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Temptation Island - Season 7 - Episode 04
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00:17I stand and I know that you know I'm tiptoeing around
00:45I can't even lie I was
00:59expecting Jack to kiss me at some point in this process but this early on I'm like damn like
01:05he's really going for it I just love you Jackie his boundaries done broken gone we just went in
01:17the confessional like just me and him we just talked to the camera or whatever I don't know
01:23whether he wants to talk about it or just pretend like it never happened but I think off of what
01:27I
01:28got to experience he's a good kisser and I wouldn't mind experiencing it some more
01:35too much going on right now mid what
01:49firstly I thought that he would be the first one to break and he did so kudos to Carter if
01:57you ask me
01:57he's done like he might as well just go fully all the way I got you I got you he
02:05might want to go
02:06home with his girlfriend but after this shit I don't think his girlfriend's gonna want to go home with
02:17let's be honest Carter's a good kisser but not better than Cheyenne
02:45I don't know how they're vibing over there bro I don't think it's as close as we are here
02:48there's no way there's no way bro girls are like catfights yeah and girls like fight and like
02:53they're fighting over my boyfriend exactly that's disgusting I feel like he's doing good over there
02:58genuinely I think he's doing good over there too I think he'd be dumb if he did it to where
03:02I could
03:02like watch it I just had to scare him right before we left I told him I said if he
03:07embarrasses me
03:08your friends are no longer off limits just so that way you can't start fucking his friends
03:14like that would kill him that would break his heart is that what you're trying to do no I don't
03:20know
03:20what he's doing over there I have like a little angel over here that's like it's okay but then
03:24the devil's like he's he's fucking a bitch you know like one of the pettiest people I know
03:36how are you guys feeling about all this shit my term is like paranoia I'm always paranoid we know
03:42I worry that I'm like out of sight out of mind you know it's like you're not like in reality
03:47you're
03:48not like the only person they would ever like hook up with it you know yeah look at the first
03:52bonfire
03:52so traumatizing I'm kind of scarred from that yeah my mouth was like on the floor when I saw your
03:57clip
03:57like I don't care how much money somebody has how bad she was bashing you do you care when she
04:02like shits on you like the bonfire and stuff like do you care like does it yeah like yeah
04:05cause your response even at the bonfire was a little like my response was more loud than
04:09yours and I was confused I feel like I've gotten like almost used to it and like that's not okay
04:14that's not healthy yeah you got more to offer in life than being somebody's punching bag and that's
04:19the scary part I feel like even coming into the house dude I feel like I've held a lot of
04:24shit in
04:25mind Cheyenne's relationship has not been the most perfect thing I don't want to make her look
04:30like a bad person because at the end of the day I love her but a year or two into
04:34our relationship
04:34she went out with a friend and you know got drunk and you know kissed someone she had talked to
04:40in
04:40the past so hold on hold on hold on hold on so you're telling me so you're telling me she
04:47cheated
04:47before you cheated yeah why didn't you say that because I didn't want to make her look like a bad
04:52person you retaliated I retaliated but I ended up cheating to the full extent isn't that so unfair
04:59to just like take all the the blunts of all the wrongdoings in your relationship yeah it's crazy at
05:05the end of the day dude I want her to be happy but what about you I am starting to
05:09be a little bit
05:10happier and like I wouldn't be telling you guys this if I didn't if I was something wasn't changing with
05:14me me and Cheyenne when that all happened should have taken a break and we didn't and I feel like
05:19that's definitely where this resentment and shit didn't heal over the years I pushed my feelings to
05:24the side I mean now that I'm here this experience it's bringing stuff out that I really didn't see
05:28was wrong and like hearing the guys and like the advice they give me I kind of see that now
05:32basically your ultimate test is like are you and Cheyenne too far gone because of all that you've done
05:38to each other or can you guys make it work yeah getting some Sun had to bro yeah we're working
05:53on
05:53our tan wait so have you ever had like a girlfriend not really like I honestly went through like a
05:58ho
05:58phase when I was like 20 mm-hmm and then recently I just been like you know what I think
06:04that happens
06:04when we turn like 24 and 25 we're like this isn't fun anymore like the chase gets old see I
06:09wish I
06:10would have realized that sooner yeah I think some of Summit's friends are still not on that wavelength
06:13and that's like a problem because it gets in his head you think you'd like they do have a pretty
06:18good influence on him yeah I do not like a lot of his friends like when we broke up they
06:23made
06:23him like a hinge within like three days and it like actually made me think that he just like
06:30never cared about me because I was like why are you on a dating app it's normal to have a
06:36relationship
06:36and that can be your number one priority it's good to be in love like you're 25 years old
06:42relationships are supposed to be like the light of your day and he is sometimes but there's other
06:49weeks where he's the thing that's dragging me down the most and I'm like is this person really the
06:58father of my kids or like I don't know it just messes with my head like with the father of
07:04my children
07:04like make me feel this way my biggest fear is like being alone for the rest of my life I
07:15don't want to
07:15spend my life alone I want to have like a partner I'll be curious to see if our girlfriends are
07:27like
07:27reactive of us because if they start doing crazy shit and then we'll be like they definitely saw
07:32something in the last part I know well yeah which wouldn't have been bad but they might have assumed
