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00:08Is there anything else that anybody wants to share or concerns or thoughts?
00:15I don't know if anyone else wants to say it, but I kind of want to clear the air with
00:21you, Zach.
00:24Today, my mom wanted to put together a surprise anniversary party for Lydia and Zach.
00:30We can talk about Joshua, celebrate him as well.
00:33And before we do that, clear the air on some things between us and Lydia and Zach.
00:38I don't want to be mad at you or hold anything against you.
00:43If you see us doing things that you think are wrong, if it's about what card games you play or
00:49what shows the girls watch or whatever,
00:52unless we come to you and ask, I would appreciate it if you kept those opinions to yourself.
01:04The bottom line is we're all family and we're a large number of adults, but we're family.
01:11So we need to give each other the latitude to live a little bit different life or have different viewpoints
01:17and accept each other and love each other where we're at.
01:21And the goal with all this is not to pick on anybody, but just to come closer together, you know?
01:30Zach is pulling us aside, meaning my family members, specifically the girls, and telling them what he thinks they're doing
01:39wrong.
01:40Lydia and I went out to Montana to hang out with Mariah.
01:45But there was just, like, consistent things that I feel like everyone knew that we wouldn't participate in, like some
01:5318-plus games.
01:55I mean, it was nothing really that bad.
01:57I mean, some of the games were, you know, some of the dirtier games, but, you know, that's optional for
02:02you to play.
02:03You don't have to play.
02:04And we still had a great time.
02:06We did a lot outside of that.
02:07But my biggest concern was actually, you know, Amber's stepping into being a new believer, choosing to get baptized.
02:15So I just feel like it's important that she doesn't engage in this stuff.
02:22I remember talking that through in Montana and figuring that out and apologizing for overstepping in ways.
02:31But we got through that, and we came to resolution in comfort with each other again.
02:36Like, they literally, I...
02:37Well, that's not what I heard coming from them.
02:43What I did was just, I talked to Mariah.
02:45I was like, hey...
02:47Just be aware of the example you're setting, and...
02:53Yeah, just be aware of the example you're setting, because Amber really looks up to you.
02:59Zach and I already worked through it, but I just told him, like, work on building relationships with everybody
03:05so that they know that you're a safe person to go to when they want advice, and they're looking for
03:11advice.
03:11More so than just, like, you know, picking everything apart and telling them what you think they should fix.
03:19I mean, I've kind of learned not to care less if someone's judging me, because I'm just like, okay, I'll
03:25judge you too.
03:25Fine.
03:28When I left Montana, Caitlin and Amber told me they were very uncomfortable in the car drive the whole way.
03:33They felt like they were trapped, because they were in the car and they couldn't do anything, so I don't
03:36know.
03:37So it's hard to put that together with what you said, but...
03:42I didn't know that I made Amber and Caitlin uncomfortable.
03:46I heard Caitlin and Amber were uncomfortable, you know, being pulled aside.
03:50I think Mariah felt the same way.
03:52They were invited to her house, and it's really not their place to pick apart what they think is and
03:56is not okay.
03:57Just trying to clear the air and, you know, communicate about it.
04:01We are all family, so we're going to talk about each other.
04:04Yeah, but they didn't ask for your opinion, and they literally felt uncomfortable.
04:09But that conversation was to resolve it and to figure it out, and there was apologies had, and there was
04:16resolution, and you guys are focusing on the discomfort of it.
04:20I mean, they wanted to just call me and have me on the phone, because they didn't want to.
04:24That's just what I'm hearing from them.
04:27I'm not trying to get on you, but I'm just saying it has frustrated me, and I want to try
04:32to build a relationship with you, and you're a part of the family now.
04:36I can't build a relationship with you or hang out or talk when that's inside.
04:43Again, like talking to each other, expressing stuff, getting off communicating.
04:47That's what I feel I'm trying to do right now in the best way that I can.
04:50I'm not always very good at that.
04:58Why I felt I needed to speak up was because you guys, knowing Lydia and I and our lifestyle, we
05:05wouldn't participate in a lot of those things normally.
05:08And so it's like, for us to even hang out with you, we have to do all these things that
05:13we really don't want to do.
05:15Well, is that on the host or the guest?
