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00:00A social outcast falls for the worst men imaginable.
00:07The people that I dated were losers.
00:11But when she meets a sweet new guy, she thinks her curse has been lifted.
00:16The problem with this is she's not a great judge of character.
00:19Who is April?
00:20Until her jealousy runs head-on into his dark side.
00:25She claimed that when he was drunk, he was abusive.
00:28And all at once, everything unravels.
00:33Is she a helpless victim?
00:35I told myself, when this is over, I will kill him.
00:39Or a cold-blooded killer?
00:44Not all fairy tales have happy endings.
00:50When love goes wrong, a woman can do the unthinkable.
00:58In the leafy suburb of Old Bridge, New Jersey, teenager Lori McClucky is a loner.
01:09An outcast at her cliquey high school.
01:13At school, I would go for days or weeks without saying a word.
01:18Didn't go to the prom, didn't have a boyfriend, didn't go to football games, anything like that.
01:25Unathletic, uncoordinated, really no social skills.
01:29That's how I would describe myself.
01:31Her home life isn't much better.
01:33I knew Lori when she was just a child.
01:36She was quiet, she was shy.
01:38Could she have been a tortured soul? I suppose.
01:40Really saw no evidence of real problems with her.
01:43What are you going to get?
01:45Her parents are well off financially.
01:48But when it comes to nurturing Lori, they're emotionally bankrupt.
01:54Her father was volatile and at times violent.
01:57So she was sort of faded into the wall, you know.
02:01Do you really want a drink?
02:02Her mother wasn't particularly nurturing.
02:04Didn't pay a great deal of attention to her.
02:07Looking back on it, I remember being hugged by her one time.
02:11I remember not really having friends.
02:15Dr. Casey Jordan studies criminal behavior.
02:19The one so-called warning sign you might identify in Lori's upbringing would be her detachment.
02:26For people who are socially awkward and aware of it, they feel like they're always outside of the bubble.
02:31Always watching other people interact, almost as if they are a student of society, but not really part of it.
02:40And this is going to be a setup for difficult relationships.
02:44Lori dreams of escaping her miserable home life.
02:48I just felt like I could start being myself if I was far away.
02:53That's as far as I analyzed it.
02:54She finally gets her wish when she gets accepted to a small liberal arts college in Ohio, 600 miles away.
03:07For Lori, the whole idea of getting away from her family was the only hope she had.
03:13It's not that she had given up on living a normal life.
03:16It's just she kept waiting for that moment to arrive.
03:22Once Lori enrolls, she instantly feels at home.
03:25I loved Antioch.
03:27Everybody at Antioch was an outcast.
03:30That's the kind of school it was.
03:31It was people like me that just didn't fit in anywhere else.
03:35She thrives as a student, and for the first time in her life, gets a boyfriend named David Wilson.
03:41Everything seems to be falling into place.
03:43Got a Bachelor of Arts degree in literature.
03:46I loved it.
03:47It was the best years of my life.
03:51I'm a little nervous.
03:53After graduation in the summer of 1984, a newly confident Lori heads to Denver, Colorado to get even further away from her family.
04:03National Geographic had an article about Denver that year.
04:06It was July of 1984.
04:09I just thought, this looks like a great place.
04:11I think I'm going to try this out.
04:14This is Lori.
04:15How may I help you?
04:16Okay.
04:17Almost immediately, Lori scores a job at a publishing company.
04:22Soon she has an apartment, a steady income, and hope that her life is finally on track.
04:29I was so excited to have a job.
04:31A real job where I was making just enough to support myself, and it was pretty exciting.
04:35But in this strange new environment, Lori's self-esteem problem somehow creeps back in.
04:46She has trouble connecting with people around her, and once again, feels like an outsider.
04:52So romantic how he proposed.
04:55Did you make some friends?
04:56The people at work, I just felt like I would talk to people at work, but there was never, I just couldn't feel a connection.
05:07Hi.
05:08I made one decent friend that lived in my building.
05:11I'm Frank, and we live right here.
05:12If we can ever help you out with anything.
05:14Uh, Lori.
05:16He was actually an ex-Marine.