07:36it well you know what I mean right I don't think Kaylee's like that but you just never know in
07:40these
07:41situations this isn't normal yeah I wrote her a letter this morning and I want to start writing
07:46more so then like I can give them to her so she can read like a day in the life
07:50right versus like me
07:51me trying to like explain everything at that yeah be like look like I was thinking this like I missed
07:56you coming back from like the restaurant and like I love you you know God what did they see
08:07I'm like a coffee connoisseur what's crazy is I'm not a huge fan of coffee but I'm gonna I'm gonna
08:12try
08:12it potentially losing Cheyenne and me making a connection with another girl in the house is scary
08:17oh these are good here's your beautiful drink perfect thank you but at the same time being with Carter
08:21definitely makes me feel like I can be my authentic self I have fun her presence is definitely making that
08:26this whole process a lot easier I want to like get you like a cool gift to remember you know
08:31just like the date overall maybe this little hat what are you feeling one to ten what do you think
08:37ten I like twelve really yeah twelve twelve in my relationship I'm not a huge romantic person at all
08:45try this on I lack taking Cheyenne on dates I lack you know getting gifts and stuff like that
08:50wow is that too big no I like it big but like that's definitely something I want to work on
08:56and I think being here I'm kind of learning that what do you think I like it I think it
09:01looks good
09:01on you this is like a once-in-a-lifetime thing when I'm with Jack it feels like I'm literally
09:07just
09:07with like one of my best friends but we have like that physical connection too I don't know it's just
09:17so
09:17flirty it kind of gives me butterflies in my stomach a little bit I like how big it is like
09:22yeah this is
09:23like my man's hoodie that's what this is giving me I think we're going in a really really good
09:29direction and I'm really excited to see what can happen in these next few days with him
09:40I don't know what's prettier the view or you stop you're playing no I'm not getting this like one on
09:48one time with you it's really nice no I really appreciate you give me the biggest hug in the
09:51world I really appreciate you you're my favorite in the house really yeah say it again you're my
09:59favorite in the house oh so why are you stressed out you and your ex no I mean sorry Sydney
10:11I'm just so
10:13scared cuz I know she has this thing where it's really a double standard where if she does something
10:21it's okay but if I do something she looks like she'll leave like she threatens to leave so much
10:26like and scared of losing her does that stem from my childhood no this is just the first time in
10:36my
10:37life I've been loyal she's the only girl I've been with for like a year is not that long no
10:43it's a year is a
10:44long time for me I was a ho so like the way I move in here is like I'm petrified
10:50so I'm petrified to
10:53flirt you shouldn't want to be with somebody like that though like y'all came here together to go through
11:01a process and experience dating other people this is the first time that Mikey said he's ever been
11:09faithful in a relationship so I see why he's so emotional but he needs to figure out if this is
11:16the person that he wants to be with because if not she's gonna break his heart even when I first
11:22had a conversation you guys like Sydney's gonna leave me like you want to be with somebody like
11:26that like you're literally saying it like you need to start writing this shit down and read it it makes
11:30sense of why you're so emotional in here because God knows what she's doing over there like yeah you
11:36see what I'm dealing with you you see me what's up everybody prepped up on you there sorry what's
11:50up everybody hey look this is an intense experience and you guys went through the bonfire and that
12:00stirs things up and you guys are trying to make connections and you're all becoming a family but
12:05I think you need to dial it back and just get a little loose and you know go have some
12:09fun so
12:10I came here to tell you that tonight there's gonna be a group outing you need a break so it's
12:19a group outing
12:29let's go y'all better be careful y'all stuck in here with me why did you say that who's
12:36the fattest who's the maddest who's the one you wanna I love going out like I love going to clubs
12:42like honestly the clubs just call my name every Saturday
12:47I wanna know I'm excited to get out of the villa and like hang out with everyone like a group
12:54setting
12:55they're teaching me what I should and should not stand for everybody's gonna have a great time about to have
13:07fun about to turn up I'm messy so I'm encouraging all bullshit for the guys to do and if they
13:12do it
13:13hey I don't see shit
13:14two so one you walk you walk
13:18tonight we out
13:21the temptation girls are hitting the island
13:25hitting the island
13:26hitting the island
13:28we're getting to fool it out
13:30like someone might hit a home run tonight
13:32we're hitting all the bases tonight
13:41it's so nice to get out of the villa I know
13:55add two to that
13:56for who
13:56you
13:58and me
13:59Jack is starting to understand what he wants and what he doesn't want in his life
14:03here he's realizing like there's no limits and I think part of him really does like that
14:09I'm a little worried for myself
14:15me and Cheyenne have hit an area in our relationship where we need to figure out who we are as
14:20people
14:20because I feel like in the course of five years you know we've both lost ourselves
14:24you know is she happy as a whole am I happy
14:26like I don't know if I'm happy and like having the conversation with the guys this morning
14:30uh has just really made me realize
14:32you know I gotta be authentic to myself
14:50the bigger checks
14:52potentially some better sex
15:00tonight we are keeping the energy high this is forever on three one two three
15:06this is forever
15:17tonight's the night the girls are looking good we're feeling good and we're looking good
15:27you love it
15:27you're laughing so funny
15:29I like it
15:29have you puffed about one in particular
15:31well I mean Cindy's looking pretty bad
15:33yeah
15:33Whoa!
