She Couldn't Escape From The Girl In Her Aunt's House

Unfiltered Stories

In today's episode of Unfiltered Stories, we have the privilege of hearing from Heaven Darlene, who bravely shares her personal journey. Growing up, Heaven faced immense challenges that no child should ever have to endure. While staying with her aunt, Heaven found herself in a situation that profoundly impacted her life. Despite the difficulties she faced, Heaven's resilience and strength shine through as she recounts her experiences.   As a mother, Heaven has channeled her past into a powerful message of empowerment and awareness. She is dedicated to teaching her daughter the importance of open communication and recognizing potential signs of harm. Heaven's story serves as an inspiration, reminding us of the transformative power of speaking one's truth and the role we all play in creating a safer world for future generations. Join us as we listen to Heaven's unfiltered story with an open heart and a compassionate ear.   #survivorstories #unfilteredstories   Thank you for watching Unfiltered Stories! We offer a platform for our guests to speak openly about their life stories and journeys, shedding light on the challenges they faced and the resilience they've shown.  Our mission is to raise awareness about survivors by delving into their stories, exploring the impact of their experiences, and how they've managed to heal and rebuild their lives.  By sharing these stories, we aim to break the silence surrounding those challenging memories and create a compassionate environment.    🌅 FOLLOW US 🌅  Facebook ➮ https://tinyurl.com/UnfilteredFB  Tiktok ➮ https://tinyurl.com/UnfilteredTT  Snapchat ➮ https://tinyurl.com/UnfilteredSN

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00:00Hi, my name is Heaven Darlene and I am a survivor of abuse. I was molested the summer after

00:08kindergarten by a foster girl at my great aunt's house. I am 25 years old. I was born in Minnesota,

00:17raised in Minnesota. I just grew up in a home where it was very loving. My mom and dad,

00:24they got married young. I have an older sister who's three years older than me and before I was

00:30born, my parents divorced. And so my dad went to the military, so he was gone and so it was

00:37my mom,

00:37me and my sister, like always. We were also tight with the rest of our family as well, doing lots

00:44of things, having reunions. We were always playing, like there was always a fun time. Family was very

00:50tight. My mom, she was a very strong person. She's very independent. She didn't like to ask anyone

00:58for help. She was always trying to do everything, make sure she had a job, make sure that she was

01:04providing for me and my sister. There came a time between after kindergarten, the summer, like after

01:12I got out of kindergarten, I started going to my great aunt's house and my mom was making us lunches

01:23and there was already a little weird things going on, like with lunches. I know we weren't able to,

01:32like we didn't eat the lunches. My mom was always wondering, which we have now talked about

01:38when I got older that she would send lunches and like we wouldn't have, like we didn't eat them or

01:44it was just something weird going on with that. The house that I was in, my great aunt, she kept

01:51mostly all of the great nieces, great nephews. And so we were all there. We were always having fun.

02:00She had those cars that you can drive by yourself, like trucks. And so it was always fun. She had,

02:07it was like a three story house and her daughter, her older daughter lived there as well. We were

02:15always having fun there. I couldn't complain at all. I was always outside. I was always doing my

02:20own thing. She also had foster children who lived there as well, who was older. Now the house also

02:27gave an uneasy feeling at the same time, like when it would get to nighttime or get darker. She had

02:34like these big curtains that were kind of like dark. Anyways, there was this foster child that was

02:41also there who was a female who was older than me. I'm there and I know that it was my

02:49sister who was

02:50older than me, three years older than me. She was for some reason not in the same room as me.

02:56There was

02:56bunk beds in almost every room. I can't remember exactly how many rooms, but it was dark when it was

03:02nighttime. Like all lights are off, no lights. So I'm in this room with this foster child who has

03:10previously also been in my grandmother's house, who was a foster child to her and went to my great aunt.

03:16So she had some like mental things going on as well. I would be in the bunk bed. I was

03:22on the bottom.

03:23She was on the top. And I just remember like, I was just laying there. I had my blanket on.

