Cameron George grew up in a home where love felt like control, and speaking up led to pain. His trust was shattered when the one person he relied on betrayed him, leaving scars deeper than he could understand. For years, he struggled with anger and self-doubt, but over time, he found his voice and broke free. Now, he speaks out to help others do the same, turning his pain into strength and his silence into power.
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00:00he would make me give him and he would give me as a child he actually would perform on himself
00:13my name is Cameron I'm a survivor of child sexual abuse
00:21like a lot of people in this world I come from a broken home so my dad left I think
00:26when I was
00:26around two ish I come from a very dysfunctional family especially from the dad's side of my family
00:31there's a lot of trauma from my dad's side of the family there's a lot of abuse there's a lot
00:35of
00:35neglect and my dad he was very neglectful so he was very in the sense that he would very neglectful
00:40very um he would berate me undermine me destroy my self-esteem anytime that I would express a level of
00:46independence I remember I was kind of bouncing my leg to the rhythm of the beat in the car I
00:51must
00:51have been about seven or eight and I remember saying something to him like oh oh dad I think
00:54I think I understand music I feel like I could do music in the future but he turned around and
00:58said to me uh you're such a show-off you know you think you're good at everything you're spoiled
01:02and decided to kind of berate me and undermine me and I remember being in the car journey home at
01:06that point he already struck a lot of fear in me anyway it took a lot of confidence for me
01:09to even
01:10express myself to him in the car so I remember when he said that I was just silent it could
01:13have been
01:13worse but there were times where I would chat back and he would you know grab me up and front
01:18like
01:18grab me by the throat and push me into this car and that like there was there was times where
01:21he would
01:21get like aggressive or violent but he would always choose other people over me he would never back
01:25me support me he never contributed to anything from me growing up you know my mom was getting
01:30the brunt of my anger my confusion my annoyance my frustration I was very aggressive growing up I had
01:36a lot of anger issues growing up maybe that was a factor growing up there were times where I've made
01:40my mom cry more times than there are stars in the sky like I've literally I've seen that woman cry
01:43so
01:44much and it's because of me you know my attitude my aggression childhood was it was interesting but
01:49again I can't stress there was a lot of great memories in my childhood you know I was fortunate
01:52enough to have good friends in my childhood and primary school I had good experiences here and there
02:02my mom she met someone who she would work with or whatever he kind of came into my life quite
02:07early
02:08they never got married but I'll just call it I'll just call it my stepdad he had a son already
02:12his son
02:13was about five and a half six years older than me I thought wow I've embraced the situation with open
02:18arms because I always wanted an older brother I had an older brother but he was never really there
02:21I loved his son you know we would we were fortunate enough to go on holidays together so he'd bring
02:26his ps2 over or whatever he'd bring his nintendo ds over a couple years of really building that kind
02:31of brotherhood you know I really loved him I loved him being around and all these things eventually what
02:35happened was is you know when he started getting into his kind of early teenage years he naturally was
02:40I don't know what was going on in his head at the time but you know hormones started to change
02:43or
02:44things started to be a lot more prominent in his mind my memories a bit blurry but there was a
02:49grooming period you know and it started with him introducing me to like material so I'm now seeing
02:54naked women and I'm getting an understanding of bodies all these things again you're a child you
02:58don't really know what you're looking at here but you kind of and then naturally he was trying to
03:02groom me into being open to that kind of thing so like it started to progress from material um to
03:10he would hit me and and he would make me hit him that started so now I'm I'm now being
03:16exposed to
03:17kind of like a male anatomy here and I'm not understanding the gravity of the situation what
03:21it means whether it's right or whether it's wrong and I didn't really care because this is someone I
03:24trusted this is my brother the main thing at the forefront of my mind was my dad you know my
03:29toxic
03:29relationship with my dad I'm making my mom cry a lot so this was like a this was like an
03:33escapism for
03:33me and it obviously it turns out that it wasn't a healthy escapism and it was very traumatic but
03:38after it then progressed into so he would make me give him and he would give me as a child
03:47he
03:47actually would perform on himself I've never seen it before and I've never seen it afterwards I've
03:53never seen in 30 years I've never seen what I saw him do he would literally like basically lean on
03:57his
03:57back and somehow he had the flexibility to perform it on himself like it was mad there was one time
04:02then
04:02he then tried to progress into like full-blown rape essentially where he again we were upstairs in
04:09the we had two single beds he attempted to push it in my behind or whatever I remember the pain
04:16being so severe I kind of jumped out my skin like when he went in or whatever and I remember
04:21running
04:22we had this bathroom just next to the my bedroom the pain was severe but mentally I don't know this
04:27is wrong and this is and this is that this is like the key part here because I'm so young
04:31you know I'm
