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Temptation Island - Season 7 - Episode 06
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00:16To be continued...
00:42To be continued...
01:00You know, if she wanted other stuff, like, it's hard to act like there's not something there.
01:08It's like our bodies want to make some waves.
01:13Oh, I got that sexy song to switch and crave.
01:19You're a giant.
01:21Oh, my God.
01:37Oh, my God.
01:39Good job.
01:40Good job.
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04:01Good job.
04:07This is my life of my house.
04:19Good job.
04:20Yeah, I just want a hug.
04:22I feel like you need a hug really bad.
04:24I deserve better.
04:27I'm not going to settle.
04:29I would rather walk away, because I know
04:32it's never going to change.
04:34Yeah, I know I'm the one to let go.
04:38But it's because I finally know my worth.
04:44Don't you laugh, don't you laugh?
04:46Are you talking about me?
04:47I'll tell you that.
04:50And I was talking about you.
04:51I know you were talking about me.
04:52And I was talking about you.
04:53Yeah, no, no, no, no.
04:55I like Sydney a lot.
04:56And I'm just looking forward to seeing more of a romantic
05:02or potential, like, physical situation.
05:05And we're here.
05:07Something's falling into place.
05:11You're buying a struggle?
05:12I'll sink on my plan, what it changed.
05:20You just needed a hug?
05:22This could be the one you know, you know,
05:25what meant to be, what be.
05:27The kind of love that makes it all look easy.
05:31This could be the future that we made,
05:34all starting with today.
05:36No matter what we do or where we go.
05:41I was wondering when it was going to happen.
05:45But, yeah, it was great.
05:49This love feels like home.
05:51Real.
05:53Real.
06:02I'm fucking crying.
06:03What are you crying about?
06:07Did you just kiss me?
06:08I did, I did.
06:13I could see myself leaving Temptation Island with Xavier.
06:19I'm crying.
06:21Jesus.
06:22You make me nervous.
06:24You make me nervous.
06:26This could be forever.
06:31Hit me.
06:32My water looks so good.
06:33Hit me.
06:34Oh, brother.
06:38Oh, no.
06:39Hi, everybody.
06:40Hi, Mark.
06:41Oh, here we go.
06:43Mark.
06:44There he is.
06:45What's up?
06:46How are you?
06:46What up?
06:51Hi.
06:51Hi.
06:52Hello.
06:53I snuck up on you.
06:55What is it?
06:55Hi, everybody.
06:56How are you?
06:57How are you?
06:58So the reason I dropped by is to let you know,
07:02tonight I'm going to see you at a bonfire.
07:06Should we say it together?
07:08Yeah.
07:08Tonight?
07:09You have another bonfire.
07:11Tonight's another bonfire.
07:15We're getting down to it.
07:17And now, well, the stakes are higher.
07:21Right?
07:23So, you got the rest of the day to kind of get your head around that.
07:26It's not something you should dread.
07:28It's actually, there's a point where you start leaning into it
07:32because it's less comfortable to not know than it is to get the answers that you need.
07:36Right?
07:37Even if it's painful to see it.
07:39The only way out is through it.
07:43I look forward to talking to you guys.
07:45All right.
07:45See you.
07:46Thank you, Mark.
07:47You're right.
07:48Thank you, Mark.
07:49Take it easy on us, Mark.
07:51I'll take it as it comes.
07:54I don't know why I'm like so anxious for this one.
07:56I know.
07:57I know.
07:57I have like a pit in my stomach that I haven't had.
08:00Me too.
08:00I can just see where what I've seen could escalate and that's what's freaking me out.
08:04Yeah.
08:06Yeah, it gives you like a sick feeling for sure.
08:08Yeah.
08:14I know, dude.
08:15I can't keep doing shit.
08:17I know.
08:17We're ready for this.
08:19Yeah.
08:19We've got this.
08:20And we got each other.
08:21Yeah.
08:22Most importantly.
08:23Yep.
08:23Look at it.
08:25One, two, three.
08:26Bonfire.
08:27Yeah.
08:27Oh, God.
08:28It's the worst cheer I've ever been a part of.
08:30It sucks.
08:31Ah.
08:44I'm not worried about what Jack's going to see.
08:47He's going to see me making out with Preston.
08:49He's going to see me going into the Haven with Preston.
08:51He's going to see me and Preston having a sleepover.
