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00:15Good morning.
00:17Good morning.
00:18Give me one more to the script last night.
00:21Say magical.
00:22Aww.
00:26This is awesome.
00:32I think it's great.
00:33Yes.
00:34It was a great night.
00:35And this morning.
00:37In the middle of the night.
00:38Yeah.
00:39Pretty sure at one point we had sex with the seatbelt on.
00:42Yeah, I had to pull up.
00:43Yeah, I had to take the seatbelt off.
00:49Last night was great.
00:50We had very good sex.
00:52I enjoyed it.
00:53I think she had a good time as well.
00:56Lots of different positions.
00:58She's got a favorite position for sure.
00:59Now that we're on the couch, I might see it again here pretty soon.
01:07Good morning.
01:09Night one was done.
01:11How'd you sleep last night?
01:12Like a baby.
01:14Yeah.
01:14I think we just meshed really well.
01:17Yeah.
01:18Felt good.
01:19We slept in until after 9 o'clock.
01:21Yeah.
01:22World record.
01:23Yeah.
01:26Today's Connor's birthday.
01:27Big ol' 3-2.
01:30All of his wishes came true.
01:32Yeah, already by 10 a.m.
01:34This freaking view.
01:36It's incredible.
01:37I can't wait to go and explore today.
01:39This freaking view.
01:40Oh, yikes.
01:41This girl.
01:42That's my view.
01:43The rest of time.
01:45She's stuck with me.
01:57Last night was incredible.
01:59It was.
01:59I can imagine like so many things in your head.
02:01It's like.
02:02I know.
02:03I don't know.
02:04It's like above what I thought too.
02:05Yeah.
02:06And I knew like in person would be the same.
02:07Even though you maybe not have felt that.
02:09No.
02:09Yeah.
02:10I knew that it would be the same in person.
02:11We were so erotically open with each other from day one.
02:15Mm-hmm.
02:16And we were so honest and so accepting of each other that it made it really easy.
02:23I do feel like we complement each other really well.
02:25Mm-hmm.
02:26And we look so good together, you know?
02:28We look good together.
02:29I just feel like we've just been like training like our lives.
02:34Like whether it was like relationship wise or whatever.
02:37And like we were meant to like literally be at this point.
02:40I could not agree more.
02:41All the like hard shit and like all of the not so great moments I feel like have like made
02:49me ready for you.
02:51Feels right.
02:51Feels so good.
02:52And that's why I love that girl.
03:02Love blind for you.
03:06Apparently it is.
03:06Apparently.
03:07Yeah.
03:08It just worked out because you're also like really hot.
03:10I'm right back at you.
03:12Where do we see ourselves in five years?
03:15We've gone on a ton of adventures.
03:17Mm-hmm.
03:17You've cold plunged in Antarctica.
03:19Knocked that off the list.
03:20Watched because that's not happening.
03:22There.
03:23Swimming with sharks.
03:25I'm actually down for that.
03:27Okay.
03:27I face fears.
03:28Yeah.
03:29So you said Antarctica for me.
03:30Where else are we going for you?
03:30Portugal, Spain.
03:32I do want to do Portugal.
03:33It's where Ronaldo was born.
03:34Sorry.
03:36Who is the other?
03:36Who's the goalie?
03:37Tom Howard?
03:38Tim Howard?
03:38Tim Howard.
03:39He's American though.
03:40Oh yeah.
03:41Where is he born?
03:42Do you want to go see that?
03:42No, I met him already.
03:43He's a weirdo.
03:44Oh.
03:45Goalies.
03:45I mean, now you're getting it.
03:47Soccer players.
03:47Now you're getting it.
03:48You're stuck with him so far.
03:49Except Beckham.
03:50Get out of here.
03:51He's not even good.
03:52I just like Posh Spice.
03:54I respect it.
03:55They're a good couple for sure.
03:56They're adorable.
03:56We're going to aspire to be that.
03:58Okay.
03:58Oh, absolutely.
04:00I hope I'm as fabulous as her.
04:02Not hard.
04:04You're up there already.
04:05Mm-hmm.
04:05I'll take it.
04:06I bet.
04:07A couple ways.
04:09Yeah.
04:17It is party time.
04:20Hi, big birthday batch.
04:25Are you excited to see everybody?
04:26I am excited to see everybody.
04:27Excited to meet the boys.
04:29The boys.
04:29Meet the gang, my boys.
04:32I think that girls need a full debrief.
04:34Probably.
04:35So it'll be fun.
04:36It'll be fun to catch up.
04:38The year is good.
04:38Oh, my gosh.
04:42What is wrong with you?
04:45Is that thing going to stay on tonight?
04:52That's nice.
04:53So cool.
04:54I have a mashed iron, dried apple, and rosemary.
04:58Rosemary.
04:59Like our child queen.
05:00Hey, what you want from me?
05:02I'm a bad little baby running through the streets
05:04and take a real thing to impress me.
05:06So what you gonna do to get next to me?
05:09Hi, nice to meet you.
05:11Hi, nice to meet you.
05:11I'm so glad you did.
05:12You're so nice to meet you.
05:14So good looking.
05:15Good to see you, man.
05:16Good to see you.
05:16I was like, you just said, it's so nice.
05:18Good to meet you.
05:20Good to meet you.
05:21Good to meet you.
05:24Good to meet you.
05:32Good to meet you.
05:38Hey, what up, guys?
05:42How are we doing?
05:46Alex is very attractive.
05:50We're missing the birthday boy.
05:51Oh, yeah.
05:53It's like the big birthday bash, literally.
05:56Happy birthday to you.
05:59Happy birthday to you.
06:03Happy birthday, dear Connor.
06:08Happy birthday to you.
06:15So much.
06:16Hi, everyone.
06:16Hey, I'm Jordan.
06:17Nice to meet you.
06:18Hi, I'm Emma.
06:19Nice to meet you.
06:20Nice to meet you.
06:20Nice to meet you.
06:21Nice to finally see you.
06:23Seeing Connor, it brought up a lot of emotions.
06:26It was a weird experience.
06:30Hey, thank you guys for the warm welcome.
06:32Cheers.
06:39What happened last night?
06:40Yeah, what happened last night?
06:41Nothing.
06:41Nothing.
06:42Lots of, like, touching all over.
06:47Everything.
06:48Everything about this.
06:48He's such a gentleman, though.
06:49He's like, am I allowed to, like, touch your boobs?
06:52And I'm like, no.
06:53Absolutely.
06:54You're like, I can't look at my boobs.
06:56Great.
06:56There were many moments where I was like, could be on separate or we're going to be connected.
07:01God, you're so strong.
07:02I was like, take my clothes off.
07:03Me and Mike are on the fucking day, bitch, getting it on.
07:06I'm obsessed with that.
07:08All of the girls have definitely been physical.
07:12My promen is left out.
07:14She's a very devoted woman, but, like, obviously we're going to have some fun.
07:19She's like, you make it so hard.
07:20And I'm like, I'm sorry.
07:22You make it so hard, Bobby.
07:24I'm like, you make it so hard.
07:25You make it so hard.
07:26When we are ready to have sex, we will have sex.
07:30But I feel bad for him.
07:33You can open them legs then.
07:34Like, I love you, but...
07:35Look at them.
07:36They're sealed.
07:36Open them legs.
07:37Yeah, you're literally like...
