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00:29I'll see you next time
00:30I don't know.
01:04You still throwing duds?
01:06How the hell did you know I was here?
01:08I guessed.
01:09Billy was worried you were going to do something stupid.
01:12Billy sent you?
01:14After last time, I'm not a joke.
01:16Nobody sent me and nobody knows that you're here.
01:18And you can lay into me as much as you like later on.
01:21But right now, we need to get back for night.
01:26He's dying, Phil.
01:27Don't you think I know that?
01:28Why the hell do you think I'm here?
01:31One last stone, that's what he told you, right?
01:33Yeah, I gave him one and it fell through his fingers.
01:35Yeah, because it weren't the right one.
01:37Julie told me about that one that he kept all them years.
01:40It was flat and smooth and round and it fit perfectly in the palm of your hand.
01:44How could he even tell the difference?
01:46There's nothing left.
01:47He's as good as gone.
01:48He ain't gone yet.
01:49We need to go, Phil.
01:51I'll go when I've found the right stone until the end.
01:54Well, you're going to either stay and help me and sling your hook.
02:07I've got some lip balm if he needs it.
02:09I think you'll like that.
02:25He used to say he was too much off a lip balm.
02:39He used to play sounds of the sea when he couldn't sleep nights.
02:50Yes, it drove me potty, but he said it relaxed him.
02:53I'm sure it's relaxing for him now.
02:56Well, if I'm honest with you, it's more for me than it is for him.
02:59It's his breathing.
03:02It's this sort of rattle.
03:07And I don't like you, innit?
03:09I know.
03:11It's nothing to be scared of.
03:13It's not in any pain.
03:21Here you go.
03:22Take your pick.
03:23Let's get out of here.
03:25Ain't right.
03:27No, bro.
03:28It's you that ain't right.
03:29There ain't no perfect stone because you don't want to go back.
03:32I mean, what was I doing dragging myself out here?
03:34I didn't ask you to come out here, did I?
03:36I came for night.
03:37Oh, here we go.
03:38Flying in again to save the day.
03:40Just like you do every time.
03:41Like you did with mum.
03:42Like you did with me, yeah?
03:44Are you ever going to change the record?
03:46But you want me to apologise?
03:48All right.
03:50I apologise for leaving you in the archers that night.
03:53I let you down.
03:55That said, if I stayed in the archers,
03:57I probably wouldn't have been able to have saved Sharon's life, would I?
04:00Probably thought he was going to get another bunk up.
04:03Yeah, that worked out for you well, didn't it?
04:05Eh?
04:06Well, you didn't think I'd find out, eh?
04:09Wasn't meant to have...
04:10Oh, so what?
04:11It's always a mistake.
04:12An accident.
04:12You really want to talk about this when our best mate is dying?
04:16Oh, yeah, because that would be inappropriate, wouldn't it?
04:18A bit like jumping on my ex a minute.
04:19I was out of the picture, yeah?
04:21She was my ex too, remember?
04:22And you weren't together.
04:23But you knew how I felt about her.
04:25And you knew how I'd feel when I found out.
04:27But that didn't stop you.
04:28Just like always.
04:30Look.
04:31If you want to stay here and play with pebbles, fine.
04:35I'm going to see our dying mate.
04:39You know what, you've had a year to see him.
04:41You've had a year.
04:43Where were you?
04:44Eh, where were you?
04:45I was doing what you told me to do.
04:47Staying the hell out of it.
04:48Since when have you ever done what I've told you?
04:50Eh?
04:53If you'd have really cared, you'd have been there.
04:56But you weren't, were you?
04:57Because it's the same old story with you.
04:59When a going gets tough, you ain't got the balls for it.
05:01You ain't got the balls for it.
05:02You didn't have the balls with Mum.
05:03You didn't have it with me.
05:04You didn't have the night.
05:05You didn't even have it with your own boy.
05:07Don't talk about my son.
05:08Your son don't make me laugh.
05:10You don't even know him.
05:11Oh, well, you want to hit me?
05:12You want to hit me?
05:13Well, go on then, hit me.
05:14Go on, do your worst.
05:16Do your worst.
05:17I want you to hit me.
05:37It's all right, Prof.
05:40I'm going to miss him too.
05:49Stay with me.
05:53Stay with me.
06:01Oh, is it OK for us to come in?
06:04Yeah.
06:06Oh, I don't...
06:07I don't really think it's a good idea for you to be here, love.
06:10She, er...
06:11She really wanted to come.
06:14It's his breathing.
06:17Erm, sometimes he stalks and then he makes a strange thing
06:20and I just don't want you to get upset.