08:53And I can't wait.
08:56Holding on for hope.
08:59But it's a slippery, slippery slope.
09:03The first two bonfires, they haven't been comparable to some of the other guys.
09:08But I think going into every bonfire, you're still kind of shit in your pants.
09:11Since the last bonfire, our light has gone off twice.
09:16It's going to be a very difficult bonfire for everyone.
09:21And especially, I think, one or two individuals.
09:28I feel like it just gets worse and worse every time.
09:30I'm obviously super stressed to what I'm going to see.
09:33But we're both here to figure out our relationship as a whole.
09:36And I'm just going to take everything with a grain of salt and keep my head high.
09:56I definitely feel as if what I'm about to see is going to bring emotions of jealousy.
10:03I feel like the worst case scenario is seeing Sydney do some sexual shit.
10:08It's like, how are you moving that fast?
10:10I mean, no sense.
10:16Yeah.
10:16Yeah.
10:17Yeah.
10:17Yeah.
10:17Yeah.
10:17Yeah.
10:18Yeah.
10:19Yeah.
10:21Yeah.
10:24Yeah.
10:24Yeah.
10:25Welcome back to the bonfire.
10:27By now, you know what this is.
10:30You're going to see clips of your girlfriend's experience tonight, and then we'll talk about
10:34it.
10:37But tonight, we're going to do things a little different.
10:44Normally, you'd watch a single clip of your girlfriend.
10:47But tonight, I'm going to give you a choice.
10:51After your first clip, you'll have the option to go deeper.
10:55A second clip.
11:00You can choose to watch it if you think that'll help you.
11:04You can choose not to watch it if you think that's something you'd like to avoid.
11:08It's entirely up to you.
11:14Jack, we'll start with you tonight.
11:16Perfect.
11:17You good?
11:18I'm good.
11:19Okay.
11:19Let's take a look.
11:24All right.
11:25Let me walk.
11:25All right.
11:26Let me get you there.
11:36Straight to it.
11:37Okay.
11:48You good?
11:51You didn't know what to do.
11:55Okay.
12:02What comes up for you?
12:06Finally.
12:07Finally.
12:07Honestly.
12:13I'm not going to even sit here and act like that doesn't hurt me because it does, but
12:17I'm glad she did it.
12:19I mean, this is kind of what we both needed to get out of the toxic cycle we were in.
12:26I find it interesting that your reaction to a pretty heavy clip is relief.
12:33I mean, it sucks.
12:35It hurts.
12:36Like, I don't...
12:37Like, the thought of that is just mind-boggling, but...
12:44And you can understand that she's probably had her mind boggled as well.
12:48Correct.
12:50That says a lot, too.
12:52Yeah.
12:57Let's run the second one.
12:59Okay.
13:04Did you think coming into this experience you'd be sleeping in a bed with some...
13:07Nope.
13:07...some girl?
13:14It's a hard watch.
13:16Hmm.
13:18Like giant.
13:28Fuck this chick, dude.
13:31It's all good.
13:32Honestly.
13:33I'm not going to even sit here.
13:35Like, it's so hard to watch, but I feel like this is, like, this is just what we needed.
13:41Like, truthfully, like, I feel like it can just finally just be me and just focus on myself and really
13:46just do my own thing.
13:47And I think I'll get a lot farther in life that way.
13:50Do you think there's any part of you that when you guys are at a final bonfire, you'd be able
13:55to look across from one another and maybe as a couple find each other again?
14:00I think in a perfect world, uh, yeah, I mean, I'm a very forgiving person.
14:07If she could be forgiving of what I've done and we could move on and talk about it, um, I
14:15mean, I love her to death.
14:17I mean, I would love to be with her, but I just don't know if that's going to end up
14:21happening.
14:25I get it.
14:26I get it.
14:27And thanks for sharing.
14:28And I'm sorry this was painful to watch.
14:30No, it's okay.
14:33Okay, let's move on.
14:35Cole, you ready?
14:37Yep.
14:38Okay, let's take a look.
14:42I just think, like, energy is just such a big thing.
14:45It is.
14:46When I first started dating Cole, he was like, I've never heard the term energy.
14:50I was like, that's my life.
14:52Yeah.
14:52You can only meet someone to the depth like they've met themselves.
14:57That's literally it.
14:58Yeah.
