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Love Island Beyond The Villa Season 2 Episode 8
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00:00Yeah, let's do another trip.
00:01OK, but where?
00:02We're going to Lake Tahoe.
00:04I'm close to Lake Tahoe.
00:05I am ready to conquer the snow.
00:10Where are you?
00:12I can't stop.
00:13Look at this.
00:19Hi, Maya.
00:20How are you?
00:20Sorry.
00:21Oh, you got makeup?
00:22No, it's just relationship and boundaries.
00:25I feel like I don't need to be close with everyone
00:27if that's not how I feel.
00:28At the end of the day, like, not everybody
00:30is your best friend.
00:32Jeez.
00:33Hey, y'all.
00:35I'm a pageant queen, and I have blonde hair.
00:39So you pick the name.
00:42Grayson, are you good, though?
00:46Coco, Bella, can we go downstairs real quick?
00:49Oh, sure.
00:50Yeah, we're going to take a quick break.
00:52What's going on?
00:54We overheard you saying, like, you don't really
00:57want to be friends with everybody.
00:58You have your friends.
01:01Hannah, I think that you have kind of, like, isolated
01:03yourself from, like, speaking to everybody, including myself.
01:05It's not me intentionally doing that.
01:08I am exhausted.
01:10I'm not exhausted being around everyone.
01:13I am exhausted.
01:20I'm not thinking, ooh, let me check and see how Bella and Grayson and Coco and Iris are
01:25doing.
01:25I wasn't even talking about you guys.
01:28I was talking about Brian and Chris.
01:30I'm sorry.
01:30I don't want to be friends with Brian and Chris.
01:32People are allowed to have, like, bad days.
01:34And, like, the times that we are together, maybe she was just not having, like, a good day.
01:39But then, like, that's why you asking me, like, upstairs, like, are you good?
02:12I don't think it was coming from that place.
02:14Grayson felt upset that they were, like, left out or something.
02:17Yeah, that's some gross stuff.
02:18Because imagine me, like, telling Chris, like, bro, why don't you hit me up and go work
02:21out?
02:21I want to see you more.
02:22Well, there's definitely a divide.
02:23Like, it's evident that Iris and Hannah don't want to obviously be friends with any
02:27of the other girls.
02:28Speaking of them not wanting to be friends, like, even what Hannah said about me and Brian,
02:31be friends with Chris and Brian.
02:32Wow, I don't want to do that.
02:33We had no clue she felt that way.
02:34I'm like, damn, like.
02:36That was a little aggressive.
02:37I'm like, what did we do?
02:38You don't have to be friends, but then I think there's an energy that's rude in it as well.
02:41Yeah, Hannah's just kind of like a firecracker.
02:43But she's just saying, like, she had a boyfriend, so she's not looking for new male friends.
02:46Even if Hannah didn't have a boyfriend, I don't think anyone needs to want to be friends
02:49with anybody.
02:50If I have a girlfriend, I'm not going to go look to make new female friends.
02:54Did you, like, know, though, if that's how she felt?
02:56Know what?
02:56Like.
02:57Towards us?
02:58Yeah.
02:59Obviously, I knew, like, they're not, they don't want to be, like, your friend because of my
03:03obviously.
03:04But I didn't know, like, you're just kind of like his bro, so it's kind of just like.
03:06Oh, so I can't treat you like that because I'm his friend?
03:09You don't see it because you guys are fucking cool.
03:11Like, we not over here talking shit on anyone, like, don't want to be around them.
03:14I definitely don't see it from y'all's side because I'm not, I'm cool with them.
03:17Through this entire process and this experience, I think, like, one of the things I was hoping
03:22to get out of it was closer friendships.
03:25It sounds really corny, but, like, I wanted us all to, like, grow closer.
03:29There's always been, like, this underlying, like, I think, hurt.
03:34Kind of like a feeling of, like, like, you don't care.
03:43I take accountability in the fact that maybe I haven't been close to all of you guys, and
03:48it's not out of ill intention or I hate any of you.
03:51I don't hate any of you.
03:52I think you all are great people, but I have my own things to deal with.
03:57I have my friends before all of this shit that, like, don't hear from me.
04:01Sometimes I'm not, like, really present, but it's, like, I'm just having a hard time.
04:07People think that I am, like, standoffish or rude.
04:12In reality, I'm just, like, somebody who's, like, struggling.
04:17I feel like I'm a new person now, and I'm trying to figure myself out.
04:22You know, you can't sit here now and tell me those girls were giving the energy, like, fucking...
04:28I think the thing is, I think that's okay.
04:31Like, they don't gotta be best friends.
04:32No, no, no one has to be best friends.
04:34Yeah.
04:34Just, like, be a normal human and just say, yo, what's up?
04:37Like, bro, I mean, I haven't even said a word.
04:39Okay, but you haven't said a word and she hasn't said a word, so it's two-way street.
04:42Because, bro, because the energy she gives is fucking weird, bro.
