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00:29I'll see you next time.
00:30I was in my 20s when I first came out to the Hamptons.
00:34Now I'm 43.
00:36Back then, I didn't think this would be what my life would look like all these years later.
00:43I might actually lose Amanda in everything that matters to me.
00:48This is a glimpse into what my future could look like, and it's lonely.
00:52Is this what I want? Like, I don't know.
01:15I can't imagine my life without Kyle in it.
01:18But no matter how badly I want to fix this relationship, I'm just not sure that I can.
01:25Something has to change, and I'm hoping that by me taking some time to myself and not going home with
01:31him,
01:31he'll realize, like, how serious I am about this.
01:34With all the moments moving on, I want to live before they're gone.
01:51Bombshell news.
01:52Summer House's Kyle and Amanda have broken up.
01:55Who do you think will be the first of the two of you to start dating?
01:58Me?
02:00What was your reaction to the West and Amanda rumors?
02:03No, I don't think there's any merit to it.
02:05What was your reaction to the rumors of you and Amanda?
02:08That's a friend.
02:08Okay, that's a friend.
02:11This news rocked the Bravo sphere.
02:13These rumors are true.
02:14It's confirmed.
02:15Amanda and West are together.
02:31Hey.
02:31Hi.
02:32Still got that key of yours, huh?
02:34Yeah.
02:35Well, Miss Ryder.
02:36Hi.
02:37How are you?
02:39How's Reese?
02:40They're chilling.
02:41Are you eating?
02:42You're looking skinny.
02:44I mean, what do you think?
02:45I'm worried about you.
02:46I'm worried about me, too.
02:51Can you sit on your couch?
02:52Yeah.
02:53My back's been bugging me.
02:54I'm going to sit over there.
02:56You're 43.
02:57No, I pulled it.
02:58I joined a new gym.
02:59So this week we had to do deadlifts.
03:03But I know we've been able to, like, somewhat keep in touch throughout all this.
03:07Yeah.
03:08And, like, I want to be there for you.
03:09But I also want to take an opportunity to, like, clear things up.
03:14Because I look back at the summer and you looked like you were done with me.
03:17And that's what's so frustrating is, like, I gave our relationship everything I had because I wanted the relationship to
03:24work so badly.
03:26And, like, the idea of, like, not existing with you in my life was so impossible for me to wrap
03:32my head around.
03:33And it's what made it so hard to, like, call it quits.
03:37Which is why it got so f***ing messy because I was so afraid that once we ended things, like, we
03:43would just be out of each other's lives forever.
03:45And, like, I couldn't handle that.
03:48But I'm going to be honest, I can pinpoint these instances during the summer and fall where I'm like, damn,
03:53she wasn't just one foot out.
03:54She was fully out the door.
03:56Like, that's how it looked.
03:57I was done to an extent.
03:59I was tired.
04:01I had nothing left in me to fight.
04:04But I was still trying to give it everything I had.
04:08Can you honestly say, though, that, like, right through Thanksgiving, for that matter, even if it was an emotional affair
04:15with West?
04:16Nothing was happening.
04:17But I hear things.
04:18I was so committed to you throughout the whole f***ing thing.
04:21And all I wanted was for it to make it work and for you to even question my, like, faithfulness
04:26in any capacity just, like, really f***ing hurts.
04:29Because that's not the type of person that I am.
04:32Like, I would step out on you or cheat.
04:34Like, I've been cheated on by you.
04:35I had a one-night stand.
04:37Kyle, you made out with someone when we were married.
04:39Says who?
04:40There's a video.
04:42Okay.
04:43My point is I would never do that to someone else.
04:47I know you're not a bad person.
04:48I think you were reckless and thoughtless, if I'm being honest.
04:52But in all of this, I'm still trying to be a good friend to you.
04:56And I appreciate that.
04:57I mean, I worry about you.
04:58I worry about your mental health.
04:59I worry about your...
05:00Yeah.
05:00I mean, it's not your responsibility, but I appreciate that.
05:05Just know that, like, everything that happens here forward is because I care about you.
05:12It's not because I'm like, oh, maybe we rekindle things.
05:15It's because I care.
05:16I know.
05:20And I care about you in the same f***ing way.
