I Survived My Friends' Sexual Assault | A Story of Healing - video Dailymotion

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Today on Unfiltered Stories, our guest Loward Choi shares the how one of his friends sexually assaulted him. Being manipulated by his friend, Loward stayed silent about the assault for a long time. But, when he started to share his story with others, his healing process started. His story shows the  importance of speaking up and having a good support system for sexual assault survivors.   #truestory #survivor #healing   You can find Lorward here:  IG: https://www.instagram.com/lorward4/   Thank you for watching Unfiltered Stories! We offer a platform for our guests to speak openly about their life stories and journeys, shedding light on the challenges they faced and the resilience they've shown.   Our mission is to raise awareness about survivors by delving into their stories, exploring the impact of their experiences, and how they've managed to heal and rebuild their lives.  By sharing these stories, we aim to break the silence surrounding those challenging memories and create a compassionate environment.   🌅 FOLLOW US 🌅  Facebook ➮ https://tinyurl.com/UnfilteredFB  Tiktok ➮ https://tinyurl.com/UnfilteredTT  Snapchat ➮ https://tinyurl.com/UnfilteredSN

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00:00Hi, my name is Lorrid, and I'm a survivor of sexual assault.

00:02My family and I, we grew up in Torrance, California.

00:05You know, I'm one of eight kids, so I have seven siblings,

00:08and we just grew up hanging out together,

00:10playing tennis together, going outside, camping.

00:12You know, when I look back and I'm like,

00:14why did I ever decide to go to a college in North Carolina?

00:17Going to college, and it's just this very small,

00:20private Christian school in its own little bubble,

00:23was such a weird experience.

00:25I met my abuser my first semester there, like very early on,

00:29because he was a really close friend of one of my tennis athletes on the team.

00:34And we just had met through that,

00:36and we'll just like give him a fake name and we'll call him Kyle.

00:39So Kyle and I, you know, as friends, he is an upperclassman.

00:42He's, I think he was in his fourth year of college at this point,

00:45and we just kind of hung out,

00:46and he was kind of this cool upperclassman who knew all the people on campus.

00:50He was so confident, like knew where to go and all this stuff,

00:53and just provided us a lot of access to places that otherwise,

00:56like us little first years, like wouldn't have access to.

00:58Yeah, so the first time Kyle had really crossed the line,

01:01he had invited over a couple of friends back to his apartment,

01:04and you're like, hey, like we're going to drink,

01:06like let's do this thing.

01:07And little to me had never had alcohol before,

01:09but I remember like as soon as I had alcohol and I drank it,

01:12I was just like, I just feel so anxious right now.

01:14Like I just need to get out.

01:15Like my skin is crawling.

01:16I just don't feel safe.

01:17And so I just pretended to be asleep.

01:19You know, as the night wears on, everyone's like,

01:20hey, let's just leave Lordwood here.

01:22Kyle, Kyle and one of my teammates, they'll take care of him.

01:25Like it'll be fine and we don't want to take him back to the dorm where he's going to be

01:28drunk

01:28and like get into trouble, all this stuff.

01:30And so it kind of left me.

01:31And so I'm on the floor, like just trying to sleep.

01:33Be like, everyone leave me alone.

01:34I don't feel safe.

01:35I want to go to bed and Kyle picks me up and he's just like,

01:38places me on the couch.

01:39And every time I think about that,

01:41I just feel so light to him in his mind.

01:43I feel like he just like picks me up and puts me like,

01:45I just got, I got to tell you something.

01:46I got to tell you something.

01:47And I'm like, I don't care.

01:47I want to go to bed.

01:48And he's like, I got to tell you something.

01:50I was like, okay, what?

01:51And he like looks at me really intently.

01:52He's like, okay, I'm like, okay, cool.

01:54Thanks for letting me know.

01:55Like this really doesn't change much about our friendship.

01:58And he's like, I'm only telling you because like you're from California.

02:01You would understand, you know what it's like to not be like, feel accepted

02:04and to feel really out of place.

02:06And I was like, okay, like, I really appreciate you telling me.

02:09And like, it's like, but you can't tell anyone.

02:10You can't tell anyone.

02:11Like if the school found out, like, oh my gosh, they would do all these things would happen.

02:15And I was like, okay, like, I'll keep it secret.

02:17Like, geez, relax.

02:18It's not a good deal to me.

02:20But since you guys, I'll keep it safe.

02:22Um, and as we like continue talking, he like reaches over again, like gross me on my,

02:26and I'm just like, whoa, like, it's not okay.

