00:05Tell me.
00:14That's difficult.
00:20Cat's been calling.
00:23Do you want her to come round?
00:27No.
00:30You have to mix the worlds at some point.
00:39Do you want to be here?
00:44Yes.
00:49Yes.
01:04Yes.
01:05Yes.
01:17Yes.
01:20Yes.
01:22Yes.
01:22Yes.
01:22Yes.
01:23When your love took it from me
01:25I had a dream
01:26I was learning
01:29When your love took it from me
01:31Ask me what I think I believe
01:33I need to see you
01:52The gash has started jogging
01:55I've been saying it for years
02:06It's J.S. Keller
02:09Yeah
02:10Could get matching lycra
02:19We could
02:26As long as you wear the hot pink
02:27Ha, ha, ha, ha
02:28Ha, ha, ha
03:25What'd you get?
03:33They'll get to us
03:35They're busy
03:37Everyone wants their time
03:40You trying to get me fat?
03:42Trying, I'm succeeding
03:43You big lump
03:44Speak for yourself
03:45You spilling over those trousers
03:48Thanks
04:02I'm scared she won't be interested
04:04I don't know about that man
04:10Mom, are you okay?
04:12Yeah, yeah, no, I'm good
04:13I just, I was passing by
04:15Passing by?
04:17Yeah, I was nearby
04:19Thought I'd pop in
04:21Are they, are they your friends?
04:24They look nice
04:28Do you want to, um
04:31Do you want to go to the cafe?
04:33Yeah
04:39Do you think I could have come to a place like this?
04:43Of course
04:44You would have been president of all the unions
04:52What's going on, Mum?
04:55I've given you guys a bad childhood
05:00I don't know
05:04We had a great childhood
05:08Everything we needed
05:10But your dad and the work
05:13Kids shouldn't be exposed to that
05:15You shouldn't have been exposed to that
05:18It was always dad pushing that world into our lives
05:20I went into it with my eyes open
05:22And he gave you another choice
05:24And that doesn't mean you can't want something different now, Ma
05:32I have no idea what I want
05:38That's okay
05:40Me neither
05:49Look
05:51That's Matthew
05:53He was shipped off to boarding school as soon as he could breathe
05:56Works away in here till 1 or 2 a.m. every day
06:00Obviously hates himself
06:02Her
06:03Had to go up watching her dad verbally abusing her mum
06:07No idea how to navigate a relationship with men now
06:12Not sure it's wrong with that guy
06:13But someone definitely is
06:18You did a great job
06:22Let's have some food
06:23They do a great pasta
06:26It's a bit carb, baby
06:27Oh, carbs, carbs, carbs
06:29Come on
06:29Let's have a carb day for once
06:35Okay
06:39You were snoring again
06:41I don't snoring
06:43The neighbours beg to differ
06:46Is it the nice kind of snoring or the bad kind?
06:48A nice kind
06:51Shut up
07:12Early
07:14Early
07:15Early
07:20So, let's go.
08:00You okay?
08:05Not really.
08:08I'm sorry, Mom.
08:11Are you okay?
08:28I'm sorry.
08:33I'm sorry I wasn't here.
08:36My dad said he was leaving.
08:38I know.
08:38I know you are.
08:47You had your own law school, Mom.
08:53Dad came by to pack up his stuff.
08:57I'm sorry, I couldn't bear to tell you.
09:00I fucking hate him.
09:06Mom, me too, right now.
09:12Come here.
09:18I'm in.
09:19I'm in.
09:20I'm in.
09:22I'm in.
09:52I'm in.
09:54I'm in.
10:05That's cold.
10:09Come back to bed.
10:12Yeah, give me a minute.
10:17You know what?
10:20I like having you, John.
10:22You're fine.
10:32You're fine.
10:34You're fine.
10:39I'm in.
10:42Yeah, you're fine.
10:49You're fine.
10:50You're fine.
10:58Luke?
11:01Hey. What are you doing here?
11:05Er...
11:06This is my boy Luke. Er, can we talk?
11:10Not really, no. I've got an appointment.
11:12I can get myself there.
11:13You can't get yourself back.
11:15Well, that gives you a couple of hours to talk.