05:19Well, like if you guys don't drink alcohol, and I've got alcohol here, you don't have to drink it.
05:24I understand that.
05:25But if everything that is happening is something we don't want to do, then it just feels like we're not
05:33welcome.
05:33But that's not true.
05:34You are welcome.
05:35And we're trying to be welcoming.
05:40And seeing the way they walk through their lives, it seems like they want to go in the direction of
05:45choosing good or God.
05:47And so when they don't, they're making decisions that maybe aren't so good for their lives.
05:53Like what, a card game or?
05:56Well, let me get my point, please.
05:58So when they maybe aren't, you know, playing games or watching shows that are good for you and like make
06:10Lydia and I cringe, I want to talk about it.
06:14If I'm playing a game and my wife can't talk about the cards that she's dealt because of her moralistic
06:23idea of what the words say, you know, I'm sure I'll say.
06:31Why do you want to play that game?
06:32Yeah, it's like, can we choose another game to play that's more like you?
06:36There was that.
06:37We that happened for a little bit.
06:38I didn't I didn't enjoy it personally, but we played countless other games that night and there were other things
06:44we were doing.
06:46Yeah.
06:46And I'm not again.
06:49I'm not generalizing the whole time by any means.
06:52I think it's just there's specific things that we disagreed with.
06:58I personally don't think a 16 year old should be participating in some of these things.
07:04Potentially, Zach may be like exerting himself, his opinion in a jurisdiction that he really shouldn't be concerned about.
07:11I'm at the point where I trust Amber pretty good and she's going to make mistakes, then let her make
07:17them and then we can talk about it.
07:20Hey, if someone asks, then give your opinion.
07:23If someone's not asking for your opinion, maybe in this gray area, just you don't need to say anything.
07:33I do appreciate that they care about Amber and they care about the things she's exposed to and how she's
07:40raised.
07:43I definitely would rather that than them not care at all.
07:47Barry and I've changed.
07:48We've let up on a lot of things, but ultimately they're my kids.
07:52They're Barry's kids.
07:54We're the ones that need to decide things on raising them.
07:59I've had, you know, some people say we're too strict.
08:03Other people say we're not strict enough.
08:05I feel like he can't win.
08:06And if Zach really feels like something that they're doing is bad, he needs to talk to me about it,
08:11not the girls.
08:13Zach apologized and he hasn't done anything like that since then.
08:17And if people don't want our opinions, we won't give our opinions.
08:22And Nathan, I don't know if you were aware of, like, just the situation.
08:27Like, Zach was hearing so many things about Tegan from everyone that he just wanted to hear it from you.
08:33I appreciate you looking out for me, but, you know, I wasn't looking for your opinion.
08:40I wasn't giving it.
08:42I was really just trying to understand because I heard so many things, like, concerns and ups and downs, and
08:48I just was like, what is it then?
08:51Zach helped me work on my New Yorker.
08:53Zach pulled me aside afterwards and he was like, you know, I know you feel like you need to go
08:57to Wisconsin,
08:57but there's some things that I see with Tegan that I think you should be concerned about.
09:02And there's a couple of things.
09:05One of them was that she has a child and Tegan's little daughter is the best thing that has ever
09:14happened to Tegan.
09:14That's her whole world.
09:16Even if it was coming from a good place, it was completely disrespectful to Tegan.
09:20It was extremely judgmental.
09:26I just feel like time and time again, Zach's always misunderstood.
09:33Misrepresented, and that just hurts me.
09:35And he hasn't gone about everything in the perfect way every time, but his heart's always been perfect.
09:56I'm still trying to be a brother.
10:00Trying.
10:09I'm still trying to be a brother.
10:22And I never was a brother to other brothers, and I just...
10:31Am I supposed to just wrestle them and just have...
10:35I don't know.
10:36I don't know what to do.
10:44It feels like we're pulling an arm and a leg to get you guys to just come over and hang
10:47out.
10:48The door is always open.
10:50Zach makes it seem like they're excluded, but I know they're not.
10:54But then at the same time, if they're included, they need to be catered to 100%.
11:00I'm not going to change my entire lifestyle to be in their life,
11:03and they're not going to change their entire lifestyle to be in mine.
11:06You're exporting your opinion into lands that don't want to import.
11:10Yeah.
