00:00Me being playing the keyboard in the chest was I still addicted to Zeus watching
00:04pornography and masturbating. The devil came and gave me thoughts like no there's
00:11no help for you there's no solution for you so by God's grace after the prayer
00:17I actually called the dream.
00:21Peace and peace to you all. I'm Werner I'm connected from Namibia and I am 23 years of age and I'm currently a university student finally in my final year and I would like to share my testimony to the glory of God and to the downfall of Satan. I would like to share my testimony regarding the habit of masturbation and watching pornography.
00:48This all started at the age of six where I got exposed first to masturbation. I saw it from my brother once he was masturbating and secondly I also saw it from my nephew and from my cousin actually while he was masturbating and I said to myself I'm gonna try this so I see what these guys are really doing.
01:11So I actually said to myself I'm gonna try and I tried. Actually I also find out my brother was watching pornography on his phone and from there I used to ask his phone to play games and watch videos and stuff from his phone.
01:27So actually that's the first time I actually got exposed to pornography. I was about the age of six to seven if I to be precise so I actually started to watch pornography at a such early stage and from there I was masturbating like five to six times in a day due to this watching pornography and so forth.
01:49And due to this like I was so isolated I didn't associate myself to other people like when the family members come at our house the gatherings I was always isolated and this also tormented me mentally like if I go outside I would see these naked people like I would see these people that was watching in the pornographic videos like I was always an A star student during my school.
02:15And due to this habit my school epidemic started to drop I was only passing and my parents were asking me what is wrong with you but they didn't know what I was doing behind closed doors.
02:28I was just telling them I was just telling them I'm not feeling well and so I was just giving them excuses and then I say to myself when I reach actually grade nine and I said okay I'm 17 years of age I need to get born again so I decided to give my life to Christ.
02:47But this problem.
02:48But this problem, this scene or this habit actually intensified actually and me playing the keyboard in the church was still addicted to Zeus watching pornography and masturbating.
03:02There were prophets in our local church and they were saying to me that you are addicted to this but due to the people in the congregation that was a lot in the church I was ashamed and I was always denying this that the prophets were telling me and I would always go after the service and I would go to them and say it was actually true what you said in church but I was just denying and I was ashamed of it.
03:29But they just told me for me to pray and for me to fast and for me to confess always when this reputation comes so I did what they told me but this didn't stop and actually I finished my secondary school by class grades and I went to university my first year and actually when I came to the university I actually my roommate was also addicted to this watching pornography and so forth and actually at first I didn't know myself on how to search
03:58these pornography sites and so forth and this friend that I met a roommate that I met at the university actually he was also addicted to this and he was the one that actually showed me on how to download this website and different types of pornography websites and that's where I actually went deep into this and I was always masturbating like daily and this affected my academics at the university.
04:21I was only getting I was only passing my modules there was no distinction there was no credit there was no merit and I was always masturbating and it also this addiction it was also affecting my mental health like I was also stressed as I said before and this also caused me for me to be isolated.