04:45We clicked the icons and said, what's up? Nothing.
04:47She looked away.
04:47What the fuck have I ever actually done, bro?
04:50Nothing.
04:51This is a repeat of Palm Springs.
04:53I don't know what's going on with her, mate.
04:55To be honest with you, who knows?
04:56I do think it's a little bit odd, yeah?
04:58It might just be ego.
05:00Palm Springs was a moment where we kind of felt like maybe we didn't, like, fit in the group.
05:04And, like, you know, that stings a little.
05:06The divide is, like, not on my end.
05:10I don't know about you guys, but, like, I don't feel like you guys feel divide.
05:14Yeah.
05:15I'm just very drawn off by everything that's going on because I don't really see what they're saying.
05:21I mean, Hannah and Iris, they don't have a mean bone in their body.
05:25Why do you feel isolated?
05:26Why, like, where does this isolation ever come from?
05:29It's not from you, Amaya.
05:30You do really well at, like, talking to everyone and, like, there are also others that don't do that well
05:35at that.
05:37To be like, oh, I really praise you because you can talk to everyone.
05:40That's singling me out.
05:41It's also putting other people here and other people here.
05:44When you could raise you.
05:46I don't think that that was the point that I was making.
05:48I was more so making a point that, like, we should all be speaking to each other. Simple as that.
05:52I can appreciate someone without calling anyone out, but it's very apparent that you don't want a kumbaya.
05:58The first time I, like, felt her was, like, at the Christmas party.
06:03Like, I tried to, like, confide in you, like, about a situation.
06:07I felt like you did hear me more in that moment, but, like, you didn't listen to me, like, at
06:12all.
06:13I was trying to listen to you, but there was so much going on.
06:15I want to just also say my feelings with Bella were strained after the holiday party.
06:21And that wasn't in Palm Springs.
06:23That was after she brought TJ over to Pepe.
06:26They brought both of you guys over to Pepe.
06:28He has expressed that he wants to have conversations.
06:30If he does want to have a conversation, he needs to take accountability for all the lies.
06:37Can I say this?
06:38She would only do it to, like, try to, like, make everyone feel...
06:41So that's my boyfriend.
06:42Like, that's my boyfriend, you know?
06:44It's more about, like, boundaries.
06:45But if these boundaries have never been set, then how would she know that?
06:48But it's, like, it's like girl code.
06:49Why is Bella getting involved?
06:52I just feel like this isn't very fair.
06:56I came into this wanting us all to just get along.
07:01Ugh.
07:02I hate this situation.
07:03I don't have a lot of bad things to say about Bella, but I think she always tries to bring
07:08everybody together and everyone should be friends.
07:11And in reality, life's not like that.
07:13Bella, this friendship that could have been potentially amazing is on the withhold right
07:18now because of the friendships and connections that you have with both of our ex-boyfriends.
07:22As a woman, I just don't understand how you can't understand that.
07:25But you guys know that the only reason that I had been in the same spaces and the same
07:30rooms as your exes is because I've always just been cool with everybody.
07:36I haven't had beef with anybody.
07:38Even though I understand the circumstance, I understand it, but I can't respect it.
07:42Yeah.
07:43Amaya coming at me really hurts.
07:45She thinks I'm best friends with Brian.
07:47That's not the case.
07:49I love Amaya.
07:50I love her so much.
07:52And even when they went through their breakup, I was supposed to have a brand deal with Brian
07:56for $20,000 and I turned that down right away out of my loyalty to Amaya.
08:00She thinks I'm not even considering her.
08:02And I do think that's pretty considerate.
08:05I respect each one of you and I care about you guys.
08:09I think it was just like a lot of things coming to a head.
08:11Yeah.
08:12It's those like schoolgirl feelings.
08:14I feel like there are times where we're not like completely nice to each other.
08:18You know that's going to push a mean girl narrative that I don't fuck with.
08:22I just, I have a flight and I'm going to leave.
08:25You can leave.
08:25That's fine.
08:26Good night everyone.
08:34Exhibit A.
08:40For Hannah to stand up and walk out.
08:42It's just kind of a slap in the face.
08:44I'm sorry, but like that's...
08:46She does have a flight though.
08:47But like that doesn't feel good to just get up while I'm crying and leave.
08:54My anxiety is really bad.
08:56And I'm not somebody that's like when I'm having a hard time,
08:59I can fake it with a smile on my face.
09:01And that can come off as like bitchy or rude, I guess.
09:05But I just kind of have to ride it out.
09:07That's not okay.
09:07I'm not standing for that.
09:17I'm finna go, I'm finna go make sure she's good.
09:19She's being vulnerable and she doesn't do that often.
09:22So is that, is that what you feel like is not nice?
09:25That's not okay.
09:26I have to say I agree.
09:27I'm not standing for that.
09:28Yeah, I have to say I agree.
09:29I don't even want to talk about it too much because she's not here anymore.