11:11So, um, is this a bad conversation?
11:16I'm going into this knowing that it has potential to be a very painful conversation.
11:42I think part of the reason why we've gone about doing some of this in the way we have
11:48is because we're always doing stuff with you guys and doing what you guys want.
11:57And Barry and the girls are great at coming to Tallahassee and stopping by,
12:00but I don't...
12:03Like, it feels like we're pulling an arm and a leg to get you guys to just come over and
12:07hang out sometimes.
12:09I'm not holding anything against you guys.
12:12It's just, you know, since we're right here, you know, 45 minutes away, I think it'd be cool to just
12:19see that.
12:21Nobody's intentionally trying to avoid them.
12:23If anything, it's just we get really busy.
12:26I have a hard time finding myself, you know, with a bunch of extra free time.
12:29But when I do, I have gone down there.
12:36Well, I think I've...
12:37I think we both want to build relationship, and so I'm just trying to see what we can do about
12:41that.
12:42The door is always open.
12:46I think I've come every time I've been invited.
12:52A year ago today was one of the hardest days of my life, so...
13:09Lydia has said that, you know, we haven't seen them very much.
13:14We haven't made an effort, but I mean, we've had them out here to the farm.
13:17Lydia and I met for coffee.
13:19I've been to their place.
13:20I went and got a cheesecake for Zach for his birthday, because I know that he likes cheesecake.
13:28Zach makes it seem like they're excluded, which, I mean, I haven't been around the family a lot, but I
13:35know they're not.
13:35But then at the same time, that if they're included, they need to be catered to 100%.
13:41So, I don't know, that's a tricky line to walk.
13:45Well, basically, my boundary for myself moving forward, unless I come to you, I say,
13:50what are your thoughts on me moving to Wisconsin, or what are your thoughts on me playing this game?
13:55I would appreciate it if you kept your opinions to yourself, and don't tell me it's right or wrong or
14:01whatever.
14:01Don't tell the girls it's right or wrong.
14:03And if you feel convicted of something, then, you know, don't participate.
14:10If you think that you could respect that, I would appreciate it for myself and my siblings.
14:20Yeah, I mean, I understand, and I will respect your wishes.
14:26So, what do you take from that?
14:29That I need to shut up?
14:32Duly noted.
14:34I'm not perfect.
14:36I know I very well could have judged them wrongly.
14:40I just wish my heart was understood, that I care and love as much as I can.
14:47We still know how to include ourselves.
14:52And, yeah.
14:55What are some things you'd like to do with this?
14:58I don't know, maybe more random bonfires or random stuff around the farm.
15:02You know, if you want to, you want to help building a four-wheeler trail, we'll come do it, you
15:08know.
15:10Sometime when the cabin isn't booked, you guys come up.
15:14We can spend the day fishing.
15:16For snakes.
15:17For snakes.
15:17We could cook what we fish, what we catch.
15:21If y'all catch the fish, I will cook all the fish.
15:23Yes.
15:24I'll fillet them, I'll cook them.
15:25Oh, dang it.
15:25I was going to, like, start a fire and just stick a stick in there.
15:29Well, you can do yours that way.
15:35I feel like this has been really productive.
15:37I feel like it's been good.
15:39Everybody kind of got a chance to, you know, voice what was bothering them.
15:43And now it's done and cleared and off the table.
15:46And we can move forward.
15:51Move forward.
15:52Yeah.
15:53Yeah.
15:55How are you feeling in this moment?
15:58It really leaves us confused because it goes right back to us being the outsiders looking in.
16:05It felt like we were being talked to.
16:09How do you move forward?
16:12I guess we'll have lunch and just kind of hang out for a little bit.
16:15And then this afternoon, we're going to set up a little area and talk about Joshua.
16:21So you can be thinking about that.
16:24Yep.
16:36Are you okay?
16:39Yeah.
16:40I'm good.
16:41I mean, just from the beginning, you could tell our lifestyles were different enough that we probably just wouldn't mesh
16:48well.
16:48And so I'm not going to change my entire lifestyle to be in their life.
16:53And they're not going to change their entire lifestyle to be in mine.
16:56And that's just what's happening.
16:59You can't just sit here and say, oh, everything's good.
17:02Everything's okay.