15:47I feel like we talk without saying shit.
15:49And it's like, it's just fun.
15:51Yeah.
15:52Cause we're just like, I don't know, we get.
15:54You fucking get me.
15:56I don't know if it's like an age thing or like,
15:59what it means.
16:00It has a lot to do with it.
16:01I think so.
16:01We've been through similar shit.
16:02Like I'm sure you've been through like relationships
16:04that I've been through, like similar stuff.
16:07There is a level to that where it's like,
16:09you just can't, you're at different stages.
16:11That's why like we're shy.
16:12Like, I think she means well and like, she's a good girl,
16:15but like, there's just nothing.
16:17In common.
16:18In common.
16:18Right.
16:19I think I've learned the most about myself
16:22through Bradley being here.
16:24We do have great conversation and that is something
16:26that I want in my relationship with Cole.
16:29I like, I hope your boyfriend like does this shit.
16:33Like talks to girls.
16:34Me too.
16:35I know, cause that's what you need.
16:36Yeah.
16:37What else, why would you come here?
16:38Yeah.
16:40All right, everyone, um, can you guys hear me all right?
16:43All right, all right, all right.
16:44Yay!
16:45I just wanted to get up here and play a little song,
16:47you know, dedicated to Sydney real quick.
16:50Hey, hey, hey, hey, some, some, some, some.
16:52Slice, some, some.
16:52Slice, some.
16:54I hope you guys enjoy it.
17:04It seems like Sydney has never been treated like the prize
17:07in any of her past relationships.
17:09So even like when I'm without her,
17:13I'm thinking about, like something that I can do for her.
17:15Wait, this is like the start of the rest of their lives.
17:18i'm just really blessed with the opportunities to be able to like show up for her
17:22and uh she appreciates it which i love
17:26i appreciate all y'all thank you thank you
17:30you wanted me to know that it was about me i love that what can i say
17:45wait i think i've asked you this but like what is your type in person of guy a guy
17:53i just like when a guy like views the world the same as i do and can laugh at the
17:58same thing
17:59it's like those two things but you laugh at everything it's just because i'm so funny
18:06you are so funny like you think i think you're so funny i always think that i'm funny but
18:11sometimes i question myself i question myself too because i'm like no you're funny i'm officially
18:16telling you that you're funny it doesn't really matter what we're talking about i enjoy the presence
18:24of julianne the most everything i say she's got like this clever witty little like response and it's just
18:33it's very enjoyable it just goes back to this idea of like always being attracted and drawn to like
18:39the newest next shiny item and you know it's hard to like truly fully commit to one person it's just
18:47really hard i keep trying to beautiful explore but you're just my favorite
18:56i do think you're pretty i like i do tell me again i'm not saying it again
19:01and i you know i feel like you know there's really nothing to hold back anymore because i've
19:05already said it no it's some real ass shit and i'm starting to feel like i'm not scared to show
19:12that you know what i mean yeah and i kind of have to forget about the outside life for a
19:18little bit
19:26i don't really know where i where i fit in and all this you get what i'm saying and
19:35i know i fit in and having good conversations with you
19:42oh god i like in the past like a bad guy like i'm like oh my god like i crave
19:49that attention
19:50you know what i'm saying like where did that get me mikey's he's a good person but in terms of
19:55a
19:55relationship he is not what i genuinely want i understand that now i get that from here on out i
20:03like have a minimal list you gotta meet these you you you got to need this i'm very happy to
20:13be
20:13here with you um it's like actually like a beautiful thing to be sitting right here with
20:17it like it's actually amazing like i love it and i hope you don't need that
20:22all right come on come on come on come on come on
20:33baby tell me what you want to do
20:50the house is finally not bible camp anymore for the first few days it was like nobody touch each
20:55other hands to yourselves but now i feel like the guys are finally letting loose a lot more wait i
21:00have sambas that have like a pink stripe in them and they'd be really cute with that oh sick would
21:05they fit my feet though no no they're really yes welcome to the club yeah the guys are finally
21:12taking their tails from in between their legs and actually letting it waddle a little bit
21:17y'all ain't give me no compliments today bro what we've been complimenting you oh no i ain't give me
21:22no
21:22car y'all ain't glazed me enough today bro y'all's with the glaze they're slow burners but do i
21:29think one
21:29of them might you know crack under pressure or it might get cracked i don't know but we'll see
21:38what do you want not that you want tequila yeah
21:57honestly it's been the best night so far where the hell do you have to come from right now i'm
22:02realizing that i am okay without jack i'm having so much fun not worrying about him spending the time
22:10apart that we have spent apart i'm feeling good i'm having a blast honestly
22:22okay let's go
22:24what is paying attention
22:29with xavier i definitely feel like there's something more there um and i'm interested to explore it
22:41i love who he is as a person and i love what he's showing me and as long as it
22:45keeps heading in
22:46that direction who knows what could happen oh my gosh you're living lavish so what do you think about
22:54this tension between us the tension between us oh my god that's that's hilarious that you asked that
23:03you know i definitely feel like it's there yeah okay here you can read this i just don't want to
23:14say it
23:15i don't know i'm sharing my life with you and i need you to understand that appreciate it