05:24We love each other because there's a version of each of us that we both fell in love with for
05:31a f***ing reason.
05:34It just makes me so f***ing upset.
05:44Like, someone else gets, like, the version that I fell in love with.
06:11I'm a f***ing shell.
06:19oh my god hi baby hi angel hi angel since becoming a mom my life has been chaos
06:31i know baby there is no question that this is my daughter are you stress eating
06:43when like i give a death stare to someone like jimma gives a death stare like i cloned myself
06:49and then gave birth we gotta change you girl my friends and i are all entering a new chapter
06:56of adulthood and dealing with the big questions but what i'm worried about is if i'm ever gonna
07:02have sex again i haven't had sex in nine months okay i used to shoot like rainbows and butterflies
07:08out of my vagina can you me oh oh girl oh my god you can call me nurse hard palpitations
07:21this is so hot i probably would have had sex when i got the all clear from my doctor six
07:27weeks after giving birth you're like wrestling an alligator girl but then i got broken up with
07:34and so it's been a while a long while we did it i love being a mom but i would
07:43not have been able
07:44to get through this last year without my support system uh-oh i have my nanny liz and i have
08:00my
08:00girlfriends hi hi is this brunch i thought we were going to like some kind of fun i mean this
08:07is fun
08:08but yvonne and i have been best friends for 13 years the minute me and my ex broke up i
08:17went to
08:17yvonne's house and she was like milking my tits into a bowl while drinking tequila she forgot her
08:24portable breast pump at home and i'm like sitting there milking her boob and i like called nick i was
08:30like babe don't come home right now it's not a good time me and nick we went out to dinner
08:35the wine
08:36was flowing one of the best parts about being a parent is that you have to be a parent even
08:40when
08:40you're hungover georgina is one of my mom friends when i got pregnant georgina was the first person i
08:47called didn't call all my happily married friends i'm gonna call a girl who had a up life
08:52my life is a disaster when i was 32 weeks pregnant with a toddler a dog and a broken ankle
08:59in new york
09:00city in the cold my ex left and i went a little crazy let's be honest oh cuckoo
09:08i'm surprised i'm not on snapped the world would end if men had to bring babies the world would
09:12actually end it's important for me to show jemma what a strong female role model looks like
09:17and to pave your own way and not rely on men because clearly we can't
09:33where were the baby where are the baby needs i don't know oh maybe down here are you grocery
09:38shopping with us she loves the groceries does she does jemma ever eat this stuff
09:44oh i haven't tried any of these my dog should love them beef in a bag yeah blended beef she's
09:53getting a snack yeah she's not i don't know about all that what are you hungry for yeah that's my
10:00cute girl yeah i haven't seen you in a couple weeks since we left the house yeah you seemed like
10:06a
10:06little off that weekend was a little nuts yeah it was kind of crazy i like didn't know what to
10:14say
10:14um but i ended up staying in a hotel
10:21like two nights what yeah dude yeah i didn't want to fall into the routine of going back to the
10:31apartment diving into the same old business nothing ever gets discussed now that i'm back home
10:37obviously we're going to couples counseling right now but she made a comment to us in therapy
10:41where she was like you guys hate each other
10:46she said that yeah i want some fruit after therapy we just like talked in the park and he like
10:54made a
10:54comment to me like maybe i should get my own place
11:00i feel stupid for wanting someone to change who's showed no hope and still doesn't understand
11:05what my issues are with that i can't be around in our home around you if it continues how it's
11:12going
11:12your solution is that i should move out what did you say when he was like you should get another
11:19apartment sierra had mentioned what if we spent some time apart would it be a crazy idea if you
11:25guys physically just separated for a month have you talked to her about us taking some time away from
11:32each other yeah i know jimma has a lot to say about this she really does you guys haven't been
11:41partners for a very long time yeah i don't know if you've ever been partners but he has strong
11:45resentment that has built over so many years and you guys are just now tackling that in couples
11:49therapy but it might be too late
11:56coming up in order for you to move across the entire country without a commitment such as a ring
12:02it's a very big deal i'm getting i hate men bias
12:06you
12:21it's like the perfect day for this i'm going to like remember the first time we came here i mean
12:27it must have been like first start dating right yeah in the beginning call me romantic you know i love
