00:00I was struggling. Talking, it did help.
00:03It made me realise that I'm never alone.
00:05Keeping in touch really helped me get through tough and challenging times.
00:10Rubble has given me a real sense of purpose and belonging and fulfilment.
00:15It's created many friendships and bonds, almost a family.
00:20The places that I've got to go, the people that I've got to meet,
00:23the skills that it's set me up in life is, you know, it's priceless.
00:27I've been fortunate to have many highs within the game.
00:30To actually make my international debut was definitely a personal high of mine.
00:34My ultimate high would be making the Team of the Decade in 2020.
00:38And off the back of that, it's nice to know that I'm still the leading top try-scorer for England as well.
00:42I was fortunate to represent my community, my city, my town, and have some real success behind it.
00:48So we have highs and then obviously we get the lows as well.
00:51One of my biggest challenges was, you know, taking time out of Rugby League to have my daughter
00:54as I had to start back at the bottom again.
00:57I found that speaking to others has made a huge difference.
00:59In 2019, I retired from playing.
01:02The main challenge was re-identifying who I was,
01:06to work out who the people and resources were that were going to support me and encourage me to do that.
01:11In 2018, I broke my neck and I couldn't play for the best part of 12 months.
01:15The fact that it could affect my livelihood as a new father was quite traumatic.
01:19The financial implication was a natural worry and a strain on myself and my family.
01:24Mental health is massive, not just in sport but in life as well.
01:28The bit that's always got me through it is talking to my peers, my friends, my coaches,
01:33the leaders within my environments.
01:36I think having the immediate family there to support me was massive.
01:39And being able to lean on them to help me get through the challenging days in particular.
01:45Calvin definitely showed me that emotional support going through a lot of tough times
01:49and I'll do him proud with him looking over me and we might not be blood
01:53but I still class him as my grandad, I'll class him as my dad.
01:56Being a mum and having to run two jobs to be able to support myself
02:00comes with a lot of financial struggles.
02:02If you are worried about paying an energy bill, just know that you can talk to your energy supplier.
02:07They may be able to help by installing a smart meter,
02:10which will give you better visibility on the energy that you're using.
02:13I think sometimes half the battle is finding an opportunity to talk
02:17but knowing that there is support and help out there makes that easier.
02:21I'd advise anybody to find the time to connect, communicate and keep in touch.
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