14:59Bradley, I dare you to kiss Scarlett's toe.
15:04You're doing that.
15:05I'm down for that.
15:07You're down for that.
15:07I'm down for that.
15:08Yeah!
15:11Woo!
15:12Woo!
15:13Woo!
15:14Woo!
15:14Woo!
15:14Woo!
15:20Woo!
15:21I mean, yeah, what she brought up, I've heard that story from her before.
15:25She's all about energy, the universe, things like that.
15:29I mean, what she's kind of describing to him, I mean, it's not, it doesn't come off to me as,
15:33like, special though.
15:35She said she wants to, you know, be with me long term, but she doesn't have that fiery connection, you
15:42know, that she's searching for.
15:43Yeah.
15:44And it hurts because she expressed it, she had it in a prior relationship that was not good by any
15:49means.
15:50And so it hurts.
15:51I crossed every box for her except, at times, that, like, just fiery feeling.
15:56Well, the fiery feeling's a big deal.
15:58For sure.
15:59And that it hurts that she had it with somebody else is a good sign.
16:03Yeah.
16:04That it hurts you to think that somebody else lit the fire lets me know that there's an emotional part
16:13of you you've yet to really examine.
16:18Yeah.
16:19Do you want to see the second clip?
16:25Yeah, let's rip it.
16:27Rip it.
16:33Does this make me live?
16:34Sick?
16:35Yeah.
16:35Yeah, duh.
16:42Your paint's gonna get all over my bikini.
16:47He's like, I see you.
16:50He gets me.
16:51I see what you're going through.
16:52And I'm like, holy fuck, like, I don't have to settle.
16:56Exactly.
17:04I don't like the term, the word she used, settle, obviously.
17:08You know, I know the kind of man I am and what I, you know, bring to the table in
17:13the relationship
17:13and how good I do treat her and it sucks to be kind of hurt as, you know, something she'd
17:17be settling for.
17:19What is the definition of the man you think you need to be?
17:22I mean, Scarlett a lot of times in our relationship uses this term masculine energy.
17:26And she says-
17:28In a good way or a bad way?
17:29In a bad way.
17:30She expresses that I don't have it.
17:33I think masculinity is the wrong name for it and it's not fair to you.
17:37Mm-hmm.
17:38Because that's gonna send you down, I'm alpha.
17:40I climb mountains and slay dragons.
17:43You know, I'm that dude, which you are.
17:45Yeah.
17:46I suggest true masculine energy is the courage to be completely vulnerable.
17:52Yeah.
17:56I'm not really sure what else I can do at this point.
17:59Like, I'm just being, I'm just being cold.
18:01A lot of cold is fantastic.
18:04I appreciate it.
18:05I just want to access another level to save your relationship.
18:09Because I believe you love her.
18:11A lot, yeah.
18:14Okay, uh, Summit.
18:17Yeah, let's, let's get into it.
18:18My, my stomachs.
18:19All right, let's take a look.
18:20In knots.
18:25So, remember how you said you wanted me to write you those affirmations?
18:28Mm-hmm.
18:29So, I wrote you a couple.
18:32I don't need to change a thing to be amazing.
18:35You're so sweet.
18:37You're literally like the sweetest man ever.
18:39These are things that you should believe within yourself.
18:41I'm made to think that I'm, like, too much or not enough of this and too much of that.
18:48Was that Summit that made you feel alone?
18:50Yeah.
18:51It's just like a mind to fuck.
18:54Like, there was a night where I was, like, in his room, beside myself, and his friends were outside with
19:01some random girls.
19:02And he was like, I'm gonna go hang out with them.
19:05Left me crying in his room.
19:08Went outside.
19:09I watched him through the window, where he was, like, dancing, having so much fun, while your girlfriend's sitting upstairs
19:16sobbing.
19:17Like, how can you do that to someone you love?
19:20It's, like, sociopathic.
19:30Uh, yeah, I mean, it's right on theme with my last two bonfires.
19:36I'm here to, like, make sure Kaylee's the one, and it sounds like she's here because she's...
19:40I'm not fulfilling her.
19:43And so it's like we're both just super unsure in the relationship, and that sucks, and that's scary.
19:49Feels like pressure, doesn't it?
19:51Yeah, it does.
19:53Do you think you're ready for forever?
19:56Well, that's why I'm here, you know, is to decide if I am ready for forever.
