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Temptation Island - Season 7 - Episode 07 EngSub
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00:06I
00:16Wasn't like a really reassuring video. I
00:19Just didn't like how her message was like I mean this with love and then dove in and she's like
00:23It was like logical like I wish we didn't set such strict boundaries going into this
00:28It's like well she didn't express what she's been working on in this process
00:32She just said like she's been opening up to people more like emotionally and like you know what I mean
00:36like yeah
00:36Which I was just kind of falling into play because what if the rules were reversed in that instance, right?
00:41And like I opened up and she's like what are you doing? Like so it's like you break the rules
00:45And I'm just now you're mad at me because I didn't break him too
00:48Like it's always me taking accountability and saying that Cole did this Cole lied Cole did this
00:52Here's why I lied though. This is what I realized when being here
00:55I had this fear in the relationship fear of losing you fear of hurting you that I've
01:00No longer have it's gone because I'm so just like
01:03Ready to be like free of it that I'm like happy that I'm like babe. I will be so transparent
01:08with you
01:09Felt so much pain in my chest from you here so much sorrow that's like I have nothing else to
01:14give but that's all
01:15You need to just to be so raw with you. Yeah, and I love you that gave me the chills
01:19That's all you need to say that is but if that is not up to the emotional connection that you
01:24need what else do you want me to fucking want that hurts?
01:40If I receive a video today from Mikey, I don't know how I'm gonna feel I never wanted to hurt
01:47him
01:47I came here with Mikey. I expected to leave with Mikey, but I realized I
01:52Have given Mikey ample opportunity to put me first
01:56At this point, it's more about Sydney than anything
02:09Hey, babe
02:11These last couple weeks have been hell and I've thought of you every single day
02:15From what I've seen on your journey. I'm left confused and in pain and it sucks
02:19I've been working on trying to be the man that I want to be for myself
02:22But also for you and working on my emotional growth to bring that back into our relationship. I
02:27Believe we can work past all of this Sydney. I promise you we can and
02:32And as always keep the main thing the main thing I love you today. I'll love you more tomorrow. I'll
02:37see you soon
02:47I
02:48Genuinely feel like I've heard all these things before I'm like no like this. I'm not doing that anymore
02:52I'm not doing the whole we're moving past it. We're not moving past it. It's the same cycle. I
02:57Wish you know ill but at the end of the day, you're just not my person in a relationship aspect
03:02It was just like I've been prioritizing our relationship this whole time
03:07But I also feel like it's too late
03:10At the end of the day, I've seen better like I've seen that literally experience we've all seen better experience
03:16better from the jump like a big birthday
03:20Too little too late. Yeah, it's a little too late
03:34I
03:34I truly don't know if Sydney's gonna send me a message because I don't know what she's been through over
03:38there. I only see
03:39Clips and so I haven't seen what Sydney's actually feeling emotionally
03:45Yes, we went through some shit, but I just really just need to work passes where and I know we
03:49can I got pray
04:02Mikey
04:03We came here with concerns and problems that we thought could just be fixed and coming here and learning myself
04:13It's time for me to focus on me to make the main thing the main thing
04:20I've never been that for myself and in doing that I know what I deserve
04:27I know that I'm worth so much more than what I'm getting I
04:30I have literally made myself smaller so you could shine
04:36And I'm not doing that anymore. I
04:39Realize that the bare maximum is the bare minimum. I've found so much clarity and that's exactly what I want
04:45for you. I wish you the best
04:53Trying so hard to say
05:00Give me something to
05:03Believe
05:08The maximum is the minimum. I'm just like Brock
05:11Sydney, I'll give you anything you need in this world
05:14There's a chance that I won't leave here was and there's a chance that should leave here without me
05:20It's pissing me off
05:25I didn't know what the fuck I was getting myself into
05:27I said I won't fucking coming
05:56I do not want to receive a video message from Jack
05:58I do not want to receive a video message from Jack
05:59I
06:00Don't think he has it in him to apologize and I would rather just not see his face or hear
06:06his voice
06:18I
06:18I miss you with all my heart
06:21I can't even express it into words
06:26I've hurt you in the past and I've hurt you recently and we've hurt each other but it's something that
06:31I know that we can overcome
06:34It isn't healthy we both deserve better
06:38In the past I know I've been emotionally unavailable and it's something that I want to fix
06:43No matter how this ends for us
06:45I just want you to know that I'm in full support of whatever you choose and I love you with
06:50all my heart in this life and the next
06:51And I forgive you for everything
06:57Okay
06:58Oh my god
07:01You forgive me?
07:03What the fuck do you forgive me for?
07:06Like you cheated on me first
07:09Liar, liar
07:12This video does give me proof that I have outgrown Jack because it didn't bring back any of the emotions
07:18that I thought it was gonna bring me
07:20I don't know how to put it, but I think I knew that coming into this that I had already
07:25outgrown him
07:26It was just getting him away from me
07:28Could this man like try and manipulate me any harder?
07:31He's like what did he say?
07:32He's like I love you in this lifetime and the next
07:35Shut up
07:37No
07:37With no consequences
07:39Wait I like actually can't believe him
07:41Is he real?