04:31eight nine years old and even looking at the pictures that I sent in to you guys I can't
04:36believe how young I looked man like I can't believe how young I was I was like damn I think
04:40it probably
04:40continued up until about 10 when I got to about 13 years old and I went to school secondary school
04:45this is as I got older very young like young teenage years I started to realize this guy my stepbrother
04:50this is he's just someone I don't really I wouldn't really associate with you know he's older than me
04:54but he acts like a child but at this point he's 18 19 or whatever and I'm like this guy
04:59ain't cool man
05:00this guy's this guy's uh this guy's weird you know I'm saying so I'm still not understanding
05:04that was wrong should I say so I just naturally I think around 13 14 I just started to detach
05:09from
05:09him but obviously at the same time I'm learning about I knew what was very young and I was I
05:14was
05:14I was being intimate with women not boys so I've always been a straight heterosexual male you know
05:19outside of I've never done anything intimate with a boy ever a man ever which is you know each of
05:24their own but I haven't done anything with a man as you start getting older and you're realizing
05:28what these things are you start to realize kind of what happened you're not necessarily thinking
05:33it's a but you're still thinking was that normal did other people experience that and sadly the
05:37repercussions were were great but I didn't realize at the time because the repercussions were I was
05:42extremely angry growing up so obviously I'm already an angry child times that by 10 15 20 into my teenage
05:49years times it by 50 into my early early 20s before it all kind of came to a head and
05:53I had like mental
05:54breakdowns and whatnot but it's like I'm now very angry I'm now very hostile I'm getting into things
05:58that are like criminality or whatever like low level like petty crime and whatnot I'm doing like
06:03doing things that I like but I'm getting kind of violent I'm getting into fights I'm carrying weapons
06:08like I'm very like angry I'm hostile I don't know why at that age 13 14 15 you're not thinking
06:13about
06:14trauma how these things affect you how they affect you long term mental health bearing in mind we come
06:20from a generation where mental health wasn't really spoken about until like kind of really recently so
06:24it's like a lot of these buzzwords autism adhd a lot of this stuff didn't really I mean it always
06:28existed but it never it wasn't so prominent like it was now so you kind of just had to deal
06:32with
06:32these things you know I grew up on the mentality of men don't cry you know men can't talk about
06:37your
06:37problems that was normal you know you're soft if you do this you're soft if you do that obviously
06:40that's bs now I completely men should cry I encourage men to be emotional talk about your problems all
06:45these things I encourage it I love it but that's the mentality I'm growing up with so it's kind of
06:49like you're internalizing everything bearing in mind I don't have a good relationship with my mom
06:53despite her raising me we don't know each other you know I was always out I was off the porch
06:58doing
06:58what I wanted from young she couldn't tell me what to do from young my dad's already not around
07:02so it's kind of like I do what I want now you know I'm now I'm now a big man
07:05you know I'm not a big
07:06man I'm a teenager but I'm a big man in my mind I suppose when I got into my later
07:09teens
07:09that's when I started to realize oh that there was that weren't right at all in the slightest and now
07:15I'm questioning like not my sexuality because as I said I've never done anything with a man
07:19but you start to think to yourself well if that happened if I did that does that you know does
07:22that make me gay you know and again I'm not I'm not gay people is absolutely I love everyone but
07:27I'm not talking about myself specifically so I'm questioning things like that and then yeah like
07:31again there's a lot of hostility my identity issues were getting at the forefront you know I'm dealing
07:34with a lot of racism at this point as well you know growing up in southeast London racism was rife
07:39you know I remember getting called very harsh words from eight years old nine years old I didn't even
07:44know what this was I thought wait what like what does this mean and people are explaining it to me
07:47and I thought damn oh what you can actually get called words for your skin oh damn again you
07:52start realizing what the world is the world is a harsh place so yeah there's a lot of things kind
07:56of at the forefront where I was just such an angry angry person you know I was getting arrested a
08:00lot
08:00I was on bail a lot luckily I never went to jail or anything like that I always used to
08:03get um NFA
08:04which stands for like no further action so I used to think I was so smart I was getting away
08:08with
08:08these things you know but I haven't had any problems with the law in like in decade plus at this
08:13point I think no no probably yeah but 10 years or whatever so you know people take a few little
08:17scuffles here and there but as in like that's not who I am and I never really was that person
08:20it was always just a culmination of trauma and kind of certain negative experiences that you go through
08:25that make you numb to the world you know like really numb to what it is but as I said
08:31while there
08:31was a lot of trauma going on behind the scenes there was still wonderful experiences you know I had
08:35cool group groups of friends that I'm going to parties with doing this you know went on got our money
08:40right and went on holidays together and we would play football together like there was it was a it was
08:44a very
08:44standard life in that sense you know I still did a lot of fun things and a lot of cool
08:48activities
08:49behind the scenes there was just a lot of things that I was carrying that no one ever knew about