17:02When it's not.
17:06And I can see it in Zach.
17:10He got shot down from the beginning.
17:14And for him to want to care and try to show that care in the best way he knows how
17:22and for it to be taken as disrespectful is...
17:31Oh, I don't have words.
17:44They're hungry.
17:45Yeah.
17:46They're always hungry.
17:49Oh, chickens.
17:50Chickens are always looking for stuff.
17:52Got some eggs in there.
17:55Yeah.
17:56There's some eggs in there.
17:59After the conversation, I talked to Barry because I know I could talk to him.
18:03I'm glad they brought it up because I didn't know it was still bothering some people.
18:09And I didn't know the extent of how people felt about it.
18:13I had no idea.
18:14I was coming in cold on that one.
18:15Yeah.
18:16I was not familiar with everything that went on in Montana.
18:20Right.
18:22I've definitely learned a lot today of just how I can sometimes overstep and how sometimes I'm too talkative or
18:30whatever.
18:32Yes.
18:33You're exporting your opinion into lands that don't want to import.
18:37Yep.
18:38Yep.
18:40Jurisdictional boundaries, right?
18:41Yeah.
18:42You've got to know the jurisdictional boundaries.
18:44Who's more offendable and who's less offendable?
18:47You've got to take that into consideration.
18:51Yeah.
18:54Um.
18:58I mean, I agree.
19:01So Ethan's growing, right?
19:03Yeah.
19:04Taller.
19:08I feel bad for Lydia.
19:10Yeah.
19:11But.
19:12I do too.
19:14I think it's better to at least say it than just keep it to ourselves.
19:23Yeah.
19:24You took accountability, you know.
19:26Mm-hmm.
19:27So I can appreciate that.
19:28Mm-hmm.
19:33I would like to think that I've grown.
19:37I hope that I have.
19:39Definitely being more empathetic and understanding how I make someone else feel.
19:46I probably shouldn't have started a serious relationship after getting out there with my ex-wife.
19:56But I'm still learning.
20:00I'll keep working on it.
20:04It's great to hear that you're wanting to talk about Joshua more.
20:08Yeah.
20:08That's awesome.
20:09I know Lydia's excited for it.
20:10I'm aware that Zach likes to have really deep conversations.
20:13But I don't know that excited is the word I would pick.
20:18I don't understand Kim and how she just operates.
20:35You guys are talking, which is good.
20:37Yeah.
20:38I'll probably hang out with, I guess, only Tegan.
20:42I don't know anyone else here that, yeah, I'll hang out with Tegan.
20:46Yeah.
20:47Ken will be around, you know.
20:49Okay.
20:51Oh, thank you.
20:53I think we haven't checked the last few days.
20:55We've been busy.
20:57Well, it's good to have the whole family in town.
20:59And thanks for having us, too.
21:02I think it's great to hear that you're wanting to talk about Joshua more.
21:06Yeah.
21:06That's awesome.
21:07Yeah.
21:07And I know Lydia's excited for it.
21:09So I'm excited for it, too.
21:11Yeah.
21:12Just to see the whole family talking about it and coming together to do it, too.
21:16It's really cool.
21:17Yeah.
21:18I'm aware that Zach likes to have really deep conversations.
21:22But I don't know that excited is the word I would pick.
21:27She's really excited to just be able to share this with her family who experienced it with her.
21:31Yeah.
21:32That's awesome.
21:34Yeah.
21:35It's great.
21:38I've given up trying to fix things and make every relationship work and every relationship perfect.
21:43And with like with my mom and Zach, whether they choose to spend time together and grow or not.
22:02Grief is definitely more complicated, I feel like, at times.
22:06So I don't understand Kim and how she just operates, you know, she's got her life.
22:15And I'm trying to understand a lot of the decisions she's making, but it just doesn't click for me.
22:23I think when a parent loses a child, there's never going to be a time that, you know.
22:28You're unfilled again.
22:29Yeah.
22:29There's always going to be that void.
22:31Yeah.
22:31Like, I will always be a parent that lost a child.
22:34And there's no amount of thinking, talking, writing, praying, anything that could change that.
22:42Like, that's, you know, I know where Zach is coming from and he means well.
22:47I guess I need to find out what it is that he needs from me in order to feel accepted,
22:53loved and accepted.