02:29And I like get up and I'm just like immediately just very startled.

02:32And I'm just like, this is very weird.

02:33This is a brand new experience for me.

02:35You know, I'm like, no, you can't do that.

02:37Like, that's not okay.

02:38Like, I didn't give you consent.

02:39That's a boundary.

02:40You don't cross that for friends.

02:41Like what is going on right now?

02:43Um, and I just remember him being like upset and he's like trying to calm me down.

02:46He's like, I'm sorry, but like, you shouldn't, all this stuff.

02:49He's like, you're like homophobic.

02:51You're like, Hey gay people.

02:52That's why you're doing this.

02:52Like, I told you something personal and you're like using it against me.

02:55And I was like, what is, what is happening right now?

02:57Like, I'm really confused because you did something wrong, but I feel like I did something wrong.

03:02Like what is happening right now?

03:03And it, that just kind of continued through the night, but then eventually I just left.

03:07Um, and the next day, you know, we were running to each other and it's like, you know, like,

03:10you can't do that.

03:11Like, you're so like homophobic.

03:13You hate black people.

03:14Like you are just like everyone else who like betrays me.

03:17And I felt so hurt by that.

03:18I was like, oh my gosh, like maybe I am like everyone else.

03:21Maybe I am the bad guy.

03:22And really was just like so conflicted in my head about this person did something wrong

03:27to me, but I feel like I need to make amends for what they did.

03:31It's just such a confusing place to be in the moment and to feel like I'm in the wrong

03:36when you did something wrong.

03:38After some amount of time, you know, he reaches back out and he's like, Hey, like, really sorry

03:41for the way I acted.

03:42I shouldn't have said those things.

03:43Obviously you don't hate gay people.

03:46You don't like hate black people, like all this stuff.

03:47And I'm like, oh, like, thank you.

03:49Like, this feels really nice to hear because I had dismissed that part of myself.

03:52And I was like, maybe I do.

03:54But to be able to hear someone like apologize in genuine, like with a genuine heart is really

03:58like, it really means something.

04:00Um, and so after he had apologized, you know, we're hanging out again and we're friends

04:04again and things go back to just being like casual, cool friends.

04:07So the second time he like crosses the line with me is we're like going back to his apartment.

04:12I think we're just like grabbing something random and we're just like going back and forth

04:15about something like meaningless argument and we're just bantering.

04:18And, you know, out of nowhere, he goes like, Oh, like I hate fighting with you.

04:21And I was like, it's kind of a weird thing to say.

04:23Like, this is a very casual argument.

04:25I don't know why you feel this way.

04:27And he's like, and then he, he like grabs me by the shoulders and he like puts me up

04:30against the wall.

04:31And I'm just like, Oh my gosh, like I do not like being handled this way.

04:34This is not fun.

04:35I'm like really scared.

04:36He's just like a bigger dude than me.

04:38I'm just like, Oh my gosh.

04:39And he puts his arms on the side.

04:40And I'm like, Oh my gosh, I don't feel safe.

04:42Like, am I about to get my, am I about to get beat?

04:44Like, what is it happening right now?

04:45Um, and I just feel so like frozen in place and he like comes in and he kisses me.

04:50And I remember he like pulls away and he's like, you're such a bad kiss.

04:52And I'm like, no, duh.

04:53But again, like I'm trying to stay super calm.

04:56I'm trying to stay super composed because I'm like, I don't know what could happen if

04:58I freak out, if things might get worse.

05:00And so I'm trying to stay super calm.

05:02I'm just trying to be like, okay, like, it's okay.

05:04Like we're going to stay and start our hair.

05:05We're going to put our head down and we're going to get through this.

05:06And then we're going to just figure it out from there.

05:08And I think we had gone to a sporting event and then we had coming back.

05:13And then I just like, excuse myself.

05:14And I was like, Hey, like, I gotta go.

05:16Like, I need to wake up early for practice or something and just left.

05:19But again, like all those same feelings of just like feeling so disgusted in my own body,

05:23body, a feeling like I don't want to be here, a feeling like, yeah, I just remember like

05:28wanting to cut off my lips and I just being like, this is so gross.

05:30I feel so gross and I don't know what to do because all of it is like an internal thing.

05:35It's not something that I can wash off.

05:36It's something that's inside of me.

05:38And I think that was just such a really, really difficult place to be.

05:42And honestly, like, I don't remember what had happened afterwards between Kyle and I.