07:38By the blood of Jesus.
07:40I need a fucking page.
07:41Put me away.
07:42And maybe you need to do that so my man will get some tonight.
07:49Want to go join your friends?
07:51Huh?
07:52You want to go join your friends?
07:53Would you like that?
07:54Yeah, we can.
07:55Doesn't matter.
07:56I'm having fun with you right here.
07:59You're why I'm here in the first place.
08:01You know?
08:02What we're doing here, right?
08:06She's actually saying how she's kind of upset because you haven't made out with her.
08:11She's so good.
08:12Oh, really?
08:12Yeah.
08:13Wow, weird.
08:16How we doing?
08:21She's the best.
08:22Happy?
08:23You need a drink?
08:24You're okay.
08:24I'm fine.
08:25I'm fine.
08:26I'm fine.
08:27Everybody here is attractive.
08:28Like, there is no question about that.
08:30But I think that, like, with your person, it's a different level.
08:36You're meeting Chris?
08:38Yeah.
08:38I've met everybody.
08:40Cuties, right?
08:41Chris is the cuties.
08:42Okay.
08:43I don't feel like...
08:44Yeah, I was gonna say...
08:45Nobody's really what I expected.
08:46Really?
08:46Mm-hmm.
08:47Yeah, man.
08:48All right, so what are your intentions?
08:50Yeah, what are your intentions?
08:51Bad things.
08:54This is us for the rest of our lives.
08:58Have you talked to your ex-boyfriend yet, or no?
09:00Stirring the pot.
09:01I was like, I don't want to reveal too much, but I'm like, you got good taste.
09:05I was like, hey, I like it.
09:06The boys are cool.
09:07He does gas the guys up.
09:09It's all the same, actually.
09:10Same, like, hairstyle.
09:13Well, yeah.
09:13If I squint, I'm like, oh, they're all sick.
09:15Hey, hey, take it in.
09:17Which one?
09:18Whoa!
09:18I got a good one.
09:19Which one?
09:20Only shots.
09:21We're gonna have a home.
09:21At the end of the night.
09:23I got a leg up.
09:25I'm gonna be honest, this is not what I expected.
09:28I expected a little bit more depth to this.
09:30Is it weird?
09:31Like, I don't know.
09:32Like, I kind of feel like we're all at a surface level here.
09:35I feel like I've made these, like, wild connections with people,
09:38and I thought we were gonna have, like, these moments where, like, oh, my God, are you Brie?
09:42And I just, like, went around and hugged everybody, and I was like, I'm Brie.
09:45I'm like, I know.
09:47We've done so much together, so why aren't we acknowledging that?
09:50Oh, my gosh.
09:51Connor's palms just stopped sweating.
09:53I can sense it.
09:54But it was a little sweaty on the way here.
09:56I was like, are you getting nervous to see Emma?
09:58Oh, my God.
09:58I'm stirring the pot tonight.
10:00She's stirring the fucking pot.
10:01But love is blind, right, Connor?
10:06Brie was like, uh, named me with one ex here.
10:09And I was like, yeah.
10:10And she was like, are you good with that?
10:11I was like, fuck yeah.
10:12I said, I don't have a shit.
10:13Yeah.
10:14I feel like I made so many cool connections.
10:17Yeah.
10:17And we're literally just like, let's rip shots.
10:19Yeah, I know.
10:19And that's fine.
10:21But, like, it was just, like, it's kind of bizarre.
10:23Like, we just literally went through this insane experience together, and no one's acknowledging
10:27it.
10:27Yeah, like, it bothers me a little bit.
10:33Yeah.
10:33One thing I don't like about Brie, she doesn't shut the fuck up.
10:39One thing I do like.
10:42One thing.
10:43One thing.
10:43One thing.
10:44One thing.
10:45One singular thing.
10:47She lets me be me, man.
10:49Love that.
10:50She's good.
10:51She's awesome.
10:51Yeah.
10:52I felt like some things would be, like, forced.
10:54Like, you know, you do certain things.
10:55Yeah.
10:55Dude, it literally feels, like, so natural.
10:58Yeah.
10:59Like, nothing is clear.
11:00She loves you.
11:01Like, and I felt like that even before I even met her, which is crazy.
11:06It's wild.
11:07Authenticity's a big thing for me.
11:08Yeah.
11:08And there's a level of confidence where she just knows exactly who she is, and eye contact
11:12is dangerous in my eyes.
11:15I haven't found a negative yet.
11:17I mean, if you want to get picky, like...
11:18Yeah, get picky.
11:19She's not the type I'd normally go for.
11:21I love dark features, but at the same time, I'm very happy.
11:24Nice, dude.
11:26What about you, Big Mike?
11:27Her sense of humor and my sense of humor are exactly alike.
11:30Dude, that's huge.
11:31Like, we fucking connect.
11:33If you two could just cackle together, it's different.
11:35Really good banter.
11:37Love that.
11:37The thing I don't like...
11:41Dude, her fucking suitcases are all mess.
11:44Holy shit.
11:49It just feels like everyone's meant to be with, like, who they're supposed to be.
11:52It just feels natural.
11:53I was so off with everybody, though.
11:55Really?
11:56I was so on.
11:57What do you mean?
11:57Really?
11:58Like, I had no idea what anyone looked like.
12:00I...
12:00I was surprised about Alex.
12:02You have, like, an idea in your head.
12:03Yeah, he's not what I thought he would be like.
12:04No.
12:07But I feel like everyone else, I think I...
12:10Like, I think I, like, knew.
12:11Really?
12:12Someone.
12:12I wouldn't have guessed Jordan.
12:15No, I would have guessed Jordan.
12:17Really?
12:17Yeah.
12:17Yeah.
12:18I love that.
12:19Like, I love, like, big husky guy.
12:21I don't know.
12:22He's, like, so amazing.
12:23You guys are so cute.
12:24I know.
12:24Literally, like, when you walked in, I was like, yep, I see it.
12:27Yeah, makes sense.
12:28Makes sense.
12:29Yeah.
12:29Trust me.
12:30He's amazing.
12:30And he's just, like, a...
12:31He's a fucking good guy.
12:33I have such, like, a strong distaste for men and, like...
12:37A strong distaste?
12:38A strong...
12:39Oh, wow.
12:39Is that what you would be like?
12:41That's emphasized strong distaste.
12:43We would have never guessed.
12:45I guess I've never not been with a fucking asshole.
12:49He's like, oh, let me open that.
12:50Like, let me open this store.
12:51Like, and it's genuine.
12:52It's not like, I want to fuck you type of thing.
12:54Yeah.
12:55You know what I mean?
12:55Because you know the difference.
12:56It's, like, truly because he, like, wants to do things for you.
12:59Yeah, and he does that for other people.
13:00I, like, see that out there.
13:01And he's like, oh, let me get that.
13:02Let me do this.
13:03Let me do that.
13:03And I'm like, oh, my God.
13:05Like, this girl actually has a new respect for men.
13:08Men are good.
13:09Men are good.
13:10She says...
13:11She says...
13:12We come from red to green.
13:14Red to green, baby.
13:15Red to green.
13:16Straight to the penthouse.
13:22We deserve it, brothers.
13:24On top of that, happy birthday.
13:26Oh, thank you, Bella.
13:27All right, thank you.
13:28The high ones with the high ones.
13:30The high ones with the high ones.
13:32Okay, be brief.