12:32love my love i'm just shocked how cute this outfit is oh my god yeah you know when is the
12:43right one
12:44and clearly lexi she's a princess she is the the real deal out of a fairy tale
12:50i always dreamed of like having my own prince charming
12:57like i could be with andrea every second of the day and i would never get tired of him i
13:03think
13:03we're like one person sometimes
13:04like when we come do this stuff it's a reminder of like why i love this city
13:14right and i always forget how beautiful it is
13:18before i met andrea i always told my mom that i wanted to get married in disney world at the
13:23castle
13:23and it's just funny because i ended up getting married in a castle what a real one in italy
13:30it was so magical we had so many of our friends coming to see us we had lindsey we had
13:36kyle
13:36kyle was there by himself baby jemma was there yeah baby jemma was there
13:40jemma was there we found out after but you know there was a rumor danielle got the bouquet
13:45so you never know she might be next
13:56you're not holding the right grip
13:59go go over your shoulder over your shoulder over your shoulder
14:05oh
14:06home run i quit look good though
14:11i am not a tennis player
14:12you're doing this see the palms up like that it needs to be down
14:15it's an expensive sport so to get a coach this good
14:19like wrap it around your shoulder don't just stop here
14:21okay for free
14:26oh and is an amazing tennis player and also my boyfriend still love me we met nine years ago and
14:34then life happened we went our separate ways had other relationships we moved in different ways and
14:39then rekindled you could say you slid back into my dms i slip back in your dms i'm like sweating
14:44in
14:44places that one shouldn't i'm getting into the tennis you have to get into my stuff too
14:49i'll try and get more baseball games with you be nice to do a lot more things with you before
14:55we
14:55you know try to have babies
14:59i'm turning 37 in december i would love to have a baby by 38. i'd love to do it with
15:05you and i want to
15:05do it with you i definitely want to be engaged as well before
15:11owen and i have been together for six months and living together for one with the basil
15:16we're going in there too no no you like it just with the basil don't go rogue okay i'm saying
15:22basil
15:22now it's fast but i feel like you know it doesn't feel fast girls once you feel like it's it
15:27it's like
15:28you just fly head first in that direction and biologically i probably should rush
15:33you know i'm so excited about you but with lindsay you know it sucks because like she doesn't
15:38even know she doesn't even know about you and like that's so weird like i would love to be able
15:42to
15:43share that with her the last time i spoke to her was maybe four months ago that's weird for us
15:49because we go back so so many years listen you're crushing it at work you're sexy as
15:56you're right you're right your amh level came back at 3.8 oh my god i mean i took glass
16:04to the
16:04chest for her i just like what did i do i mean i met her baby jemma like right at
16:15the beginning and
16:16then i feel like she just kind of ghosted on our friendship it just sucks that we have like such
16:20big
16:21things going on in like our worlds and i hate that it's yeah awkward now
16:47hey what up man good yeah figured it's still nice out we take the take the outside yep you got
16:55the
16:57the black shirt you got the black on black it's new york kenny and i met in a very stereotypical
17:03new york way like we had a lot of different mutual friends if i were to guess it's been at
17:08least 10
17:08years kenny is smart he's driven he's connected he is the epitome of work hard play hard guy i think
17:15we we relate we're both building businesses we both also like to go out and have a drink and enjoy
17:21the
17:23city wait what are you smirking about he's a bit of a lush but he's outspoken and he's fun it's
17:29hard
17:29to like tame that you know what i mean it's just part of his personality so what's going on with
17:34lover
17:35boy the last real financial update that i got was october of last year yeah i've been dragging my feet
17:41there's been so many moving parts changes i had to lay off five people last week i put 500k of
17:47my own
17:47money in i literally needed to keep the lights on for a lot of years kenny worked on wall street
17:53did really really well for himself growing up in the midwest i could have never imagined the life
17:58that i'm living now i was never supposed to be the black guy from michigan working at the investment
18:04bank but eventually 15 years later you start to believe that you do belong six years ago um i ended
18:10up leaving wall street to start venture capital investing i invested in lover boy on the very first
18:16raise there was a point where i'm like to sell the company like punt it trust me if i could
18:20have
18:20sold the business two years ago i would have i took money from friends and family like at one point
18:25i
