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00:14I
00:15Think we just need to say what we want to do
00:26Do you need time to think about it?
00:33I
00:33This morning and in the first date I had I just got like a gut punch just felt
00:40Like a little bit more
00:42Like a different feeling
00:48I think that's a sign I
00:53Think so too
00:56I'm so sorry, don't be sorry. Don't be sorry
01:00All I want is someone who gets me
01:03Until then, I'm not settling
01:06Bye, Connor
01:07I've been all through the mud
01:10I've got a wild side
01:13All I want is someone who understands
01:17My heart, the dark places I've been
01:21Right now, I'd rather be lonely
01:24I'm holding out for someone who gets me
01:30Someone who gets me
01:31Emma
01:32What happened? We broke up
01:34Someone who gets me
01:35Are you okay?
01:36Who was this?
01:37Your number two?
01:38No, it's my number one
01:39I get it
01:42No
01:43Please
01:44It's not easy
01:45No
01:48No
01:49No
01:49No
01:53No
01:54No
01:55No
01:55No
02:04He was like, I have just a feeling.
02:08And I was like, you gotta follow that feeling.
02:11Yeah.
02:12You're not gonna change your mind.
02:26So checking in, how are we emotionally
02:28when it comes to your grandpa?
02:31It's a lot, but having that family support,
02:33it's kept me at peace.
02:34OK, good.
02:35So how are you feeling?
02:37Good.
02:37I got a little workout in, which I mean, honestly,
02:40is kind of the nice part of pod dating,
02:43because I don't exactly smell like roses over here,
02:47but you don't know that.
02:49It's fun to envision you.
02:51I think you're probably going to be wrong about me.
02:56Time will tell.
02:57I have a guess for you, but obviously,
02:59like, having the name Devontae.
03:02I could be French.
03:03I could be Italian.
03:05You could be.
03:06Devontae.
03:07Shut up.
03:10You're definitely not French.
03:12Not with that accent.
03:13You'll never know.
03:15So with your dad, I know you said he wasn't, like,
03:18present in your life.
03:19How old were you when he, like, stopped being a big part
03:22of your life?
03:23Around, like, three or four.
03:25How old were you when he passed?
03:27I was 18.
03:2918.
03:29And he was 42.
03:32Jeez.
03:33There was one time after one of my high school football games,
03:36I was, like, going off the field.
03:38And, like, you know how, like, people Friday nights,
03:39they're all, like, waiting by the fence.
03:41And I remember, like, someone by their self, and they're, like,
03:43hey, good game.
03:44And, like, I just, like, you know, kept walking.
03:47And then my mom was, like, hey, did you talk to anyone?
03:50And I was, like, what are you talking about?
03:51And I didn't know, but it was, like, my father.
03:54Oh, wow.
03:55I just didn't have any idea.
03:57And just never heard or saw from him again.
04:00And I did get, like, a chance to, like, meet him, like, once.
04:03But at that time, you're an 18-year-old kid.
04:05You don't really know what to even say.
04:07Like, I always questioned.
04:08I was, like, how could you have a child,
04:10and you don't want to be in their life?
04:11I was, like, if my father, like, didn't even want me, like,
04:17sorry.
04:18With my therapist, like, all the things that I wrote down,
04:21like, who I want to be on that paper, the very top,
04:24the most important to me was to be a husband
04:27and then to be a father.
04:28Yeah.
04:28I want to be my kid's everything.
04:30That's what I want.
04:32Yeah.
04:32My mom's my best friend.
04:34I do her lashes, her nails.
04:36I hope that I'm half of the mom that she is when I do become a mom.
04:41I definitely think having this emotional connection
04:44makes the physical 10 times better.
04:46And I think that's kind of why I'm
04:47in this season of celibacy, because it feels different.
04:51Yeah.
04:52We've got these little phrases over here, like,
04:54you're feeling, like, some feels for somebody.
04:56Like, oh, I got the tingly-winglies.
04:58Like, it's like when you're feeling it in your heart.
05:01And then the other one, it's basically
05:03when you're feeling it down below.
05:05That's the one that you need to run from.
05:08Which one do I give you, the tingly-winglies?
05:10Yeah, you give me the tingly-winglies.
05:16Oh, you have me smiling ear to ear.
05:19Yeah, you got the tingly-wing-ly.
05:20I have the tingly-wing-ly.
05:22I have the tingly-wing-ly.
05:29After meeting you, my whole perspective has changed
05:32on a lot of things.
05:34And it's an amazing feeling to your core, Jess,
05:37how compassionate you are, how kind you are.
05:39I wouldn't want to spend the rest of my life with anyone else,
05:42ever.
05:43I love the way that you talk to me.
05:45This is the greatest gift I have ever been given.
05:49I'm in love with you.
05:50Yeah.
05:51And, like, that's the truth.
05:52And, oh, my gosh, Jess Lee.
06:02Will you spend the rest of your life with me and marry me?
06:16I will, I love you so much.
