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00:10But if a foot touches you, are you okay?
00:13Like do you want to go foot on foot?
00:14Like I'm gonna get your feet off me.
00:16Like if I'm sitting on the couch with my siblings and my brother's foot touches my leg.
00:21Hi.
00:23Are you kidding?
00:24Yeah.
00:25She's back.
00:26She's back.
00:26Hi.
00:26Hi.
00:28Guys, I missed you all so much.
00:30We missed you.
00:32We're small.
00:33We're so happy.
00:34Yeah.
00:34So still hurts a little bit, but.
00:37What?
00:38I go in and there's a little bottle there and I like wanted to put eye drops in my eye.
00:49No, don't tell me it was like glue.
00:50It was nail glue.
00:53Shut up.
00:54It was nail glue.
00:55I thought you were so scared.
00:57I was scared.
00:57Oh, I would be terrified.
00:58I thought I was like gonna lose sight.
01:00Like nail glue.
01:01What the?
01:02I know.
01:02Could you see it?
01:03It was blurry.
01:05When we got to the hospital, we had just hooked up an IV bag with tubing and just sat here
01:10and just flushed my eye.
01:11Yeah.
01:11And the guy was like getting like the glue out the water.
01:14Oh my God.
01:15It was so awful.
01:16Oh my God.
01:16I can't believe I did that.
01:18Love is half blind.
01:19I'm really committing.
01:20I'm going blind.
01:21Put your arms around me.
01:22Tell me everything's okay.
01:28In my mind, I'm running around a cold and empty space.
01:36I have chosen Vic St. John to be my husband.
01:40When two people love each other, like you can't stop it.
01:43I know him and I know his heart and I really fully believe that he sees that in me too.
01:48And it's the best feeling you've ever felt in your life, like times a million.
01:57It's insane that you can fall in love with someone without physically seeing them.
02:01Christine and I would typically probably not even interact in the real world.
02:06And for her to see my most vulnerable sides and some of my most vulnerable stories and
02:10for her to still accept me for who I am and want to love me and want to have a
02:16forever
02:16future with me, there's no words for it.
02:27We really do judge somebody so much by how they look and I know he's dated a lot of different
02:33people in his life, but he fell in love with my heart first and although there might be
02:38somebody more his type or more beautiful, he saw me and saw my heart first before seeing
02:44me on the outside.
02:44So regardless of what he looks like or what he expects me to look like, he's wise, he's
02:50intelligent and he's gentle.
02:52He has everything that I want in a spouse.
02:56He's the whole package for me.
03:00I told Christine, I don't need to see her to know that I see her and that I love her.
03:05And that's my fiance, you know, I love her and she loves me.
03:09This is the biggest moment of my life.
03:11I don't know
03:26So be honest
03:29How cool my life
03:30You're beautiful.
03:32I'm so happy.
03:34Aww.
03:36Aww.
03:39Aww.
03:40It's a pleasure to meet you.
03:41Pleasure to meet you.
03:43Yeah.
03:45Aww.
03:49Wow.
03:51That's cute.
03:52Oh, my gosh.
03:55I'm so happy.
03:56Thank you, baby.
03:59You probably feel my heart pounding out of my chest.
04:01I was pacing around for life.
04:04I love your eyes.
04:06Your lips.
04:07I love your eyes.
04:07And a nice smile.
04:09Hair.
04:10A lot, much longer than I expected.
04:13I love you on the inside.
04:15I know you do.
04:16I'm glad you signed up for this.
04:18I feel like the luckiest man on that.
04:20Me too.
04:21Yeah.
04:23I wanna ask you again.
04:28Christine.
04:29Louise Hamilton.
04:32Will you make the happiest man on Earth?
04:35And be my wife?
04:36I will.
04:37It's a beautiful day.
04:42Thanks, girl.
04:43Mmm.
04:48It's a beautiful day.
04:48It's a beautiful day.
04:49To let it get alone.
04:51It's a beautiful day.
05:00It's a beautiful day.
05:01lost for words. My lady, my fiancée. Isn't that wild? It's crazy. I just met my fiancée and I could
05:12not be happier. It's so strange putting a voice to a face. This is just a cherry on top to
05:27be
05:27honest. I think so, too. Yeah. I think so. Yeah. I was going to love whoever comes to those
05:33doors. It doesn't matter what you look like. It's a magnificent woman in front of me. The
05:39biggest heart ever. Yeah. That's so nice. Thank you. Thank you. You look nicer.
05:52Mm-hmm. I think other people feel like this, too. Mm-hmm. Who loves? I love you. I love
06:04you, too. Christine is one of the sweetest, kindest, most gentlest woman I've ever met,
06:14and I can't wait to marry her. I think we fit good by each other. We do. Feels nice. Yeah,
06:22it feels right. Mm-hmm. Yeah. I'd spend 10,000 hours and 10,000 more. If that's what it takes
06:32to learn to be hard of yours. Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. I'm gonna love you.
