- 5 months ago
S44 E10
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00:00Sanilav, the police are here.
00:03You have no idea what you've done.
00:06You've got something called a subarachnoid hemorrhage.
00:08We're going to send you for an operation to relieve the pressure.
00:11I haven't made the best husband.
00:13You hear about people defying the odds all the time, don't you?
00:16Yeah.
00:17But I wouldn't tear my hopes up if I were you.
00:21I was abandoned by a woman called Tina Piper.
00:25That's her address.
00:26Tina Piper's address.
00:28You said you needed answers.
00:49You have reached your destination.
00:52You say you won't, but you won't.
00:59But when I think about it, I don't see how it begins.
01:07Hiya, pet.
01:08You're here to do our legs, yeah?
01:09Come on in.
01:10I'll put the kettle on.
01:14I'll put the kettle on.
01:15Hiya, pet.
01:16You're here to do our legs, yeah?
01:17Come on in.
01:18I'll put the kettle on.
01:22Hiya, pet.
01:23You're here to do our legs, yeah?
01:25Come on in.
01:26You're here to do our legs, yeah?
01:27Come on in.
01:28I'll put the kettle on.
01:33You're here to do our legs.
01:36I'll put the kettle on.
01:37You're here to speed up.
01:39Go, go.
01:40How am I gonna get this?
01:42I'm good.
02:13I could have hoped to see some progress by now.
02:31I thought she was responding to pain stimulus.
02:34In the context of the EEG, it's likely just a spinal reflex.
02:37We'll do a CT angiogram.
02:39But what's your turn, Nicole?
02:41She has to be updated.
02:43Sorry.
02:45Can I see you?
02:49That's what I said.
02:51What did you...
02:52Look, let's catch up with the weekend and I'll catch you then.
02:55That's what I said.
03:10I've got to go, Flower.
03:11I've got to go, Flower.
03:11District nurse is here.
03:12Bye.
03:14Sorry about that.
03:15Come in.
03:17Right.
03:18I've given them a wash, but they're still a bit whiffy.
03:22I think the left one's getting worse, to be honest.
03:25So, dressings are here.
03:26There's a box of other bits by the chair there and aprons and gloves on here.
03:30We were expecting...
03:32What's her name?
03:36Polly.
03:37Young lass.
03:38Not long qualified.
03:40What's your name, sorry?
03:42Er...
03:43Natalie.
03:44I'm new at the area.
03:46Oh, you sound pretty local.
03:49Yeah.
03:49I moved away.
03:51Erm...
03:52Is that the stuff here?
03:53Yep.
03:54Should be everything, but shout if you need out.
03:57I'll get rid of this lot.
03:58And, er, do us a brew.
04:01Right.
04:02Back in a minute, ma'am.
04:04Yeah.
04:07Right.
04:09Hello.
04:10Nana.
04:13Do you want me to tell her?
04:18No.
04:19No, I'll tell her.
04:28Do you take sugar?
04:34Just as it comes is grand, thanks.
04:38How long ago was her stroke?
04:41Oh.
04:42About five years now.
04:45You've just been caring for her here since then?
04:47Yeah.
04:48Well, I can't afford a private nursing home.
04:52And I kind of bring myself to just dump her with social services.
04:55Stay with those places, so...
04:58Right?
05:00Yeah, no.
05:02What do you think?
05:05What do I think?
05:07Is it infected?
05:09Oh, yeah.
05:11Erm...
05:11I'll do her a microbial dressing and a proper pressure bandage,
05:14but she's going to need antibiotics.
05:17Right.
05:18OK.
05:19Can you sort that out, or...?
05:21Erm...
05:21It's probably best if you speak to her GP.
05:24OK.
05:26Poor circulation doesn't...
05:28really help heal in these things.
05:31Erm...
05:31Does she have any history of, like, IV drug use or alcohol abuse?
05:36Her?
05:38No.
05:40Right.
05:41So you grew up round here, did you?
05:46Near here, yeah.
05:49Sorry, erm...
05:50Do you mind if I use your loom?
05:52Oh, yeah.
05:53That's it.
05:54Just down the hall, up the stairs and straight ahead.
