll be back.
01:47You feel it though?
01:49Yeah.
01:50Your eyes!
01:51I literally just saw your eyes.
01:53It's good.
01:54Oh my god.
01:55Yes.
01:56How's it feel?
01:57You feel good?
01:59Yeah.
02:29That's good.
02:30Yeah.
02:33Yeah.
02:37Yeah.
02:52Yeah!
03:24This is the best juice I've ever tasted.
03:28Oh my god, that's amazing. Do you want a sip?
03:35Do you not hear any of what I just said?
03:39What are you talking?
03:40Oh my god! Yes! I've been talking for about two minutes!
03:52Seriously, this juice though, why is it so good?
03:54Oh my god!
03:58Oh my god!
04:00Oh my god!
04:13Oh my god!
04:27Oh my god!
04:37Oh my god!
04:40Oh my god!
05:00Oh my god!
05:08Oh my god!
05:09Oh my god!
05:09Oh my god!
05:34Oh my god!
05:44Oh my god!
05:53Oh my god!
05:54Oh my god!
06:00Oh my god!
06:25Oh my god!
06:28Oh my god!
06:46Oh my god!
06:57Oh my god!
06:59Oh my god!
06:59Oh my god!
07:31Oh my god!
07:59Oh my god!
08:20Oh my god!
08:29who jumped in, so every time I'm with one of them,
08:32part of me is thinking, was it you?
08:38So I just fell deeper into Codine and fell too deep to get out.
08:47Thing is, I hated those boys,
08:54but I also found it hard to blame them.
09:00I mean, most of them had called me Mum by mistake
09:04at some time or another, and I just...
09:08I just couldn't do it no more, Dan.
09:12I was...
09:15..neither one thing nor the other.
09:21It's being split that kills you.
09:26Well...
09:31Jesus Christ.
09:35I had no idea that that happened to you, Laura.
09:39What am I gonna do?
09:41Carry it round with me for the rest of my life?
09:43Come on.
09:48Down, boo-fucking-ya.
09:50God, you are so annoying.
09:51Well, what can I say? The boy loves his daddy.
09:54You coming?
10:02See you later.
10:03Right.
10:08So, you finally took drugs, eh?
10:10Did you like it?
10:12Yes, he likes it.
10:15So, you go abroad, drop a knee, come back, start baking.
10:20Yeah, it's the new me.
10:22It was either that or learn Sanskrit.
10:25And this baking, did it involve using your oven by any chance?
10:29It did, yeah.
10:31I used my oven.
10:33And?
10:34And it took me an hour and fifteen minutes to get out of the house.
10:39I had to wait for the cooker to get ice cold before I could walk out.
10:43Damn.
10:47Alright.
10:48Here's what you do.
10:50You're going out, right?
10:52You pull a table in front of your oven.
10:54You put everything you need on it.
10:55Phone, wallet, keys, all of it.
10:57Get ready, take a shit, crafting wank, whatever.
11:01Then you go back to that table and you put each one of those things in your pocket.
11:04Then, you touch each gas ring once.
11:07You look in the oven once.
11:09You look in the grill once.
11:11Just once.
11:12You don't do anything more than once.
11:14And then you say goodbye and good fuck and you walk out that door.
11:18And then, and Dan, this is the most important bit.
11:23You do not come back.
11:28That sounds like surprisingly good advice.
11:34Thanks.
11:37You're not inside yet, Dan.
11:40You got your case, defence, appeals.
11:45You take it one step at a time, yeah?
11:48Yeah.
11:56You're looking better.
11:58I'm back in the meetings.
12:00Doing what I need to do, you know?
12:04And you?
12:11Do you remember the, um, the prisoner that I told you about that, that you dads pad me?
12:18You're not talking to him again, are you?
12:20No, no, no.
12:22I'm on suspension.
12:23I couldn't even if I wanted to.
12:28But he told me that the guy got released.
12:33I checked the dates.
12:36And I know who he is.
12:39His name is Matthew Hall.
12:43I arranged to meet him this afternoon.
12:51Okay.
12:52But I wish that I could walk away.
12:54I, I wish I could just move on like you and Laura, but I can't.
13:00Mum says that I love the man that I know I hated.
13:03How can I move on?
13:05We want you to be Dean's godfather.
13:09Me and Laura were getting him christened, we want you to be the godfather.
13:12Come on.
13:14But he needs stability then.
13:16He needs a godparent who can walk out the door and meet him on time.
