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00:00:09I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you so much. Will you marry me? Yes. Here's
00:00:20to love.
00:00:20This is crazy. Finding love, it's everything I thought it would be. Time's on. This is what
00:00:29a great relationship is supposed to look like. I never thought I would fall so hard and so
00:00:36fast. You make it easy to love you. I'm very excited for this new adventure. I know real
00:00:44love exists. I just feel like you guys aren't going to get married. You need someone who's
00:00:48going to show you places you've never been before. I want to do that with you. Stop. You
00:00:52might be dangerous for me. Yes. You're the bitch. Oh my god. I just have to trust my feelings.
00:01:00I hate you so much. I think I thought things were better than they were. Are you nervous?
00:01:04I don't think I've ever put so much into a relationship. I've been waiting for this day
00:01:08my whole life. I'm just nervous. Holy shit. This is the biggest moment of my life.
00:01:23Oh! Wow. Ladies, ladies, ladies!
00:01:29Oh! Oh-h!
00:01:31U. O.
00:01:31O.
00:01:33H.
00:01:34I do that every season but it's never worked.
00:01:38Let's grab a seat, grab a seat.
00:01:42Look at Ohio in the house.
00:01:45He's a proud Ohioan.
00:01:47Hi, everybody.
00:01:49Hey.
00:01:49Hi.
00:01:51I'm Vanessa Lachey.
00:01:52And I'm Nick Lachey.
00:01:54And welcome to Love Is Blind.
00:01:59Well, guys, I'm curious why Love Is Blind.
00:02:02For me, it's just simply just to find my best friend.
00:02:05That's beautifully said, man.
00:02:06A lot of people judge me by how I look
00:02:09and want to take me home but not take me home to mama.
00:02:12Aww.
00:02:13I'm the doctor, and you get the awards,
00:02:14and you get the career,
00:02:15and you get everything that you ever wanted.
00:02:17You can't share it with somebody
00:02:18that understands you to your core.
00:02:20It's empty.
00:02:21This is me showing up for my life.
00:02:25Wow.
00:02:25I'm adopted into a white family from China.
00:02:29Oh, okay.
00:02:29I also had over ten surgeries
00:02:32to get rid of a birthmark
00:02:33that would have caused melanoma.
00:02:35So my whole life has been thinking
00:02:38about the physical aspect.
00:02:40So this is the first time I get to showcase,
00:02:42like, my personality.
00:02:44I'm super excited to be here.
00:02:45I spent my entire 20s focused
00:02:48on becoming the woman of my dreams.
00:02:50Personally, professionally, spiritually.
00:02:52And as I've entered my 30s, I'm like,
00:02:54okay, she need a man.
00:02:56She's a husband.
00:02:57And I always say,
00:02:58Jesus died single.
00:02:59I don't need to die single.
00:03:01No.
00:03:03That's why I'm here.
00:03:06Well, for the next ten days,
00:03:07you will finally have a chance
00:03:09to fall in love based solely on who you are on the inside.
00:03:12Not for your looks, your race, your background, or your income.
00:03:17And if you fall in love and find somebody
00:03:19that you want to spend the rest of your life with,
00:03:21you'll get engaged.
00:03:22And then you'll finally see your fiancé
00:03:25for the very first time.
00:03:27And in just four weeks,
00:03:29you will be at your wedding.
00:03:31And there you will make the most important decision
00:03:33of your life.
00:03:35Will you say, I do,
00:03:37to the person you fell in love with sight unseen?
00:03:40Or will you choose to walk away forever?
00:03:44Is love truly blind?
00:03:47An age-old question.
00:03:50We hope that you prove that it is.
00:03:55The pods are now open.
00:04:04H-I-O!
00:04:07Let's go, boys.
00:04:08First day of the rest of your life, boys.
00:04:10Whoo!
00:04:12Let's do this.
00:04:13Yes!
00:04:14Let's go find love, boys!
00:04:16Yes!
00:04:16Yes!
00:04:17Paws are open!
00:04:18Bye!
00:04:20Hi!
00:04:21Is that my wife?
00:04:22Is that my husband?
00:04:24I don't think I've ever been on, like,
00:04:25almost 16 dates in one day, so...
00:04:27Your voice is literally, like,
00:04:29sex operator voice?
00:04:30Nah, sex operator.
00:04:31Oh, let's get in there.
00:04:32La, la, la, la.
00:04:33What are you, like, doing outside of work?
00:04:35Saturday and Sunday, it's football.
00:04:38Oh, music to my ears.
00:04:40Why love is blind?
00:04:41To find my wife.
00:04:42I thrive in chaos.
00:04:45I don't want to always meet a girl, like, at a bar.
00:04:48Where do you meet them?
00:04:49Target.
00:04:51Six of my friends.
00:04:53DM me about this.
00:04:54At first, I was like, I didn't know how to take that.
00:04:57You're like, how single do I look?
00:04:58Yeah.
00:04:59I think the biggest misconception that people have about me
00:05:02is, like, kind of like a big oaf.
00:05:06But I like art and reading, and I think I'm a pretty good cook.
00:05:10Hello.
00:05:11Hello.
00:05:12You're not going to be hungry.
00:05:13Look at me.
00:05:14This is Jordan.
00:05:15What's your name?
00:05:16My name is Amber.
00:05:18So, definitely a foodie.
00:05:19Love to cook.
00:05:20Yes!
00:05:21I'm a foodie, too.
00:05:22Like, I'll talk food all day long.
00:05:23What's your favorite thing to cook?
00:05:25Honestly, breakfast.
00:05:25I do have a seven-year-old daughter.
00:05:27Okay.
00:05:28I love making her waffles.
00:05:29So good.
00:05:30I make Thanksgiving for my family every year.
00:05:32Nice.
00:05:33I make Christmas dinner for my family every year.
00:05:35Yeah, okay.
00:05:36When I first had Emma, nurses really weren't making a lot of money.
00:05:39There was a Christmas there where I couldn't even buy her Christmas presents.
00:05:42Oh, wow.
00:05:42I was, like, so stressed out and crying and, like, felt so bad about myself.
00:05:46But I have a picture of her and I, like, just laying there on the top of my staircase.
00:05:51And she's so happy because children, they don't care about anything but love.
00:05:57And I think that's the same with relationships.
00:05:59You can make all the money in the world.
00:06:00You can have the hottest girl in the world.
00:06:02You can have the hottest guy.
00:06:03At the end of the day, they're not going to lay there on the staircase with you when you're broke
00:06:08and laugh with you.
00:06:09Like, it doesn't mean shit.
00:06:11I guess that's what I'm looking for here, too, is just to find that person.
00:06:14That's what we're here for.
00:06:16I'm often not the best with first impressions.
00:06:19They're not going to want this, like, country bumpkin.
00:06:22I do have a daughter.
00:06:23So do you want a family?
00:06:26I want to be judged for who I am inside because I'm funny and I'm settled down.
00:06:35So I would love for somebody to come join that in my comfy ass bed.
00:06:39You got to stay cool, baby.
00:06:42Yeah.
00:06:43No matter what you do.
00:06:44Find your wife.
00:06:45Find your wife.
00:06:46You got to stay cool.
00:06:46My name is Victor.
00:06:47I go by Vic.
00:06:48I'm Christine.
00:06:49I think we're here for the same reasons.
00:06:51I hope so.
00:06:53I've been wanting to be married for some time.
00:06:55And I've searched for that sometimes in the wrong places.
00:06:57Let's get talking.
00:06:59That's where I thrive.
00:07:00I'm here to find a wife.
00:07:01Where are you from, Vic?
00:07:02I'm originally from Brooklyn, New York.
00:07:04But coming to Columbus, you become a Buckeye.
00:07:05You know what I'm saying?
00:07:06Did you hear us on the OHIO earlier?
00:07:08Oh, you already know.
00:07:10What do you do?
00:07:11I'm a professor at one of the universities out here in Columbus.
00:07:13Are you?
00:07:14Yeah.
00:07:15In what?
00:07:16Specifically in public policy.
00:07:18Pretty much a big focus on data analytics.
00:07:21Sounds fun.
00:07:22It is, though.
00:07:23It is.
00:07:24Right.
00:07:25I'm very passionate about it.
00:07:27I love that.
00:07:28What drives you?
00:07:28What motivates you?
00:07:29Get you done?
00:07:30I am a speech-language pathologist, but I just want to continuously be better.
00:07:35Are you a Christian?
00:07:36100%.
00:07:37Did you tell your folks you were coming out here?
00:07:39My mom, yeah.
00:07:40What did she say?
00:07:41She trusts my judgment, and she's really, really excited for me.