06:48I've got a good idea, of course. That I cure my curiosity. I feel like the luckiest person
07:03in the world i don't know what to do i just feel so castling and now i'm like rethinking i'm
07:19like
07:19no no no no this is not a reflection of you this is a reflection emma you didn't do anything
07:24wrong
07:24what i really wanted from stephen was like that empathy and that emotion and that support
07:29i felt invalidated i was like what the is going on wait so did you say the first guy was
07:36your number
07:37one no like all three of them like within the past couple days have been like one two three two
07:42one
07:43three i want to focus on my relationships with mike and connor i'm just hoping that they can accept me
07:48for who i am hi how are you i want to talk about where our heads are at because like
07:57i really like
07:58talking to you but like is there anything that like stands out about me i like your laugh i think
08:06we have
08:06the same values on a lot of a lot of things i can see a future with you yeah the
08:15only thing that scares
08:16me a little was the the conversation that we had with the with the kid thing oh god okay oh
08:25my god
08:26take your time i was actually adopted okay um i'm not going to disclose where because i don't want to
08:37give yeah away my appearance but you don't have to do that i do not know my family's medical history
08:45i do
08:45not know who my birth family is to bring a child into this world i am afraid of not knowing
08:55what that
08:56means for my child in terms of health issues
09:08i was
09:12born with
09:16birthmarks all over my body that had a very high chance of melanoma
09:21okay so i underwent 10 surgeries before the age of seven to get them removed wow and so i am
09:32left with
09:34physical scarring and i think bringing in a child like i don't know what i'm passing down and like
09:41that's really scary yeah i will never judge you for any type of physical appearance
09:50based on like what what you went through i really do appreciate you sharing that with me and about
09:56the reasoning why you know you're having that struggle with having children or not having children
10:03yeah but i mean just from you telling me that i think you'd be a great mother if you were
10:09to choose to
10:10i mean to go through so much and have those uncertainties you should be proud of who you
10:18are and where you came from you're put on this earth for a reason like things happen for a reason
10:23i haven't told anybody this here actually so i was a premature baby um when i was born
10:31um i i had trouble like breathing i stopped breathing and and i flatlined wow um and they
10:41had to bring me back to life my gra my grandma calls me like a little miracle baby i like
10:47to consider
10:47myself a fighter and i like to thank you are too now for sharing me sharing with me that like
10:53you
10:53you know we're we're fighters yeah to go through something so um hard and to be able to be um
11:02still
11:02an amazing person i appreciate you sharing that with me
11:10you okay yeah i'm fine no thank you thanks for sharing your story too that's that's really
11:21beautiful and like i completely under like agree like i believe everyone's here for a reason i'm like
11:26i'm glad you made it yeah thank you i was adopted i was left at a train station is what
11:43my parents
11:44told me i was born with birthmarks all over my body okay i had about 10 surgeries to remove the
11:53birthmarks that were high risk yeah spent a lot of time in the hospital i do have like visible scars
11:58like on my arm and on my legs i felt so different from everyone and i think paired with not
12:04knowing
12:05my roots it really like messed with my head as a kid and i think i've started understanding of why
12:12do
12:12i not want kids and i don't know if i selfishly like want them to go through the things i
12:20went through
12:20like i felt like alone yeah wow thank you for sharing that i know that's tough i think i think
12:31it's valid for sure your hesitations but i also think that because of what you went through you'd be
12:36a fantastic mom you've got a great heart you're obviously awesome so fun yeah so
12:50thank you thank you thank you for like giving me the space and letting me letting me share that i
12:55know
12:55that i was not the easiest to open up and you instead of abandoning you let me open up on
13:08my time
13:08mm-hmm and i feel like especially after today it's like a new chapter for us yeah you know me
13:20it's like weird well you want to know my favorite part about our relationship so far what's your
13:26favorite part when like got kind of real we didn't run away from each other that was yeah absolutely
13:32massive i can picture our life so vividly in the weirdest way i could picture us in mexico i could
13:40picture us in our living room i can see that so can i
13:50six days it's all it took for you to start getting visuals of sitting next to me on the couch
13:57yeah six days and we might be engaged by the end of next week holy am i in your top
14:04two
14:06what do you think if you say no i'm like i'm running through that orange door
14:12yes connor you are top two
14:18am i in your top two you are
14:23we just got to talk about married life let's talk about married life baby boy because like
14:28as you know in here like one night is like a month it can change everything yeah i like you
14:34i like you too
14:35into the open right here we go mike is an amazing person but i have a gut feeling that connor
14:45would be
14:45the one at the end of this
14:53since i'm down to one there's something about it i'll talk through with you guys i'm like super nervous
14:59about yeah that uh it's amber she has a kid which is like so much pressure can't even imagine she
15:05said
15:05her last boyfriend was three years and she never introduced her daughter to that guy dude i wouldn't
15:10worry about past there's a reason she's chosen you yeah there's a reason she's comfortable bringing
