00:04Tell me.
00:14That's difficult.
00:20Cat's been calling.
00:24Do you want to come round?
00:27No.
00:30You have to mix the worlds at some point.
00:39Do you want to be here?
00:44Yes.
00:49Yes.
01:00No.
01:04No.
01:15No.
01:16Sorry.
01:17No.
01:17No.
01:18There's too many friends.
01:25I had a dream
01:27I was learning
01:29When your love took it from me
01:31Ask me what I think I believe
01:33I need to see you
01:52Gosh, I start jogging
01:55I've been saying it for years
02:06Still a scalar
02:09Yeah
02:10Could get matching lycra
02:19We could
02:26As long as you wear the hot pink
02:27Ha, ha, ha...
02:28Ha, ha, ha...
02:31Ah, ja, ha, ha...
02:36Ah, ja
02:41Oh...
02:43Ah, ja, ja
02:44Ah, ja, ja
02:49Ah, ah, ja
03:19What did you get?
03:33They'll get to us, they're busy, everyone wants their time, you trying to get me fat?
03:42I'm trying, I'm succeeding you big lump, speak for yourself, you're spilling over those
03:46trousers. Thanks.
04:02I'm scared she won't be interested. I don't know about that man.
04:11Mum, are you okay? Yeah, I'm good, I was passing by.
04:15Passing by? Yeah, I was nearby, thought I'd pop in. Are they your friends? They look nice.
04:28Do you want to, um, do you want to go to the cafe? Yeah. Okay. Yeah, okay.
04:40Do you think I could have come to a place like this? Of course. You would have been president
04:46of all the unions. What's going on, Mum? I've given you guys a bad childhood. I don't know.
05:04We had a great childhood. Everything we needed. But your dad and the work. Kids shouldn't
05:14be exposed to that. You shouldn't have been exposed to that. It was always Dad pushing
05:19that world into our lives. I went into it with my eyes open.
05:22And he gave you no other choice. And that doesn't mean you can't want something different now,
05:27Ma. I have no idea what I want. That's okay. Me neither.
05:49Right, look. That's Matthew. He was shipped off the boarding school as soon as he could breathe.
05:56Works her way in here till 1 or 2 a.m. every day. Obviously hates himself.
06:02Her. Had to go up watching her dad verbally abusing her mom. No idea how to navigate a relationship
06:09with men now. Not sure it's wrong with that guy, but someone definitely is.
06:18You did a great job. Let's have some food. They do a great pasta.
06:25It's a bit carb heavy. Carbs, carbs, carbs. Come on. Let's have a carb day for once.
06:35Okay.
06:39Snoring again.
06:41I don't snore.
06:43The neighbors beg to differ.
06:46Is it the nice kind of snoring or the bad kind?
06:48The nice kind.
06:52Shut up.
06:57Yeah.
06:59I don't want to smoke in there.
07:12Oh, early.
08:00You okay?
08:08I'm sorry, Mum.
08:11Are you okay?
08:28I'm sorry.
08:33I'm sorry, I wasn't happy.
08:36My dad said he was leaving.
08:37Oh, no, I know you are.
08:47You had your own law school, huh?
08:53Dad came by to pack up his stuff.
08:57I'm sorry, I couldn't bear to tell you.
09:00I fucking hate him.
09:06Me too, right now.
09:11Come here.
09:17I'm in.
09:19I'm in.
09:20I'm in.
09:21I'm in.
09:52I'm in.
09:53I'm in.
09:54I'm in.
10:10I'm in.
10:13Give me a minute.
10:17You know what?
10:20I'm in.
10:21I like having you, John.
10:22I'm in.
10:22I'm in.
10:39I'm in.
10:50I'm in.
10:58I'm in.
11:01I'm in.
11:18Good to meet you.
11:19You two.
11:37Mum wanted to come.
11:39Said she's been calling.
11:44She had.
11:50You liking it here?
11:52Yeah.
11:54Um, tea or milk?
11:56Mm-hmm.
11:57Black coffee.
11:58OK. Any foods?
12:00No, I'm good.
12:01Me too.
12:02OK.
12:05Black coffee?
12:07Well, I'm too hot chocolate.
12:15Are you, Ben?
12:18Am I what?
12:21Um...
12:21Why can't you hear?
12:27It's different.
12:30Not as much football.
12:32Thank God.
12:33Aye.
12:35Aye.
12:35Mm-hmm.
12:44Mm-hmm.
12:45Mm-hmm.
12:47How's, um...
12:49Um...
12:49Bargon?
12:53Fine.
12:55Yeah.
13:04Um...
13:04I think Mum's worried about Sam...
13:08and Shannon.
13:14Listen...
13:16That's gonna take a little bit of time to adapt.
13:20She thinks Sam won't look out for them.
13:25What if something happens to Mum or Shannon?
13:28That's not.
13:29I won't.
13:30You don't know that.
13:31I won't, like...
13:44Look, Dad, I want you to be happy.
13:47Truly.
13:52Could you just answer the phone to Mum so I don't have to be a go-between?
13:55Call Nan back.
13:57Just something.
14:01I can't right now.
14:13Thanks.
14:29Were you and Mum ever happy?
14:33Like, truly happy?
14:38We were best friends.
14:47That's a lot of life to have sacrificed for you both.
15:08What about you?
15:12Are you happy?
15:13Do you like it here?
15:15Do you think...
15:18Do you think I'll end up staying?
15:23But I like it here, yeah?
15:24Yeah.
15:29What do you like about it?
15:35I don't know.
15:39I like the people.
15:41Mm-hm.
15:43I like being no one.
15:47I like my friends not being scared off by my family.
15:51But I also like not being scared off by Mum.
15:55I guess I feel like I can breathe.