20:00I just don't want to, like, blink and it's all over, and I want to squeeze the juice out of
20:05life as much as humanly possible.
20:08And it's scary thinking that, you know, I'm just, like, not tied down.
20:13Tied down is the wrong word.
20:15There's no wrong words.
20:16As a matter of fact, whatever comes out of your mouth first is what we work with, so just don't
20:20edit.
20:21Okay, tied down.
20:23It's just, I like Kaylee every second.
20:26I love Kaylee every second.
20:28That I need is what I'm trying to figure out.
20:30You can't will commitment.
20:36Do you want to see more?
20:41I don't probably want to see it, but...
20:43No.
20:44Okay.
20:46Mikey.
20:47What's up?
20:49What's up?
20:50How are you?
20:51I'm great.
20:52Thanks for asking.
20:52Let's work on you.
20:54Let's take a look.
21:02Goddamn.
21:08Very intimate.
21:11You're fine trouble?
21:15You just needed a hug?
21:23What the fuck?
21:31Oh.
21:36Oh.
21:43Um.
21:50Wow.
21:53Wow.
21:55Wow.
22:00Wow.
22:01My life is, my life is gonna be different.
22:04And that's okay.
22:05And that's okay.
22:06It's okay for my life to be different.
22:11It's okay.
22:12It's okay.
22:13I love the first one.
22:24I thought she, I thought this was, I thought this was it for me.
22:28I thought it was, I thought it was gonna be me and Sydney running into the sunset.
22:33And sometimes you have to go through certain things to know if she's the one.
22:39I don't want to offer false hope.
22:41Right.
22:42Because I don't know how things go.
22:45But I can tell you the only chance you have in life is to keep doing what you're doing to
22:50discover more about you.
22:52And at the end, when you get to talk to one another, we'll see if that makes a difference.
22:57Yes, sir.
22:58Do you want to see the other clip?
23:01Let's do it.
23:02You sure?
23:03Positive.
23:05Okay, let's take a look.
23:13I put a big-ass heart on your back.
23:15Hey, that's all I need.
23:16Come on now.
23:17I don't even know what to say about Xavier anymore.
23:19Like, everything with him feels so natural.
23:22Everything feels so genuine.
23:23He just makes me feel, like, seen and heard.
23:27And I feel like that's all a girl wants in the end.
23:30Watching Hilarious.
23:31Watching Hilarious.
23:33Oh, oh, oh!
23:36Shit!
23:37Oh!
23:37Oh, damn!
23:38Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay.
23:49Yeah, it's sexual.
23:51Um, it's a very sexual connection there.
23:55and it's just kind of it hurts like she's she's she's like two weeks ago she sat front row at
24:02my
24:02sister's wedding and she sat right next to my mom and she looked my mom in her eyes and said
24:08I love your son and that's not a woman that would do that to some like somebody that she loves
24:16I just want you to just be honest with me do you think it do you do you think it's
24:21time for me to
24:22shut that door I just don't think it's that simple okay do I think she's experiencing a real
24:29connection with somebody Mikey I think she is but do I think you shut a door hell no
24:40when we show up at these final bonfires if you've done the work you're a different person yeah that
24:50conversation doesn't resemble the conversations you've had in the past they're at another level
24:55yeah I'm just finally happy to to know what it is like she's not thinking about the gaining of the
25:02trust within the relationship she's gaining she's gaining something deeper from what I see with
25:07somebody else the thing about this place you come here saying these are the problems in my relationship
25:15I hate to tell you it's never what brings you here that's the actual problem yeah at least I can
25:20say I'm growing and learning and I wish there was a softer easier path for you yeah me too this
25:26is
25:27painful but it's okay well it's it's gonna be okay there you go all right gentlemen you've made it
25:35go through another bonfire it's a lot to process god damn I'm gonna let you go but there are some
25:42changes I need to let you know about when you come back to the villa tonight the temptation haven will
25:48be
25:48gone so what's next tomorrow you'll have the chance to record a 30 second video message for your
25:55girlfriend now you can choose to do it or you can choose not to do it it's entirely up to
26:02you okay
26:04and so you know I'm giving the women the exact same choice which means some of you could receive
26:10a message from your girlfriends and some of you may not the decision will be theirs all right that's it
26:34I'm hurt I came in here I set my boundaries and I stuck with them and looks like Sydney fell
26:42for
26:42temptation I'm kind of past the tears point of this because I'm like I got the answers I needed like
26:47it's black and white you can't fake that words you can you feel me get a little misconstrued but
26:53action she stood on business yeah I'm feeling hurt annoyed sad angry she was telling me not to
27:09hurt her little heart and crying and she's obviously doing things to hurt my heart and I don't even know
27:14if I'm on her fucking mind when she's going through this process with whatever Bradley so it's for sure