11:18It's good to meet you.
11:19Er, you too.
11:34It's good to meet you.
11:37Mum wanted to come.
11:40Said she's been calling.
11:45She had.
11:49You liking it here?
11:52Yeah.
11:54Um, tea or milk?
11:56Mm-hmm.
11:57Buy coffee.
11:58Okay. Any foods?
12:00No, I'm good.
12:01Me too.
12:02Okay.
12:05Black coffee?
12:07Well, I'm too hot chocolate.
12:15Are you then?
12:19Am I what?
12:21Um...
12:21Why can't you hear?
12:28Stephen.
12:30Not as much football.
12:32Thank God.
12:33Aye.
12:35Aye.
12:36Mm-hmm.
12:45Um...
12:45Uh, Tom.
12:46How's, um...
12:48How's, um...
12:49That going?
12:54Fine.
12:55Yeah.
13:04Um...
13:04I think Mum's worried about Sam and Shannon.
13:13Listen.
13:16It's gonna take a little bit of time to adapt.
13:20She thinks Sam won't look out for them.
13:25What if something happens to Mum or Shannon?
13:28It's not.
13:29It won't.
13:30You don't know that.
13:31I won't.
13:35Like...
13:44Look, Dad, I want you to be happy.
13:47Truly.
13:52Could you just answer the phone to Mum so I don't have to be a go-between?
13:55Call Mum back.
13:57Just something.
14:01I can't right now.
14:13Thanks.
14:29Were you and Mum ever happy?
14:33Like, truly happy?
14:38We were best friends.
14:47That's a lot of life to have sacrificed for you both.
15:08What about you?
15:12Are you happy?
15:13Are you happy?
15:13Do you like it here?
15:15Do you think...
15:18Do you think that I'll end up staying?
15:23But I like it here, yeah?
15:25Yeah.
15:29What do you like about it?
15:34I don't know.
15:39I like the people.
15:41Mm-hmm.
15:43I like being no one.
15:47I like my friends not being scared off by my family.
15:51But I also like not being scared off by Mum.
15:55I guess I feel like I can breathe.
16:02That sounds silly, right?
16:11Feeling good?
16:12You look good.
16:14I'm concerned about your cholesterol, though.
16:16I did just have a packet of crisps.
16:18I don't think it'll just be the crisps.
16:20I'll send you home with a list of things to keep an eye out for on your diet.
16:24How are you feeling about starting the chemo?
16:28Okay.
16:29Yeah, ready.
16:31When you come in next,
16:33it'll be the induction stage of the therapy.
16:35Sorry, Doctor, but I mean, that's a big decision to make, no?
16:39Seems crazy to decide that after one medical opinion.
16:43Must be some other avenues we can explore, no?
16:45I'm afraid the NHS doesn't really work like that.
16:49I'm the only specialist in this hospital.
17:03Look, we gotta go, Prevot.
17:05No, I like it here.
17:07That's shite.
17:09I like my doctor.
17:11He knows my history.
17:12You will get more care.
17:14Better care.
17:15No.
17:16I'll pee.
17:17Will you stop throwing your weight around?
17:19It's my life and my health.
17:22I'll get the car, you get the prescription.
17:42Come on.
17:44Pal.
17:45Hey, pal.
17:47Come on.
17:48What, am I like 10, 20 minutes late?
17:50It's a busy area.
17:51From late to late.
17:52I was in the hospital.
17:53There's a lot of that around here.
17:55Somebody else might need your spot for an appointment.
17:57Come on, give me a break.
18:01You're just a fucking prick, aren't you?
18:03Hey, watch your tone.
18:04Watch my tone.
18:05Bye.
18:35You're just a fucking prick.
18:40What's up?
18:40I'm so scared.
18:42I'm so scared.
18:47Okay.
18:49Oh.
18:50Oh.
18:55Oh.
18:56Oh.
18:58I'm so scared.
19:02I'm so scared.
19:04I'm so scared.
19:04I don't know.
19:36You two, well, you should come over, you know, the pork toast, it's incredible.
19:40No, I can't, I've got to watch my cholesterol now.
19:42Well, we've got salads.