06:18Oh, my God.
06:19I love you.
06:20I love you so much.
06:21I have my hands on the wall.
06:23Oh, my God.
06:24Oh, my God.
06:26I think I felt that.
06:29I love you.
06:30I love you.
06:31I love you.
06:53I just don't know what to do.
06:56I don't want to go to my second just because my first doesn't
07:01like me, but I also owe it to myself to try and continue
07:04this experiment.
07:05Re-evaluate after the date.
07:07Yeah.
07:08Going into today, I really thought I was on the same page
07:13with Connor.
07:14I thought I knew things, and I don't.
07:17I'm getting in my mind a little, but I came here to find love.
07:20So I do think it would be regretful of me to not try.
07:25Baby, could it be love?
07:26Baby, could it be love?
07:31Hello.
07:32Hi.
07:33Talk about waiting all day to see or speak to you.
07:37You were waiting all day for me?
07:38I was.
07:39I mean, it's been absolute chaos out there.
07:43There's like six guys here that have number ones.
07:47I was hoping it was going to be you, but I didn't know if it was.
07:49I was super nervous.
07:51Mm-hmm.
07:52So I'm so sorry.
07:54I feel so bad.
07:54But yeah, today, me and my second ended it.
08:03Do you want to hear this?
08:05You don't have to tell me if you don't want to.
08:07I think it's important for our journey.
08:13It wasn't mutual.
08:14Oh, shit.
08:15Okay.
08:16Um.
08:17Well, it was him ending it with you then?
08:19Mm-hmm.
08:19Yeah.
08:20Okay.
08:20Yeah.
08:21So he had another connection.
08:22Yep.
08:23Jesus Christ.
08:25Mike.
08:26I don't want that to negate what we have.
08:29I just think in the past couple of days, like I was juggling so many people.
08:33Yeah.
08:33So I do, I do really like you and it's just in my mind.
08:38I just need to get that shit out of my mind.
08:43Yeah.
08:44And you were so incredibly kind and caring and listening.
08:49Like it has meant a lot to me, so.
08:51Listen, I know, you know, I know we got a little deep and I know it was very emotional
08:55and it gave me like a little bit more clarity, obviously.
08:59Mm-hmm.
08:59Like I said, I waited all day for this.
09:02You've been my number one for, since the beginning.
09:08And yeah, I can't wait.
09:10I have a question actually to ask you like tonight.
09:12You're getting on one knee already?
09:14It involves like what your ring looks like.
09:17Seriously?
09:18Swear to God.
09:20Damn.
09:21Think about that and we will chat tonight.
09:23I will not ditch you.
09:24Don't ditch me.
09:25I will be there.
09:26I will be there or I will be square.
09:28Bye.
09:28Bye.
09:37Falling in love with him every single day.
09:39So exciting.
09:40What's his last name?
09:42Spees.
09:43Spees?
09:43It's kind of funny though.
09:44Bree-spees?
09:45Bree-spees?
09:47Bree-spees!
09:48Bree-spees!
09:50I do have some things to say.
09:52Okay, let's hear them.
09:53Wait, you really want to hear it?
09:54I do.
09:55Okay.
09:55Connor?
09:57Yes?
09:57From the moment I met you, I knew I met my perfect match.
10:01You take away all my self-doubts of never being enough or being too much and embrace me for all
10:08that I am.
10:09Even though I cut you off every other sentence.
10:13Thinking about our future together, I know that the best is yet to come.
10:18You've been my slow burn from the start, but falling in love with you more and more each day has
10:23been my favorite part.
10:24I believe it's fate that brought us together and know that it will be unconditional love that will keep us
10:30bonded for a lifetime.
10:32I can't wait to start this next chapter with you.
10:35You're the man I've been praying to find and I'm so excited to be your ride or die and forever
10:40stage five clinger.
10:42Oh my God.
10:43Are you ready for this?
10:45Brianna, I am so ready for this.
10:47I can't believe we found each other.
10:49I am so happy that we did.
10:52I really do think you're my person.
10:54Like, it's crazy.
10:55I did not see this coming.
10:58And that's why I think it's one last coincidence for us that this just happened.
11:05You are everything I could ever ask for.
11:09You support me.
11:11You laugh at all the dumbest jokes I tell.
11:14Thank you for helping me open up.
11:17Thank you for challenging me.
11:19Thank you for being open.
11:21Thank you for feeling like you can share anything with me.
11:25You make me feel secure.
11:27Thank you for accepting me for me.
11:30Thank you for being authentic, honest, and genuine.
11:34But most of all, thank you for being you.
11:37I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you.
11:41I love you.
11:43Brianna Marie McNeese.
11:47Will you marry me?
11:54Absolutely.
11:55Let's go.
11:59Oh my gosh.
12:01We are engaged.
12:03Holy shit.
12:04I love you.
12:04I love you too.
12:05Let's go.
12:13Come on boys.
12:14Come on.
12:17Oh my God.
