00:00Since puasa ni lah, I rasa macam sedih je, I rasa sedih.
00:06And then I, macam, at the same time, I pun takut nak raya.
00:10For 29-year-old Nur Izzati Alia Zainuddin,
00:14the joy of Hari Raya Aidilfitri feels distant this year.
00:18Izzati is one of many residents still carrying the weight
00:21of last year's gas pipeline explosion in Putra Heights,
00:25an incident that tore through Kampung Sungai Baru
00:28and changed her family's life in an instant.
00:39I tak tahulah I boleh raya ke tak sebab...
00:44sebab I tak rasa raya...
00:46I rasa raya tau ni macam...
00:51I rasa takut, then...
00:55I...
00:56I rasa sebab lah, so I'm not sure that...
00:59I boleh raya properly ke tak this year.
01:05And then...
01:07my parents pun cakap...
01:10kita like raya biasa-biasa je.
01:15So, I'm not really sure lah yang kita orang boleh raya yang raya.
01:20Mungkin just makan-makan and just gather kejap and then...
01:25I think just like that je kot.
01:26It was April 1st last year, the second day of Hari Raya,
01:31when the blast ripped through the neighbourhood,
01:33destroying homes and belongings that families had spent a lifetime building.
01:38Nearly a year on, the memory of that morning remains vivid for Izzati.
01:44I thought at first gempah bumi...
01:47sebab tentu memang shaking.
01:49So, I cakap, eh, gempah bumi ke?
01:50Lepas tu, my husband tarik...
01:52and then dia cakap,
01:54lari, kita kena lari.
01:55And then bila I aware that dia nak lari dekat semak...
01:59and then I cakap, eh, I tak pakai sleeper.
02:01So, I need to go back to get my sleeper.
02:02So, bila I patah balik, I ambil sleeper.
02:04And then, ah, my time tu, my...
02:08Diorang dah start pegang kunci kereta lah.
02:11And then bila nak selamatkan kereta tu,
02:13suddenly depan muka kita orang,
02:17ah, bumbung depan rumah jatuh.
02:19And then, semua like, terdiam.
02:22And then my father cakap,
02:24no, kita kena lari je.
02:25At that time, ah, me dengan my little,
02:28ah, yang berada lah yang...
02:30ada kudrat untuk lari laju.
02:32So, kitorang macam my parents, my grandma,
02:36and then my niece semua,
02:37still kat belakang lah.
02:38Maksudnya, diorang slow,
02:39sebabkan nak lari sama-sama lah that time.
02:42So, bila I...
02:43I ada macam nak stop untuk macam tunggu my parents.
02:47Tapi that time, badan I dah rasa burn.
02:51Some family members suffered serious burn injuries.
02:55But Izzati holds on to one thing above all else.
02:58They all made it out alive.
03:02Macam my father kept on saying that,
03:05as long as everyone ada,
03:09then it's fine.
03:10It's okay.
03:11Alhamdulillah, like, semua survive.
03:13And then, Alhamdulillah, like,
03:15kita still boleh raya sama-sama.
03:27That same quiet grief weighs on another resident,
03:3044-year-old Muhammad Radzi Muhammad Rashid,
03:33for whom preparing for this year's raya
03:36has felt anything but festive.
03:40Memang baju raya pun tak ada nak pilih dua orang apa-apa lagi.
03:44Memang,
03:45mak kata,
03:46kita pun ikut pada mak-mak nak baju raya.
03:48Mak kata,
03:49mak kata,
03:49mana baju buat apa?
03:51Macam tak ada jawapan untuk dia lah.
03:52Sebelum-sebelum ni,
03:54mungkin dah,
03:55orang kata,
03:56dah melihat nak kuih apa?
03:57Nak mak dah pipih lah.
03:59Orang kata,
03:59apa benda nak dibuat kan?
04:01Baju kalau apa semua dia dah tahu lah.
04:02Tak,
04:03dah tahu dah,
04:04kita nak baju raya apa,
04:05senong-long semua dengan adik-beradik apa semua kan?
04:07Tahun ni memang,
04:09suram lah orang kata.
04:11Daripun dengan kita minkam pun memang,
04:14dah habis semua.
04:16Jadi orang kata,
04:17macam saya lah,
04:18sebagai,
04:19orang kata,
04:19macam ketua keluarga lah,
04:21untuk memingkuh,
04:21apa,
04:22tamu jawab,
04:23adik-beradik semua kan?
04:24Like Izzati,
04:26Muhammad Radzi cannot shake the images of that day.
04:30Semasa letupan yang api naik tu,
04:32memang keadaan tu dah,
04:33memang dah kucak-kacir.
04:34Saya dah tengok semua,
04:36dia lah,
04:37mengkata bagikan,
04:38bom atom jatuh.
04:40Kita tak tahulah keadaan,
04:42masa tu saya boleh bayang macam manalah,
04:44Ya Allah.
04:45Saya dah tak,
04:46tak tahu apa-apa dah.
04:47Saya cuma pastikan keluarga saya keluar berlari,
04:49ikut belakang saya.
04:50Bila,
04:52selepas beberapa bulan tu pun,
04:54bila diorang pergi sekolah,
04:57bila hujan,
04:58lebat ke,
04:59guru ke,
05:01kat petis sama minyambar dekat luar,
05:03memang dia rasa,
05:04nampak lah kat sini,
05:05cikgu pun cakap,
05:06memang ada,
05:08adalah dia punya,
05:09apa,
05:10perubahan dia,
05:10perubahan dia,
05:11dia rasa takut,
05:12apa semua kan.
05:13Jadi,
05:14bila macam baru-baru ni,
05:16musim perayaan ni,
05:17dengan mercon,
05:18berdantang,
05:18berdentung kita pun,
05:20wah,
05:20apa hal kan?
05:21Bila punya hujan ni,
05:22kita dah keluar,
05:23kat buah-baru ni,
05:24hujan lebat,
05:25dalam pukul 4 pagi tu pun,
05:27saya terkejut.
05:28Kita terkejut situ,
05:29sekolah tengok,
05:29oh, hujan lebat,
05:30kita cakap kan.
05:31For the families of Kampung Sungai Baru,
05:34Hari Raya this year,
05:35is both a reminder of what was lost,
05:37and a testament to what remains.
05:40In the quiet moments of togetherness,
05:43they find their strength.
05:44And in simply being alive to celebrate,
05:47they find their gratitude.
05:48their gratitude.
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