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teen mom uk next generation s03e04
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00:09BEING A DAB ISN'T JUST FEEDING THE CHANGING.
00:12BUT NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO, IT'S NEVER GOING TO BE RIGHT FOR YOU.
00:15I AM SO MUCH BITING MY TONE.
00:17I DON'T CARE. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT ANYMORE.
00:19I HONESTLY FEEL LIKE YOU CHOOSE TO WORK BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT TO COME HOME.
00:23WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
00:25IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE BEDTIME.
00:30ARE YOU STILL HAPPY? NO.
00:32ARE YOU FORGETTING THE LIES YOU TOLD ME?
00:34WHAT LIES?
00:35IT WOULD JUST BE NICE TO NOT HAVE TO CALL SOMEONE OUT ALL THE TIME.
00:39IT FEELS LIKE I'M TELLING OFF A TODDLER.
00:40HAVING LOST BEFORE.
00:42IT'S SO SCARY.
00:44IT'S HALF.
00:45I HATE GOING TO SCANTS BECAUSE OF THE ANXIETY.
00:49WHAT IS IT? THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG.
00:51I FEEL LIKE WITH POTTY TRAINING, HAND TO GOD, I HAVE NOT BEEN AS CONSISTENT AS I SHOULD BE.
00:56ARE YOU DOING MORE?
00:58DO YOU WANT ME TO LEAVE?
00:59TELL MUMMY WHEN YOU'RE ALL DONE, OKAY?
01:01OH, MY GOD.
01:02MUMMY'S LOCKED HIMSELF IN THERE.
01:06MIL!
01:07OPEN THE DOOR!
01:21BABY CART IS ALMOST TWO WEEKS OLD.
01:24AND WHILE I WAS A BABY CART IS ALMOST TWO WEEKS OLD.
01:37AND WHILE I LOVE HIM MORE EVERY DAY, THINGS HAVE BEEN REALLY UP AND DOWN BETWEEN ME AND TYLER.
01:43AND LIVING WITH MUM IS MAKING THINGS EVEN HARDER, BECAUSE SHE CAN'T KEEP HER NOSE OUT, WHICH CAUSED A HUGE
01:49ROW LAST NIGHT.
01:54I HATE HER.
01:55I GENERALLY DO, I'M GETTING TO THE POINT I DON'T EVEN WANT TO BE HERE.
01:58I'D RATHER LIVE SOMEWHERE ELSE.
02:01IT'S MY RELATIONSHIP, NOT HERS.
02:02SHE CAN'T TELL ME WHO I CAN AND CAN'T GO IT WITH.
02:05SHE CAN'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO.
02:07SHE JUST NEED TO STEP ON IT.
02:10TYLER.
02:11HAVING A C-SECTION HAS MADE HER FRIM MUCH HARDER ON ME.
02:15AND MUM DOESN'T THINK TYLER'S BEEN PULLING HIS WEIGHT.
02:17SHE HAD A GO AT HIM LAST NIGHT, AND HE WALKED OUT ON US.
02:21SO THEN ME AND HER FILL OUT, AND WE HAVEN'T TALKED SINCE.
02:25LAST NIGHT WAS A FULL-BLOWN ARGUMENT.
02:27WHY HAVE YOU TOOK YOUR MANKET OFF?
02:29OBVIOUSLY, SHE DOESN'T LIKE WHAT I SAY ABOUT TYLER.
02:32I KNOW, I KEEP SAYING, I'VE GOTTA BITE MY TONG, I'VE GOTTA BITE MY TONG.
02:35BUT THEN, SOMETHING WILL BE SAID AND I JUST THINK,
02:38WHY BOTHER?
02:39BUT I DON'T WANT TO LOSE MY DAUGHTER, AND I DON'T WANT TO LOSE MY GRANDSON.
02:43SO I DO NEED TO SORT OF SPEAK TO HER, AND SEE IF WE CAN TALK CIVIL.
02:50DO WE TAKE A LIGHT ON?
02:51YEAH.
02:53ABOUT YOU LAST NIGHT, DO YOU THINK WE SHOULD, LIKE, HAVE A CHAT ABOUT IT?
02:57NO.
03:01SO WHERE'S TYLER NOW?
03:03OH, HE'S NOT ALLOWED TO COME HERE.
03:07YOU'RE ANGRY WITH ME, AREN'T YOU?
03:09YEAH.
03:09BECAUSE...
03:13THE THING IS, I CAN'T, LIKE, SAY, OH, YEAH, I REALLY LOVE THE LAD, HE'S THIS, THAT AND THE OTHER.
03:18HE'S NEVER DONE NOTHING TO YOU.
03:19I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE HE'S DOING ENOUGH.
03:21THAT'S WHAT I'M SAYING.
03:22I CAN'T BE BOTHERED.
03:25WHAT IF I HAVE A CHAT WITH TYLER?
03:27BECAUSE YOU DON'T TALK, YOU START SHOUTING LIKE THIS LAST TIME.
03:29THAT'S WHAT I MEAN, I HAVE TO STOP SHOUTING.
03:30NO.
03:31IT'S MY RELATIONSHIP AT THE END OF THE DAY, NOT YOURS.
03:34BUT IT'S ME AND HIM WHO'S GOT PROBLEMS.
03:36NO, IT'S YOU THAT'S GOT THE PROBLEMS.
