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Janine Berdin pulled up to Genius to share the story behind her hit song “What If I Miss You for the Rest of My Life?” The young singer from the Philippines gets into writing the song on the toilet, her favorite line, reaching career milestones she once only dreamed of, and more!

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00:00I wrote this song while shitting on the toilet and I left my phone so I had to face my
00:07demons,
00:08sort of. I was bored. I thought of the boy that I went out with and I was just sad.
00:19This is one of the songs that I made a cappella so I didn't have chords for this. These were
00:24just
00:25like this was a melody. I brought it to my guitarist first. He really made the song alive
00:31because the chords around it are so beautiful. I love the riff on the song. I just learn a lot
00:36from these talented people.
00:39How could I forget your pretty face? When you go to places do you think of me? Please think of
00:53me.
00:54I made the song about a boy that I made music with too so he knew of all my dreams
01:00and ambitions and
01:01I was getting to do those dreams and I was getting to go to these places that I was telling
01:06him about
01:06and I was just wondering like what if he were here with me? Like is he in places too that
01:13we were just
01:13talking about and is he thinking about me too?
01:17A year has passed and I thought I've moved on. I admit you are now. Please come back to me.
01:28Won't you come back to me?
01:33I think I was coming from a place where I was hoping that it ended because of just a
01:39you're right, I'm right fight. It was kind of me like trying to like beg him to come back. Maybe
01:45in
01:45Tagalog it's like wog kele magtampo. In English I think it's like stop sulking just come back to me. It's
01:51okay. You win. I think it was just me trying not to lie to myself and I'm like yeah this
01:57is a small
01:57thing. It's okay. It'll be over. Yeah, but it wasn't.
02:15I felt so bad when he left me. Maybe him lying to me that I'm his favorite person still would
02:21make me
02:22feel better. I would never know but since I would never know I just like asked him to lie to
02:27me one
02:27last time.
02:30I'll never get to find no one like you. You were all I wanted. You were all I need. Us
02:42is all I'll be.
02:46Honestly, I think long-term relationships are almost easier to get over because in these short-lived
02:55situationships you haven't really exhausted everything and you haven't really gotten to
02:59know the person and they're this idea that you created in your brain so that's why they seem so
03:04perfect. So you never get over it because you didn't get to know them at all really. They were
03:09literally everything I wanted in a person and it just frustrated me so much that why did it not work?
03:16It was supposed to be perfect.
03:20So I have swallowed all my pride
03:29Accepted the end of you and I
03:46I understand that it's over and I'll get over it. I know it's like time heals or whatever
03:54but at the time I just genuinely felt like I will never get over this person and I will miss
04:00him
04:01forever. It's okay that it's over and it's also okay that you miss them. It's just like you live on
04:07and still miss them
04:08and it's okay
04:11Where do I go from here?
04:37The screaming part this that was just me crashing out
04:42I have built a house where I'll wait for your return
04:48I only want you to be mine and not a lesson learned
04:55And I will wait and wait and wait until this city burns
05:02I will wait and wait and wait and live on what we were
05:09That's my favorite line actually. I will live on what we were because at the time I barely ate
05:13I barely drank water. I just sleep wake up stalk him cry
05:19think about it wait
05:21For a message
05:23Sleep again
05:24Wake up cry again and literally just living on that. I'm over it
05:29Because I went through it
05:32I grew up thinking
05:34I'd never get to have opportunities like this. I'd watch verified on youtube
05:39I don't think i'm ever gonna get to go there because i'm from the philippines
05:42I just want to
05:44You know also be someone that makes people think that they can dream bigger too that it is possible
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