09:32I've talked to her, I've seen her going through some mental stuff and I give her so much grace.
09:39But I'm not part of the situation and I have to say that I understand how these girls feel.
09:45Because even myself, I felt a little bit that way.
09:47She's just very vocal about how she doesn't care about us.
09:51I don't think that she doesn't care.
09:53I don't think that it is anything like to pinpoint any one of you guys at all.
09:58I don't know.
09:58I don't know.
09:59How are you finna?
10:01How are you?
10:01Bro, I'm going crazy.
10:03You're good.
10:03Like I'm sorry, I don't want to argue.
10:10Let's just call it a night.
10:12Let's go to bed.
10:13Yeah.
10:15I'll catch y'all.
10:17Come on, get your mouth out.
10:21Oh boy.
10:22You know you're a good person.
10:24That's enough.
10:24I feel like I'm turning you into an angry guy from that movie.
10:27It's not like where it's like,
10:29that's the volcano coming out of my ass.
10:32You just need to sleep.
10:32Sebastian, Luca, Paris, you're good.
10:34And if everyone fucking hates me, at least I have a dog and a boyfriend that fucking love me.
10:43We're tight, sweet air.
10:45One breeze, not a single care.
10:48Deep blue, old sky.
10:50And I feel like I'm...
10:51Brrr.
10:52Big brrr.
10:53Ooh, I wouldn't want to miss.
10:57Ooh, I'm feeling quite like this.
11:04Isn't it so pretty?
11:06It is.
11:07We can do this every day in the country.
11:09Just sit and enjoy the view.
11:10The view don't look like this, Taylor.
11:12When we get our house, we want to have a nice view.
11:14Okay.
11:15And I kind of want a change of scenery before I settle down in nature type of thing.
11:23So, what's your deal with that?
11:25L.A., New York, Charlotte?
11:28I like New York and I like L.A.
11:30But I want to be close to my family.
11:32My plan right now is to stay home, continue to work towards the goals I had for myself before all
11:40of this was introduced, the life coaching in school, and, you know, that side of things.
11:45I'm just gonna stay in North Carolina, travel to New York and L.A. for work, and I'm going to
11:51continue to prioritize studying psychology.
11:53School is super expensive.
11:55So, with content creation, social media, this will all help me be able to pay for school and be comfortable
12:01in doing that.
12:02I think you've got a much crazier schedule with school.
12:06I have a much crazier schedule with my endeavors.
12:10So, we have to see each other at least once a month.
12:13Mm-hmm.
12:14Clark decided to stay in North Carolina.
12:17Showed me that, you know, she's looking at the bigger picture and not just trying to live in the moment.
12:20I'm down for Charlotte over L.A. It's more of a slowest pace, not as bad as traffic, not as
12:26many people.
12:27Some chaotic stuff happened last night.
12:30A sip scene.
12:34Mm-mm. Mm-mm. Mm-mm.
12:36I think I needed this after yesterday.
12:41Yeah.
12:42Last night was crazy.
12:43The conversation downstairs.
12:45There was, like, this narrative being, like, pushed that, like, I'm a mean girl.
12:50They feel excluded from me and Hannah.
12:53Iris is so stuck on the idea that I'm friends with Pepe and I'm not friends with Pepe.
12:59We cannot let this guy dictate friendships.
13:02Like, if these are exes, no, no, no.
13:04He's got so much power.
13:06I can't even understand this concept of Pepe playing a part in any of our relationships.
13:12The problem is with Iris and something that she needs to sort out with Pepe.
13:16Before I went to bed, I was looking at my checks with Grayson.
13:20December 18th.
13:21The holiday party?
13:22Yeah.
13:22And I said, I wanted to check in on you.
13:24How are you?
13:24Did you guys squash it?
13:25I was freaked out last night.
13:27So I did text her.
13:28And I did check in on her.
13:29In my eyes, it defeats the whole, like, you don't check in.
13:33Like, you know, because what was I doing the night of the holiday party afterwards?
13:37I was, like, falling my eyes out at home.
13:39And I still made a point to make sure she was still okay.
13:43Grayson and Bella said that they feel like I wasn't fully there for them.
13:47That's not true to my experience at all.
13:49I feel like I really was there for them.
13:52And for them to just say this out of nowhere to me is very hurtful.
13:58I appreciate you always having my back and always listening to me.
14:01And always being there for me and giving me different perspectives.
14:04I value that a lot.
14:05And I love you.
14:06Thank you for your speaking.
14:08I love you too.
14:10Aw.
14:12Teen.
14:16Yeah, it's official.
14:17I said I love you first.
14:20I've been wanting to say that to you for a while.
14:23It takes me a long time to really love somebody.
14:26And with him, it's been really quick.
14:29That's crazy.
14:31I am really thankful for him.
14:34I really love him a lot.
14:35You should run through the house and say you love me.
14:40I love Iris!
14:52Good morning.
14:54Good morning, good morning, good morning.
14:57Hey, come on everybody, gather round, let's go snowboarding.