03:31I was

03:31comfortable, but she would come down there and she would lay right next to me. I remember. And I'll

03:36be like a little confused, like this is not my sister, but I'm little. So I'm like, okay, like I

03:41know her, but all right, she's laying there. She would put her hand down there and touch me. I'm

03:46just silent. I'm just like, okay, I really don't know what's going on. And then I remember she would

03:51start kissing me and I'm just like, I'm just quiet. She's not saying nothing, like no words. I remember

03:58she also like, she never would tell me like, oh, and maybe I don't remember because of like even

04:04trauma block as well, but I don't recall her ever saying like, oh, keep this a secret or anything.

04:10She would just be quiet, go down there and touch me and kiss me. And I'm just like, whoa, okay.

04:16But I remember I would watch these and it was like, every time it would happen, I would go down

04:21the

04:21stairs and I'm watching these scary movies late at night, like really, really late. And my great aunt,

04:27she would just come past and she's like, what are you doing? And I'm like, oh, just watching

04:31movies. And either she would say, she would say, okay, when it's over, go back to bed.

04:37Cause I just remember like just going back up there and like her doing these things to me again,

04:43touching me, kissing me. And this was a whole reason why I would always go downstairs.

04:48Starting in first grade, I remember there was one day, um, I was with one of my best friends and

04:52the teacher's like, okay guys, let's go pick out a book. Let's go like any book you want to read.

04:58And so I picked the book that's like with the animals, but I remember reading the book and it's

05:02showing like all the parts of the animal. I remember there was one gorilla and, um, it was showing a

05:08female and a male. And so it's showing the parts. And I remember just like looking at it and I'm

05:14pointing

05:14to it and I'm like, oh, that's what that is. Like, I know what this does. Like me really getting

05:19into it and

05:20staying on this one page. Like, and my best friend is like, okay, let's read the next one.

05:24I'm like, no, like, let's read this one right here. Like I'm, I'm stuck on like these parts because now

05:29I, I know about them a little more. My mom was the type, she always talked to us about things,

05:36but I think the age that I was like, she never really bought up like, oh, or probably thought

05:40about it because I was so little and she trusted family, you know, me being with family where she

05:45wasn't like, okay, if somebody touches you down there, that's not okay. If they kiss you right here,

05:49that's not okay. Like we never went through that or read anything where it prepared me like, okay,

05:55this is wrong. You need to tell them. I think like sexualizing a lot of things and I didn't notice.

06:01So I didn't tell anybody this for like a while because I'm like, we always had fun. The family

06:06had fun. We're always outside. So like, I'm always moving, moving. I'm not sitting. I'm not

06:10thinking about it. I think, I believe she went back there. She stayed there for a little bit

06:15and she would write certain things on the wall. Like I remember in the bathroom, um, and I believe

06:20this was why she was kicked out, but she had like wrote like some bad things like in the bathroom

06:27that they still, to this day, like it, it's not able to come off. So I went out there, my

06:33grandmother,

06:33she sitting on the porch and she's chilling. And I just tell her like, um, she touched me. I just

06:40remember saying that. I didn't remember what else. And she was like, huh? What? Go, go get your mom.

06:46Go get your mom. And then, um, she was like, she called my mom's name. My mom came out there.

06:52And

06:52I just, all I remember after that, like they were talking and I, and I know that, um, this foster

06:58child was never allowed there again because they also found out other things that she was doing to

07:03other kids as well. So I got even a little older. I didn't see her for a little bit. So

07:08I'm like,

07:09okay. It's like, I forgot about it. I seen her again. And I was a little older this time. I

07:14would

07:14say I was still in elementary. This had to be in, in fifth grade. It was like a basketball meeting

07:21or something like that. So it was me, this individual. Um, and it was also my sister.

07:27And so my sister, we're here at the basketball game. We go to the bathroom. Like this individual,

07:33she was like, okay, you want to go to the bathroom? Like I wasn't even thinking about the bathroom.

07:37I'm like, Oh, like I'm having fun. There's basketballs around here. And I'm like, okay,

07:43I guess I got to go to the bathroom. I'm like, okay, we go on these stalls. There's like four

07:47stalls. I just remember me being in one of the stalls and she's like, stay right here in this

07:54one and closes the stall. I'm like, okay. So I'm sit, I'm sitting on this toilet, like,

07:59all right, like what's going on? Then my sister is in the other one. Um, my sister was already

08:05in the other one. So it wasn't like she told her go in there or anything. Goes in the bathroom.