27:20it's tough my girlfriend called me a sociopath did she say that word yeah I was at socio I wish
27:26I had
27:27your problems how am I a sociopath like I'm like very endearing and caring and I treat her like a
27:33princess and I do so much to try and make that woman happy and it doesn't work I don't know
27:41what to do
27:43I can't believe she's calling me a sociopath
27:49what hit hardest for me was just the fact that when I cheated she knows how I felt and I
27:59don't
28:00really see that in her I feel like she just took everything we've ever done together for granted and
28:04doesn't care go back to the crib I just want to go home if it's goodbye for me and you
28:13then it's goodbye
28:15for good
28:23every bonfire so far I feel like has been the exact same I have gotten no clarity and no answer
28:29so I
28:30just don't really feel like I'm in the dark what I wanted from this is the accountability but so far
28:38I haven't seen anything along those lines so it's really hard it's crazy how like your perspective
28:47changes as that's what scares me yeah at least I'm not going into this one blindsided yeah at least I'm
28:55not going into it like he's gonna cheat I know he's gonna cheat like I know what I'm gonna see
29:01yeah I'm going into this bonfire prepared I know Jack was the one who set those red lights off I
29:07can't
29:07tell y'all what this man's capable of he's capable of it all
29:21obviously there's a fear that I'm gonna see something from summit that I don't want to see
29:26I think I've been just like working on myself to improve our relationship and if I'm not seeing
29:33that from him I'm gonna be really frustrated honestly I feel like after the first bonfire you
29:44know I stated that I was done with Mikey and I was I said that because I wanted to be
29:48able to stand on
29:49that but it's always hard going back to these bonfires you know hearing him talk hearing him laugh
29:54seeing him smile like all those things that would usually bring me joy don't anymore good to see you
30:10all good to see you welcome back to the bonfire you guys have done some amazing work in the bonfires
30:18we've had coming up to today tonight's gonna be a little different here's how it's gonna work
30:25you're gonna see a clip just like we've done before and we'll talk about it just like we've done before
30:32and then after that you're gonna have an option you can choose to see more
30:40a second clip
30:45got it got it got it we'll start with Kaylee
30:53it feels like I'm sacrificing a lot yeah to like be in the relationship with Kaylee like I just don't
31:00really know what I can do differently to be like yeah appreciated it's like go out there and find this
31:08like perfect boyfriend that you keep talking about yeah clearly it's not me right instead
31:13of putting me through this and trying to change me and more like why are you dating me if I'm
31:16such
31:17a shitty boyfriend yeah it's exhausting okay okay he's said that to me many times it shows me that he
31:31is
31:32still in denial of where the relationship is lacking and he's not learning anything what have
31:39you defined you want your relationship to be are you ready for that next level of forever
31:46is that why you're that's what you want yes of course I want someone that wants to be with me
31:52and
31:53wants to put in the effort to make that work not someone that just takes the back seat and wants
31:58it to be
31:59easy it looks like he doesn't want to put in that hard work to make it work and it makes
32:05me wonder
32:05like do you love me enough if that's so hard for you to do the bare minimum it's not a
32:15lot to ask no
32:19okay have you seen enough I'll see another one okay let's watch the next clip
32:57she's good
33:06disrespectful that is not showing me him making any effort at all towards the relationship and
33:13that makes you feel how makes me feel worthless you're not worthless you're not worthless you're
33:25a prize you are a prize you are somebody's forever and you've started the process of defining it
33:34recognizing it making space for it and demanding it yes I will demand that I'm I'm gonna have a lot
33:43of questions for that boy when I see him and I did call him a boy for a reason okay
33:53Cheyenne you ready
33:57I'm ready let's take a look yeah would you go in there with me oh my god is anyone gonna
34:10see us
34:10that's so messy let's go let's hurry up
34:19oh my god
34:24this is so bad Jack you're crazy
34:47that's Jack I mean he showed me that since the first bonfire so I'm not surprised that I'm
34:54continuing to get the same shit from him this is what I get with him and I'm glad that he's
34:59showing
34:59the whole world who he is because this is Jack so who's Cheyenne I don't know well what have you
35:09learned so far about you um I've learned you're the coolest person well the girls make me feel like
35:22I'm like the best person ever because they made it yeah I don't know I'm realizing that I am fun
35:29and I
