00:00Well, back from London, back in Dublin, got an appointment at the hospital, but I couldn't find my letter.
00:09And it was made ages ago, this appointment.
00:13I don't know if I'm seeing the oncologist, the surgeon or the radiotherapist.
00:21Do you know, my brain has gone to mush.
00:25I've been to London and I am drained.
00:31One hour flight, that was it.
00:33And I'm completely done in.
00:36But I will find out what my appointment is for and then I'll let you know.
00:43Well, I've just come out of the hospital and I saw, I'm just sitting in the car, just in the
00:51car park.
00:51I saw my surgeon, who is amazing.
00:57And, well, my future surgeon, because my last surgeon was in England.
01:04This one is in Ireland and is absolutely lovely.
01:09They want me to have some more scans and they also want me to see a stomach specialist, a gastroenterologist,
01:24because something's not quite right.
01:28But, and he said, mind yourself.
01:35They say that in Ireland.
01:37He said, I'm overdoing it, which I know.
01:41And he said, you've got to rest a bit more, which I know.
01:46But it's really hard because I just can't, if I lay down because I'm tired, because I am really exhausted
01:54some days.
01:56And I lay down and my mind tortures, I torture myself, you know, so it is quite hard.
02:03I mean, I'm doing okay.
02:05I'm not going into the depths of despair or depressed as such.
02:12I'm not there at all.
02:15But it's just you think, oh, when will I be better?
02:19I'm not a very patient person.
02:21But I was there with dozens of women who were all going through the same thing and many of them
02:30far worse.
02:32So, really, I thank my lucky stars.
02:35But, and people come up and say hello and they also ask John how he's doing because for partners it's
02:43really hard as well, you know.
02:46So, that's it.
02:48I'll keep you updated.
02:51I'll keep you updated.