15:16your kid there you're worth it and if you just show who you are to what you've shown amber yeah
15:21dude
15:22her kid's gonna love you she would never ever ever bring you home to like her kid if she didn't
15:29trust you bingo true bingo that should be one of like the highest like like honors like the most
15:33like that's how she knows she really loves you yeah you're gonna add so much value to this kid's
15:37life exactly dude you're such a good guy that's so fair like none of us are in the position you're
15:43in but like dude you're i do like kids though they're pretty hilarious dude this kid is only
15:47going to have a better time with you and i think amber knows that you still have to think about
15:51absolutely yeah when i was first interviewing for love is blind they asked me about deal breakers
15:57and i said having a kid was a deal breaker now here we are so like this has been something
16:04i've
16:04been thinking a lot about it's probably why i'm not getting much sleep at night but she's been
16:08telling me so much about emma and i'm like now it's kind of exciting i think that i'm a very
16:13lucky guy
16:14to be in this position at all and i hope that she feels the same like i love my career
16:18i love my job
16:19even if it is hard you know i have emma i love that but it must be really nice to
16:25have somebody that's
16:26like there for you at the end of every day for sure absolutely i just like that we have a
16:31lot
16:31of similarities as far as i don't know being more open and honest like when we were talking about
16:35finances and everything we're like yeah we both up at one point you know what i mean so we're both
16:39shitty with money it's like nice to not have that judgmental attitude with everything and i think
16:46you're a very like understanding and caring person and that is like different for me what type of guys
16:53you usually go for like i do have a type are you talking personality wise or like looks wise or
16:58um
16:58i don't know i didn't really i didn't have anything too specific in mind i just wasn't sure if there's
17:03like a i guess either like if there's um i'd be yeah i guess i'd be curious if there's a
17:08type that
17:08you're more attracted to usually looks wise it doesn't really matter i think i've dated a different
17:13type of guy every time i've had a relationship okay and i haven't had like that many relationships
17:19if that makes sense yeah me neither what about you i mean and you could be more of the challenge
17:24too i don't care the personality makes a huge difference but yeah would you say that you usually
17:28go for more brunettes do you like blondes or redheads at all um yeah you're like ah basically anything
17:34yeah i just don't know that many redheads um so actually i'm not a redhead right now but i
17:41am naturally kind of a redhead and i used to be a like deep redhead strawberry i'm i'm like
17:47strawberry and for this time around i kind of changed it up a little bit but it's funny growing
17:51up i was not attractive like whatsoever i was like really skinny and had this like frizzy red hair at
17:57that time you know and i was a dork like i love planets i had the planet shirt so i
18:01actually got
18:02fake assed out like in sixth grade in front of the entire school you know from which was like
18:08humiliating but i didn't cuss at that guy but basically told him the off i was made fun of heavily
18:13like in school but it was one of the poorest kids and having a kid like out of wedlock and
18:18not even
18:19being in a relationship and like going through that like there was a lot of judgment at that time
18:23period but then i just kind of learned i had to own it i just don't give a shit now
18:26you know i think
18:27it's something i feel a little bit insecure about is like growing up had a hard time with um with
18:33learning like i had a teacher call me stupid like a stupid kid once i just yeah it's pretty cool
18:37yeah i had
18:39an ex-girlfriend that kind of re uh reaffirmed that insecurity as well which that sucked well
18:45tell her she's stupid yeah she is um anyway when i did get my degree that felt pretty good good
18:51no good
18:52for you i don't know that i found my path professionally and i haven't been exercising
18:58like i haven't been utilizing my time wisely for things that matter finding something that truly fulfills
19:04me in life honestly you're like i've told you a million times i love to cook it's like an art
19:08form in
19:08a way like the way that i talk about it it's like oh dude that makes me feel really good
19:11so i think
19:12i'll figure things out but i you know gotta make money so gotta keep uh gotta keep doing the damn
19:17thing for a while i totally get that i mean i love my job don't get me wrong and helping
19:22people is
19:23pretty amazing but i'm kind of like you were i'm a little bit more artsy a little bit more do
19:27-it-yourself
19:27type of thing and not to be like i'm not like everybody else i'm not like everybody else like
19:31yeah i just think i am weird so like and i'm okay with that yeah i would i mean it'd
19:37be really nice to
19:37have somebody to be weird with yeah i wonder if everybody thinks that they're weird yeah i think
19:42i like i guess i probably just wear my weirdness on my sleeve a little bit more mm-hmm everybody
19:47probably can be honestly prior to like having emma during those insecurities i felt like this
19:52overwhelming pressure to be like this perfect girl but it's interesting like you go through
19:58shit and you're like i don't really care about being perfect anymore yeah i like listening to you
20:02talk like your voice see when people say that i don't get that because i feel like i have this
20:08brash there's so many girls in this group that have like these soft loving voices i'm like why can't
20:13i have that soft loving well you've uh your voice is like charming really i don't think so yeah i
20:20like
20:20it it's just gonna be strange like match a voice with a face only thing that i could possibly say
20:25and