08:10She comes in and she has this lip gloss and she's just putting the lip gloss on.

08:16And I'm just like, okay. And she starts kissing me. She puts on the lip gloss. She's kissing me.

08:21I'm like, all right. So it, I remember in that moment, it brought me back to what I kind of

08:27forgot.

08:28I'm like, wow. I'm like, she was, but I didn't know anybody. I didn't know what to do. I'm younger

08:33than her. She's older than me. She's taller than me. And so then my sister, she was like,

08:37what's going on? And then she goes into the other stall. All I remember is my sister, like booking

08:44it, like running out of the bathroom. And I'm like me, I'm like, I'm used. It's like, I'm used to

08:50this. So I'm like, what's going on? Like, why did she just run out of there? She runs out and

08:54my aunt

08:55comes back in and she's like, what are you guys doing? What's going on? Me? I'm like,

08:59I'm just confused. Cause I'm like, I didn't do like, I don't know what's going on, but I'm quiet.

09:05I just didn't know what to say. I believe at that point, like once my sister ran, like the

09:09stall was open and stuff. My aunt, she came in there. We got in trouble. It's like, she got it.

09:13Like both of us got in trouble. And I'm just looking like, like now thinking back, I'm like,

09:19I'm younger than her. And I remember just having a conversation with my dad. I mean,

09:24a few years back, um, he was just telling me like, cause I told him, I thought he didn't know

09:29about what had happened. And so a few years back, I talked to him and he's like, no, I knew

09:34a little

09:34bit, but how they were like telling me they were confused. Even when you came out the first time

09:40and you told them and you told your grandmother and they all talked about it, but you didn't say

09:44much. You were just like, she touched me. And so they didn't know where to go from there or if

09:50it

09:50was real or whatever. And I was like, okay, but I know he, him and my mom apologized to me

09:56just because they didn't, they're like, we didn't do anything about it. He said, your aunt thought

10:01you were playing, like you guys were playing, like you were included in it. So she's coming

10:06in the bathroom and you know, your sister told her like what happened and she's coming in there

10:11and she thought you guys were just playing. And I'm like, wow. Like, and that was really emotional.

10:16Cause I'm like this, like, it wasn't my fault. Like this is what she's doing to me. And I don't

10:25know what else to do. And I remember from there life was pretty much like I became a little more

10:32insecure. I remember it also, I can't think of the word of it, but it changed my like thoughts and

10:38my

10:38mind a lot. Like even when it came to females, like I was like, wow. Okay. I'm like, I like

10:43girls,

10:44I guess like, this is who I am not noticing. Like, you know, there actually is people like,

10:49they're like, you know, I'm, I'm gay. I'm this, um, this is what I like. And me, I couldn't really

10:54tell because I also blocked it out for so long. Like this is what happened to me. And so this

11:00might

11:00be the reason why I'm interested in this gender more than this gender. So I remember getting a

11:08little older, I was always looking at girls and I'm like, like, and it was more like sexually,

11:14not like, Oh, like I really liked them. And then I remember then I would feel like weird about it.

11:21I would have like flashbacks just bringing me back to when this individual, she was doing a lot of

11:27things to me multiple times. Um, but I never noticed, I was just like, okay, like what is this

11:32going on? Like out of the blue, I would start thinking about it. And I'm like, but I would be

11:36very like uncomfortable at some points with being with females because of that. I remember I was

11:42about, I was a freshman in high school. I didn't see her for a long time, for years. I ended

11:48up,

11:49I went to this church and I remember at the time I also had a girlfriend. So like I had,

11:56I was talking to a girl, but I just remember, and I think this came back to me not feeling

12:00in control

12:01of things. Like these things were happening to me and I wasn't in control of it at all,

12:06whatsoever. Went to church and I did not expect this at all. I seen this individual, like it was

12:12like a long type hallway, but everybody's like gathering, church is over. And I see, um, my

12:18girlfriend at the time, I'm talking to her. And then I instantly, like, I see from the corner of my

12:23eye, like, I know that's not her. Like, I know that's not. And so like everything was just rushing

12:29back. And I'm like, oh my, and I was feeling like anxious. I'm just like, what, what do I say?