00:07:44Cool.
00:07:45How about you?
00:07:46She trusts my judgment as well.
00:07:48She better.
00:07:48Yup.
00:07:50I want to get married because I really want a true partnership.
00:07:53I want to have kids, and I want to have the Super Bowl house.
00:07:57Like, I want to be cooking out and making snacks for the kids, all the friends, the family,
00:08:02the guys, like my girlfriends.
00:08:03The Super Bowl house is definitely my fairytale ending.
00:08:06Can we just start?
00:08:07I know, literally.
00:08:08I was like, I love talking to these men.
00:08:10When someone sees me or I see them, there are all sorts of automatic assumptions that happen immediately.
00:08:17I mean, that's been studied, but it's unavoidable.
00:08:19Being a woman in science, having no idea what somebody looks like, and really getting to know their heart and
00:08:25soul, it makes sense to me.
00:08:28My name is Chris.
00:08:29I am Jess.
00:08:30You can be the most gorgeous man if you open your mouth and say some stupid shit.
00:08:34You are not going to be gorgeous to me anymore.
00:08:37Do you have any pets?
00:08:38I do have a pet.
00:08:40It's a little cat.
00:08:41She was like a stray.
00:08:42She chose you.
00:08:43I know.
00:08:44What's her name?
00:08:45Chalupa.
00:08:46Chalupa!
00:08:47I'm obsessed.
00:08:48I have two English Bulldogs.
00:08:51It's a face only a mother could love.
00:08:53Oh, I love the uglier the better.
00:08:55What do you do for work?
00:08:57I am an infectious diseases doctor, so I work at the hospital.
00:09:01Okay.
00:09:02So, like, during COVID, I was, like, in the ICU, like, watching people dying all day.
00:09:07Oh, my God.
00:09:08So you're, like, front lines.
00:09:09Yeah.
00:09:10Anybody who works inside a hospital during that time period, like, listening to, like,
00:09:13a bunch of bullshit from, like, outside world and, like, seeing people in there, it must
00:09:18have been tough.
00:09:18It was really, really hard.
00:09:20I actually went to Kuwait for, like, a whole year, spent nine months in the desert.
00:09:23I was in a Blackhawk unit.
00:09:24Wow.
00:09:25And, you know, the order I get, you just naturally gravitate towards, like, just wanting to be
00:09:30a better person and wanting to live in a better society.
00:09:32A hundred percent.
00:09:33I mean, you live it, which is amazing.
00:09:36I actually am divorced.
00:09:38Okay.
00:09:38Yeah.
00:09:38And I only bring up the fact that I was divorced because, at the time, I would just watch people
00:09:44die and come home and, like, crash.
00:09:46It kind of felt like this person who was supposed to be, like, my safe space and my support was,
00:09:51like, oh, gosh.
00:09:52Like, what am I supposed to do?
00:09:55And my ex-husband is a really good person.
00:09:58But our ideas of what a marriage was, what a spouse does, were so different.
00:10:05And it opened my eyes to so much about me.
00:10:09I have a very, very full, active, fun, loving, amazing life.
00:10:16And I feel like, man, I would love to share this with somebody.
00:10:19I want to share it with, like, my best friend.
00:10:21I love that so much, Chris.
00:10:23We're on top of the world.
00:10:25Modern dating is, are you hot, am I hot?
00:10:28Is he maybe a little taller, heavier, more muscles?
00:10:31What's your name?
00:10:31My name is Chris.
00:10:32Chris, I'm Brianna.
00:10:33You're like, oh, what's a guy man supposed to look like?
00:10:36I'm not going to lie about it.
00:10:37I'm not going to put six foot just to, like, beat someone and be like,
00:10:39hey, dude, you're not six foot.
00:10:40My friends call me Breezy.
00:10:41All right.
00:10:42That sounds good, Breezy.
00:10:43So what do you do to unwind?
00:10:45I do a lot of jujitsu.
00:10:47That helps me balance myself out a little bit.
00:10:49I've done, like, Ironmans.
00:10:50I like doing, like, triathlons.
00:10:52Wow.
00:10:52I just love being active.
00:10:53I love doing, like, hard shit that, like, people nobody else wants to do.
00:10:57They're like, I don't want to do it.
00:10:58Like, I'm going to do it.
00:10:58Like, I love this shit.
00:10:59He's a lunatic.
00:11:00I, like, have an ice plunge at my place and I get in every single morning.
00:11:03It's 34 degrees.
00:11:04And I'm like, this is the hardest thing I'm going to do today.
00:11:06The rest of my day and whatever happens to me, I don't care.
00:11:08That is so attractive.
00:11:10Like, I want to do hard shit.
00:11:12Like, I want to challenge myself.
00:11:14Hell yeah.
00:11:14I'm telling you, I will make you do hard shit.
00:11:16If you don't want to do it, I'll help you coach.
00:11:17I'll motivate you.
00:11:18I'll motivate you the best of my ability.
00:11:20I respect that so much.
00:11:22I was in competitive cheerleading and softball.
00:11:25What position in softball did you play?
00:11:27I was a pitcher.
00:11:29Oh, wow.
00:11:30Do you think you could strike me out?
00:11:32Oh, hell yeah.
00:11:33With confidence, I could strike you out.
00:11:35Oh, my God.
00:11:35I absolutely could.
00:11:37I get intense.
00:11:38Oh, yeah.
00:11:38My friends and I are very competitive.
00:11:40Are you?
00:11:40So, I think you would fit it in the mix.
00:11:42I totally agree.
00:11:46I mean, how much time do you have?
00:11:47Like, could this be a therapy session?
00:11:49My dream of heart is showing.
00:11:51I wear it on my sleeve.
00:11:53It's shining and I know it.
00:11:55Yeah, you just gotta believe it.
00:11:57Yeah, yeah.
00:11:57I think that love is deeper than a physical attraction.
00:12:01I felt it.
00:12:01I know that.
00:12:02My friends and I joke, we're like, we've given a lot of medium ugly guys some chances.
00:12:06I know that's savage to say, but like, why'd you break my heart?
00:12:10You're only medium ugly.
00:12:11What's your name?
00:12:12I am Brianna.
00:12:13Brianna?
00:12:14Yes, but people call me Breezy.
00:12:17Why do they call you Breezy?
00:12:18I've just been Breezy since I was little.
00:12:20Breezy's one of the coolest nicknames I've ever heard.
00:12:23Let's go.
00:12:24What's your name?
00:12:25My name's Connor.
00:12:26Connor?
00:12:26No cool nicknames?
00:12:27My last name is Spies.
00:12:29Most of my friends call me Spies.
00:12:31I love it.
00:12:31Breezy and Spies, dude.
00:12:33That's actually really cool.
00:12:34Breeze and Spies.
00:12:35Breezy and Spies.
00:12:36I love it.
00:12:36Okay, tell me about yourself.
00:12:37What's going on?
00:12:37I went to school at Michigan.
00:12:39So are you a Wolverine?
00:12:40I am.
00:12:41Ugh.
00:12:42That is the hottest thing I've heard all day.
00:12:45I'm looking for someone that wants to slow dance, but then when Mr. Brightside comes
00:12:49on, we're in the middle of the dance floor.
00:12:50Oh my God, the fact that you just said Mr. Brightside, I'm like, you know I went to
00:12:54Michigan.
00:12:54I'm like, we're unknown for singing that in the stadium.
00:12:57That's my favorite song of all time.
00:12:59Amazing.
00:13:00I literally like put three stars next to your name.
00:13:03Are you a Michigan draft?
00:13:04I am not, but I hate Ohio State.
00:13:07I went to OU.
00:13:08I'm from Cleveland.
00:13:10My dad grew up in Minneapolis.
00:13:11I lived in Minneapolis.
00:13:12I just put two more stars.
00:13:15I'm super active.
00:13:16I played in a broomball league.
00:13:18No way.
00:13:19Yeah.
00:13:20Broomball is so fun.
00:13:21I like to go on ski trips.
00:13:23Oh my God.
00:13:24So.
00:13:24I love skiing.
00:13:25Okay, so star, star, star.
00:13:27We both like to ski.
00:13:28You have like the most stars so far.
00:13:30Oh, Connor.
00:13:32Okay.
00:13:32I know.
00:13:32I shouldn't have said.
00:13:33I love this for us.
00:13:34So let's get married.
00:13:36Connor.
00:13:37A couple weeks later after we get married, our honeymoon would just be on a ski trip.
00:13:41Full ski trip.
00:13:42I'm not even fucking kidding you.
00:13:43Like that sounds like the coolest like next seven weeks of my life.