20:25it's almost impossible to know until you meet is like what if we don't have any natural chemistry as
20:30like it's not like some six-year-old man that's like fat and like nasty no yeah i mean uh
20:38i i'm
20:38really really really trying to just focus on the personal connection and uh like i've i've felt really
20:44good about ours isn't it crazy we could have just like swiped each other on tinder and that you live
20:49out in mount vernon i don't think i have my range that high to mount vernon yeah well see there
20:57was your
20:57problem yeah i'm just kidding i haven't been on tinder in years that's funny today's been great
21:06that's been really nice just to let you know i'm a 61 year old man god damn it
21:20something like my day better not be falling in love with nobody right now tomorrow i'm standing
21:25on them stairs like if anybody is dating my man come forward raise your hand i love you
21:38my main question right now is i know it shouldn't be but it's like am i your number one or
21:44am i your
21:45back up how are we feeling good how do you feel about us i feel good i really love where
22:12you know
22:13we've you know been able to develop and really just you know learn but i gotta figure out what
22:18the future could look like yeah i get that i get that like this is your you know career i
22:23have a
22:24great job but if you are my husband i will make whatever work i think the biggest thing is guilt
22:32like i don't want to feel like it's like i was taking away you know like it's just it's just
22:37so
22:38ah if we were to be married right like what i just said i meant it like that's not a
22:43hard
22:44decision for me okay we both talk about wanting kids someday but for whatever reason it doesn't
22:49happen how would that make you feel i think it would be really really hard but one of my favorite
22:53mottos is cry river build a bridge and get over it and so i would definitely cry a river i'd
22:57probably
22:57cry ocean but then it's like okay well why is this my life's journey maybe god wants me to go
23:05a different
23:05path but i feel like i'm called to be a mother like my kids would love me they would probably
23:10have
23:11to go to therapy for some reason because of me i'm like you can have the best parents you want
23:15to go to
23:15therapy for some reason but i'm hoping it's like oh my god my mom loved me too much like help
23:20you know
23:21like hopefully it is because i'm doing something overly motherly but i feel like i'm going to be a
23:26great mom i think so too yeah is there anything that your kids could do where you would maybe distance
23:33yourself from them what about like their sexuality no i i would be welcoming you know you are who you
23:42are of course i would have this idea in my head of like yeah what i want from like my
23:46son so that
23:48it would be hard but i mean i'm not i'm still going to be accepting though yeah i love that
23:53answer
23:53every man i've dated in the past answer has been like my son will never be gay yeah like if
24:00he's gay
24:00like i'm gonna take him to the strip club and i'm like that's a little strange like but i also
24:06understand the idea of like dang i have this vision for what your life would be like and it's a
24:10little
24:10different so i gotta go handle my shit while i also try to love you through your shit and figure
24:15out how to support you exactly yeah i don't think i've like really talked about my mom too too much
24:21yeah you have it when i was uh when i was 18 my mom she almost passed away um it
24:29was it was insane
24:31and it really changed the whole dynamic of like the household and you know everything she are you okay
24:39with saying how it's actually crazy because i was suspended from school what you do i went to um gym
24:46class like four straight periods because it was a substitute teacher and i just played basketball
24:52the whole day oh my god but i finally got caught um
24:59the last period of the day yeah and so i you know was at home my mom he was upstairs
25:05you know she's
25:06passed out like my mom's out of it like what the heck what's going on they'll call 911 you know
25:10we go
25:11to the hospital it turns out she had a rare blood infection that was like affecting her leg and
25:18literally like the doctor told me like hey if you weren't suspended and didn't do that like you'd
25:22have came home and your mom you know would have been gone you know and so you know had have
25:28her foot
25:28amputated and it was just like wow like for all this to happen to me at 18 it made me
25:34have to really
25:36like grow up yeah and just be the man of house care for her you know help her and you
25:42know really
25:43you know make sure she's good yeah first of all thank you for sharing that with me yeah um because
25:47i know you're not a person that likes to harp on like the tough parts of life no i'm not
25:52so i know
25:53like you're sharing this with me because it's important so thank you um your mom sounds like a
25:57soldier so she's a soldier love her you sound like a phenomenal son which i love and i'm not surprised
26:03about at all thank you the that we've talked about in the past what is it six days yeah probably
26:10haven't talked about in like years yeah but just like wow like these emotions are so strong like it's
26:22wow like this is this is actually crazy do you feel like you have strong emotions for more than one
26:31person no i actually i don't i can feel it we're meant for something no yeah we're here to cover
26:40it all
26:47uh jess huh are you dating kevin no are you dating kevin you don't give me kevin vibes
26:52so sorry to say but definitely getting engaged
27:02tyler she's my number one and i think i am tyler's number one i definitely think tyler would be happy
27:09with me and we would be happy with each other we just get each other and it feels good
27:14kevin you done to one as well you think two you got two yeah going into this date with kia
27:20it's
27:22important for me to let her know that these feelings i have for tyler were stronger