07:43He like cheats on me and then he's like I love you so much
07:45Like I'm learning how to be by myself
07:48Um, you're the best thing that's ever happened to me like please
07:51We'll make it out
07:53I hope to be with you like bro
07:55We'll make it out?
07:56It is so crazy
07:59Oh my god
08:00He looks like a fool bro
08:13I hope with all my heart she sends me a video
08:15I really want to know how she truthfully feels
08:17The history that we have is something that
08:19You can't ignore and you can't fake
08:22I don't want her to hold resent towards me
08:24And I'll never hold like be resentful towards her
08:27At the end of the day
08:27I don't want to be on bad terms there at all
08:29Because I didn't spend five years with her for nothing
08:42It's what I expected
08:45But
08:48Just gotta accept it
08:50It's all good
08:50If you're gonna do it
08:52Just do it
08:55Pull the trigger
08:58Pull the trigger
08:58Opening the box and seeing nothing
09:01My heart sank to my
09:04My balls
09:06It's a tough feeling
09:08Not getting a message is just
09:10Playing out like I'm gonna be straight up with you
09:15You've moved on
09:16And I'm okay with it
09:18Because I can't
09:21Control it
09:22And I feel like that's where mine and Cheyenne's
09:24Relationship went down hills
09:25When I was trying to control her
09:27To stay with me
09:29Wait she's already back
09:30I can't do it with sneakers instead of
09:31Oh shit
09:36He walked right past
09:37He walked right past
09:38Aw
09:38I just want her to be happy
09:40And I haven't been that
09:41I haven't been her happiness
09:42And I know that now
09:45What happened?
09:46What do you think happened?
09:48Wait what happened?
09:48There was no sooner?
09:49Nope
09:50Oh
09:51How do you feel?
09:52I mean
09:54I know where we stand I guess now
09:56I guess it's just time for Jack to show out
09:59In a different light
10:01I feel like she took away your personality
10:03Yeah my personality was gone
10:05Your personality was in a box
10:06And then as soon as you got in here
10:07You unlocked and opened the box
10:09And now we're like
10:10Why would you ever want to put yourself back in that box?
10:12I haven't stood on business for five years dude
10:14I'm not putting up with that bullshit
10:16Here we go
10:17Finally
10:18Somebody lit the flame of the air
10:19Yeah
10:19No no
10:20I'm not doing it anymore bro
10:22I need to like
10:23Embrace myself in life a little bit more
10:25I'll get a lot farther
10:26Yeah you will
10:40What's up everybody?
10:41Hey
10:42What's up Mark?
10:42How you doing?
10:43You know
10:44I'm just here to check on the girls
10:45See how things are going
10:53What's up everybody?
10:54Oh
10:55Hey
10:56I don't know
10:57Really just want to talk to the boys for a few minutes
10:59Won't be long
11:00Let's go out on the deck guys
11:04Um
11:05You're waiting for me to say we have a bonfire
11:07Yeah
11:07Yeah
11:08Take a breath
11:11Tonight
11:13I've got another outing for you
11:17It's not quite the same outing as last time
11:20Oh
11:23What are we doing?
11:24What are you thinking?
11:26I don't know guys night sounded fun
11:28Well it is kind of a guys night
11:30Your outing is that you guys are going to go to the other villa
11:36What?
11:37You're lying
11:38This is shocking
11:40Are the guys going to be there?
11:41That's a good question
11:43Any other questions?
11:45Are the girlfriends there?
11:47Also a good question
11:50You know how in the house here there's a vibe?
11:52Yeah
11:53When I walk in I can sense the vibe
11:55I know what's going on
11:56And that tells me a lot of what's happening here
11:58Well there's a vibe at the other villa
12:00This is a chance for you to experience what that vibe is
12:03I think you're going to have to just get on this ride and ride the ride
12:05I'm waiting, let's do it
12:07Let's do it
12:07I think it's important that I don't tell you any more than I've told you
12:10And I'm going to ask that you trust me
12:13And see if there's something for you to learn there
12:16Okay Mark
12:17All right guys
12:18I did not see this coming
12:20What if I go there and Kaylee still is there?
12:22Then I have to talk to her
12:23Do I hug her?
12:24Do I cry?
12:25Do I say she's hurting me?
12:26He just said we're going there
12:27And we don't know if the guys are there
12:30We don't know if our girlfriends are there
12:31He wouldn't even tell us if our girlfriends are coming here
12:33There's so many thoughts racing through my head
12:37I don't like this at all
12:38Did you hear?
12:39No
12:40Barely
12:40We're going to the other villa
12:42You guys are going to the other villa?
12:44Yes
12:44Oh my god
12:45I don't know what we're walking into
12:47Are the girls going to be in the house
12:49Are the guys going to be in the house?
12:50Is it just going to be us in the house?