12:24You guys are screaming, crying, throwing up.
12:27Screaming, crying, throwing up.
12:29Screaming, crying, throwing up.
12:30This is insane.
12:32This is insane.
12:34This is insane.
12:39I literally would walk into the dates with Vick and be like Kevin.
12:42That is so freaking funny.
12:44What's up Kevin?
12:45Wait, has he told you that?
12:46No.
12:46No.
12:47But I knew it wasn't him.
12:49They have very different voices.
12:50Yeah.
12:50You're gonna be perfect.
12:51I...
12:52You are perfect.
12:53I am excited to see y'all's journey.
12:55I was literally telling Dynasty.
12:56I was like, I don't know who else could be.
12:57I said, but I would not be mad if it's Christine.
12:59From day one, you've been authentic with what you have in common, which is your freaking
13:04faith.
13:04Like the type of personalities that y'all are.
13:06The way that you would blend in with his family.
13:08His background story.
13:09I know Dynasty struggled with like, my story isn't that.
13:13And I don't know how I could relate to someone that came from that.
13:16Which I got.
13:17That just didn't make sense for me with him.
13:20And I know like, may look different, maybe a different color, but your story and his
13:24story are similar.
13:25Just different color.
13:26Different version.
13:27And it sounded to me like he needed someone to connect with on that level.
13:31So, I think your love story is beautiful.
13:34You're in La La Land.
13:36I am in La La Land.
13:37Man, I'm the president of La La Land right now.
13:39I'm the mayor.
13:40You're the mayor of La La Land.
13:45Seeing the girls thriving and happy and falling in love with someone makes me feel worthy.
13:50Like, why wouldn't this work for me?
13:52I don't know.
13:53I feel like I deserve to have a husband.
13:57I deserve to have a husband on the other side of that wall.
14:00Kevin better be for me.
14:04That is my expectation.
14:09But Kevin has to make a decision.
14:12Every time I'm like now looking at the door and Tyler together, it's just when she goes,
14:17what did you say?
14:18Not rewind, but you're like, redo, and like walked out.
14:21I was like.
14:22Very embarrassing.
14:24No, nothing's embarrassing here.
14:25I don't think I'm necessarily worried about Kevin dating other folks.
14:31I think that's what we're supposed to be doing.
14:33It's my intention to ignore the noise and focus on what's going on here.
14:48Wow.
14:50It's a watch.
14:51I talked to you a little bit about honoring my dad and I've been wearing my watch every day.
14:58It looks great.
15:01It reminds me of my father, but I feel like it's perfect for you too.
15:05Because I feel like sometimes you're in your head and I want this watch to represent understanding that it is
15:13okay if it takes a few more ticks to understand where you're at with things.
15:19Just know that everything is what it should be.
15:25That's beautiful.
15:30Kia, you deserve honesty.
15:34I'm Kevin from Columbus.
15:37I'm literally putting everything by my bootstraps to pay for my stuff, my mother's stuff.
15:47Drive a little beat up Chevy Cruze.
15:50I love it.
15:52I don't have the crazy crib or anything.
15:55I just have like a little one bedroom apartment.
15:57I don't have everything figured out.
15:59I came out here to take a chance and find someone that's special.
16:04You are a phenomenal, amazing person.
16:12And I do think you deserve the world.
16:18Yes, I do.
16:20I know that.
16:24But to be clear, I don't want a man that has it all.
16:27It doesn't matter.
16:28What matters is someone who is kind, who is thoughtful.
16:33It doesn't matter.
16:34You're right.
16:37But at the same time.
16:39You are so awesome, Kevin.
16:43I hope you feel like that.
16:47I appreciate you, Kia, for really taking the time to learn about me and getting to know me.
16:54You are phenomenal, Kia.
17:00Yeah.
17:01Damn.
17:01In this experience, the one thing I really have learned is what it means to love.
17:10For you to share that with me, it means the world to me.
17:15You, Kia, you have really opened my eyes.
17:20I feel good.
17:21I want a better word than good.
17:23Like, I feel thankful.
17:29Thankful for this experiment.
17:31And I don't know.
17:32Like, I feel like we unlocked a, like, this is crazy, right?
17:37Do you want to open up the gift?
17:41Oh, my God.
17:43Are you kidding me?
17:45It's so funny because of what you do, you know.
17:48Yeah.
17:49For basketball.
17:50And I want to be the LeBron James of fathers.
17:56This is really cool.
17:57This is a very sweet gift.
17:58Are you kidding me?
17:59Oh, my God.
18:01Aw, I'm so excited.
18:05How do you feel right now?
18:07Uh, I feel just heavy, a little uneasy.
18:15Really?
18:16But today, I think I really just realized that I probably should let Kia win.
18:27Okay.
18:28Let everybody win.
18:31Let what?
18:32Let, let, let Kia win.
18:35Let everybody win.
18:36Let, I don't know.
18:39Like, it's, this is so crazy to me.