27:28after you me lady it scares scares the out of me to have to initiate those conversations because
27:36everything's been so flowing so easy i want her to be happy and if that conversation comes up i
27:44definitely could see breakups happening this is something that i just wasn't expecting to have to
27:51you know do today hi how are we feeling oh my goodness i'm so excited to hear your voice oh
27:59my god
27:59you don't even understand i was low-key i didn't it's a long story talk to me what's up they're
28:05just so
28:05much going on today and i was like if i open this pod door and he's not on the other
28:12side i'm gonna
28:12be so annoyed yeah it's hard to not be invested in everyone else's but also like focusing on what
28:20you have going on so um yeah what are um you know what's kind of your thoughts on you know
28:28kind of us
28:29i feel like i'm enjoying the the timeline okay you stick out for me okay and i do want to
28:38get to know
28:38you some more what are your thoughts i don't want to play with anyone's heart you know yeah and that's
28:45what's been messing with me i really you know just kind of been you know thinking more
28:53about like how i should go about explaining those feelings and being open and you know
29:01letting kia know like where you know i'm coming from with you know the connections that we're making
29:06here well i mean i think you're doing what you're supposed to be doing yeah experiment is for you to
29:11like have other connections and get to know people and figure out where that lies um
29:17um i'm a big girl so yeah let me know what's up yeah don't have me out here you know
29:24wondering
29:25thinking and i would do the same thing with you thank you if you're saying you have other connections
29:30and yes i i think you should have other connections yeah yeah five or day six yeah exactly i think
29:36that
29:36a lot of times people here probably make knee-jerk decisions and it wasn't even something that needed to
29:45be decided so soon but i think you also do need to be intentional about okay are you saying you
29:51have
29:51other connections and you still want to get to know me as well or what are you saying i think
29:59i do want to still learn more about you but also i know that i have maybe stronger connections out
30:11there
30:11too yeah and that's what's been kind of me up yeah that's a toughie i know this is crazy we're
30:20on day
30:20six yeah like i can't believe um yeah i can't believe this so um but i will say this it
30:30was very nice
30:31like open the door and just hear kia's voice you know i was just like wow yay yay yeah yeah
30:40yeah so
30:41where do we go from here i would like to just talk a little more with then i can really
30:47just think
30:49with my heart of like kind of what that looked like because you deserve
30:55to know so let's dive into just a few things of like more about you can we do that yeah
31:01okay let's
31:02do it all right i'm an open book one of the questions that i wanted to ask is uh what
31:06does
31:06love look like for you for me it looks like honesty it looks like fun it looks like gross
31:17love feels like home i remember my aunt being like that back in the day with my uncle her husband
31:27her she said that her favorite sound were the keys his keys opening up the door you know she could
31:33have
31:33easily been like love is when i see his face or when i you know when he holds me but
31:38she said hearing
31:39just the thought of hearing his keys was the highlight for her and made her giddy excited
31:46and um i think after she said that it kind of changed my perception of love and made me want
31:53more i don't want to say like people have superficial meanings of love but i think that the sound of
31:59his
31:59keys jingling coming in the door i've never heard that like that's so specific and romantic and
32:08impactful so i'm looking for that i love that you mentioned that you're looking for a best friend
32:16a partner as opposed to just like having a wife you want to have your partner in crime you're robin's
32:22a batman you're you know all those cliches you think you're ready for marriage i definitely
32:29do think i'm ready for marriage you think love is blind oh it could be
32:37could be okay i definitely have had a dope connection with you it's been very just easy i
32:46came in here you know with you like for this date really you know fired up about my previous date
32:54mm-hmm it was almost like i wasn't coming in with an open mind and i didn't know coming in
32:59if that
32:59was the right thing to do at first what do you mean am i doing something i'm not supposed to
33:06be
33:06doing you know by keeping your options open no no well yes but yes but no like um more so
33:17just i get
33:18that you're you're an empath you definitely don't want to hurt anyone's feelings and i really do
33:23respect that yeah um maybe if this was not an experiment where we were getting to know so many
33:30people so fast then i would be a little more jarred but it's day six so it makes sense definitely
33:39definitely does i don't feel like i know everything that's to come yeah which is scary yes but also
33:47exciting i didn't realize how easy it is just to talk to you about feelings like it's refreshing
33:52you know do you think i was gonna be like you got me up
34:00choose up right now oh my god hell no are you kidding me i'm realistic i think you should probably
34:07have
34:08some fun with it yeah let's do that let's have some fun remember that the best is yet to come
34:13the best is yet to come
34:34masters at work yes sir can i lick the spoon
34:45i always watch my mom and my grandma cooking growing up and i've learned a lot from my mom i
34:50still do learn cooking stuff from her so i make some mom's chocolate chip cookies she let me have
34:55the recipe which she doesn't just freely give out but she let baby boy have it i think we've got
35:00it
35:00into a dough here oh yeah we got dough baby cooking that's my love language that's how i show you