12:51I'm very confused
12:52It's all coming down
12:54It's all coming down
12:59Every second and moment
13:03Yeah you gotta hold it
13:07I'm not a confrontational person
13:09I ain't Andy
13:12Bounce
13:12Or if she's not down
13:14I'd love to just write her a note
13:15This is super pillow kiss
13:28oh we also don't know who's in here so
13:33what are the rooms
13:36you lose this one i came right to this one i didn't go to a single other bedroom
13:56walked in the crib and i found less here we go guys you guys want to see it
14:11oh so he be in here oh he moved his shit in too i've got punched in my gut sydney
14:17moved
14:17on i have evidence that she moved on i've shown my emotions i've grown i came in here trying
14:24to learn more about my fucking relationship and the whole fucking time my relationship
14:28is fucking over i felt played why she played me so yeah damn
14:36i don't even know how to feel about this she left these out on purpose
14:43i don't even know what i'm looking for did she hide her shit you think i feel like a psychopath
14:47right now this is my notebook you found hers i do you even want to read that
14:55should i i don't know that's between like you and scarlet if i found
15:00kaylee's i i wouldn't read it but that's just because i don't want to
15:06you think she'll get mad that i read this though i don't i don't know i mean kaylee
15:11what if i put it back in the same place what if this is in our bonfire though
15:14i don't know yeah i i don't know that's between you two
15:26yep i have one in my pocket too didn't you say i don't know she wrote a letter to bradley
15:31what was this hey i mean a whole lot of shit talks about me not being good like us being
15:36done and done and everything actually yeah
15:39i mean there's stuff in there about cheating and just her cheating i don't think she has but
15:48it's like something she contemplates she says bradley makes her
15:53this makes me sick i'm so pissed bro
16:09no way okay i'm feeling the vibes ew the vibes in here suck they don't care to our vibes
16:17it's not good vibes no bad vibes like it's like negative energy let's go into jack's
16:25okay we have a home this we have a family this is a trap house yeah this is my suitcase
16:33honestly
16:33fuck that i don't give a fuck let's see what he's got going on y'all bathroom piss all over
16:39the seat
16:40please should i take his cologne i hate every bit of seeing where it went down with jack and his
16:48new
16:48little fling i'm taking his cologne yeah you can either take it or we can dump it but honestly it
16:55didn't bring me the sad emotions that i thought it would um this house sucks yeah this is cole's room
17:01how do you feel this is like so cole he's like so tidy this is exactly where they were sitting
17:12for their little conversation can we have a combo because you know like honestly like
17:19we just vibe if you were to be with me then i need you to be more serious like i
17:23can't take
17:24the jokes and shit you gotta tone that shit yeah yeah his room smells weird
17:32so summit bro he's gone through the whole bottle this man has been drenching himself
17:39i'm just gonna spray it all out emptying the bottle she's emptying his yeah she should
17:49love you miss you oh my gosh i need to see this too here's the photo shut up oh they're
18:01not having
18:02near as much fun as us why is sydney doing that shit kaylee's coming in a photo booth with four
18:07dudes
18:08the first thing she said to me in her video message today the thing that stood out the most is
18:13she said
18:13i cannot wait for you to see how much i've changed seriously i need to
18:22kaylee in my mind is this cute adorable classy lady like it's just not what i'm used to seeing
18:28and it it fucks with my head wait where's jack and the girl he's with is that fucking what's his
18:34name
18:34is that bradley yeah wait i don't see any of cole i don't see one all right let's take a
18:40photo
18:40together boys right here okay you guys we have to show them i want to plaster them all over the
18:45house no in every single room of the house okay okay
18:57print that shit where should we put these that they will see it as soon as they walk in
19:03these are fire damn we look good wait i'm upset
19:10take me back to the career bro we came into this like so hyped and excited god we're so much
19:16better
19:17than them yeah in every way possible
19:21i just had no idea like the emotions that were gonna come up going into kaylee's room like honestly
19:27i just felt like a psychopath going through there and then it's like yeah you're so emotional yeah
19:36i looked through a journal and i wish i could tell her that now because i don't want her to
19:39think
19:39i'm like a liar being deceitful but like i shouldn't have gone through it but it's like
19:44i saw shit in there that i mean gave me a lot of answers but i shouldn't have gone through
19:51it
19:56i was hoping to see photos of cole like having fun and you know diving into the experience but
20:01he's just like nope i am just resisting everything i'm not doing anything and it's like you're missing
20:09the point we're home thank god i love it here such a good vibe wait i want to check our
20:24photo booths
20:25now dude they ripped oh are you kidding me they ripped our photos oh my god that's not very
20:40nice let's go to our rooms not friendly
20:49and my blue boo boo is flipped over they took they took my shit with they oh i'm pissed
21:02dude my journal was gone through
21:06how do you know because it was i hit it what what do you mean i hit it was it
21:14moved yes we have
21:16a rule at home that like do not touch my journal i feel like i have made that so clear
21:22so like i'm
21:24just in my head i'm like there's no way that cole would do that would he really unzip a suitcase
21:30in
21:30my closet and dig under my clothes and pull out my journal i really don't think he would because
21:41like that's just like a respect to me
21:47are you serious jack took all my photos of me and Preston every photo of me and Preston is gone
21:53the
21:54one of us kissing is gone that's it that's all i have i don't even know which ones i had
21:58left
21:58yes i set them out so he could see them but he took them and that's what pisses me off