05:47I'm sure we had made up because there was another incident, but I don't remember what had happened.

05:51Kyle was still very much involved.

05:53Like we were part of the same friend groups.

05:55It's a small campus.

05:56So people just run into each other all the time.

05:58And again, like every time these things that happened, like I was alone, there's no one

06:01around to witness anything.

06:02No one around to be like, Oh, like what Kyle did to Lordward was really wrong.

06:06And like, we should stay away from it.

06:07And so the third time it happened, it was kind of like a month or two in between times

06:11before it kind of happened again.

06:12We're just pretending to be friends in my head.

06:15I'm like, just shut up, get through it.

06:17Don't tell anybody.

06:18You know, no one really cares anyway.

06:19Like if you told someone and they did care, they just make fun of you.

06:22They use it against you.

06:23And so I was like, okay, like, we're just not going to say anything.

06:26We're just going to get through this.

06:27Um, and the third time, like, I really don't remember like how I ended up at his apartment,

06:31but like, and people have asked me like, Oh, we're like, did you like take you by force?

06:35And I was like, that's not the feeling I have to just, the memory is so blurry for me.

06:39I just don't know how I ended up there.

06:40Um, I think he, I think Kyle had just like invited me to his place and I was like, Oh,

06:45like let's hang out.

06:46Like, let's get some food and like watch a movie or something.

06:48And I was like, okay, sure.

06:49Like, whatever.

06:50Like that sounds fine.

06:51And I think if I remember correctly, he had initiated that because he was like, I'm really

06:57sorry for how I treated you.

06:58Like, you know, we haven't been really close friends as of late, but like, I want to make

07:01it up and you know, I was like, Oh, like it's a gesture of goodwill.

07:04Like, okay, for sure.

07:06Um, and I just remember it being like cold and snowy in my mind.

07:10And we, I get there, something happens and it's something that like as try as I might,

07:16like, it's something that I just can't remember.

07:17Um, but I remember just being like on the floor on a mattress with like his body pressed

07:21up up against mine.

07:22And I'm just like, I'm coming, I'm waking up and I'm like, it's really hot.

07:25I'm like, I'm not wearing a shirt.

07:27I'm not wearing sweats.

07:28Like I was definitely wearing those when I came.

07:30Um, and just like, I feel his like in between my butt cheeks and I can, and I'm just like,

07:35Oh my God, this is really gross.

07:36Like I don't feel comfortable and I can feel it like his hand is like over.

07:40He's like, Oh, like, and something happens, but he's like, like stroking me and I'm just

07:46like, Oh my gosh, what is happening?

07:48Like, um, and again, like I'm just freezing again.

07:51Like I'm just like, I don't know what to do.

07:53I don't know if I want to freak out.

07:54Like he's so much bigger than me.

07:56If I freak out and like try to fight, like he's just going to beat me.

07:59So it doesn't matter.

08:00And I was just like, Oh my gosh, oh my gosh.

08:01And I'm just trying to stay so calm and I'm just like freaking out.

08:05I'm like, Oh my gosh, like I feel so, so uncomfortable.

08:07Um, and then he asked me, he's like, is this okay?

08:10And I remember in, in that moment, like I had so much clarity in my mind, but I was like,

08:15I know he's recording this in my mind.

08:17I was like, I know he's recording this, but even though I had that level of clarity and

08:20I knew, I was like, I know he's recording this.

08:22I know he knows what he's doing is wrong.

08:24And he was like, is this okay?

08:25Like in my mind, I'm like, if I say no, what's going to happen?

08:28If I say no, like there are no good outcomes for this.

08:31It's not as though he's gonna be like, Oh, like you set a boundary.

08:33Okay.

08:33Like, I'm gonna let you go.

08:34I was just like, this doesn't end well.

08:35So I was just like, and I remember just like, I have this very clear image in my mind of

08:39this, like the softest, most timid, like most coerced.

08:42Yes.

08:42Coming out of my mouth.

08:44Yes.

08:44And just like barely croaking it out.

08:46And he asked again, cause he's, I'm like, he has something he's recording me.

08:49And I croak it out again.

08:50And I'm like, I pray to God that if someone ever hears this, they can hear the tension in

08:55my voice, like just the most coerced dribble out of a yes ever.

09:00Um, and so eventually, you know, after a while, he keeps going and I was just like, okay,

09:05like I'm going to leave now.

09:06Like if it's okay, he, there was no, but he like just kept going.