35:06that
35:06i care about she's that can give you something good so i'm excited to share those with amber
35:13those are massive
35:17oh my gosh these are so good my guy made cookies if y'all want cookies you made cookies no
35:23my guy did
35:25oh stop this is the cutest thing ever i'm totally stealing one i feel so incredibly special that he
35:34made me cookies no one's done that for me before what kind are they chocolate chip yes they're so good
35:40they're amazing have one jordan he feels like home to me all the girls love the cookies yeah yeah all
35:48right let's go i've just been reflecting on this crazy journey and it's been so wild so many emotions
35:59so worth it to be sitting here right now with you in this pod the amount of ground that we've
36:07covered
36:07really is um it's pretty spectacular to think about it really is and i know we've talked about it a
36:15lot for
36:15sure but i mean are you feeling like nervous or anxious or anything like that about bringing like
36:21two people into your life um so am i nervous yeah i've never i've never like helped with a with
36:29a kid
36:30before um you know but just from getting to know you and like hearing about her personality it's really
36:37put me at ease about that um something that helps is knowing that she has a strong relationship
36:43with her dad like you you've got a good support system and it's like it doesn't make me feel like
36:49there's a like a like a you know amount of pressure on me sure it feels like more of like
36:54a privilege
36:55that i get to do and that's a good perspective to have i mean she does have a great dad
36:59you know it's
36:59not like you're having to step in and take this like placeholder position or anything like that like
37:04it's more i think it could be more fun for sure i feel good about that and trust me when
37:10i say coming in
37:11at the age of seven is much easier yeah than any other age she's potty trained she can wipe her
37:18own
37:19butt yeah yeah that part oh my gosh i was thinking about you all night i was thinking about you
37:27too
37:28i meant to like write you kind of like a letter in my notebook but actually just drew random pictures
37:35that were expressive to me and like we did do a theme on like one of them which was like
37:40what
37:40does love mean to you and it was really nice it really made me realize a lot i've got some
37:48stuff
37:48written for you too i'm gonna read you this little thing that i wrote here to the most beautiful person
37:54that i've never seen um you are strong charming confident you're a fighter a caretaker and you're
38:03a role model and i want to thank you for taking this chance and for showing me who you really
38:09are
38:10and accepting me for who i am so to the queen of my double y trailer yes amber katherine morrison
38:17i love you
38:19i'm on one knee now and i would love to know if you do the honor of being my wife
38:28oh my goodness
38:31i would love to
38:35amazing
38:41i'm like about to cry
38:45oh my goodness that was the most beautiful thing that anyone who has never saw me has ever wrote
38:52i love you i love you too who would have thought this girl that you would have swiped left on
38:58tinder
38:58because she lived in mount vernon i'm about to put a ring on her tomorrow are you nervous that i'm
39:05gonna come out there and be like a one-legged um i'm not i'm not worried about it at all
39:10here's to love
39:11here's to love here go celebrate with your boy all right love you
39:16i only want to hear love songs i found my heart up in this place
39:21yes yes yes yes yes oh yeah
39:38oh your cheese is so hard i know
39:40Let's go, dude.
39:50Oh, yeah.
39:53And then there were 11.
39:55I'm telling you, day one I was in the shower praying,
39:58and I was like, put on my heart why I'm here, God.
40:02Dream big and take risks, baby.
40:04I woke up this morning having extreme clarity.
40:07I'm like in a really, really great place about the relationship
40:10in itself.
40:10Like, I'm very clear.
40:11I love that.
40:13Oh.
40:14We're talking about Kayvon.
40:15Yeah.
40:15Yeah.
40:16Kayvon.
40:17Kayvon.
40:18Kayvon.
40:18I liked him.
40:19He was nice.
40:19In like the best way.
40:21Yeah.
40:21I now am so freaking clear on what I want.
40:24No, that's gonna be really true.
40:24Which I thought I knew coming in here.
40:26I know I have these strong feelings.
40:28In my head, I'm like, husband, all right?
40:31This is serious business.
40:32I can see Kevin like, oh, my God.
40:34I think you're my wife, and then we live happily ever after.
40:37It's like, and my answer is yes.
40:40I'm happy for you.
40:40I'm happy that you're in a good place.
40:43I'm in a great place.
40:43When you fall in love, you look just a little bit different.
40:47Yeah.
40:48Good luck, ladies.
40:53Whew.
40:54I wish I could be nosy in somebody else's pod right now.
40:57Yeah.
41:00Have you talked to the other guys about how you're feeling?
41:03Not really.
41:04Um, just because I'm just trying to be protective of, you know, other people's feelings.
41:11How's talking with the women then?
41:13Pretty much the same.
41:14I definitely don't want anyone to hear something that I say, and then that kind of like gets in their
41:20head about what they've got going on.
41:21Mm-hmm.
41:22At the end of the day, I'm rooting for everyone, you know, including myself.
41:26Yeah.
41:27I really don't want to, you know, mess with anybody's time and play with anybody's hearts, and it just, it
41:33fucks with me.
41:34I feel like you keep saying that, and maybe, like, you're ignoring the fact that we kind of all signed
41:38up for this.
41:39Mm-hmm.
41:40That's true.
41:41That's very true.
41:42So, I think you're maybe overthinking just a little bit?
41:44You're right.
41:45I am overthinking.
41:48Hmm.
41:50Were you excited to have this date?
41:52No, yeah.
41:53I definitely was excited.
41:55Thinking about your mom, do you think she'd be proud of the decisions that you're making and the conversations you're
42:00having?