22:04so i guess
22:06i should have put them away but i just didn't think that he would go that low
22:11i retaliated off of what he did to me and i think he's forgetting that
22:16so he literally cheated on me why is he flipping off the camera i don't get it
22:21why are the girls even here oh wait oh wait let's see the photo booth oh damn why don't they
22:41put
22:41pictures right there well i guess they're less petty than we are what they do they didn't do
22:47anything oh they're is this their are these recent photos oh shit they took a lot of
22:53they look pretty happy what they look like they're living their best life my girl's ass
23:03that's my girl's ass so we left one photo we're just flipping them off and then they send a bunch
23:08like this is like a war oh hey how was it all of our photos are gone that were in
23:28my room no what
23:30jack took them all i'm pissed oh no way literally any photo i'm in like with a group of guys
23:36was ripped
23:37in half that is like mad personally why would they do that it's just me and my friends this is
23:41what
23:41was on top i didn't even leave that on top i left a picture of me and you on top
23:49the favorite one is still here we're good my favorite picture is gone you can have my favorite picture
23:57so
24:03mikey why is your face like that what why why do you look like this
24:08what happened what happened just look around guys just look around they were here oh
24:15you're kind of cute so the pictures we saw of them and that photo booth was it wild oh worse
24:24whose girlfriend is that mikey's
24:32she filled my head up with love and all this other stuff and i'm just like damn like
24:38my feelings are hurt
24:42i have a great personality i'm a great person i don't know why i just feel really tricked into
24:50coming here because i just wanted to be i just thought we were going to be better that's all
24:55it's fucking me up because i really didn't care about sydney
24:58and i'm saying she doesn't care about me and her hurts
25:06look at what you have done gone and made a fool out of me lost it all all at once
25:18i don't want to take it back
25:19good night good night
25:22meet you up with ron all right i'll meet you there
25:24said it was real what a lie
25:31smell bad
25:32i had to breathe
25:44i don't want to sleep in a room by myself i can't sleep i know no i get it bro
25:50if our bonfire clips are just us over at their house like snooping around i'm like dude that's
25:55gonna look so dumb you know yeah i hope she doesn't take me as going through her journal as being
26:02like
26:02deceitful it's probably like something that would be the final straw between us i don't know
26:07i'll watch my world fall apart
26:31oh my god
26:35i've seen kaylee grow like tremendously the walls are down she's realizing what she's worth she's
26:40having fun don't touch me i'm really trying to be more like positive on life and just not get in
26:48those ruts where i just get angry for no reason oh and he helps bring that side out of me
26:54so happy
26:55fresh fresh fresh like the way you make me feel baby wait slow down
27:02obviously this island like shines all the light on like all the holes in your relationship but
27:08i think that's part of the reason i asked julianne out on this date there's not like one thing that
27:11i would
27:12change or like say she needs to work on like she's just awesome
27:22there it is there we go there it is i still feel the same way about scarlett um i still
27:28love her very
27:29much but i don't know where her head's at and i won't know until i look her in the eyes
27:32so you
27:34know i took lexi she's been a great support system and someone i can talk to you know i'm just
27:38trying
27:38not to worry too much about what i can't control or what the future holds just live in the present
27:42and
27:43move on in the best light oh
28:00not even speaking it feels so natural pinch me i'm dreaming oh my god
28:12what's been your favorite part of the experience so far i don't know i think this takes first
28:18place yeah preston is just like constantly reminding me of like what i deserve and i don't know i just
28:27feel
28:27like giddy and like happy i feel like i've grown a lot 100 i can see that like i mean
28:45from just the
28:46difference between day one and now yeah i'm glad i could be there for you i mean i know lots
28:51happened
28:51yeah yesterday was stressful honestly like waiting all day for the video message i feel like i got like
28:58so in my head and like started to like self-doubt everything yeah and i just i hope summit uses
29:05the
29:05rest of his time in the villa to like reflect because i feel like all he's really been doing is
29:09just like
29:09having fun and partying and i don't know if he's like growing as a person and i feel like i
29:16know what i
29:16want but i don't know if he knows what he wants i want summit to take the relationship more seriously
29:22i want him to want to do those acts of love for me without me asking i want him to
29:29want to take me
29:30out to dinner and do special things with me like those are easy changes that i need to see and
29:37i need
29:37to see him wanting that and i want him to explain to me what he thinks our future is we
29:44still have
29:45some stuff to unpack from the past before we just move on 100 percent
29:59cheers to my first massage cheers
30:06i didn't want to check in with you and just see like how you're doing through this whole thing because
30:09from what i've seen like you've been way happier than when i saw you when you first walked into the
30:16house i remember our first conversation i was just like yeah i don't want to be here like i i
30:20love jack
30:21like jack's my person and now i'm like that man literally literally that man like i just don't even
30:27see him as like a good person anymore right like him coming into our villa and like ripping everything
30:32off the walls it just really goes to show like what type of like a little boy i was dealing
30:37with
30:38i think that that just like flipped a switch like in my brain that was like i really like i
30:43just don't
30:44owe this man anything i feel like once we like started talking and we started taking things more