13:34Be brief.
13:34Thoughts, feelings, prayers.
13:36Okay.
13:37I thought it was cool.
13:38Yeah?
13:39Yeah.
13:40Um, who surprised you the most?
13:44Surprised me most?
13:45Yeah, girl-wise.
13:45Um, I did not expect Amber to look how she did.
13:50I feel like that's, like, the biggest surprise of them all.
13:53Yeah.
13:53She's got a kid and everything.
13:54Like, that's fucking crazy.
13:55She looks great.
13:56Yeah.
13:57Amber and Jordan, they are perfect for each other.
14:00Amber and Jordan or, like, Chris and Jess
14:02are, like, the perfect fucking couple?
14:05Yeah.
14:05Yeah.
14:06Amber, Jordan, Chris and Jess, not surprised about.
14:09I know they loved each other.
14:10Day one.
14:12What did you think of all the guys, though?
14:13I did not expect Conor to be Conor.
14:16Conor to be Conor?
14:17Conor to be Conor.
14:18What did you expect?
14:19I don't know.
14:20I think you picked pretty well.
14:22Yeah.
14:23I think you're the hottest one there.
14:25No.
14:26Fact.
14:27What did you guys talk about in the guys?
14:29Oh, you want to know what I said?
14:30Yeah, yeah.
14:32Fair.
14:33Um, I said you were a little unorganized.
14:38I feel like I've got a real good sense of that.
14:40How unorganized you were.
14:42Yeah.
14:42Just the toothpaste.
14:44Your bags.
14:46Not making your pen.
14:48Okay.
14:49Fair enough.
14:50I'm not hating.
14:51No.
14:52I'm getting a feel for it.
14:54You're getting a feel for it.
14:54We're learning.
14:55We're learning.
14:56Yeah.
14:56Yeah.
14:57Time to be alive.
15:00Time to be alive.
15:05Time to be alive.
15:06I thought it was a great night.
15:08Yeah.
15:09I think it was a really good night.
15:11We were all genuinely happy for each other.
15:13Yeah.
15:14Especially Amber.
15:14She has such a big heart and she's a really good person.
15:17So it's nice that he was able to show her
15:21like how a good man can be.
15:25Yeah.
15:25And like make her believe in the fact
15:27that like we are gonna get married.
15:29Yeah.
15:29You know, we all came here for the same thing.
15:31That's amazing.
15:38Well, I am getting sleepy, very, very sleepy.
15:44So, I think we're getting ready for some good.
15:51Sleep tight.
15:52Me too.
15:54Don't forget the lights.
16:01Thank you for a great birthday.
16:0332, babe.
16:04It was a really fun night.
16:06Yeah.
16:07Good people.
16:10What did you think of the girls?
16:13No one's cute as you.
16:15Aww.
16:16What were your impressions about the guys?
16:18It's wild to like finally put it all together in person.
16:21Yeah.
16:21But I feel like out of respect for the connections
16:23and the things that we had in the pods,
16:26I just felt like we would have actually
16:29had a more genuine conversation
16:30than what I did with a lot of people.
16:33Even the guys I dated.
16:35And it kind of bothered me.
16:38Like, are we not acknowledging all the depth?
16:42Like there were some people in there that I was like,
16:44I've told you things that I've like never told anybody else.
16:50Are you just like not feeling the same way?
16:54I mean, I think I had a different experience where...
16:57Okay.
16:57Well, tell me about it.
16:58Well, I told you more than anybody else.
17:02So it was...
17:05I obviously don't care that you had your other connections, but...
17:13Okay, but like that, it wasn't meant to be dramatic.
17:16No.
17:17I just thought people...
17:18How people showed up in the pods,
17:20I thought people would show up differently at night.
17:22Really?
17:22Yeah.
17:23Like we came into the pods so vulnerable, no?
17:26Yeah.
17:27It was just kind of bizarre.
17:28Like we went through this whole experience
17:29and we're all just like looking into like,
17:31we didn't just do this.
17:32What are you hoping Chris pulled you aside?
17:36To talk more about this shit?
17:40I mean, that's a good question.
17:42I don't know.
17:48I'm not asking like in a wrong way, I'm just asking like...
17:51No, I literally don't know how I answer your question
17:53because like I just thought we were all adults
17:55and we'd like show up differently.
17:58I did not have one conversation with Emma, so...
18:02You just pretended it didn't happen.
18:04Well, if Emma would have pulled me aside
18:07and just wanted to talk, I would be happy to talk about shit,
18:10but I wasn't gonna do it.
18:12That's what I'm saying.
18:13Like I feel like today was just very surface level.
18:15Maybe the second time we see each other
18:18it would be like real conversation.
18:21I don't know.
18:22I'm assuming like you showed up vulnerable to Emma.
18:26And I'm sure Emma showed up vulnerable to you.
18:29It's an... I mean, I don't know.
18:31It's a pseudo-ex.
18:32It's just like why aren't we acknowledging that?
18:34We all just like saw each other for the first time ever.
18:37Yeah.
18:37And no one said anything.
18:38Like I'm kind of getting emotional about it.
18:40Like it's just like we just went through these pods
18:42and we were so expansive and so insane.
18:45And like we're like writing these letters to each other
18:48and like telling each other we love them
18:49and like breaking up with each other
18:52and all of a sudden we just come and rip shots.
18:56I hope that there's a part two to that,
18:58to like talk to Chris.
19:03I kinda need the part two.
19:09You need the part two.
19:22Here we are.
19:23Just getting a workout in this morning.
19:26And this is giant.
19:28I'm just gonna watch him swim.
19:30I'm just here for support.
19:31I'm not doing any of the physical activity.
19:38I just feel like a little bit lonely in the mornings
19:43because I wake up and then I have to like kind of go search
19:46to figure out where Devante is
19:50and I'm not used to that.
19:51I feel like every time we kiss
19:54it's because I'm going in for a kiss.
19:57Like I'm grabbing his hand.
19:59He's still talking about future stuff.
20:01It's just, he seems disengaged.
20:10The water looks so good.
20:11The water looks gorgeous.
20:16Woo.
20:19Hello, hello.
20:19Okay.
20:20Can I just write it?
20:21I am damn.
20:27This is pretty damn cool.
20:32Don't check any equipment.
20:34All right.
20:34I'll just fly.
20:35So ladies first.
20:36Okay.
20:37Here.
20:43Just pedal.
20:44Pedal.
20:45Oh my gosh.
20:47Let's go.
20:48Wait, this is so cool.
20:50Michael.
20:51Come on.
20:53I'm coming baby boy.
20:55High five.
20:56High five.
20:57Can we hold hands?
20:58Can we hold hands?
21:01Nice.
21:01Look at this.
21:02Look at us.
21:03Who would have thought?
21:05This is probably the coolest thing I've ever done.
21:07Yeah, it's up there.
21:11Now we're gonna do some jumps.
21:12Hey, I'm ready for it.
21:13You first though.
21:14Okay.
21:15Keep it on with you.
21:16You're doing great.
21:19You like that?
21:20Yeah.
21:21It looks like a snap dragon.
21:23Why is that so bad?
21:25Just look at your wrists like...
21:29That was terrible!
21:32At least I can cut.
21:35Hey, no, no.
21:36They're on free speed.
21:39Oh, this is so great.
21:40This is so nice.
21:42Oh, this is so great.