18:26was gonna give everyone a 25x return on their money 25 times their money now i'm basically on the
18:33financial brink of disaster oh by the way like i stopped paying myself a salary at lover boy i don't
18:39think i realized you weren't taking the salary that's one of the reasons why i started djing to pay the
18:43bills if i don't find a partner either to buy lover boy or take on our operations we will go
18:49out of
18:49business by the end of this year i get it you're backs against the wall and you've gone all in
18:54on
18:54this but you know talk to me let's talk through the debt let's talk through you know the downsizing
18:59i look i appreciate your your patience it's good advice my communication skills across the board can
19:07improve professionally personally it's been kind of a rough summer between my business and my marriage
19:13it's a bit of a perfect storm what's the latest with with amanda when we came home from the hamptons
19:17amanda spent a couple nights in the hotel like we've no matter what kind of stuff we've been through we
19:23always go home together i went home solo and our four-year wedding anniversary is literally next week
19:28i feel like we're living very different lives yeah and we want very different things i love amanda i
19:34think she's a great person but i don't think she's ever really been able to meet you
19:38on an energetic level where you're at think about friendsgiving three years ago you gave me a similar
19:46update yeah because i come solo to everything you come to her you always show up solo doesn't go unnoticed
19:51you have to ask a question like if we met right now today the person that i am now and
19:56the person
19:57that she is now would we be together whitney wakes up the girl's happy let's go she has a love
20:04for life
20:05she's a breath of fresh air she's just got really good energy i'm just gonna know whitney but she
20:09seems awesome i know cobblestone streets of new york bud whitney's my girlfriend we've been dating
20:16officially for six months unofficially for about a year she is a sweet sweet angel from the heavens
20:24hold on oh we're gonna poop in the middle of the street that's lovely
20:31this is a massive milestone she's moving across the country to move in with me you're a city boy now
20:36i'm originally from minnesota midwest girl i'm just a sucker for love my parents were high school
20:42sweethearts and like i'm somebody who is meant to be a mom and a wife that's why i did the
20:47bachelor
20:48but i think i was eight out of 30 girls i lasted i just really wanted to find love let's
20:53go buddy this
20:54is the first time i've moved across the country for somebody it's definitely a little scary but like
20:59i wouldn't be doing it if i didn't think kenny was my person i'm honestly like excited for you guys
21:06she
21:06seems like an absolute doll she's just always happy always you know positive but like my biggest fear is
21:13like hurting her in some kind of way or like it not working out in some kind of way and
21:17there's
21:17concerns right like like you know sometimes you you go in a relationship and you feel this spark and this
21:23buzz and it's fire where you're like this is my person i'm gonna marry you yeah and it's hard to
21:29know for me like is the like this is the one and i know it for sure spark there yeah
21:35and so i'm trying
21:37to figure that out it's tricky coming up hi
21:50no i don't need negative energy in my life
21:57no i don't need negative energy in my life
22:02no i don't need negative energy in my life
22:12hi switch it up tonight
22:14secco you're doing tequila always gotta warm up what's up brother good to see you stop spilling
22:21you nervous the guerra is the new york city institution lindsay is right there look at the
22:27strut she can't see me it's a speakeasy you have to walk through a burger shop to get there
22:38i love the gear and i'm not just saying that because my best friend owns it and i maybe drink
22:42for free hi guys that spray tan looks sexy on you it does i see you i used to have
22:50on my phone access
22:52to the video the surveillance you're allowed to say that it's creepy okay okay i did not used to have
23:03access to the surveillance camera to like see if it was like a good vibe and then i'd pop over
23:08and
23:08it was like hey like is there hot girls there hi do you bring gemma no just kidding so it's
23:15my baby
23:16daddy you have a night off do you want a drink yeah water and a margarita skinny spicy yeah okay
23:22how'd
23:23you know i know i need somebody to do my botox in new york i'm sure you got a lot
23:28of clientele in
23:29rebecca yeah for people who are too rich for the upper east side we're all past our first year
23:36of marriage oh yes cheers to that we did a little bit over a year so far so good in
23:42our friend group
23:42there are people in all sorts of different situations which is amazing we met andrea and
23:47lexi through lindsay our lives are very similar like we got married within a few months of each other