18:42I don't know if I'm worth the love of both people that I'm talking with now.
18:50Yeah, it's time to start doing the mature decisions, you know.
18:58We have feelings for each other, right?
18:59Yes.
19:01I care.
19:02Kia, I do, you know, care about you.
19:04You really took it to a whole nother level.
19:10But I also know that I have to make sure I'm making the best decision for everybody.
19:20Yeah.
19:21Me and Tyler.
19:27I want the best for Kia, and I don't want to fuck up.
19:36Yeah.
19:36We both have a lot to think about.
19:38You want the best for me.
19:39I want the best for me.
19:41But I, on a serious note, I want the best for you too.
19:44So like, yeah.
19:47Yeah.
19:48Yeah.
19:50Let's go process.
19:51I'm going to go see if they'll let me play basketball with my new shiny blue basketball.
20:01I deserve somebody who's willing to take all the risks for me.
20:04You all have an instinct today.
20:06Yeah.
20:06Right now, the power is like, all in his hands.
20:09Yeah.
20:09I don't like that at all.
20:11Yeah.
20:13Hi guys.
20:14Hi.
20:16Hi.
20:16How was it?
20:18It was good.
20:19Good.
20:20Is that a gift?
20:21It is a gift.
20:23It is a gift.
20:23Well, you guys know how, well, I don't know if you guys know this about me, but I used
20:26to work for the Cavs in sales and marketing.
20:28Long story short, I'm a basketball girly.
20:30And ironically enough, I got a basketball.
20:35So like, what are the odds?
20:37Very sweet gift.
20:39It's now and never.
20:43It's now and never.
20:44It's now and never.
20:45It's now and never.
20:46It's now and never.
20:47It's now and never.
20:47Now and never.
20:48It's now and never.
20:49I'm just going to say it because I just can't with this whole fucking secret of shit.
20:51Yeah.
20:52It's me and Kia, like sitting in this fucking room every day.
20:56And that's my girl.
20:57We're just sitting ducks.
20:58I know it sounds silly, but it's like, I just want to be somebody's like, undeniable choice.
21:04I just want for once, like a man to be like.
21:07That they choose Tyler, I know.
21:12But you and Kia have been phenomenal.
21:18I don't want to fucking let anybody down.
21:26Shit's hard, man.
21:28It's one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make in my life.
21:33I don't know what your journey is with Kia,
21:36but what I would need, like, today,
21:40is for you to only be dating me.
21:45I need you to make a decision.
21:52I'm just going to speak from the heart.
21:54When I hear your name, like, my face, it lights up.
21:57I love that passion that you had.
22:00You've been just so fucking steady rock,
22:06fighting for it, getting to it.
22:08It's like, wow.
22:13That's true love right there.
22:16That's fucking true love.
22:18So what you going to do, Kevin?
22:29I am choosing fucking Tyler.
22:34Kevin, look at you making a decision.
22:38This feels so good.
22:40Wow.
22:41Are we, like, official?
22:45You are currently my girl.
22:48Ah!
22:51I got a boyfriend?
22:53Oh, yes, ma'am.
22:56I got a boyfriend?
22:57Yes, ma'am.
22:59Oh, I haven't had a boyfriend in so long.
23:02Okay, so we're official now.
23:04Love that for us.
23:05Love that.
23:06Now that I'm your girlfriend,
23:08do you remember my middle name?
23:14Because I don't remember yours at all.
23:16Facts, facts.
23:17I don't.
23:18I don't.
23:18It's Marie.
23:19Oh, shit, I did.
23:23Oh, my gosh.
23:24In all seriousness,
23:27I have loved every interaction,
23:31moment when we had to share the highs and the lows.
23:34Yeah.
23:34I can't shy away from how that makes me feel.
23:38What's the feeling like?
23:41It feels...
23:44like I'm...
23:46floating.
23:50It feels like cloud nine.
23:52It's a wild feeling.
23:54It's a great adventure.
23:56I think I'm falling in love.
23:57Oh, I love that.
23:58Yeah.
24:03Oh, man.
24:04This is...
24:05What a fucking day.
24:06What a day.
24:08Oh.
24:09Oh, my God.
24:12Okay, I kind of got to pee.
24:15Okay.
24:16What?
24:17Wanna take a quick...
24:18Yeah, yeah.
24:19Ten minutes?
24:19Yeah, I'll hop out.
24:20Okay.
24:21I'll see you soon.
24:27Hi, sweet girl.
24:29Hi.
24:30Got pee.
24:31I have to go patty?
24:32Do you need anything?
24:34Do you want an old-fashioned?
24:35Yes.
24:37Do you want a snack?
24:38Yeah, maybe some cheese and salsa.
24:41Is Kya in here?
24:42What?
24:42Is Kya in here?
24:43No.
24:45I have a boyfriend.
24:47Shut the fuck up.
24:48What happened?
24:49She has a boyfriend.
24:53I think Kya's in a good headspace about it.
24:57Girl.
