00:01Well, I have to say I've had a bit of a yo-yo day today. Really weird, really weird.
00:10Got up this morning really early and was unpacking boxes, as you all know.
00:17We've just moved house and it's a nightmare. It's pretty hard going, but we're doing well.
00:23And decorating rooms at the same time, all the rest of it.
00:28And I was tripping on the vibes of life and I'm trying to get myself ready for radiotherapy.
00:35And to be honest, I don't really know what to expect because everybody tells me something different, all of you,
00:43because everybody's experience is different and we're all unique.
00:48So I truly don't know what to expect, but I'm fortunate to be able to have it.
00:56So I'm ready for it.
00:59I beat cervical cancer when I was 32 and I'm determined to beat this more often than not.
01:07But then, so I was cracking on and then I had a shower, washed my hair and I put a
01:15really long mirror in the bathroom.
01:17And I've never in my bathroom in the en suite and I don't usually have that.
01:23And I saw myself in the mirror, got all upset, thought, I never thought I'd look like this, etc.
01:34Then got a grip again and put the body lotion on, did all that and then started to unpack again
01:45and unpack loads of shoes,
01:49which made me really happy as everybody knows.
01:51I love shoes and then got to underwear and bras and then began to sink again.
02:00I thought, will I ever need it?
02:02No, I don't need to wear these anymore.
02:04Should I keep them?
02:06Should I give them to charity shop?
02:08What do we do?
02:09So it was one of those days and then it's just gone on the biggest high because, come and see
02:17this.
02:28John said he was going to get this ready for radiotherapy, etc.
02:34Come on in.
02:37This room was colour drenched in drab green.
02:42It was disgusting.
02:43Look what John's done.
02:51Look at that.
02:54Even put my breast cancer pillow on the bed as well.
03:01So, what the hell?
03:04How spoiled am I?
03:05I could not ask for anything more, could I?
03:08And then I felt really guilty for being self-indulgent.
03:11But also, I just thought we should all think about partners.
03:16If you're lucky enough to have one go through this with you, they need us to be up there as
03:24well, don't they?
03:26Okay, that's my rant for today.
03:29Bye.
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