03:38YOU'VE GOT PROBLEMS WITH EVERYONE.
03:39I DON'T.
03:40YEAH, YOU DO.
03:41JUST LEAVE HIM.
03:41I CAN'T BOTHER WITH YOU.
03:43SO WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?
03:45STEP AWAY.
03:49WHAT ABOUT HELPING WITH BABY AND THAT?
03:50HE DOESN'T NEED ANY HELP.
03:51I CAN DO IT.
03:52I KNOW, BUT HE'S STILL MY GRANDSON.
03:53I WORSHIP HIM.
03:54YEAH, BUT I DON'T NEED HELP WITH HIM.
03:57CAN I STILL HOLD HIM IN THAT?
03:58HAVE I EVER SAID THAT?
04:00HAVE I EVER SAID YOU CAN'T HOLD HIM?
04:02NO, YOU HAVE NOT.
04:03LEAVE THE ROOM, ONE.
04:06NO, YOU'VE NEVER SAID THAT.
04:07I'M JUST ASKING.
04:08NO, YOU JUST ASK THAT.
04:09I'M JUST ASKING.
04:10THAT'S ALL.
04:12DON'T SPEAK TO ME.
04:17I JUST WANT THE VEST FOR LEONA.
04:19I AM A BIT TO BLAME.
04:21I AM.
04:21I JUST...
04:23I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M FEELING.
04:25ONE MINUTE, I CAN GET ON WITH HIM DEAD GOOD,
04:28AND I SEE THINGS HE'S DOING,
04:29AND I'M LIKE, OH, BRILLIANT.
04:31AND THEN, I'LL SIT DOWN, HAVE A BREW AND WHATNOT,
04:34AND THINK,
04:36HE'S A WORST OF SPACE.
04:38SO I DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT HIM RIGHT NOW.
04:43THIS MOMENT IS HARD.
04:44I DON'T EVEN WANT TO SPEAK TO HER.
04:45SHE KEEPS COMING IN,
04:46TRYING TO MAKE A CONVERSATION,
04:48AND I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO HER.
04:50THERE'S NOTHING MORE TO TALK ABOUT.
04:51SHE SAID EVERYTHING CLEAR LAST NIGHT.
04:53I WON'T FORGET ANYTHING SHE'S EVER SAID.
04:57JUST HORRIBLE THINGS THAT I WOULDN'T DREAM
04:59TO EVER SAVE SOMEONE.
05:01SHE NEED TO GROW UP MORE THAN ANYONE.
05:17YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE A SNACK WHEN WE GET HOME.
05:25YEAH.
05:26YES, WE ARE.
05:27YES.
05:28OK, YOU DON'T HAVE A SNACK.
05:30TODAY'S BEING A LONG DAY.
05:32KALIL'S BEING AT NURSERY,
05:33AND I'VE BEEN AT COLLEGE.
05:34AND WITH MUM BEING AWAY,
05:36IT'S MEANT NO LIFTS.
05:41THE LAST THING I CAN FACE IS TOILET TRAINING,
05:44BUT I'VE BEEN PUTTING IT OFF FOR MONTHS,
05:45AND THE PRESSURE'S ON AT NURSERY
05:47TO GET HIM OUT OF NAPPIES.
05:48I GOT ON A SCRUPT OF SPAIRS.
05:50BUT KALIL'S HAVING OTHER IDEAS.
05:55SHOULD WE PUT SOME BIG BOY PANTS ON?
05:56CAN YOU SIT ON YOUR BED FOR MUMMY?
05:59NO, NO, NO.
06:00KALIL?
06:01STOP IT.
06:02COME AND LAY DOWN THERE NOW, PLEASE.
06:04KALIL?
06:09KALIL'S BEING EXTRA KALIL TODAY.
06:11IT'S AS IF HE'S GOT A TWIN HERE WITH HIM,
06:13AND IT'S DOUBLE THE WORK THAT HE NORMALLY IS.
06:16YOU HAVE GOT POO-POO IN YOUR BUM-BUM.
06:18LAY DOWN.
06:20NO, KALIL!
06:22I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS TODAY.
06:23MAYBE IT'S SOMETHING HE'S EATEN.
06:24MAYBE HE'S JUST DECIDED WHEN HE WOKE UP
06:26I'M GOING TO STRESS MUM TODAY.
06:28OH, YEAH.
06:31YEAH, YOUR POOFLE SMELLS.
06:34SMELLS.
06:34DON'T, DON'T.
06:35KALIL, STOP.
06:36OH, GOD.
06:40OK, BYE.
06:41LET ME KNOW WHEN YOU WANT TO BE CHANGED.
06:42I'M NOT ARGUING WITH YOU.
06:44WHY?
06:46KALIL WILL NOT LISTEN TO ME TODAY,
06:48BUT I KNOW ONE PERSON HE WILL LISTEN TO.
06:51I'M CALLING NANA.
06:52I'M CALLING NANA?
06:53YEAH, I'M CALLING HER BECAUSE I'M GONNA TELL HER YOU'RE BEING NORTH.
06:55I'M CALLING NANA!
06:56NO, YOU'RE NOT CALLING NANA BECAUSE YOU SMELL OF POO.
06:58I'M CALLING NANA!
07:02NO, WE'RE NOT HIS FRIEND AT THE MOMENT, MUM.
