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00:01The biggest thing that hurt us was everything that was said about us and not to us
00:07Any concerns you have?
00:09Please come to us because if I find out that there's still gossiping about Zack and I I will not
00:15tolerate it
00:15Have you dated anyone yet? Or are you? I have not dated anybody yet. What type would you be more
00:22drawn to?
00:23I guess in four words
00:25The Sandra Bullock look
00:27Yeah, I like Sandra
00:30me and taken broke up and really truly feel like there's
00:34Unfinished business. We'll see if the patterns change. I guess they're doing a family trip to Montana to go see
00:43Mariah
00:43Ethan has extended the invite to me. I really hope you do come
00:48We'll see
01:02Do you want to peel potatoes and put them in that pot?
01:06It's our first Thanksgiving back at the farm all day today the girls and I have been
01:12Trying to get Thanksgiving dinner together
01:15We've got Ken smoking a turkey. I'm making a ham in the oven and we're making bread from scratch and
01:23Ethan's here too, which is extra special
01:27He's exhausted. He just got in from driving straight from Wisconsin
01:32He went to Wisconsin to find a place to live and tell Tegan that he's moving there
01:38I think Ethan knows what's at stake and how big this is if she
01:43Rejects him then he's starting all over either there or someplace else
01:50Ethan's upstairs. Should we get him up? Yeah, I'll go get him up
01:53Ultimately, I'm supportive of Ethan moving because I feel like Ethan will never rest until he figures out if Tegan
02:01is gonna work out or not
02:05This is my last little week or two that I have with everyone and basically wrap that chapter up in
02:11Georgia
02:16You know, I think Tegan definitely is still processing
02:20Everything and you know, one of the things she told me was the door is closed. It's not locked
02:26All right, so I put the bread in the oven. Excuse me
02:33It's just a waiting that's killing me right now. It just can't have them past enough. I can't wait for
02:38those wheels on that New Yorker to be rolling north
02:41Thank you for carving the turkey Ken. Thank you for cooking the turkey. Hey guys
02:46Sorry, we're late. There's a lot of food
02:50The holidays that Barry and I did not celebrate with the children were Christmas
02:56Easter Halloween and Valentine's Day. We did celebrate Thanksgiving
03:01That's good for Thanksgiving when the kids were young we usually rented a beach house and
03:07That was our Thanksgiving. I picked meals that were conducive to spending all day on the beach like I would
03:13make a big pot of chili
03:14If for some reason we didn't go to the beach which would be later on the kids were older then
03:21yeah
03:21We would do an occasional you know official Thanksgiving dinner with turkey and cranberry sauce
03:25But to me Thanksgiving is just a good opportunity to get everybody together and have a good meal together
03:34Marcy can you pass the bread down here? I feel like after everything that we've been through a divorce
03:40Ethan not being allowed to talk to us for several years
03:44It's kind of a miracle that we're back at the farm having Thanksgiving together
03:49I'm thankful for all the time we got to spend with everybody here. I'm thankful for Kaelin
03:56Isaac and Kaelin have been broken up for about all of four days before they got back together
04:01I think that was the longest when worst four days of Isaac's life
04:07I am thankful for Isaac and friends and family and being able to gather here today
04:13I think the most important thing I've learned from all this is just not to take Kaelin for granted
04:19You know, I'm truly blessed to be able to learn from it and have a second chance
04:24I'm thankful for going on 10 months of the most amazing chapter of my life
04:31First Thanksgiving together as a married couple
04:34Also, my first Thanksgiving away from my family
04:38Oh, yeah
04:40Mike and Mariah weren't able to come visit for Thanksgiving, but they visited a couple weeks ago, so we still
04:46got to see them
04:47Mike and Mariah live out of state and they do come visit a couple times a year as they can,
04:52but you know, it's harder
04:53We all have busy lives
04:56There's no telling how many people will be at our Thanksgiving dinner next year. Is it possible there could be
05:02a new little person?
05:04Yeah, you never know
05:07I'd say honestly
05:09We do have a few more like just logistics we should work out
05:12There's still a couple things that we want to just be a little bit more confident in
05:16But I think mentally we're in that place and just mentally over there. Yeah
05:24Patience my darling
05:25Lydia has baby eyes every time I talk to her she's like I want a baby and what kind of
05:31prenatal vitamin should I take?