15:01Woo!
15:03Snowmobiling.
15:04Snowboarding?
15:04Fuck.
15:05Alright, come on everybody, let's go tubing and snowmobiling!
15:12Everybody, let's bounce.
15:14Bring your asses.
15:15A breath of bright.
15:19I got something to do.
15:22I got nothing to lose.
15:25So here we go, go, go, go.
15:28Go, go, go, go.
15:29Go, go, go, goern.
15:30Go, go, go, go.
15:32Oh my gosh.
15:34I'm excited.
15:34Yeah!
15:35What's up?
15:36Hold on, we going snow-mo, girl.
15:38Hi, guys.
15:40Couples, man.
15:41Couple shit.
15:43So it feels good to be in a couple.
15:45Man, doesn't it?
15:46I can't imagine not being in a fucking couple.
15:48Whoa, we got hills and shit?
15:51Oh, my gosh.
15:52Wait, let me dig.
15:53Wait, can we go down two at a time?
15:56Nah, bruh.
15:57Launch me, Cassie.
15:58Chris, be careful.
15:59Launch me.
16:00Oh, shit.
16:04Ty?
16:05Want to spin?
16:05Yeah.
16:07Oh, my God!
16:10Poor Gracie!
16:13Ow!
16:18Yeah, buddy!
16:25Oh, hell!
16:27Yo, how do you make this thing go faster, dawg?
16:30We didn't know we're in a competition, OK?
16:31It's couple-vers-couple.
16:32We're coming out on top.
16:33But-
16:34Damn!
16:38So, you're on a parallel.
16:39Whoo-hoo-hoo!
16:41Whoo-hoo-hoo!
16:42Whoo-hoo-hoo-hoo-hoo!
16:43Whoo-hoo-hoo-hoo!
16:44What?
16:44Oh, no, that is crazy!
16:48Yay!
16:50Yay!
16:50Yeah!
16:51Yeah!
16:52And that's what they call arrival in style, bitches.
16:58are you having fun uh yeah you uh yeah i mean it's like yesterday
17:09um i feel like we need to talk though um for sure what's on your mind i think that
17:17when it comes to us and our friendship i want the flirting to actually stop for good
17:23i'll bet all right then i'll stop that's fair but i've never once like led you on no that's
17:30not true how's it not true i think everybody online just assumes you're with jeremiah i know
17:46i'm very transparent with you about where i stand friendship best friend but i don't
17:53feel like you act like you're my friend we're flaring we're posting a lot of content together
18:01so everybody thinks we're together and we're not
18:07yes we flirt together yes and if you want that to stop that's cool but the mix signal thing
18:12it's like well it's you always who stars it's always you no i don't no i'm no i don't want
18:20to make i promise we're good
18:30no i don't no i'm no i don't want to make i promise we're good
18:42well that went bad i think if you care about me as your friend why are you hurting my feelings
18:48like you're literally playing with me
18:52what up mama
18:56are we gonna stay on
19:07hey maya can i talk to you for a quick second
19:10about what uh i'm respecting your boundaries and that's kind of what i just really quick
19:16just want to touch on the only thing i want to say is i wouldn't do anything to disrespect
19:21your relationship and your boundaries i just feel like the boundaries switched and if you
19:27real quick was like brian real on some real shit we can't really greet each other i'm just doing
19:33this for me and my relationship i would have been like cool noted like we're good the only thing
19:37i felt hella like slapped in the face with was like the dinner table thing at the end of the
19:42day
19:43if i don't with someone i just don't with you i thought the the dinner thing was a little much
19:49for someone that just tried to say hi in a cultural way like that's why i was like even
19:53questioning like is that about me i mean if you're cool with your girl kissing her ex on his cheeks
20:00to say hi that's a you problem no but that's not something i'm cool with and that's not something
20:04my man's cool with and we will never be not for sure no i see that and that's cool like
20:08i'm not
20:08negating that at all especially with this new relationship that i have right now that i'm very
20:13content in i don't want anything especially brian boundaries confusion to destroy this beautiful
20:26love story that i have currently going on we gave each other a lot in palm springs right we said
20:30hi
20:30boom that's it that's it how are you love good good good it's not like i was giving you like
20:37it was a
20:38hair it was a heritage thing we know that like we we both went through that like with the villa
20:42thing
20:42i'm not trying to say that you came in there with the tension of trying to be malicious or anything
20:47like that but what i'm saying is that before we were just saying hi keeping it casual but now as
20:52my
20:52relationship is progressing it's like i don't even want to say hi to you and that's fine i was just
20:56confused you're the one that pulled me for a trap right now no i know just because it was like
20:59this
21:00is the last day on the trip like i was just confused as in like if i really od disrespected
21:03it or something like that that is being disrespectful okay then i apologize for that that won't happen
21:08again well you go that way i'll go this way and that's cool like thank you that's literally what it
21:12is yes it's wild to hear that she thinks i was trying to disrespect the relationship uh i hope that
21:18works out like i really do have wishing nothing but the best god bless god bless
21:27that is literally the clarity i need book is closed and it's sent away i'm happy that that was
21:33cleared up whatever the happened right there because motherfucker don't even come near me
21:38are you crazy you see how long my hair is when i flip it that's how far you gotta stay
21:43back away
21:44back back the fuck up from me and my week the fuck can i can i jump and go all
21:54right hold on
21:54christopher please be careful do you have gloves no only gloves i'm such a mom let me just relax
22:00he's nuts he's literally nuts no
22:06she's so weird bro he was like i've always been clear we're friends what he said that yeah i'm like