05:17He was 20 years older than me, and no, he was actually the more settled of most people I knew.
05:24Despite feeling socially awkward, Lori's desperate for company.
05:29And she finds it in the strangest of places.
05:32I have money.
05:34You got one dollar.
05:36This is kind of embarrassing, but I just started hanging around with street people.
05:42Anyone tell you you're really pretty?
05:44Yeah?
05:46The problem with this is, she's not a great judge of character.
05:49The steps that people would go through in their early adolescence, learning how to judge who their friends are,
05:54make friends carefully, get out of relationships that don't feel good.
05:58Lori skipped all of that.
06:00She's all right, man.
06:03Then, her need for companionship takes an even weirder, riskier turn.
06:08Lori starts dating the men she meets on the street.
06:12You can stay whenever you want.
06:15People that I dated were losers, like these street people.
06:20They seemed exotic to me.
06:22I just found that really interesting.
06:24Then we hitchhiked down to Mexico.
06:26Even though she was college educated and could have lived in the suburbs,
06:30that's not what she chose to do.
06:33That was not why she came to Colorado.
06:35It was a culture of people that she was drawn to that were more what I described as biker types.
06:42One of the men she begins to date is Arthur Johnson.
06:45He had all these stories about his travels and I just found that really exotic.
06:51He didn't seem mentally ill to me at the time.
06:53He seemed very intelligent.
06:55Arthur becomes a regular visitor at her apartment.
07:02What are you doing there, babe?
07:04It just seemed like that's who I could relate to.
07:07But according to Lori, one night he comes over drunk and gets extremely aggressive.
07:17Looking good.
07:19Now looking back, obviously he wasn't stable at all.
07:23I think maybe you should just go.
07:25Hey, look. Listen.
07:26He became very drunk and started beating me up.
07:33Lori claims that by the time she realizes she's in serious danger, it's too late.
07:39He basically held me captive in my apartment for, if I remember, over three hours.
07:46Kept me from going to work.
07:48She says Arthur raped and brutalized her.
07:50Once Arthur finally takes off, a battered and frightened Lori runs to the only friend she has.
08:03Her neighbor, Frank.
08:06Lori, what happened?
08:09I didn't think of it at first as rape because I had consensual relations with him in the past.
08:17He was in my home.
08:18Lori ends up telling Frank the whole story.
08:23He made me call the police.
08:30The next thing I knew, I'm at the hospital.
08:33I'm getting poked and prodded and photographed.
08:37Did you get punched in the mouth, Lori?
08:39She doesn't have context to interpret what exactly has happened.
08:43Which is right?
08:44The man who says that the sex was consensual, or the friend who says, based on the story you told me, you were absolutely raped.
08:53Put your hands behind your back.
08:54What? What for? What did I do?
08:55A few days later, the cops pick up Arthur. He's charged with assault and rape.
09:02So by that, you mean you were having consensual sex with him?
09:04Yes.
09:05Months later, the case goes to trial.
09:08And a terrified Lori takes the stand.
09:12Miss McLuckie, was this the first time that you had sexual intercourse with my client?
09:17No.
09:19I felt completely humiliated. They accused me of lying.
09:22You've done this sort of thing in the past, right?
09:24Yes.
09:25They asked very detailed questions.
09:28How frequently?
09:30You...
09:31Wasn't this something that you enjoyed?
09:33No.
09:34It was really embarrassing.
09:36Lori somehow holds it together in court by burying her emotions.
09:41He threw me on the ground.
09:42What were you doing with all of the emotions about this man who raped you?
09:46I was just so embarrassed.
09:47I went numb a little bit.
09:48You know, I was...
09:50I didn't want to be telling these things on the stand.
09:52Isn't it true that you're lying here today?
09:55Who will the jury believe?
09:59Coming up, Lori finally lands the boyfriend she's always wanted.
10:04But is he too good to be true?
10:07I felt at the time like I was in love with him.
10:1723-year-old Lori McClucky has accused a man she was dating, Arthur Johnson, of rape.
10:29She shows little emotion while testifying at his trial.
10:33No.
10:35Ultimately, Lori's detached manner backfires.