21:42Oh, this is so nice.
21:43Oh, my gosh.
21:45Oh, my gosh.
21:45Oh, my gosh.
21:46Oh, my gosh.
21:46Oh, my gosh.
21:47Let's go!
21:48Wait, you're actually kind of good.
21:50Oh!
21:51Come on!
21:52There you go!
21:53Come on!
21:54Stay center!
21:55She did it!
21:57No!
21:57Let's go!
21:58Come on!
22:00The score is 13-10.
22:02Cornhole.
22:03Cornhole champion right here.
22:06Whatever, whatever.
22:17Oh, that is salty.
22:25It just came up.
22:26We could see you.
22:32If we have boys, you're in trouble.
22:35You're going to be on the beach like, oh!
22:37I know.
22:37I'm just going to have to walk away and trust that you take care of him.
22:45What else is on your mind?
22:49Um...
22:50Just, I...
22:52I feel like you've been a little distant.
22:55You've just been, like, disconnected.
22:57Yeah, that's fair.
22:59But I think for me, I think you'll start to realize, like, sometimes when I get quiet,
23:03it's because I'm trying to, like, stay calm.
23:05Sometimes I'll just go walk around and, like, take photos and, like, get my creativity out.
23:14Sometimes I feel like I need to be in my nothing box, I call it.
23:18Like, what's wrong?
23:19And I'm, like, nothing.
23:19I just don't feel like talking right now.
23:21Yeah.
23:22Oh.
23:22So when you are, like, in those moods, is that, like, a you don't want to be touched?
23:27If it's hot, probably not.
23:30Well, we've been out here today, you're like...
23:34So, like, when I'm hot, I'm just like, no, get away.
23:36Yeah, but you also know my love language is physical touch.
23:40Thanks.
23:40So if you're, like, not touching me, I'm like, he hates me.
23:43There's something else.
23:46I had fun today.
23:47I did, too.
23:48Your eyes look really pretty.
23:50Well, thank you.
23:51You're glowing.
23:52Just wait, I get real golden.
23:53That Latina brings out the golden side.
24:07We have to, like, figure some things out in Ohio.
24:09Yeah.
24:09Your lease ends in June, you said?
24:11June.
24:11We can drive down, end up in Florida, test it out.
24:15Test it out.
24:15If we love it.
24:17Fly out to Arizona for a little bit, test that, see how things go.
24:20And I've proven I can get any type of job that I want anywhere that I want.
24:24I've done that three times in a different country.
24:26What would make you nervous about living with me?
24:29Uh, nothing, honestly.
24:31I mean, I think we're kind of doing it right now.
24:33I have no fears.
24:34You have to be nervous about something.
24:34I don't have to be nervous about anything.
24:36There's no nerves.
24:37Like, I sit here and I'm very comfortable and confident in who I am
24:39and what I bring to the table and who I chose.
24:42So, yeah, no, there are no nerves on my end.
24:44And that's not even a...
24:45I'm sitting here convincing myself so I can convince you.
24:48It's...
24:48I'm almost...
24:49I guess my nerves are the fact that I don't have any right now.
24:52The nerves of not having any nerves is making you nervous?
24:55Yeah.
24:56It's like, when's the shoe gonna drop?
24:58But where's the...
24:58Where's the catch?
25:00I've been through so much, I'm not nervous about it
25:02because of everything that I've been through.
25:04And I realize, okay, I can pivot in this country or a different one.
25:08I didn't have my father in my life and that didn't make a difference.
25:10I know exactly how to handle myself in most situations.
25:14So, yeah, I don't think there's anything to be nervous about.
25:17You gave me goosebumps.
25:18I love that.
25:19Yeah?
25:19I love that you're very confident.
25:20I think I should be.
25:22Yeah.
25:22I haven't had that previously.
25:25There's nothing to be afraid of in my end.
25:27Come change my life.
25:29Come spend the night.
25:31Come change my life.
25:34Come change my life.
25:36Come change my life.
25:38Come change my life.
25:38So pretty.
25:46I love that we can just kind of be silly.
25:49Yeah.
25:50And be goofy.
25:51Oh.
25:54Yeah.
25:55You were just lying in the pods.
25:55It was like that.
25:56What's the bad thing?
25:57Oh.
25:59No, there's no bad thing.
26:00No.
26:01Not a bad thing.
26:01Just me tripping over your shoes.
26:04Oh, shit.
26:04It was one time.
26:06It was one time.
26:09It was one time.
26:09You make me laugh.
26:12And I'm not, like, nervous around you.
26:17Yeah.
26:17How would you feel?
26:19Being a husband and a wife.
26:21I think it would be awesome I feel like it would just be amazing
26:27biggest thing I think is like just the idea of like chasing each other and
26:33if it's always been you
26:57cheers happy birthday baby thank you I love you thank you
27:04do you think your mom and dad would be disappointed if he's ever had kids uh no
27:10I just don't want to be like well oh he met this old chick and so now he's not gonna
27:14have kids
27:20the fact that you think that's old though is wild to me I mean it's because you are I mean
27:24because
27:24you are older than me is what I'm saying I feel like maybe you think like that more
27:28careful with your words I know I didn't get it out I'm kidding I'm saying I feel like the fact
27:32that
27:32you think that is because you're older than me I don't feel old no you're not I think my mom
27:37like knows me so well she like she knows like hey like you're not having kids man or like really
27:44why would I want a kid like I don't know people are like oh my god I have three kids
27:47I want to
27:47teach them sports I want to do all this shit like like I don't care she's like you need to
27:52be with
27:52someone that really understands you physically emotionally and like love them like and they
27:56need to be a special type of person too and like that's what I need and like that's what I
28:01have
28:03I'm serious
28:06I think both of us at the beginning had some certain feelings about our age difference
28:11and that it's so much less relevant than either of us anticipated
28:16I just really hope that you know I get to be with him forever
28:22that was that was great that was a great yeah thank you
28:28it was so nice to do that it just gives you like a glimpse of like
28:32things we're gonna do like how life can be today was good being able to like swim in the morning
28:38until the workout was like like I have to do that like every morning or something like that
28:42I wish I fell that way
28:45that's okay
28:46you're there in support it's all I need to do
28:48yeah everybody has their different way of recharging
28:51yeah
28:52I wish mine was like running 10 miles every morning
28:55but it's not
28:59well you never know
29:00maybe you'll get into it
29:01I mean I told you I'll try the cold lunch
29:03oh you're definitely gonna try it
29:06I'm gonna love it
29:07but it's worth it though I promise
29:10I think
29:11yeah
29:12you're gonna get in bed
29:13yeah
29:14I've been caught in your love
29:17I've been caught in your love
29:20I've been living in darkness