07:03HE STINKS OF POO AND HE WON'T LET ME CHANGE HIM.
07:06KALIL!
07:07AND HE'S CLIMBING ON THE SOFAS.
07:09QUICKLY, GET HIM OFF.
07:11HE DOESN'T LISTEN.
07:11I'M CALLING EVERYTHING.
07:13COME ON, LISTEN TO MUMMY.
07:15LISTEN.
07:16YES!
07:18WHY?
07:19WHY?
07:20CAN YOU GO AND GET WIPES FOR MUMMY, KALIL?
07:22NOW, PLEASE.
07:24MY CHILD DOESN'T RESPECT ME, MUM.
07:26HE DOESN'T RESPECT MY AUTHORITY.
07:27I'M STILL GONNA CHECK, ANYWAY.
07:33AND YOU STAY STILL!
07:36HOLD THAT PHONE AND TALK TO YOUR NANA.
07:43KALIL, YOU'VE GOT BIG BOY PANTS ON.
07:45TELL MUMMY IF YOU NEED TO USE THE TOILET, OKAY?
07:48DO YOU NEED TO USE THE TOILET NOW?
07:49ARE YOU LYING?
07:52COME ON, COME WITH MUMMY, COME ON.
07:56NANA NAH.
08:01I'VE DONE IT.
08:03CHECK, CHECK, CHECK, CHECK.
08:05GOOD JOB.
08:06YOU'VE DONE IT.
08:07I'M GOING TELL MUNNA YOU DID IT.
08:09NO, I DID IT.
08:11WELL, THAT'S FOR BIGGIE.
08:16HE'S GOING TO WASH HIS HANDS.
08:18YEAH, WE DID IT.
08:20IT HASN'T BEEN EASY, BUT KALIL USED THE TOILET SO KALIL
08:23So that's a win for me.
08:40Teddy, can you bring mummy some washing?
08:43Some big things.
08:45Yeah, perfect.
08:46My relationship with Matt has been really up and down recently.
08:50Thank you very much, you sausage bump.
08:53It's just me and the boys again, as Matt's at work.
08:56I swear I'm superwoman.
08:59Mummy's superwoman.
09:01But I know I really need to talk to him.
09:03I'm finished.
09:05I just want to know that he's happy.
09:07And I want to say that I'm not feeling the happiest at the moment
09:10with just how everything's been going.
09:11But this whole thing has spiralled from where he was acting with me.
09:14I felt like he didn't love me, so I've backed off.
09:17I think it is healthy to get things out in the open,
09:19but sometimes it causes more issues when you say things,
09:25so you just don't bother saying anything.
09:35My mum's looking after the boys today
09:37so that Ma and I can have some time together.
09:39It's always day though, isn't it?
09:41Yeah.
09:42Finally, the sun.
09:43And I'm working up the courage to speak my mind.
09:49Quite nervous about today.
09:51I just feel like...
09:53I haven't been with Matt in so long that it's weird.
09:58I just feel really uptight.
10:01It's not a nice feeling,
10:02but also it would be nice to be with him as well, I think.
10:06It looks so easy...
10:07It's very quiet about the kids.
10:11We have one chucking food there, one running away there.
10:14Yes, sir.
10:15I can't believe it's Tony's birthday next week.
10:18I know we'll have a four-year-old.
10:20But you're working.
10:22I feel like we've lost our connection a little bit.
10:25Because you went through a really weird phase with me a few weeks ago,
10:29and you were telling me that you don't want to be with a person like me.
10:33And then I've obviously gone cold a little bit,
10:36and now you're like, do you even love me?
10:38No.
10:38But that's how I felt with you.
10:41I just...
10:42I kept doing little things, like, I would say something,
10:45and you'd just come in, bite me head off, and be like, why?
10:48We're not arguing.
10:49No, I'm just...
10:50I know, but I just think, like, they'd carry on.
10:53No, that's fine.
10:57I feel really awkward now.
10:59Why?
11:00Because of the way you reacted.
11:03Does that sound like we've planned a conversation or something?
11:06What do you mean, planned?
11:07This whole thing?
11:08Is this why we're here?
11:10No.
11:10I just feel, like, ganged up on.
11:13You're not ganged up on.
11:16But I'm obviously even feeling like how I've been feeling about it all.
11:19Kids, and when do we ever have a chance to have a conversation?
11:22I agree with that.
11:23Because you're always at work.
11:24We're with battling with the kids.
11:26So if we go out for a day out together,
11:29and I could just bring it up and say how I'm feeling,
11:31so we can squash it.
11:32Yeah.
11:32Or we can work around it.
11:34No, you get that.
11:41Now I'm turning the page.
11:44It's a new day.
11:46My light's shining my way.
11:48Time to face it.
11:51Oh, I'm feeling good.
11:54Happy birthday, guys.
12:00It's Jack's 23rd birthday,
12:02and I've planned a super special family day out for us at the aquarium.
12:06It's not your birthday.
12:12Elizabeth Pope, we're really excited about the balloons.
12:14I think Jack was as well.
12:16I'm just really excited to spend the day with them both.
12:20We're going to the aquarium.
12:23Aquarium!
12:29Wow!
12:32Oh, my goodness!
12:35It's me, man!
12:38Yeah, do you want to come look in here?
12:44What's up, sweet?
12:49Do you want to take a big belly breath and sit out?
12:52Because that's not how we talk to people.