13:20Who isn't obsessed by a man who tossed him aside like a huge snot rag 25 years ago.
13:37Don't go and see this guy.
13:39Let's walk away.
13:40Let's walk away, yeah?
13:41Let's walk away now.
14:09Let's walk around.
14:37People withleme.
14:44Who's that?
14:46Er, hello?
14:49Is that Matthew?
14:51Matty.
14:52Matty, um, it's, my name's Dan Stewart.
14:56We spoke on the phone.
14:58You're fucking late.
14:59I know, sorry, I was late, the, um...
15:02I've been fucking waiting for you.
15:03You're 40 minutes late.
15:06Sorry about that.
15:07Yeah, the, um, the bus was stopped.
15:11Then when didn't you call?
15:13Er, er, my, sorry, my phone got nicked.
15:21Was it that skinny lad upstairs?
15:24What?
15:24Was it that skinny lad upstairs that nicked your phone?
15:28No.
15:29No, I've, I've only just got here.
15:34He's always nicking phones, he is.
15:37There's supposed to be no crime here.
16:05There's supposed to be no crime here.
16:05I don't know.
16:06I don't know.
16:11That's mafia.
16:18I don't know what to sell the man.
16:20I don't know if he's, I don't know what to sell his books.
16:34I can just be like 8 times
16:35But, I'm afraid of a знак.
16:35I bought some biscuits.
16:38Digestant?
16:39Um, no, they're an own brand.
16:42They're kind of like Hocknobs.
16:43Oh, fucking Hocknobs.
16:48You'll want a tea, then?
16:54How many sugars?
16:56None.
17:24Sorry about all the air fresheners.
17:26No, that's fine.
17:28He keeps cooking fish, that skinny lad.
17:30I think it's him anyway.
17:33Might be someone else, I don't know.
17:36It stinks.
17:42Are you okay here?
17:44I mean, is there anyone helping you since you got out?
17:49Is there help?
17:51What are you on about?
17:53I mean, you get a probation officer,
17:55but that's just to make sure you're not up to shite.
17:57There's no fucking help.
18:03Do you know where Basel is?
18:06Yeah.
18:10It's in Switzerland.
18:11Switzerland, that's right, yeah.
18:14I got a son out there.
18:16Working there he is.
18:17He's got two kids.
18:19And I was thinking of going out and seeing him.
18:22That sounds nice.
18:23Hmm.
18:26So can you get a plane there?
18:28Brought to Basel?
18:29Hmm.
18:29Yeah, sure.
18:32How much would that be?
18:33I don't know.
18:35Um...
18:35Maybe a few hundred.
18:37What a train.
18:38Can you get a train to Basel?
18:40I think you might have to change.
18:43How much would that cost?
18:45I really don't know.
18:50I mean, everything's online now.
18:51You know, I've been inside for 14 years.
18:53I don't know how to do all this fucking...
19:10So you were my dad's partner?
19:11Eight.
19:14Eight months I was, yeah.
19:18Oh.
19:21What was he like?
19:23Your dad?
19:24Yeah.
19:24What was your dad like?
19:25Well, he was, er...
19:29He was all right.
19:32Was he?
19:33Yeah.
19:35Yeah, he was all right.
19:36He was a...
19:36He was a laugh.
19:40My dad.
19:42My dad was...
19:43Was a laugh.
19:44Yeah, funny as fuck your dad.
19:47Yeah, I...
19:47I did a good stretch with him.
19:49Laughed my way through most of it.
19:51Yeah.
19:52He was a good lad.
19:54Share his last fag he would.
19:56You know, and then they...
19:57Banned Sigs in prison and fucking ruined it.
20:01Much prison without a smoke.
20:03I tell you what, I'll never go back there now.
20:08That just doesn't sound like the man that I remember.
20:11Yeah, well, I'm not fucking lying, you know.
20:12Well, I'm not...
20:13I know...
20:14Yeah, I've been with him eight months.
20:17Every day.
20:19I know him better than you.
20:25He was a good lad.
20:27He had his moods, yeah?
20:28But he was a good lad.
20:30And he helped me with reading letters for my son.
20:34Other lads, they'd take the piss if they read a soft word
20:36and then you'd be into something like...
20:37But not him, not your dad.
20:39He understood kindness.
20:40Did he?
20:41Yeah, he fucking well did.
20:44Look, you knew the man on the out.
20:47Right? But I knew the inside man.