30:49serious like time's just going by so fast it's like i don't want to leave and i'm excited to see
30:56where this goes inside of here and potentially outside of here so i think we'll take a step in
31:03the right direction each and every day and i hope that we can continue to build on it it's been
31:08amazing
31:08thank you for the massage
31:21so this is our third date no there's flowers in front of the house i was gonna pick you some
31:26but i was like i want to be weird flowers are cute everything you do is like it's cute you
31:32know you do
31:33you think about the little small things and i would say that i appreciate that because a lot of guys
31:39are
31:39more super surface yeah i mean i'm i'm surface level when it comes to other people but like
31:44with you it's just like you just make it easy like i'm more into one of my emotions because of
31:50you
31:50not even on like a romantic level because we haven't even been like romantic yet so i would
31:55really say like you helped me grow as a person before i can really because because like if i'm not
32:01whole as an individual i don't think i can be whole for somebody else right and i truly feel like
32:05you
32:06helped me there like i'm the only big personality in my family really yeah i don't believe that like
32:11besides like my dad but he's a lawyer so he knows how to turn it on and off like i
32:15haven't i'm learning
32:16that now like from you and like i'm really appreciative you have been i try i try sometimes
32:22you've been turning it on and off i just played with you i did
32:40oh my god this is crazy everything about this is crazy
32:47the stars are aligned literally like this this was predestined i feel like there's a whole world
32:54out here and there's like a man out here that's willing to give you everything from the jump
32:57and it's like you shouldn't have i shouldn't have to like settle and i felt like i was settling so
33:02the bare maximum should be is the bare minimum literally i have been going through that whole cycle
33:08of feelings expecting more deserving for more like asking for more from mikey and it's like i never
33:15got that and it's like i feel like if i didn't hate you i would still be in that same
33:19cycle of like oh
33:20he'll change oh he'll do better and it's like in reality it's like i was wait i was wishing on
33:24a star
33:25that was never gonna shoot like it was never gonna come true so i just really appreciate you thank you
33:34oh xavier makes me feel like rainbow's butterflies in sunshine like i just have such a giddy feeling
33:42when i'm around him i'm realizing that i can have it all i can have everything that i deserve and
33:50knowing
33:51that i'm not asking for too much honestly i haven't felt like this in a really long time
33:57oh that looks so cute i like that toesies all right now to commemorate this we gotta do a little
34:03little handshake a little handshake don't you think i think so bow bow bow bow snap snap up lock down
34:17i love it i love it i love it i love it
34:53i'm just really glad that
34:54i like found you in this experience because i've been trying to figure out just like what
34:59my journey is and how to learn from myself and you've just been such like a big part of that
35:06yeah i feel like i have gotten so close to you and i've gotten to know you so much
35:12in such a short period of time and i didn't expect to find somebody that has like
35:16such a beautiful soul here oh thank you yeah i i feel the same way you know when i'm the
35:22happiest
35:23and in the best headspace here it's when i'm like going on dates with you hanging out with you makes
35:29me happy your smile makes me happy like you're just you're good people thank you hearing that from
35:36you makes me really happy the sun sets like any other day but this time everything has changed
35:45i feel like if i met you in the real world i would be so lit up by hanging out
35:50with you
35:51i didn't expect to connect with somebody this much and
35:56yeah i don't know if we're in the real world i would be very excited about well that makes me
36:02excited like that's what it is and then you kind of have to like evaluate if like i know
36:07things change or like what all this means i know but i'm down and also here for you yeah just
36:17i i
36:19appreciate you you know all all of this aside like just you're you're awesome thanks i can't see you
36:30which i need you and i can't help but stare and wonder how all of space and time has brought
36:39us here
36:59this is insane wait he swallowed it are you guys ready to heat things up a little bit i'm ready
37:09ready shake your hips and play with your body feels a little risky to be playing with fire right
37:17now but i'm here for it all right so now put your fire together be centered be safe feel each
37:26other's
37:26presence
37:44the date tonight with jessenia i'm really looking forward to it because i feel like i haven't
37:48ventured out and really gotten to know her coming into the house i i cling to carter but i wanted
37:54to
37:54learn more about me and get a different like look on things from somebody else
38:04i'm loving you
38:10learning you loving you
38:13loving you
38:15loving you
38:29Cheers to igniting our flame.
38:32Igniting our flame.
38:34Cheers.
38:36I feel like it was really symbolic just because even the other night at the bonfire, like,
38:40Mark asked me something, and I just said, I just want something that sets my soul on fire.
38:46Yeah.
38:46We're getting so close to the end, and it's like, I'm just coming to all of these realizations.
38:53It's like, I don't know the right decision.
38:56And it's like, okay, do I stay in something where I don't feel fully seen, where there
39:04isn't trust, where that depth isn't there, or do you find something that's, like, more
39:12aligned?
39:13The depth, is this something that you...
39:15I crave.
39:17You crave and you can't.
39:18Like, I need it.
39:19Like, I need someone to, like, meet me there.
39:21Yeah.
39:25I don't know.
39:26I don't know what to do.
39:30I don't want to play games.
39:34I don't want to turn away.
39:46They're right here.
39:49Can you change?
39:50Yeah.
39:52Sleep in my bed tonight.