35:30can have fun without Jack and there's way more out there besides these three women supporting you
35:36anybody else in the house helping you through this
35:45um yeah so I have a BFF of the house his name's Preston and yeah he's been helping me get
35:51through
35:51it I'm maybe 20 feet from you but I can feel you blushing from here I'm not okay I'm not
35:59no yeah
35:59he's just a great guy he's your BFF he's my BFF yeah so I know you've thought about not I
36:07think I'm
36:07falling in love with Preston I want to be with him I think you've thought about what would it be
36:11like
36:11with a guy like that so what do you want in a partner what have you discovered that you want
36:17that
36:17you're not getting I want respect I want my partner to respect me and love me and provide for me
36:26and just make me feel like I'm the most beautiful person in the world I want him to scream my
36:30name
36:31from the mountaintops and make me feel like I'm worth more than what Jack does and I think I'm already
36:40starting to know that there's other people out there that are better than him so are you done or you
36:45want to see more I'm good I've seen everything that I need to see Jack has hurt me enough these
36:56clips stick with me for like the next days after and I I don't want to see anymore I don't
37:02want to
37:02see him period like I don't ever I don't want to see him ever again I've seen enough your decision
37:10I honor your decision that's my decision Sydney you ready I'm ready let's take a look
37:30bad news bad news you you gotta resist temptation and you gotta see the temptation in order you have
37:39to you have to see the temptation in order to resist it that's real that's true that's real and I
37:44feel
37:44like I saw the temptation and I resisted it that's good I'm glad that he has you know respect in
37:53what
37:53our boundaries were in terms of not touching but at the end of the day it doesn't change anything
37:59could it be that subconsciously you were looking for a reason to say I'm done honestly Mark not at
38:08all because he's not being who I need him to be the first thing he said in the first two
38:14days was I'm
38:16my biggest fear is falling for one of you I'm gonna shoot my shot with India and I'm like well
38:21that's
38:21not what we came here for and that's not what you told me how much of your ability to say
38:25that
38:25has to do with what you found so much let's just start there the night after I believe it was
38:34the
38:34first bonfire the guys made us some cards and my card from Xavier like you could tell he had took
38:41his
38:42time designing it and everything and it was a little prize and I had told him like I always I
38:47want to be
38:47the prize and it was like peel here I peeled it back and it said you're the prize Sydney
38:54oh so like seeing that it's like thank you for seeing me like Jesus it's amazing so now I'm no
39:02pressure on you but could this be a real thing yeah it definitely could be a real thing it could
39:13I would
39:13love that he's a great guy just exploring our connection I feel more comfortable and it definitely
39:20could turn into something real all right let's see where that goes you want to see more
39:32I've seen what I needed to see when I came to the island to see and I'm good where I'm
39:38at
39:39promise I'm good right all right now leave Scarlett let's see where Cole's at
39:48I feel like she just doesn't got me you know and she always prides herself on my team and like
39:53getting each other's backs and I'm just like I don't feel like she has my back right now I have
39:58hers
39:58yeah it hurts bro yeah I just feel like she doesn't care just fucking rubs me the wrong way man
40:10I'm solid with that chick I have so much to give so much to offer my girlfriend's like I don't
40:17just know if they fucking even see that yeah I'm sick of just every night going to bed just
40:22staring at the fucking ceiling can't fall asleep for like hours and then waking up in the morning
40:27food doesn't even look good like anything I'm just like yeah what are we doing so I can just
40:30take my hopefully take my mind off it and I just hope the sun goes down and I can fall
40:34asleep and
40:34wake up next day just keep ticking off days now yeah I mean kind of what I've been saying all
40:49along
40:50since being here like one of the things that has become so clear when I talk about the missing piece
40:55like that's it like I just want to see if he can go deeper and like express to him that
41:00like I have
41:01pinpointed I think this is the root of everything and like can you meet me there and then you know
41:08if he can't then that's the answer I don't think we'll ever align on it where does that leave you
41:13I'm confused because he has so many amazing qualities that I do love what do you do do you give
41:21up
41:21lack of depth for someone that truly just loves you with their entire being or do you have someone that
41:30half-ass loves you but goes deeper are those our only choices no so what you're saying is there's