00:13:46Can you imagine?
00:13:47When you say, can you imagine?
00:13:48I'm not even kidding you.
00:13:49You're like, no, I can't because I feel like it's going to happen.
00:13:51Like putting it in the universe.
00:13:52I really can't imagine that.
00:13:54Oh, I love it.
00:13:55It's crazy.
00:13:56I put so many fucking stars on here.
00:13:58I'm looking to find my ride or die.
00:14:00I want someone there next to me.
00:14:03Whether it's karaoke, singing Mr. Brightside with all of our friends cheering us on.
00:14:08And then Sunday, just sitting on a couch, not even speaking to each other.
00:14:12Just holding hands, door dashing food, watching Netflix.
00:14:15Hey, a man that knows what he wants.
00:14:17God dang.
00:14:17That's what I'm looking for.
00:14:19Let's do this shit, baby.
00:14:24Hello.
00:14:24Hello.
00:14:25What's your name?
00:14:26My name's Connor.
00:14:27Connor, I'm Emma.
00:14:28Emma?
00:14:28Emma.
00:14:29God, I love that name.
00:14:30Ooh.
00:14:31So I'm already a winner?
00:14:32I'm not going to say it out loud, but like I've already put a star next to your name.
00:14:36Wow, okay.
00:14:36Oh, I didn't say it out loud.
00:14:37I didn't hear it.
00:14:38Good.
00:14:39My mom literally goes, I love you, but sometimes just shut the fuck up.
00:14:44And I'm like, I mean, honestly, not bad advice.
00:14:48Keep going, Connor.
00:14:49Disappoint your mom.
00:14:50I've already done that for 31 years.
00:14:52What do you do for work?
00:14:54I'm in retail merchandising, so I work at like a fashion company.
00:14:57What do you do?
00:14:57I sell dumpsters.
00:15:01Do you actually?
00:15:02I swear to God.
00:15:03No.
00:15:03I can't make it up.
00:15:04What kind of dumpsters?
00:15:05Like those large, like commercial ones.
00:15:09Hey, we would actually be living in a world of waste if we didn't have dumpsters.
00:15:13Because of you, Connor, we are clean.
00:15:15Are you just gassing me up?
00:15:17Do you like me?
00:15:18I literally put sells dumpsters star.
00:15:22You have like three stars already.
00:15:23My sister's going to wash this and like, she's so dumb.
00:15:26But I'll be like, hey, well, me and Emma are married, so.
00:15:28I'll get on board with dumpsters.
00:15:30Oh, gosh.
00:15:30What are you doing for this in your life?
00:15:31Yeah.
00:15:32I used to be self-conscious of my scars.
00:15:35On dates, like it just was like an elephant in the room that people stared a lot and didn't
00:15:39ask questions and that was really uncomfortable.
00:15:41So when I'm here, you completely erase all those physical appearances.
00:15:46Hello.
00:15:47Hi.
00:15:47Hey, how's it going?
00:15:49Oh my gosh, it's going so good.
00:15:51There is just something so incredible and exciting about that.
00:15:53What's your name?
00:15:54My name is Mike.
00:15:55How about you?
00:15:56Mike, I'm Emma.
00:15:57Pleasure, pleasure, Emma.
00:15:58Pleasure.
00:15:59So your dating experiences, how have they been?
00:16:01So I've been single for about a year now and I do want to get married.
00:16:06I think there is something to a commitment, a lifelong like journey, being able to celebrate
00:16:12your love.
00:16:13Absolutely.
00:16:13I definitely want kids.
00:16:15It's like, okay, we've done so much together in our married life now.
00:16:19Let's put that love into a little baby.
00:16:21I want to find the right partner, but kids change the whole dynamic.
00:16:27Yeah, listen, I know I want kids, right?
00:16:29Yeah.
00:16:30But it doesn't necessarily mean that I need to have them right away.
00:16:33I am not a 100% yes, but I'm not a no.
00:16:39I know a lot of people really want kids, but for me, I don't know yet.
00:16:45I appreciate you being super honest with me about it.
00:16:49I'm adopted.
00:16:50I do not know my birth family or if they are going to pass down any medical problems.
00:16:55That scares me about having a child.
00:16:58I've been raised by a white family.
00:17:00They're the best examples of love.
00:17:03But right now, I'm not ready to disclose that.
00:17:08It's just something I don't think anyone can understand until they know who I am.
00:17:15Sometimes you don't even understand it yourself.
00:17:22Who am I speaking to?
00:17:23Oh, you're speaking to Steven.
00:17:24Steven!
00:17:26Who am I speaking to?
00:17:27Emma.
00:17:27Emma.
00:17:28So just to let you know, I'm not like the type of guy that's going to be like diving super
00:17:32deep into like hard hitting questions.
00:17:34Like someone who can answer back and forth. It's like they are smart.
00:17:36You got to stay on your toes.
00:17:37Be quick with it.
00:17:38You got to be quick with it.
00:17:40What do you do for fun?
00:17:41I love spending time with my dog.
00:17:43He's 12 years old.
00:17:44They go to breweries.
00:17:45I'm excited for having him meet whoever my fiance is.
00:17:50I found him through this adoption Facebook page.
00:17:53And now he is my best friend.
00:17:56Transitioning to like dog to human, do you think you would ever like adopt a child ever?
00:18:03Yeah, I, um, am, uh, for children I think right now I want to find like the right partner for
00:18:13kids.
00:18:14But adoption is a million percent on the table.
00:18:19Like there are so many children that deserve and need to be loved.
00:18:23And I feel like a lot of the guys in here, I don't know.
00:18:25Tell me if I'm wrong, but I feel like they're starting off like, do you want, do you want my
00:18:28babies?
00:18:28Yeah.
00:18:29And it's like, I feel like when I get back, I'm going to do big brother program pretty hard.
00:18:33I've like seen a lot of men who like haven't had like a dad like mine or like a grandpa
00:18:37like me.
00:18:38Yeah.
00:18:38And I'm like, they're missing out on a lot.
00:18:41My grandma and grandpa have like the best like love story ever.
00:18:45Oh my gosh.
00:18:46Wait, do you have time to tell it or do you need to bookmark that?
00:18:47Of course, for you, anything.
00:18:49My grandpa was a World War II guy.
00:18:51He served in France like towards the tail end of it.
00:18:54And he would always go to like this bank teller and they didn't speak each other's language at all.
00:18:58And ended up being like my grandma.
00:19:00And he just went up to her one time and like pointed at the clock and like gestured to meet
00:19:03me here at that time.
00:19:05Stop.
00:19:06It was like the most healthy marriage.
00:19:08Oh my gosh.
00:19:08That is so.
00:19:09I love love stories.
00:19:11I love love.
00:19:11That is.
00:19:11I'm just like, you don't hear that anymore.
00:19:13No.
00:19:14Now you just get me and you behind a pot.
00:19:16Are you pointing at a non-existent clock?
00:19:19Yeah.
00:19:19Right.
00:19:20I'm like dancing by myself.
00:19:21I love dancing.
00:19:22So I used to dance for 12 years.
00:19:24Oh, wow.
00:19:24In college, I actually taught senior citizens hip hop and like dance fitness.
00:19:28Why is that the cutest thing ever?
00:19:30When my parents would come home from date night, they would like start dancing in the kitchen.
00:19:34My parents were the same way.
00:19:35Like you can hear about love, but I like saw it my whole life.
00:19:38I want that.
00:19:39First day in the pod, there are people that make me laugh and make my heart flutter.
00:19:44I don't want to like put it, like I don't want to jinx it.
00:19:47But there's a highly likely chance my future husband's here.
00:19:51Yay!
00:19:53She said yes!
00:19:55Yay!
00:19:57Their energy is insane.
00:19:59So much better than sitting at a bar with somebody.
00:20:02We could all be engaged next week.
00:20:03I like having with an A.
00:20:04Do you have one or two standouts?
00:20:06Yeah.
00:20:06I have eight boyfriends.
00:20:09Literally every guy told me they wanted a family.
00:20:11I'm like, so I have a daughter.
00:20:13So how much do you want a family?
00:20:16Amber, the one that has a kid, she's great.
00:20:18I think I literally already started thinking about, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like, I'm like,
00:20:20places we could go on our ski trip.
00:20:22I was like, we're both Delugos.
00:20:25Here's to finding love, boys.
00:20:38All right, boys.
00:20:39It's cooking.
00:20:40This looks good.
00:20:41You guys can start getting this.
00:20:43Finish the eggs.
00:20:44We've got some bacon.
00:20:44I'm finishing up the bacon.
00:20:45Appreciate you making this.