06:22I won't.
06:24Same thing happened to my mum.
06:27I just want to say goodbye.
06:30Why, erm...
06:30Why don't we just go and have a cup of tea, Julie,
06:33and let them say what they need to say?
06:35It's fine, it's fine.
06:36Erm...
06:37I'm fine.
06:38Er, I'll just leave you all...
06:40to it.
06:46You did your best, Brian.
06:50You were the friend you needed now.
06:53No.
06:55No, he was...
06:58He was the friend I needed and that...
07:01That...
07:01That's the truth.
07:03You know, I'm certain today, tomorrow, he's...
07:06He's going to be gone and all that's going to be left is me sitting in that chair
07:10wondering what the hell I'm going to do with my life now.
07:13Now that he's gone.
07:16Well...
07:17You still got me?
07:19Yeah.
07:21Yeah, I've still got you, man.
07:22There's no shaking you, is there?
07:25Coming back here.
07:28Makes you think about the choices you've made.
07:32People you've chosen to spend your time with...
07:35Would they stick around if I got sick like Nigel?
07:40Probably not.
07:42And I wouldn't blame them if they didn't.
07:45You're not family, are they?
07:47You've got family.
07:50Yeah, no disrespect, bruv, but after the abuse you put your body through...
07:54Er...
07:55I'm expecting to outlive you by a stretch.
07:58Oh, you've got caught me.
08:00You've got Mark, you know.
08:03You want a relationship with him, he's right there, isn't he?
08:08No.
08:09He ain't interested.
08:13He's...
08:14He's just saying that, isn't he?
08:15Trying to protect himself.
08:17He's right there, you've just got to get through to him, that's all.
08:27Maybe.
08:31Right.
08:33Whether it's too late or not, we should get back.
08:37Not until I've found the right stone.
08:39What is it with you and the stone?
08:42Well, he asked for it, so it's important.
08:44One last stone.
08:46You hurt yourself.
08:47Of course.
08:47I mean, what does it even mean?
08:48I don't know.
08:49I don't know.
08:50Bet he said it.
08:56Right.
08:58I'm gonna go.
09:26You hurt yourself.
09:27I don't know.
09:28We've got to hang in on. We've got to go.
09:42Looks like I'm driving.
09:50Julie, we came as quickly as we could. Are we too late?
09:53Er, no. Yelande and Callum and Lexi. They're all in with him.
09:59Lexi's in there? Yeah.
10:01She wanted to say goodbye.
10:04Because that's what we're supposed to do, isn't it? We're supposed to say goodbye.
10:10But it just doesn't feel right for me. It feels like we're writing him off.
10:13I mean, what if you can hear everyone waving him off and it's like he's setting off on some train
10:19journey
10:19and he can hear it and he doesn't want to go and...
10:21Oh, God, I can't believe I'm not wanting to go.
10:35What the...?
10:36Are you serious? Don't tell me the battery's gone.
10:40It ain't gone. It's drained.
10:42So all them range warnings you said was fine to ignore, turns out they were bang on.
10:47What can I say? You normally get a few more miles than it says.
10:50Where'd you get this toaster on wheels, anyway?
10:52Bored it, I think.
10:53Well, that explains it. He probably built it himself, didn't he?
10:56Where'd you go?
10:57To the care home. Where'd you think?
10:59It's miles away. Yeah, and so's near his character.
11:01Unless you've got a better idea, I'm walking.
11:06Hey, Louisa will soon come home into this beautiful garden.
11:26What was that song?
11:28A tune my mother used to sing to me when I was a little girl.
11:33And I couldn't sleep.
11:35It would soothe me.
11:38And you can remember it from all that time ago?
11:42Mm-hmm.
11:44And the older I get, the more I reach back to it.
11:49Twin times were simple.
11:52And I felt safe and loved.
12:04Hi.
12:04Hi.
12:07Lex, I, erm...
12:09I think it's time to go now, darling.
12:13Bye, Nigel.
12:40The nurse says he's close.
12:47But I feel...
12:49he's holding on for something.
12:55Phil!
12:57Phil, hold up, hold up.
12:59I mean...
13:00What's the plan?
13:01You can't walk it.
13:02Well, I'm gonna have to, thanks to you, aren't I?
13:04Yeah, well, I didn't take myself off to the seaside, did I?
13:07And what's Nigel gonna do with a stone anyway?
13:10He's unconscious and on the brink of death.
13:11Just shut up for one second, will you?
13:13Why is there never any taxis or cabs or anything when you need one?
13:16Well, try cabs, cabs again.
