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00:00This is my depression house. I lost a child and I lost myself. I let myself go. I've gained a lot
00:07of weight. I don't know how to pick myself back up again. So I'm going to put this all out here
00:12to try to hold myself accountable, to try to find some people who can help encourage me to keep me
00:18motivated because I have three children that live here and they shouldn't have to live like this.
00:24It's literally everywhere. As you can tell, yet another really disgusting room in my house.
00:31Clothes is absolutely everywhere. I'm three kids and I just draw piles on up. I definitely didn't
00:37plan on doing my bathroom today but I'm glad that I did. I just sprayed the absolute crap
00:41of everything in my house. Oh my god, the stuff that came out of my washing machine. I didn't
00:45even know that you had to wash in there. That's how awful it was. Look at that crap. That all
00:50come out of my wash up. So I just quickly finished off the bathroom for tonight and there's like
00:55little piles there as you go in the door. How much better does it look? I understand a lot
01:00of people look at houses like this and they think how in the hell has anybody let their house get
01:07anything like this? This woman goes by depression house on TikTok and she decided to start posting
01:15videos of her house hoping to hold herself accountable. This is my girl's bedroom. They
01:23did actually tidy up a little bit yesterday which is which is a start. That's like a little walk-in
01:30cupboard that's attached to my children's bedroom. I've got this mold that's been growing for months.
01:39My landlord just says, oh just leave it alone, just don't touch it. But obviously every time it rains
01:43it gets worse and now I've got these mushrooms or whatever it is, I don't know. So obviously it
01:49makes it worse because all that mold's there. Their bedroom's right next to it and again you know
01:53my landlord's in about this for so long and he literally just says just leave it. So what my
01:58stairs out today is you can see there's loads of crap all over it and these stairs go round so
02:02they're dangerous enough as it is without all the added stuff on it. Yeah there was a lot of dust.
02:07There was a lot of dust. I need something. I don't even know what it is. I need something that's
02:10gonna like suck all the dust out my house because every room is just absolutely caped in it. Don't
02:14me wish I tidying and cleaning was as quick as this one video. Honest to god. But there's my stairs.
02:20Looks much better. Obviously the stairs are stained. I need a carpet cleaner because all the carpets in
02:25my house are really stained. I've never washed them obviously since I've been here. They're light
02:29and I've got three kids. So that's on my list. I am brave. I am strong. I'm a good mum. I'm worthy
02:37of love. I deserve a nice home. One of my followers messaged me yesterday and told me to say these
02:42nice things to myself and then hopefully I would start believing in them because what you say in
02:47your mind is what you start believing in. So instead of telling myself how much I'm disappointed in
02:52myself or I don't like myself because of how far I've let myself go I'm gonna try to do this
02:57every day. But there was a certain part of the house that was a challenge for her to show online
03:02as she had let it become even more neglected than the other rooms in her house. My bedroom is honestly
03:09next level. I don't think that I would ever show my bedroom on TikTok. Nobody other than me and my
03:14children have actually ever seen my bedroom. So this is hard. This is this. Oh god. Okay. This is this
03:23is my room. Okay. This stuff here. Oh god I'm so embarrassed. This stuff here is stuff that I've
03:37already sorted out for charity. I got and then more bags. Oh my god. And it's literally everywhere.
03:52This bed's not actually slept in. It's just another bed. I hate living like this. Nobody enjoys living
04:01like this. I don't even know where to start or what to do. I find myself just sitting here and just
04:10crying. But with support and advice from her new community online she began to tackle her bedroom
04:17and other tricky areas in her house. Literally seven days ago I started posting to hold myself
04:23accountable and honestly I cannot believe the outpour that I have had in support and people
04:29saying that they also live the same kind of lifestyle. I've all said baby steps do a little
04:35corner at a time and I've definitely taken that advice and this is what I've done. This is all the
04:41laundry. I got out of my bedroom which is really bad. It's probably going to be like four whole loads
04:46at least of washing. This is what I've bagged up and I will take this to charity later on today at
04:55some point. I'm going to clear off these drawers today. I've been putting them off for literally
04:59months. I hate going through them but I'm going to hopefully get rid of at least half of this
05:04clothes. When I say I hated today I really really hated today. Tidying is one thing but then decluttering
05:12and going through clothes is just another. I don't know why it put me in such a bad mood. I kept
05:17stopping and having a minute to relax and just chill for a bit and every single time I went back to it
05:23I still hate it just as much as when I first started it. But I did manage to get it done. I went through all
05:29the drawers, all the stuff inside and all the stuff down below it and I got rid of a whole black bag
05:35full of clothes to go to charity and two black bags of stuff to chuck. Now that I've cleared it once I
05:41don't want to have to redo that so I'm definitely going to try and get something to go on top to
05:46make it so that I can't put anything else on. I had to do so much folding and so much hanging today.
05:52This is the end result and the bag on top's just for charity. I don't feel like I did much today so I
05:56wanted to quickly make a bit of a dent on this room. Just pick up a few little pieces so that in
06:00the morning when I start this room I'd already had a head start on it. And this is what it looks
06:05like after about 20 minutes. I'm going to go to bed now so I'm going to do the rest in the morning
06:10because I'm absolutely knackered. I didn't think I was going to make a move on this room until
06:15pretty much my house was done. Yeah these carpets are absolutely awful. I'm hoping that I could get a
06:21carpet cleaner in here and get that crap up. Fingers crossed. Jesus Christ this room has been stressing
06:28me out so badly today. This is how far I've got which actually looks pretty good. I can actually
06:35walk to the back of my room which is pretty good. Those boxes are just boxes that need to go
06:42and those are the boxes that need to go. I've literally got a migraine because I've been so
06:48stressed today doing this bloody room. There's been so many times today where I have stopped
06:53because I'm stressed because the thing is in this room because there's so much stuff and nowhere to
06:58put it I find I'm moving it from one place and just putting it in another place. So then when I
07:04turn around it's literally all just behind me but I have bagged up loads of stuff. So it is getting
07:09there. I don't actually think I'm going to be able to fully do this room without a skip to be honest
07:16because obviously there's only so much I could take to the charity or chuck in my bins downstairs
07:22and my bins only come fortnightly so I'm just crashing and burning at the moment feeling a bit
07:28sorry for myself. My back is in pieces. It feels so painful because I've been literally going through
07:35so much stuff today bending down carrying stuff up and down the stairs to get it all out but this is
07:41how much I've managed to do today. There's obviously so much more space. I'm really happy
07:46with that. There's definitely a lot more that could have gone. For now this is the finished
07:51result of this room. You couldn't even see any of this floor space when I started so that's really
07:57good. I've had this stuff for so long and I think it took hitting rock bottom for me to realise
08:02I just need it gone. I'm not going to even start with the tidying yet. I'm just going to focus on
08:08to declutter and get rid of as much stuff as I can and then comes to be clean. So stay tuned.
08:14What an incredible job she's done in such a short space of time. After she posted her first TikTok
08:19there was an outpouring of support online with one person saying hey honey where are you based? I have
08:24a cleaning company and I'd be happy to help for free. And another person added hun your house is not
08:30dirty just loads of stuff that need to be taken out. Depression is a real thing and you're not alone.
08:35We're so glad to see she's doing better now and turning that house back into a lovely space for
08:41her and her kids to enjoy. Thanks so much to this creator for allowing us to feature your content.
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