00:00I think that your story and your presence and your influence transcends so much more than just like, you know, acceptance of plus size performers.
00:10Because I think women and their relationship with their bodies is everybody, right?
00:17Like women of all sizes have a complicated relationship to their bodies.
00:22And I remember when I first interviewed you and my like shock and surprise at the way that you embrace and love your body in such an authentically comfortable way.
00:39That may make me cry because I remember the first time we talked about that and how you were explaining that you may not be the most comfortable person with yourself.
00:47And I'm like, before we started this show, we're talking about, I'm proud of you.
00:51You're naked on camera.
00:52Like, you know what I mean?
00:53You take really pretty pictures in a sexy way.
00:56And I go with a few years ago, you wouldn't have never, ever.
01:00You would have been, why?
01:02Who wants to see me?
01:04And now I'm like, congratulations on being comfortable with yourself enough to show yourself with the world.
01:12But like, honestly, and you know, I just, it just, your spirit and your like, your positivity and your relationship with your own body, like regardless of your size, is so inspiring to me.
01:27And I think to like women everywhere.
01:29And when I think about my podcast and I think about the gifts that it has given me and the way that it has changed me as a human being, and I'm going to cry now too.
01:39Here we go.
01:40I think about like the interviews that I've had that have affected me profoundly and yours is definitely one of them.
01:47And I think about like your relationship to your body and the way that you accept and love yourself.
01:53And I think about like, that is something that I need to bring into my own.
02:00You know, I need to like, I need to harness some of that like Carla Lane, you know, self-confidence and body positivity and bring that home to me because like, and I think we all need that.
02:12And, and, and I don't know, like that was profoundly effective for me.
02:17And, and that is like, and conversations with people like you on this podcast is, is one of the things that I feel like has made this show like enriching for me in my life.
02:28So thank you.
02:29I'm so proud of you.
02:31I, it's insane to see where you started, where you're at.
02:35And I can't wait to see where you end up because none of us, none of us five years ago knew where the fuck we were going.
02:42None of us eight years ago knew where the fuck we were going.
02:45And then now we're here.
02:46And it's like, just imagine us in five years from now going, we're going to have the same conversation, go with, do you remember that one time in a podcast five years ago?
02:54And it's going to be different and things are going to change and expand.
02:57And what you didn't think was possible is going to be more possible than ever.
03:02Yeah.
03:04Like being, you know, hot and clean.
03:05Well, and, and, you know, I mean, like, to be fair, like, it's not perfect.
03:08Like, I am not like.
03:09Of course not.
03:10Like, I, you know, I mean, look, like I got, I got a light bulb and a VBL.
03:13Like, I, like, I am not.
03:14It looks great though.
03:15But like, you know, I, I didn't like, you know, I, I'm, I don't want to say that like, I am like, I accept my body as I am.
03:22Like, I, cause I am not that person.
03:24You're an avatar.
03:25You changed your avatar a little to make it to what you wanted.
03:28Congratulations.
03:29You had the freedom to do that.
03:31I go with, it's the same thing.
03:32Straighten your hair, curly your hair.
03:34Yeah.
03:34You have the access to do that.
03:36And going with, being comfortable with your own body does not mean that you can't have flask surgery.
03:40Does not mean you have to have your natural teeth, hair, or whatever.
03:44It means that you have to be okay with looking yourself naked in the mirror and going with, yeah, I'm hot.
03:50Basic.
03:51Basic.
03:51Just look in the mirror naked and go with, I would do myself.
03:54Because honestly, that's what it comes down to at the end of the day, being comfortable with yourself.
03:59Who cares if anybody else fucking likes you or not?
04:02Being comfortable with yourself, the main key.
04:05Yeah.
04:05But, you know, I just, I just want to say like, I think it's just one of those things that, you know, I absorb and I just, it's just inspiring.
04:13But I just, I don't, I don't want to say that and then, you know, try to pretend like I'm this like perfect pinnacle of like self, you know, like confidence.
04:24And like, I've, like, I've got, I just don't want people to think I've got it figured out is what I'm trying to say.
04:30I go with, you have it more figured out than you did a few years ago.
04:33Congratulations.
04:34It's not perfection.
04:35You're just getting there, you know?
04:37But it's also the same thing.
04:38I go with, I've played around with the idea and this isn't a, if I wasn't in the industry, I don't know if I would play around with this idea of becoming a MILF.
04:47MILFs have big titties and bigger butts and like the whole thing.
04:50In this industry, most MILFs have surgery.
04:53I go with, I'm almost 40.
04:55Do I become a MILF?
04:56Do I get titties?
04:58And I have great tits, but I'm going, do I get the MILF package and go with, I'm a MILF now to stay relevant in the business or do I age the way it is?
05:07It's a mind fuck still.
05:08I go, just because I'm comfortable with everything doesn't mean I don't consider it once in a while going with, huh, maybe a tummy tuck and giant titties would make me happier or more money.
05:19And you question going with, and you look at, we were just an avian, and I was looking at all the girls that are on the posters and things like that.
05:27Then I looked around and go with, none of them are natural.
05:31None of them have not had work done.
05:33And it's the business that we're in completely understand.
05:36We're a fantasy.
05:37I go with, okay.
05:38To stick to the MILF fantasy, do I become a MILF?
05:41So that it's my, at 40, I will decide that and go with, I love my body and I love my body, but I go with, do I do a mommy makeover and become a giant MILF with giant milky titties and go like this?
05:53Yeah.
05:54I don't know.
05:55It's been fun.
05:56It's an idea that I played around with.
05:58Have I looked into it?
05:59No.
05:59Do I know where I would go?
06:00100%.
06:01Yeah.
06:03Yeah.
06:03qué man.
06:04I come to see.
06:05Yeah.
06:05Yeah.
06:06Yeah.
06:07Yeah.
06:07Yeah.
06:08Yeah.
06:08Yeah.
06:09Yeah.
06:19Yeah.
06:19Yeah.
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