25:02So, are you gonna wait till he can talk to her tomorrow, or are you gonna say anything?
25:06I'm not saying anything.
25:07Okay.
25:07I wonder if he can ask to talk to her tonight, or if he'll just wait till tomorrow.
25:10I think I might ask him.
25:12Yeah, you don't wanna sleep on that shit.
25:13You fucking decide.
25:17It's about you.
25:20You're good.
25:21Have fun.
25:22Good luck, sweet friend.
25:23Thank you, I love y'all.
25:25That is hard.
25:29I wonder if we should take a shot now or wait for Kya.
25:35Welcome back.
25:37It was just Emma and Christine in there.
25:39And I was like, I'm just going on a quick bathroom break, and like, how do you feel?
25:42I was like, I feel really good.
25:43And they looked at me really confused, because they were like, okay, I think Kya also feels really good.
25:49Yeah.
25:49That just feels like shit to me.
25:51I'm sorry.
25:52Like, she could be laying out her engagement outfit, where she's gonna get engaged in.
25:57Like, that's just kinda fucked up, Kevin.
25:59Like, if it was me, I would want you to tell me.
26:07I have been having strong connections with her.
26:14It was hard choosing between, you know, you two.
26:18And why, why was that again?
26:22I didn't want someone who I had these feelings for to just, to leave.
26:34You know, at the end of the day, Tyler, I felt very deeply about you, but me and Kya were
26:41able to bond.
26:44Is there any parts of you that feel like you have, like, feelings of love for her?
26:52Love is a very strong word.
26:56Yeah.
26:56But I will say, you know, definitely, you know, bonded, exchanged gifts.
27:01It's relating to a lot of, a lot of stuff.
27:05How are you gonna tell me that?
27:07You literally asked me to be your girlfriend.
27:10Yes.
27:11I want you to be my girlfriend.
27:14But having two amazing people, this isn't a fucking game, you know?
27:21This is our lives.
27:23Like, this isn't fucking...
27:27Oh, my God.
27:35I want you, though.
27:38What the fuck is happening?
27:40You know?
27:45What?
27:47I want you.
27:50I do want that.
27:53Oh, my God.
28:02Okay.
28:08Oh, my God.
28:09I just...
28:09Oh, I feel so fucking dumb.
28:12Not...
28:12Not dumb.
28:15Oh, my God.
28:17Uh...
28:18Uh...
28:18Uh...
28:18Look, my jaw is, like, on the floor.
28:22How do you ask somebody to be their girlfriend?
28:25How do you talk about engagements and weddings and marriage and life?
28:31If you don't feel ready to be married, if you don't feel ready to be engaged...
28:33I feel...
28:34I feel ready.
28:35Oh, my God.
28:36I feel crazy.
28:38Don't feel crazy, Tyler.
28:40But, baby, tomorrow, you're supposed to be getting down on one knee.
28:44I know.
28:44I know.
28:46But I...
28:47I wanted to talk through us, though.
28:50Let me just be very clear.
28:51I'm not spending the night in that hotel with the feeling that I have right now.
28:56I'm not coming back tomorrow.
28:58This is crazy.
28:59This is bananas.
29:00This is nuts.
29:02Like, if I think about how my husband would make me feel, it's how I felt two hours ago,
29:07not how I feel right now, which is fucking crazy.
29:10Well, if you're my husband, you gotta spend the rest of your life making it up to me.
29:12But if you're not my husband, then leave me alone.
29:15I'm gonna go.
29:17Tyler, don't go.
29:21You are an amazing woman.
29:23You are that person that I want to be with.
29:28Prove it.
29:30Okay.
29:32Let me figure out how to do something to...
29:38Cause I'm not coming back here tomorrow without clarity.
29:42And I don't know how to tell you to do that.
29:44Okay.
29:44So you gotta figure that out.
29:46I'll figure it out.
29:48Alright.
29:49Goodnight.
29:49Goodnight.
29:53Might be having one of the craziest days ever.
30:00Girl, unless that man can send a secret carrier to my motherfucking hotel room.
30:04I thought I might get back on another bus.
30:07I just went on the most rollercoaster of my shit, too, bro.
30:10This shit is fucking crazy, bro.
30:13I gotta figure some shit out, man.
30:15If y'all already see the last five hours I've been through, I just feel like I got jumped by,
30:19like, sumo wrestlers.
30:24Oh, Jesus.
30:25How's that sumo wrestler?
30:27Like, I just got my ass looked.
30:30It was...
30:31I was great, man.
30:32Went from great to okay.
30:34Ooh.
30:34Who's that?
30:35Which one?
30:36Tyler.
30:37Tyler.
30:37Tyler.
30:39Well, it's been...
30:42But I thought we were...
30:43Said that we were ready to move forward and...
30:49Be together and, you know, move forward.
30:51But then she did make me think about with Nia.
30:57Yeah.
30:58I just don't...
30:58I just don't like how that ended up.
31:00Oh, God.
31:01You want to leave?