20:48The man who was always there.
20:49The man who can't hide.
20:52Well...
20:54Which do you think is more real?
21:00I fucking hate hobnobs.
21:02It's all them fucking bits and that.
21:06I don't like fucking bits.
21:10What's wrong with the chocolate digestive?
21:16Did he ever talk about my mum?
21:20Yeah.
21:23Every single day.
21:26What was...
21:28Was he still angry with her then or...?
21:31He wasn't angry, he was in love.
21:33Excuse me?
21:34He loved her.
21:36Always going on about her he was.
21:38He said the greatest privilege of his life
21:41was to have held her in his arms.
21:43He'd say that two or three times a week.
21:46I mean, another man you get fucking chopsy with for that,
21:49but not your dad.
21:52He didn't mind like us.
21:54Because he was a good'un.
21:56My dad said those words.
21:58He said...
22:00She made him a better man.
22:02But that he wasn't good enough.
22:05He wasn't angry with her.
22:08He was too busy loving her.
22:16Well...
22:17I'm getting tired now.
22:21I gotta have my nap.
22:22I have to have a nap in the afternoon.
22:23I don't know.
22:29And anything else?
22:33Did he ever talk about me?
22:38You're not the drug one, are you?
22:45No, son.
22:47No, son.
22:47He never talked about you.
22:50What?
23:08I think I'm not.
23:16It's okay.
23:17I'm not the only one.
23:17I don't know, you're not the only one.
23:18That's okay.
23:19I think he's been able to live his,
23:19I don't know.
23:57I don't know.
24:19I don't know.
24:20I don't know.
24:32Hey, Dan.
24:34What's going on?
24:36What happened to that class?
24:37Hey, yeah.
24:38Um, sorry.
24:39I've been away.
24:40Well, like a holiday, is it?
24:42Before I detected a bit of a tan.
24:44I did go abroad, yeah.
24:46Lovely. Where'd you go?
24:48At Berlin. Berlin? I love Berlin.
24:51You've never been to Berlin.
24:52Yes, I fucking have. I've been there loads.
24:54The drug scene is crazy in Berlin. You do the clubs, then?
24:57You go to Berkheim. Tom Lee went to Berkheim.
24:59Sorry. Didn't go to Berkheim.
25:01The food, though. You got yourself some curry verse, right?
25:03Yeah. I hated curry verse.
25:05What the fuck is a curry verse?
25:06Berlin speciality.
25:08Breakfast covered in ketchup and curry powder.
25:11It's fucking disgusting, to be honest, but you gotta do it, innit?
25:14You gonna have your boyfriend, then?
25:16No, this time I went alone.
25:17Okay, okay.
25:19Listen, you gotta get them classes going, you know,
25:20cos Keefe, he's riling without them, you know?
25:23He's eating a dictionary a day, yeah?
25:26And just gunning us down with words for him.
25:29So how you guys doing?
25:31No, I suppose we're just killing time and chatting shit
25:34later, waiting for that out.
25:37Come on.
25:39See you later, then.
25:41Guten tag, boss.
25:41Good to see you, boys.
25:42See you, dad.
25:42All right.
25:46Boyfriend?
25:47They assumed I was gay. I let them.
25:49So you're living as a closeted heterosexual?
25:52Smart.
26:08You all right, then?
26:11Yeah.
26:13Yeah, I'll just wait.
26:14Good.
26:16It won't be long.
26:18Or he might be, who fucking knows.
26:28I had to do what I had to...
26:32Yeah, I know.
26:37I mean, I should never have put you in that position, really.
26:39Or Jamie.
26:41It's me that should apologise, not you.
26:44I wasn't fucking apologising.
26:51Hey, how's Greg doing?
26:52Who's Greg?
26:54You know, Greg, the Skittles.
26:56Oh, Greg.
26:57Oh, yeah, he's...
26:58He's gone.
27:00You got release?
27:01No.
27:02Suicide.
27:03What?
27:04Yeah, I think it was asphyxiation.
27:07But to be honest, it was two suicides ago, so...
27:10Are you serious?
27:12He's dead?
27:16The thing is, Dan, they don't all make it out of here.
27:55Come on.
27:58Come on.
28:03You've elected not to have a lawyer present.
28:05That's right.
28:06Can I ask why?
28:09There's no new information.
28:11I told you the truth.
28:13You know everything.
28:14Why didn't you tell me your father was a prisoner?