00:20:46Of course, man.
00:20:47This is like what I enjoy doing.
00:20:51Did you take a nap?
00:20:52I did.
00:20:53I heard you giggling.
00:20:54Maybe I was giggling in my sleep.
00:20:55I don't know.
00:20:56Maybe you were dreaming about us.
00:20:58Maybe.
00:20:59No, she doesn't even know her names.
00:21:01Yes, I do now.
00:21:02I know everybody's names now.
00:21:03She says she does now.
00:21:05Priyanka, Amanda, Kia.
00:21:07Who's Amanda?
00:21:09Your name's not Amanda?
00:21:12Amber.
00:21:14You're a fuckboy.
00:21:17Amber.
00:21:18Amber.
00:21:20Goodness gracious.
00:21:21This experiment, if I can be completely honest, is this is crazy.
00:21:25It's like when you're in the dark tunnel, but I see at the other side all of the sunshine.
00:21:31So I'm here to find my light.
00:21:33My light, my love, my man.
00:21:35So what are some things you think you want to learn more about me?
00:21:39What's your favorite movie?
00:21:41Interstellar's up there for me.
00:21:43Okay.
00:21:45Love and Basketball.
00:21:46It's a great one.
00:21:48No shade, but it's the worst movie ever.
00:21:51What?
00:21:52It is really not good.
00:21:53I mean, like I get it.
00:21:54It's nostalgic and actors were great.
00:21:57But in terms of storyline, the whole play for your heart and then he dunks on her.
00:22:03It's ridiculous.
00:22:04That part is...
00:22:05It all lost me.
00:22:06Yeah.
00:22:06No, that part story.
00:22:07The ending.
00:22:09I'll agree with you on that.
00:22:10My favorite movie is Love Jones.
00:22:12Love Jones.
00:22:13Yeah.
00:22:14I think that their love story was so unconventional.
00:22:17And I love the idea of them taking time to kind of work on their selves and then like
00:22:23circling back.
00:22:25And it was just so romantic.
00:22:28That's what I'm talking about.
00:22:29Yeah.
00:22:30So I've been single for about two and a half years is for so.
00:22:33And my ex, she just wasn't my person.
00:22:36Which is fair.
00:22:37Yeah.
00:22:37Super fair.
00:22:38But she did teach me a lot.
00:22:40She taught me like how to be more patient, have tougher conversations when things got
00:22:45hard.
00:22:45Oh yeah.
00:22:46I want to get married, have kids and you're going to know exactly how I feel.
00:22:51I'm not just going to just leave it up to assumption.
00:22:53Yeah.
00:22:53A super important lesson that I learned.
00:22:55Yeah.
00:22:55That's a phenomenal lesson if you ask me.
00:22:57I feel like shout out to your ex.
00:23:01Shout out to her.
00:23:02Yeah.
00:23:05He is down to earth and just chill.
00:23:08I feel like she could potentially be a best friend.
00:23:13But when I hear Tyler's voice, it makes me excited.
00:23:18Like, yes, this is the date I've been waiting for.
00:23:20Hello.
00:23:21Hello.
00:23:22How are we feeling Tyler?
00:23:23Good.
00:23:24So excited to talk to you.
00:23:25Yes.
00:23:26I'm excited to talk to you too.
00:23:28I'm doing a lot of journaling and reflecting and really asking, you know, myself and my
00:23:32partner on the other side, like, the questions that I think are required to get married, which
00:23:37I don't even know what they are yet.
00:23:38Yeah.
00:23:38But I think tonight, you know, will help me.
00:23:41Exactly.
00:23:41Have you been journaling here and writing here?
00:23:43Yeah, I have.
00:23:44I actually have.
00:23:44Oh, a writer.
00:23:47Yeah.
00:23:47What you be saying about me?
00:23:51So when I'm married, ideally, I have somebody I could just rely on and call and be like, what
00:23:57are we doing?
00:23:59Same.
00:23:59I want to have somebody to bounce ideas off of.
00:24:02Yeah.
00:24:02My best friend, my partner, my person.
00:24:05I love that.
00:24:06Now, one question I do, you know, cause you know, I'm in Columbus.
00:24:10I know you're in Cincinnati.
00:24:11Yeah.
00:24:11How do you think we would attack that?
00:24:13Like this is the once in a lifetime experiment.
00:24:15And maybe this is the way that I find my husband.
00:24:18And if I find somebody who's open to relocating, that would be beautiful.
00:24:22But if like we're talking about my husband, that's priority number one.
00:24:26If I got to go to Columbus, if I got to go to Cleveland, if I got to go to
00:24:28Alaska, like
00:24:29I'm doing what I got to do to be with my partner because I believe in the power of marriage.
00:24:36Thank you for that.
00:24:37But your ambition, at the end of the day, you, you know, you have to win.
00:24:42And my job.
00:24:43It is a very, very small percentage of people who have gotten to the level that I am.
00:24:48To be able to be in the corporate environment that I'm in and to get to a director level
00:24:53before 30 was like crazy.
00:24:56Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:24:56And I did it while being me.
00:24:58I can go look at a little girl like me that came from where I came from and be like,
00:25:02Girl, you ain't got to do much about your personality.
00:25:03This isn't about personality.
00:25:05It's not about like code switching, like be who you are.
00:25:09For girls that look like me and girls who don't.
00:25:11Like, you know, I think we all have stories where people just don't feel enough for whatever reason.
00:25:16And I feel like my yeah, like my biggest accomplishment is that I was able to get to where I
00:25:21am today
00:25:21while being true to myself.
00:25:23Mmm.
00:25:24I love that.
00:25:25So it might be crazy to leave the professional environment that I'm in now.
00:25:30And I wouldn't want to do that because it's a place where I'm thriving.
00:25:34But I think love is so important and is now like probably the number one priority in my life,
00:25:40even over my professional career, because like me and my husband's decision.
00:25:43And if we decide to make a move on that, that's a decision that we make, you know.
00:25:50All the conversations that I've had with you definitely, you know, have that.
00:25:55You have that it factor.
00:25:56Yeah.
00:25:57Appreciate that.
00:26:02How are we really doing this?
00:26:03We are really doing this.
00:26:05Yeah.
00:26:05Like there is going to be people who are engaged, people who are married.
00:26:13And it could be like me.
00:26:16Like what?
00:26:16Yeah.
00:26:17Exactly.
00:26:18That's what I'm like.
00:26:19Wow.
00:26:19I'm just so appreciative of you.
00:26:25Yeah.
00:26:31Who am I speaking with?
00:26:33Ashley.
00:26:33What's up, Ashley?
00:26:34It's Alex.
00:26:35Hi, Alex.
00:26:36I won't really approach women unless I have that, you know, physical there to start with.
00:26:40That's a fault that I'm admitting now.
00:26:42You know, candidly, I think there's probably women that I've missed out on that would have been great for me
00:26:46that I didn't give a chance to.
00:26:47So I'm excited to actually see the potential that can come from this.
00:26:50I want to feel so understood by my woman that we're on the same page on everything.
00:26:55We finish each other's sentences and she knows exactly who I am and I know who she is.
00:26:59I literally get, like, hypnotized by this wall.
00:27:01I'm, like, so focused on it.
00:27:03And I, like, I'm, like, thinking about what you look like and, like, trying to place a face.
00:27:06Ooh.
00:27:07And just, like, listening to your words and, like, your voice.
00:27:09And I'm like, hmm, what does he look like?
00:27:10And then I'm just, like, staring and I'm like, I'm getting a little dizzy.
00:27:13I like that.
00:27:13You're getting dizzy over me.
00:27:15Obviously.
00:27:15I will say I'm thinking about you the same way.
00:27:17The voice is catching me for sure.
00:27:19I like it.
00:27:21Definitely curious about what you look like.
00:27:22Oh, I won't be giving any hints.
00:27:24Ah, but I'll try and figure it out myself.
00:27:26No hints on the looks.
00:27:27Sorry.
00:27:28Sorry.
00:27:28I didn't think about that.
00:27:29Do you like kissing?
00:27:31I like to think I haven't gotten any bad reviews, so I think I'm a decent kisser, but
00:27:34you might have to help me out and see if I'm all right.
00:27:36I'm a top critic.
00:27:37I'm not going to lie.
00:27:39Are you?
00:27:39Are you a good kisser?
00:27:40I'm a really good kisser, so.
00:27:41You're a good kisser, huh?
00:27:41I'm a great kisser.
00:27:43That's going to be dangerous moving forward.
00:27:44Yeah.
00:27:45Yeah.
00:27:45So, if I were in bed with you, are you taking all of the covers in, or no?