23:25i have a perfect smile yes you do you do have a perfect smile no you have a really nice
23:33smile thank
23:34you with sydney i'm being real delicate on that speed but like we're going there like the feasibility of
23:42communication it doesn't sound too unrealistic but seeing like the potential of like bonding
23:47like a like a genuine romantic partner who like shows up the way like sydney does it's um
23:54it's surprising but like also like beautiful that like seems like it's within my grasp
24:00i just want to know you
24:04i just want to hear your voice again baby come closer
24:12show me who you are under that skin good night you guys love you all
24:18and i've waited for some time now just to hear you say i love you
24:26and i've waited for some time now baby would you let me love you
24:34i just want you know like at the end of the day i look at you and i read you
24:38i could say nothing you know exactly what the
24:41i'm thinking about yeah no i do jack is about to fold tonight he's been yeah but he's about to
24:51go ballistic
24:52do you want to go to bed running from your life yeah i'm sure with me sure
25:07let's go
25:07temptation comes in everyday life and i feel like if you're going to fall into temptation you're going to
25:12probably fall in and do it here as much as this sounds crazy if you don't feed into this you're
25:18not going to find any answers for your relationship as a whole
25:22i'm answering a lot of questions for jack he is getting to know me he is connecting with me
25:27and he feels comfortable enough to get physical with me at the end of the day close his blinds really
25:33quick
25:36you've gone you've gone too far like i'm in better than me as a girlfriend it's kind of fun
26:12it was a little weird sleeping next to somebody else i feel like
26:17it was different because i'm just like so used to sleeping next to cheyenne i think that's the hard
26:24part is like you know figuring out what you need for yourself but at the same time like if i'm
26:29doing
26:29this there's a possibility she's doing this and i feel like that's you know that's hard to like
26:36process and i feel like you know yeah
26:49how are you feeling i'm feeling good good yeah i don't know why i like worry or like have so
26:57much
26:59stress back home but i freaking do i just want him to prove to me so badly that he can
27:06be open so
27:07then even if it's something little i just like lose my yeah i do think cole needs to open up
27:12just a tad
27:14me too because that's like a part of our relationship where we are truly disconnected
27:19you know my friends have said it's just like really hard to get to know him
27:24and you know i want someone to where i feel like we can both like have that energy and like
27:31show up
27:32and you know be talkative and i don't want to feel like i'm like having to carry conversations
27:37i noticed that i mean in the few like interactions i had with him yeah he would just be like
27:42yeah cool yeah like and it was like this we have something to talk about yeah
27:46like i was like excited to relate you know like he's just such a solid human but it's just like
27:54figuring out all of the missing pieces that are there right now step into my world let me show you
28:02what i see i know obviously you have your boundaries and none of us are gonna cross it
28:09but we are here to like offer you opinions that maybe your boys couldn't give you you can be more
28:16in
28:16the experience without completely disrespecting yourself her or your relationship it's kind of
28:21the dynamic of our relationship like girls can escalate things in my relationship because she
28:27doesn't trust me so it already just kind of stigmatizes like can make things like worse you
28:33know like even how platonic it is or my intentions you know there's not a lot of grace for sure
28:38i give
28:39her a lot of grace i feel like she then needs to like just come to terms with like the
28:43past and we
28:43forgive each other yes and she that's the only way she knows that i'm apologetic about it and it
28:48is like a big deal it's like if she if she just let me if she just let her guard
28:52down and let me be
28:53free i would be more comfortable and out of fear knowing i mean yeah babe like i went to the
28:58beach
28:58and there was 10 girls there like you're you're telling you little white lies out of fear that if you
29:02say the truth even if it's not something bad she's gonna flip out she gets she'll get mad at me
29:07for
29:07the truth sometimes because she doesn't believe me so now i'm like i tell the truth you're mad i lie
29:11i'm mad so it's like a lose-lose for me it feels good to obviously just get like different perspectives
29:16from you know other girls but i'm always in a constant state of like surveillance and like when's the
29:23next bad thing she's gonna get mad about and that's like you don't want to live like that i'm just
29:28tense
29:28all the time you obviously love her so much i think you guys could have something really
29:33wonderful it's just a matter of like working through those issues
29:44what's up everybody hello how are you want to have a chat ladies sure come on let's uh go over
29:52these
29:52cheers fellas it'll only be a minute what's up guys oh shit shit i'm here tonight to tell you
30:01what's coming up so tonight it's time for another bonfire
30:11i was not expecting that i thought i thought something else was gonna be coming our way oh god
30:16that was fast look the whole point of the bonfire is to inform you not so much of what's going
30:23on on
30:23the other side of the island but how you feel about what you see at this point of the journey
30:27you've now
30:28had plenty of time to be an individual the information you may see i don't know what it is
30:32could be harder now but who you are now is different and i want to remind you that when i
30:37met you you came