31:01Take a break.
31:02Help, man.
31:04I think you got laid off.
31:06I couldn't fucking tell her that you love her.
31:08Yeah.
31:09I went from exuberant to just fucking what the fuck, bro.
31:12Man, I love you, bro.
31:14It's gonna work out.
31:16It's gonna work out.
31:17Appreciate it, man.
31:19Never gonna take me down.
31:29Hello.
31:30Good morning, my love.
31:32How are you?
31:33I'm good.
31:34How did you sleep?
31:35Amazing.
31:37That's good.
31:38I do not.
31:39I was up a lot.
31:41Daydreaming.
31:42What were you daydreaming about?
31:44Our life together.
31:45I am grateful for you.
31:49Thank you for bringing me so much peace and comfort and security.
31:53And I'm grateful for you.
31:54And I'm grateful for you.
31:54Even with not even physically being with you, I just feel so safe.
31:59I feel loved.
32:01I feel seen.
32:01And I pray for a lifetime of laughs, love, and lots of babies.
32:10You have me at a loss for words.
32:12I met my best friend, and I'm excited to do life with you.
32:18Brittany, Elena, Wicker, I love you.
32:25Will you marry me?
32:29Yes!
32:32I knew you didn't know what I was gonna say, but...
32:35I can't wait to be your wife.
32:37Getting married!
32:39We're getting married.
32:40Be ready.
32:41No more waiting for you.
32:43Right.
32:44Let's go celebrate.
32:45Okay.
32:46Bye.
32:47Bye.
32:55Booo!
33:06He's a fiance!
33:08Mame, mame, mame, mame.
33:10What are you waiting for?
33:24it's beyond comprehension how lucky and grateful i feel in this moment i'm ready to commit to chris
33:32forever because of who he is i love that man so much it is fucking wild
33:44choosing jessica to be the person i want to spend my life with it's almost like a premonition of fate
33:51when the stars align like almost perfectly my life that i've lived up to this point
33:57and maybe her life she's lived up to this point it's just like literally meant to be
34:04i'm dying to see chris because i want to touch him and i want to be in his presence
34:09but not because i want to see what he looks like like i don't care the anticipation is unbelievable
34:19she's willing to go above and beyond for love and i don't think that's ever been
34:24reciprocated back to me i mean i love her yeah
34:51oh my gosh
34:59wow
35:05i feel like i have to do this in person right now
35:07let me try to figure this out real quick okay
35:15oh my gosh all right
35:35i feel like i'm so nervous right now
35:44you're okay you're okay you're okay
35:46i love you i love you oh my gosh
35:49i love you
35:49you look amazing
35:51you look amazing
35:52you look amazing
35:52you look amazing
35:53i love you
36:05i love you
36:22this is me
36:23never wow you're literally stunning
36:26stunning
36:28literally
36:30i'm also so short like when you were talking about my six inch heels
36:34i was literally i wasn't gonna say anything to you
36:37i was like how do i because i'm not i'm not six foot three obviously so i was like six
36:42inch heels
36:42i was like she's six foot with heels i was like
36:44i'm gonna be like yo this guy literally only five feet tall
36:53i was like i was like i don't know if she liked the way i look and then i got
36:57are you kidding me
36:57it's oh can we just stay here
37:00i know
37:01mm-hmm
37:02oh my god
37:03this is like
37:06mm-hmm
37:07you want to look at you like
37:08i'm gonna laugh
37:09yeah look at me look at me i really do just want to look at you
37:12the connection we made i love you so much
37:14yes
37:14and like just seeing you it just like it literally makes it like a thousand times better
37:20i will remember this forever
37:27god you're so cute
37:32stop you stop everything's exactly how it's supposed to be literally one of the best moments
37:37of my entire life a hundred percent actually no question it's not one of it literally is
37:40the same you're a falling star you're the getaway car you're the light in the sand when i go too
37:50far
37:51i absolutely did not care what package he came in but he's gorgeous oh god
37:59i'm really glad i have some champagne
38:04we have our whole lives ahead of us
38:11i haven't had this love before after my divorce i literally couldn't even have dreamed it
38:17he just makes me feel so safe like i just know he's never gonna let me down i just know
38:23it
38:24i love you oh gosh i love jessica i couldn't imagine being with anybody else like ever
38:33and in this crazy life and through these crazy times it's you it's you you make me sing
38:45you're every line you're every word
38:49oh my god
38:52i'm getting more of this
39:11so you felt like your one last night after the everything went a lot better i was so confused
39:18i feel in search of people that i feel so comforted feel so stable so secure and like
39:25i feel like loved like i can like feel like he really really really cares for me
39:31that's the one and that was never the one that i thought i was gonna go for
39:35that was that was him like that was the one who's standing here today
39:41i woke up at peace for the first time in a long time
39:44i got butterflies you know do you want to open first sure all right i'm opening right now okay
39:51they are letters okay so my mom is an amazing writer every year she writes a christmas letter
40:00summarizing our life in a nutshell and excerpts of each of us oh my gosh i'm already getting
40:06cured up i was hoping that someone was going to get to know me so well i found that in
40:11you
40:13so i'm really excited for you to be able to read these letters and learn more about my family
40:20through my mom's words i'm gonna read the first one what year is that 2002 i didn't have a