00:27:51Um, probably.
00:27:52I do it as like a strategy, because I'm like, ooh, I'm going to steal a cover, so he has
00:27:56to come over here.
00:27:56Ooh, I like that.
00:27:58Yeah.
00:27:58I'm diabolical.
00:27:59Big spoon, little spoon.
00:28:00I like both, honestly.
00:28:01I love being wrapped up, but I don't mind putting my arm around you and spooning you a little
00:28:06bit.
00:28:07I love that.
00:28:08Men are so funny.
00:28:09Aren't we?
00:28:09They secretly love being little spoons.
00:28:11Low key, we do.
00:28:12I hate that.
00:28:13High key.
00:28:13I hate that you know that.
00:28:15But you're right.
00:28:16Yes.
00:28:17Do you like massages?
00:28:18Are you a big massage girl?
00:28:20I mean, yeah.
00:28:21What kind of questions then?
00:28:22Of course you do.
00:28:23It's like an easy way for a guy to be like, oh, I'm in the mood.
00:28:25I'm just going to rub your back for 10 seconds.
00:28:28Yes.
00:28:29We all know your secrets.
00:28:30You know all the tricks.
00:28:31I'm going to have to come up with new ones.
00:28:32We know your secrets.
00:28:32I know you do.
00:28:34Sex is important for me.
00:28:35I like that physical connection.
00:28:37It's almost like a celebration of the fact that we're that close.
00:28:41At this point, in my eyes, let me explain.
00:28:43Wait.
00:28:43Oh, this is a celebration.
00:28:45No.
00:28:46I mean, another big turn-off for me is feedback.
00:28:51Like, if that feels good to you, let me know.
00:28:52Oh, so you like dirty talk.
00:28:54Oh, my God.
00:28:55Yes.
00:28:56Absolutely.
00:28:56Calm down over there.
00:28:58Calm down.
00:28:59I'm flustered.
00:29:00I'm flustered.
00:29:00I'm flustered too, don't worry.
00:29:02Yes.
00:29:03You're so dangerous, Ashley.
00:29:04We're going to have a problem here.
00:29:05You're welcome.
00:29:06I thank you.
00:29:07Yes.
00:29:07Yes.
00:29:08My dad will tell you I have a bad picker, but I'm ready to be a wife.
00:29:13All right, I'll talk to you later.
00:29:14Sounds good.
00:29:15Bye.
00:29:16I really like speaking with Alex.
00:29:18Me and Alex do have sexual chemistry.
00:29:21And I'm very excited to test that out.
00:29:24And I'm very excited to test that out.
00:29:24Sorry, Mom and Dad.
00:29:26I'm sweating, you guys.
00:29:28I need to go crushing up the downtown.
00:29:33You got to be open-minded.
00:29:35That's the one biggest thing I said to myself coming into here, and that's what I'm trying
00:29:38to do.
00:29:40Because on the streets, I, you know, I am not, or I wasn't.
00:29:46That's what we do.
00:29:47What was that?
00:29:48With Emma and I, it's been absolutely amazing.
00:29:51I feel like she touches on every single level.
00:29:54But some women want kids right away.
00:29:56Some women don't want kids right away.
00:29:58And I definitely want children.
00:30:00Give me a, give me a whole damn baseball team.
00:30:03To be completely transparent, like I am like very confused and like.
00:30:07Yeah, as you should be.
00:30:08Yeah.
00:30:08You're dating, you know, X amount of guys.
00:30:10Yeah.
00:30:11Like, I get it.
00:30:12You were one that actually surprised me a little bit.
00:30:15I liked your vibe the first date, but it wasn't like.
00:30:18No, no.
00:30:19Oh my gosh.
00:30:19This is gonna sound so bad.
00:30:21Just saying.
00:30:22Be honest.
00:30:23I was like, I want to get to know him, but it wasn't like, oh my gosh.
00:30:25Like, yes.
00:30:26Like 100% yes.
00:30:27Like.
00:30:27Yeah.
00:30:28But I was like, you're very nice.
00:30:29Like this guy is like so funny.
00:30:31He makes me feel like so comfortable.
00:30:32I think you are so attentive and it really makes me feel supported.
00:30:40I like your laugh.
00:30:41Aw.
00:30:42That was amazing.
00:30:43I actually put it in chat to you PT.
00:30:48Oh my God.
00:30:48I like that you laugh at my jokes too.
00:30:50You're funny.
00:30:51I know I am.
00:30:51What do you mean?
00:30:54I have had you very high on my list this whole time.
00:30:58Since the first date, to be honest.
00:31:00I think that you're absolutely amazing.
00:31:03And I feel like with you, I can be myself.
00:31:07Yeah.
00:31:07And your voice is beautiful.
00:31:10Yeah.
00:31:11What are your reservations on having children?
00:31:15It's this internal battle I have because I have an amazing family.
00:31:19And I really struggle as to like why I sometimes just like don't want one myself.
00:31:24You know?
00:31:24But how great would it be to create life and have children?
00:31:28I just don't want to commit to that right now.
00:32:00You know?
00:32:00Yeah.
00:32:00I feel like I'm like our child.
00:32:02That is a beautiful way to put it.
00:32:03I'm really not trying to change your mind or force you in any direction.
00:32:06I promise you that.
00:32:08Yeah.
00:32:08And I like really appreciate you are like helping me see a new POV, but like not belittling
00:32:16like what I'm feeling.
00:32:17If I find the right person, like it could happen, but it's not guaranteed.
00:32:22If I'm in love with you and you're my wife, I don't know.
00:32:28I feel like that'd be super tough because now it's like I'm choosing between my wife
00:32:35and the love I have for her and possibly, you know, having a kid.
00:32:38Yeah.
00:32:39And that's so heartbreaking to me.
00:32:45Wow.
00:32:46Oh, shit.
00:32:47This is awkward.
00:32:47Damn.
00:32:48No, it's not awkward.
00:32:49No, no.
00:32:49I'm just kidding.
00:32:50I definitely do want to see you tomorrow.
00:32:52I don't know if you're going to have me on there.
00:32:56No, I, um, I will definitely.
00:33:00I fit you in.
00:33:00I fit you in.
00:33:01No.
00:33:01You don't have to tell me what you do.
00:33:03If I see you tomorrow, amazing.
00:33:04If not, then I understand.
00:33:07Um.
00:33:08No, you know I'm joking.
00:33:09You're, you're near the top.
00:33:12Sorry, Scott.
00:33:13You don't have to tell me.
00:33:14I just wanted to make sure that you know that I, like, you're actually up there.
00:33:22I'm validating you.
00:33:23Oh, it feels good to be validated.
00:33:27Enjoy the rest of your night.
00:33:29You too, buddy.
00:33:31Bye.
00:33:32The buddy love it.
00:33:33Thanks for that.
00:33:35I did friend zone you.
00:33:36Don't worry.
00:33:37No, I know.
00:33:38I know.
00:33:38Good night.
00:33:39Good night.
00:33:40I really like my, we are developing feelings for each other, but you have to take so many
00:33:45things into consideration and it's just, it's a wild ride.
00:33:50Maybe in the past I've kind of told girls what they want to hear, but I don't want to just
00:33:53do that to you or to anybody else honestly in here.
00:33:56But it's just like every single time we come here.
00:33:59Yeah.
00:33:59Nothing else like matters.
00:34:00Yeah.
00:34:01I don't even think about like you talking to other guys.
00:34:03I know what's happening, but I'm confident in what we have so far.
00:34:06That's just, yeah, just like really trust where we're at.
00:34:09Yeah.
00:34:09You are starting to mean something to me.
00:34:11Yeah.
00:34:12The banter is easy, but it has felt very surface level.
00:34:18I just see parallels to my first relationship.
00:34:22Yeah.
00:34:23It was easy.
00:34:24It was good.
00:34:25And we never dug into anything until we were drunk and it just felt like mediocre.
00:34:31I did not come here to have a mediocre relationship.
00:34:33Me and you are not mediocre, but like, I just get so scared that like, if both of us
00:34:39are afraid to open up and if both of us are afraid to push each other, like I am just,
00:34:44believing like what I've done and like, I don't want that.
00:34:50And I don't want that either.
00:34:53A lot of the relationships that I have had have stemmed from not feeling good enough
00:35:06and like the people that I try with are the ones that leave.
00:35:13So are you scared of getting hurt again?
00:35:16Yeah.
00:35:17I tell you, I feel that on a bunch of different ways and levels.
00:35:23It's happened.
00:35:24You love somebody and they can just fucking leave like it's almost nothing.
00:35:31I want to let you know, I'm not going to run.
