00:00In my culture, girls are usually expected to wear the patas, sarees, but just not my thing.
00:07I usually wear a suit or something very masculine presenting.
00:11I want to switch it up this year.
00:13Full on feminine, like makeup, hair, heels, saree.
00:16Make it look like a proper Bollywood scene actually.
00:20Hi!
00:21What's up gang?
00:22Seriously?
00:23Hello, Pooja here. Nice to meet you. Come and come.
00:33My look is very masculine presenting.
00:35I usually wear baggy clothes because I'm a dancer and I think my head does most of the talking.
00:41I think tomboy is more of a personality.
00:44A lot of people assume that it's a gender or a sexuality.
00:48I think it's just something that people like to wear, like if you want to wear a pant I think that's okay.
00:52And if you want to wear a skirt, totally normal.
00:56My family has always wanted me to grow my hair back and dress up more feminine.
01:01But I've just never really felt comfortable in those clothes.
01:06Do you know how I cut my hair in 5th grade?
01:10What do you think about it?
01:12I always wanted you in frocks, in those short skirts, the Indian outfit.
01:18And as you grew, you became more of a tomboy.
01:21That was a challenge to me.
01:22Okay, so you know how you wanted to see me in a saree?
01:25Yes, always wanted.
01:27So, I've decided to wear a saree.
01:31What? Seriously?
01:33I want you to pick the saree for me.
01:36Yes, yes, that I can do.
01:37I have a saree to give you.
01:39Okay.
01:40That's not my saree.
01:41That's actually your grandmother's saree.
01:43And she will also feel happy.
01:45Okay.
01:46Alright, bye-bye.
01:47See you.
01:49Are you ready for this?
01:50Yeah.
01:51Let's do it.
01:52Let's go.
01:53Today, we are going to do a soft glam look, which will go very well with Indian sarees.
01:57Marina is not a makeup person, but yeah, I'll try my best to give the best to her.
02:03So, this is a pore primer.
02:05So, when you have, you know, open pores, this is the best thing to put so that it gives that
02:10smooth finishing and makeup will stay longer.
02:14In my culture, girls are usually expected to wear the patas, sarees in school as a kid.
02:21We used to just stick with wearing shorts or my football jerseys.
02:24All these teachers used to call me a boy.
02:26Like, why are you running like boys?
02:28Why are you always with the boys?
02:29Since then, it's been in my head like, oh, maybe I should try to turn it down.
02:33And I tried to do that when I grew a little older.
02:36I had this group of girls that I was friends with and they were very feminine.
02:39And I used to just follow what these girls were doing.
02:41When I used to go to school with a dress or a saree, people genuinely used to be surprised.
02:47Like, oh, you can actually pull up a saree.
02:49Even though I had long hair, they never expected me to actually wear something feminine.
02:55That kind of made me feel like, oh, I'm so out of place here.
03:00Because, like, I'm just doing the same thing as you guys.
03:02So, why is it so different?
03:06Are you nervous?
03:07Uh, yeah.
03:08Maybe, like, a little skeptical about how this is going to turn out.
03:12Who are you revealing this look to?
03:14Um, so, my mom.
03:16My grandmom, brother and best friend.
03:19My mom has always wanted to see me in a saree.
03:22Every time she goes shopping, she will just buy and she'll come home and she'll be like, see, I got this for you.
03:27You got to wear it.
03:28And it's like a guilt trip for me because now I'm feeling bad that I'm not wearing it.
03:31So, even when you wear them, you don't feel that you're enjoying it?
03:34No, I just wear it for them.
03:35Just because they want it.
03:36I think today you're going to enjoy.
03:38I don't think you need contouring because you already have chiseled face.
03:42So, just go ahead with blush now.
03:44When I used to dress feminine, I never used to feel fully confident.
03:49Just my body language used to feel very closed.
03:52I used to feel like I could just, you know, wear what my brother's wearing.
03:56He used to just come up in something that I'd want to wear.
03:58If your saree has some gold in it, this will go.
04:01Eventually, I finally gave up.
04:03I cut my hair.
04:04It was long hair.
04:05I had like all the way up to my shoulders, I think.
04:08They just took and chopped the whole thing.
04:10Once my family saw, they were very upset.
04:12They were just like, why?
04:13Because I'm the only girl in my entire family.
04:16Also, they were just like so disappointed that the only girl also is looking like a boy now.
04:20They took a lot of time to, you know, digest that.
04:23This gives you a shut lift.
04:25People love to judge.
04:26And when it comes to the way I look, being a girl, I get judged every day.
04:31On the internet, there are a few people that come my way saying, God has created only man and woman.
04:36I'm like, okay, good.
04:37Like, I'm not trying to be a man here.
04:39It's just, I'm wearing a shirt.
04:41I'm sorry, it's hurting your ego or something.