39:53Okay.
40:11Who's the best kisser in the house, honestly speaking?
40:13You can tell.
40:13You are.
40:14Bro?
40:15Yeah.
40:16Good luck.
40:17Falling in, letting go.
40:22Original sin, getting too close.
40:27Got me waiting, and you know.
40:33Exactly what we do, when you say we should, we do it to the day.
40:46What's up?
40:47What's up?
40:47What's up?
40:47Hello.
40:48How are we doing?
40:49Here we go.
40:49Right there.
40:51Hi, Mark.
40:52Hi.
40:52Hi, Mark.
40:53Hi, you guys.
40:54We're going to have another bonfire.
40:55All right.
40:56So, spent today thinking about what you want to talk about, what answers you're still searching for.
41:02Just want to remind you, we're getting closer to a decision about what you want the rest of your life
41:05to be.
41:06You'll be faced with some big decisions coming up soon.
41:09So, hopefully this bonfire will shed some light on that.
41:12As always, you've got my support.
41:14Do what you got to do to get your head in the right place, and I'll see you tonight.
41:18All righty.
41:20Well, there you go.
41:21I will see you tonight.
41:22All righty.
41:23See you then.
41:23My heart just dropped.
41:25So did I do.
41:25All righty.
41:28Oh, my God.
41:29I did not expect to see him right there.
41:31No, my heart.
41:33It's like, at this point, it's just like, it's like torture.
41:36You know what I'm saying?
41:37I'm just smiling through my pain.
41:39It's not going to be good for any of us.
41:42Oh, my God.
41:43Ooh.
41:45Mm.
41:46I want to cry.
41:47I'm not happy about this one.
41:49This one could really change everything for me.
41:52Can't deny I've got inside.
41:54But I know I'll never be free.
41:58I tried to find it ready to be.
42:02Because I know I'm so breathing the toxic.
42:08You'll wonder how far I get back before I break.
42:16What's going on?
42:16What's up, fellas?
42:21What's up, fellas?
42:24All right.
42:29Welcome back once again to your bonfire.
42:32Before we get into it, let me just let you know, this is going to be the last time you're
42:37going to have a chance to see clips of what's going on on the other side of the island.
42:42After tonight, the next time you're here will be your final bonfire.
42:52We'll start with you, Jack.
42:54Let's take a look.
42:57I remember our first conversation.
42:58I was just like, yeah, I don't want to be here.
43:00Like, I love Jack.
43:02Like, Jack's my person.
43:02And now I'm like, fuck that man.
43:04Literally.
43:05Literally.
43:05Fuck that man.
43:07Like, I just don't even see him as, like, a good person anymore.
43:11I feel like once we, like, started talking and we started taking things more serious, like, time's just going by
43:18so fast.
43:18It's like, I don't want to leave.
43:19And I'm excited to see where this goes inside of here and potentially outside of here.
43:26So, I think we'll take a step in the right direction each and every day.
43:30And I hope that we can continue to build on it.
43:33It's been amazing.
43:34Thank you for the massage.
43:44I mean, it's a little bit of what I expected.
43:46I mean, truthfully, like, how I've been feeling, like, during this journey.
43:50You know, I think being here and, like, going through all this with, like, it's like an emotional rollercoaster.
43:57Um, I think I have the ultimate decision of what I'm going to do moving forward.
44:02And, like, having that conversation with her at the end of this, um, I think we'll be able to mutually
44:09agree on, like, how we go about it.
44:12How do you feel when you hear her kind of run you down like that?
44:16She's done that, like, for as long as I can remember.
44:20I mean, it's sad to say.
44:21I feel like, you know, she hasn't always talked so highly about me.
44:26And I feel like I'm always talking so highly about her.
44:29And what I noticed in, like, a relationship and just getting advice from girls and even the guys and, like,
44:34seeing what they've been through.
44:36Um, it's not normal.
44:37I don't feel like that's a normal thing, especially for someone that you love.
44:41Um, and I feel like overall, I, you know, I just want to focus on me moving forward after this.
44:47And, you know, I want to see, like, where life can take me.
44:50Are you at all uptight about seeing her again?
44:53I want to see her.
44:54A hundred percent, I want to see her.
44:56I want to give her a hug and just tell her I'm sorry and just express how whatever path you
45:01choose in this life, I support you in any way.
45:04There's no bad blood.
45:05I want her to be happy.
45:07And I think we both deserve that at the end of the day.
45:09And do you expect her to receive that hug?
45:12If she doesn't, that's completely fine.
45:14But at the end of the day, I just want her to be happy.
45:16And I just want to be able to tell her how I feel.
45:19All right, Jack.
45:21I look forward to seeing you two have a talk.
45:24Yeah.
45:25Mikey, let's take a look.
45:30The stars are aligned.
45:31Mm-hmm.
45:32Literally.
45:33Like, this was predestined, I feel like.
45:35Mm-hmm.
45:36There's a whole world out here, and there's, like, a man out here that's willing to give you everything from
45:40the jump.
45:40And it's like, you shouldn't have to.
45:42I shouldn't have to, like, settle.
45:43And I felt like I was settling, so.