05:32She has baby fever bad
05:34But I think zach is a little more rational thinking things through and saying let's wait a little bit
05:40I'm kind of insinuating that you two but I mean ken and I are we're not out of the race
05:45yet
05:53She's had ten kids and don't like like if you use the lawnmower like a bunch doesn't it like wear
06:00out?
06:05I'm not talking about any of this. I don't want to talk about my mother-in-law's fertility
06:09Yeah
06:11If my mom actually has a kid i'll shave every hair on my head including my eyebrows and eyelashes
06:18If it happens i'd be happy
06:21I'd be really happy if it never happened
06:26The temperature has been steady drop in the past few days way to change the topic no
06:32We just need lydia and I to be pregnant together
06:39Awkward
06:40Hello hello hi how you guys doing i'm doing all right
06:46Kim had let me know that they were celebrating thanksgiving out at the farm and she just casually said hey
06:51if you want to stop by feel free
06:53Things are much more casual they're living their best life i'm just moving forward with mine
06:57So given that ken's pretty easy going it's easy for me just to slip out there and chit chat
07:03Oh we never did a toast i want mercy to make the toast i propose a toast to very crispy
07:10bread
07:11Get it toast
07:13Wait eat this glass is empty put something oh yeah what do you want to drink
07:16No i don't want any cheers to being back at the farm yeah you're here
07:23Ethan i've talked a little bit since he's been back from wisconsin i don't know where everybody else is at
07:28with
07:29What ethan's doing i know for me
07:32i can tell he misses tegan
07:34If i could have one thing next thanksgiving and christmas spin it with tegan and her daughter
07:41That would be my wish
07:43The holidays are always hard when you like you were with someone last year and then you're alone this year
07:49As far as like your significant other so i think about that all the time lydia and zach
07:55And isaac and kaylynn and my mom and ken it's like dang what is wrong with me
08:02So ethan when are you moving up to wisconsin pretty soon like a week or two a week or two
08:08Maybe up there for christmas no i don't know okay
08:14I honestly don't even know what to say
08:18If we're finished i have an idea all of us spread out between here and the kitchen just passing stuff
08:26and then the table gets cleared
08:27What like an assembly line yeah like an assembly line
08:31We all knew that he wanted to work it out with her and we knew we kind of knew in
08:36a way
08:36He had talked about it before about possibly moving up there in a way
08:40We were a little bit surprised that he was actually going up there and then in a way we weren't
08:44i'm gonna go i'll be in the middle
08:46Get in the kitchen ready to receive
08:49Since her and ethan did break up me and tegan haven't talked like we used to
08:55It is a little murky too like me being isaac's girlfriend ethan's brother
09:02So i kind of you know took a little step back nobody's doing a symbol line are they you know
09:07the table's almost cleared
09:14You mind if you take some of this home at all okay
09:25Oh it's like i think i just need to just run get some cardio going get some weight off so
09:30i'm not get the blood pumping right overworking muscles
09:33Because you can't full run in it no it's like really a challenge
09:38I should start running again after all this things giving food my time's gonna be slow
09:46All right ethan i feel like i've heard
09:50a lot of like everything here and there but like
09:54Where are you and tegan at would you say and what's like kind of your goal in like going up
09:58to wisconsin
10:01Because i'd love to hear it from you more than just whispers everywhere
10:05Well i don't know
10:08I guess we'll find out where we're at but i'm just gonna move up there and
10:12Give it a go give it a go can't have it can't do that down here so
10:17Yeah, that's just where i feel i need to be
10:19Yeah
10:20Where i want to be
10:24Last i heard tegan and ethan were broke up and now he's moving across the country to go have more
10:31time with her
10:31So i think i'd like to just maybe understand it a little more
10:36Why he would make a decision like that and if it's worth going across the entire country for
10:42Are you guys gonna like looking to get back together or what's the
10:47I'll just let whatever happened happen
10:52Just trying to take it slow
10:56I didn't really want to talk about that but zach went there because if ethan's not feeling good and he
11:03perceives zach to be too nosy
11:05Right i'm in observer mode and see if anything breaks out i need to
11:10You know do anything
11:12If you don't mind me asking like what's some of the
11:15I guess like what's led to just some of the separation or just like having to reset and just kind
11:22of take it slow
11:24I'm pretty much sum it up and she always felt last and i never moved over there
11:32Even though i told her that i would many times
11:38Zach's pretty good at making people open up and asking the right questions
11:43i'm kind of more just like
11:45Ask a few but if you don't open up i'm not gonna go grab the sledgehammer
11:51What's your timeline i guess you know if stuff doesn't hash out to come back here or like
11:58committing to six months or a year what do you think oh i don't know