29:23so show me the love
29:28never felt this feeling before
29:31okay we're getting ready for the pool party
29:33uh Amber's gonna shave my back for me
29:35while she's so
29:38while she uh soft hands
29:40or
29:40it's directly on your tits
29:44this is love
30:06oh my gosh shout out 10
30:08good job
30:20give us a show
30:22Chris like really was expansive and challenging for me in the pod
30:26and it's so bizarre to like not address that
30:30here we go
30:31here we go
30:31oh my gosh
30:32this is like my ability
30:35hey bro we're getting intimate huh
30:39okay that was brave
30:41it meant nothing between me and him
30:42I swear
30:44Connor I knew it
30:45I knew when we were gonna get together as a group
30:47and to not acknowledge that in this moment
30:49to be like we shared a lot with each other
30:51oh my gosh hi
30:53and like this is crazy
30:54and like I thought about you a lot
30:56I thought you and Connor probably looked the same
30:58just from like how I don't know
31:00you paint this picture in your mind
31:01and I thought you were gonna be like super like
31:04rugged and like dark hair
31:06and like really stark pictures
31:07like you had an axe in my hand
31:08like you know somebody can just pick him up
31:10you're just like
31:11like kind of like almost like
31:14is he a liability at the bar
31:15like I don't know
31:16is he a liability at the bar
31:18that's why
31:19that's why
31:19he's so sweet
31:20you literally paint this picture
31:21like I had a picture you looked like
31:22yeah and I was like
31:23paint me the picture
31:24and I saw you like
31:24who the fuck is that
31:25and you're like oh that's Brie
31:26I was like what the
31:27stop really you were like
31:28that's not her
31:29it wasn't like good or bad
31:29I was just like
31:30I literally you paint a picture in your head
31:31and you're like
31:31it's crazy to like see you in person
31:33like the voice all like
31:33obviously matches now
31:35okay
31:35so you were surprised too
31:37yeah
31:37your voice is like
31:38all right Brie either smokes
31:39fucking three packs a day
31:41or she fucking just doesn't stop talking
31:43just have terrible vocal cords
31:45yeah
31:45obviously I was super excited to see you
31:47and I was telling Connor that
31:49I'm like I can't wait to meet Chris
31:50and all these people I spent so much time with
31:53I think that was like
31:54what was so cool about like
31:55I could like just see it
31:56I was like Chris and I are like
31:57hanging out
31:58we're doing this
31:58we're doing that
31:59like it was just so easy
32:01to be like oh yeah
32:02like we would do all these things
32:03we probably still would do all these things
32:05yeah no for sure
32:06I was like absolutely
32:07like
32:08that's why I was like
32:09Chris is still gonna like
32:10take me to do all these things
32:11so sorry
32:12sorry Jess and Connor
32:13I appreciate you for like
32:15just I don't know
32:16just the like vigor and energy
32:19you have for life
32:19like it's so attractive
32:20we're gonna get Connor
32:21to come over to my place
32:23and you guys can both
32:24can try the fucking ice plunge
32:25together
32:25oh I'm not kidding
32:26we were talking about like
32:27date ideas in Columbus
32:28I was like so do you do like
32:29a ice plunge
32:30and he's like no
32:31but I was like Chris does
32:34he's like you're an asshole
32:35and I was like I'm just saying
32:36that's how you guys
32:37I feel like you guys vibe
32:37like that though
32:38you think
32:39I don't know
32:40like I like
32:40like I push him
32:41I was like I don't know
32:42like it's interesting to see outside
32:43because we've been in such a bubble
32:44I'm like what do other people think
32:46like I don't know
32:47I don't know either
32:47like I look at you and Justin
32:49I was like okay
32:49yeah that works
32:51what is like
32:52like I'm like
32:52if you look at me and Connor
32:53you're like okay that works
32:55yeah
32:56really
32:57okay I don't know
32:58I needed validate
32:59I don't know
33:00I haven't had any validation
33:01I feel like you guys
33:01are like on the same
33:02like he's like yeah
33:04she doesn't shut the fuck up
33:05and like you're like
33:05yeah I don't shut the fuck up
33:06I don't know
33:07I don't know though
33:08I don't see like
33:09what it's like
33:10when you guys are like
33:10by yourself
33:11so I have no idea
33:12yeah
33:14in the pod
33:15it really came down
33:16to like you and Connor
33:16you guys are great together
33:17I promise
33:18are we though
33:19oh you are
33:21thank you for everything
33:22yeah
33:23it was fantastic
33:26it's been a long
33:26weirdish day
33:28love seeing everybody
33:29love talking to the girls
33:31and the guys
33:31but it was a day where
33:34some of my insecurities
33:35came back out
33:36I have been so sure of myself
33:38and so
33:38I'm trying not to
33:40let it get to me
33:42but
33:43I don't know
33:44it sucks dude
33:52oh
33:52come
33:53to the office
33:54hi how are you
33:55good how are you
33:56I'm doing good
33:57I'm doing
33:59great
33:59great
34:01better than good
34:02better than good
34:03since there's no sun
34:04I will take this off
34:05how are you and Bree doing
34:06we're good
34:07how are you and Mikey doing
34:09we're doing really good
34:10he's clean
34:11he's clean
34:12he's like
34:13yeah he just has his shit together
34:15I am cluttery
34:17and he doesn't like that
34:17okay
34:18yeah how about you guys
34:21she's a neat freak
34:22yeah
34:22are you a neat freak
34:23not really
34:24yeah
34:24but like
34:25when we get back
34:26to the real world
34:27when I do just leave
34:29clothes
34:29because when I shower
34:30just take off my clothes
34:31put it in the corner
34:31of the bathroom
34:32I'll deal with it later
34:33yeah
34:34because I'm like
34:34it takes like 10 seconds
34:35yeah
34:35and I know she's gonna go
34:37like bonkers
34:37I know I think that's like
34:38what Mike's gonna do
34:39if you ever need anybody
34:41especially about Mike here
34:42if he's pissing you off
34:43just let me know
34:45shout it from the rooftops
34:46yeah
34:46got me singing
34:48yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
34:50you got me singing
34:51yeah yeah yeah yeah
34:53I appreciate that
34:57thank you
34:57thank you
34:58what are you guys doing
34:59chit chatting
35:07boys come over here
35:08let's integrate
35:10it's that time at the middle school dance
35:12let's play
35:13let's play never have I ever
35:14okay no I like this
35:15never have I ever
35:17never have I ever
35:17five fingers
35:18never have I ever
35:19never have I ever
35:19yeah
35:20all right
35:20Jordan you start
35:22never ever ever had a threesome
35:46never have I ever had sex on a balcony
35:55are we considering ours a balcony
35:56I mean
35:57is it a balcony
35:58yeah
36:01ever have I ever had a hickey
36:03what
36:04for a hickey
36:05look at me