10:39Their theory of the case was that I made this up because I needed an excuse for why I didn't go to work that day.
10:45The jury acquits her alleged attacker of all charges.
10:49He had been found not guilty because the jury didn't believe her.
10:54Lori had done the best to tell her story, but her ability to effusively show emotion had never existed.
11:02In Lori's mind, as she explained it to me, that she felt that the system failed her and she deserved that.
11:09For this lonely and emotionally fragile young woman, it's a devastating blow.
11:15Lori does what she's always done.
11:17She stuffs it down and basically leaves it to smolder until it may flare up again.
11:24Lori struggles to cope with the jury's ruling.
11:30I just remembered just going a little wild and dating a whole bunch of different men.
11:34It seemed like dating many different people helped me feel better about myself.
11:45A year and a half after the trial, Lori's walking home from work when she's approached by a young man.
11:52Excuse me. Do you have the time?
11:55His name is Andrew Veil.
11:56I don't wear a watch.
11:57He started a conversation. I don't remember what he said.
12:00I'm not from around here, so...
12:02Sure.
12:03Cool.
12:04Lori's drawn to Andrew's apparently sweet, simple nature.
12:12The two immediately hit it off.
12:15And within days, they're inseparable.
12:17He was very good looking to me. He had a very gentle side.
12:25Andrew is excited to introduce Lori to his foster family.
12:29Andy came to us when he was four years old. He was a cute little boy.
12:32He told me he met a nice girl and he wouldn't know if he could bring Lori over to visit us.
12:37And I said, sure.
12:38She might be the one.
12:40But Andrew and Lori have little in common, and two outsiders seem like an unlikely pair.
12:47He went to a special school for people with developmental disabilities.
12:52People referred to him as slow.
12:54In fact, we couldn't even find that he'd ever had a relationship with a woman before.
12:59I just think Lori doesn't believe she has any self-worth.
13:02I think Lori believed that that was the best relationship she could have.
13:05At first glance, you might think that Lori sees this, especially after the tragedy of the rape trial,
13:12to be the kind of man she could have power over.
13:15She could level the playing field, and this man could never take advantage of her.
13:20Was it a power play on Lori's part? Not really.
13:23Lori didn't think that as the ugly duckling, she could ever do better than this.
13:28For the first time in her life, Lori thinks she has a real and loving relationship.
13:38Soon, Andrew's basically living at her apartment.
13:42We never agreed to live together. I never invited him to come move in with me.
13:47He just kind of insinuated himself into my home.
13:51Every time he came over, he'd bring a few more things, a few more things, and then he just basically never left.
13:56He's loved him, right?
13:59Looking back, I don't know if that's what it was, but I felt at the time like I was in love with him, yeah.
14:09But Andrew's family sees issues with the relationship early on.
14:14His family described it as abusive. She would abuse him on a number of occasions at family functions.
14:19I've been here long enough.
14:21Couldn't understand when they first met her why she would want to be with Andy.
14:24Because he was so far below her, but maybe she could control him because he wasn't as smart as she was.
14:29He adored her, and he put up with a lot of abuse from her as a result.
14:34Fine, I'll go tell them that we're leaving.
14:35Hey, I'm off.
14:41Are you going to be able to maybe fill out some more job applications today?
14:48As the weeks pass, Lori realizes that Andrew is chronically unemployed.
14:53Can you pick up some more smokes before you come back?
14:54And not that motivated to look for work.
14:58He did live on the streets for about a year, because he didn't want to work.
15:10Okay.
15:13What'd you do today?
15:14Oh, you know, this and that.
15:16Lori's forced to support them both on her meager salary.
15:19How'd the job hunt go?
15:20Uh, you know, I'll get to tomorrow's.
15:24Still, even though Andrew's not pulling his weight, he does give Lori the love and attention she craves.
15:31When I first met him, he did not have a job at all.
15:33Occasionally, he'd go out on day labor and make a little money.
15:36Later on, he started working at Woolworth's as a dishwasher.
15:40But to the outside person, they're going to say, Lori, look at you.
15:44You're employed, you're college educated, you're super smart.
15:46Why would you date a dishwasher at Woolworth's that you met on the street?