42:01I think she would.
42:01But just off the simple fact that I'm being vulnerable.
42:06And my mom, she's so awesome, man.
42:08Aw.
42:09Yeah, I've definitely been missing her.
42:11So, my mother, you know, had suffered kind of a pretty serious injury back when I was 18.
42:17She, you know, had to, you know, have her leg amputated.
42:22Sometimes, you know, I have to make sure, you know, my mom's good.
42:26That's a big hurdle.
42:28I'll be like, why, like, her, you know?
42:31Yeah.
42:31Like, why was something so whack happen to someone so dope?
42:37Yeah.
42:37It's, like, fuck.
42:39That fucking sucks.
42:41Like, you know, like, that's really shitty.
42:43But I think that she's still so dope and so cool.
42:47Don't forget that she's still your mom.
42:49Don't forget that part, you know?
42:51You're making a shitty situation as beautiful as possible.
42:56That felt really good to hear.
42:58You know, my dad passed away when I was 15.
43:01Yeah.
43:03And our mom has always, like, battled with addiction.
43:07Yeah.
43:07So, my grandmother.
43:09You raised you.
43:10Yep.
43:10She raised us.
43:12And my dad was super into watches back in the day.
43:16Oh, really?
43:17Yeah.
43:17And he would always just be like, you know, watches remind you of the time you have.
43:23And so then when he passed, up until, well, really, like, forever, I, like, never had a watch.
43:31And before I entered into this experiment, I finally got my first watch.
43:36Oh, wow.
43:37All of these years, I've gone without this watch because I was, like, trying to find the perfect one.
43:43Mmm.
43:44When in reality, I think the timing of it just aligned with me being ready to be open to letting
43:56go of the perfect time, you know?
44:01Right, right.
44:02And this watch is a reminder for me to be present and to show up for myself.
44:07And I think showing up for myself is having tough conversations and being me and keeping it real.
44:16And it reminds me of my dad.
44:19No, I love that.
44:20And I think it's cute.
44:21I think he would say it was cute, too.
44:24He definitely would.
44:26Yeah.
44:26Yeah.
44:31I think you truly are a conqueror, you know, for the things that you've overcome, for the things that you've
44:40accomplished.
44:41Like, it's truly something special.
44:45It's truly something special.
44:50Hmm, man.
44:52This was nice, Kia.
44:53Yeah.
44:54And I think the timing was honestly perfect.
44:56Like, you had other dates and everybody's saying, like, throwing out phrases, strong connection this and...
45:05I know, right?
45:06Strong connection that.
45:08But I feel, like, authentic.
45:12You feel me?
45:13Yeah.
45:13Like, I think a marriage has to be rooted in love and being in love.
45:19This has to be rooted in my marriage.
45:21When I say love, I mean it because I've seen so many marriages I feel like settling.
45:27Mm-hmm.
45:28And I'm not settling.
45:30I don't want to settle.
45:31It's giving me a lot to think about.
45:33Same.
45:35I'll talk to you tonight.
45:36Thanks for today.
45:37Oh, no, thank you, honestly.
45:40It meant a lot to just be able to just kind of share and open up a little bit.
45:45Yeah.
45:46It did for me, too.
45:58I was trying to figure out who is someone that doesn't... who has, like, a number two.
46:02Who has a number two they've been stringing long.
46:04Well, we don't know who any of us is.
46:06Hmm?
46:07We don't know who any of us is.
46:07But that's what I'm saying.
46:08I'm dating Kevin.
46:09I know I'm in my life.
46:10Kia?
46:11Oh, it's Kia.
46:12Damn, I didn't think that.
46:13Never mind.
46:13I thought it was breezy.
46:16Oh.
46:17No, I had a feeling, but that confirmed yesterday.
46:20Interesting.
46:20If they've been dating for this long, she could be my man side.
46:24I feel like if it was him, though, he would have ended his date right now.
46:26Okay.
46:28Okay.
46:29Okay.
46:31Like, he was gushing about how great I am.
46:32Like, thank you.
46:33I appreciate it.
46:33I appreciate the validation, but I know that.
46:35Yeah.
46:35So what are you going to do about it?
46:37Mm-hmm.
46:37Yeah.
46:39Yep.
46:40What you going to do, baby?
46:42Oh.
46:46I'm, like, shaky.
46:51How was your team?
46:52It was good.
46:53It was really good.
46:54Being, like, very honest and open.
46:56You were getting vulnerable.
46:58So good.
46:58Yeah.
46:59This is the rest of your life.
47:01True.
47:02So.
47:02True.
47:03Very true.
47:04Yeah.
47:05I mean, what's the worst that could happen?
47:08You're my number one-ish.
47:09Ish.
47:11And you might break up with me.
47:21Who's the best?
47:24What you doing?
47:25Norton.
47:26Norton?
47:27Come sit on the couch with me.
47:29Who are you dating?
47:30Who am I dating?
47:31Now he can tell me.
47:32Dating this guy named Kevin.
47:35You're the Kevin.
47:37Yeah.