28:18Well, I've not seen him in 20 years.
28:20He's not a part of my life.
28:21Isn't he?
28:23Things like that can have a long tail.
28:27He's not a part of my life.
28:32What is it you think you've been doing here, Dan?
28:35What do I... sorry?
28:37What...
28:37What have you been achieving?
28:43Um...
28:48People...
28:50People sort of enjoy thinking.
28:53Even those who we deem not to be good at it.
28:58Thinking is human.
29:02My course lets them think for a bit.
29:06It lets them feel human.
29:12The reason I operate a zero-tolerance policy as regards staff and contraband
29:17isn't piety.
29:19It's out of necessity.
29:20In common with every facility in this country, my prison is rife with drugs, violence and extortion.
29:28The levers I have at my disposal to stop staff exploiting or being exploited are very few.
29:34Prosecuting people like you to the full extent of the law is really the main one.
29:40I do it because it works.
29:43I understand.
29:45So...
29:46In light of that...
29:49I've decided not to prosecute.
29:51Excuse me?
29:53You didn't do what you did for gain.
29:54That's clear.
29:56So, prosecution serves no purpose other than to deprive the men of something they seem to like.
30:02You're right.
30:03But they do like to think.
30:05It does make them feel human.
30:07It's better for me to have humans in it.
30:10Humans I can deal with.
30:11It's all right. I'm okay. I'm not gonna...
30:12I'm not gonna get...
30:13I'm lifting suspension.
30:14Effective immediately.
30:17This is only one of a handful of times in the last 15 years I've given a second chance for
30:21something like this.
30:23There won't be a third.
30:25Do you understand that?
30:25Yes, I do.
30:49Fuck me.
30:52Hey, hey.
30:54Hey, hey.
30:55Hey, what's wrong?
30:56Yeah, I'm okay.
30:56Hey, hey.
30:58You okay?
30:58I'm okay.
30:59I'm okay.
31:03Take a minute.
31:07Thank you, thank you, thank you so much.
32:06We all wander far from God and lose our way.
32:09Christ comes to find us and welcomes us home.
32:13In baptism, we respond to his call.
32:16Therefore, I ask.
32:18Do you turn away from sin?
32:21I do.
32:22Do you reject evil?
32:24I do.
32:26Do you turn to Christ, the Saviour?
32:29I do.
32:30Wait a minute.
32:32Hey.
32:33Oh, Frank's got retro.
32:34Oh, come on.
32:36Elijah.
32:40What?
32:50You look good with that baby in his arms, didn't you, Gail?
32:53He's sorry, though.
32:54He did look good, though.
32:56You know what they say, Laura.
32:57One grandchild is plenty.
32:59Two's even better.
33:01Or three.
33:02Or four.
33:03Or five.
33:03Here, pack it in, you.
33:07He did look good with that baby, though.
33:08All right.
33:12Last time he was here was for Martin's funeral.
33:17It's nice to be back like this.
33:22Oh, I hear you're a baker now.
33:25What?
33:25It's our, though.
33:26Martha would be proud.
33:34Sorry about what I said, though.
33:37The last time he'll be here.
33:41You never need to say sorry, Danny.
33:44Not to a parent.
33:47We're bolted on.
33:55I took drugs.
33:57Oh, my God.
33:58Why are you telling me that, Danny?
34:00I'm your bloody mum.
34:01You told me to.
34:02I didn't think you were going to come and tell me all about it.
34:05Oh, Jesus Christ, Danny.
34:08What drugs did you do, then?
34:10Actually, don't tell me.
34:10I don't want to know.
34:11Well, go on, then.
34:12What did you do?
34:14Sorry.
34:15It was just...
34:15It was recreational.
34:16It wasn't...
34:16It wasn't anything, you know.
34:18Are you going to do it again?
34:20I mean, do I need to worry?
34:21No, look, Mum.
34:22I just...
34:22I just went out and did normal things.
34:25I thought you'd want to know that I was being normal.
34:27Oh.
34:28Oh, this is you being normal?
34:29Take drugs?
34:30Then, very normally, come and tell your mum all about it.
34:32A christening.
34:33Just like normal people do.
34:34All right, Mum.
34:38I'm pleased you're being normal.
34:46He always was proud of you.
34:50Martin.
34:54He was proud of you every single day.
35:02Just like we all are.
35:35So, after a few minutes of this, I'll stop, I'll turn round, and I'll go,
35:41Oh!