15:51I didn't see it like that.
15:52I felt like I was very ugly.
15:55My self-image was not good.
15:56I didn't see myself as, oh, here's this person that's making a success of their life.
16:04I felt just ugly.
16:06Lori's in a relationship that's become exploitative, and yet she doesn't see it as such.
16:11He sleeps at her house.
16:14They seem to have a good relationship.
16:16Maybe she's paying for everything, but again, she's getting something out of it, too.
16:20The idea that finally, in her 20s, she could have a boyfriend and make a go of it.
16:26Lori!
16:28But things are about to take an ugly turn.
16:30Lori, get your ass over here!
16:32Lori claims that one night, Andrew shows up at her apartment wasted, and he's not a happy drunk.
16:37Ha! Am I okay? Do you think I'm okay?
16:41When he did drink, it was always over the top.
16:44Coming up...
16:45Who's April?
16:46Andrew's not the only one with a temper.
16:49Lori, you're ridiculous!
16:50She was very concerned that Andrew Vigil was having relationships with other women.
16:5424-year-old Lori McClucky is two months into what she feels is the only really loving relationship she's ever known.
17:14Get your ass over here!
17:16But Lori's just seen a side of Andrew that changes her perspective.
17:20When he was drunk, he was extremely violent.
17:22I can't go to the house!
17:24According to Lori, after a destructive, drunken rant in her apartment,
17:30Andrew finally passes out.
17:33She's relieved.
17:41The next morning, she confronts him about his behavior.
17:44You were really scary.
17:46I know, I'm sorry.
17:47He apologizes and shifts the blame to his terrible childhood.
17:52When he was four years old, his mother was bludgeoned to death by her boyfriend in front of Andrew and his three siblings.
18:01He believed that his mother deserved what she got.
18:05He said that she was very abusive to him.
18:07I don't know if this is true or not. This is what he told me.
18:10Lori is moved by Andrew's startling admission.
18:13She can relate to the pain he felt growing up and sees a common bond between them.
18:20I really love you.
18:22While the trauma of their youth may be different in terms of experience,
18:26this guy appears to be her mirror image in terms of having a damaged soul.
18:31And Lori believed that if she could just make him get a job, perhaps they could get on the same level.
18:39And the magic of that relationship could continue.
18:44After a year of dating, Andrew finally gets a steady job as a dishwasher at Woolworths and rents his own place.
18:51This relieved some financial pressure, but Lori is still unhappy with Andrew.
18:56Who is April?
18:58She was very concerned that Andrew Vijo was having relationships with other women.
19:03I just told you.
19:04He was there trying to do his job and they got into an altercation there.
19:09You need to stop.
19:11The argument escalates to the point where Andrew's boss has to break it up.
19:15Andy, time to go to work. Break time is over.
19:19Despite the fighting, Lori holds onto the hope that Andrew will change and they can save the relationship.
19:27But as the weeks pass, Lori claims Andrew's drunken tirades become more frequent.
19:32Listen to me!
19:33You're nothing! Do you understand?
19:35And more aggressive.
19:37Stop! Lori, get your fat ass out of the way!
19:40I just need a beer, damn it!
19:42Give me a beer!
19:44Lori's tolerance of Andrew's abuse puts her in danger, not so much physically as emotionally.
19:51Get back here!
19:53Her fantasy of being a normal woman in a normal relationship was everything to Lori.
19:59Sorry I got you so mad.
20:01All she ever wanted was to feel loved.
20:03And when she started to equate Andrew's behaviors, his control, his anger, followed by his making up with love, there was no way she was going to get out of that relationship easily.
20:16At least when I was with him, I didn't have that sense of I was just going to totally fall apart.
20:25Although she's still afraid of being alone, Lori finally makes a painful decision.
20:30And at this point, I was actually starting to really hate him.
20:38It's time to drop Andrew for good.
20:41I was thinking we could talk.
20:45I thought, okay, well, maybe I can do this, you know.
20:50About what?
20:52But when the moment comes to drop the bombshell.
20:55Hey, what?
20:57Lori chickens out.
21:01No, you know, it's not, nothing important.