30:38here as a couple and as much as you love the guys you came with it wasn't firing on all
30:44pistons
30:47so looking at the clips may be difficult but are you feeling any different about yourself
30:52having been an individual for a while i'll see you tonight okay all right thanks mark i'll see you
30:59soon we'll see you soon thanks mark i just can only imagine what we're about to see honestly oh god
31:08i think we're going into this one with a different mindset we're not in denial of our issues anymore
31:14but it's still scary it's so scary well we got each other you know yeah i need a drink
31:23i also would i know yeah me too all right let's go i don't know dude i feel like coming
31:30in here like
31:32you know i did break my boundaries overall you know i came here wanting to leave with cheyenne
31:37i just know like based off what i've already done here you put that at jeopardy yeah i like that
32:02going into this bonfire i have a different mindset if i see jack having fun that's okay
32:09being here i haven't kissed i haven't touched i haven't done any of that and i should be able to
32:15let him experience what i'm also experiencing but still be in a healthy relationship
32:29i'm 29 years old i'm not at a place where i want to be wasting any time cole and i
32:35came here for a
32:36reason and i'm just really hoping that he is putting in as much effort as i am to get to
32:41the
32:42bottom of our problems to grow and come out stronger
32:57my anxiety from one to ten i'm gonna rate it at a hundred right now it's shitty to say but
33:02you
33:02know i really hope that she's done something similar to i have because maybe it wouldn't make me feel so
33:07bad i remember how the first bonfire went i feel like scared shitless like i don't know what she's
33:20doing and talk to her so like i'm definitely like worried
33:24i'm gonna break free it's not gonna break me not gonna break me
33:38like i just feel uneasy my heart tells me that kaylee hasn't done anything that would really hurt me
33:44but i know i've done things that kill is not gonna love to see
33:56i'm scared that she's gonna press the limits to the point where there is no return
34:01and that's gonna hurt and i don't want to believe that she doesn't care about me
34:06what's up fellas what's up what's up what's going mark how we living
34:13well you look good feel good good let's get into it we'll start with jack okay jack you ready
34:20uh as much as i can be all right buddy let's take a look
34:25you and jack came here for a reason so do you feel like you are truly happy with him no
34:31no i don't feel
34:32like we are truly happy i don't trust him he knows how bad he hurt me too like whenever he
34:37went that far
34:38with her and so it's like i just don't it almost makes me feel like he's just been filling my
34:43head
34:43full of this relationship so it is so toxic but it's just because we've been together for so long
34:52so it's like that comfort i'm realizing that i am okay without jack i'm having so much fun not worrying
35:01about him spending the time apart that we have spent apart i'm feeling good i'm feeling like i'm having
35:07a blast honestly um you know seeing that clip i'm really not caught by surprise at all i feel like
35:18you know she's speaking her emotions and you know over the course of five years we've had a rough patch
35:24and you know i feel like that that honeymoon stage is faded in our relationship and the happiness is
35:30kind of faded as well and you know what she is saying uh it's hard to hear um but i
35:37can't agree
35:38um with a little bit of that be more specific what did you hear that you can agree with that's
35:43hard to
35:44hear we're not happy in the relationship what i've learned while being here is how to be myself again
35:52i've talked to the girls in the house and i feel like you know they've kind of made me feel
35:55a certain
35:55way about what i've been through and kind of where what i'm missing um in myself and i overall you
36:01know they've been really honest with me about you know that i probably lost myself i feel like i have
36:06lost myself you know is there any any one particular person jack you know i think carter is a big
36:12one um
36:14it's something i didn't expect and uh yeah it's a little bit scary too just because you know i've been
36:20in a relationship for so long so uh i think overall like what i really have noticed is there's no
36:26judgment i feel like you know in my relationship i've you know been judged in weird ways you know
36:31these guys are getting me through it as well you know having these bonfires and kind of seeing the
36:35way that she's opening up and talking about me that just seems unfixable to me like that's kind of
36:40what i'm realizing i'm sure it's hard to hear you know the person you came to the island with
36:47kind of run you down a little bit and then in true jack form you take responsibility for it yeah
36:55i feel like i've just kind of been walked all over and i'm just i'm just tired of it
37:05okay that's rough and i'm i'm happy you're discovering things about yourself and reigniting
37:12ways of being that you'd forgotten about all right cole let's see what's going on in your world
37:21i just want him to prove to me so badly that he can be open so then even if it's
37:27something little
37:27i just like lose my yeah i do think cole needs to open up just a tad me too because
37:34that's like a part
37:35of our relationship where we are truly disconnected you know my friends have said it's just like really
37:40hard to get to know him i noticed that i mean in the few like interactions i had with him
37:45yeah he
37:46would just be like yeah cool this is fun yeah because we're just like the same i know we get
37:53you
37:53get me i think i've learned the most about myself through bradley being here
37:59we do have great conversation and that is something that i want in my relationship