35:41Oh!
35:41I'm sorry, sir.
35:43I didn't know you were there.
35:44I couldn't hear over the sound of all that fucking honking.
35:48Is that what you said?
35:49Oh, my God.
35:50What did he do?
35:51Well, he loses it.
35:52He bangs his foot on the accelerator, goes all the way round the outside of the car park to
35:57get round me.
35:58So, I thought, all right.
36:00So, I just slipped on up and blocked the exit.
36:04You didn't.
36:05Big line of fucking trolleys.
36:08He gets round, and there's me, kneeling, doing my shoelace.
36:14The next thing I know, he's nudging right up to my trolleys.
36:18He starts shunting them.
36:20Oh, no.
36:21What, with his Tesla?
36:22With his fucking Tesla!
36:24Oh, my God.
36:25What did you do, Frank?
36:26Well, I just stood there watching that.
36:29Massive scraping sand of metal there isn't.
36:33Finally, I'll step in, and I'll say,
36:36Excuse me, sir.
36:37I would not advise you to do that.
36:39And he says,
36:40I don't take advice from the likes of you!
36:44And I'll say, I would if I were you, sir,
36:47because you're ripping your fucking bumper off!
36:52He's ripped him right off, Dan!
36:54Oh, my God!
36:56Hey, next thing I know, there's a copper down.
36:59What? Why?
36:59I don't know.
37:01No idea.
37:02Someone must have phoned him.
37:03Tesla's ecstatic.
37:06He's straight with,
37:07This man has kidnapped me, he says.
37:10Oh!
37:11Kidnapped!
37:11Hand on heart!
37:12Kidnapped, he says.
37:14Well, this copper, he takes one look at me,
37:16he comes over and says,
37:19All right, Frank, how you doing?
37:22He's only one of the bunch
37:23that nicked me and Vinny last time we...
37:26No!
37:26Oh!
37:27Shit, Frank!
37:28No, no, no!
37:29They loved us!
37:30When they nicked me and Vinny,
37:32they was as good as gold.
37:33Most of these only get to deal with junkies,
37:35but we was proper criminals!
37:37They had a border with pins and strings.
37:41All our crimes on, Mum!
37:43She's so proud!
37:44He's all right!
37:46Good to see you, Frank!
37:47You're looking so well!
37:49Oh!
37:49You put a bit of weight on!
37:51Glad to see your back on your feet!
37:53You keep your nose cramping!
37:55Then he turns to Elon fucking Musk!
37:59Nix him for criminal damage and threatening behaviour!
38:03Yeah!
38:09Nice to meet you.
38:11Nice to meet you.
38:12Nice to meet you.
38:12See you.
38:14Hi, buddy.
38:14Nice to meet you.
38:15Nice to meet you.
38:17Nice to meet you.
38:18Nice to meet you.
38:18All right.
38:19Mum's pissed, isn't she?
38:20Yep.
38:23All right.
38:24Now, last-minute cuddles.
38:26Wee!
38:27Can I?
38:28Oh!
38:30Goodbye.
38:31What are you off to tonight, then?
38:34Um...
38:34I'm going to go home, get ready.
38:37Uh...
38:37I've got a date.
38:38Well, it's not a date.
38:40I'm...
38:41I'm meeting Natasha.
38:43Yeah?
38:44Yeah.
38:46It's not a date.
38:47I'm just going to get a coffee.
38:49Still.
38:50That is something.
38:51Yeah.
38:52Yeah, it's something, isn't it?
38:55Okay.
38:59Thanks for asking me, Lee.
39:00It's a great honour.
39:02You soppy twat.
39:04Come on.
39:05Hi.
39:07Ooh.
39:07I got you.
39:08I got you.
39:11All right.
39:11Let go of it, then.
39:14Let go of what?
39:16The guilt.
39:21Do you know why Dad walked out and that's the actual reason?
39:27Because he's a fucking idiot.
39:30That's all.
39:33It's no deeper than that.
39:37You look at this boy and you tell me it's any deeper than that.
39:48Get out.
39:49It's all right.
40:16No.
40:21No.
40:32No.
40:37It's only the same thing.
40:37I'm not going to let go of it.
40:38I'm not going to let go of it.
40:38It's time to go.
40:38I'm not going to let go of it.
40:39All right.
40:39All right.
40:44I'm not going to let go of it.
40:46The second place in my house.
43:04Goodbye and good fuck.
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