00:35:36You're never going to feel a lack of effort from me.
00:35:38Yeah.
00:35:39You're not going to feel like, is he into it?
00:35:42I'm not going to leave.
00:35:43Yeah.
00:35:44I will never abandon you.
00:35:46You have given me everything that so far I could ask for.
00:35:51I don't think you give yourself enough credit for that.
00:36:02The journey that me and Connor have been on has been very lighthearted and easy.
00:36:08And today he was able to open up to me, which was a great turnaround.
00:36:17So I have mine and Mike's relationship and mine and Connor's relationship.
00:36:21What's up?
00:36:21Hi.
00:36:22What's up, dude?
00:36:23And then Steven.
00:36:24Steven is a silly, goofy boy.
00:36:27What are you wearing right now?
00:36:28I'm wearing brown leather pants, white heels, and like a Harry Winkle off the shoulder long sleeve sweater.
00:36:35I'm wearing a nice cream, multi-textured button down with a red crop, not even crop top.
00:36:42It's like low, it's shorter than most shirts, but it's not a crop.
00:36:44If you were like a magazine, what would you be?
00:36:47Ooh, GQ.
00:36:50That's a good one.
00:36:51Yeah.
00:36:51I would say men's health.
00:36:52That's more like I'd have to be topless for it.
00:36:55Yeah.
00:36:55It's a lifelong goal of mine to be a Hanes underwear model.
00:36:58It just gives me the ick.
00:37:00So I'm just being a silly goose.
00:37:02I know, you are such a silly goose.
00:37:04I do like our dates.
00:37:05I do too.
00:37:06Um, but you can only pick one.
00:37:08Yeah, that is the thing.
00:37:09I cannot have brother husbands.
00:37:11And like, if you were my husband, what I am nervous about in serious situations-
00:37:19Like, can you not joke?
00:37:20Yeah.
00:37:20I know I joked about Hanes underwear model, but I definitely think I know the appropriate
00:37:24time to be funny and silly.
00:37:25I'm really deep.
00:37:28Okay.
00:37:29I'm still trying to figure out-
00:37:32Like, what makes me tick?
00:37:34Yeah.
00:37:35I want you to be able to like get vulnerable and open up and like, I'm not asking you to
00:37:39cry.
00:37:41You want to see sad boy Steve?
00:37:42You want to see the sensitive sensei?
00:37:44I- okay, I'm leaving.
00:37:46That was such an ick.
00:37:47I have a playlist on my phone called sensitive sensei.
00:37:50No, please don't.
00:37:50It's all sad boy songs.
00:37:51Steven, I can't with you.
00:37:53I like, icky.
00:37:54I hate that word.
00:37:55Sensei?
00:37:55Yeah.
00:37:56I don't know.
00:37:57It's like weird.
00:37:58Not to put a mirror up to you, but like, do you feel like you can have like, hard conversations
00:38:03or like confront me without beating around the bush?
00:38:06Yes.
00:38:06It'll be uncomfortable, but I- I am ready to like-
00:38:09Like kids might not be in your future.
00:38:11Yeah.
00:38:11That's honestly cool with me.
00:38:12But do you feel like you could like fully open up?
00:38:14Cause I feel like I could just like, spill like tea about myself.
00:38:18Yeah.
00:38:19Do you feel like you could tell me about like the deepest darkest secrets that you're hiding?
00:38:23I mean, that's my hope.
00:38:24Like I- at the end of this, I want someone that knows me for me.
00:38:28I'm gonna try to come up with some stuff to like, let you know and like share.
00:38:31Like I'm not scared to share these things.
00:38:33We can get deep.
00:38:34Yeah, Steven.
00:38:35It's- we're six days boy till a ring.
00:38:37I gotta- I gotta shape up.
00:38:39I know.
00:38:41Uh, it'd be fun.
00:38:42It would be fun.
00:38:44What?
00:38:45I have such strong connections with all three of the guys I've been talking to.
00:38:50I did not imagine going into this, like this is the position I would be in.
00:38:54I'ma be alright.
00:38:57Oh my gosh, how cute.
00:38:59Little candle.
00:39:00It feels kind of like a real date.
00:39:04It does.
00:39:05I feel like each day I talk to you, I have a little bit better of like an outline picture
00:39:09of you.
00:39:09Yeah.
00:39:10Obviously, I want to see you and I want to see your face and like I want to touch you,
00:39:13but I really want to smell you.
00:39:15Fair enough.
00:39:16You know what I'm really excited about in Mexico?
00:39:18What's up?
00:39:19Coffee tequila.
00:39:20Oh, I never had that.
00:39:21Oh my gosh.
00:39:23Tequila was always trouble.
00:39:24Do you smoke?
00:39:25Nah, I don't.
00:39:27I don't.
00:39:27What about yourself?
00:39:28No.
00:39:29Have you ever smoked?
00:39:30I mean, I have before, yeah, but I'm not like a smoker.
00:39:34You know, I used to smoke a little bit in high school.
00:39:38Have you ever?
00:39:39Yeah, I have.
00:39:40Tried it in high school.
00:39:41Wasn't my thing.
00:39:42Tried it once or twice again in college.
00:39:44Still not really my thing.
00:39:45I got a misdemeanor when I was 18.
00:39:48Did you?
00:39:49For what?
00:39:49For having weed on me.
00:39:51I had to get a lawyer and had to get it expunged.
00:39:54It was a mess.
00:39:54I also have had a misdemeanor that got expunged.
00:39:58Really?
00:39:59Yeah.
00:40:00For what?
00:40:00Possession.
00:40:01Yeah.
00:40:02Marijuana.
00:40:02Yeah.
00:40:02Well, look at that.
00:40:07Match made in heaven.
00:40:09That's hilarious.
00:40:10Any other run-ins with the law?
00:40:12Nothing crazy.
00:40:13Okay.
00:40:13But some parts of my adolescence, I was, like, attracted to and involved in, like, just, like, knucklehead behavior in
00:40:21my community.
00:40:22How old were you when you started to?
00:40:2414.
00:40:25Okay.
00:40:25Around age 14.
00:40:26Okay.
00:40:27By the time I was, like, maybe 18, going off to college, like, things were already changing by then.
00:40:32But I felt guilty perpetuating the way of living that people.
00:40:36Mm-hmm.
00:40:36We don't need to be living.
00:40:37We don't need to be normalizing at all.
00:40:38I think my issue is, like, the fear of having guilt in the future.
00:40:43My mom is tricky because she's never had much and she's never been taken care of.
00:40:48She's been through some really, really, really traumatic things, like, literally her whole life.
00:40:52So when that time comes, I'm afraid that I'm gonna, like, feel guilty that I didn't do enough or that
00:40:57I couldn't do enough.
00:40:58But also, she's created trauma in her kids and in her grandkids.
00:41:04And you play a role in your own life, too.
00:41:07Yeah.
00:41:08And, uh, so unfortunately, my mom's not healed.
00:41:12Mm.
00:41:13I've been really trying to push her to do therapy.
00:41:15She's like, I don't know how many years I have left.
00:41:17I don't want to spend my last five years bringing up all this awful stuff.
00:41:21Mm.
00:41:22I think it would be really beneficial for everybody to see her at least try.
00:41:27You just want to love on your mama. That's it.
00:41:29I do. It's tough and similar with my dad.
00:41:33My dad was not, uh, not the best dad when I was little.
00:41:39Mm.
00:41:39One of my really prevalent memories, I was maybe, like, 10 or so, driving home from somewhere and I remember
00:41:46him swerving.
00:41:47Like, I remember him, like, falling asleep while driving.
00:41:49Okay.
00:41:51Somebody called it in and said, this car is swerving. Like, there's a child in the car.
00:41:55Yeah.
00:41:56And when we got pulled over, my dad gave me a pill bottle to hold and to hide.
00:42:00Shit.
00:42:01And it's sad because, like, I think deep down my dad's probably, like, a decent human.
00:42:06It's just he's been affected by so much stuff his whole life.
00:42:10Right.
00:42:11And it makes me sad for him. He missed out on my sister. He missed out on me.
00:42:15I mean, look how you turned out, though.
00:42:16Yeah. And my sister's incredible, too.
00:42:19Have you forgiven him? No. Yes.
00:42:23I don't know. So I guess if I don't know, probably not.
00:42:26Yeah, yeah, yeah. And that's all right.
00:42:28Mm-hmm.
00:42:29That's all right.
00:42:29I never thought I'd be emotional over anything, and I thought I had a pretty good grasp on things, and
00:42:37obviously I don't.