22:11i'm so glad the camera caught you doing all that weird the day before the bar he kissed me yeah
22:16i
22:16never said that to make him look bad yeah so how you oh gotcha oh my god too late okay
22:24i'm your best
22:24friend but you kissed me two days ago but not only just kissing me but also being all over me
22:32i think he's trying to protect his image you've never escalated it even though we're flirting at the
22:38end of the day like i know we're just friends i'm not gonna like do something to jeopardize that
22:42has she ever tried to escalate things with you no i have all the test messages it's always him
22:48testing me i'm like we're friends we don't need to talk every day he's like hey just checking on
22:52you don't check on me yeah me and he are friends he's not checking on me you should sometimes
22:58i'm ready i disgraced it with my life i forgot how to start it already i'm not even gonna hold
23:04you
23:05i forgot how to start it already y'all i'm walking over here okay
23:11yeah bye this is getting good all over again at the end of the day i think that when you
23:19use words
23:20and say things like i let you or i allow you it gives a false perception that it was one
23:25-sided i never
23:27said that i said you're always the one to initiate everything and i follow like i do it back yeah
23:34that
23:34feels like different than like neutral though like it just feels like i'm like just annoying
23:37you or on your body crazy no because i always said it's fun and i like it but it has
23:42to stop
23:43because that's smooth like that's all you had to say i feel like the conversation but i think i said
23:47the same thing just in different words but at the end of the day it's like you want the flirting
23:51to stop
23:51i'm so down for that i guess i mean after this trip i guess i'll see you around i'll see
24:00you around
24:00it's crazy i mean i don't know what okay good
24:06at first i didn't understand where anjun is coming from because i was like i'm telling you we're just
24:11friends how are you getting mixed signals but if i'm telling you we're just friends and we're flirting
24:15like we're not just friends that's how you get mixed signals come come over here yeah come
24:20is my hair messed up i can't even see anything i can't what you're gonna do she knows the type
24:25of conversation we need to have she's already texted me this morning crying we don't need to do
24:29this if you don't want to she was basically giving me an out like dead ass she gonna take that
24:33shit bad either way but how would you plan to do it in the first place off camera coco keeps
24:37telling
24:37me to do it off camera like talk to her off camera i know my boy chris is uh scared
24:42to talk to
24:43coco because he's scared that courtney might come out but i think he should just rip the band-aid off
24:48instead of like having it lingered on because the longest it lingers on and he doesn't want to be
24:52part of it anymore the real courtney gonna come out i hope he does it quick because it's only gonna
24:57get worse and respect your wishes so that if you don't she'll get more mad at you for not respecting
25:01her wishes okay all right guys i'm ready to go back to be honest with you yeah i'm starving i'm
25:09cold
25:12i feel like today was the first day i was finally able to enjoy myself fully i really had such
25:17a
25:17great time it was so fun
25:24time to pack i stood up and get the hell out of here
25:32oh my god it's time to go back home
25:38i didn't even get to wear my fur tahoe was rough in the beginning and it was rough in the
25:45end
25:45i feel like the division just grew more prominent and i hate that for us
25:55guys quick we're gonna miss the sunset i had a great time in tahoe there were obviously some
26:01tough conversations and it was a little weird but we're a big family at the end of the day we
26:08went through a very unique experience together and i'm just so happy to have these friendships
26:25i think we got a good this is eight bars from last time yeah and i think we got a
26:32nice little
26:32record here honestly my team and i are hoping to drop the album right before summer because
26:39we want to make sure that all of the girlies all the papayas are you know what the dads could
26:44dance
26:44to it too want to taste up this papaya come and sip it up
26:58since you were sick in tahoe did you even get to talk to grayson wait how was that for you
27:02though
27:02seeing her it was fine we're both just kind of at the understanding now it's just not
27:06what's gonna happen you're gonna kick with her oh yeah like i mean she's a really great friend
27:12you know what i mean andreena just texted me what did andreena say i love you i miss you where
27:17you at
27:19i'm just kidding i'll give it 10 minutes to the flight and stuff
27:44what's up brother tees how we doing good to see you bro how many times do i see my name
27:48is nick vance i'm from
27:50jacksonville florida you might know me from season seven love island
28:06quick hurry up get in what the you might not and if you don't my name is nick vance cheers
28:15bro
28:15good to see you man as well how's wifey how's life you great bro we're now dating and everything so
28:21sick yeah i've been staying with her for a little while i'm with germi all the time i'm with hannah
28:25iris like pepe all the time no he honestly hasn't been showing up really is there beef there's a bunch
28:31of stuff he said took away from iris and i's relationship but uh we're not on the same page we
28:36uh
28:37you know we'll just we're just not gonna be friends i'm not that surprised that you know that there's
28:42tension since the beginning of time girls will make men go crazy pepe and i are boys i just support