23:53we're both talking about starting families all four of us are supermodels
23:59bernie told me you wanted spicy skinny thank you so much
24:03destiny you're the man cheers cheers cheers where's kyle
24:18all right
24:21i know the therapist was like what's me tomorrow probably not the greatest sign no we're moving
24:27backwards her words
24:32i'm just feeling like almost like more confused no it was very evident because you're just negative the
24:37whole time like everything was a but this but that like we're supposed to be doing things that are
24:42moving us in the right direction and you have a dj event that ends at two you go out after
24:47and you'll
24:47come home at four o'clock in the morning last night the night before therapy here i am at therapy
24:52trying to make it work because i don't want to call it quits but you're not giving me any hope
25:00i'm like sweating i need to go you're wearing a summer it's not a raincoat
25:14i just like i don't know what you want
25:18amanda what look you're struggling in your ways i'm struggling in mine like i just want to be happy
25:24and i want to feel like you want to be with me i'm in therapy with you i'm making efforts
25:29i'm
25:30doing things i'm just i'm not going backwards can we just can we what can we get going i don't
25:38think
25:38i'm meeting you guys out why not i'm exhausted i don't want to put on a face with all of
25:44our
25:44friends i'm going home okay
25:54you know what's funny growing up in minnesota i always thought like new york felt so intimidating
25:59and people are actually like way more open and nice here it's the best it's exciting i love it
26:04here i feel like it's also like kind of romantic to move to new york with your boyfriend i'm very
26:09excited about them like she's a doll she brings the best out in him like we've traveled a bunch they
26:14don't fight how long have you been dating uh we our first date was around a year ago okay but
26:20then
26:21we slow played it for a while kenny was playing around being a playboy with me
26:28he was hold on let me be very clear my mother was passing i went through a very challenging time
26:34i maybe wasn't the best version of myself to come out of that and it's thank you i appreciate that
26:38what what what's happening is the boy's thing that's the stages of greek anger pain around
26:53honestly though we're just kind of like seeing where this goes like we love each other she's a doll
26:59she moved across the country before the ring i think from a girl's perspective right it is a lot
27:07i'll also with you come join us come join us oh we're just grilling kenny or i mean meaning i'm
27:13i'm
27:13going oh my gosh i'm saying it's a big commitment to move across the country for a guy this is
27:19now a panel
27:20this is a panel no you stay you stay you stay stay over there they're grilling me on you moving
27:29in
27:29like our relationship i said to kenny that in order for you to move across the entire country without
27:36a commitment such as a ring it's a very big deal you can't around with this like at all i'm
27:44getting
27:44i hate men vibes i'm just allergic to like annoying men i'm getting i hate men vibes i'm just allergic
27:54to
27:54like annoying men oh my god you don't have to be engaged moving together like newsflash that's not
28:01what i was saying i'm saying it's a big commitment to move across the country if you love each other
28:06it
28:06feels small i only know of kenny socially through gavin and kyle so i'm just trying to get to know
28:13you
28:13if you feel like i'm pressing you and i'm asking very generic questions that sounds like a you
28:19problem in this expansive chapter of a lot happening it's nice to not do everything at once we know what
28:25we're doing we're not rushing it are you feeling attacked right now well there's a panel of people
28:38where's the wife here she's not coming tonight no no no she um she is laying low you wanna grab
28:46a
28:46drink yeah yeah sorry my mom tells me i have great nail beds you do have good nail beds how
28:52are you i
28:53mean i haven't seen you since we left the house it's been just like a whirlwind of like mixed emotions
28:58amanda told me that she stayed in a hotel for a couple of days yeah
29:04how does that make you feel despite all the ups and downs you've never not left the ethics together
29:10yeah i get more and more confused the further we get into this couple's therapy therapy is very
29:15confusing because you're all of a sudden unpacking years and years and years of things that you have not
29:22addressed she clearly is able to express herself in those moments i'll admit i struggled all summer
29:38oh my god i have to pee i love you
30:02i don't need negative competitive energy in my life i want people around you that are
30:14celebrating you when exciting things happen yeah i'm certainly not going to create space
30:19in my life for somebody who just like on me every chance that they get every year it's something
30:25let me just pull it up
30:29you have it in your phone