38:11i mean it makes me feel sad we came into this island you know with a relationship that i thought
38:19and what she's expressed to me that you know feel was really good obviously we had our problems but
38:24i have been a very loyal boyfriend and um you know before coming here i have hundreds of letters
38:31from her saying how much she loves this relationship and you know how much i mean to her so yeah
38:37i mean
38:37think that video just made me kind of sad that's what i can say about that but maybe these are
38:42the
38:42questions to ask the girls in the house why do i think things are cool and she doesn't seem to
38:46think
38:47they're cool what can you tell me about me that i may not know about me yeah and then be
38:53willing
38:53to hear it you know i've realized some things in our relationship that you know obviously i want
38:58to fix but there was some things of you know her being half in half out early in the relationship
39:03obviously she broke up with me the first time i think it really damaged you know my confidence
39:08and sense of worth which i think could have fed into like some of the white lies that then proceeded
39:13out of out of fear you know so now that you're starting to see why your behavior might be
39:20connected to a feeling of insecurity or not feeling supported now let's look at the gap between your
39:27perception of how things are and her perception of how things are it sounds like things are stirring
39:35up for you and that's the start of the process cole so good for you yeah all right mikey sup
39:43what's up
39:44how you feeling feeling good how you feeling so good all right let's take a look
39:54two three oh
40:00like i'm super comfortable you make it so easy no i like it yeah no you make it pretty easy
40:07too
40:07i don't want to be glad we're dating like you know we're exploring we're experiencing i'm experiencing
40:15new feelings i don't know is it smooth if i blow again
40:21i love how you ask yeah now i'm big on this meeting a guy like xavier has just like opened
40:29my eyes to all of
40:31the possibilities of what like love should look like what a relationship should look like what a man
40:37truly looks like
40:41okay
40:45she looks beautiful by the way first and foremost i love that girl i miss that girl and i'm gonna
40:51be real
40:52nothing i saw made me uncomfortable i mean
40:56you told us that we supposed to be in here to figure out some things figure out some questions
41:01and if that's the guy for her i commend her on that and if i'm not the guy for her
41:07i have to understand
41:08that and i mean that okay it's a little bit of a change from the last time i saw you
41:15which is like
41:16you know if i lose her i'll be devastated kind of vibe seeing everything right here i have no problem
41:23with it she's living in her truth and that's all she can do what if her truth ends up being
41:28that
41:28she needs to be with him and not you what can i say i'm happy for her like that's my
41:33best friend
41:33so i support her right or wrong and if that's right for her i support that straight talk it doesn't
41:40feel
41:40like you're feeling much like you're cool with it it's fine and that wasn't the emotional guy i saw
41:45about a week ago and if you see the girl you say you love to death like you do and
41:51it looks like she
41:51might be feeling somebody else and maybe be gone i'm surprised that you're just like whatever
41:58i mean what can i do you could feel something i grew up with a mother that said don't want
42:04nobody
42:04that don't want you so the day gotta go on the sun gonna come up the sun gonna go down
42:11so look i don't
42:14disagree with anything you're saying all right i just think there's something to explore about the
42:18fact that you're seeing the girl you came here with saying we're dating with some other guy and
42:25you're like i'm happy for her it's all good truthfully i wish that was me i do i i wish
42:32i was
42:33experiencing these moments with sydney and but i'm not and that's something i gotta live with um
42:39well that that statement you just said was the closest thing to something i'll buy that you've said
42:43that that feels real to me yeah everything else feels a little bit like if i don't acknowledge
42:49it i'm gonna be cool right oh no not at all i'm gonna be honest if i felt if i
42:55felt some time i can't
42:56hide my emotions yeah that's true i can't hide them that's true um and yeah that just i just didn't
43:04do
43:04it for me like i'm sorry like no don't be sorry that's a huge answer to a question yeah i'm
43:10growing for
43:10real i i i know when to be serious when it's time to be serious i know how to joke
43:14when it's time
43:14to joke okay and big shout out india for helping me through that like my journey would not be where
43:20it's at right now if it was not for india so well that's great i'm cool okay summit
43:30yeah hopefully i can be as cool i don't know let's take a look
43:35do you want him to be something other than what he is i just want him to like be a
43:40good
43:40boyfriend yeah like you want your partner to like love you and accept you for all of you
43:45at some point you have to realize like you are enough though like at what point does the breaking
43:50point happen because i mean all the disrespect i mean it builds up like no one should feel like
43:56they're their partner is like belittling them i i don't understand like why he does it like i don't
44:02know what he gets out of like making me feel bad about myself is this person really the father of
44:10my
44:10kids or like i don't know it just messes with my head like would the father of my children like
44:29um yeah i mean obviously it's on theme with the clip i got at the first bonfire this theme of
44:38me not making her feel as amazing as she is and deserves to feel
44:44and it it sucks that clearly i'm not making her feel that way it's almost like just so frustrating