09:11And then after a while I was like, I'm good.

09:12So I'm like out of the mattress.

09:14I'm like putting my clothes on.

09:15I'm trying to be like, Oh, like I'm super tired.

09:17Like I want to sleep in my own bed.

09:18I'm like trying to come up with like this very nonchalant excuse for why I need to leave

09:23right now.

09:23And I remember like walking down the stairs super slowly and I was like, you can see me.

09:27He can see me.

09:28I gotta be cool.

09:28I gotta be casual.

09:29But as soon as like turn the corner and the trees are black, I'm like beelining it for

09:33my dorm.

09:34I'm just sprinting.

09:35And I just remember like, it's snowy.

09:37It's cold.

09:38Like my feet are kind of slipping against the snow as I'm running.

09:41And the snow like kind of stings your face.

09:43And I'd like get back to my dorm room.

09:44And I just like, I just remember like curling up and like squatting on the floor and just

09:48like hugging myself.

09:49And I was just like, I have this, I was like, I feel like if I don't hug myself right

09:53now,

09:53if I feel like if I don't squeeze myself right now, like everything is just going to spill

09:57out of me and I can't have that happen right now.

09:59I need to keep it together.

10:01Um, and so I'm just like squatting there on the floor, like holding myself and I'm just

10:04like, it's okay.

10:05It's okay.

10:06It's okay.

10:06Like, it's okay.

10:07Like, don't freak out.

10:08Don't freak out, freak out.

10:09And in my head, I'm just freaking out.

10:10I'm like, what is happening right now?

10:12Like so much is going through my brain.

10:15Um, and you know, I like get up and I like, right where I was squatting right on my right,

10:20there's a mirror.

10:21And I remember like getting up from the squat and like catching my reflection in the mirror

10:25and just like wanting to throw up because I was just like, so disgusted with myself.

10:29And I remember standing there and just being like, I don't want to be here.

10:32I hate how I feel.

10:34And I just like, get up.

10:35I see myself and I turn.

10:36And then there's another mirror on the other side for my roommate right there.

10:40And I see myself like full face and I'm just like, oh my God, like, I want to throw up.

10:44Like, I hate you so much.

10:45Like, how could you let this happen?

10:46Um, and I turn, I go out and like go to the bathroom and I'm like trying to go to

10:50pee,

10:50but I like can't even hold anything.

10:53I'm like looking away and I'm just like, I don't even want to look at what is happening

10:56because I feel so disgusted with myself.

10:58I feel so gross.

10:59I feel like I want to just chop everything off.

11:01I feel like I want to shower and just scrub everything raw because it's so gross.

11:05I feel so dirty.

11:06I feel disgusting.

11:07I feel like just the worst thing ever.

11:09Um, and then I just remember like lying in bed and I just like have silent tears rolling

11:14to my face.

11:14I'm like in such like shock and just being like, okay, like, I guess, I guess this is

11:19what it is.

11:20And just like falling asleep, like crying.

11:21And that was kind of that day.

11:23And I remember the first semester of my fourth year of college.

11:27And I was so lucky.

11:28I was so lucky.

11:28My second semester of my fourth year, a new counselor comes in and I was just like, okay,

11:33this is my chance.

11:34It's a brand new slate.

11:35I'm going to tell this person.

11:36I'm just going to really go in hot and heavy and just lay it all out.

11:40So I make an appointment and I come in and he's like, Oh, like, hello.

11:42Like, how are you doing?

11:43And I'm like, I want to tell you something that I haven't told anyone before.

11:46It's like, okay, like, what's up?

11:48And I like spill all my guts out.

11:49Like my freshman year, there's this person and they did this to me and they gaslit me and

11:53they made me feel like I was the only person that they could trust.

11:56And then I like went back to them and then they did it again.

11:59And then I went back and all this stuff.

12:00And I was like, I'm a terrible person.

12:01I'm just laying it out.

12:02And he's just sitting there listening.

12:04And I look up and I'm like, Oh my God, like I'm such an idiot.

12:07I have so much vulnerability regret right now.

12:09I feel so stupid.

12:10Like, why would you ever do something like this?

12:12And he just looks at me and he goes, Lord, thank you so much for telling me.

12:15Like, I know that took a lot from you.

12:16And I just felt, I could just feel my shoulders drop like inside my body.

12:19I'm just like, Oh my God.

12:21Like I did it.

12:22Like I finally managed to tell someone.

12:24And I told them like, I come to you today because I'm so scared that I'm going to do

12:28this to someone I care about.