40:28personality then so it's not as funny but it's i think you had a personality season's greetings
40:35after writing the past three christmas letters from three different homes living in the same house
40:39for over a year we had a good year took a few family vacations the biggest being four days at
40:45disney world it was emma's first time there so it was very exciting for everyone cora 10 continues to
40:52study violin and also participates on the math team and went on to the state level hannah 8 is in
40:58third
40:58grade still loves animals and the outdoors on her walk home from school one day our mighty little
41:04naturist managed to capture two little turtles so the two turtles join our two guinea pigs two fish
41:10and two dogs oh my god the ark is full she goes your mom's got a sense of humor we
41:15had every single
41:16pet under the sun hamsters rats rats rats yeah my sister had rats jesus we had lizards we had ducks
41:24we had a rabbit you had a whole farm yeah we like have housed many things
41:31all right um emma here we go is five and a half don't make the mistake of leaving off the
41:39and a half most of you know she underwent six operations to remove a big black birthmark that
41:46covered her left arm and we are all grateful to that behind us emma developed an enormous medical
41:52vocabulary over the last several months and can probably name more types of bandages than the
41:58average intern i wanted to be a doctor when i grew up because of that oh wow that's amazing
42:04this is now she delights in playing hospital with the leftover supplies yeah yeah there you go checks
42:11out she wrapped the neighbor's boy's leg in in bandages and then told him to come back on tuesday for
42:17a dressing chain oh we wish all of you a wonderful holiday season and wish all the best for the
42:25upcoming year love jeff steph cora hannah and emma oh you can really feel the love and yeah how proud
42:33she is of you i knew my parents loved me yeah but i didn't know like it could be that
42:41much like
42:41looking back at these my mom i told you you're very big into sports yeah yeah so she did like
42:46she's
42:47doing like a scrapbook for me yeah oh for like my my high school career and stuff special she went
42:52to
42:52every single one of my games and she filmed it oh my gosh um even my younger ones wow it's
42:59amazing how
42:59mothers just can show love in so many different ways i couldn't agree more all right you're gonna
43:04open up mine oh yeah oh my gosh this is so cute a little scrapbook stop it so do you
43:16like scrapbooking
43:17i do like scrapbooking so i i decorated the front mike you did this yeah i'm excited to have the
43:26both of
43:26us take pictures and and fill that out together and it's our story wait so i'll be boyfriend and
43:33girlfriend yes i think we have so many similarities to you don't judge you're very empathetic towards me
43:40i am very very excited for committing to you and wanting you to be my wife um the only thing
43:49would be the kids thing yeah you're kind of afraid because you don't know your genes what if we got
43:57gene testing done and it was fine because i i mean listening to you talk and like like even when
44:02i was
44:03reading these letters you're such a family person i know you could be a great mother and just think
44:10of having a little you that you can literally do what your mom did for you i think that you
44:18would
44:19absolutely kill it i could see a family with you the idea is still so new to me i'm also
44:30nervous that
44:31i'm like some days i am very selfish and i'm like no i don't need to take care of anyone
44:38but me and
44:39like that's kind of how i've been rocking and rolling for 27 years i've been selfish too yeah
44:44you can be selfish for a little bit and i'll take the brunt of the work yeah you know and
44:50then vice
44:50versa like if i'm having a tough day you know you might take the brunt of the work my parents
44:56gave us
44:57so much i'm just afraid like i can't like offer that to my kids i've been in money situations where
45:05i'm like oh shit like yeah me too i've maxed out my credit card what does shit hits the fan
45:11we're young yeah you're 27 i'm not even 30 yet maybe like three or three years ago yeah i i
45:18maxed
45:19out my credit card yeah i i was 23 000 in debt yeah i fought and i clawed my way
45:24and now i don't
45:25have any debt things like that happen yeah and it's a learning experience but we're learning
45:30together and i know just how my family is and i'm getting a really strong sense how your family
45:36is too i feel like if there ever was a money issue yeah which i don't think there would be
45:42but i know
45:43that my family would help out yeah and i'd like to think that that maybe your family it seems would
45:48help out too yeah i know they would say yes so that's what i'm trying to say and it's not
45:52that's
45:53not being shameful to go to parents for help that's what they're there for yeah it doesn't sound
45:59good i'm sorry no no no it didn't it did sound good i'm like speechless just seeing you so
46:04passionate about it i want to be open-minded i do see myself marrying you and that was the only
46:11thing that was a question mark are you still okay that it's a question mark i am yeah okay i
46:16i feel
46:17such a strong connection with you that that i'm okay with the question mark yeah i'm okay with the
46:21question mark but i'll be lying to you if i if i didn't say i'm gonna try to sway you
46:28a little bit