47:38Oh, my gosh.
47:39Oh, my gosh.
47:43Hello, hello.
47:45Hello, hello.
47:46How we feeling?
47:47I feel good looking at this In-N-Out.
47:50Yes, I am.
47:51Yeah.
47:52This looks good.
47:53It does.
47:54How are you?
47:55I'm with that.
47:56OK.
47:57I'm just OK today.
48:01Let's see if we can get to good.
48:03OK.
48:07I'm going to eat me some In-N-Out.
48:11OK.
48:12So I'm feeling all the energy.
48:17I am curious as to where you are.
48:23You were the first person that I really gravitated towards,
48:26right?
48:27It was easy.
48:29But now it's just like, I don't know.
48:33Like, it's stupid.
48:35It's just fucking crazy.
48:36But I feel like I still don't really understand how you feel.
48:39I feel like I understand how you feel like I feel and I would feel.
48:44But I don't know that I understand how you feel.
48:47You know?
48:48Yeah.
48:49I feel it would be hard.
48:50That's how I feel.
48:52So you're not open to either long distance or somebody moving to you?
49:00No.
49:00I do feel good about someone moving to Columbus.
49:05What I don't feel good about is it being for just because I'm there.
49:12Like, I feel like I should be able to meet in the middle.
49:15So can you?
49:16My mom.
49:18I think I could, potentially.
49:21I'm just trying to figure out what it looks like.
49:24That's all.
49:25Fuck.
49:25This is so hard.
49:27I'm sorry.
49:36I feel like you're struggling.
49:42No, I get that.
49:44I get that.
49:46Oh, my God, man.
49:48This guy out of the left field.
49:55I wasn't expecting from my, like, first date.
50:03I don't know.
50:04Like, shit is just weird.
50:07It's all over the place, man.
50:09Like, was your first date good?
50:11Yeah.
50:15We haven't said names, but I'm very sure I know who your first date was.
50:19The fact that you had a great first date might be confirmation that both of us need.
50:25Like, we can live in the what-ifs all day.
50:28But for me, I know that I want a man who is going to choose me unapologetically.
50:34And at this moment, I got to choose myself, you know?
50:47Oh, man.
50:49This whole shit has been crazy.
50:52I know you're ready to go to battle.
50:54And I am, too.
50:56But also, I don't want to, one, get in the way.
51:00And then, two, I have to understand, you know, where my heart has been taking me.
51:09Okay.
51:14No, you're welcome.
51:16Like, I...
51:19Tyler, like, you have your heart, your energy of, like, just, like, being bubbly,
51:25just being able just to have just the best of times is just remarkable, you know?
51:33Like, it's been so fucking fire.
51:37It's true.
51:38But, like, Kevin, I have to stop you.
51:39Like, I cannot listen to another speech on how great I am.
51:42Like, I just can't.
51:43I walk on roads that turn to time.
51:47I appreciate it.
51:52And I...
51:53Who you're selecting is an incredible woman.
51:56Phenomenal.
51:57Like, I am so happy for y'all.
51:59But I'm not doing this shit.
52:15I'm picking anybody.
52:16I'm not selecting anybody.
52:17I'm just talking about how I fucking feel.
52:28It's crazy.
52:32It's so fucking shit.
52:42How does it get better than this?
52:46Coming into this, I was like, what about my dog?
52:48I just really have a shitty personality.
52:50No one loves me.
52:52Like, that would have sucked.
52:53But turns out somebody loves my personality, okay?
52:57We've got that.
52:58I've chosen Jordan to be my husband because he is genuine, caring, loving what I wanted in a man.
53:06We are not the type of people that are gonna be walking down the street trying to pretend we're like
53:10this perfect couple.
53:11Like, he's not gonna take me to his country club and, like, sit me on this high porch and, like,
53:15be like, okay, I need to be this person.
53:17Like, no.
53:18Having somebody say that I'm enough based on the human that I am.
53:21And it's incredible.
53:26Made up my mind, made up my heart.
53:29I've chosen Amber to be my wife.
53:31And I feel so good and so confident about this choice.
53:35If I ever been to the shore or something, maybe, like, when I make a Chipotle order.
53:39I'm just kidding.
53:42She's super caring.
53:43She's an amazing role model for her daughter.
53:46I told her I wouldn't tell this.
53:47She's got a little bit of a sweet side, too.
53:49But she's not gonna show that to anybody else.
53:57I'm not really nervous about meeting Jordan because, you know, even if he did not think I was attractive or
54:02something like that, I don't think he'd run away as far as meeting him itself.
54:06For some reason, I'm still at peace.
54:12You know, we have no clue what each other looks like.
54:14My biggest fear is, like, what if she isn't attracted to me?
54:17You know, if she looks at me, she's like, ooh, this dude is not my type.
54:25There we go.
54:28MUSIC PLAYS
54:30All my life, I've been searching
54:34For a love that is certain
54:38Within you, I know this love won't break
54:41Every breath, every step I take
54:45All my life
54:47Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
55:02oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
55:08oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
55:08oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
55:09oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
55:10oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
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