06:00Yeah.
06:00Er, hello guys, yeah, I appreciate that you're worried about all your friends, but if you don't
06:08need medical attention, could you wait outside?
06:10Thank you!
06:11I'm going to need a resus one, please.
06:12Excuse me!
06:13I'm going to need a resus one, please.
06:14Excuse me!
06:15Rosie, can you give me a hand, please?
06:16Yeah.
06:17Sure.
06:18Siobhan, don't remember me saying there'd be a spike in drugs admissions during Pride.
06:21Well, here we go.
06:22Yep.
06:23Through to resus, please.
06:24Oh!
06:25How's Cassie?
06:26Are you sure?
06:27Er, right.
06:28Okay.
06:29Excuse me.
06:30Right, she's right.
06:31Guys, move.
06:32Come on.
06:33Yeah, I'm on my way.
06:34No, it's just a surprise.
06:35I'm sorry.
06:36I have to go.
06:37OK?
06:38Right.
06:39Sonny's putting on her prison visitors list for tomorrow.
06:42Oh.
06:43Right.
06:44Jacob!
06:45You're back!
06:46Aw!
06:47Well, not thanks to his girlfriend, huh?
06:50Why don't you tell her to stop messing around and start naming names?
06:53Er, she's not my girlfriend anymore and I'm sure she's told the police everything she knows.
06:56Well, apparently no-one's been arrested for terror because she won't talk.
06:59Jacob, can you back off?
07:00You know, I'll back off when you stop defending her.
07:02As if he's rash as hell.
07:03I'm not defending her.
07:04Jacob, you're being unfair right now.
07:05I'm being unfair!
07:06Don't shout me!
07:07Jacob, everyone knows what's going on.
07:08Bye!
07:09Bye!
07:10Bye!
07:11Thank you!
07:12Thank you!
07:13We've got problems enough today without turning on each other.
07:16Yeah, you started it.
07:17Yeah, and I'm finishing it.
07:18Jacob, in the truck, please.
07:20Unless you fancy going back on desk duty.
07:24It's been a difficult morning.
07:26It's not even over yet, so just...
07:29You okay?
07:32Yeah, you?
07:33Yeah.
07:34I've still got a facial.
07:35Hey!
07:36Hiya, this is Darcy Kallara, 15 years old.
07:39She collapsed at Pride about half an hour ago.
07:41We think she's taken the same pill as the others from today.
07:43Obviously, we don't know what that is.
07:45She's presented as an opiate OD.
07:46She's had multiple doses of naloxone with little to no effect.
07:49Okay, Reese's three, please.
07:51There's two more coming in from the same group and the parents are on the way.
07:54Okay.
07:55What's the difference?
07:56Well, with a coma, a patient can be unresponsive and unconstitutional.
08:01but there is still underlying brain activity.
08:05And they wake up.
08:08.
08:18What's the difference?
08:20Well, with a coma, a patient can be unresponsive and unconscious.
08:25But there is still underlying brain activity.
08:28And they wake up.
08:31Sometimes.
08:33And the other thing, the...
08:36um, that's very different.
08:39It's permanent and it's irreversible.
08:42There's no underlying brain activity,
08:44so there is no chance of recovery.
08:47So which one is she?
08:51At the moment, we don't know.
08:54So we're gonna send her for a scan that uses a special dye
08:57that shows blood flow inside her brain,
08:59and hopefully that's gonna tell us more.
09:02I know it's a lot.
09:06I thought you worked in A&E.
09:09Yeah, usually I do.
09:12But since Cassie had no next of kin present,
09:16I was assigned her independent mental capacity advocate,
09:19which means that I was appointed
09:21to make decisions in her best interests.
09:24But obviously now you're here.
09:26No, I don't want to make any decisions.
09:29I can't do that. I just wanna be with her.
09:31Okay, it's okay. We'll do it together.
09:36I will be with you every step of the way.
09:44Her last dose of Rocheronium was 15 minutes ago.
09:46She was a grade one intubation CMAP3.
09:49She has a size seven tube in.
09:51That's 22 at the teeth.
09:52Pupils are five bilaterally and reactive throughout.
09:55CT head was normal.