44:50because i i guess i don't fully understand like what i'm doing to make her feel so unsupported
44:59like am i really such a shitty boyfriend i i guess i i have a hard time acknowledging that
45:06i think you're on the right track i think the fact that you say i don't know why she feels
45:11this way
45:12is in essence asking the question so let's talk about it it's i'm just like a very independent
45:22person i feel like and i like to do my own thing and like we don't need to like be
45:28together like
45:29be each other's absolute rock 24 7 seven days a week i i don't maybe i'm just not ready for
45:37a
45:37relationship still i don't find that maybe oh i didn't think you would say but you're you're on
45:43the right track and you know what i love about you you're trying so hard to get i'm trying mark
45:49buddy i get that it's foreign to you because you've had two relationships give yourself a break
45:56what relationship in your life uh parents or others have you witnessed that you thought they've got it
46:03together it wouldn't be my parents i i was raised by a single mom um yeah no dad do you
46:12have a
46:12relationship with your father do you mind me asking i do not my mom's my everything she's my rock she's
46:18mom and dad super mom my hero anytime anyone asks like who is your role model who are you the
46:24most proud
46:25of in your life it's always my mom but as children we take our cues from what we've we've witnessed
46:32you
46:33haven't really seen an example of a love relationship other than the love relationship of a mother to her
46:38son and vice versa right yeah however if you reframe it you can use what you know to create a
46:46good
46:46relationship with a girlfriend your relationship with your mom was it fair to say you'd do anything for
46:52her absolutely yeah is it fair to say you don't criticize anything even when you see things that
46:56aren't really so great yeah me and my brothers joke all the time there's things about it like i can't
47:01believe mom's nuts but you don't want to say mom i really you know what you know what the type
47:04of mom
47:05i want i want a mom like that mom oh i would never right but you're doing that with kaylee
47:10yeah so
47:12she's not saying you're a shitty boyfriend maybe those are the words but what she may be sharing is what
47:18she needs that she's not getting from you and how much she loves you and wants you to give her
47:22that
47:24because that's a healthy relationship okay thank you mark okay thank you buddy all right
47:35i think we're done for the night you made it through another bonfire guys
47:40tomorrow and coming up will be more dates so think about who you want to go on dates with
47:43when you go back to your villa tonight you will see an addition to your villa it's called the temptation
47:50haven it's an area where you can go whenever you want with whomever you want there are no cameras in
47:59it's a chance for you to further experience temptation or connection without everybody's eyes on you
48:08there's a temptation haven in the other villa as well whenever anyone goes into the haven
48:16a light goes on in the other house to let everybody know that somebody has entered the temptation haven
48:21you will not know who or what's going on but you'll know that something's going on
48:26and vice versa got it got it we appreciate you i appreciate you guys man this is not easy it's
48:33not
48:33it's not easy and i acknowledge that so give yourselves a bit of a break head on out
48:39and i will see you soon love you martin thank you
48:50for her to question you know if i should be the father of her children like those are just such
48:55intense
48:56words i hate this tough it's so tough not to gas my own tires but like i know someone out
49:03there would
49:03like love me so much for me and appreciate me so much for me so if she doesn't appreciate me
49:09for
49:10me and everything i bring to the relationship i don't really know what we're doing here
49:21the bonfire was tough for some of us
49:25you know i expect her to be having a good time but i have not would not be saying that
49:31you know about
49:31scarlet so i guess that's maybe what sucked the most from what i'm hearing from her side she's
49:38coming to the realization that she doesn't really need me anymore it changes my overall thought process
49:43on like where me and her stand i see that sydney has found somebody that she cares about and i
49:50want to
49:50respect it
49:59Maybe one day I'll get what I want
50:06Instead of what I need
50:10This is hard to watch
50:17I just thought Sidney loved me
50:20And I thought that her love for me would have been stronger
50:24Than this experience
50:29It's all I've been with
50:30Maybe one day
50:33I'll stay in my arms
50:37Instead of what we're still
50:54Whatever we're shown
50:55It's like that is
50:58Maybe the truth that we're looking for
51:04I'm more scared for this one than the first one
51:07I feel like Cole maybe hasn't gone this deep
51:10With his emotions and feelings
51:12I'm just bracing myself
51:15Guys I get nervous thinking about all of each other's bonfire experience
51:19It's like it makes me feel even more like stressed
51:23And just like emotional
51:24It just doesn't even feel real
51:26It's not at all
51:28I hope Summit remembers that I am on the other side of things
51:33And I am going to see what he does
51:35If I see something that I'm really uncomfortable with
51:38I'm going to need to take a step back
51:40And reevaluate how I move on with the process
51:56I just want to know that we're still choosing each other every day
51:59And we're not just going through the motions
52:07I don't know how I'm going to feel when I see my key pop up on the screen
52:11But seeing what I saw last time
52:13This time I'm like I expect the absolute worst
52:18I just want to know did I waste my time on something real
52:21Or was it all fake
52:30Hello friends
52:31Hi
52:31How you doing?