12:03It's very different than my brothers and what i'm used to
12:06zach is going a lot deeper than
12:09Mike and isaac would and i'm not even nearly as close to him or know him very well
12:17You'll figure that out he's just gonna give it a good go okay
12:24Zach may have reservations about ethan's choice of go back to wisconsin
12:29i'm just staying out of it because he's got to do it i mean i i see it in his
12:35eyes
12:37play it by ear cool
12:43Ethan was definitely quiet and just a bit to himself i guess you could say um i don't entirely
12:50know why but maybe a little later we can you know maybe have some more conversation but we'll see
13:03in my experience bigfoot will be active during the daytime if i dated a lady and she just out of
13:10the blue did a bigfoot call
13:15that would probably be a green flag
13:18me and tegan we're going to montana to see mariah i'm exhausted all went downhill from like the moment
13:25we got on the first plane
13:46hi howdy howdy y'all loving the weather
13:50today we're at torrea state park in the panhandle florida torrea state park is a great
13:55location to find bigfoot um maybe we'll hear something like hear it calling or whatever
14:03i think amber's really hoping for a sighting yeah why not mercy i mean if i saw one i'd probably
14:11be scared but it's nice to be able to spend time with dad yeah but this area's got a real
14:18rich history
14:19with bigfoot uh going back to like the 1880s i've taken over 750 reports in the state eyewitnesses i've
14:26spoken with 60 in this area i grew up in minnesota of course there's reports from the woods in northern
14:34minnesota of encounters yep this is one of those out of the left field ventures that i thought would be
14:44interesting to i guess explore there's the hoaxes but then there's too much real legit experiences
14:52that just indicates there's there's stuff there right that's real i'm a bigfoot researcher i try to
15:00document historical accounts of bigfoot's existence and i'm currently on a quest to prove it to the world
15:08two of my six daughters but these are the adventurous ones who are curious about
15:13things that go bump in the night well curiosity killed the cat
15:29okay got the fire going oh good thank you what do you all do i'm baking chocolate chip cookies
15:36barry took amber and mercy to a big dark forest somewhere to go hunting for bigfoot
15:43i think for barry to find a woman that's into things like bigfoot and a whole bunch of other
15:50things that i know barry's into i think it's gonna be pretty slim but somebody's out there for him
15:58so thanksgiving you were talking about possibility of having another kid you were joking correct well
16:05okay if you wanted a son i would love to try for a son for you it would still be
16:11a miracle
16:12for both of us to do that so it would definitely be a miracle
16:18your mom and ken are jokingly talking about having another baby you're shaking your head why
16:24because i don't want to answer
16:27wouldn't you love to have another baby brother
16:32cassia probably just thinks oh there's mom talking you know being funny or whatever but i know if i had
16:40a
16:40little baby she would be all over it well let's say just hypothetically that did happen i would be okay
16:49with it i think that in kim's mind she feels like that we would be a lot closer if we
16:54had a child that
16:55we shared together but that's not the case if kim were to get pregnant i would be happy i would
17:02support
17:03her i would take care of the baby just like i would my other children i would prefer not to
17:09have a child
17:09at my age but i'd be okay with it
17:16you've got uh imprints so we found this one this was with about 17 other tracks okay um i've never
17:26experienced anything so i don't have any any stories personally but i guess i'm the brain type that would
17:31entertain the possibility that this creature is real girls let's go this is an adventure
17:39girls there's gonna be a little trail up here on the right okay and we'll take that
17:45if i find someone who has a curiosity about mysteries of uh unknown realms like bigfoot
17:54that would be an interesting lady to talk to
17:57i know a lot of people think that you should bigfoot during the night time in my experience
18:03bigfoot is more in tune with like the moon cycle we are in a full moon right now and so
18:09all the animals
18:10will be active during the daytime right dad finally told us that he's ready to date and i think i
18:16could
18:16see dad with someone who's like definitely like very adventurous and loves doing things outdoors someone
18:22he's like really i want to say open-minded it like doesn't you know we'll humor him and all his
18:27his theories and stuff like for bigfoot for example i'm gonna play a singing bowl okay see if we hear
18:36anything okay with the bowl i guess it's a device to create the sound that would elicit a response from
18:57bigfoot i wonder if sandra bullock is a sasquatch enthusiast i could try some calls i'll go first
19:05and then you can give it a shot yourself
19:17maybe y'all would like to do one i can't i have laryngitis yeah right
19:24i definitely will not do my sasquatch noise but if i dated a lady and she just out of the
19:30blue did
19:31bigfoot call that would probably be a green flag do you think they could be around like do you think