09:56We're just waiting for a formal report.
09:58Okay, thank you.
10:01Right, we'll leave you with our colleagues now.
10:03Thank you so much.
10:04Take care, Nadia.
10:06We'll look after you, sweetheart.
10:12I'll get you better.
10:14You okay?
10:15Yeah, I just...
10:17Do you think it's true what Jacob said earlier?
10:19That someone's not gonna talk to the police?
10:20I don't know.
10:21She's got Jake to think about.
10:23What about everyone else's kids?
10:26Yeah, I'm not defending her.
10:28I'm just saying...
10:29No, of course you're not.
10:30I'm sorry.
10:31Um...
10:32Well, it's just that...
10:33It doesn't look like Cassie's gonna be naming any names anytime soon.
10:36Maybe you should go and visit Sonny.
10:38See if she'll talk.
10:40No.
10:41No.
10:42If she has some names, it might help stop this.
10:45She's not the only one.
10:46What about the kid who ran Cassie down?
10:47He knows who they are.
10:48Rash!
10:49If Sonny's intimidated by them, what do you think a little kid's gonna do?
10:52We don't even know where he is.
10:54You can actually go to Sonny face to face and ask...
10:56Wait, I'm not gonna speak to her.
10:57Just drop it, okay?
11:03Right.
11:06Okay.
11:10Don't you move!
11:14I called the surgery about the antibiotics.
11:17You're not a district nurse.
11:19They don't know who you are.
11:21I'm sorry.
11:22Trying to rob us?
11:23Is that it?
11:24No, no.
11:25Con your way in here and snoop around.
11:26No, it's not.
11:27I've got three seconds to get out or I'm calling the police.
11:29No.
11:30No, no.
11:31Out!
11:32Get out!
11:33My house!
11:34I'm Nicole Piper.
11:35Yeah, me ma'am.
11:36I know.
11:37I should've said straight away I was stupid.
11:42I just...
11:43I just wanted to meet you.
11:46And find out what happened.
11:49I just wanted to understand why I was put in care.
11:52How dare you lie?
11:55You're waiting here.
11:57I can't do this.
12:00I can't do this.
12:01Hang on.
12:02You're the one in the wrong here, not me.
12:04Get out.
12:06Shooting up?
12:07With a toddler in the house?
12:09Locking me away while you're having a good time?
12:11What?
12:12You OD'd?
12:13Is that what happened?
12:14I don't know what you're talking about.
12:15Yes, you do!
12:16Why would I make that up?
12:18Why would I remember?
12:19Needles?
12:20I don't know.
12:21I'm a diabetic.
12:22I don't know.
12:23No.
12:24You think you remember.
12:25I don't do that.
12:26I remember.
12:27Parties have been locked away.
12:28You don't understand.
12:29I can hear the music.
12:31I can't have this conversation.
12:33I want you out at my house.
12:36Hey, you're not even going to explain yourself.
12:41You can't do this.
12:43No.
12:44ITU beds are allocated strictly on the basis of clinical priorities.
13:12And this area is for patients and relatives only.
13:15Okay.
13:16And do the rest of the parents know who they're sharing a ward with?
13:20Get out.
13:21Get out.
13:22I'm calling security.
13:23Hey!
13:24Okay.
13:25Remind me never to get on the wrong side of you.
13:29Journalist, can you believe that?
13:31Have any victims of contaminated drugs been denied a bed because of someone who was selling them?
13:35Well, the hell do they know that?
13:37I don't know.
13:38But Darcy Kallara just took our last level three bed.
13:42She'll be alright.
13:43She's got the best people looking after me.
13:50Okay, listen.
13:51I'm gonna go get a bite to eat from somewhere that's not a vending machine if you fancy a break.
13:57But I have a sad sandwich in the fridge.
13:59If I ever get the chance.
14:00Yeah.
14:01I'll make sure that guy finds the exit.
14:03She thought it was out.
14:04Yeah, you found us.
14:05Yeah, for what good it did.
14:06Even now, she doesn't want anything to do with us.
14:08I started remembering all this stuff and she says I'm wrong but I don't know if I am.
14:33but I don't know if I am. I don't know.