12:55Do you need to calm down?
12:57No?
12:58Do you want to carry on playing?
13:00Elizabeth Hope is well enjoying her three-nage years.
13:03So what do we say?
13:05Right, come look in here.
13:07I think you'll like it.
13:09And we're figuring it out.
13:12I won't lie, I'm a bit nervous about what the future holds juggling a toddler and a newborn.
13:20I feel like she's very much at that age where she's got a mind and wants of her own.
13:25When you've got the baby, she's all right at sharing, but I don't think she will want her with the
13:30baby.
13:30She just has to learn to learn to be a big sister, and it won't be easy for her.
13:34I think we all just need to be patient with her.
13:38She's not going to get things right straight away.
13:40Just as long as you tell her when she's not.
13:43Well, I think there'll be times where she gets face out.
13:46It won't be easy, but we'll get through it together.
13:48We can get through anything together.
13:50Yeah.
13:53There's going to be so many challenges for me, Jack, and Elizabeth when baby boy comes, and for baby boy.
14:01I just think as long as me and Jack keep that open dialogue, we'll be absolutely fine.
14:07But, you know, it's not going to be easy on sleepless nights.
14:12And we will get things wrong.
14:14We will.
14:15It's inevitable.
14:15We get things wrong every single day.
14:17But it's about putting them right, and just holding your hands up.
14:24Mummy! Mummy!
14:25No, Mum!
14:26Come on, see you!
14:28Ah!
14:49Can you stack the cups?
14:52One, two, three, four, what?
14:59Uh-oh!
15:01This morning, I went for a baby scan, and the baby's facing in the wrong direction, which means there's a
15:07high chance I'm going to need another C-section.
15:10And after the trauma of the emergency C-section last time, it's not the news I want to hear.
15:16I would love to have a really, really natural birth.
15:19I feel like at first, me and Valentino really didn't have a bond.
15:22Maybe it was partially because of the C-section.
15:24I didn't get to see him be born.
15:25I didn't get to experience it.
15:27I didn't get to have skin to skin.
15:28I didn't get to do any of his firsts.
15:30I woke up, he was already dressed, he'd already had a bottle, he'd already had a bum change, he was
15:34already, like, in the costume and his own thing.
15:36Like, he didn't need me.
15:39I don't want another C-section.
15:41I am literally traumatised from his C-section.
15:44So you cannot do anything then to it?
15:46Well, there's, like, a way they can, like, flip the baby.
15:48But, like, apparently it's, like, really painful.
15:49It's obviously, like, massive risks.
15:51Like, it always goes wrong.
15:53It's just, like, they end up getting tangled, they end up getting stuck.
15:56Her head's under my ribs at the moment.
15:58Yeah, I know.
15:59The woman was, like, I can't believe you're not in loads of pain.
16:01She's like, I don't know how you manage it.
16:03There were so many complications last time that I had to be put to sleep for his delivery.
16:10It was literally, like, from zero to 100.
16:12It was so normal to, like, so dramatic.
16:16Valentino didn't take a first breath for 15 minutes.
16:19I hemorrhaged after being woken up and had to go back into theatre.
16:24I can remember just, like, 20 people coming in, swarming around me.
16:27I couldn't even see you.
16:29And then next to me, I knew I was, like, in theatre.
16:33There was no time to even process what they'd just said to me.
16:37I remember I was crying.
16:38And I, like, shouted forever, and I was told he could have come.
16:42By the time I came round, it just felt like I'd missed out on so much.
16:49We didn't even give her skin-to-skin or nothing.
16:52I didn't even really feel like I'd actually, like, had him.
16:54Like, it didn't feel real, did it?
17:01She wants a normal pregnancy.
17:03She wanted that the first time that she felt pregnant with Tina.
17:07But she felt like she got it taken away, basically robbed off her,
17:11that it didn't go exactly how she wanted it.
17:13So it'd be nice for her to experience the pregnancy in her own way
17:17and get her real feeling.
17:19I'm pretty still, like, 28 weeks.
17:21There's plenty of time for her to flip.
17:23Yeah.
17:24Plenty of time.
17:42I'm trying to talk to Matt about our relationship
17:44because I don't feel he wants to be with me any more.
17:47But I'm not getting the answers I was hoping for.
17:51Really bloody awkward.
17:52I feel like I can't talk.
17:53Why?
17:54I just feel like you shut me down so much.
17:57We need to have, like, conversations like this
17:59to be able to make things work.
18:00Because I'm struggling.
18:02You don't know how you're feeling.
18:04It's just, at the moment, Ainge, no matter what we do,
18:07it is going to be our,
18:08because we've gone from having a child
18:11who was starting to be independent on his own
18:13and getting our time back together, yeah,
18:16to having a newborn baby again,
18:18going through the whole stages again.
18:21our relationship has been put on the back burner,
18:23and that's not...
18:24It's not good.
18:26What more do you want?
18:27Like, with parents?
18:30It's OK if you feel like this, and it's not a problem, but, like...
18:33I know what you're saying, but some days,
18:35I get fed up of being told, like,
18:36I'm always doing the wrong thing, and...
18:38And I feel like that with you.
18:40I'm not doing this.
18:41I'm not sitting here and just feeling like everything I say,
18:42there's always something wrong, like...
18:45I...
18:45I want...
18:46You brought me out of here, right?