19:39they could be watching us if you ever get that feeling when you're in the woods that something's
19:44watching you i promise you something's watching you
20:02like do you think you're in the woods and you're in the woods and you're in the woods and you're
20:13in the woods
20:13today i'm meeting ethan to eat together and catch up on some things because he's you know moving
20:17what's up i've been here for 40 minutes oh i'm sorry no it's fine but i am mad at you
20:25i had a bunch of stuff to work out phone calls my attorney and all that stuff i was late
20:32to meet
20:33isaac and do you feel bad about that but i had a phone call with my attorney because that unfortunately
20:40is still grinding on with my ex it's extremely important to tegan that i'd be divorced it's
20:46extremely important to me as well i'm still legally married to someone else that's a big deal
20:52i want to live you out of my life the day that we are legally separate you know i pray
20:58for that day
20:58to come very quickly every day you already have a place up there or what's going to be your first
21:05steps when you move up there get my job going and move in i kind of hate to go because
21:12of you guys but
21:13at the same time i have to i can't stay maybe it'll work out maybe it won't but you can't
21:18kill yourself
21:19trying to make it if it's not what she wants i think that it will it just can't work if
21:24i'm down
21:24here yeah yeah isaac is very protective of me because of everything that happened with my ex
21:31i completely understand that me and isaac have always been very close he doesn't want to see me
21:36get hurt go on a limb again and he also loves having me here in georgia and he doesn't want
21:42me to
21:42leave so it feels like you just got down here sucks that you have to leave so soon yeah we
21:49have
21:49montana though too it's gonna be good to get out there and see what environment mariah's living in
21:53well you know i asked tegan to come to montana she is coming oh she is i didn't know that
22:01pretty soon here i'm going to see mariah in montana with isaac and kailyn i had just mentioned
22:06tegan that i'd really like her to come just because me and her could spend some time together
22:11just like break the ice again a little bit maybe you know as friends or whatever i'm really happy i
22:19was hoping that she would come she'll be out there the whole time yeah she'll be out there for maybe
22:25two
22:26days well i'm glad you're happy i've noticed some distinctive patterns when it comes to him and tegan
22:36and his mood changes he's so fun to be around when everything's fine with him personally but
22:41sometimes his personality fades he's not as not as happy i hate that i'm not going to go out to
22:48montana and just have my face in my ass because i'm sad about something that doesn't even directly
22:55affect me i'm just going to go out there and have fun i'm trying not to get my hopes up
23:00too much
23:02it's just one of the things you got to do because you want to have that question in the back
23:05of your
23:06head if you could have made it work i guess i'm not trying to upset ethan he likes her i
23:14want to
23:14respect him and make sure he knows that i'll support him whatever he does but if i can see something
23:18that i don't think is a good idea it pains me to just sit back and watch him i'm not
23:22really doing
23:23much different with kailyn after the breakup i've always gotten her flowers done nice things for her and
23:28i always will but i guess i gotta give her more reassurance what do you plan on doing differently
23:35to make sure it works i don't know i'm just gonna try my best
23:53look we have some nice really hot embers in there finally already starting up again we spent thanksgiving
24:00with the whole family and lydia and i decided to stay here at the farm kim she's great she's a
24:06great
24:06host oh no but she has a lot of things in her life that she has to deal with and
24:13she's a great host too
24:14and she's a great host and she's you know very hospitable but at the same time you don't know when
24:20she may be talking behind your back or just dealing with her own problems and i think a lot
24:26of times with kim it's just how's it going how's the weather like very surface level so yeah
24:35i heard ethan was coming over did you want to get some time with him before he leaves that's kind
24:40of the plan we're working on his new yorker together athan is moving to wisconsin hoping to get back
24:47together with tegan and zach wanted to know where he's at it's hard to make a wise decision when you're
24:55in a hard place yeah like if you don't have a healthy example of healthy relationships how are
25:03you going to cultivate a healthy relationship yeah zach's kind of the only one who's wanting to
25:10and willing to you know talk to ethan about his decision and why he's moving and everything
25:15you're going to show him how it's done well hey even how's it going i have had very little
25:32experience with cars better replace all these belts see how shredded it is oh yeah i think
25:39the first rule of thumb somebody shows up to work on a car in a white sweater
25:53um you want to come over here and hold this yeah i always
25:59all right right there okay uh hold it there okay yep