14:36Nicole, it's OK.
14:37I don't understand. Why lie? Diabetes?
14:41But that doesn't explain the rest of it.
14:44I don't know. I just don't know.
14:47Sorry, I know I'm not making any sense.
14:50No, it's OK. OK?
14:52I've come all the way here.
14:54And me grown-up brain knows I am wasting my time.
14:59But there's still a little girl inside of us that just...
15:02..just needs answers.
15:04Now I'm sat here in me car and I don't know what to do.
15:07I just wanted to see.
15:12How's Cassie?
15:14Um...
15:17She hasn't responded to the sentation hold.
15:21Right.
15:22Look, it's getting late.
15:24I don't think you should be driving when you're upset.
15:26Maybe you should find somewhere there to stay.
15:29Maybe, but if Cassie does come round, she needs someone with her.
15:31I reckon if I apologise to Maddox, she will let us back in.
15:35Nicole, Vicky came back.
15:37Cassie's birth mum, Vicky.
15:39Apparently she hasn't left her side since she got here.
15:42OK, so...
15:45No need to rush back then.
15:48We need you in cubicle two.
15:50Look, I'm sorry, I have to go.
15:52No, I understand.
15:53Thank you for calling.
15:54Of course.
15:55Bye.
15:56For you.
15:57Really?
15:58Yeah.
15:59I mean, I had to guess what you'd want, but hopefully it's better than a sad sandwich.
16:02Oh, thank you.
16:03Oh, thank you.
16:04That's really sweet.
16:05You know, normally when I buy a girl dinner, I prefer to be somewhere a little bit more romantic, but needs must.
16:19Dr. Byron, are you flirting with me?
16:20No.
16:21I'm not.
16:22I'm not a can if you want me to.
16:24You know, I'm not a can if you want me to.
16:25You don't remember me, do you?
16:26I didn't think that you did.
16:27Look at me.
16:28Look at me.
16:29Stop shouting.
16:30I hope she dies.
16:31It'll be the least that she deserves.
16:33Enough with that.
16:34I've got reporters calling me.
16:35Do you know what she's done?
16:36She's the reason why my daughter's in here in the first place.
16:37She's the reason why my daughter's in here in the first place.
16:38I'm not a man.
16:39I'm not a man.
16:40I'm not a man.
16:41I'm a man.
16:42I'm a man.
16:43I'm a man.
16:44I'm a man.
16:45I'm a man.
16:46I'm a man.
16:47I'm a man.
16:48I'm a man.
16:49I'm a man.
16:50Say, don't you talk about my daughter, your child!
16:59Come on.
17:00Calm down.
17:01You okay?
17:02What do you think?
17:03I think everybody is just tired and emotional.
17:07Suppose you think she's right.
17:08Do you think Cassie deserves all of this?
17:11Of course I don't.
17:13Cassie was taken advantage of by the same people who contaminated those pills.
17:16People who do not care who gets hurt as long as they make a profit.
17:19as long as they make a profit.
17:20Yes, you are.
17:20That's why she deserves the best possible treatment,
17:22same as everybody else.
17:25There's a relative's room just down the corridor.
17:27Why don't you just go get some rest?
17:29I don't want to leave her on her own.
17:31Say, well, I'll stay with her.
17:34Just go get a couple of hours.
17:36Really?
17:37Yeah.
17:38She has a big day tomorrow and she is going to need you.
17:41I'll stay with her, OK?
17:42I won't leave her side, I promise.
17:48Thanks.
17:49Just try and rest.
17:51I'll stay with you.
17:52I'll stay with you.
17:53I'll stay with you.
17:54I'll stay with you.
17:56I'll stay with you.
17:58I'll stay with you.
18:00I'll stay with you.
18:02I'll stay with you.
18:03Let's go.
18:33Let's go.
18:59Excuse me.
19:01Hello.
19:02It's okay, Darcy.
19:06It's okay.
19:07I'm here, baby girl.
19:08Hi.
19:09It's okay.
19:10Hi, Darcy.
19:11Just try and relax.
19:13Stay nice and calm and we'll get this tube out for you, okay?
19:17Nice and steady.
19:21Good girl.