36:06my man is more pure than me
36:09my innocent baby
36:10maybe he's looking for his first hickey
36:12are y'all out
36:13that's what I said
36:14I said I can give you a first one
36:15hey
36:15I don't want a hickey
36:19I need another drink
36:22I'm not 100% confident
36:23that our emotional
36:24is going to translate
36:26to the physical
36:26if I'm being honest
36:27because so far it hasn't
36:29I straight up told him
36:31we can have sex
36:32that's fine
36:33if that's what you need
36:34to like feel connected
36:36to like break down
36:37whatever wall
36:38is between us right now
36:39we can have sex
36:48I just felt so lonely
36:50your man loves you girl
36:51that's what a lot of people
36:53keep saying
36:53but I'm like
36:53I wish that he would
36:54fucking show me
36:58day one
36:59we were like
37:00making out hardcore
37:01and like
37:02he was being super respectful
37:04like can I touch you
37:04and I'm like
37:05you can touch my body
37:06please do
37:07yeah
37:07everybody else is having sex
37:09that's why I literally
37:10said to him today
37:11I'm like
37:13we can have sex
37:15yeah
37:21if I'm going to marry you
37:23yes
37:23commit my life
37:24to you
37:25if we just need to have sex
37:27let's just do it
37:28I'm like
37:29are you not making out with me
37:30because
37:30you don't want to get like
37:32too aroused
37:34or like
37:34what is it
37:36because I'm like
37:37these whole like
37:38little like
37:38grandma and grandpa
37:40like pecs
37:40like I'm not going to keep
37:41like putting myself out there
37:43and feeling like
37:44a slight like rejection
37:46of like
37:46because that hurts
37:47you just give me like
37:48these little pecs
37:49like you don't want to like
37:50touch me
37:51and
37:51then like
37:52he was the one
37:53that actually like
37:54gave me a kiss goodnight
37:55I'm like okay
37:56so it's in there
37:56but it's like
37:58I'm tired of feeling like
38:00I have to like
38:01engage everything
38:02but I'm like
38:03I need more
38:04yes
38:05he doesn't say
38:06I love you to me
38:07unless I say it to him
38:09tell him that
38:09I guarantee
38:12he doesn't even realize
38:13yeah
38:14a like
38:15kind of uncomfortable
38:16conversation now
38:17is way better
38:18than a shitstorm later
38:30what's up G
38:31I wouldn't really
38:32put Brittany ahead
38:33of anyone else
38:34that we've had
38:34conversations with
38:35in the sense of
38:36we're all going
38:37through this process
38:38together
38:38but at the same time
38:39I think there's a
38:40physical element
38:40that goes on to
38:41marriage
38:42I think if it's
38:43the rest of your life
38:43you want somebody
38:44that you're physically
38:45attracted to
38:45how are you
38:46good to see you
38:47what's going on
38:48I think Brittany
38:49is someone I would
38:49date before
38:50coming to the pods
38:51without a doubt
38:51she has the physical
38:52attributes that I
38:53find attractive
38:54tan skin
38:54dark eyes
38:55dark features
38:56and obviously
38:57very fit bodies
38:57so yeah
38:58so how are things
38:59for you
39:00great
39:00great
39:01I'm excited
39:02with where Ash
39:03and I are at
39:03at the moment
39:05I will admit
39:06Ash is a different
39:07type of person
39:08than I would have
39:08gone after before
39:09so is Devante
39:10right
39:10yeah
39:12I do like
39:13darker features
39:13I like certain
39:14things in my woman
39:15and I'm still
39:16trying to figure out
39:17and gauge whether
39:18the physical
39:18matches the emotional
39:19I think it's important
39:20that you have a
39:21physical connection
39:21and I'm still
39:22exploring that
39:23at the moment
39:26have you expressed
39:27that to her at all
39:27like she's not
39:28your typical type
39:29briefly but I
39:30think it needs
39:30to be kind of
39:31reset and
39:32spoken about
39:33a little bit more
39:33it's a tough
39:34conversation right
39:35like it's like
39:36one of those
39:36like how do you
39:37say to someone
39:38that you're
39:38emotionally connected
39:39with like
39:39hey like
39:40you're not
39:40my usual type
39:41yeah
39:43I'm comfortable
39:44saying okay
39:45it's not it
39:46and I don't
39:46have a problem
39:47with it
39:47I will break
39:48your heart
39:48to your face
39:48I'm not
39:49foreshadowing here
39:50but it's one
39:50of those like
39:51if we're not
39:52there I'll be
39:53very comfortable
39:53saying that
39:54and I hope
39:55you're in the
39:55same spot
39:55but I'd love
39:56to hear
39:58I struggled
39:59with that
39:59I haven't even
40:00mentioned at all
40:01that he's like
40:03not my usual
40:04type
40:04what's your
40:05usual type
40:06my usual type
40:07is like
40:08tall
40:09athletic
40:09I was like
40:10yeah
40:12yeah
40:12like that's not
40:13what I normally
40:14go for
40:14there's a physical
40:15aspect to this
40:16entire process
40:16and it does
40:17need to kind of
40:18meet that level
40:19and if it doesn't
40:19like you would
40:20end up settling
40:21yeah
40:21and let me
40:22rephrase that
40:23because I love
40:24the dude upstairs
40:24like he's
40:25I know what you
40:26mean by that
40:27personal
40:27it's more
40:29it's a very
40:31prevalent part
40:31of this process
40:32and you have
40:33to give space
40:33for that
40:34and I think
40:34both Ashley
40:36and Devante
40:36would also
40:37kind of understand
40:38that because
40:38they're probably
40:39playing the same
40:39level of game
40:41I know that
40:42I love this
40:42person
40:43I've always
40:43said like
40:44love is blind
40:44to an extent
40:46but it's not
40:47fully blind
40:47all the time
40:48no
40:49this is where
40:50the real test
40:51of does
40:52the emotional
40:53trump
40:53the physical
40:54right
40:58the conversation
40:59between me
40:59and Alex
41:00is surprising
41:01because
41:01you know
41:04he has a little
41:06ruthlessness
41:06in him
41:07so that makes
41:08me a little
41:09nervous
41:09for Ashley
41:10I don't want
41:11to ruin something
41:12that could be
41:12great
41:13because I think
41:14there's somebody
41:14that's fantastic
41:15there for you
41:15thank you for
41:16saying that
41:16let me fall
41:18it's not too late
41:22to run
41:24gave it all
41:26your loves are loaded
41:30gotta be ready
41:32or not
41:39any interesting
41:40conversations you
41:40have
41:42any flirty
41:43girls
41:43any girls
41:44flirting with you
41:44I don't think so
41:45I mean I
41:46really focus
41:47most of the
41:47conversations
41:47on
41:49like my guys
41:50and be like
41:51hey how are we
41:51doing
41:51like in that
41:52way
41:52so I don't
41:53really think
41:53it was really
41:54flirty
41:54like in
41:55reality
41:55it was more
41:56like
41:57for example
41:58Jess
41:58like
41:58I'm talking
41:59about how
41:59great Chris
42:00is
42:00and how
42:00he lights
42:01up
42:01and
42:01I mean
42:03kind of
42:03harping
42:03on that
42:04and then
42:04with Amber
42:04it's
42:05you have
42:06one of the
