00:00Okay, if you're a bit prudish or, I don't know, old-fashioned, whatever, or shy, maybe you shouldn't watch this.
00:11That was a trigger warning, just in case. I'm going to be really blunt and really honest. I'll try.
00:18Why? John and I are watching the series, and on Saturday, we're watching, no, Friday, we're watching an episode, and
00:32it was really sort of romantic and quite sexual.
00:38And to cut a very long story short, this guy, this couple, were getting it on and being all romantic,
00:46and he said,
00:48Ooh, I want you to wear this, and I want you to dance for me.
00:53And I was sitting there thinking, I don't know, I wonder what John's thinking now.
00:59Well, I can't do anything like that anymore. Not that I, you know, do that for everybody, I hasten to
01:08add, but, you know, sometimes you, you know, you know.
01:14And occasionally, when John came in from work, if there was no one else around, he'd pull up in his
01:21builder's van, and I would, when he looked through the window to see where I was,
01:27I would flash him and be stupid and giddy, and we'd both laugh and all that.
01:34And Valentine's Day, you get dressed up, and other days as well.
01:38And I just thought, I can't do all that anymore. I'm half a woman, or whatever.
01:48And then I went into this complete confidence crisis, totally.
01:54And I'd had a few good days, but that got me.
01:59And I didn't go into depression or anything. I just had this confidence crisis.
02:06And I didn't tell John until last night.
02:10And he said, I don't think that way at all. Not at all.
02:18But, does anybody else feel like that?
02:21Or am I the most self-indulgent person in the whole world?
02:28And does everybody have feelings like that?
02:33That's what I was going to say, really.
02:35That's it.
02:37That's it.
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