19:22I'm going to get us a new place for when she's well enough.
19:33We can have a new start, both of us.
19:37Yeah.
19:41It's a good idea.
19:46I know you can hear us.
19:48Can we please just talk?
19:50I just need to know what happened and then I'll leave you alone.
19:53I just need to know.
19:56Surely you can understand that.
19:57Ten minutes.
20:01Five minutes.
20:02Five minutes.
20:02And they're not even worth that.
20:15I'm not even worth that.
20:15I'm not even worth that.
20:15Technically, I didn't lie.
20:31You had a...
20:33It said NHS on it.
20:34I'm a doctor.
20:37In E.
20:38Down south, not up here.
20:40That's how you knew how to do all that.
20:45Are you really a diabetic?
20:48It would just help us to know if I'm asked if it runs in the family.
21:01How did you find us?
21:04A friend helped us.
21:12Why did you lock us up?
21:15I've not remembered that wrong, have I?
21:17You...
21:17You did?
21:20I wasn't locking you up.
21:22I was keeping you safe.
21:25From what?
21:28Your dad.
21:32Gina!
21:34No, Mummy.
21:35No, please.
21:36Shh.
21:37It's okay.
21:38Come on.
21:38Come on.
21:38Get in here.
21:39Come on.
21:39Get in here.
21:40Come here with you.
21:42Gina, if you don't get down here.
21:45Gina, if you don't get down here, please.
21:50Get here.
21:51No.
21:54That's for our medicines.
21:56She can't have them on in them is to make so.
21:58You're welcome.
22:01You're welcome.
22:02You're welcome.
22:03Get home.
22:04Come on.
22:05Come on.
22:05Get home.
22:06Alright.
22:07I have fun.
22:08Come on, Noah.
22:17Go!
22:17Come on.
22:20Here.
22:20Do they have fun?
22:21Bye.
22:22I know we're all invested in Cassie Wood's prognosis so I just thought I'd update everyone
22:38at once. She's had a CT angio this morning and unfortunately the results weren't what
22:45we all hoped for. They're going to do further brainstem testing but it's not looking good.
22:50There's an MDT this afternoon where obviously next steps will be discussed. That's it, that's
22:59all I've got guys. Don't mention item your beds to me.
23:06How about the gate? Good.
23:10He didn't want to play mams and dads. I'm not defending him. I'm just telling you how
23:20it was. Go on.
23:27That's it really. He would go out, drink too much, come home and knock me about. Sometimes
23:43his mates would come round. They'd drink and play video games and then they'd leave
23:50and he never touched you. It was me. I tried to keep you away from it for his best I could,
24:02but I know he's so more than he should have.
24:09that's it for your children!
24:11you
24:12Don't
24:14it's
24:16it's
24:18it
24:19it's
24:20it's
24:21it's
24:23it's
24:24it's
24:25it's
24:26it's
24:27it's
24:28Where's he now?
24:38Dead.
24:42OK.
24:45When?
24:47How?
24:50Before I went into care? After? Last year?
24:55Before.
24:58I don't understand.
25:01Why didn't you keep his if he was gone?
25:05If there was no threat?
25:09Unless it wasn't your choice.
25:11I don't know.
25:13If you were in prison?
25:18Oh, God, did you kill him?
25:23Mum?
25:24She's choking.
25:25Oh, you are a doctor?
25:26No, she's really choking.
25:27She's really choking.
25:28Mum?
25:31She's unconscious. You need to get her head. I'm going to get her on the floor, all right?
25:33Oh, God.
25:36That's it. That's it. That's it.
25:41Call 999.
25:42Oh, my God.
25:43Ambulance.
25:44It's out.
25:45It's out.
25:46We're all right, it's out.
25:47Right, nice and easy.
25:48There you go.
25:49No, we're okay, she's breathing.
25:50Bloody hell, ma'am.
25:51Who chokes on soup?
25:52Right, you keep an eye on her.
25:53I'll go and get me work back from the car, I'll check her off, all right?
25:55No, I'm still here.
25:56No, we're okay.
25:57My daughter's here.
25:58She's a doctor.
25:59No, we're okay, she's breathing.