42:06funniest
42:06people alive
42:07and most
42:07genuine
42:08people
42:08that I
42:08know
42:09and
42:10I mean
42:10most of
42:10them
42:11just
42:11are
42:11like
42:11yes
42:11I
42:11completely
42:12agree
42:12like
42:12this is my
42:13person
42:13same thing
42:13with Emma
42:14I don't really
42:14think it was
42:15flirty
42:15yeah
42:16who else
42:16Devante and
42:17Britt it sounds
42:18like they might
42:18have some
42:18work to do
42:19but that's
42:20not really
42:20my place
42:20to say
42:22flirty
42:22conversations
42:23I don't
42:23think so
42:24I mean
42:24I'm very
42:25open and
42:25easy to
42:26talk to
42:26so maybe
42:27that comes
42:27off that
42:28way
42:28but I
42:28don't
42:28think it
42:29did
42:29Devante's
42:30my dude
42:30I'm
42:30supporting
42:31them
42:31in their
42:31relationship
42:32and trying
42:33to kind
42:33of
42:34I guess
42:34push them
42:35in that
42:35direction
42:35so
42:36I don't
42:36really think
42:37it was
42:37flirty on
42:38my end
42:38but
42:39happy to
42:40run it back
42:40with you
42:40if you
42:40want
42:41yeah
42:41play it
42:42back
42:42no
42:42run the
42:42tape
42:44I'm confident
42:44in it
42:45so
42:45I don't know
42:46cool
42:46yeah
42:48yeah
42:49what else
42:50you haven't
42:51lived with a
42:51girl
42:51right
42:53I've never
42:53signed a lease
42:54with a girl
42:54but I've lived
42:54with a girl
42:55and a dog
42:56for a couple
42:56months
42:56and it's
42:57been easy
42:57yeah
42:58I'm not
42:58super pumped
42:59about going
43:00back to
43:00Cleveland
43:00obviously
43:01or Columbus
43:01but
43:03the way
43:03we've been
43:04talking is
43:04it doesn't
43:04seem like
43:05we're going
43:05to be there
43:05for very
43:06long
43:07we'll get
43:07through that
43:08time period
43:08and then move
43:09on to what's
43:09next
43:09and kind of
43:10be happy
43:11with it
43:11but again
43:11I'm used
43:12to a new
43:12city every
43:13couple months
43:13and that's
43:14home for me
43:15I've been
43:16in the unknown
43:16for a long
43:17time so
43:17I don't feel
43:18as though
43:19there's anything
43:20to be nervous
43:20about
43:20you're nervous
43:21for nothing
43:21but like
43:22do you feel
43:23anything for
43:24the future
43:24no I mean
43:25I'm excited
43:26for the future
43:26but like
43:27nervous
43:27I think
43:28it's like
43:28a weird word
43:28I just get
43:29nervous
43:29yeah
43:29I just get
43:30like
43:30it's the unknown
43:31yeah
43:32it's not that
43:32I'm like
43:33so scared
43:34or like
43:34petrified
43:35but I'm like
43:35oh there is
43:36like
43:36there's changes
43:37involved
43:37without a doubt
43:38I mean
43:38it's not going
43:39to be the same
43:40but at the same
43:40time like
43:41I don't think
43:42there's anything
43:42to be nervous
43:43about
43:43I guess
43:44for me
43:44like
43:45when we do
43:45get back
43:46I'll just
43:46kind of
43:46need your
43:47like support
43:48I guess
43:48you're very
43:49comfortable
43:49in the unknown
43:50and I'm
43:50this is new
43:51for me
43:51I think
43:52it's normal
43:53to feel
43:53that way
43:53if you haven't
43:54been in
43:54this type
43:55of lifestyle
43:55but at the
43:56same time
43:57yeah
43:57it's something
43:58that I've been
43:58through
43:58so I feel
43:59comfortable
43:59with it
44:00and happy
44:00to like
44:00be that rock
44:01if you need
44:02that
44:03as things
44:03come up
44:03because we
44:04don't really
44:04know what's
44:04going to come
44:04up
44:05there are
44:05things in
44:05life
44:05that you
44:05can't
44:06plan for
44:07we talked
44:07about this
44:08before
44:08give the
44:09pause
44:09I mean
44:10look
44:11I've been
44:11through
44:12meeting my
44:13father
44:13and then
44:14traveling the
44:14world
44:14randomly
44:15and then
44:16losing a
44:16soccer career
44:17at the last
44:17second
44:17so like
44:18this is
44:18just par
44:19for the
44:19course
44:19for me
44:19yeah
44:20I guess
44:20I just
44:20want to
44:21make sure
44:21like
44:21you feel
44:22something
44:22like I don't
44:23want you
44:23to be like
44:23completely numb
44:24to like
44:24what our
44:24future is
44:25and
44:25no
44:25whatever
44:26you need
44:26on my
44:27end
44:27I'm happy
44:28to provide
44:28it's just
44:28you gotta
44:28let me
44:29know
44:29I know
44:29I think
44:30my biggest
44:30thing
44:30was just
44:30like I
44:31didn't want
44:31you to
44:31just be
44:32like
44:32completely numb
44:32like
44:33I was like
44:34do you even
44:34have feelings
44:35for me
44:35at this
44:36point
44:36it's like
44:38there aren't
44:39problems
44:39yeah
44:41there
44:41we'll solve
44:42them when
44:42they show
44:42up
44:43we don't
44:44have any
44:44problems
44:44right now
44:45don't make
44:46them
44:47deal
44:48deal
44:58I'm really
45:00grateful
45:01for going
45:02into
45:03today
45:04and seeing
45:05everybody
45:05because
45:06I needed
45:07the part
45:07two
45:07yeah
45:09and I
45:10could even
45:10do a part
45:11three
45:12to be honest
45:15and it's
45:16not because
45:17I'm like
45:17romantically
45:18interested in
45:19somebody
45:19but it's
45:20like
45:21there's a
45:21lot to
45:22unpack
45:23obviously
45:24we had
45:24different
45:25kind of
45:26days
45:28there wasn't
45:29any like
45:29unresolved
45:30feelings
45:30at least
45:30for me
45:31once I
45:31cut something
45:32off in
45:32the pods
45:34that was
45:34it for me
45:35yeah
45:35I don't know
45:36if you need
45:36to like
45:37figure it
45:37out or
45:37what
45:37but I
45:38guess
45:38it's a
45:38little
45:39weird
45:39for me
45:40just to
45:42see you
45:42like stumble
45:43over
45:44like a
45:45connection
45:45that you
45:45had cut
45:46off
45:47didn't love
45:47it
45:50I'm not
45:51gonna
45:51fall out
45:52of love
45:52or anything
45:52but I
45:52think
45:53just at
45:53the same
45:53time
45:53it was
45:54just
45:54like
45:55uncertain
45:55didn't
45:56love
45:56hearing it
45:57yeah
45:58usually
45:58I
45:59wouldn't
45:59say
45:59these
45:59things
45:59I
46:00probably
46:00just
46:00like
46:00keep
46:00them
46:01internalized
46:01and then
46:02either blow
46:02up in a
46:03day or
46:03two
46:04or like
46:05resent you
46:06for them
46:07when I
46:07didn't tell
46:08you what I
46:08was feeling
46:09right
46:09maybe a path
46:10where I've just
46:11been like
46:12oof
46:13I'm not getting
46:13the validation
46:14that I need
46:15yeah
46:15but it's
46:16turned into
46:17like
46:18it's not
46:19about how
46:19she feels
46:20about you
46:20it's like
46:22this is what
46:23she needs
46:23at this
46:24moment
46:24this is
46:25about
46:25like
46:25her
46:26yeah
46:34that's a
46:34partnership
46:35like
46:35that's a
46:35relationship
46:36like
46:36that's
46:37what we
46:38are looking
46:39for
46:39as
46:40people
46:41progressing
46:41forward
46:42in life
46:42for a
46:43forever
46:43partner
46:45and like
46:46seeing Chris
46:48it actually
46:48was kind
46:49of like
46:49I don't know
46:50like I
46:51appreciated him