04:43People on the road used to genuinely take their time to stop and stare at me.
04:47They just would stare and they would judge me up and down.
04:49They're just like, what is she wearing?
04:52It doesn't matter what they say because if they call me ugly, it's fine.
04:56That's your opinion.
04:57I can call you ugly back.
04:58That's my opinion.
04:59Simple as that.
05:00You're done with the makeup.
05:01Okay.
05:02Now let's get into saree and hair.
05:04Okay.
05:05Let's go.
05:06I think a lot of people are going to be surprised when they see the look.
05:09I've always wondered how I would look with long hair and with a saree.
05:13Because at the end of the day, I'm still a girl.
05:15I still have a feminine side inside me.
05:21How are you feeling?
05:22I'm actually very curious.
05:24I'm like very excited and nervous.
05:27I'm actually very, very nervous.
05:29Are you ready?
05:30Yeah.
05:31Three, two, one.
05:35Oh my God.
05:36Okay.
05:37I did not expect that.
05:41Wow.
05:42My heart is beating so fast right now.
05:45Like even when I was trying to imagine in my head, like with long hair, this is not what
05:50I pictured.
05:51I still feel like I'm in my like my regular clothes and I'm talking to somebody I've met
05:55in some wedding or something.
05:56The makeup looks amazing.
05:58The eye shadow is very pretty.
06:01It feels very refreshing to see myself like this because like a version of me like this
06:06can exist.
06:07Maybe not in this lifetime, but I have a feeling like my mom will laugh at the very first second.
06:13I feel like Stuti is going to flip.
06:14She's just going to be like, huh?
06:19I feel like my grandmother is one person I cannot expect.
06:21I don't know how she's going to react.
06:23I hope they like it.
06:24I really hope they like it.
06:25Then becoming a, you know, a model.
06:28Before that I'll become.
06:29Okay.
06:30Okay.
06:31What's up?
06:33Hi.
06:34What's up?
06:35What's up?
06:36What's up?
06:37What's up?
06:38What's up?
06:39What's up?
06:40What's up?
06:41What's up?
06:42What's up?
06:43Seriously?
06:44What's up?
06:45What?
06:46It's in the style.
06:49Oh my God.
06:50Look at this.
06:51I like your makeup.
06:52Makeup is really nice.
06:53I'm pretty surprised.
06:54It's like I'm sitting next to a different person.
06:55Yeah, she does not look like Marina.
06:56She's wearing a lot of gold right now.
06:57Yeah, she hates gold.
06:58I've seen only a picture of her wearing a saree.
06:59But right now, she's a new Marina.
07:01How do you feel?
07:02Nice.
07:03Nice.
07:04Nice.
07:05I like you.
07:06I like you.
07:07I like you.
07:08Grandmothers and aunts, you know, they would have loved to see her this time.
07:10This time, you know.
07:11It's like I'm sitting next to a different person.
07:13Yeah, she does not look like Marina.
07:14She's wearing a lot of gold right now.
07:15Yeah, she hates gold.
07:16I've seen only a picture of her wearing a saree.
07:18But right now, she's a new Marina.
07:20How do you feel?
07:21Nice.
07:22Nice.
07:23I like you.
07:24I like you.
07:25That's so cute.
07:26Grandmothers and aunts, you know, they would have loved to see her this way, you know.
07:32Everybody waits to see her and she's always in her blazer and shirt and tie.
07:35I don't really like her with long hair.
07:39It looks pretty, but she does not look like herself.
07:43I'm happy with how they reacted.
07:45Like, it was very sweet of them.
07:47I think my grandmother wanted to see this the most.
07:49Because like, even though she didn't speak much, I could tell what she was feeling by her face.
07:53Even when I did have long hair, I've never felt like this.
07:56I think it's the makeup and the jewellery and everything going on.
08:00Like, you know, proper Indian attire.
08:03I feel very, like, cool in a feminine way.
08:07I will never dress like this ever again.
08:09Because I don't like the feeling of hair on my face every two minutes.
08:12But maybe in the near future, when, actually never.
08:17Yeah.
08:23I feel like I have a friend here.
08:25I feel like I don't want him.
08:26And I feel like I'm crying.
08:27That's how I become a little bit.
08:28So I'm crying.
08:29And I'm craving for a little bit.
08:30I'm having something out of my mind while I'm following the living room.
08:31But I know that you're getting a lot of, of my life.
08:33I'm trying to see something all night.
08:34And I'm trying to say something wrong.
08:35I'm trying to make myself doing something wrong.
08:36I'm not an easy answer.
08:37And I'm pretending to see if my daughter, oh, that's right.
08:38So I'm trying to see something wrong.
08:39I'm trying to think so.
08:40So I'm trying to process my life.
08:41You're trying to understand anything wrong.
08:42I'm trying to get something wrong.
08:43And I'm trying to be more careful.