18:48Clearly it just feels like to have this conversation,
18:50not to spend any time,
18:51because all we've done is to speak about this.
18:53I just want to come out, have a nice meal,
18:55chat with you, have a nice talk.
18:56And I wanted to just talk to you so we could clear the air,
18:58we could go home and be happy.
19:00I can't be asked for it, Ainge.
19:01It's just all the time.
19:06And I just...
19:07And I just wanted to speak about how I was feeling.
19:10Yeah, but that's all we spoke about this whole time you've been here.
19:12But let's talk about...
19:12No, I don't want to talk.
19:13I want to go now.
19:15Go then.
19:16No, I won't.
19:20Why do you have to let everyone know in about everything, Ainge?
19:23I can't be doing this.
19:35I just feel like, like, every time I try to, like, speak,
19:38I just get shut down and, like,
19:41there's always a reason why we can't talk.
19:49I just want to go home.
20:08Look what I got.
20:13I have got some pamper stuff.
20:17I'm going to have a good night.
20:18What colour do you think you want?
20:19I want pink, please.
20:21Pink, please.
20:23When I was pregnant with Elizabeth Hope,
20:25it was always just me and my mum.
20:26So while Jack's away on a lad's due for his birthday,
20:29we're having a girly sleepover.
20:31We're at Grandma's house today.
20:34We've got our matching jimmy jammies on.
20:37Yeah.
20:38I'll be looking.
20:39Check her out.
20:41I've been struggling a lot with my endo,
20:43so it's a relief to have my mum looking after me again,
20:45like the old days.
20:47Grandma gets hit.
20:51Girls' night!
20:53Woo-hoo!
20:56Nice.
20:56Do you think baby brother will like that?
20:58Yeah.
21:00Oh, that's lovely.
21:02That's a nice massage.
21:06How have you been pain-wise and pregnancy?
21:09I went out to the aquarium the other day with Jack and literally the next day I couldn't move.
21:15Really?
21:15I was in so much pain.
21:18It sucks.
21:21And Jack's supportive, he's, well, I couldn't have asked for anything else from him.
21:24Yeah.
21:25When I've been in pain and he sees me, like, all tense in the head, he's like,
21:30baby, relax.
21:32And I'm like, you're going to be such a good birthing partner.
21:36I'm like, aw.
21:37Obviously, when I go into labour, I still want you there.
21:40But more for the role of watching her, because I want her as involved as possible.
21:44Goodbye, Mummy.
21:44I'm really excited to get the phone call to come down and do what, you know, just to get
21:51all zen and relaxed and make sure that you're okay.
21:57That's Jack's job.
21:59Your job is to watch her.
22:02And if I need my mummy, I'll let you know.
22:06But it's important to me and Jack that it's our moment.
22:12But you're mainly there to be our support system with her.
22:16And, you know, if I need you, you're there.
22:19Yeah.
22:20But I think Jack's got there.
22:27I know if I'd have just asked her to be there, she'd have been, like, elbows deep in my floof,
22:32like she was last time.
22:34And I definitely want Jack to feel like he's my birthing partner and he's there to support me.
22:41As much as, like, it's nice to see you settled and to do it all yourself, it's hard for me.
22:48You know, I want to be a part of it all, which I'm going to be a part of it,
22:51just in a different way.
22:52It is going to be in a different way because we don't want to take that away from Jack because
22:55it's his baby.
22:57And if, say, he's struggling to do counter-pressure, don't just take over, show him how to do it.
23:03You know what I mean?
23:03Yeah, yeah.
23:07With Chloe's pregnancy, it's obviously been very different this time.
23:11With Elizabeth Hope, I was there every single step of the way, holding her hand.
23:15I caught her as she come out of Chloe.
23:18It was a special moment, you know.
23:20And I just hope all that happens again.
23:22It is a fear that I'm not going to have as much of a bond with a baby boy, but
23:30I'm sure everything will work out.
23:33Oh, that's in legs.
23:35You're not so small anymore, you're a big girl.
23:39We'll always be our baby.
23:58Oh, look, it's exciting!
24:01Get excited!
24:02Walks straight in and it's a cop, Mum.
24:05Oh, stop moaning!
24:08It's the hospital beds all lined up, didn't it?
24:10Well, yeah, what did you expect us to look like when you wanted to go like that?
24:15Mum and Aaron have been setting up the new cot and the reality of being a mum to two kids
24:20is really sinking in.
24:22I know Amelia is properly stressing out at the moment, but, you know, she's very highly strung anyway,
24:27so we all just go, ooh, back off, and then, yeah, we just let her crack on with it.
24:33I hate it, I really don't like it.
24:35Why?
24:36She looks cramped, Aaron. You're not in there half your life.
24:38Half my life is in that room.
24:40And it's horrible.
24:42Doesn't look too bad.
24:44I think the news that I might need a C-section is also making me worry about how I'm going
24:49to cope when the baby comes,
24:51and Aaron's not pulling his weight.
24:55When he wants to play and wants to do things, he's amazing with Valentino, but he's not a good partner
25:01in the fact that if I was to ask him,
25:03can you do this with Valentino so I can get five minutes to myself, he sees it as, like, he's
25:08doing a favour for me, like, if I get to do the washing up without, you know, clinging onto my
25:13legs and things like that, that's a favour to me.
25:20It's Aaron's day off today, so we're taking Tina out to soft play, our favourite spot for family time.