00:42:39You do. You got a good grasp. You're getting emotional because you're human. That's it. You're human.
00:42:44Right.
00:42:45Yeah.
00:42:45Yeah. In my household, I had a stepfather that was, you know, around when I was young.
00:42:50He always had, like, an alcohol problem, and I didn't think too much of it.
00:42:54And I remember one night, like, I heard, like, you know, fighting or something coming from another room, and I
00:43:00went to the door.
00:43:02My mom, like, kind of cricked open the door, and I remember seeing, like, a hand grab her hair, and
00:43:08then the door closed.
00:43:09It was, like, one of the scariest things I've seen in my life.
00:43:12And I was young. I didn't know what to do. I felt, like, weak. You know, I'm, like, the only
00:43:17boy in the house, right?
00:43:18The man of the house, essentially, right? And I remember running to my sister's room, and I'm like, Deidre, Deidre.
00:43:24Deidre don't play. She's a little pit bull. She protects those who she loves, for sure.
00:43:30She, man, she got to that door, got in there, and all types of what I will do to you
00:43:36if you ever put your hands on my mother again.
00:43:38But even with all that, like, I forgive that man. I forgive that man.
00:43:45Do you think your mom is healed from that?
00:43:48Yeah, she is. Yeah? Yeah. My mom is strong.
00:43:52I got him out the house, ran him about of there, and much time has passed since.
00:43:58Much time has passed since I know she's healed.
00:44:00Everybody in your life sounds really good women, really good people.
00:44:04Yeah. You get along with them. Yeah.
00:44:08So today I was reflecting. I wrote, I can't see her, but I see her.
00:44:15This invisible woman. She's God-fearing. She's intelligent. She's nurturing. She's resilient.
00:44:23She's kind, loyal, confident. She's a good vibe. She's a big softie. She has great musical taste.
00:44:31She's warm, beautiful. She deserves the world. She's Christine.
00:44:37Darling, I will be loving you till we're 17.
00:44:44That was really beautiful. That's what I think about you.
00:44:47Which I really appreciate, because I think dating in the real world, guys might, quote unquote, fall for me
00:44:52because I'm, like, good on paper, but they don't love me. They don't know me.
00:44:58That's crazy how after just a short period of time, like, I do feel like you really know me and
00:45:03you get me.
00:45:04Yeah.
00:45:05So it means a lot to hear you say those things.
00:45:08Of course, you make it easy to say these things.
00:45:12People fall in love in mysterious ways.
00:45:17It's funny, like, how hard it is to find somebody who has to check the same morals as you.
00:45:22Also, like, for the job, family-oriented or educated or whatever it may be.
00:45:27Like, how hard is it to find somebody that has the things that you want,
00:45:31is ready for the things that you want at the same time as you are.
00:45:36Right.
00:45:37But then also the energy is there.
00:45:39Like, the connection is there. The chemistry is there.
00:45:42Like, that spark is there. The love is there.
00:45:45It just seems almost impossible, but it's feeling really real.
00:45:49I mean, it is real.
00:45:50I don't want to be corny, not like that you were made for me kind of thing, but, uh...
00:45:54You could say that.
00:45:55It does just feel...
00:46:00I don't know, it's just incredible.
00:46:03I agree completely.
00:46:05Maybe we found love right where we are.
00:46:11Maybe we found love right where we are.
00:46:19...
00:46:20Yeah.
00:46:21Are you talking to Emma or ...
00:46:23Emma.
00:46:24I didn't know that that was your number one. I was going to go.
00:46:26No it's nothing. It's not.
00:46:27Yeah, that's my number one.
00:46:29It is?
00:46:29Yeah.
00:46:30Got you. Got you.
00:46:30I feel like Emma's really energetic really bubbly
00:46:33I appreciate her like wanting to peel back like another layer of me and maybe she doesn't want kids
00:46:38But you're here to find a wife. You're not here to find like a baby factory
00:46:43Let's get it good luck boys
00:46:46What size ring do you wear by the way you'll figure it out, okay
00:46:49So mysterious all the time. No, but no, but it leads to things. I don't know. I have small hands
00:46:56Okay, this word leads me to another conclusion, but
00:47:00So
00:47:02You're like, we're not getting deep. Let's go there. Are we ready to go there? I'll start here. I
00:47:08Was adopted at the age of three. Okay, so when you were talking about adoption
00:47:13I was like hello, but I
00:47:16Should have spoken you should I feel like that was a perfect intro to be
00:47:19No, but it wasn't cuz I don't want it to be a fun fact my parents are my fam like
00:47:23my family's my family and I
00:47:26Don't feel the need to
00:47:28figure out where I came from
00:47:30Are any of your siblings adopted with you or is it just no, it's just me I
00:47:35Feel like obviously it's gonna
00:47:37Identify something about you that maybe you haven't like shared with me yet
00:47:41I'm a little mentalist by the way if you can't tell I don't I don't like that you try to
00:47:45guess you don't like that
00:47:47I guess things I like that you guess things I don't like that you try to guess things about my
00:47:50appearance
00:47:50It's not about your appearance. Is it not?
00:47:53No, I
00:47:53I just feel like I'm trying to get to know you fully
00:47:56I've kind of been taking this process
00:47:58Like a shy girl like hiding
00:48:03Dude, you know how I feel about adoption. Do you feel like you have like?
00:48:07the desire like I I know you like I don't know if I want kids or not
00:48:11But like do you feel like if you did have kids do you feel like you would like sort of
00:48:14want to like adopt a kid just because like
00:48:17You know how it's like
00:48:21Yeah, I think if I wanted kids I'd like to adopt
00:48:23Yeah, there we go
00:48:27The whole point is like not to hide things from the other side of the wall, right?
00:48:36I wanted to go on this show
00:48:38Cuz I really like the idea of like the physical like being kind of like removed from it
00:48:44Do you feel like you've just been like people have been like just about
00:48:48the physicality of it all yeah, and so
00:48:59You there yeah, I'm thinking I'm just processing I'm processing
00:49:05So when I was born I was actually born with a birthmark covering my whole arm
00:49:10Okay, I had a high chance of melanoma, so I had about 10 surgeries
00:49:18Before the age of like seven to remove my birthmarks the biggest one was on my arm
00:49:26But I have birthmarks like all over my body that
00:49:31I have to get checked like every year and I think this was something that
00:49:37I
00:49:38I struggled with like growing up because like it just felt like an elephant in the room
00:49:42It's not anything like hindering my like abilities to do anything
00:49:46But like I do think it's impacted the way people see me on dates impacted the way like
00:49:50I am perceived when you're growing up and going to the pool or something. Yeah
00:49:56Yeah, it's just something
00:49:58Those two things are kind of like a part of me that both have
00:50:02Affected like you're affected my life, but I don't know. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah
00:50:07Are you getting sad over there?
00:50:11Yeah
00:50:12I feel like you don't want to be asked questions about it right now
00:50:16I can get you out of this funk girl. You want you want me to get you out of this
00:50:19funk?
00:50:20I'll tell you like how far I'm willing to go to share details about my life
00:50:23Let me tell you about my first kiss
00:50:25Freddie okay, so I went to amc in eighth grade with this girl fallon
00:50:29Okay, we saw a movie
00:50:31I was so nervous because I feel like I've heard all my friends at this point like sixth grade seventh
00:50:36grade
00:50:36And they'd be like oh my god like I just made out blah blah blah behind the park
00:50:39And I was like what like I felt like I was a really late bloomer
00:50:41But we went to amc then we went to barnes and noble right next door
00:50:45And we were listening to music like sharing like headphones both had braces super probably ugly to see
00:50:50But then yeah, we just turned to each other and she's like I like you and like we kissed each
00:50:54other
00:50:56Cute it was very cute. Tell me like about your first kiss
00:51:00Not memorable. I was in high school. Oh wow
00:51:04Yeah, it was high school and it was with uh
00:51:07with the boy and
00:51:10It was not memorable at all high school with a boy night. Yeah, like it was just like so deep
00:51:15Are you comfortable telling me about like how you lost your virginity?