19:44Oh, my God, let's get a taxi now.
19:46I need to eat that salad.
19:48No, they're really good, honestly.
19:52What about you?
19:53Do you like your foods?
19:56If it's beige, then I'll eat it.
20:00I can't get him to accept vegetables just yet.
20:03I saw him inhale a multi-pack of six croissants this morning.
20:07French croissants.
20:09Croissants.
20:10Sorry, darling, so cultural.
20:11You've always been a culture boy, you're rich.
20:13Certainly have.
20:16I can't go to France any more, I start sneezing, I'm allergic.
20:19To France?
20:20To the grass, I think.
20:21There's like a hay fever problem.
20:23Oh, right.
20:24Just in France?
20:25I don't know that it's all the time, but the last time it was there.
20:27I was like, bad.
20:29That's weird.
20:32I'm just gonna get a rheumatoid.
20:49OK.
20:53You got any holidays?
20:55I booked?
20:56She wants to go in.
20:58Okay?
21:01Nice.
21:02That was your nice.
21:02Yeah, thank you.
21:03See you soon.
21:06See you soon.
21:06See you soon.
21:21You okay?
21:24I spoke to Cullen.
21:29Yeah?
21:43That go okay?
21:47Bit of shouting and swearing to begin with.
21:50Must be expected.
21:52Things aren't going well.
21:55With Sam.
22:00The family okay?
22:05He's being impulsive.
22:08Violent.
22:11Acting without thinking.
22:17You always had that in him, but...
22:22I guess I was able to keep it in check.
22:28Now he's in charge.
22:33Could you talk to him?
22:40I think it's beyond that.
22:45You're worried about them?
22:49No.
23:02I can't go back.
23:05I can't.
23:07I know.
23:08You don't have to right now.
23:13That was so good, isn't it?
23:14Job, but...
23:21I can't even imagine doing it again.
23:26No.
23:39What made you good at it?
23:46I was always willing to do anything.
23:49For the family.
23:53The kids.
23:55The people I loved.
24:01Anything.
24:07I couldn't always talk to them, but...
24:09I could make sure they had everything.
24:11You know?
24:21And then...
24:24After a while, it just becomes...
24:28Normal.
24:33And the more you do that...
24:37The harder it is to step away.
24:43Do you want to?
24:46Step away?
24:51Not the time.
24:56I was always doing it for somebody.
24:59My dad.
25:05And them.
25:18And I started to love the feeling.
25:27Walkin' into a room.
25:32And everybody knows you there.
25:37The entire community treating you like a hero.
25:47That feeling.
25:52I can't describe.
25:54That's...
25:59Pure power.
26:09I've done things.
26:12Tom.
26:17I've done...
26:20I've done...
26:21I've done some bad things.
26:32Do you think I'm evil?
26:38I think that you survived.
26:42I think...
26:43You found your place in a hard world.
26:50I love you.
26:56I love you for you.
26:59Every part of you.
27:05I love you.
27:06I love the Dylan inside my flat.
27:11And I love the Dylan outside of it.
27:19But...
27:19If this is the world that you truly want to be in...
27:22Then you need to let your family into it too.
27:25I love you.
27:25I love you.
27:44Hi, Sharon.
27:46Look, I'm sorry. I know you hear voice calls.
27:52I want you to know that you and Luke mean the world to me.
28:06I'm sorry.
28:07Child, I'm so sorry for what happened.
28:11For what you've had to see.
28:17I know your heart must be breaking right now.
28:26I've been so selfish.
28:30I realise I meant a lot to you.
28:35There are things about our family, about me, that you don't know.
28:43Let me explain why I'm in this world.
29:01I hate to say goodbye, but it's barely better.
29:11Don't try to force it, cause we might just play.
29:20Cause if the cap doesn't fit, don't hesitate.
29:25If the cap doesn't fit.
29:27I know I'm so sorry for the cap doesn't fit.
29:27I hope I can do it, cause I'm so sorry for the cap.
29:27The lint is like goodbye, but it's not even a sort.
29:27So I hope I've been so easy to keep it.
29:27Hopefully, I'm also happy to keep it and take your perspective.
29:29You
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