26:07so frustrating because i can't leave for wisconsin until this thing is running
26:13yeah so i just don't necessarily know tegan too well well she's an amazing mother probably the most
26:19patient kind loving person i've ever met all right you can release the tension okay pull it up
26:31we just have one more belt here or are we just putting that same one back yeah no i'm just
26:35gonna put that same one back on well i guess i just i know you guys kind of went back
26:46and forth quite
26:47a bit last year and obviously a lot was going on yeah because i feel like that's quite the commitment
26:54to
26:54go out there to show her that you care about her and do all that stuff and
27:01moving across the country is a massive decision i mean i did it so
27:07if me and tegan get back together i know we're not ever going to break up again
27:13i am like deeply irritated but i tried to hide my irritation just keep it
27:18inside where no one would see it and answer the questions without really answering the questions
27:25even if i move all the way out there we never get back together that's still a risk i'm willing
27:30to
27:30take yeah
27:34i think what i've come to recognize with uh lydia i mean just how she speaks but also just some
27:40of
27:40the plasts in general is that they may be short-winded but they get to the point as as much
27:44as there is
27:45guard that he does have up i i personally think he's still answering my questions i i've heard things
27:52but i don't know obviously how true they are just around you know a lot of money you've spent with
28:00her and you giving a lot and her not necessarily giving in return or something like that so
28:09i don't know where zach heard that from yeah that stuff just pisses me off
28:19i know those concerns have gone around and i'm not how sure how true they are that's why i want
28:23to
28:23talk to you about them but there's stuff that zach was asking me that i haven't even talked to
28:29mike and isaac about and if i haven't talked to them about i'm certainly not going to talk to zach
28:35about
28:47that i know those concerns have gone around and i'm not sure how true they are that's why i want
28:51to talk to you about them but i've seen and heard ethan just be hurt he's had a lot of
28:58ups and downs
28:58with tegan in terms of them breaking up and getting back together and just some concern just as someone
29:05from the outside and i know lydia cares very deeply about him and so in the way that she cares
29:11for
29:11him i also want to show that i care and um that we just don't want to see him hurt
29:17again families
29:18always only see one side yeah you know i mean i did i did help degan when she needed it
29:26and i don't
29:27regret that i'd do it again that's not like tegan forced me to do anything i did because i wanted
29:32to
29:34and that's just life sometimes you pour a bunch into a relationship and it doesn't work out but
29:38i don't think it's ever gonna work out if you don't pour into it so whatever who cares you know
29:43that stuff you do in a relationship for someone else you know like i as a guy i might think
29:49like oh
29:49you know i fixed this for you or i already gave you you know gave you money so you could
29:54have
29:55you know have extra or get your car fixed or something like that and i think like oh i did
30:00a lot well for
30:00her she's probably looking at that like sure he did that but you know he's told me four times
30:05that he would move and then when that time comes he's not here right so it goes both ways yeah
30:12sounds like you're going out there to figure it out together which is which is good i just don't
30:16want to sit here and never know always wonder if no that's fair clarity is huge like all of that
30:25well actually i've got to put the drain plug and oil filter back on before we dump oil no that's
30:32fair
30:34based off of our conversation i just feel like ethan is just confused about his direction on whether
30:40or not tegan and him are going to end up together i feel like he he's looking for the quick
30:44fix i wish it
30:46was that easy but it's not right in the five eights there's this proving that he has for her
30:52because he disappointed her so many times by not showing up for her and so the way he shows up
30:58is
30:58he moves across the country for her and does everything he can for her put all this in i think
31:05in getting that she might not give anything back and that's the thing about situationships is what i
31:12would call it there's that back and forth and you never know when you're going to give and never
31:16know when you're going to take and if you take then you have to make up for what you take
31:20and if you
31:21give you don't know if you're getting anything back and so that's why commitment is necessary in
31:27relationship well it sounds like you're uh pretty set on trying to figure things out which is good
31:39that's okay zach is not the only one that's talked to me or shone interest in me moving to wisconsin
31:45i've talked to all my family members lydia and zach were i think one of the last ones that i
31:50told
31:55the only concern that my any of some of my family members have voiced is like just take care of
32:02yourself don't don't go get yourself hurt again which you know it's completely understandable
32:07it's cool to just get some more time with you especially after you know