22:54And I want to fix that.
22:58It's kind of like I lost so much of my life to that, you know, like most of the first
23:03year.
23:04Right.
23:08You don't want to be in that place.
23:10Yeah, yeah.
23:10And so, yeah.
23:12But I'll also be wherever they need me to be for them, you know.
23:17If they need me to go back there for a while, you know, I'll do that.
23:21So that's good.
23:22Yeah.
23:23Lydia, over the last few years, just worked really hard to really just be seen in the family.
23:31And I don't feel like Kim really tried to see her or tried to even see, I don't want to
23:44talk about this because I don't, I can defend my wife.
23:49But in all honesty, I don't know what they've been through, period.
24:17I don't know what they've been through.
24:38I'm here and I'm ready for whatever the children want to talk about.
24:43If they want a play-by-play, if they want to talk about grieving or not grieving,
24:49if Lydia wants to take it into what she experienced that day and what we all experienced that day,
24:56kind of mourning that all over again, I'm willing to do that.
25:00I want to be here for my kids.
25:03I want to be here for whatever they need.
25:06I'm going into this knowing that it has potential to be a very painful conversation.
25:11And I'm ready for whatever that is.
25:15I just kind of wanted to have time for everybody to talk and share, like, how you're doing with it,
25:23like, if you're healing or not healing or...
25:28I just want to acknowledge him more.
25:30Like, we always say, there's nine children, three brothers, like, but there's ten and there's four brothers.
25:39And, you know, just finding little ways like that to honor him.
25:45Yeah.
25:48Well, you know, it's a good thing to talk about the grieving process and stuff,
25:54but you can get stuck there, too, if you focus on it too much.
25:58But I've been working to remember him, not the tragedy.
26:03And I don't want him to just be remembered from the day that he passed instead of the life that
26:09he lived.
26:11Yeah.
26:15This is all I needed.
26:18Just to bring him up in conversation.
26:22Like, the fact that we are gathering for the purpose of Joshua is it right there.
26:28Well, I have something for the three that never got to meet Joshua.
26:40He loved duckies, but he didn't call them duckies, he called them guckies.
26:44I don't know if you want.
26:49No, I'm giving it...
26:52We would also go out to the grave site, right, and put ducks all over here.
26:56Can I put it on his face?
26:57Do you remember his...
26:58It's up to you.
26:58His doggie book?
26:59I think I should keep it.
27:00What did he call it?
27:01Yeah, oh, guggies.
27:02Goggies.
27:02Goggies.
27:03Duckies and guggies.
27:04He loved his dog book.
27:05He loved his red rain boots.
27:08There's, like, twice that I can remember just, like, holding his hand on, like, a bright,
27:13sunny, I was, like, squinting my eyes, and we were, like, walking on the fence on it.
27:16Yeah, you used to love leading him all around the farm by, you know, by his hand.
27:22Mm-hmm.
27:23You remember that little red car with the blue wheels?
27:26Mm-hmm.
27:26I remember I used to push him around and out all the time, and I'd buckle him in, and he
27:29would just, like, I'd tell him to drive, but, like, a lot of times, he would just, like,
27:34just, like...
27:38How are you doing?
27:40I'm doing great.
27:42I mean, you know, the context is Joshua.
27:47Yeah, Joshua's...
27:48Because I went to the gym Saturday.
27:50No, everything that I went through with Joshua early on, I had to stop asking why, right?
27:57Because it just was counterproductive to the whole situation.
28:02Just playing my role as best I could to support what needed to be done.
28:08I always like to think back on Joshua, right, and remember the good that, uh, the good 17
28:16months we had, I mean, because it was a real special thing.
28:20There'll probably always be a scar from a trauma like this.
28:23There's a little mark there that proves that, yeah, it was a big loss.
28:30Well, you asked us, but how are you doing?
28:33I'm doing good.
28:34Yeah?
28:34Yeah, like, most of the first year, it was, I mean, you guys know, I could barely function.
28:41Up until recently, I really didn't think I was ready to talk about it, but I went and
28:47saw Dr. Ty.
28:49In talking to her, I realized how important it was for you guys that I talk about him,
28:55you know?