08:52you know I didn't want to speak to anyone about this it was a lot it was a lot easier
08:56to laugh it
08:57off or well not even like no no one even heard about any of this like it was much easier
09:00to hear
09:01other people's stories let me be there for you tell me about your stuff because I was always a person
09:06that people used to lean on and give I would give advice to and it's the reason why I started
09:09my
09:09YouTube channel because I thought you know what some people actually value what I have to say so let me
09:12see if I can make a career out of this but I never ever thought I was ever going to
09:16tell my story
09:17to any of my friends let alone on a platform like this on my own platform whatever you know I
09:21never
09:22I never saw that I thought I was going to carry this to the grave because I just thought that's
09:25what
09:25you're meant to do you know the same way my dad I've recently found out a lot about my dad's
09:29life
09:29and he's he doesn't he doesn't he doesn't know I know about these things but he's he clearly has the
09:33intent to carry it to the grave it's not wise at all because you end up just repeating the cycle
09:37rather than breaking the cycle so what made me tell my story was basically the reason why I kind
09:43of couldn't take it to the grave anymore is because I realized that my past it is truly defining who
09:49I
09:49am as like a person now I really really really wanted to be understood one of the things in my
09:55life I've always been so misunderstood like people think I'm this type of person I'm not or people
10:00think I'm this and it's that but it's like I just wanted especially my loved ones I wanted them to
10:05actually understand not who I am why I am the way I am what happened was is I was in
10:10Qatar in 2023
10:11visiting my auntie and I remember sitting there in Qatar just chilling beautiful sun sun's beating
10:16down I was sitting with the memories I was sitting with the thought aromas came back to me smells
10:20feelings thoughts emotions everything came back like flooding back I remember bursting into tears I was
10:30crying crying crying crying I was blubbering snot coming out my nose my lips all quivering like I was
10:36all like it was literally mad I was crying my eyes out yeah that was the moment the penny dropped
10:41for
10:41me I was like I can't deal with this anymore because but I just knew if I was ever going
10:46to survive I was
10:47if I was ever going to make it to 30 years old 40 years old 50 years old I would
10:51have to tell it
10:52because um it's literally he's killing me it's eating me alive and I'm and it's I was literally just
10:56numb and I was drinking so much I really wanted to make it clear to my mum that mum you
11:01were not
11:01to blame it's not your fault unfortunately the enemy was already within already in our behind enemy
11:07lines or whatever the enemy was already within our borders was already in the inside it's not like
11:11it wasn't any of my child minders it wasn't a teacher it wasn't one of my youth workers it wasn't
11:15a fact it was someone who was already inside the home the reason why I kept it to myself for
11:21so long
11:21is one because of I didn't want to tell it anyway but two I wanted to protect people I wanted
11:25to
11:25protect my mum I wanted to protect my mum's partner I wanted to protect everyone because I
11:30thought my my whole livelihood if when this if and when this comes out my whole life will
11:35completely flip upside down because I know all that middle class lifestyle that I was enjoying
11:39gone I knew that instantly I knew that we'd have to move I knew that they'd break up I knew
11:44that this
11:45would happen and I thought that's too much pressure while it's not my fault that it happened I mean
11:48I started to accept that eventually I was like okay it's not my fault that it happened but it's still
11:52my
11:52fault if I tell people in a way like it's still kind of like um the repercussions I've still got
11:58the power to impact the way my life goes so I was like ah but in the end I said
12:01f it I was desperate
12:02to live in my reality I was desperate to live in my truth because I was living a lie the
12:06house that
12:06we were in it was a lie the dynamic was a lie everything was a lie because it wasn't based
12:10on
12:10the truth essentially I don't call it a breakdown I call it a breakthrough and I had like a breakthrough
12:15where I was just prepared to tell you know tell people and my friend uh my best friend at the
12:21time
12:21she really encouraged me to do it she was there for me it's a shame actually because it's just a
12:26shame that someone who was such a pivotal part in my life you did so much for me she even
12:29helped me
12:30through rehab and all these things so I think the biggest thing that made me heal was trusting the
12:36people that I love in this world with that information I'm truly blessed and honored and grateful to
12:41have such a wonderful group of friends my friendship group are really like renowned in
12:46like where we come from for being so close the things that we do are so beautiful and and wonderful
12:52and we're so we're always there for each other and obviously it's a massive group of friends within
12:55that friendship group there's individual dynamics but overall there's a like a massive group of a
12:59massive community of friends I love these people because when I met them when I was in sixth form
13:04around 16 years old they had no idea how much their mere presence their mere existence saved my life
13:11because I was dealing with so much at the time that I never told them just to be accepted by
13:15this
13:15beautiful group of friends and have these wonderful memories they have no they know now but they're
13:21I the only reason I'm alive my purpose walking on this earth is I've got a few purposes now but
13:25my
13:25original purpose was them
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