25:27It feels like time and money are tight as it is, so I need Aaron to step up and think
25:31more realistically about the future.
25:46What's going to happen when the new baby comes, when she's, like, three weeks old, and I can't take them
25:52both swimming when she's only three weeks?
25:55So what's going to happen then?
25:57Yeah, I get where you're coming from.
25:58I haven't really got anyone else to help. Obviously, there's you and mum, but you both work, and that's it,
26:04that's all I've got.
26:05So when it comes to...
26:07Yeah, but once I said, boy, I'm going to try and get... That's why I'm saving up on more holidays.
26:11It would just be nice if, like, when it comes to your one day off, we could 100% do
26:16something, because when it comes to that one day off, if I say, let's go swimming, you're like, it's my
26:21one day off of the week, I want to chill.
26:25Now I'm dreaming all the time.
26:28He's never going to change, that's just the way Aaron is. He does what Aaron wants, and he does his
26:33own thing, and that's the way it is, so I've had to learn.
26:35I've just got to accept it if I want any time to myself, ever.
26:39The only thing I'm dreading with your hours, and I am actually dreading this, is bedtimes.
26:44I'm going to be alone at bedtime. How am I going to put two babies to sleep, because they're going
26:49to be around the same age, they're going to be going to bed at the same time.
26:51He still needs cuddling to sleep, she'll need cuddling to sleep.
26:56How am I doing it?
26:57Either do a week off kind of thing, or just can't work late evenings anymore, till, like, 8, 9, stable
27:05o'clock time.
27:06Then that means having no days off, because your hours would get cut in half, doing that.
27:11But you've got... I mean, you know what I mean? I can't do anything about that.
27:14Or it's maybe looking into getting a different type of job. Stop cheffing.
27:19Why doesn't Daddy do something else? Do you know?
27:26At least he sees now that there is a problem, but we're still not really any closer to finding a
27:31solution.
27:32I think something's got to change.
27:50Wow! Look, look!
27:52Wow! New pants!
27:55Do you like them? Look, Teddy's got pants too!
27:59Yeah!
28:00I hope you've got pants!
28:02Yeah!
28:02Yeah!
28:03Yeah, Muffy's wearing pants! Khalil's wearing pants!
28:05I'm on a mission to get Khalil toilet trained.
28:08Shake, shake, shake, shake, shake, shake, shake, shake, shake, shake, shake!
28:10But it's one step forward and two steps back at the moment.
28:14That way?
28:14Let's look.
28:20Oh, dear!
28:21Did you say, oh, dear?
28:22Yeah.
28:23What happened?
28:24No, no, no. Stand there. Wait!
28:26Do not touch me. I love you, but do not touch me.
28:28You've either had an accident.
28:30I need to poo-poo.
28:31I need to poo-poo.
28:32No, it's too late to use the toilet. Let mommy clean your bum bum, please.
28:35I've done it.
28:35Look, you've already done the poo-poo.
28:37Look, you've already done the poo-poo.
28:37I've done it!
28:38I've done it!
28:39I've done that poo-poo.
28:40Wait!
28:41Wait!
28:43Poo-poo.
28:43You need to tell mommy when you need to do poo-poo, okay?
28:50Today was one of the more frustrating days of toilet training.
28:53Whether Khalil has accidents or not, and I feel like giving up on some days, like, I'm obviously
28:57going to still persevere.
28:58He's shown so many times that he's ready to use the toilet.
29:00And it's just a case of us continuing, continuing until he's finally got the hang of it.
29:05So, yeah, we're going to persevere no matter what.
29:11Between juggling motherhood and college, I don't get much time for myself.
29:15But I've had an idea, and I'm hoping I can change that.
29:19So, I've had this idea to do this whole Mums Club thing for a while, and today I finally
29:23get to meet with the girls kid-free, so we can talk without any interruption.
29:27Hey!
29:29How are you, babe?
29:30I'm okay.
29:31Hey, girls.
29:33Hi.
29:33What time do you call this, babe?
29:35What time do you call this, babe?
29:37Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
29:42oh, oh, oh.
29:42This is so nice.
29:43This is nice screaming children.
29:46There's no, mum, mum, mum.
29:48Oh, yeah, look forward to that.
29:49They'll tug at you like this.
29:50Mum, mum.
29:51That's why I'm excited for the newborn to just go out and just have her, like, just in
29:54the pram next to me.
29:55I miss the newborn stage.
29:56You put them on the bed.
29:57They don't move.
29:58They're just...
29:59I was thinking, we're going to start a Mums Club.
30:03That sounds like a great idea.
30:05Just maybe an hour every week or every two weeks without our kids where we can do something.
30:09Yes.
30:10As mums.
30:11Because as much as we see each other, we see each other with our kids.
30:14We never actually get to do this very often.
30:16Even if they're just coming to a cafe, talk about our week and then go back to our feral
30:19kids.
30:19Yeah.
30:20Yeah, I'm up for it.
30:26I just want this to be a really fun thing for mums.
30:28Even if it just means an hour every fortnight or every week when we're all three of no
30:33kids, we just go and do something fun for us.
30:36Cheers.
30:37Cheers to Mums Club.
30:38Cheers to Mums Club.
30:39Cheers.
30:58At first, it was just me, you and Grandma.
31:00Yeah.