21:04I would start to feel more normal and then he would know what to say to throw me off my feet again.
21:11But Andrew's foster mother tells a different story.
21:17She says Andrew was the one who wanted to end the relationship.
21:21He tried to break up with her.
21:23But she would always call him back.
21:25There just was a lot of animosity between them and I don't know why Andy stayed with her.
21:29I try to talk him out of all time, but moms don't know anything.
21:31Moms don't know anything.
21:33I want to talk to Andy.
21:34He said, oh, mom, I don't want to break up with Lori.
21:37She really loves me.
21:38And I say, yeah, Andy, I know.
21:39She'll love you to death.
21:44Even after losing the courage to confront and dump Andrew, Lori claims she still wants out.
21:51One day after 18 months together, she packs up Andrew's remaining belongings and leaves them outside her locked front door.
22:01Lori!
22:04Open the f***ing door!
22:07Lori stays strong and waits until Andrew finally leaves.
22:18She's hopeful that she can make it on her own.
22:26Hi, David?
22:27Desperate for any kind of human contact, Lori decides to reach out to her old college boyfriend, David Wilson.
22:35Maybe you might want to come and see Denver.
22:43Were you looking forward to this because you were broken up with Andy?
22:46Yeah, here's an old friend, an old boyfriend and somebody from my old days.
22:51Do you want to grab a coffee or?
22:54Yeah, definitely.
22:55Okay.
22:56We did sleep together, but we had grown in completely different directions.
23:00I was probably so tense and so messed up that I probably wasn't at all the person that he knew from before.
23:09It wasn't a whole lot of fun.
23:11It wasn't what I thought it was going to be.
23:13After David heads back home, Lori tries to move on independently.
23:26Hello?
23:28But then, she gets a shocking phone call that threatens to change everything.
23:33What?
23:34Coming up, Andrew's back, and he's angrier than ever.
23:39I told myself, when this is over, I will kill him.
23:43No.
23:57Lori McClucky's just had a disappointing reunion with an old college flame, David Wilson.
24:03Now, he's left Denver and gone back to the East Coast.
24:07To make matters worse, her phone's just rung with life-changing news.
24:11What?
24:13What happened was, I actually had gone to be put on birth control pills.
24:17And as a precursor for that, they just routinely do a pregnancy test.
24:22The doctor called me at home and said, you can't go on birth control, you're pregnant.
24:27I was, it floored me.
24:29I couldn't believe it.
24:34Single, friendless, and two months pregnant, Lori is determined to keep her baby.
24:39Her unborn child is all she has.
24:43David?
24:45It's Lori.
24:47She decides to call David to break the news.
24:50Yes, I have something to tell you.
24:52Oh my God, wow.
24:54I guess I kind of thought that, not that we would get married or anything like that, but that he would help me out a little bit.
25:01I spoke to the doctor, yes.
25:04Are you sure it's even my kid?
25:06What he did was tell me, this is what's going to happen.
25:10I can pay for half the abortion.
25:12If you refuse to have an abortion, I'm washing my hands of this.
25:14And I said, I don't have anyone.
25:19If you want to have the kid, that's your decision, alright?
25:22That's not something that I want in my life.
25:24I remember how I felt, like I'd just been kicked in the gut.
25:28So, you're pregnant, but who comes knocking on your door?
25:34Andrew.
25:36Hi.
25:37Three days later, Lori's ex-boyfriend Andrew shows up at her apartment, begging to get back together.
25:44Sorry about it.
25:45Lori is shaken and vulnerable.
25:48I have to tell you something.
25:50How does Andy find out that you're pregnant?
25:51I told him.
25:53Even though Lori tells Andrew the baby's not his, he takes the news surprisingly well.
25:59It happened while we were broken up, so...
26:02He recognizes that this baby is his ticket back into Lori's life.
26:07And she agrees to take him back.
26:10He started being really nice for a while.
26:12At that time, it was actually, ironically enough, good for him just a short minute.
26:19When he told me that she was going to have a baby, I said, is your baby?
26:21And he said, no, it's somebody else's.
26:23But that's okay, Mom.
26:25You know, he already loved her.