32:16a not ideal first meeting yeah
32:22lydia and i are experiencing a joy with each other that i don't feel ethan has experienced for a very
32:26long time i haven't seen a very pure smile from him i feel like ever i think he still has
32:34a lot of
32:35baggage from his marriage this is the best way that i can show that i care
32:43i just don't feel like he sees that i think my intentions are often misunderstood
32:57i've missed tegan very dearly and i'm like just really anxious to hit the road
33:01i'm ready to get out of here get up there see tegan
33:08hell yeah hello welcome i was very excited to fly with tegan i thought ethan and i should have separate
33:17rooms because i don't think friends share like hotel rooms together or living spaces like that
33:48i was very excited to fly with tegan
33:52drove up to wisconsin got to wisconsin that night and then i met her at the airport and
33:57we flew out and by the time we made it to montana it was still an hour drive to the
34:03lodge and
34:05you know it was very good to see tegan but also it's so different like you just feel the distance
34:10you
34:11know hello hello hello welcome how are you well we finally made it it's really nice i like it
34:20i'm exhausted it all went downhill from like the moment we got on the first plane what happened
34:29well got on our flight and then they grounded the flight for an hour and a half and then we
34:33missed
34:34our flight in denver because of that i don't even know what day it is day friday or saturday
34:38it's friday it's friday yeah just a couple of little fun facts about our little lovely lodge
34:44ethan and i are not together we broke up some months ago i think really what it boiled down to
34:50in our relationship is i put him first and then he also put himself first and so nobody was prioritizing
34:56me and then yeah something sort of changed just inside myself it was like a slap in the face sort
35:04of
35:04almost like i was just like oh my god what am i doing as the montana trip was getting closer
35:12i still hadn't really made up my mind until very last minute but my mind i was like well i'm
35:19willing
35:19to try to be friends with ethan and i think he's willing and open to that too we'll see where
35:27it goes
35:28sorry there's no snow no that's okay we have a bunch back home so you're good ethan told me it's
35:33going to be isaac kaylin mariah him obviously and then i was invited and so i get along great with
35:41all of them um i'm excited for that part i'm excited to go see them the family
35:49okay i feel like spending group time might be easier just because there's other people around and
35:55other conversations to be had oh i don't know if my feet will fit in there where do you want
36:01this
36:02um you can just leave it
36:07well it's really cute in here it is and you're in the cabin right me and tegan are staying in
36:15separate
36:15rooms that was a little emotional for me to walk in the room that she's staying in and there's
36:23stuff for me and her like they assume we're both staying there that's cute it is perfectly fine with
36:30me and it's not an issue but like okay this is where we're at compared to where we were just
36:36a little
36:36sad i thought ethan and i should have separate rooms because i don't think friends share like hotel rooms
36:45together or living spaces like that are you friends yeah i would say we're friends at least i think we
36:53are
36:55what do you think
37:00yeah i guess
37:06there's a letter
37:23there's a bunch of coupley things they made a mistake you know whatever i'm not upset about it
37:28it is what it is but it is a little harder for him than it is for me
37:33ethan teagle wears happy you are here for a stay enjoy the robes for your stay
37:42ethan definitely is sad or depressed but i definitely like
37:47agree with my boundaries so i don't feel bad or sad about it at all
37:53you should probably grab your stuff then too oh that's all sweet so you can have it no okay
38:08traveling was very nice it was the first time in a long time that i had
38:13got to spend any time with you
38:16but it was also very emotional yeah why were you emotional
38:23because it was a long travel day were you tired
38:34no it's just emotional because i love you and it's hard to
38:40i don't know it's just a lot of feelings
38:43a lot of them i don't know what to do with they don't have a home or a place to
38:47go like you know
38:53i don't know you said you're good with wherever our relationship is even if that's what if we're
39:17it is like a it's a language of sorts that's beyond what we understand like through a portal
39:35i don't know if it's not going to work it's not going to work
39:41tegan's being kind of distant from ethan and he was so excited about her being out here
39:47so i understand if he's sad i don't know if it's not going to work it's not going to work
39:52and we're out come on why come to a whole different state with your ex-boyfriend and his
40:00family if you're not necessarily going to like kind of make that effort the last straw that sort
40:08of broke the camel's back of our relationship would be when i went to celebrate his birthday
40:14with him the ice was already thin at that point he was just acting really weird i was looking at
40:21and it was like i was seeing my ex