13:17You heard what they said.
13:18They're all out, all right?
13:20I've got to walk, all right?
13:23Here, mate.
13:24Do you fancy making a special delivery?
13:26My brother needs to get to Walford now.
13:28Phil, hold up.
13:30Pizza boy says he'll give you a lift.
13:33What about you?
13:35Well, we've struggled to get three of us on that.
13:38And I've got your shoes back on the square.
13:41Go on.
13:42Best get going.
13:44All right, thanks.
13:47Hey, mate, you got an helmet?
13:49He's very close.
13:54You should be with him.
13:58I know it's hard to say goodbye.
14:03My mother died suddenly.
14:12There was no doubt.
14:13I don't want to say goodbye.
14:20And if you can't do it for yourself...
14:25Do it for Nigel.
14:28He is holding on for you.
14:33You need to tell him that it's okay...
14:36to let go.
14:48See you on the other side, Rich.
14:55Oh.
15:08Sweet dreams.
15:15Oh, yeah.
15:41I don't know what I'm supposed to...
15:44say.
15:45But I...
15:50don't want to.
15:52and...
15:53and I don't, erm...
15:56I don't want to sit here...
15:59and...
16:00go through everything we've done together because...
16:04because you know all that.
16:09So...
16:10what is there?
16:11What is there to say?
16:17I can't imagine my life without you.
16:27I can't imagine my life without you.
16:30But...
16:35I need you to know that I'm gonna be okay.
16:39You're okay.
16:40And, erm...
16:42it's alright to...
16:46to let go.
16:50You can...
16:52you can let go now.
16:55Lovely.
16:58Everything's gonna be okay.
17:06It's okay.
17:07You can let go.
17:10You can let go.
17:17It's okay.
17:21You can let go.
17:23Yes, please.
17:24Please go.
17:25Please go.
17:26It's okay.
17:33It's okay.
17:40You made it?
17:42Yeah, yeah.
17:43Just about.
17:44Oh, I'm so glad to see you.
17:48It's...
17:49It's always natural.
17:53It's...
17:56It's...
17:56Got a screen to the left.
17:58Swithers has blockers here.
17:59Over 30.
18:0035.
18:01Nice play.
18:01Oh!
18:02Great effort by the linebacker to stop that from going for more.
18:05Game at 12.
18:07Perfect play call.
18:08That's probably on brown.
18:09No.
18:37I brought in this.
18:40Grant said he was...
18:42He was asking for it.
18:44I...
18:45I tried to find the right one.
18:49Oh, that's just like the one that was on the side of his bath all those years.
18:56It's funny.
18:58Where your mind goes, isn't it, eh?
19:03At the end.
19:11Shhh.
19:11Shhh.
19:14Should I give it to him?
19:16I don't think he'll be able to take it, but you could try.
19:22Shhh.
19:25Nige.
19:28Nige.
19:30Nige.
19:32Nige.
19:35Nige.
19:37Nige.
19:46Nige.
19:47Nige.
20:08Nige.
20:08Nige.
20:09Nige.
20:11Nige.
20:11Oh, my God.
20:41Is that the one you wanted?
20:42Yeah, that's my stone.
20:47So, are you going to tell me what this is all about, then?
20:51I don't know.
20:53Come on, Nides.
20:54The stone.
20:56This place.
20:58Do you know that scene on the beach in Chariots of Fire?
21:01You know, all the young bucks running along in slow motion.
21:06Vangelis.
21:10What about it?
21:13Well, they were meant to be on a beach in Broadstairs, which is not too far from here.
21:16But do you know where they actually filmed it?
21:19Not me there, mate.
21:21Scotland.
21:22St Andrews.
21:23Oh, have you ever dipped your time in the North Sea in April?
21:27They must have been freezing.
21:30Brass monkeys.
21:40Always knew I'd come here at the end.
21:45Just didn't know I'd come here with you.
21:49It shouldn't be me, though.
21:51It shouldn't be Julie and the kids.
21:54You and me.
21:55To the end.
21:56That's what you said.
21:57That's what I agreed to.
21:59So, here we are.
22:04I'm sorry, Nigel.
22:13You don't need to be sorry.
22:17I'm the reason he's sick.
22:19I'm the reason he's dying.
22:22He was already dying.
22:25This moment was always going to come.
22:29I need to say sorry to you, as well, that you're not a way I've been.
22:34You were grieving.
22:37I see that now.
22:42Are you okay?
22:43He don't need to talk about me.
22:45He needs to hear that.
22:47He needs to know that you're going to be okay.
22:52Because you know he looks at me.
