00:00People swear that black women don't celebrate each other, that we are haters.
00:04We don't support one another or we don't compliment one another, we're all in competition with
00:09one another.
00:10Okay, I have a good question for you.
00:14Yes ma'am.
00:15You're on reality TV, you're also on Greenlee and social media.
00:21I know that nowadays there's a lot of pressure, especially being someone in the entertainment
00:28industry to bounce back.
00:30Do you feel like, have you had any thoughts of going under the knife to do it or do you
00:38feel like you're going to push to do it in a natural way?
00:40I unconsciously did one of the bravest things that I've ever done in my life.
00:44I lived out my pregnancy on national television.
00:50I was a whopping 215 pounds and happy, do you hear me?
00:54And of course you want your body back, but at the same time, you know, you just have
00:58to say, I just gave birth to a whole human, I had a whole baby.
01:02Right.
01:03You know this is hard for me because it used to be hard for me to take a compliment.
01:06I had to point out something negative to deflect before I could actually accept the compliment.
01:13And then I started saying, you know what girl, you are that.
01:16Look in the mirror and say, you are enough.
01:18It's okay to love you.
01:20It's a necessity.
01:21It's a necessity.
01:22It's a must.
01:23So you found, I guess, your self-love through affirmation.
01:26Through affirmation.
01:27Okay.
01:28Sure did.
01:29Leaving social media, I think that was the moment when my love for myself really grew.
01:35The acceptance of myself without any other opinion.
01:38I went through my two-year hiatus.
01:40Yeah, I remember that.
01:41We can internalize what we read about ourselves.
01:43If you're in a sensitive place, and I certainly was, that can affect you, you know what I mean?
01:47We inherit what we're seeing through our eyes and into our hearts.
01:51And it takes a lot of thick skin to get over that and be prepared for that kind of scrutiny, really.
01:58The only thoughts I need to hear and opinions I need to hear are my own.
02:01Right.
02:02So that, it allowed me to do that.
02:03Thank God you're gorgeous in real life, though.
02:05I'm glad I did it.
02:07Thank God you're for real beautiful, and nobody can ever take that away from you.
02:11That's true.
02:12Both inside and out, baby.
02:14Don't leave me hanging, honey.
02:15I'm up here.
02:16See, for me, it was a little different.
02:19You know, I, of course, I was raised in Gabon.
02:23Everyone around me was darker skinned, so I didn't feel pretty.
02:27I wanted to be darker, you know, when I was little, putting charcoal on my skin just to
02:33be that.
02:34But it wasn't until I got, I came to America, and I moved to Idaho.
02:39So again, that was a whole nother culture shock.
02:42Yeah.
02:43One extreme to the next.
02:44I got closer to God, and I started feeling like understanding how he made each one of us individually for a reason.
02:53Yeah, yeah.
02:54I'm meant to look like the next person.
02:56Amen.
02:57And that's what makes us unique.
02:59Because I always know and tell myself, I will never be the most beautiful.
03:05I will never have the biggest butt.
03:06In a lot of cases, you will.
03:07I mean, but continue.
03:08In the majority of the rooms that you're in.
03:13I will never have the nicest body.
03:15I will never be the youngest, but there's something about me that is different.
03:19Yeah.
03:20My little seven-year-old, when we first start, you know, hanging out and building our relationship,
03:28she would say, I love your hair.
03:30I want hair like yours.
03:31Oh, yeah.
03:32Or I want to be your complexion.
03:33Yeah, yeah.
03:34Or I want to be this.
03:35And I'm like, no, no, no.
03:36And I took her to the mirror just like I took myself to that mirror.
03:38And I said, say that you're enough.
03:40Say that you're beautiful.
03:41Say you got that black girl magic works.
03:43And she was crying.
03:45That is the age.
03:46It starts young.
03:47Where you do have those thoughts.
03:48Yeah.
03:49My two little ones, their hair texture is different.
03:51And of course, the skin complexion is different.
03:54Yeah.
03:55And a lot of times, the older one will say, can I wear my hair down like that?
03:59I feel like children are now, they must internalize that from the moment they're starting to speak
04:05and understand language.
04:06Absolutely.
04:07They know the difference.
04:08So that it can change because black comes in so many different shades.
04:12Beautiful shades.
04:13Yes.
04:14We are all different shades.
04:15All of us.
04:16Right, right.
04:17We place such crazy value on our physical aesthetic that we have really gotten away from
04:24like the beauty in our hearts.
04:25At the end of the day, I want people to see my light, period.
04:28My inner light, you know, the light that God gave me.
04:33This little light of mine.
04:34You know what I mean?
04:35That's what I want people to see over any physical beauty.
04:37And they do.
04:38And they do.
04:39I look outside.
04:40She's on the balcony praying.
04:41Are you about to cry?
04:42Oh my goodness.
04:43You guys, fresh set of lashes on?
04:45if y'all got to leave the allowed.
04:48Exactly, we'll just celebrate it.
04:49It doesn't hurt anymore if you haven't.
04:50It will.
04:51We baby but there.
04:52It will.
04:53We baby but there isn't anything about it right that we can't have yet to eige that
04:54be a right to make the look we'll see if we can't have an intention, because we're
04:56a Vandal.
04:57I want your impression.
04:57We did see you on the screen ever and we need everything.
04:58Yeah, well it's worth prohibition.
04:58There is some
05:11but there were four decisions that forma are Jackson.
05:12Who else are I after this guy?
05:13Yeah.
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