04:39And during my university and during my university I went to the deacon and I told him this problem this thing is like it's getting more intensified then he actually said to me I can I can I direct you to one channel that I know about our brother Chris then I said to him okay if this is the solution for me I will join so he told me to send a prayer request that was about 2023 my during the
05:08first year at the university so I sent the first year at the university so I sent the prayer request to call such TV and by God's grace I was invited to the interactive prayer service during the interactive prayer service I did not experience any sensation or anything but however I was prayed for and I did believe actually I was prayed for and it's done God has delivered me from this habit after being prayed for I didn't read the bible I didn't fast I didn't pray I did not consecrate because I thought that I was praying for and this habit
05:38or this scene would go away from me so actually I found myself after maybe one month or two weeks to be precise I found myself back to this addiction again I was watching monography and I was masturbating so actually the devil came and gave me thoughts like no there's no help for you there's no solution for you so just keep on doing what you are doing and actually
06:05I almost agree I almost agree but one like something just came in my spirit and said okay I will send a prayer request to God's Heart TV again and then I sent a prayer request to God's Heart TV this was about to be precise in the year 2024
06:21I sent a prayer request I sent a prayer request this time I did not join through Zoom but I joined through YouTube during the prayer as I said in the previous prayer I did not experience any sensation or any feeling but in myself I kept on believing that God's gonna deliver me this time and I was actually tired from this because I was tormented imagine from the age of 6 up until like the age of 20 to 21 I was in this
06:48after a few experience feel selfish I would go back to the house and I would find myself watching monography and masturbating and my spiritual life was not like it was not growing it was just going down and down and I was not focusing on the word of God like I also came to a point like I was believing that there is no God like the God that these people are saying doesn't exist so I was actually tired and that the holy wrath came into me and said I'm no I'm gonna
07:18I'm gonna allow myself for God to deliver me this time so I joined the prayer by God's grace after the prayer actually called the dream so in this dream I was attending a church service so after the church service I was walking my way back to home and on my way on my way back to home I actually found a man in the street like this was a very angry man he started to chase me so I actually ran and he was chasing me chasing me chasing me chasing until I reached home
07:45actually when I reached home I actually went inside the house and I closed the door and I locked it from that day on the habit of masturbation and actually of this watching porn actually stopped and from there on because I knew the consequences of not fasting and praying on my own
08:03that was the cause of me I knew like from the first in the habit where God has got it already delivered me it was just my fault
08:11for me not reading the Bible or for me not fasting and focusing on the word of God so this time in myself I thought I must focus on the word of God I must pray I must consecrate
08:22so I decided now I must continue this habit so until God has delivered me from that day until now
08:28I haven't watched pornography I haven't masturbated my academic rates went up I'm only getting distinctions currently I also got my final results for this year
08:39I passed with distinctions all my modules and I also got a merit and I'm so grateful to God that He has delivered me from this addiction
08:47the glory of God the urge of masturbating even watching monography like it doesn't come and it's disgusting me now because I was thinking in myself what was I doing before I was I was doing something very that was not good to myself
09:02and I actually I can I'm also reading the word of God I'm meditating daily on the word of God but first I did not do this but after the prayer and I'm thanking God that He has delivered me from and I'm also focusing on His word now
09:15and now the people that I associate with myself is like the people that the brothers especially in our local church and we are reading daily on the word of God like like during weekends we always sleep in and we pray that's the people I associate with now
09:30actually I would like to very very and I would like the young people to listen attentively to my advice because like I was addicted to this from a very young age up until the age of 21
09:42and I would say to them they must never lose hope in seeking for help because sometimes the devil will give you thoughts like and it will make you for you to be shameful especially of this problem this addiction like and I know most of the young people are addicted to this and I will advise them
09:58and say that you must not be ashamed of what you are doing and you must always go run to God because He has all the solutions for your problems and never give up and He will never give up on you
10:11and I will also advise you God has His own and perfect time for you to be delivered so my advice would be never be ashamed of what you are doing behind closed doors you must bring it forth you must look you must seek for help
10:26that's what will be the most encouragement I will give to the young people you must seek for help
10:32praise the Lord so and what can you say also to to the parents who are listening to you right now
10:39especially to the big brothers and big sisters and the parents that are giving their children their phones and not watching what the kids are watching behind closed doors
10:48I will advise you that you guys must check what the children are watching behind closed doors and and importantly you must check the history that they are watching on Chrome on the apps that they are watching
10:59because most of the times us young people are also smart and you are deleting the history but you must make sure like the moment the kid is the moment the children are giving you back the phone you must make sure the apps that you are going through
11:12and also make sure the environment that you are leaving your children with sometimes the people that you are leaving your children with are also addicted to these spirits and you may not know and they may be watching this and that's how the devil can also infiltrate this force or them being trying this force and I will advise them always make sure that you watch what your children are also watching and know and be aware of what they are doing behind closed doors
11:37I'll see you next time
12:07I'll see you next time
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