30:33yeah i have it in my phone season four pearl and i try to date you need to stop yelling
30:39at me
30:39you're insulting me talk to me like a human didn't work out he breaks up with me one week later
30:45she's
30:45giving him a hand job in the back of an uber and then do i really need to talk about
30:51the engagement
30:52just splash back at this very moment carl's probably down on one knee opposing lindsay that's so up for
30:59everything that i've done for that friendship you're a monster jesus christ you won't be invited
31:06no i know and then i'm pregnant and she's making all these comments i mean we don't even live together
31:13you don't live together and he has a baby inside you yeah i just don't want it to feel like
31:18you're
31:19single-momming this up stop on me because like there's a new home right i don't know like there
31:28in my life that i feel like it's such a big deal and i'm like not sharing it with my
31:33one's best friend
31:35i don't even know what they know this guy's name owen on
31:44you two should say hi i i wanted to say hi but um i was wondering if maybe
31:50you might be open to like a lunch or a coffee next week or something
31:55whenever you're free can i think about it i'm a little busy these days
32:03what's a newborn yeah yeah i get it bye love you all i don't get it if i can be
32:10honest
32:11there's been so many things carl and i got engaged she had a freak out before carl and i
32:16got engaged she gave him a hand job in the back of an uber a week after we broke up
32:21like that's
32:23a first of all hand jobs just suck it jen no fine i'm just saying i bet you wish you
32:28had anything
32:29oh i would i would i have to pay a lot of money for a job right now
32:53georgina hi hello you guys look so nice
32:58we're going to steal you are you coming out with us
33:02just come out in your scrubs no she needs to change do you even have anything here have you
33:06not seen this no welcome to my humble abode
33:13what makeup bag casual clothes black tie could be with heels and in the little sterile package
33:20draws and underwear it's so helpful having mom friends like georgina she just gets it she has
33:28a full dermatology practice in tribeca all right i'm gonna have you scrunch first actually good
33:33you okay yeah a lot of the days i'm like look how cool i am try back up derm raising
33:39kids look at me
33:40i'm doing it all you change we'll be outside i need four minutes and then the other day my daughter
33:46eloise
33:47she looks me dead in the eye and then ate dog food so you know what i did i looked
33:53at the nutrition
33:53facts on the dog food pure protein so i was like you know what hun go nuts really oh my
34:01god oh my god
34:17here we are here let me just tell amanda that we are on the roof in the back um i
34:25feel so bad for
34:25amanda and kyle like it's not good they have very separate lives amanda didn't pay rent for the last
34:32three years and he didn't care no so then he tallied it all up and charged her last week no
34:38charge her last week so then she had to pay him he has a spreadsheet of like all this money
34:45that i owed him so now you only like three years back date i already paid it no sweat off
34:51my back
34:51yeah last week okay now i know where the resentment's coming from
35:00these freaking bangs hi guys wait but they look great i am so good trying oh look at us we're
35:06color coordinated oh are we i love that hi guys i'm not gonna lie to you i was catching them
35:12up a
35:12little bit we were we were talking about you talking about you okay as long as that is a bad
35:16way okay
35:17i have one repressed hi guys we're talking about me for the rest of the night okay i want to
35:22hear
35:23about your problems i'm gonna hear gossip i need the tea i need the drama can we talk about my
35:27plans
35:28with nick well he decided he's not ready in this moment to be a dad is he nervous or just
35:34not ready
35:34yeah i think he's nervous he's a great dog dad nick and i have a great relationship so when we
35:40first
35:41got married we definitely hit like a few bumps in the road i was under the impression that we were
35:47gonna start trying to have a family but every time i brought it up to him it felt like he
35:52was pushing
35:52off the conversation i was so annoyed with him i was like you know what i'm just gonna go to
35:58san
35:58diego and not tell him i hopped on a plane then like a few days go by how are you
36:07jay and this guy
36:09hasn't even noticed that i'm not there where's your mom i had to show him like a few true crime
36:16docs
36:17after that because i was like if something did happen to me he would be the first person that would
36:23be under investigation i'm telling you men are always the problem always the problem and they
36:29can have babies till they're like 100. very respectful it's not you it's not you just start
36:34trying how long does semen live in your body for like 72 hours just start turkey basting put it on
36:41what else can we fill amanda in on like what happened at the garret okay so danielle showed up
