00:00The blind side, the blind side was blind side. Like I was shocked. Okay. Like I was shocked. You know, my, my shot in the dark was in the bottom of my bag somewhere. I wasn't even thinking about her. So when the blind side happened, it was important for me to, to be able to respond to the moment versus react to it because I wanted to leave with as much grace and respect for my fellow players and love as possible.
00:28Um, so that being said, that was a hard thing to do, right? Cause here I am shocked, but also the spotlight's now on me. What is she going to do? How is she going to react? And I wanted that moment to be, to be loving. And so to go and give the hugs, um, was awesome. You know, and like Steven told me, I'm an incredible person and me and Juwan had a one-on-one alliance and he said our alliance name. And then I go to hug Sage and she tells me she's going to give me a handshake.
00:55Like it was just a lot to process in the moment. Cause, cause I trusted Sage, you know, I love Sage out of the game and I love Sage in the game. So it's a, it was a lot to process in a very short period of time. And I just did my best to be consistent with who I am, loving, kind, compassionate, respectful. Um, and I did my best in a difficult situation.
01:18Was it jarring for you to watch the season back and see some of the things she said about you making faces at the camera? Was that a shock to you?
01:26No, because me and Sage have talked a lot, like a lot, a lot. And she let me know everything that she said and she thought and she did. And so nothing came as a surprise to me. Um, that being said, that doesn't mean it's not hard. You know, it's hard.
01:42I think it'd be hard to have anyone talk badly about you, but specifically because I do love Sage so much, it's, it's painful to watch it. Um, but I think within that process, there's just so much opportunity, not only for my own individual growth, but also for, for me and Sage's friendship.
02:02I think because we've been in such a unique, difficult situation together, um, with proper communication, which me and Sage are both very passionate about, um, it can lead to like a deeper friendship, oddly enough, but it is hard to watch.
02:19Yeah. Well, it's nice to hear that you guys have spoken and that, you know, what happens on Survivor is very different than what happens in real life. So it's nice that you guys are able to come to a good understanding.
02:28Exactly.
02:29What was your game plan? Should you have made it, you know, past this last round and got to the merge and reunited with your original red people? What was your game plan?
02:38Yeah. Right. That's a good question because I had to adapt so many times in the game and my, my plan in my, my plan in my heart was always to get back to my Uli four, to get back to Savannah, Rizzo and Nate. And obviously that didn't happen with the tribe swaps. And then I got booted. So I never got that opportunity.
02:57But part of the reason why I wanted to vote on Jawan was because the, the day of the tribe swap, I did finalize or try to finalize that alliance with the two Hina, Kela and Uli. Um, and I called it the family alliance. And it was me, Alex, um, Christina, Steven. And then I wanted to pull in Rizzo and also have blue Sophie there.
03:22And my plan was to utilize that with my Uli four, which, you know, would have been interesting because that's a lot of people. Um, but my, my goal was to maintain the relationships that I had with the new Hina and with Alex. Um, and I knew that Jawan was already at the bottom of Uli and had broken trust with a lot of people there.
03:42So I felt like I had what I needed for it to make sense. If we voted Jawan out, um, to continue to nourish my Uli four and make the most of the opportunities I had with all these tribe swaps too.
03:56Right. Okay. So you were cooking, you had some things.
03:58Oh, I was, I was giving it my all, you know, after that first tribe swap, I was like, all right, we're going to, we're going to just, we're going to give this our all or, or give it, or give it nothing. Right. So I did my best.
04:11So it must've been a bummer. Just every swap you're separated from your original people. Like it's, you, you just, you couldn't, you couldn't stay with them in a tribe. That must've been a bummer when you were out there, right? That, that swap losing Savannah, Rizzo, Nate.
04:23Yeah, definitely. I, um, for, for me, I think I was doing my, my best to embrace the challenges that came with those situations. Cause I never went on survivor for like an easy peasy vacation survivor game.
04:43And I believe God gave me that through these different tribe swaps and dynamics and keeping stage with me. Right. Where, you know, even even like, it's funny to watch last night.
04:53Now, knowing what I know, how badly that last swap went for me. Right. Cause I had a little potential with Alex and I had a little potential with Christina, you know, and I obviously had Savannah Rizzo and Nate was working with them.
05:05Even like yellow Sophie and me were vibing a little bit, but to end up with Steven, who kind of saw like the dog in me a little bit, kind of right out the gate. And then Sage, who had her own personal vendetta against me. Um, it was hard to rebound from that.
05:21And I just did my best in every new situation that I could to come back to what my strategy was, which was to like authentically connect with people deeply so that I could have options moving forward, but also give it my all.
05:36Like my game plan was never going to be, uh, I'm just going to hide in the shadows or I'm just going to play dead. Cause that's, that's just not who I am.
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