00:02Hi, I'm calling to record a message for Refinery29.
00:06I'm a little stressed.
00:07Is there anything I feel hopeful for some reason?
00:09Sometimes I worry that the entire world hates me.
00:13So glad you guys are doing this.
00:17Hi, Refinery. I just came on here to vent.
00:23Well, it's 10 minutes till 1 a.m.
00:27And all I can think about is, I wish there were less ambiguity.
00:31It's about 6 o'clock in the morning.
00:34And I've been having really bad trauma in the past few days.
00:38I'm type 1 diabetic and work from home and have an immense privilege to do so.
00:44That being said, 2022 has been tough.
00:48I have family members that are ill.
00:50I personally have had to be hermit.
00:52And I'm hopeful, but I feel like I keep pushing a rock up a hill.
00:59I don't really know what to say, except that this period of my life is really weird.
01:07I am unemployed as of just this week and trying to launch a career.
01:13It's really scary.
01:15And I'm hoping that if I just put my doubts out there and my fears, that maybe I can get
01:21through it.
01:23I'm feeling hopeful.
01:24I want to manifest growth.
01:27I want to manifest personal and professional accomplishments.
01:30And throughout the entire journey, if I'm ever feeling down, I want to remind myself that this is the year
01:35of opportunities.
01:36I'm calling because I feel I feel guilty.
01:39I feel guilty complaining.
01:41The border closed the night before my flight.
01:43And I've been here since January of 2021.
01:47But I've also been stuck here since January of 2021.
01:51And Australia has finally announced that they're lifting border restrictions and people are going to be able to come and
01:58go.
01:58But it turns out that this is limited to citizens and permanent residents.
02:03And I'm on a temporary working visa.
02:06Up on two years since I've seen my brother and my father back in the States and in Canada.
02:14Here's how I feel about 2022.
02:17It's been a long time since COVID happened.
02:21And it's still happening.
02:22A trauma happens and years later is when you start to process it.
02:26But we're still in the middle of the trauma that's happening.
02:30And so I feel like, I don't know, maybe that we need to start treating each other with, like, extreme
02:37kindness.
02:37Because we're all, like, slowly being traumatized a little bit.
02:42Honestly, I've been having a really good year.
02:45And I feel bad sharing.
02:48Because I know that it's been such a hard year for so many people.
02:52But I've just experienced a lot of growth and opportunity.
02:56I've been feeling a little stuck recently just in my whole life.
03:02Like, career, friend-wise, etc.
03:05I'm 25 and I feel like people my age are either at their dream job getting promoted or still just
03:15trying to make it by like me and figuring out what they want to do.
03:19I can't help feeling like I'm doing something wrong.
03:24In 2022, I'm a little stressed, but I'm feeling pretty optimistic.
03:30So I left my salary job.
03:32I'm just taking care of my small business.
03:34I'm feeling good.
03:35And, like, 2022 is going to be the year where I start to feel like a kid again.
03:40Thank you for listening.
03:42And take care.
03:44Bye.
03:44Bye.
03:45Bye.
03:45Bye.
03:46Bye.
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