46:51but like
46:52he's also
46:52so happy
46:53yeah
46:54so like
46:55I really
46:55didn't like
46:55have much
46:56to talk
46:56about
46:57it was
46:57kind of
46:57a little
46:58fluffy
46:59which is
46:59kind of
46:59interesting
47:00because he
47:00was my
47:00number two
47:01connection
47:01but like
47:03seeing him
47:04adjust
47:04just makes
47:05sense
47:05for me
47:05so it was
47:06like
47:07what more
47:08do we have
47:08to debrief
47:09it's hard
47:10because I
47:11have to
47:11compare the
47:11experiences
47:12but I
47:13believed in
47:13you more
47:14than I
47:14believed
47:14in those
47:17I
47:18believed
47:18in you
47:19and just
47:20need
47:20patience
47:21with me
47:23like it's
47:24going to be
47:24a lot
47:25and I
47:25appreciate
47:26your patience
47:27and like
47:28I'm grateful
47:28for you
47:32a lot
47:51how's the party
47:52for you
47:57and I just
47:58feel like we
47:58have not been
47:59living like
47:59connecting
48:03with each
48:04like when
48:05you walk
48:05by me
48:05it's like
48:06you just
48:06walk by
48:07me
48:07you don't
48:08like interact
48:09or like
48:10grab me
48:10or like
48:11touch my
48:11back
48:11or give me
48:12like a kiss
48:12or anything
48:13like that
48:13it's just
48:13like do you
48:14even like
48:15find me
48:15attractive
48:16because you
48:16don't ever
48:17tell me
48:17and do you
48:18even want
48:18to be
48:19here with
48:19me
48:19I literally
48:20don't feel
48:21like we're
48:21even engaged
48:22like I feel
48:23like we're
48:23just hanging
48:24out
48:25every time
48:26we've been
48:26together
48:27we've been
48:27like having
48:28fun talking
48:29like I'm
48:29always willing
48:30to sit down
48:31and have
48:31like a
48:31conversation
48:32with you
48:32like the
48:33fact that
48:33I don't
48:34wake up
48:34in the bed
48:35next to you
48:35like sorry
48:36I get up
48:36early and I
48:36don't want
48:37to lay
48:37in the bed
48:37all morning
48:38I want to
48:39be out here
48:39watching the
48:40sunrise
48:40reading my
48:40book
48:41I fall asleep
48:41out here
48:42like that's
48:43not me
48:43isolating
48:43from you
48:44like but
48:45you take
48:45that as
48:46such like
48:46a personal
48:47thing
48:47where it's
48:48like what
48:48do you want
48:49me to do
48:49you could be
48:50in there
48:50talking to me
48:51asking me
48:54I guess I
48:54didn't want
48:54to be cooped
48:55up inside
48:56the whole
48:56time
48:57you have
48:58that such
48:58idea
48:58like I
48:59have to
48:59be hugging
48:59you at
49:00all times
49:00of the day
49:01or being
49:01there
49:01it's like
49:02that doesn't
49:02mean
49:02that doesn't
49:04mean I
49:04don't care
49:05about you
49:05I don't
49:06think that
49:06but I'm
49:07saying
49:07we should
49:08be
49:09in a honeymoon
49:10face
49:12okay
49:13it's not
49:13the honeymoon
49:14we still have
49:15like to live
49:16together
49:16like figure
49:17out life
49:17and like
49:19it doesn't
49:19mean I
49:20have to walk
49:20by you
49:21and always
49:21hug you
49:21and kiss
49:22you like
49:22every single
49:23second
49:24I'm not
49:24saying that
49:24but I'm
49:25saying don't
49:25walk by me
49:26and not
49:26acknowledge
49:26I'd never
49:27have not
49:28walked by
49:28you
49:28not
49:28not
49:29acknowledge
49:29multiple
49:29times
49:30I
49:30wouldn't be
49:31saying that
49:32I feel like
49:32we aren't
49:33connecting
49:33if you weren't
49:34doing that
49:36I get that
49:36I get that
49:36but if I have
49:37nothing to say
49:38I can't always
49:38spark up a
49:39conversation
49:3920 hours
49:40of the day
49:42like I told
49:42you that
49:43yesterday
49:43when we
49:43talked about
49:44that
49:45there's just
49:45a lot
49:46going on
49:46in my head
49:46right now
49:47all the stuff
49:48with my family
49:49adjusting back
49:49to life
49:50like there's a
49:50lot that
49:51like to take
49:51in
49:52and like I'm
49:53walking back
49:54like with
49:54someone not
49:55in my family
49:56anymore
49:56like that's
49:57a lot
49:57to take
49:57in
49:58so sorry
49:59like that
50:00you feel
50:00this way
50:01but you know
50:01there's other
50:02things on my
50:03mind too
50:05I'm not
50:05saying your
50:06feelings aren't
50:06valid but
50:08I don't know
50:16I don't think
50:17you're ignoring
50:18me
50:19but I'm
50:20saying that
50:20I feel
50:21actually in
50:22pure shock
50:30we should
50:31want to be
50:31in each other's
50:32space
50:32if we're
50:33talking about
50:34getting married
50:36I think
50:37it's time
50:37that we
50:38settled in
50:39unfinished
50:41business
50:47what happens
50:48next
50:57I know
50:58what it's
50:59like to
51:00feel loved
51:00now
51:01you're
51:02bringing out
51:02the best
51:02in me
51:03I'll never
51:03ever feel
51:04confident about
51:04anything in
51:05my life
51:05we can have
51:06fun together
51:06but I can
51:07like call you
51:07anything and
51:08everything
51:09you're my best
51:10friend
51:11he's still
51:11celebrating
51:12Christmas
51:12yep a little
51:13bit
51:13there is a
51:14keg outside
51:14I feel like
51:15I'm visiting
51:16my children
51:16at college
51:17your project
51:18oh my god
51:18when am I
51:19going to have
51:20a grandbaby
51:20so any
51:21direct fear
51:21with me
51:22having a
51:23white woman
51:23as the
51:24mother of
51:24your children
51:25um
51:27if we have
51:28a kid
51:28and you resent
51:29your child
51:30you resent
51:30me
51:30I could
51:31never live
51:31with that
51:32yeah
51:34you're
51:34flashy
51:35you're
51:35very polished
51:36convince me
51:37that you're
51:37real
51:38I am
51:38absolutely
51:39in love
51:39with your
51:39daughter
51:39that's
51:40not it
51:40no
51:41no
51:42I've
51:43never been
51:43in a position
51:44of being
51:44that involved
51:45with the
51:45kid's life
51:46before it
51:46gets scary
51:47I am
51:48pretty
51:48but you like to talk
51:49I'm gonna fuck off
51:50okay I'm good
51:54yeah you look amazing
51:56thank you
51:59I by no means
52:00do I expect you
52:01to like text me
52:02all day long
52:02I don't text anybody
52:04Chris Fusco
52:05let's see it
52:07you want me to answer
52:08no
52:10is this really
52:11the person
52:11I'm supposed to be with
52:12forever and always
52:14I don't know
52:14listen to me
52:15I like Connor
52:16but he's too
52:18submissive
52:18of a guy
52:19to be with you
52:21yeah
52:25get out
52:27see yourself
52:28saying yes
52:30I'm making
52:31the biggest
52:32decision of my life
52:33now is the time
52:34to decide
52:34if love
52:35is blind
52:37I was thinking
52:37about what it would
52:38be like
52:39if I was with
52:40the number two
52:41person I had
52:42holy shit
52:45so many ways
52:48so many
52:49that I can't count
52:51but the reason
52:53is that
52:54I'm still alone
52:55without
52:58I'm pleased
53:00to be wrong
53:01that I can't believe
53:03myself
53:03no more
53:05no more
53:08no more
53:10no more
53:12no more
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