28:48both my boys at the end of the day like i stay out of it where'd you get that thing
28:51bro elandrew got
28:52it for me oh really that's fire bro it's dancing i gave her a present and um i like filmed
28:58it for my
28:58youtube video or whatever and people started like crashing out like why the i guess like the louis box
29:04was just it was small oh like people were like oh like he didn't get her shit yeah oh my
29:10god i got
29:10her something good but that that's like some of the toughest things like since the villa like dealing
29:15with the public and like everyone watching everything and like have an opinion i think it's like it's
29:20crazy yeah because like you kind of control like the narrative in a little bit of a way like i
29:24only let
29:25people see like 10 percent i think there is some things that we keep private but we post every day
29:31basically it's just a part of our daily life so the public knows majority of what's going on in
29:36our lives so i saw alandria went to the golden globes yeah yeah you couldn't make it or something
29:43i never got the invite in the mail oh yeah that's because my car kept moving so that's my home
29:47address
29:48yeah yeah no but next year i want i really want to get into acting and like yeah what's your
29:52plans you
29:53think you're moving out here or anything or you know like the djing is so time consuming and like
29:58i go back and forth every other day dude i've been i've been debating it for forever but i don't
30:03know it's it's kind of not my vibe here yeah talk about long distance like is that hard for you
30:08yeah
30:09i mean like it's literally the opposite sides of the country yeah what about you she's in houston so it's
30:14like only two and a half hours away but at the same time it's like she is never in houston
30:20and i'm never
30:21in florida so it's like you guys are so busy and everything how do you make time for each other
30:25it's it's rough i mean i'm in a club like probably wednesday through saturday and she's 99 doing a
30:32shoot throughout the week or whatever but honestly our schedules have been like aligning up pretty
30:37nicely like she coincidentally was in la yesterday so we got dinner and chilled kicked it i mean just
30:43pray that it aligns iris and i are the same way but you know she has a lot more going
30:47on than i
30:48obviously do but i i have more with like the real estate and the stuff over in tampa so
30:53that's kind of like where we are like a little off schedule i've never really done a long distance
30:59relationship before so it's it's very new to me and there's a lot to learn and it's a lot to
31:05balance
31:06but iris and i were making the long distance work i feel like we don't get to see each other
31:10every
31:10single day so when we are together we're making sure that it's quality time spent it's good to see you
31:15bro yeah thanks for coming out it's worse
31:35oh you look good yeah i like this necklace thank you thank you thank you uh you look cute
31:44thank you so you and tj how are you guys doing you guys said i love you like officially yeah
31:52we
31:52were in bed so i was like oh i love you oh he's always there for me like you know
31:57sebastian like he's
31:58always like there for you and always has your back that's what we needed this whole time when are you
32:11going through it yeah and i felt like everybody was kind of like attacking you the thing is i was
32:16just not having like i was not doing good and like i feel like that's okay i feel like my
32:20friends
32:22would like know that we know
32:24i just feel like people don't understand how i deal with things because it's different than the
32:30way that they deal with things like i'm doing my best and it's just really hard but like i feel
32:35like
32:36everybody's just going against me i always say like you need to just be yourself and the people that
32:41like you want to be around you and the people that don't don't you know and like that's okay
32:45doesn't this spot on my my set kind of your penis it does that one's a penis i was staring
32:53at it right
32:54now i was like ah i feel dirty
33:05so cute
33:14hi baby how are you
33:17where's gray
33:20oh there she is
33:26you look good girl you look good i'm like a twilight vampire right now
33:32we love the little edward moment so um
33:35we all got the same thing thank you so much thank you
33:39wow these look that breather was great right yeah i haven't really talked to many
33:44since the trip but i mean it's only been like a week so i talked on green a little bit
33:49but yeah me
33:50too she's kind of nice she kind of was like in her corner a little bit i just wish there
33:54was like
33:55no animosity no tension obviously like hannah asked me so it's like if you're gonna ask me
34:01i have to speak on it i understand what you're saying but i'm also really happy that you did speak
34:05your mind because otherwise that's something that you would have been like holding in
34:11yeah all of that aside have you spoke to chris lately how have you guys been
34:18girl i feel like what's that look don't piss me off i mean i sent him a message and i
34:25let him
34:26know that things are off i'm not sure why but if we need to call the courts we can yeah
34:36i mean i sent him a message and i let him know that things are off i'm not sure why
34:41but if we need
34:41to call the courts we can yeah you know so i was looking for him to fix it and it
34:46didn't feel like
34:47that felt almost like a drag felt like he was just sweeping out of the rug during the trip in
34:54tahoe
34:55i realized i wasn't going to get what i needed from him in a relationship there was still a
34:59certain attentiveness that he lacked hey watch my board bro watch the board i got a handle on