12:29That if I, if I get a girlfriend and I do this to her, like I can never, ever live

12:33with

12:33myself.

12:33And he was like, you know, like, that's a really like complex thought for you to have.

12:38And I'm so glad that you came and saw me today.

12:40Cause like, this is the first step.

12:41And he was like, or to be honest, like, I don't ever see you doing something like that

12:46to someone because of how you personally feel.

12:47I think you would stop yourself much before then.

12:50Um, and I just felt like coming out of there.

12:52I just like had a smile on my face.

12:54I was like, you did it, buddy.

12:55Like you told someone like, good job.

12:56You know, because for so long, I was like, I'm never going to tell anyone.

12:59I can't tell anyone.

13:00It's like, that's it.

13:01You know?

13:02And I came out of that counselor session and, you know, later in the night, like meeting

13:06up with some friends and like, Oh, like, how was your day?

13:08What'd you do today, Lord?

13:09And I'm like, Oh, like I went to see the counselor today.

13:12They're like, Oh, the new guy.

13:13And I was like, yeah, yeah.

13:14And they're like, Oh, what'd you guys talk about?

13:15And I was like, you guys want to go talk about it?

13:18And just to provide a little bit of context, like in college, my guy friends and I, we

13:21had this thing called laundry room talks where anytime any of us, one of us wanted to

13:25talk about something like a little serious, a little heavy, you'd be like laundry room.

13:30And we would go, we'd like all like cram ourselves into a laundry room.

13:33We'd like sit on top of the dryer.

13:34We'd like close the door.

13:35We'd turn off the lights and we'd be like, all right.

13:37And I'll bless their hearts.

13:38And I tell them, I'm like, Hey, you guys remember Kyle?

13:40And they're like, yeah, I remember Kyle.

13:41And it was like freshman year, Kyle, like did these things to me.

13:44And they're like, what?

13:45And I'm, I feel so much hesitation right now because I'm like, Oh my God.

13:48Like I was on a high from telling a counselor and I'm so stupid for like telling my kind

13:52friends, like, why would I do such a thing to myself?

13:54And I'm like, Oh my gosh.

13:55Oh my gosh.

13:56I'm freaking out.

13:56And they're like, dude, like, thank you so much for telling us.

13:58Like, and I was like, Oh my God, like so much relief.

14:02And they're like, yeah, he was, he was a pretty weird dude.

14:04And I was like, Oh my gosh, you thought that too?

14:05And they're like, yeah, you said some stuff to me too.

14:07And I was just like, Oh my God, like this was happening to you guys too.

14:10And none of us anything.

14:11And they were just like, Hey, like we're here for you.

14:13And we were like, thanks so much for telling us.

14:15And we just like kind of had a moment where we were like, oh, okay.

14:17And then we like went back downstairs and like it joined the rest of the party.

14:21And so after I had told the school counselor and those three friends, while I had a lot of

14:25time to reflect, I was just like, I want to actually write about what had happened to me.

14:30I write it and I'm feel ashamed.

14:31I'm like, Oh my God, this is so stupid.

14:33Like people are going to judge me so much.

14:34And I take a pause and eventually I finish it.

14:37And I have this really pretty polished out rough draft.

14:40And I send it to one of my really good friends.

14:41And I'm like, Hey, this is the thing that has happened to me.

14:43It was really difficult, but whatever I need from you right now is for you to proofread this.

14:48And she reads it and she gets back to me and she's like, Hey, like, first of all, that was

14:52really hard.

14:52That was really hard for me to read, to proofread, to be objective.

14:56And we just called and we were like, thanks so much for telling me.

14:58Like, I really appreciate you.

14:59You know, I care about you so much as a friend.

15:01And I had gotten it all plushed up and ready to publish.

15:04And I was like, okay, this is going to be a thing.

15:06We're just going to, we're just going to go for it.

15:07You know, I just sent it for college.

15:10I'm a sent it for this blog and we're just going to do it.

15:12So I like put up on my Instagram.

15:13I'm like, Hey, tomorrow I'm going to like release this thing.

15:15And I posted a short little snippet of the first paragraph.

15:18And I'm like, it'll be up tomorrow.

15:19I'd really appreciate if everyone could take a look at it and read it.

15:22And so the following day I posted immediate regret, immediate regret.

15:26I'm just like, I am so stupid.

15:27Like, why would you do something like this?

15:29Like, come on, dude.

15:30Like, have we not learned our lesson?