26:26And even though she was pregnant with somebody else's kid, he still loved her.
26:30For the baby!
26:32You got this for the baby?
26:34He was using his minimum wage salary as a dishwasher at a Woolworths to purchase items that she would need once the baby was born.
26:47Hey, where are you going?
26:48But within a few weeks, Lori claims Andrew's old patterns return.
26:53Moments of sweetness, followed by outbursts of drunken violence.
26:57You think I'm mad that you slept with another guy? Huh?
27:00He never actually hit me here when I was pregnant.
27:05But he would often threaten to. He'd say, I'm going to kill that baby.
27:08Sometimes he'd laugh and he'd say, did I scare you?
27:11Andy!
27:12What?
27:13What?
27:14He'd laugh. He would think it was funny. I think he enjoyed it.
27:17Lori hates herself for letting Andrew back in.
27:20And she has no one to turn to.
27:22I think that if she packed her bags and left Colorado and went back home,
27:27her family would have capitalized on the fact that she was a failure.
27:29To make matters worse, according to Lori, she begins fearing for her life and the life of her child.
27:42What are you doing?
27:44What does it look like I'm doing?
27:46Babe, you're drunk. You're going to cut yourself.
27:48One particular incident will haunt Lori forever.
27:51She claimed that when he was drunk, he was abusive. When he wasn't drunk, he was fine.
27:55I think you're going to cut your-
27:56Don't patronize me. I got it.
28:00One day when he was really drunk and he actually had me cornered with this knife.
28:05I got it, I said.
28:07For Lori, being threatened with a weapon crosses a frightening new line.
28:11She indicated that she was able to flee the apartment, go down to a laundry room, which had a lock.
28:19Lori starts imagining ways to break away from her violent boyfriend permanently.
28:26I started fantasizing about him having a fatal accident.
28:34I would actually think, like, if he was late coming over or whatever, I'd think, oh, maybe it happened.
28:41Maybe he got hit by a car on his bicycle.
28:44Sometimes I would actually convince myself that it really had happened, and then he'd show up again.
28:49And then I started thinking, well, maybe I can kill him.
28:51I started fantasizing about killing him.
28:57There had to be some kind of end to this in some way.
29:02That day would come on May 22nd, 1988.
29:06Three months have passed since Lori and Andrew got back together.
29:10Changes. Next.
29:11Next.
29:12I'm watching this.
29:14She's still clinging to their relationship.
29:18According to Lori, Andrew's been drinking for hours and is looking for a fight.
29:24She reaches her breaking point.
29:26He had a bottle of whiskey and he kept drinking from that and getting drunker to the point where he was completely out of it.
29:35Lori is now five months pregnant and claims she's terrified for her and her baby's safety.
29:41She gathers up Andrew's stuff, hoping he'll leave.
29:46But instead, she claims, Andrew lashes out.
29:51This is what happens if you don't listen to me.
29:53No, no, no, no.
29:55Stop, baby. Stop, boy.
29:57When I told him that he was hurting the baby, he didn't care.
30:01When I looked in his face, it was like there wasn't even a person in there.
30:07It was like a machine.
30:08He didn't even know what he was doing or who I was.
30:11Stay still, Lori.
30:13Then, according to Lori, Andrew does the unthinkable.
30:18He rapes her.
30:20What was going through your mind, Lori?
30:23I told myself, when this is over, I will kill him.
30:27I will kill him.
30:28I will find a way to kill him.
30:35Lori claims the attack lasts for over an hour.
30:40But authorities say there's no proof the attack ever happened.
30:44She had absolutely no bruising.
30:47She had no black eyes.
30:49She had no scratch marks.
30:51If Andrew Viggo was physically attacking her, like she claimed,
30:54then he would have had some wounds on the front part of his body.
30:58But he didn't have a single wound on the front part of his body.
31:06After the alleged attack, Lori says that Andrew furiously paces around the room.
31:13She eyes the handcuffs he always carries in his pocket.
31:17He didn't drive.
31:19He rode a bike around Denver.
31:23He would use the handcuffs to lock his bike to a bike rack.
31:27Lori says she comes up with a desperate plan.
31:31He started passing out, waking up, passing out, waking up.