00:51:18Yeah, I lost in college. Oh, I thought I was a late bloomer too
00:51:23God you're beating me. I don't I don't like this. I don't like the
00:51:28Comment of late bloomer. I think everyone is on their own journey and yeah, no
00:51:31I just felt like I was behind like all my friends like I yeah, I I didn't date in high
00:51:36school. I wasn't a huge
00:51:38dater
00:51:40So in college
00:51:42um
00:51:42Um, it wasn't romantic. I I um started talking to this guy we liked each other and we just
00:51:51We just did it did it. Was it like early in college like freshman year type thing? I was just
00:51:56like
00:51:56I got it is what it is. I like this guy. He likes me like
00:52:01Let's just see how it is. So like 19 20
00:52:07Mine's like beautiful. It's sort of like notebook-esque. I
00:52:10Dated this girl for like a year loved her. I just remember we were watching like a love movie
00:52:15Like a bunch of light was coming in we were like laying on this floor
00:52:18And and I just remember she's like hey like I just want to say like I love you and I
00:52:21really appreciate you like
00:52:23Just like waiting for me. I'm like not pressuring. Yeah, yeah
00:52:26And she like gave me a kiss and she's like I think I'm ready to have sex
00:52:29Oh
00:52:29And then we had sex and it was beautiful. It was like the notebook. I literally feel like I had
00:52:34the notebook like
00:52:35virginia scene and then
00:52:37Yeah, the morning after we had sex everywhere, but I actually have never seen the notebook
00:52:42Come on. No, I actually haven't you never saw like the abandoned house scene on the floor
00:52:46No, like the creaky wood floor where they just lay her down and nope rachel mcadams can't deny him
00:52:52No, I actually didn't come on. You got to add the notebook. I can't believe you never added it before
00:52:58like no girls have talked about it in high school
00:53:01I think every girlfriend I ever had watched the notebook with me
00:53:05Yeah, never just to set the expectation just to be like this is what I demand
00:53:10I watched the beat of my own drum steven. I I don't need people to
00:53:16Tell me what to do. He's telling you what to do
00:53:21I feel like you've been walled off from me
00:53:24I feel like you were like go deep and I'm like, okay, and I've gotten deep first kiss even like
00:53:29virginia stories
00:53:30Like when I like ask you it's like a guy in high school a guy in high school
00:53:33But it was a guy in high school
00:53:34I feel like your first kiss is different than a kiss in college with a random guy
00:53:38Yeah, but I don't think my first kiss was special and that's that's my story
00:53:42No one wanted me in high school. No one wanted me up until college. Okay, you think you
00:53:51Can latch on to the first person that cares about you and
00:54:04I don't think they were worth painting a picture of
00:54:10Okay, I'm sorry. I'm listening. I'm just I feel like conversation for another one and like the
00:54:20The comment about
00:54:22Being a late bloomer like these are comments that like kind of rub me the wrong way
00:54:28And like just the interrupting I think it was I don't okay
00:54:33I feel like I didn't interrupt to be honest doesn't have to be put back on me like you did
00:54:37something wrong
00:54:38No, it can be like I'm just not inside on this, but this is what I am feeling
00:54:42Yeah, you can't see how I'm reacting on the other side of the wall. I was very like, you know
00:54:46intent and I was like
00:54:47Yeah
00:54:47Really taking it in and I feel like now it's like I just feel like you're trying to paint it
00:54:51Like I reacted wrong where I'm like, I feel like I had a great response to all of this
00:54:55I just don't think you're gonna get there. I'm going to get there and I just believe that my connections
00:55:03Are stronger with other people are stronger with other people and that's like yeah, that's that's fine
00:55:10I just don't think we're the right people for each other
00:55:14No, that's fine
00:55:16Okay
00:55:26We're done
00:55:28Hi, babe
00:55:30I don't know
00:55:35Oh, Emma
00:55:38It's not gonna work for me
00:55:41Jesus Christ
00:55:43I open up to him about
00:55:47Your story and like I'm not
00:55:51Victimizing myself, but I know
00:55:54You didn't do anything wrong
00:55:55I didn't
00:55:56You did exactly what you were supposed to do
00:55:59You open up about your story
00:56:01I think I did my way
00:56:02You did nothing wrong
00:56:03You did it Emma's way
00:56:04Oh my goodness
00:56:05I'm sorry
00:56:06I'm sorry that was your experience
00:56:07I'm now I'm fucking afraid of going into the next one
00:56:10So tell it to me straight
00:56:11Cause I just wanna know
00:56:14What's in your heart
00:56:16So I can let you go
00:56:21I feel blessed that I found Christina in this experience
00:56:25I'm in awe and I'm excited and I'm in love
00:56:29I was in a pretty severe car accident
00:56:32I broke my neck and my back in many places
00:56:35So I went and got angel wings
00:56:38On the very top of my spine
00:56:40To signify my
00:56:43My protection and my blessings
00:56:45By the grace of God, right?
00:56:47Yes
00:56:47Wow
00:56:48Do you still follow your exes on social media?
00:56:51My ex ex? No
00:56:53What does that even mean?
00:56:55There's like a handful of guys that I've dated
00:56:56In the past couple years
00:56:57But like, no
00:56:58Do I get to reciprocate?
00:57:00Mine's just very quick
00:57:01No
00:57:01Okay
00:57:02Yeah, yeah, yeah
00:57:03Alright, good
00:57:04I like that
00:57:05So people that you've dated in the past
00:57:06Do you feel like you date pretty similar people?
00:57:08Like very feminine women
00:57:10To be intelligent
00:57:11How about appearance-wise?
00:57:13Oh, like cultural
00:57:13Yeah, yeah
00:57:15Oh, the gamut
00:57:16I've been in serious relationships with like
00:57:18Black women, white women, Latina women
00:57:20In New York you're exposed to so much different like
00:57:22Cultures and ethnicities
00:57:24And just like, what is your
00:57:26Where is your heart?
00:57:26Where are our values aligned?
00:57:28And the cultural elements
00:57:30Less of a care there
00:57:30Okay
00:57:31Babe, what about yourself?
00:57:33Same
00:57:34And I wouldn't want to date somebody who like only dates this
00:57:39Yo, that is real
00:57:41Yep
00:57:42What pushes you to want to get married?
00:57:44The family aspect is in there
00:57:45But then I think there's something beautiful about merging into one
00:57:49I can just really see and feel like your genuine, like kind, loving heart
00:57:56You have a gift
00:58:26Thank you
00:58:27I love you Christine
00:58:29I love you too
00:58:31In the pods
00:58:32It's giving us the opportunity to do something we typically wouldn't do
00:58:35Which is express yourself
00:58:37Say what you feel
00:58:38I have a prayer that I wrote this morning that I would like to share with you
00:58:42Oh yes please
00:58:43Okay
00:58:43I'm going to stand
00:58:44I'll stand with you
00:58:45Dear Heavenly Father
00:58:48We come to you today in prayer
00:58:50And ask for continued love, patience, and understanding
00:58:56And an eagerness to grow deeper
00:58:59May we open our hearts and may we open our minds throughout this unique journey
00:59:04As we further this walk towards a marriage
00:59:08Amen
00:59:08Amen
00:59:09And amen and amen
00:59:10I literally wrote amen and amen
00:59:14That was beautiful
00:59:15That was beautiful
00:59:16You're like a dream come true
00:59:18You know what I'm saying?
00:59:19I feel the same
00:59:20I want you in my life forever
00:59:24Can you hear me?
00:59:26Yeah
00:59:28Well I can't see you but I see you
00:59:30I know
00:59:33Christine Louise Hamilton
00:59:37Will you marry me?
00:59:43Of course I will
00:59:47Yes
00:59:48Of course I will
00:59:54This is the beginning
00:59:55Just the beginning
00:59:59I love you
01:00:00I love you too
01:00:08This is for a lifetime
01:00:10I know
01:00:11What up, what up, what up, what happened dude?
01:00:14I'mma hand me your wife
01:00:15Hey
01:00:16Oh
01:00:23Look at the front
01:00:25Oh no
01:00:26He loves his son
01:00:28Yeah this is so beautiful
01:00:30Oh my god
01:00:32Oh my god
01:00:38I'm a strong independent woman
01:00:39I don't need no man
01:00:41I am worried about like sleeping with a man again
01:00:43And I've become so much more 2D
01:00:45Like I don't know if I fart in my sleep
01:00:47Oh my god
01:00:47Okay, yes
01:00:48I'll just won't sleep
01:00:50Oh my god
01:00:54What do I do?
01:00:59Okay
01:01:02No, we just did that
01:01:04Okay, I know
01:01:05I know
01:01:05You're scared right now
01:01:08Alright, we're gonna have to send you out
01:01:15MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMH
01:01:16DRAAPBOOK IS MY NAME
01:01:21DONGSTAND IN MY WAKE
01:01:23I'LL TELL FLY OR NOT TO PLAY
01:01:28WHEN IT'S MORE THAN JUST A GAME
01:01:50Oh, it's more than just a game
01:02:08Oh, it's more than just a game
01:02:38Oh, it's more than just a game
01:03:08Oh, it's more than just a game
01:03:34Oh, it's more than just a game
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