26:01Bloody hell, ma'am.
26:02Who chokes on soup?
26:11Right, you keep an eye on her.
26:12I'll go and get me work back from the car, I'll check her off, all right?
26:18No, I'm still here.
26:20No, we're okay.
26:21My daughter's here.
26:22She's a doctor.
26:30Cassie?
26:31Cassie, can you hear me?
26:51Please, tell me it's good because I've been out here thinking all the time.
27:16and I just...
27:18I really need to know she's going to be okay because this is my chance now to make this right.
27:31I have to make it right.
27:33I'm not ready.
27:35I'm not ready because I have to tell her.
27:38I have to say I'm sorry.
27:41Sounds nice and clear.
27:47No broken ribs.
27:49No surgical emphysema.
27:51No pain on palpation.
27:52I think she's all right.
27:53Should I call and cancel the ambulance?
27:56It's worth them saying her.
27:58They'll want to do an x-ray and probably some bloods because of her infection.
28:01Okay.
28:04I didn't kill him.
28:06He came off his motorbike.
28:08I wasn't in prison and I wasn't a junkie who overdosed.
28:13I know why you want there to be some big, dramatic, movie-style explanation as to why things ended up the way they did but the truth is I was a mess.
28:25I was 19, single parent, stone broke.
28:32I was skipping meals to make me benefits stretch and me diabetes got worse.
28:38My mummy won't wake up.
28:40How bad did it get?
28:42Diabetic coma.
28:44What do they call it, erm, ventilator pneumonia?
28:53Ventilator required pneumonia.
28:55Something like that.
28:56Anyway, one thing led to another and I woke up in ITU a month later.
29:03They'd already put you in emergency foster care.
29:10Right, but that was only temporary until he'd recovered, so...
29:14Yeah, that was the plan.
29:19But when it was time to go home,
29:21I just never took you back.
29:32So you did abandon us?
29:34I had no family.
29:35No support.
29:36What about your mum?
29:38My mum died when I was a bairn.
29:40I grew up with my nana until she died too.
29:43So this is...
29:44Ruth.
29:48She's my mother-in-law.
29:49You're married.
29:5122 years.
29:55Have you got three boys?
30:02EEG shows flat isoelectric tracing.
30:05There's no evidence of cortical electrical activity
30:08and no response to external stimuli.
30:10Dr. Ventner repeated full brain stem testing
30:12and had the same results.
30:14The CT angiogram shows a complete loss
30:17of grey-white matter differentiation,
30:20indicating that since the initial scans done on arrival in the ED,
30:23severe hypoxic brain injury has developed.
30:27As you can see, there's complete effacement of the ventricles,
30:30the basal cisterns and sulci due to cerebral oedema.
30:34Together, this paints a cohesive picture
30:36of non-survivable brain injury,
30:38with no signs of ongoing neurological activity.
30:41By all neurological criteria, Cassie is dead.
30:46She's permanently lost the capacity for consciousness
30:48and the ability to breathe by herself.
30:52I think the right course of action now
30:54is the withdrawal of life-sustaining treatment.
30:58Are we all in agreement?
30:59No. I can't agree to this.
31:09Flynn, you're not serious.
31:11I mean...
31:12Sorry, Flynn.
31:13Two out of three of every one of our resource beds
31:15is occupied by people waiting for you.
31:16Is that what you want me to tell her mother?
31:18Sorry, hospital gears need to keep turning.
31:20We need to prioritise bed care.
31:21They are!
31:22This is ridiculous.
31:23Oh, it's not ridiculous!
31:24OK, can you just call her?
31:25Claire needs more time!
31:26Do you mean the mother?
31:28I think her name's Vicky.
31:29This was what I just said!
31:31No, love.
31:32It's sad, Claire.
31:36It must take some time to cool down.
31:38We can review the situation in the morning.
31:49There's obviously something else going on.
31:52If you've had details, you can't.
31:54Oh, Siobhan.
31:56Oh, Siobhan.
32:05OK.
32:06Right, well, let's get to Cupid's.
32:07Excuse me.
32:08Rashid Massoud.
32:10Hi.
32:11I understand you're in a relationship with Serena Callahan,
32:15recently arrested for drug offences.