31:34And I thought, when he passes out, I'm going to restrain him and then I'm going to kill him.
31:40Finally, Lori sees her chance and makes her move.
31:46I dragged him over to the radiator and handcuffed him to the radiator.
31:50With his own handcuffs?
31:51Yeah.
31:53And I'd like to ask her that one question.
31:55When she handcuffed him to the radiator and he couldn't do anything to her,
31:59why didn't she call the police and say he was abusing her?
32:00What she should have done is dialed 911 so they could have taken him into custody for sexually assaulting her and for domestic violence.
32:12Lori says she didn't call the police because no one believed her the last time she was sexually assaulted.
32:19At that moment in time, I absolutely wanted to kill him right there, right then.
32:25This time, she takes matters into her own hands.
32:30I got a cloth belt and I tried to strangle him.
32:37He woke up and he started screaming.
32:40I just wanted him to stop screaming, so I went into my kitchen.
32:46Help!
32:55After her boyfriend allegedly rapes her, a five-month pregnant Lori McClucky can't take anymore.
33:08She's committed to getting rid of her boyfriend, Andrew, once and for all.
33:13Help!
33:15I thought I'll knock him on the head with the hammer and just knock him unconscious and then I'll figure out what to do from there.
33:20Help!
33:21As Andrew struggles to break free, she steals herself.
33:24Help!
33:26There's no turning back.
33:30I hit him in the head and he just kept screaming.
33:36Did it ever occur to you to just free him and drag him outside and let him go home on his own?
33:43No, I felt like if I freed him, he would kill me.
33:45It was a nightmare and I just wanted it to end and so I went and got the knife.
33:53As Lori stands over her semi-conscious boyfriend, images play like a home movie in her mind.
34:00All the brutality, degradation and abuse she says she suffered throughout her life come flooding back and she erupts.
34:09I just started stabbing him.
34:12My God!
34:14It seemed like he was still screaming for a long time.
34:17How many times?
34:19They said it was 26 stab wounds.
34:21But I still felt like he wasn't dead.
34:23I guess later I found out most of them were post-mortem.
34:27Can you tell me what was going on in your mind?
34:30I just wanted quiet.
34:32Maybe it was me screaming, I don't know.
34:37Lori is dazed and splattered with Andrew's blood.
34:41I don't remember a panic but I remember thinking,
34:45Oh my God.
34:47What do I do now?
34:49Oh my God, I am a murderer.
34:52I am a murderer.
34:54After 20 odd blows with the hammer and more than 20 stabs with the knife, she could still hear the screaming of Andrew.
35:02It really shows in my mind that she was in a psychological state where it was really dissociative but it was sort of like an out of body experience.
35:11Otherwise, the overkill wouldn't make sense.
35:15It wasn't that she was ratcheting up with rage so much as decompensating with the resignation that what she had started, she had to finish.
35:24Lori passes out on her bed, exhausted.
35:28Her dead boyfriend lies in the next room, chained to the radiator.
35:31I woke up and I thought, did that really happen?
35:45And I went and I looked and he was in there.
35:49The gruesome scene jolts Lori back to reality.
35:53She needs to get rid of the body.
35:54She begins rifling through the closet until she finds Andrew's toolbox.
36:04Right on top is a rusty keyhole saw.
36:07I planned that I would just cut up the body and then he'll just be gone and his family will think that he just took off somewhere.
36:16Lori slowly and methodically starts cutting Andrew to pieces.
36:22I just kind of blocked out what I was doing.
36:29I felt the turmoil of feelings but I kept them down here and I thought I just need to get this done.
36:39Once I get this done, it will just disappear.
36:43She enters something of a fugue state, almost playing the role of someone in a book or a movie.
36:50She sees herself cutting up the body but is it really her?
36:57She sees it almost as something she just has to do.
37:01It's a necessary thing.
37:03Two days after bludgeoning Andrew to death, Lori has only managed to remove one of his arms and his right leg.
37:10I'd never had the opportunity to ask somebody how long it took to cut somebody's foot off with a keyhole saw and she just matter-of-factly said it took about 20 minutes.
37:21She's physically and emotionally drained.