28:58I'm, yeah, I cry sometimes just thinking about everything you've been through and how
29:03strong you are and still being able to raise all of us and just pushing through it.
29:10So, thank you.
29:13Yeah.
29:20I don't really plan on talking to Zach.
29:23I don't really care what Zach thinks at the end of the day.
29:25I had heard about what Tegan had done to Ethan.
29:28It seemed Tegan was terrible.
29:29We brought up these things that we thought were serious.
29:32I don't think I can own that I was wrong.
29:46You were really strong just from everything you've been through and then going through
29:50that and still being there for us in the ways that you could.
29:54Lydia kind of brought this on, you know, by talking about it publicly, and that wasn't
30:00the right way to go about it, but the end result has been beautiful.
30:05It's a happy moment.
30:06That's what I always wanted for Joshua, you know?
30:09It makes me happy that we're all able to share that together.
30:14You know, losing somebody, the one thing that it does, the one good thing that does come
30:18out of it, is it makes you appreciate the people in your life that are still here.
30:23And I want Lydia to know that she's loved and appreciated.
30:27We have pretty great parents.
30:32Affirmative.
30:35I feel like this definitely, you know, just opens the door to just discuss Joshua Moore,
30:41to bring him up in conversation and, yeah, honor him in that way.
30:44And I'm just really, really proud of my mom for doing this.
30:49It has been a little bit of a rough road getting here, but we're here, and we're talking
30:54about Joshua.
30:58So, we're going to put Joshua's name on the bench.
31:02I think everybody's doing good after the meeting, you know?
31:05Everybody seems to, you know, be getting along, and that's what I was hoping for.
31:09Let me grab it from the bottom.
31:12It's fine.
31:14I know if Joshua can see us right now, he's definitely proud.
31:17I know he would put a smile on his face.
31:19We're going to put the bench out for him, just a little remembrance thing.
31:27That's looking good.
31:29Yeah, that is looking good.
31:31Maybe when Micah comes, he thickens the letters and writes his name.
31:35The unfortunate thing is, Micah's not here.
31:37He wasn't able to make it up for today's event.
31:39He had to work.
31:40The good thing is, he'll be back up at some point and carve his name on the bench.
31:46That looks good.
31:51My mom's all about little places to sit down outside and just, you know, go over and remind
31:57you of him instead of, like, you should go to his grave.
32:01It's a little bit brighter, I think.
32:03It's great.
32:03Look at that.
32:04Yeah.
32:05All right, Dad, you can do the rest.
32:06Middle one?
32:06Yeah, it's just right in the middle.
32:08Who's doing the view, Cassie?
32:09If I want to do the view.
32:10Oh, yeah.
32:15Three or four days ago, if you had told me that I would be standing here ready to have
32:19a hard conversation about Joshua, I wouldn't have believed you.
32:23In talking to Dr. Ty, I really understood that I need to do this not for me, but for my
32:29kids.
32:40It's hard to talk about the hard stuff, but I want us to all love each other and get
32:45along.
32:46We might not like each other, we might irritate each other, but ultimately, we're in this
32:50for the long haul.
32:51We'll keep working on it.
32:56That's beautiful.
33:02Oh, it turned out really nice.
33:04Yeah.
33:05We can plant flowers if we want.
33:07Mm-hmm.
33:08It's just good to remember him.
33:24She's an old lady.
33:26An old lady?
33:28She turned out to be the best daughter I ever had.
33:30I was going to say, she's so good.
33:33So, I'm sandwiched in between Ken and Zach, and we're just sort of hanging out all together
33:40while the family, you know, is outside honoring Joshua.
33:44I don't really plan on talking to Zach.
33:57You know, it's right before their surprise celebration party, so I'm not trying to dampen Zach's mood
34:05by any means, you know, I'm here to celebrate him and Lydia.
34:09I don't really care what Zach thinks at the end of the day.
34:14From what I heard, it seemed teen was terrible, and so I was trying to understand why he doesn't
34:20think so.
34:21We brought up these things that we thought were serious.
34:24I don't think I can own that I was wrong.
34:28But, of course, we were the ones to bring it up, because no one else would.
34:43Okay, we're doing a surprise anniversary party for Lydia and Zach.
34:47I had a nice party plan for out there, but it's pouring down rain.
34:52So, I'm having to regroup, get everything.