45:45The bare maximum should be the bare minimum.
45:47Is the bare minimum.
45:48Literally.
45:49I have been going through that whole cycle of feelings, expecting more, deserving for more, like, asking for more from
45:57Mikey.
45:58And it's like, I never got that.
45:59Mm-hmm.
46:00And it's like, I feel like if I didn't hate you, I would still be in that same cycle.
46:03I'm like, oh, he'll change.
46:04Oh, he'll do better.
46:05And it's like, in reality, it's like, I was wishing on a star that was never gonna shoot.
46:09Like, it was never gonna come true.
46:11Mm-hmm.
46:11Bow, bow, growl, snap, snap, up, lock, down.
46:16And it, and it, and it.
46:21I love it.
46:22I love it, I love it, I love it, I love it.
46:24I love it.
46:30Oh, my God.
46:32Baby.
46:33Mm.
46:33Mm.
46:34Mm.
46:46Yeah, um, truthfully, I've given that girl everything.
46:53And the fact that she just lied on that screen like that.
46:57What was the lie?
46:59The lie was saying that I was giving her the bare minimum.
47:02The crazy thing is, she texted my mom and said, Mikey gives me the world.
47:07And I'm so blessed that, that my parents created a man of God that goes so hard for me and
47:14gives me everything that I need in life and supports me to the fullest.
47:18And the fact that I'm looking at her screen right now and she just said, I don't, I give her
47:23the bare minimum.
47:23And I'm looking at that as a slap in the face.
47:28And it hurts you to hear that.
47:30It's really just reaffirming how I feel about everything.
47:32Like, she tricked me into coming here and she told me that, she told me, like, she's the one that
47:37filled me, filled everything in my head of saying that this is going to help us, this is going to
47:41help us, this is going to help us, this is going to help us.
47:43And she keeps proving every single time I come to these bonfires that, that she, she, she just wanted a
47:50public display to get over all of this.
47:53So, yeah.
47:55Let me give you some perspective on that.
47:57Okay.
47:57I think you both came here because things weren't firing on all four cylinders.
48:03There were things that were great and things that weren't great, just like all of the people who come here.
48:07And it appears that the unexpected happened on that side of the island.
48:12So, what I want to acknowledge for you is that whatever's going on here with her, I want you to
48:18just consider it was also unexpected for her and maybe not her intention in coming here.
48:23So, the feeling of being tricked, while it's legitimate to you, may not actually be the truth.
48:29And you've got a lot to talk to her about.
48:32Truthfully, like, where I'm coming from is I want to meet her where she's at and I want to listen
48:37to understand.
48:39I mean, if she's happy, I'm happy.
48:40I love that girl from the bottom of my heart.
48:42I love her with everything in me.
48:44But, it's just hard.
48:46And I get that.
48:48But I think you owe it to yourself to ask the questions about the things that you're confused about.
48:52I think you're allowed to get complete on it so that you can at least walk away knowing that you
48:58said what you needed to say and got the answers to the questions that are confusing you.
49:04Yeah.
49:05That's what's up.
49:06I appreciate you.
49:08I appreciate you.
49:09Summit, you ready?
49:10Yeah.
49:11Let's do it.
49:12Okay.
49:13I think I got, like, so in my head and, like, started to, like, self-doubt everything.
49:18Yeah.
49:18And I just, I hope Summit uses the rest of his time in the villa to, like, reflect.
49:23Because I feel like all he's really been doing is just, like, having fun and partying.
49:27And I don't know if he's, like, growing as a person.
49:31And I feel like I know what I want, but I don't know if he knows what he wants.
49:34I want Summit to take the relationship more seriously.
49:38I want him to want to do those acts of love for me without me asking.
49:43I want him to want to take me out to dinner and do special things with me.
49:49Like, those are easy changes that I need to see, and I need to see him wanting that.
49:54And I want him to explain to me what he thinks our future is.
50:01Paul's in your court.
50:03That was a good one.
50:04That was really good.
50:04That was good.
50:05Yeah.
50:06I mean, that's, that's why we're here.
50:08It's just to figure out our future.
50:12Why don't we start with how that made you feel when you saw it?
50:15Scared.
50:17What's the fear about?
50:19Whether I can give that to her.
50:21Okay.
50:22Let, let's ask a bigger question.
50:24What do you want?
50:26I want to give that to her.
50:28I want her to be the priority of everything.
50:31I, I think you want to want to give that to her.
50:36I know I want that someday.
50:38It's just if I'm ready.
50:40And it's scary to talk about getting married.
50:44We've been together one year.
50:46How long do people, day before they move in and get married?
50:49So, when you feel that you can't live without someone, and every moment you're not with them is not as
50:59good as the moment you're with them, that's when?
51:03Is that supposed to happen in six months?
51:06A year?
51:07It can happen in a week.
51:08Is it, is it okay to, to tell her, like, hey, can we slow down just like a tiny bit?
51:13Yes, it is okay.
51:15But I don't know if she likes that when I say let's slow down a tiny bit.
51:19That's also okay.
51:20So then what do I do?
51:22Be honest.
51:25The best gift you give to the person you love is honesty, right?