37:25How are you doing?
37:27Then, according to Lori, she runs into her neighbor Frank.
37:31He invites her in.
37:33It's bargaining.
37:34He knew something was wrong.
37:36He kept asking me.
37:37At first I said, nothing, nothing.
37:38He said, something's really wrong.
37:39And I said, well, I've done something.
37:42He goes, what'd you do, write a hot check or something?
37:46I said, no.
37:48I've done something really bad.
37:50Prison time bad.
37:53He said, you killed Andrew, didn't you?
37:54Oh, my God.
37:57Frank tells Lori to call the police.
37:59She refuses and goes home.
38:02Her first mistake, of course, was to tell her friend.
38:07This is, to me, the biggest indicator that she was in a fugue state.
38:11After she told her friend, it didn't even occur to her that her friend might tell the police.
38:16Over the next four days, Lori goes to work each morning, then comes home at night to continue cutting up Andrew's body.
38:25I wrapped them up, put them in plastic shopping bags, and threw them in dumpsters.
38:37How long did you think you could do this?
38:38Did you have a vision of the end game?
38:40At this point, I didn't know what I was going to do.
38:42I just knew that I couldn't think about it anymore.
38:46At work, no one had really suspected anything was wrong with you.
38:49No.
38:50They voted me employee of the week, took my picture, everything.
38:59In the meantime, Lori also goes looking for Andrew.
39:03Have you seen Andy?
39:04While she was dismembering him, she went out through the neighborhood to people, asking if they had seen him.
39:10The charade goes on until Friday, May 27th, 1988.
39:20Lori is asleep in her apartment when she's awakened by a loud pounding on her door.
39:32Lori McLuckie, this is the police. Open up.
39:34All I could think of was that it was Andrew's family coming to kill me.
39:41And the door crashed open, and I saw uniforms, and I was relieved.
39:47You're under arrest.
39:48Because I knew they wouldn't kill me.
39:52And I remember I heard a man in the living room saying,
39:57John, come look at this .
40:00That's exactly what he said.
40:03And I remember feeling so ashamed.
40:05She had completely cut off his arms at the armpits.
40:10She had completely cut off his legs at the hips.
40:14Lori is led out of the apartment in handcuffs.
40:19Her neighbor, Frank, has turned her in.
40:21Four months later, while awaiting trial, Lori gives birth to a baby boy.
40:33He's put up for adoption.
40:36I saw him in the hospital for a few minutes.
40:38I was handcuffed when I held him in the hospital.
40:41I don't know if she was pushed too far, or was she a lioness protecting her cub?
40:46I truly don't know.
40:48To be honest with you, I don't really believe Lori knows.
40:50In January 1989, the case goes to trial.
40:57The state argues the murder was premeditated.
41:00Now, this was a well-planned out thing.
41:03She went to extreme efforts to try to cover her tracks.
41:07Lori claims she acted in self-defense.
41:11Once you've handcuffed somebody to a radiator,
41:13and they're no longer any type of danger to you,
41:17if you then kill them, that is not self-defense.
41:21What it was is torture.
41:24Lori is convicted of first-degree murder and abuse of a corpse.
41:29She's sentenced to life in prison, with a minimum of 40 years behind bars.
41:34She will be eligible for parole in 2028.
41:39She's got ice water flowing through her veins.
41:42I think she's a sociopath.
41:44I don't think anybody should feel sorry for her.
41:46I think she's right where she should be.
41:48I don't really believe Lori to be the big monster she's betrayed to be.
41:53But I do believe there were two victims that day.
41:56I believe it was Lori McLuckie and Andrew.
41:58No, I don't feel sorry for myself.
42:00I don't want anyone else to feel sorry for me either.
42:03I do have hopes and dreams that maybe I can someday do something else with my life,
42:08but I don't have anyone to blame but myself.
42:12Lori is a very fascinating figure.
42:15You see her for who she is,
42:17someone who can't really understand how it happened herself.
42:20She feels like she deserves what she got,
42:23and yet you can never be 100% certain that she wouldn't pose a danger to others
42:28if the right circumstances pushed her to the wall again.
42:33You see .
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