16:02That sounds silly, right?
16:11Feeling good?
16:12You look good.
16:14I'm concerned about your cholesterol, though.
16:16I did just have a packet of crisps.
16:18I don't think it'll just be the crisps.
16:20I'll send you home with a list of things to keep an eye out for on your diet.
16:24How are you feeling about starting the chemo?
16:28Okay.
16:29Yeah, ready.
16:31When you come in next, it'll be the induction stage of the therapy.
16:35Sorry, Doctor, but I mean, that's a big decision to make.
16:39Seems crazy to decide that after one medical opinion.
16:42There must be some other avenues we can explore, no?
16:45I'm afraid the NHS doesn't really work like that.
16:49I'm the only specialist in this hospital.
17:03Look, we gotta go, Prevot.
17:05No, I like it here.
17:07That's shite.
17:09I like my doctor.
17:11He knows my history.
17:13You will get more care.
17:14Better care.
17:15No.
17:16I'll pee.
17:17Will you stop throwing your weight around?
17:19It's my life and my health.
17:22I'll get the car, you get the prescription.
17:42Come on.
17:44Pa.
17:45Hey, Pa.
17:46Come on.
17:48What, am I like 10, 20 minutes late?
17:50It's a busy area.
17:51From late to late.
17:52I was in the hospital.
17:53There's a lot of that around here.
17:55Somebody else might need your spot for an appointment.
17:57Come on, give me a break.
18:01You're just a fucking prick, aren't you?
18:03Hey, what's your tone?
18:04What's my tone?
18:05Aye.
18:17No.
18:19No.
18:42Oh, no!
18:44Oh, no!
18:47Okay.
19:36You two, well you should come over, you know, the pork toast, it's incredible.
19:40No, I can't, I've got to watch my cholesterol now.
19:42Well, we've got salads.
19:44Oh my God, let's get a taxi now.
19:46Can they eat that salad?
19:48No, they're really good, honestly.
19:52What about you?
19:53Do you like your foods?
19:56If it's beige, then I'll eat it.
20:00I can't get them to accept vegetables just yet.
20:03I saw him inhale a multi-bag of six croissants this morning.
20:07French croissants.
20:08Croissants.
20:09Croissants, sorry darling, so cultured.
20:11You've always been a cultured boy, I'm rich.
20:13Certainly have.
20:16I can't go to France anymore, I start sneezing, I'm allergic.
20:19To France?
20:20To the grass, I think.
20:21I think there's like a hay fever problem.
20:23Oh, right.
20:25Just in France?
20:25I don't know if it was all the time, but the last time I was here, I was like, bad.
20:29That's weird.
20:29Oh, really.
20:32I can't go into every person.
20:46I'm just going to get a refill.
20:49OK.
20:53You get any holidays booked?
20:55She wants to go in.
21:01That was really nice. Thank you.
21:20You okay?
21:24I spoke to Kat.
21:28Yeah?
21:42That go okay?
21:46Bit of shouting and swearing to begin with.
21:50As we expected.
21:53Things aren't going well.
21:55With Sam.
22:01Are family okay?
22:04He's being impulsive.
22:09Violent.
22:11Acting without thinking.
22:17You always had that in him, but...
22:22I guess I was able to keep it in check.
22:28No, he's in charge.
22:33Could you talk to him?
22:40Nothing is beyond that.
22:45You're worried about them?
22:50No.
23:01I can't go back.
23:05I can't.
23:07No.
23:08You don't have to right now.
23:13That was so good, isn't it?
23:14That job, but...
23:21I can't even imagine doing it again.
23:39What made you get at it?
23:46I was always willing to do anything...
23:49for the family.
23:52The kids.
23:55The people I loved.
24:00Anything.
24:07I couldn't always talk to them, but I could make sure they had everything, you know?
24:19And then...
24:23After a while, it just becomes...
24:28Normal.
24:28Normal.
24:33And the more you do that...
24:37The harder it is to step away.
24:43Did you want to?
24:46Step away?
24:51All the time.
24:55I was always doing it for somebody.
24:59My dad.
25:04And them.
25:18And I started to love the feeling.
25:27Walking into a room...
25:32Everybody knows you, they are.
25:37The entire community treating you like a hero.
25:47That feeling.
25:52I can't describe it.
25:56That's...
25:59Pure power.
26:09I've done things.
26:12Done.
26:18I've done...
26:20I've done some bad things.
26:32Do you think I'm evil?
26:37I think that you survived.
26:42I think...
26:43You found your place in a hard world.
26:50I...
26:51I love you.
26:56I love you for you.
26:59Every part of you.
27:05I love the Dylan inside my flat.
27:10And I love the Dylan outside of it.
27:19But...
27:19If this is the world that you truly want to be in...
27:23Then you need to let your family into it too.
27:26No.
27:46No.
27:47No.
27:47No.
27:48I know he hears voice calls.
27:52I want you to know...
27:55that...
27:56you and Luke mean the world to me.
28:06Chan, I'm so sorry for what happened.
28:11For what you've had to see.
28:18I know your heart must be breaking right now.
28:26I've been so selfish.
28:30I realise I meant a lot to you.
28:35There are things about our family, about me, that you don't know.
28:43Let me explain why I'm in this world.
29:01I hate to say goodbye, but it's better to lay down now.
29:11Don't try to force it, cause we might just play.
29:16I hate to say goodbye, but it's better to lay down now.
29:20Cause if the cap doesn't fit, don't hesitate.
29:25Flip the Whatsbeth.
29:27Don't try to release your heart from the ground.
29:28That's for me the end.
29:29Sand.
29:29I love my heart.
29:31I love my heart.
29:31I love my heart, but I love your heart.
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