15:31And I'm like, leave it.

15:32It's out there.

15:33Let people stare.

15:34Let people look.

15:35It's fine.

15:36People have looked at me before.

15:37They'll look at me again.

15:38It's fine.

15:38People who care, they matter, but they won't judge me.

15:42People who judge me, they don't matter.

15:44I don't care about them.

15:45And it was just so much, so much support came in.

15:48Like so many people, like people that I just genuinely was like, Oh, you don't even care about me.

15:53People were just like, Hey, like, thank you so much for writing about this.

15:56Like, I know this was so hard for you.

15:58Like similar thing happened to me in college from someone else.

16:00And I know what it's like.

16:01And I felt so much shame, but I'm so like thankful that you were able to write this and be

16:05so positive about it anyways.

16:07And just so many people were so, so kind and just generous.

16:10And I felt so unbelievably lucky.

16:13And I'm just like very unsure.

16:14And I'm like, I text them.

16:15I'm like, Hey, I wrote this thing.

16:17Would love for you to read it.

16:18Let me know.

16:19And I'm just like, so terrified.

16:20I'm like, Oh my God.

16:21Oh my God.

16:22Like this was a mistake.

16:23This was a mistake.

16:23Why would I do something like this?

16:26And then the following day, my dad calls me and I'm just like, Oh, I remember picking up his phone

16:30and I see my dad's name.

16:31Oh my gosh.

16:32Like, I'm so screwed.

16:34I'm going to get yelled at right now.

16:35And he's going to be like, how could you do something so stupid?

16:37How can you be so irresponsible?

16:39And I'm like, and I'm just like, I could feel my heart racing.

16:41Just like, Oh my gosh.

16:42Oh my gosh.

16:42And I'm like, and my dad goes like my son.

16:45And I remember him saying that.

16:46He goes, my son.

16:47And I'm just like, Oh shoot.

16:49Here it comes.

16:50Like, I'm so screwed right now.

16:51I'm going to get yelled at.

16:51And he's like, and I can hear him like start to stop.

16:54And I'm like, what is, what is happening right now?

16:57He's like, I'm so sorry.

16:58You have to go through that.

16:59We were all alone in North Carolina.

17:01And I couldn't be there for you.

17:04And he's just like, so vulnerable.

17:06He's just being so honest.

17:07And I was so terrified.

17:09Right.

17:09And I'm so scared that my dad was going to yell at me.

17:11And here he is like coming at me and being like, I'm so sorry.

17:14You were alone through that.

17:15I'm so sorry.

17:16I couldn't be there for you.

17:17And I was just like, I felt so much relief.

17:20I felt so much relief.

17:21He was like, mom read it too.

17:23And mom, she said like, my son is so strong.

17:26How could he go through that all by himself?

17:27We're such bad parents.

17:29And I just remember like, we got on the phone with them.

17:31And I was like, no, like you're not bad parents.

17:33Like stuff happens.

17:34Stuff just happens.

17:36And it's only because you guys were good parents.

17:37Like I was able to make it to the other side.

17:40And it was such a, it's such a relief to like, hear that from your parents for them to be

17:44like, we're so proud of you.

17:45And I think, I think the reason that I continue to like share my story to continue to be vocal,

17:50continue to advocate for service, continue to work for these nonprofits is I have siblings.

17:54I have, and I would like to have kids one day.

17:57And I always think to myself, like, if I was my sister, if I was my kid, like, how would

18:01I want them to act?

18:02And the thing that always comes to me is like, I, I would hope and pray that they feel comfortable

18:06enough to tell me because I know, I just know how hard it is.

18:10I know how isolating it is.

18:11I know how hard it is to just be able to tell someone like, Hey, I went through this thing

18:15and to have so much uncertainty over whether or not they would respond well.

18:19The thing that always pushes me is I don't want that to be the case.

18:21I want to change that narrative.

18:23I want people to be like, you know what?

18:24There's someone who cares.

18:25There are people who care.

18:26There are people who are willing to listen to me.

18:28There are people who have gone through the same thing and they've made it out and they're okay.

18:31And so I can make it.

18:32And that's always, always my thing because you feel so alone.

18:35You feel so isolated.

18:36You feel like you're the only person ever going through this.

18:38Thanks so much for listening.

18:39I really do appreciate it.

18:41And I hope that if you've gone through something similar, that you go at your pace and find a way

18:45to tell someone and look for better days.

I Survived My Friends' Sexual Assault | A Story of Healing

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