52:34Good
52:34Pretty good
52:36Welcome to your next bonfire
52:38At this point you're in it
52:40Hopefully you've learned some stuff about yourself
52:42Hopefully you've had some chance to reevaluate
52:44What's working in your relationship
52:46And what's not working
52:51I know that sometimes looking at these clips can be painful
52:55But we'll get through it together
52:58Here we go ladies
53:00We're good
53:02We're going to start with you Scarlett
53:04Let's take a look
53:11I give her a lot of grace I feel like
53:13She then needs to like just come to terms with like the past
53:16And we need to forgive each other
53:17And she knows that I'm apologetic about it
53:19And it is like a big deal
53:20If she just let her guard down and let me be free
53:23I would be more comfortable
53:24Knowing
53:24I'd be like yeah babe
53:25Like I went to the beach and there was 10 girls there
53:27She'll get mad at me for the truth sometimes
53:29Because she doesn't believe me
53:30So now I'm like I tell the truth you're mad
53:31I lie I'm mad
53:32So it's like a lose-lose for me
53:35When we do end up coming back together
53:36It's like we got to figure out how to clean up these like trust issues
53:40But it's like if you can't get over the past
53:41I can't make you trust me
53:42No matter if I'm honest to you or not
53:44Right
53:44Like you have to just let it go
53:46And like it's like we can't keep going back on it
53:50I know
53:58I think it's hard to let it go
54:01When it's happened as recently as the week before we got here
54:08He says you know trust issues that are in the past
54:11But we've never worked through them
54:13So they're still present
54:14Can you tell me what happened recently?
54:17He told me he was going to the track with his friend
54:21And that was it
54:22That's all I ever heard of it
54:23I just had a feeling
54:24And so I said who's going to the track
54:27And he said well this girl DM'd me
54:31And you know I told her that we were going to the track
54:33Someone going to the track that's fine
54:35But when we're already in such a fragile state
54:38And then it seems like that information was being withheld
54:41It's like I'm just tired of asking
54:43I don't want to have to ask to hear these things
54:45This is a tough question to ask you
54:47But do you think trust can ever be earned?
54:50I do
54:51I just need the consistency of transparency
54:55You know of course there are traits that I wish Cole had
55:00More depth
55:01Deeper conversations
55:02Then I also question you know
55:05Would anyone ever check all 100 of my boxes?
55:08I'm going to let you in on a secret
55:12There are people that check all the boxes
55:15And part of it is because
55:17They check more boxes
55:18And there are a bunch of boxes
55:20That you don't even need to have on your page anymore
55:21When you have that connection
55:24Do you understand?
55:27What I don't want to see you do
55:28Is return to what you had
55:30Because you're going to end up
55:31Talking to your girlfriends every day about
55:33I don't know where he is
55:33And you're going to need something
55:35And he's going to need
55:36I don't know why she's always on my back
55:38I don't cheat on her
55:39I don't cheat
55:39She's always on my back
55:40And that's not a relationship
55:42Right
55:45So get your soul filled up
55:47Thank you
55:47Okay
55:48I appreciate you
55:53Hello Cheyenne
55:55Hello
55:55Are you ready?
55:57I think the clips will speak for themselves
55:59So I'm just excited
56:01To just
56:03Just to see what he's been up to
56:04I don't know
56:05Just hearing his voice makes me happy
56:06So I'm like
56:07Turn it on
56:09Alright well let's look
56:10Here we go
56:14Do you feel like
56:15Our connection like
56:17Scares you at all?
56:18I mean yeah
56:19I'll be honest
56:20It's just weird how
56:21How easy it is to talk to you
56:23You know things are moving so fast
56:24And I feel like
56:25We've known each other forever
56:26Yeah
56:27I think
56:29We both know
56:31What our connection is
56:32And how it's like
56:33Different from anything else
56:34No yeah
56:35It is
56:36You know that is
56:37Truthfully how I feel
56:37I feel like I don't really
56:38Have to act a certain way
56:56Yeah
56:57Is this the button you choose?
56:59Is this the button you choose?
57:01It is
57:06Shut the fuck up
57:09Shut the fuck up
57:09Shut the fuck up
57:10Shut the fuck up
57:11You're so dirty
57:15Do you want to get something to eat and go to bed?
57:17Yeah sure
57:18With me?
57:21Sure
57:23Wow
57:28Close his blinds really quick
57:30Are you fucking hitting me?
57:34Like I'm in bed with a man who's grown right
57:38It's kind of fun though
57:43Did he fuck her?
57:45What the fuck does close the blinds mean?
57:54This is what I mean
57:55I have given this man so many times to redeem himself
58:03And prove to me that he wants to be with me
58:06And this five years
58:08Five years
58:09Five years
58:11To fucking publicly humiliate me
58:16It's one thing to know about me
58:17It's one thing to know about it
58:18It's another thing to see it
58:19And he did it
58:21Knowing that I was gonna see it
58:24He's a piece of shit
58:26I'm off the shit
58:27Like I'm done
58:28I'm sorry
58:29I'm sorry
58:30I'm fucking leaving
58:32Is this real fucking life?
58:35No
58:36Is this real life?
58:40Like is this real fucking life?
58:44I'm sorry
58:44Fuck
58:46In the dark
58:49You made up your mind
58:52Were you ever mine?
58:54Cause it's looking like you went too far
58:58So don't try to lie
59:02It's all come to light
59:05What you did in the dark
59:32ち about this
59:32Something forget about that
59:32I'm sorry
59:32What you did in the dark
59:32I wonder if you all ever
59:33I feel like you're gonna come down
59:33It depends on the dark
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