35:06oh my god i'm having a hard time i'm not a baby but at the same time
35:12when i'm with a man i'm his baby so did you guys speak again after tahoe we did it was
35:18very
35:18inconsistent communication and now we've kind of like call things off so that's where you guys stand
35:25yeah we're done i don't like the story the ending was better in my head girl me too but no
35:32babes
35:42oh what's going on brother what's going on right big dog for a big guy i know we have boundaries
35:48brother boundaries hey how are you hi maria how are you sorry no no it's just that my relationship
35:59boundaries you're good though this is coda bro i ain't coda coda's already tired he went to the
36:08park earlier yeah that's you done for the day huh no coda need to hop on the gluten-free dairy
36:14-free
36:14diet for a little bit out here that they do in la he old for real yeah he about to
36:19be eight
36:19that's why he got the great hill that's what i'm saying bro like he's not about to be shredded
36:24i'm gonna be officially moved out here february word yeah did you find a spot yeah oh okay
36:30i went hollywood being in la the past few months and going from the east coast to west coast has
36:35definitely been adjustment but i can't lie i can't deny this the weather and the views yeah i'm loving
36:40cali i'll say that it's just about that time all the brands and stuff work out here too so yeah
36:46you want to chill here for a little bit yeah bro i think coda need a break
36:50i'm here i'm highly excited bro moving out here yeah me too spend the summer out here and stuff
36:55like that so how are you though bro since tahoe since that whole situation and everything
37:01really good bro really honestly like that was like because obviously we left off like when we first talk
37:07it was cool and everything and tahoe kind of like everything switched yeah but like it was more so like
37:12we're cordial like that chapter's been closed i feel like i closed the chapter in some part of my life
37:17bro and i'm opening up in brand new chapter out here in la yeah starting fresh and stuff like that
37:21so how are you feeling post tahoe oklahoma that was a lot how's stuff with you and coco we're done
37:30really yeah i told you we should just be friends bro i just don't think i can meet the expectations
37:35that she has just where i am in life right now bro i i i can't be stressed and worried
37:42about getting
37:43that done coco was raised by a single dad and you know he he instilled some expectations and treatment
37:49that you know a man should be giving her which any dad should do i would do that for my
37:52own daughter
37:53i think when you're on the other side you're actually dating the girl that has those expectations
37:58from her father i think it's a little tough what do you think she's saying to the girls right now
38:02about
38:02you i'm not really tripping bro another one bites the dust wait so you guys are like done you call
38:11it
38:11quick i gave him some space and then kind of reached out i kind of let him know like hey
38:16i'm
38:16gonna keep it a band with you i feel like our exchange hasn't been as fluent in the beginning
38:20i feel like you were really invested and excited to get closer to me but i feel like now i'm
38:25not
38:25really sure how you feel and then i go on instagram and like he's outside with brian he went to
38:32the club
38:32over the weekend without you i was just like oh well maybe he's just dealing with whatever personal
38:39things he has going on and then i just dealing with it on instagram and i'm like oh you're at
38:42the club in a section you're outside i thought and i'm inside waiting for your text did you speak
38:50with him after the club or did you just see him i did i did okay so you kind of
38:54confronted him about
38:54that i did i sent him a message i know i kind of brought it up the other night but
38:57i'm bringing it
38:58up again because it's kind of weighing on me i want you to be happy getting closer to a person
39:02you
39:02really really like and if this is truly not that we don't have to do this the reason he gave
39:08didn't
39:08feel legitimate and we both agreed like let's just call it a queen i really wish we would have
39:13just stayed friends he doesn't have the experience of having like a girlfriend right in front of him
39:18that he has to court regularly you know what i mean and yeah i just don't have the energy to
39:23teach
39:24um a 27 year old man how to do that no there's nothing wrong with that at all like you
39:29know exactly
39:30what you want and if you weren't getting exactly what you want like you're not trying to waste your
39:34time you're not trying to waste his time and it's not even a one it's just a bare minimum you
39:38know
39:38when you get to know somebody you stay it's going out and like courting properly and like being
39:44attentive and like because you want to pay attention to what this person does and how this person is
39:48i just i require that kind of attentiveness so i mean you tried yeah i do i really tried
39:57i stepped up romantically um i handle situations in a grown matter in my opinion with me dating coco
40:05for these last two three months i think it gave me a new perception on what i want for my
40:11future
40:11it gave me even more of a clear head of what i won't tolerate what i will put up with
40:16and what i
40:17will accept and also what i want going forward i think i need a day older someone who's more
40:23established i want a queen bro i don't want a princess make sense like i want my girl to have
40:29her own i want my girl to be established with her career and what she wants in life knows what
40:34she
40:34wants and how she wants to go about it like a real woman not a girl that's still chasing princess