46:28yeah um not looking for an answer no i know but i'm just saying yeah think about it
46:35anything could happen anything could happen anything could happen
46:56oh my gosh i'm literally engaged to connor i feel like i just put it in the universe
47:02the first day i was like this is my guy i found my person
47:12i feel over the moon elated rihanna has made me realize what i want to trust each other put
47:19confidence in each other supported each other listen to each other me more than her since she
47:25doesn't ever stop talking it's so awesome i never want her to stop talking
47:32it's definitely a fairy tale but is this all going to come to fruition and be real life
47:37or are we just like living in this fairy tale world that isn't really going to pan out
47:45i do have some insecurities is she going to be okay with how i look i know i'm out of
47:51shape i'm not
47:52the most built and i'm 5 11 and 3 4ths i'm not short just standard date normal body normal height
48:00and i don't really stand out hopefully she's okay with that because she's my soulmate
48:16stop connor finally oh you have no idea stop it oh my gosh you're freaking gorgeous
48:41you have one thing for you what okay you're so sweaty your hands are so yeah i know
48:52this is insane you're like free i know officially it's official
49:03holy shit no you have no idea oh my god no you have to go my way because i you
49:11have to walk
49:11away not me i was going to walk you back oh you were yes we're your gentleman yes oh my
49:16god
49:17connor what your hands are the sweatiest of the entire world this is nuts my heart's like
49:24like connor's a stud i can't wait to see like all of each other whether that's with clothes or
49:30without this is weird wow stop stop stop
49:39you're saying cheese ball she's gorgeous it matches her personality you look unbelievable
49:45oh thanks holy shit he said no get out of here you get out of here i'm here perfect smile
49:53you could see it just radiating off her and she was just so happy
49:59to see me that's when i knew i'll remember that moment for the rest of my life
50:05am i what you expected really yeah i think so it all really well he's not meaning ugly i appreciate
50:14that
50:16the minute you just started laughing when you came out of the double doors i was like that's all i
50:21needed it's just like when we were on our dates and i'm just like if i'm ever nervous or whatnot
50:24and
50:24i just hear your voice and like your like positivity and your optimism just like
50:29look at them gas and me uh that's all i needed and then you just started laughing i'm like i
50:35told
50:35you i would i'm like i'm just gonna start laughing i know it's like my nervous tick i don't even
50:39know
50:39what i did wait how tall are you five four okay wait how tall are you five eleven and three
50:46fours i'm
50:46not six foot yeah someone fact check this man get a real i didn't say i was six foot yeah
50:51you were
50:51honest yeah well it's a great it's a great quality in you i think i got like an extra half
50:56inch you
50:56wore his high heels today is my heart still being like fast yes mine was too did you think there's
51:02gonna be any awkwardness when we see each other no i thought maybe for like a no me or you
51:08me being
51:10engaged is one of the craziest feelings no one's ever said how good it feels
51:19i feel like i can climb a freaking mountain right now even in this suit
51:27this is an unbelievable feeling i found the love of my life
51:32which is perfect you're too far away from me we even get closer oh my gosh she's like sit on
51:37my lap
51:43you are so freaking cute stop do you want me to stop or no no okay don't actually stop
51:54oh miracle
52:03okay what you can't just make out for 20 years oh we can
52:11feels like i'm gonna be okay because i have connor
52:18oh my gosh well it's nice to meet you stop it i'm really happy to walk me down no i'm
52:25not walking
52:26i'm fine i love you i love you love you too oh my gosh i don't know how we've not
52:37said that yet
52:38so you just wanted to make out i told you okay watch out you're gonna like run into that side
52:44you're worth
52:45that's it babe oh okay you're kidding me i love you guys oh my gosh
53:02the best moment of my life i don't know what to do with my hands
53:11you're being in your head for a while now you don't have to make a decision now make a decision
53:17together i don't know don't know we shall see i never expected myself to be in a love triangle
53:26but here we are getting stronger as i move through what percentage of your heart is with kia and what
53:35percent is with tyler
53:39i don't know if i can put a percent on it what i will say is that for different reasons
53:46there's something that's pulling me
53:49and i truly don't want to
53:55i don't want to mess that up
54:01i'm not here to find a girlfriend i'm here to find best friend i want to raise a family be
54:08with my wife
54:09and in today's date with tyler i need to be able to say hey this is where i'm at this
54:16is how i feel
54:19that beautiful chapter it needs to be written that's what i'm here for
54:26tyler makes me feel like she may be the one so i'm ready to see if she's she's available and
54:31she's
54:31ready to see me hey hello hello
54:50hello
55:01yeah nobody's on the other side
55:08oh
55:08oh
55:08oh
55:12So much to discover
55:15A world that's like nowhere
55:25My world is on the world
55:28Journeys won't cover
55:31So much to discover
55:38So much to discover
55:41So much to discover
56:29So much to discover
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