41:38no one else who's going to love you as deeply as that I mean there there probably is but I
41:44don't
41:45want to go looking then one might argue that you're playing it as surface as he appears to be
41:55I think it's just scary so before I go any further do you want to see more
42:08okay I have some thoughts the thing I get most worried about in any relationship is acquiescence
42:16he's pretty great yeah he leaves me feeling worried every time he leaves the house and I can't have a
42:23deep conversation with him and I'm never sure if I can trust him but he's pretty great and he really
42:29really loves me yeah not what I want so what do you want I want my soul to be set
42:38on fire
42:42okay I'm down for that is cold a guy who can set your soul on fire
42:51it says a lot that you don't have an answer for that yet I don't have the answer well you've
42:58got
42:58some choices to make okay you guys we made it through another one together good for you when
43:06you return to the villa tonight there's gonna be a little change okay the temptation haven will be
43:13gone thank the Lord for some of you it served its purpose and for others of you it hasn't served
43:21at
43:21all but nonetheless it's done so what's next it's time to decide if there's something on your heart
43:32something you want to share with your boyfriend because tomorrow you'll have the chance to record
43:38a 30-second video message for your boyfriend now you can choose to do it or you can choose not
43:46to do
43:46it that decision is entirely yours and just so you know I'll be giving the same choice to the men
43:54so you may receive a video clip or you may not that decision will be theirs I appreciate all four
44:01of you that's it thank you thank you thank you good night you guys good night
44:13I'm just like really struggling with the thought right now that Cole and I might not be meant for one
44:18another I feel like Bradley and I communicate without even speaking and Cole and I I mean
44:25we can't even communicate with words I know Cole means well but some things you can you just can't
44:35like force and that is a soulful connection
44:42was it an illusion
44:47like it's just like you're sitting there enjoying yourself like running around naked having so much fun
44:54like I'm just glad I feel like I didn't exist
44:59whenever I ask for an ounce of more effort that's what I met with is go find someone else that
45:06can
45:06give you that and to hear him still saying that it's just like a slap in the face it's like
45:12when
45:13are you gonna step up you can keep your excuse like he's a good person you know what I'm saying
45:24yeah in the sense of like him like resisting that but it's like choose me every fucking time yeah
45:29seeing the clips is like showing me that I'm moving on and that I don't feel the same way
45:36I accepted the bare minimum for a very long time from Mikey and I want more for myself
45:44wait do you guys think he's gonna send me a video oh yeah I think he will I am realizing
45:52with this
45:52experience that Jack was never worth my time I've been looking for someone in Jack that he just he
45:59can't get I really hope that I can see like some sort of proof that he has been putting in
46:26the work
46:26and digging a little deeper I'm tired of feeling like I'm fighting for this relationship so much
46:32more than he is I still am holding on to so much hope and I still think that there is
46:40a chance for
46:41this to work I'm just at my point of like knowing what my line is for when I'm not going
46:47to go forward
46:49but that doesn't stop me from still loving him and hoping for the best
47:07baby girl I love and miss you beyond words not a moment passes by where I don't think of your
47:14big
47:14beautiful blue eyes and your little head nestled up on my chest this experience is more emotional
47:20than I ever could have imagined the clips I've seen during the bonfire make it nearly unbearable
47:26I'm proud that I've never put you down that's why it makes it all the much harder to see the
47:31way you
47:31speak of me so poorly I'm worried that you're not proud of the man I am I don't care about
47:38our past
47:39I just care about us in our future I just want us to be happy
47:59I love summit so much but if he's saying the past is the past and I don't know if he
48:05has fully you
48:07know realized like the things that you have said and done to me will leave a scar on me for
48:15the rest
48:16of my life I want him to just admit like what I did was in the past was not right
48:25and I'm gonna be a
48:26better man now that's all I want I tell me you're just gonna be better things might not work out
48:37the
48:37way that I had hoped the weight of this video message today it could make her break our
48:52relationship I just want to be enough for somebody but from what I've been seeing from the bonfires I
48:58don't love the things she's saying about me I just don't get how it's constructive I don't get what
49:04we're working on here sometimes it feels like as hard as it is the only way out is out
