00:00he literally grips me and slammed me into the bus stop so this was in public and i remember having
00:05bruises of his gripping on my arm and that was the first time he'd ever put his hands on me
00:11and he was like it's never gonna happen again i'm sorry um yeah like it's like yeah thinking
00:20right now i'm like no someone does that run it's not the first i mean sorry it's not the last
00:24time
00:24that they're going to do such a thing um and again he apologized he said you know like he was
00:30begging me etc and i was just like and then they changed from being this monster they become this
00:37innocent boy that's just crying out for help and because he had his own uh like battles that he was
00:43going through at the time um i just felt like i needed to be that person for him and because
00:48i
00:48felt very unloved myself um by others and just things i've gone through it was like i felt better
00:55being there for others so the love that i didn't receive i wanted to give to others to try and
00:59fill
00:59that emptiness that i was feeling but actually all that did was put me in more dangerous situations