32:17Sorry, I've got nothing to say.
32:18Did you know?
32:19Were you aware?
32:20Would you just leave me alone, please?
32:21Leave me alone, please.
32:22Hey!
32:23Hey!
32:24Hey!
32:25Hey!
32:26You can't do that!
32:27Yeah, I can, though, Connor.
32:28If you're harassing a member of my staff.
32:30Was it you who were called a patient's relatives?
32:32Huh?
32:33Feeding off of people's misery when they're at their most vulnerable.
32:35You should be ashamed of yourself.
32:37Get out of here before I report you for harassment.
32:39Go on!
32:40Get out of here!
32:42Seriously, come on.
32:43What the hell?
32:44Parasite.
32:45I hate you.
32:50You OK?
32:51Yeah, I'm...
32:52I'm OK.
32:58I was on me own.
33:02In and out of care.
33:05Pushing people away when things got rough because I knew the only person I could rely on was meself.
33:12I thought someone would adopt you.
33:16Well, they didn't.
33:20Nobody wanted me.
33:27And you just started again.
33:29Had some brand new kids when the timing was better.
33:32That's not fair.
33:34That's what's not fair!
33:37I kept thinking.
33:39What if you hadn't called for help?
33:42How long would it have been until someone found you?
33:46You could have starved to death.
33:48Sitting next to my rotten corpse and no one would have known.
33:53But I didn't.
33:55I called 999.
33:56But you shouldn't have had to.
33:59You were just a bird.
34:01I thought I was doing what was best for both of us.
34:04That's a cop-out.
34:05Well, maybe it is.
34:06But I'm not as strong as you are.
34:09I couldn't do it all on my own.
34:12I never had a choice.
34:14I am sorry.
34:22I'm sorry.
34:24I couldn't be the person, the...
34:26the mam that you needed me to be.
34:28Right or wrong, the truth is, Nicole...
34:33If I'd had to look after us both...
34:37I don't think either of us would have made it.
34:44Right.
34:46Well...
34:49Now I know, don't I?
34:51Take it if you need to.
35:00I'll check on Ruth.
35:04No, it's not a good time.
35:14When are they doing it?
35:16I'm not sure.
35:18It's not tonight, maybe in the morning.
35:19You should be here.
35:23She doesn't need me there.
35:26For you.
35:35Hey.
35:37Vicky went home for a change of clothes.
35:38She'll be back later.
35:40Okay.
35:42Well, I mean, do you want me to leave you to it?
35:44No, it's okay.
35:45You don't have to go.
35:49No.
35:56Are you okay?
36:02St. James.
36:04Paediatric Intensive Care Unit 2011.
36:07When you were in F2 on rotation.
36:11You do remember me.
36:14Not until you said...
36:16I mean, not because you're not memorable.
36:18Oh, you had a lot going on.
36:20Yeah.
36:22He was my first.
36:24First patient I saw have their life support withdrawn.
36:28I've never forgotten him.
36:31Joseph, Nathan, Byron.
36:38Anyway.
36:40Er...
36:42I need to get a hand over.
36:43Yeah, sure.
36:44Don't let me.
36:45Keep it.
37:03Yeah, no, I will.
37:05Okay.
37:07And Gossie.
37:09Thanks.
37:24Tina.
37:26Sorry.
37:27I...
37:28I just wanted to give you this.
37:34So you did think about us then?
37:36Sometimes.
37:37Of course I did.
37:39Every time I saw a little blonde lass on the street, I'd wonder...
37:45Well, you know...
37:47What it would have been like if...
37:49Anyway...
37:54I...
37:56I have to go.
37:58Oh.
37:59Okay.
38:01There's someone who...
38:03I thought...
38:04we were better off without each other, but...
38:07it's not that simple, is it?
38:10Do you want to swap numbers?
38:13Stay in touch?
38:15No.
38:18I don't think so.
38:21You've got your family.
38:24I've got me answers.
38:39Yeah, that's great.
38:40Thank you. Appreciate it.
38:45Yeah, come in.
38:47Hey, so...
38:49Orthopaedics said we can use their recovery base.