49:18hi summit um I have been seriously taking this opportunity to reflect on myself and learn so
49:28much and I have such a new outlook on life and I'm so excited for you to see that side
49:34of me
49:34but I also want you to remember what we came here for this isn't just about resisting temptation
49:43we came here together to dig a little deeper and realize why things aren't working and figure out
49:50how to make them work and so far I just feel like I haven't seen that from you I'm so
49:57tired of feeling
49:58like I am fighting so much harder than you are for this relationship to work and I'm tired of feeling
50:06like I have to prove myself over and over again I need to see more from you I want us
50:15to come out of
50:16this as the amazing alien summit that I know we can be and that's not going to happen if we
50:24don't start
50:24to make some changes and I do not want this to all be for nothing
50:49this is just kind of you know some of the best I felt I have gotten clarity on what I
50:57need to do
50:58the rest of this process I need to better myself for her and for me and if at the end
51:05we like the
51:06people we've become then we're going to be perfect and happy and live together forever and get a wiener
51:13dog and move in together if we don't like who how we've changed and who we've become we cut ties
51:21right there and then we move on I mean I'm pretty anxious obviously there's a lot on the line like
51:32I
51:32love this girl and so I hope in the video it's nothing like wishy-washy it's like definitely get
51:37some insight into where her head's out I mean I've never felt this far from her you know ever I
51:43think
51:43if she really loves me and she wants to be with me yeah this video message from her needs to
51:48really
51:50portray that
51:59cool I want to start this by saying everything I say I say with love I truly wish coming into
52:08this that we
52:09had not set such strict boundaries I feel that you've been so hyper fixated on the no cheating that
52:18you're actually missing the big picture this is a huge opportunity for growth you know I have been
52:26expressing for months that I feel that we are lacking in trust and transparency and communication and in
52:33depth I just feel let down to see that there has been no inner work there's been no accountability
52:40there's been no depth in your journey here I am diving in over here I am getting to know people
52:48and through getting to know these people I'm getting to know myself we can't leave here as a couple if
52:55we
52:55leave the same way that we arrived so please put in the effort know I'm doing the same and I
53:02love you
53:11and it hurts like hell to know how hard we try I was hoping her message would be a little
53:17more
53:17heartfelt more like I miss you at the end of the day it's like I'm a good guy I treat
53:22you well I love
53:23you like what else am I supposed to do you know like I bring a lot to the table
53:41Cole and I both deserve to feel fully fulfilled the last few days I have had a lot more clarity
53:51I
53:51would love if we came back together and like there was all of this depth and growth but I just
54:00don't
54:00know how much could have actually changed I'm almost precious angel this process has been one of the
54:17hardest things I've ever gone through emotionally and I just want you to know there's been so much
54:21depth and growth in this experience and I can't wait to show you I miss you so much I want
54:26you to
54:26know that my loyalty lies with you and your most precious heart has always been top of mind and all
54:31the decisions that I've made I've seen some things in the bonfire that have definitely caused some pain
54:36and suffering and confusion to me but just know how much I love you and how much I want us
54:42I'm just miss
54:43your scent I miss your smell I miss your touch I just see us in our kitchen right now listening
54:47to our favorite Shania Twain song dancing around going for a walk snuggling in bed with our little
54:53ankle wrap I love you so much and I can't wait to see you soon always cold I'm losing control
55:00you played your role didn't take it you stole this part of me we never fit the mold this love
55:10won't grow
55:11cause we need to rest where hearts don't be seeing Cole and just hearing his voice it actually broke my
55:21heart
55:24he obviously still really wants this meanwhile like I've realized what is truly missing
55:32oh god are you okay oh my god I don't know I think like the reality of everything is
55:45setting in and like I truly don't know I don't know what's next and I think that that just like
55:50hurts my heart hurts my heart I'm scared I'm not getting things right
55:56of who I really am on the inside what if hell I'm denying myself
56:09if you looked sad just makes me feel like
56:19this back and forth there's too many doors has anyone found what they're looking for
56:28and I I want to feel free but the more that I try a part of me does cause being
56:43alive always feels like
56:57it's killing me
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