31:01And then when we met Jack, and now it's going to be me, you, Jack Jack and baby Bunny.
31:08Yeah.
31:09It's been a great sleepover, reliving the old days when I was pregnant with Elizabeth
31:14Hope and still living at mums.
31:17It's been really nice and I think Elizabeth Hope's really enjoyed having all three of us
31:21together.
31:22Because even though I don't think she remembers the time that we lived here now, I think it's
31:26very much in her subconscious memories in who she is today, especially with who she is
31:32today with my mum.
31:36But as nice as it's been, Jack's still away on his lads weekend, so I'm really looking
31:41forward to getting home and having some chill time with Elizabeth Hope.
31:48Can you cut that up my, my hand?
31:52Hey, do you want to stay at Grandma's tonight?
31:57Yeah.
31:58Me and Joe?
32:00Er, maybe.
32:03I'm so excited to die.
32:05Shall I keep her tonight?
32:07You're going to have to now.
32:08You've told me you will.
32:12I can't say no if she wants to.
32:15So do you want to stay here tonight with me?
32:17And we'll have some fun, me and you?
32:20Yeah.
32:21Yeah.
32:22OK.
32:23Deal.
32:24Am I being kicked out now?
32:25Er, well, you can stay, but I'd prefer it if you weren't here because she goes to you
32:30for everything.
32:31It's lovely having you here, don't get me wrong, but like, I want to look after her and
32:35she doesn't come to me for anything when you're here.
32:37Yeah, because she needs to look after me.
32:39Feels like I'm going in circles.
32:42Mum wants Elizabeth Hope again tonight to have a bit of one-on-one time with her.
32:46Erm, and obviously she asked Elizabeth Hope first, so because she asked Elizabeth Hope
32:52first and Elizabeth Hope said yes, that's what will happen.
32:54I love that she won't spend time with her.
32:56But it's my baby.
32:59I'm not good at sharing.
33:05So what's your plan then?
33:07I feel like I'm being kicked out.
33:09No, you're not being kicked out.
33:11You stay as long as you want.
33:13But tonight, I'm having her.
33:15And then I'll just drop her off tomorrow.
33:20I just think I definitely used to be the favourite child.
33:24And as soon as I birthed my own, I got demoted from that spot very fast.
33:29Mum wants Elizabeth Hope by herself tonight.
33:31And obviously, like, if I start feeling unwell or whatever, then I will come back.
33:36Erm, because I have a lot of anxiety about being alone.
33:41Because what if I'm in pain and I collapse and stuff like that, so I don't know.
33:46But I'm doing good at home.
33:49Come on mum.
33:51Come on mum.
33:52Come on mum.
33:53Never too big for us.
33:54Look, look, look, look.
33:58Come on mum.
33:59Come on mum.
34:00Come on mum, let's go.
34:00Well mum!
34:02Try it all.
34:04Hehehehe.
34:05Come on.
34:06Come on.
34:06You are a happy.
34:07Yoo hoo.
34:13You know I've been waiting for years
34:17I'm tired of waiting for you
34:21Look at this. Beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep, beep
34:25Me, Mum and Tyler still aren't talking since he stormed out yesterday
34:30I thought it would just blow over as we planned to give Carter his first bath tonight
34:34But Tyler just texted, saying to go ahead with writing
34:39Obviously I didn't think Tyler was going to call and help me
34:42He said he doesn't want to, no
34:44I'm really sad he's missing out on such a big moment
34:47But even though I'm still not happy with how she spoke to Tyler
34:50At least I know I can always rely on my mum to be there for us
34:53I feel like putting her in water
34:56But she will, don't we? She'll always be there for me, no matter what
34:59Are you smiling? You little monkey
35:02Grandma can't drive it
35:04We're a bit stuck
35:06What are you doing?
35:06I mean, I'm showing him right house
35:08But I can't drive it, honestly
35:12I message Tyler obviously saying like
35:14I'm going to Bathham and like
35:16Oh yeah
35:17And he'll say you don't want to see me, I'll be there
35:20Alright, okay
35:23I don't mean to help you Bathham
35:26He wants Mummy and Grandma to be friends
35:30I know I've said something that are wrong things
35:33And I will try and make it right
35:36It's not that easy just to give everything, though
35:40Obviously, like, me and Leone's still got a bit of making up to do
35:43And things like that
35:44Oh, look at him
35:46I don't want to wake him on the wall
35:49But she knows, I know she knows
35:52That it doesn't matter how many times we fall out
35:55She can share it with Mum and I will come running
35:59What am I doing?
36:00It's good
36:00That's me
36:06Oh
36:11It's okay
36:13I was absolutely made up
36:14She asked me to help
36:15She seemed really organised and everything
36:18And it gives me what, panicking more
36:20But yeah, I loved it
36:21Loved it
36:22You like that?
36:24Whee
36:26Whee
36:27Oh, he's good, isn't he?
36:29Ooh
36:33Right, is he alright now?
36:34Yeah, it's a little washed, Jenny
36:36He's a little bit fresher, isn't he?
36:41How do you feel like Talyn's not been here for it?
36:44It hurts, but there's nothing about farting to be here for it
36:48Did you say it's because, obviously, like, we fell out, me and him, or...
36:51Is that what it's about, because of me and him?