36:50last night oh yeah oh my god so this is what i heard from katie she's moving in with this
36:56man
36:56who's still married what that's why that thing went up like that blind item what what she was talking
37:05about having kids with him in the fall no you're blowing my mind right now i need you to stop
37:10she's
37:11hypocritical who does that not a girl's girl
37:31ah yes thank you thank you perfect all right happy anniversary happy anniversary four years
37:42oh that's nice in spite of everything that's been going down recently it is our wedding anniversary
37:50and i don't care if maybe the last time we went on an actual date was a year ago
37:54guess what there's no way we're not doing something you guys ready to order yes remind me the um
37:59mozzarella stick with caviar the cheese and caviar the fancy mozzarella stick absolutely oysters and escargot
38:06okay thank you so much i actually feel like we're in a decent place heading into this anniversary just
38:12because we've gotten some of the things off our chest i would say we're both optimistic which is
38:17great because that's not the case just a couple weeks ago what do you guys have to celebrate we're
38:23celebrating the fact that anyone that said we get divorced within three years was wrong we made it to four
38:32i know therapy hasn't been a walk in the park but i appreciate you doing it with me yeah
38:39i want to be feeling like we're moving forward in therapy do you feel like we're moving forward
38:44in therapy because i don't after therapy i've felt lower than i've ever felt in a really long time
38:55and it's it's difficult to go back to the apartment and just like you happen to call let's
39:01go walk the dogs time to do this like it hasn't been easy but like for me like that i
39:09struggle with
39:10that a lot it's not going the way that i really want it to i'm gonna move out
39:25i know it's our anniversary like i'm not bringing this up like i'm out i'm leaving and this isn't
39:30like a permanent this is like a month this is not to end the relationship this is what something i
39:37think
39:37that needs to be done to help us i want to like date again i want to get together and
39:43like spend time
39:44like this and it's it's difficult to explain i'm not doing this to run away i'm doing this because
39:52i want this to work out i'm not saying this is like we can't see each other for a month
39:57this is like
39:58you come to my place i go to your place we have movie nights and date nights it's still spending
40:04time
40:04together it's it's a lot to swallow but like i'm trying to be like open-minded and understand that
40:12can you just promise me this if i agree to separate it's not an agreement thing that's my
40:17it's a decision i'm making if i give you my it's not your blessing if i'm here i'm doing it
40:26it's all you i don't know if there's a playbook i don't know how i'm supposed to feel or act
40:32so i'm just trying to embrace this idea and be supportive it feels extreme and i'm not sold on
40:39this being the solution i've never heard of a couple physically separating but not separating
40:46and using that as a tool to get back together but maybe this is what we need
40:53how we doing guys doing well how are you doing great we're just out for an anniversary dinner
40:59yeah these are the apps we're going to a restaurant i promise congrats
41:04before you thank you thank you it's been smooth sailing
41:11no bumps in this road i'll tell you that
41:18this season on in the city that guy just burp on me summer should be fun even in the fall
41:26i could faint over botox in my ass in your butt it's called buttocks i can't believe my stuff's
41:32going to be here this week i don't need anybody questioning our relationship sorry that you don't
41:37like to hear the truth i got you a little something you know what that's called manipulation you can
41:43only get pregnant for 12 hours i thought about our conversations around having a baby
41:51something that i wanted my entire life a family that was taken away from me i'm choosing partners
41:57that continue to abandon me i've never been happier in my entire life lindsay gets the internet sleuth on
42:03my man christ i'm also so mad that you wore a white dress at my wedding it's pinky
42:09bitch everyone bows down to lindsay and i'm sick of watching it you're supposed to be my best friend
42:14and you treat me like stop running your mouth i'm gonna leave right now because you're talking to
42:19a wall and not a wall you've moved your whole life here for him i will move it right back
42:24out
42:25have you been lying to me for years you're the bernie made off of hospitality
42:29who was in our apartment last night while i'm asleep you know how many times you cheated on me i
42:36think
42:36is wrong lay off me dude i am in tears watching my friends demolish their relationships you don't
42:44have a prenup but if you come for me i'll come for you that'd be a losing battle are you
42:48threatening me
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