51:31Even if you think your honesty may not be what she wants to hear.
51:36And that doesn't make you a bad guy.
51:39You have done nothing wrong.
51:42Can you get that?
51:43Okay, yes.
51:45It's going to be very hard for you because all you've done is try to please others for most of
51:49your life.
51:51Yeah, I mean, that's, my mom always says, stop being such a people pleaser.
51:57Something to consider.
51:58Okay.
52:00Okay, cool.
52:01You've been patient, buddy.
52:04Let's take a look.
52:07We're getting so close to the end and it's like, I'm just coming to all of these realizations.
52:14It's like, I feel like I'm ha, like, I don't know the right decision.
52:19And it's like, okay, do I stay in something where I don't feel fully seen, where there isn't trust, where
52:28that depth isn't there?
52:30Or do you find something that's, like, more aligned?
52:35The depth, is this something that you...
52:38I crave.
52:39You crave and you can't...
52:40Like, I need it.
52:41Like, I need someone to, like, meet me there.
52:44Yeah.
52:45I don't know what to do.
52:51Yeah, I'm not really sure, you know, how to, how to, like, analyze this.
52:58You know, it seems like she's been forming a connection with this guy, Bradley.
53:01And so, I don't know kind of what the answers hold.
53:04We've obviously haven't seen each other for some time now.
53:06So, I don't know if, you know, reconnecting here in a couple days will, you know, feel, feel different, you
53:13know?
53:14But, um, I've heard that conversation before between me and her.
53:18So, it's not, nothing new.
53:20Okay.
53:20So, if the same conversation comes up again when you see her, how's it going to be different this time,
53:25Cole?
53:26You know, I've obviously learned some things here.
53:27And I think I've figured some things out about myself, getting really in tune with my emotions, my raw emotions.
53:32Just, like, really deep, really, like, dug deep here and sat through a lot of pain.
53:38I'm at a point with Scarlett where, you know, I don't have that fear of, you know, just being, like,
53:44raw and just that brutal honesty with her.
53:47And it's great that you don't have that fear anymore, but do you think it might be helpful to tell
53:52her that you did have that fear?
53:55Yeah.
53:56Well, what would happen if you were to have that kind of conversation is called emotional connection.
54:01I want to make you feel safe, but I need to let you know I don't feel safe.
54:05That might be a good start for you, and it may actually be surprising to her to hear you say
54:09that kind of next level of conversation.
54:12Mm-hmm.
54:14Okay.
54:15Do you think that you can have that kind of a conversation with her?
54:18Yeah.
54:18I've been waiting to have it for sure.
54:20Okay.
54:20I'm looking forward to it.
54:21That may make her see you, and then guess what you'll feel?
54:24Safer.
54:25Yeah.
54:25Yeah.
54:26And I don't want to scare you, but I get the sense from what we've seen together that if you
54:32don't show something at that level, you're at risk.
54:35Mm-hmm.
54:36Yeah, for sure.
54:37All right.
54:38You made it through another bonfire, guys.
54:40The next time you sit here at this bonfire, it'll be with the woman you came to the island with.
54:46That's when you'll share your truth, hear hers, and then you'll face your final decision.
54:52Will you leave this island together?
54:54Will you leave with someone else?
54:57Or will you leave alone?
54:59Well, before you head back to the villa, there's one more thing you need to know.
55:05Tonight will be your last night with the single women.
55:08I know you've been building great connections with them.
55:11But tomorrow, their time on the island comes to an end.
55:17Any questions?
55:21I'll see you soon.
55:23Good night, guys.
55:28Pretty much all the bonfire clips have left me feeling hurt or sad to some degree or level.
55:34There's been a disconnect from not being able to see her, and so I'm hoping with seeing her, there'll be
55:39that reconnection and that spark and ultimately, you know, have light at the end of the tunnel.
55:47The idea of seeing shine again is stressful, but I'm going to go into it with full maturity, and there's
55:53no reason to argue or the yelling.
55:56And if that's the case, whatever's going to happen, I'm just telling you, like, if that starts, I'm going to
56:01say, hey, I'm going home alone and walking away.
56:04I wanted to build my forever with Sidney, but I cannot see what I've already seen.
56:08This is my last moments to help me figure out what I want to say and how I want to
56:12move through this conversation that I'm going to have with Sidney, because it's going to be a tough one.
56:17But truthfully, maybe Sidney was not for me.
56:20Like, maybe she was not for me whatsoever.
56:23She just happened.
56:27You know, I don't want Kayleigh to talk down on me.
56:31You know, that's been a problem throughout this process.
56:34And I want Kayleigh to be happy for me when I do the things that make me happy.
56:41And Final Bonfire, I hope just that our love trumps all of the bullshit.
56:50Do you hear me?
56:53Can you feel me?
56:58For the final stand
57:04You only take what you receive
57:09Taste the world and set it free
57:14I want the life you took from me
57:19In the distance that you stand
57:24A broken picture in the sun
57:29A broken picture in the sun
57:44A broken picture in the sun
57:46A broken picture in the sun
57:48A broken picture in the sun
57:49A broken picture in the sun
57:50A broken picture in the sun
57:50A broken picture in the sun
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