40:42treatment
40:44all the time damn sheesh it's really a lot of them great is how you feel bro oh shit didn't
40:51really
40:51work out i think for now it's single chris all 26. on your time on my time what i want
40:57to do where
40:58i want to go okay leaving the seatbelt open riding dirty enough about me honey look y'all peep this
41:06off
41:06lunch pause what do you mean girl she took my austin show oh you know seeing austin post his
41:17relationship with the girl that he had told me he wasn't going in that direction with it was kind
41:24of a shock but at the same time no it wasn't because i always knew that there was something going
41:29on he just kind of made me feel like i was crazy and it's like baby i mean clearly i
41:35wasn't it
41:36clearly she wasn't in the matcha i really just want austin to be happy and if this makes him
41:41happy then i'm happy for him so i don't feel any sort of animosity towards him it was just kind
41:46of like
41:49people lost us and that's not our loss but we have each other and we found each other yeah through
41:55our hearts yeah and like i'm so grateful like i see you guys at my wedding like i see you
42:01guys
42:01going through life experiences i'll cry stop but you know what i mean like you know it's really
42:05special like and we're so lucky because this is what we wanted through it you know and just because
42:10we didn't find it with everyone how lucky are we to have found it with even just us oh don't
42:16cry
42:19that's when i came into the love island experience like hopeful girl you know don't make me cry and
42:31maybe we're silly for having our heart as much as we did but yeah i'm just i'm glad that like
42:38at least we have each other
42:56oh my god damn oh this is way more work than i expected oh my nursing graduation cat
43:08look at this here for now oh my gosh to finally be in my own place my own apartment my
43:17own castle
43:18it feels so free and papa papaya approves i don't like this it's like a flower growing out of power
43:27shape i still can see the look in his face that he doesn't want to let his little papaya go
43:33but he
43:34does approve and he knows that i'm safe which is the most important part this is crazy like how much
43:40the lip gloss a girl needs
43:45hi miss clarkies
43:49what's up baby girl i miss you i miss you more i'm at my castle and no matter how much
43:56i unpack bro
43:58the boxes just keep coming big it's like a bad nightmare there's more
44:05but no honestly like i'm really happy that i just finally have a place where i could call home
44:10just a place where i feel like i've worked for you know i'm so happy for you oh my god
44:17wait do you want
44:17to see do you want to see the apartment if i study it give me a tour okay let me
44:20give you a sorry
44:21this is one of my closets we're trying to do a little sign sign period period this is the bathroom
44:27i'm going to make this into like old hobbywood country style and i also have a balcony you can
44:32see the water wait literally you can see the water from here and then that's the city
44:39the fact that i'm here building my home together it's like wow i can't believe it i can't believe it
44:45i'm just very very proud of myself and i am happy to basically just make that little girl in me
44:51smile
44:51i just also wanted to say thank you if you were such a great support system on this journey really
44:57does mean a lot and i really do have a lot of love for you seeing all of my friends
45:01do these amazing
45:03big things and accomplish these crazy goals is very motivating and i have so many things that i want
45:09to accomplish putting myself back into the cheer world owning multiple businesses and just continuing
45:15to grow into the best version of myself what's tea what's next for amaya um i'm just going to
45:27continue on following my journey i'm so proud of you you're doing big things and even bigger it's coming
45:36up they don't even know amaya when somebody calls your name you just have to go for it you know
45:42it's
45:42passion this past year just taught me a lot of resilience and to keep on having faith and when
45:49life give you lemons make the lemonade i just see amaya papaya not stopping men who are gynecologist
45:55kind of freak me out you know i got a 97 on my vagina exam we didn't get the happy
46:01ending on
46:02the villa in fiji but this ending is better yeah this is my girlfriend oh yes tj this is the
46:09way it was
46:10supposed to be and look at us now look at us now we made it you made it
46:25i never would have thought i could be doing long distance i don't think anybody would choose this
46:33it's strengthened our relationship it has made me more like hopeful for what the future looks like
46:41for us christmas pj it's a friend's giving my life in a year should have been my life over the
46:48span of
46:49like six years there's so many opportunities that lie ahead i want to travel the world have fun get
46:55married and have babies you know i met somebody yesterday and she told me i'm gluten free
47:01fuck is gluten my first time in the west coast was this past summer and now i'm moving here it's
47:07so
47:07crazy and this experience it forced me to change in a lot of ways that i need to change and
47:11uh hearing
47:15people like my mom say i changed it means a lot
47:24i'm so glad that i went on this crazy ass show
47:28and guess what we have more creepy ass memories to be more made okay so get prepared make sure that
47:35buckle seat is buckle up
47:43why not bring a white christmas to la
47:51tomorrow night a new bomb scene enters the building yeah guys like i got a few properties
48:02that was good
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