34:54I know where I want stuff.
34:55I need lots of hands to do stuff.
34:57Given all the heavy stuff that we've covered today, and it's been a lot, I just want something
35:03light and fun to celebrate Zach and Lydia.
35:07I need you two to take Lydia and Zach upstairs to the closet and distract them.
35:11We'll tell you when to bring them down.
35:12I'm going to play my tiny violet.
35:14Okay, go, go, go.
35:16This is a way that I show love, by putting on an event for somebody.
35:21Tomorrow's our anniversary.
35:22Lydia and Zach, yeah?
35:24I'm going to practice.
35:25Mariah, are we going to practice our little music?
35:28She can make the strings on a violin sound like a dying cat.
35:32I'm supposed to come to you?
35:33Yeah.
35:34Hubby, we need your voice to somehow make something sound okay.
35:38Mercy and I are attempting to distract Lydia and Zach so they can quick set up the downstairs
35:42area, because it would be kind of obvious if they were sitting on the couch, so.
35:51Do you want to help?
35:52What are we doing?
35:52We're decorating for an anniversary party for them.
35:56Okay.
35:58It's amazing that no matter what the adversity or trials are, you know, when the siblings
36:03get together, they just have that chemistry.
36:07And now Zach's a part of it.
36:08And so, you know, when all is said and done, those things that were issues kind of get put
36:14aside, and it's good to see them able to come together and just have fun.
36:19Hey, what do you think, man?
36:25Ten minutes.
36:26That on that table.
36:35Ethan and Tegan, come here.
36:37And Barry, everybody, come here.
36:43Oh, my goodness.
36:45How about we tell them to come down, and when they come down, we sing happy anniversary to
36:50you?
36:51Yeah.
36:54All right, shall we?
36:55We shall.
36:58Guys, what are you doing?
37:00We're going to leave.
37:01We're coming downstairs.
37:02Oh, good.
37:02Come on.
37:05Let's go.
37:05Everybody was wondering where you were.
37:07I think they're out in the barn or something.
37:09We might have kept you too long.
37:10We were stolen away.
37:12We were enjoying the beautiful start.
37:16Happy anniversary to you.
37:20Happy anniversary to you.
37:24Happy anniversary, dear Zedelia.
37:29Happy anniversary to you.
37:33And many, many more.
37:44I truly was amazed that everyone put in so much effort to just celebrate us for our anniversary
37:52and for us to be what they're celebrating, I think, was really special.
37:56Definitely didn't expect it.
37:57It's a really sweet gesture.
37:59You guys did this in, like, ten minutes?
38:01Yeah.
38:01We're like, go upstairs.
38:02I just hope next time, if conflict does arise, that I'm not misunderstood, I guess.
38:11How are you going to ensure that you're not misunderstood?
38:14At this point, I can't think about if...
38:18Let me answer, please.
38:20Yeah, I mean, if we're continued to be misunderstood, then we just won't keep trying.
38:29Well, I propose a toast to Lydia and Zach and to one successful year of marriage and many more.
38:35Yes.
38:36Cheers.
38:36Cheers.
38:38Cheers.
38:39Cheers.
38:39Cheers.
38:40The conflicts that were happening earlier in the day, kind of pale in comparison,
38:44just a good feeling that happens in the moment when you're celebrating.
38:47It's hard to say.
38:48If it would have been any different had the conflict not happened.
38:52Learning to communicate some more.
38:54Yeah.
38:54Or getting opportunities to practice it, right?
38:56And we're moving forward.
38:58And so, for me, the search for Sandra Bullock continues.
39:09We've all definitely come a long way since what happened last year at this time.
39:14You know, there have been rough patches, but it's ultimately been good.
39:18And we'll, you know, continue growing and continue just leaving it open-ended without any expectations.
39:26I think that's the biggest thing we've learned.
39:28Because you'll just wound up hurt and confused.
39:33Honestly, I'm tired of working on relationships.
39:35I just kind of want to be for a little bit and see who floats in and out of my
39:40life.
39:44See who comes over with no expectations.
39:50It can be hard being a parent to so many different people.
39:54And I'm still learning.
39:56I haven't figured it out.
39:58If anybody gets it figured out, let me know.
40:02I'm coming home.