23:09Is there something wrong with it?
23:11No.
23:12No, it's perfect.
23:14Close my eyes and I'm back there.
23:17Where?
23:18Here.
23:19Here on this beach.
23:21My dad.
23:23Looking for skimming stones.
23:26Smooth and flat and round, Nigel.
23:28Smooth and flat and round.
23:30I bet you found loads.
23:31Yeah, but I found one.
23:33And it was perfect.
23:35And I showed it to Dad.
23:41And he smiled.
23:44And said,
23:46Son,
23:48That is the best skimming stone I have ever seen.
23:53And he looked proud.
23:55I didn't get much of that.
23:56You and me both, mate.
23:58Maybe that's why we click.
24:00We both understand what it is to be a disappointment to our fathers.
24:04But not that day.
24:06That day,
24:08I basked in the warm glow of his approval.
24:13How you like that, did you?
24:16I might do.
24:17If I knew what it meant.
24:21It means I was happy.
24:26I kept that stone over half a lifetime.
24:29A connection.
24:30A memory.
24:31How I felt in that moment whilst he was still with me.
24:35Happy.
24:37Safe.
24:38Loved.
24:41You feel that.
24:42Even if it's just once.
24:44Even for one moment.
24:46You spend a lifetime
24:49trying to chase it down again.
24:52What a waste.
24:56I could have been somebody.
24:58I could have been a contender.
25:03Brando.
25:04On the waterfront.
25:06We really don't have that much in common, do we?
25:09I don't know.
25:11Cheese and ham toasties.
25:21Are you going to be okay?
25:28I don't know he's doing that.
25:32Holding onto it like that.
25:38You know, when
25:41Yolandi said
25:42she thought that he was
25:44holding on from me
25:47but
25:50I've said my goodbyes
25:53and I told him he didn't need to.
26:00I've never been any good at saying goodbye.
26:01You don't have to be good, that's it.
26:03You just have to
26:04do it.
26:06He needs to know
26:06what you're going to be.
26:19Phil, wait.
26:21Wait.
26:24What is it?
26:25What did I say?
26:26Nothing.
26:27I just...
26:27I just don't like talking about myself.
26:29That's all.
26:30It's embarrassing.
26:31I only asked if you were going to be okay, that's all.
26:35Okay.
26:36Without me.
26:40Look.
26:42I know we don't like talking about our feelings,
26:45blokes like you and me, but
26:48I care about you.
26:50Yeah, I said it.
26:51I care about you.
26:53And I won't know you're going to be all right.
26:56Well, I ain't gonna...
26:57I ain't gonna do anything stupid
26:59if that's what you're worried about.
27:00It's not.
27:03I just don't want to think
27:05that you're gonna sink back in that chair
27:07with the curtains closed
27:08and wait to die.
27:12I want you to live.
27:15Like you wanted me to live.
27:17Remember?
27:19The deal we made?
27:23I need to know
27:24you're going to be okay.
27:46Has he gone?
27:48I don't know.
27:49I'll get her later.
28:04You need to get all of yourself, Phil.
28:06You need to let him know
28:07that it's okay
28:09to go.
28:20Mind you, you know,
28:23you know I was never any good
28:25at saying how I feel.
28:29I suppose I said I ended up
28:30in the arches that night, you know,
28:35I suppose it all builds up inside,
28:37and I don't know how I feel.
28:39I just...
28:41I can't let it out.
28:46You...
28:52you showed me
28:54how to be a...
28:56a different kind of man.
28:57You know, you showed me.
29:00You showed me how to be
29:02strong.
29:04Without you to me, Fizz, you...
29:08you showed me how to laugh
29:10when there weren't...
29:12there weren't much
29:13to laugh about.
29:18You.
29:22You're the best mate
29:23I've ever had, Lodge.
29:25The best mate
29:26I've ever had.
29:32No, eh?
29:35I love you.
29:38I love you.
29:41And I'm gonna be okay.
29:50I thought you wanted it.
29:53I did.
29:56Not for me.
30:08I'm gonna be okay.
30:11I'm gonna be okay.
30:13We're all...
30:15we're all gonna be okay.
30:19It's okay.
30:22It's okay for you, Lodge.
30:24Why?
30:27You can go.
30:28Go, go.
30:33Go, go, go.
30:35Go, go, go.
30:38Go, go.
30:45Go, go.
31:05Nigel, come on. It's time to go.
31:09Just one last go.
31:27Do you see that, Dad? It was perfect. It went on forever and ever and ever.
32:16Oh, my God.
32:23You, you, you, you, you, you.