38:51That's great, thank you.
38:52Can you sign this for me, please?
38:54I'm not able to discharge anybody at the moment.
38:56Yeah, how does he work like this?
38:58I don't know, apparently some kind of system.
39:00But he was outside earlier, he lost his head with some reporter.
39:05Reporter?
39:07That's great for PR, isn't it?
39:08He called Cassie's mum, Claire, earlier on.
39:10That's his ex-wife's name.
39:11Well, I don't know, is there some history between the two of them?
39:14Look, don't ask me. I knew him at uni, but he wasn't with Claire then.
39:17So, no idea.
39:18Well, you know, something's got to give, because, you know, we're logjammed.
39:21Stevie?
39:22Yes, Mrs Ashgar, on my way.
39:24Er, I don't know, ask him.
39:25I don't know, ask him.
39:55I don't know.
39:57He'll be getting married.
39:58I want to go.
39:59He's gonna be able to die, but he was born and company.
40:00He was born and the man has a great family.
40:02He was born and the guy was born and uh.
40:05He did let us know.
40:07He became born and the man was born.
40:09He was born and the man was born.
40:11So he went, I didn't know.
40:13He forgot to go.
40:15He was born and the man was born and the man was born.
40:19I don't know, he.
40:20I have to watch this.
40:21Oh, my God.
40:52Sorry, Flynn. It's no good. It's time.
40:54Yeah.
41:00I was, um...
41:04I was thinking about Joseph, I suppose.
41:07What are you thinking about your son?
41:11Have you been reading my confidential medical files?
41:14I could have you struck off for that.
41:17I dare say you could. I don't know what the point would be.
41:19Well, it would make me feel better.
41:20It wouldn't.
41:21No.
41:29Maybe it wouldn't.
41:35He was ten months old when we had to make the decision to...
41:39Flynn, I can't even imagine.
41:42No, I mean, Claire, she wasn't...
41:45You know, she couldn't. It's all right.
41:47What else could you do? Somebody had to make a decision.
41:50She didn't see it that way.
41:51I mean, she just wanted more time with him, but I pushed her into making a decision before she was ready.
42:01I don't think she ever forgave me for that.
42:06Not really.
42:09I know I didn't.
42:10You know, though, this isn't the same.
42:15Vicky isn't Claire. Cassie isn't Joseph.
42:18I know.
42:18I know, I just didn't want to make the same mistake again.
42:22I didn't want to make things worse than they already are.
42:25I did think you could make anything worse, Claire.
42:29Oh, Dylan, he was so small.
42:31Yeah.
42:33Good luck.
42:34I tried.
42:36I don't want to make the same mistake again.
43:06I'm sorry. I can go if you want us to. Okay. I just wanted to say I'm so sorry for what
43:34I said before. I know Cassie would be really pleased that you're here. Nicole. Stay. She'd want you here too. Thank you.
46:00Oh, my God.
46:30I wasn't sure that you would.
46:35Whatever you want to say, just say it.
46:40I'm sorry.
46:46I thought you were going to tell me I ruined your life and you'd have a go at me.
46:51I ruined my own life.
46:54And Jake's.
46:56And probably my sister's now that she's got to look after him.
46:59I thought you hated me.
47:01You're a good person, Rash.
47:03If I'd stopped to think about it, I should have known it's exactly what you would do.
47:08I just wish I could go back in time.
47:11Make different decisions.
47:13And I wish I could undo all of it.
47:24If that's the case, then why don't you speak to the police?
47:29Tell them who these people are so they can be stopped.
47:32And then what?
47:34Tell my sister to leave town.
47:36Sell her house.
47:38Pull her own kids out of school.
47:39And I can't go with them, can I?
47:43So what?
47:44I just never see my son again.
47:46Now the police just have to do their job without me.
47:51Sonny, people are dying.
47:53Every day, people are dying.
47:55More and more.
47:55And it just, it needs to stop.
47:58I've said I'm sorry.
48:01That's all I really wanted to say.
48:08Sonny, wait.
48:09Sonny, just think about it.
48:11Sonny, what?
48:28Sonny, you're dying.
48:36Sonny, you'reexisting.
48:37Alright.
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