12:34Like, I really hope she does not come up to me and say anything. And so I kind of just

12:39walk,

12:39like, I'm like, hold on. I told the girl, I was like, hold on. Um, I'll be right back. So

12:43I'm just,

12:44I'm just booking it. Like just trying to walk to avoid this girl because she also has like mental

12:49things going on. She ends up coming behind me. All you feel is like a tap. And I'm like, it's

12:54like,

12:55I'm like, yes. Like, I'm just like, please don't, I don't know what I'm going to do. Like,

13:00I didn't know what I was going to say. And then she's like, Hey heaven, what's going on? And I'm

13:05like, don't talk to me. Don't talk to me. And she just like, what happened? Like, she's like,

13:11I'm sorry. And I'm like, what are you sorry about? What are you sorry about? I ended up walking away

13:16from her and she's like, heaven, wait. And she came in and she just like, Oh, Hey heaven. What's,

13:21you know, what's going on? And it's like, no, that's, that's no. Why are you talking to me?

13:28And so I remember I didn't see her for a long time after that. I was like, okay. And so

13:33I just

13:33noticed with relationships, like I was always like cutting them short and I'm like, okay,

13:38this is too much going to the next. Um, especially if I didn't feel in control of it basically past

13:43the,

13:43like the past few years from, I would say starting in 2018, I started seeing her,

13:51like, um, and I thought it wasn't real. She started following me on the first social media.

13:57I believe it was Facebook. And she's messaging me like, Hey heaven. And I'm like, I go to my stuff.

14:03I'm like, is she really still talking to me? So I'm like, I don't know what to do here. I

14:08remember

14:08talking to my mom about it. And she's like, do you want to just block her? Like, like it's whatever

14:12you want to do. If you're uncomfortable with it, if you want to say something, say something. If you

14:16don't, don't say anything, um, block. And I started noticing how it was affecting my life.

14:21Like her following me on Facebook. Then she started following me on Twitter. And it was

14:24like, she was, I was blocking her and it's like, she would find me again and she would

14:28be on another page. I remember on one social platform, I'm looking back at her stuff and

14:33I just see her with one of her sister had a, had a kid. And I just see, it's a

14:37little girl

14:37and I see her like, um, she's like, I love watching my niece or, and I'm just looking like

14:43it took me back. And I'm like, I really hope like the same thing isn't going on because

14:49nobody's done anything about it. I get, she also has mental things going on. Now my dad,

14:55when I talked to him, I remember, um, I went to go visit my stepsister went out there and

15:00this was in, I would say 2020 went out there. I remember saying, dad, can I talk to you?

15:06Like, I need to talk to you about a serious situation. And you know, I'm grown now and I'm

15:10like, I'm getting nervous. I'm like, I don't know if he knows about this. I'm just kind of

15:14uncomfortable at the same time. Um, because I never talked to him about anything like this

15:19before. And so I'm like, okay, he's like, he's like, yeah, yeah. Um, I finally came out with it

15:25and I'm like, dad, did you know that I was like, I didn't even get all the way fully, like

15:29fully

15:30done before he was like, I know. And I'm like, like, I don't even know I'm a person. I have

15:39a lot

15:39of emotions. But I think when talking about it in front of somebody, like it's making it more real

15:44for me, like this really did happen. This really did happen. So I'm just sitting there and I didn't

15:49know like what to say. And so he's like, it's okay. You don't have to, you know, say anything

15:54I know. And he was just like, I'm sorry. Like, I'm, I'm really sorry that happened to you. And I'm

15:59like, that's okay. He said, no, he said, it's not okay. He was like, it's not okay. He's like,

16:04don't say that because we're your parents. But he's like, we're your parents and we're

16:08supposed to be there to, um, protect you. We're supposed to take the right steps to help you

16:14because it wasn't your fault. He was just like, all they remember is you coming out there and

16:18you're just like, she touched me. And so they're like, okay, let's see. And so, I mean, they

16:26had, they didn't let her around anymore. He had gave me a hug and he was just talking to

16:30me and just saying, like, just tell me like, you're a survivor. Like, and he's just like,

16:36um, I know this has affected your life in a big way. And he kept on just saying, I'm sorry.