36:53He doesn't feel like he can come into the house and see him
36:55If you want, if you want to come round, I can nip out for an hour
37:00It's your house, you know
37:02I know, but I don't mind, I can nip out, can I?
37:04We could explain to him, like, I know I'm out of order and...
37:08That's still not going to work, though, is it?
37:10But I'm trying to make things right
37:14From the big mess I've made
37:17It's not going to be right now
37:18What is it you actually want, though, now? Do you know?
37:21Most importantly, I want to be there for the castle
37:24Yeah, but what about, like, you and Talyn together?
37:27We're the last thing I'm thinking about at the minute
37:29Are we close tonight? Or do we drift away?
37:34The fact that Tyler's not coming, I don't know
37:36It's made me just feel a bit useless in a kind of way
37:39Because I did think he'd still show up for him and stuff like that
37:43It's a bit of a letdown, really
37:47I don't know what the situation is with me and Tyler at the minute
37:50He's meant to live here, but then no, he's not living here
37:53You start fear of me, I need to know what's happening, obviously
37:57It's hard of doing it alone when I shouldn't be doing it alone
37:59Like fire, fire tonight
38:04Like dripping down my back
38:07My ears are turning blue and black
38:11Spreading rumours made up stories
38:13Is this one makes you happy?
38:15Teddy! That's dangerous!
38:19I'm done
38:19No, that's really, really dangerous
38:22After I finally told Matt how I was feeling the other day
38:25Things are worse than ever
38:27He's even told me to leave him if I'm not happy
38:30Luckily, he works so much that I barely see him
38:34When Matt says that if I'm not happy I should just leave
38:37It makes me feel quite sad because I feel like the pressure's on me
38:40Like he's the one that was not happy
38:43Then he's made me unhappy because he was unhappy
38:46And I just feel like we're just going around in circles
38:49And it just makes me feel so sad that he'd rather me just give up
38:53We're going to go to Nanny's house, we're going to go get some dinner
38:56I don't know what's on the cards for mine and Matt's relationship
39:00But I just think that's something that will come in time
39:01And after we'll figure out between us
39:04We're going to my mum's to stay over tonight
39:08I feel like I need to be around someone that actually wants to spend some time with me
39:12Hello!
39:14Hello!
39:19Hi, Ainge, how are you then? I see you, really?
39:21I'm alright
39:22What happened after you met up with Matt?
39:25He walked out on me
39:27But he just didn't want that conversation
39:28How has it been since then?
39:31He was like, you're clearly not happy, are you?
39:33And I was like, no, I'm not happy
39:35He was like, you don't want to be with me anymore
39:38You really don't want to be with me because the way you've been
39:40You've never acted like this before
39:42That's when you should turn around and say, you've made me feel like this
39:46You've made me feel like this
39:47I have, I can tell him that
39:47All I want in life is somebody to appreciate me for me
39:51You did some damage
39:55That should just be horrible
39:56That should be natural
39:58That should be natural
39:58You should be saying that anyway
40:00Am I asking for too much?
40:03I just get the feeling he's not happy and he doesn't want what he's got
40:07My heart is frozen down
40:11I think it was absolutely disgusting the way Matt walked out on Angel
40:14When she was trying to have a conversation with him
40:18She's not appreciated for what she does for the boys
40:21And there's only a certain amount of time that she could put up with it
40:24She deserves to feel loved and wanted
40:27And have a better life really
40:30I think we're stuck in a rut
40:32Yeah
40:33I don't think either of us wants to leave or admit
40:35No, because it's scary
40:36The next step is scary
40:37It's not that
40:38It's like
40:39And it's not like I want to
40:40I wanted it to change
40:42And I was still
40:43I just don't want to say anything
40:44Because I'm hoping it all goes back to normal
40:46I know love for that
40:48Didn't even cry
40:49Because that's how I did it for years
40:53If I stay like I feel like I'm wasting so much of myself
40:59But if I go I feel like I'm not giving the boys the life they deserve
41:04Yeah
41:08But listen, I just feel like they need a family life
41:11Like
41:11Yeah, but Angel
41:13A happy family life
41:14They don't need that
41:15The feeling
41:15The energy in the room
41:17Yeah
41:25I feel alone and I'm in a relationship
41:28Well there you go
41:29That's your answer there isn't it?
41:45Good boy
41:46I love you
41:48I love you
41:50I love you all
41:53I love you all
41:53I love you all
41:57I love you all
41:57I love you
41:57I don't
41:58You're strong girl
41:59I love yous
42:00I do
42:04I just said give me two minutes
42:06It's right
42:07I was just
42:07I was just trying to get in the bag
42:08You're swearing under your breath at me
42:11My head's telling me to go and just do it on my own because
42:16I'd be happier
42:17I do have a little surprise that I've been meaning to tell you
42:20I've booked us a holiday
42:21You're not getting holiday from me while I'm a student
42:24I need to be better people
42:26But it's not just me, it's you as well
42:28It's the both of us
42:29Right, so what do I need to start with? You tell me that
42:32Your attitude
42:32I don't want anyone touching any decorations until I am done
42:36Because if anything gets broken or ruined, I'm not going to be happy
42:39There's definitely tension up in the air
42:42Everything is ruined
42:44So I'm going to be doing it on Saturday
42:46Wow
42:46I'm going to be proposing
42:49Oh my God, I can't believe it
42:51I'm so excited for you both
42:53I'm here for the ride
42:56Bye
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