16:42And

16:42I didn't know like how to like receive like what he was telling me, but I was like, thank you.

16:49And

16:49stuff. And I'm like, it's, you know, of course me, I'm like, it's okay. It's okay. He just kept

16:53saying, no, it's not. And you know, he gave me a hug and a kiss and he was just like,

16:57I love you very

16:58much. And I am sorry. Again, me and your mom are sorry. And I'm like, I'm like, thank you.

17:04So when it came down to the lunches, I know they would be, cause I remember she would ask him

17:10like,

17:10what did they, she would ask her what we ate. And she would say it was totally something

17:14different. Like, I know my mom was like, I paid, you know, I paid this money. I made you guys

17:17good

17:17lunches, had sandwiches in there for like, you know, a variety of things. My mom made sure me and my

17:22sister was always good. Not ever knowing what she was, what was, what was going on with her.

17:29I just remember she got them back. I don't remember. I didn't ask her if they were full,

17:34if they came back empty. But I remember her just telling me as I got older, like I used to

17:38send

17:38lunches over there. And it's like, you guys are eating something totally different. That wasn't

17:43even what I sent. And I'm spending my money on this. And it wasn't much that y'all was eating.

17:47Like

17:47y'all were eating, but it wasn't much. Like, it's not the lunch that I sent for you guys.

17:51I remember having accidents. She would have these outfits. I think you would get them from Walmart or

17:57something, but they look like champion, like sweatsuits. And she had all these different

18:02colors. And I remember having accidents. Like, I probably had a lot of accidents where it's like,

18:06Kevin. And I remember it started after I was, after things started happening where I was having

18:13accidents and I was very embarrassed. And my aunt would just like get me another pair of, um,

18:20another outfit. But I was always, I was having a lot of accidents. We were there for the whole

18:26summer. I know school gets out. So this had to be for, oh, this was weeks. I was there for

18:33weeks.

18:34Let me, it was like two months, like the summer. I know it was the summer. So it had to

18:38been one,

18:40two months. So it was weeks. Like, and I was there, my mom went to work throughout the week. So

18:45every day I was there, this is a sign where you can, where you will see with your kids,

18:50they will act things out. Either, um, they'll show like what's going on with them,

18:55um, through toys or they might on other people, or they either show like through anger, like them

19:03being angry. And so with me, I know growing up, like I was, I wasn't always angry, but I did

19:08little

19:08things where it's like, what's going on in heaven. Um, and getting in trouble. I was always fighting,

19:14but I, that was definitely a learning experience where I, I feel like a lot of parents aren't able

19:19to get through because nobody also talks to them about putting your own trauma on somebody,

19:24you know, on your kid or whoever younger, but going through the process with them, like

19:29watching videos, if you might not have TV or whatever, um, just reading things. They're just

19:34asking them like calmly. So they're able to talk to you because sometimes as they're looking up and

19:40they're seeing, they're like, Oh my gosh, they're older. And like, you're always on them about

19:44something or you're mad or you're angry. Like, how are they supposed to come and talk to you?

19:48I'm not glad or happy. Like, Oh, this happened to me, but it definitely made me look at life

19:54differently. And it didn't affect me until I was really older. Um, and then once I had my own kids

20:01as well, it's really changed me as a person to look out for those signs or really like,

20:07not that my kids can't go anywhere, but I'm like, I really, um, go off of like, I really,

20:14I'm really good at like when I meet somebody, like I can kind of pick up like, Hmm. So I

20:20feel like

20:21it's definitely changed me as a person with that. Like what happened to me because I'm like, okay,

20:27you're not just going to go anywhere. And even if it is family, like, okay, let's start off with

20:31just a few hours, like a little bit, and then we'll turn it into, okay, spend the night, but

20:35I'm always checking on them because of what happened to me. I'm able to like point out or

20:40look at signs, even with other people and see like maybe like other kids that I know or anything like

20:45that. I'm able to pick up and be like, that's not normal or anything like that. So I feel like

20:50I

20:50really like that, that I'm very, just, I could pick up on those vibes. Um, I'll say that's the

20:57biggest thing that I can really think of, which I really like that, that I can just go up to

21:01a

21:01person and be like, wow, okay. I know who you are.

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