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00:00Transcription by CastingWords
00:30Home time.
01:00Dear ex, you made me feel special.
01:22But I'm not special.
01:26I know what I am now.
01:32Nothing.
01:34No one.
01:38It turns out that all it really takes for your life and everything you thought about yourself to change forever...
01:44...isn't love or passion.
01:48All it takes...
01:50...is one good, hard slap.
01:54...is one good, hard slap.
02:04I know.
02:06I know.
02:08I know.
02:10I know.
02:12I know.
02:14Oh, my God.
02:44Oh, my God.
03:14Oh, my God.
03:44Oh, my God.
04:13Oh, my God.
04:43Oh, my God.
05:13Oh, my God.
05:15Oh, my God.
05:17Oh, my God.
05:19Oh, my God.
05:23Oh, my God.
05:27Oh, my God.
05:29Oh, my God.
05:31Oh, my God.
05:32Oh, my God.
05:33Oh, my God.
05:41Oh, my God.
05:43Oh, my God.
05:44Oh, my God.
05:45Oh, my God.
05:53Oh, my God.
05:55Oh, my God.
05:56Oh, my God.
05:57Oh, my God.
05:59Oh, my God.
06:01Oh, my God.
06:03Oh, my God.
06:07Oh, my God.
06:09Oh, my God.
06:11Oh, my God.
06:12Oh, my God.
06:13Oh, my God.
06:15Oh, my God.
06:17I've known him for about two years.
06:23He couldn't have seemed more harmless.
06:26You haven't got any marks on your face?
06:30He used the flat of his hand.
06:35Like he knew what he was doing.
06:39Have you got bruises anywhere else?
06:47I've got...
06:55I've got finger bruises on my thighs from one of you.
07:05And I've got internal bruising.
07:10And an anal tear.
07:17I didn't fight back.
07:30Listen, do you want me to get some people to take a statement from you?
07:34You know, a team that's used to handling this sort of thing?
07:37I can't make a statement. You know I can't.
07:41If they take a swab...
07:45You.
07:48Your semen will be on it.
07:51Jesus.
07:53Your semen will be on it as well as his.
07:56You could leave it for a bit.
07:59They don't necessarily need forensic evidence to bring a prosecution.
08:03It's okay.
08:07I don't want you to.
08:12I just needed to see you.
08:17What about your husband?
08:20Are you gonna tell him?
08:24No.
08:25Won't it be obvious there's something wrong, love?
08:28I'll just be ill.
08:30I'll...
08:31I'll be ill for a few days.
08:46Well, you're not hard.
08:48Comes and goes.
08:50Took a paracetamol.
08:51Mm.
08:54How was Sunderland?
08:57Windy.
09:02You don't have to exile yourself in here, you know?
09:05I might be up at night.
09:07You never get back to sleep.
09:09And sure it's not just a hangover from here.
09:15I'll bring you a cup of.
09:21Yeah.
09:51Hey. Anyone in? Adam? Hi, Mum. What are you doing in my room?
10:15Are you sure you don't want some toast or something? I'm good, thanks.
10:23It's okay, then. Just for a bit. Adam, love, this is your home. You can stay as long as you like.
10:30It's just a couple of days just to sort some stuff out. Stuff to do with your music, or...?
10:36Maybe I will make myself some toast.
10:42You've reached Dr. Carmichael's phone. I'm out of the office.
10:46For urgent inquiries, please contact my assistant, Rupert Patel, on extension 223. Thanks. Bye.
11:12What the hell?
11:14Where are the men?
11:16My fat 왜 안 돼?
11:18I don't know.
11:20What the hell?
11:22I don't know.
11:24I don't know the whole family one, but I don't know.
11:26I don't know the whole family.
11:28I don't know the whole family one.
11:30I don't know the whole family.
11:32You have to wait for it.
11:34I don't know the whole family one to two.
11:36I don't know what happened.
11:38PHONE RINGS
12:08PHONE RINGS
12:38CUT OFF COMMUNICATION, BUT LOGGED SOMEWHERE, YEAH?
12:45ANY ATTEMPT TO CONTACT YOU, JUST LOGGED JUST IN CASE.
12:46CASE OF WHAT?
12:46JUST IN CASE.
12:47Any attempt to contact you, just log it, just in case.
12:51In case of what?
12:54Just in case.
12:58He knows about us.
13:03How?
13:05Don't know.
13:08Maybe he saw me with a phone.
13:14It's as though he smelled it on me.
13:17There's sex.
13:20Appletree yard.
13:27Did you tell him anything about me?
13:31Did you mention my name?
13:32No, of course not.
13:35He doesn't know who you are, just that you exist.
13:40We were talking and I was quite pissed.
13:43God, why was I so pissed?
13:46Look, hey, listen, none of this is your fault, none of it.
13:59What did he say?
14:00I was talking about Gary and he said, is that why you're fucking someone else?
14:09And that's money.
14:10It's okay.
14:11It's okay.
14:12Yvonne.
14:14It's gonna be okay.
14:16It will.
14:21I'm sorry.
14:25You didn't sign up for this.
14:26I'll sign up for you.
14:29I'll sign up for you.
14:30My signature dish.
14:31Microwave to perfection.
14:32If I may say.
14:33I did try.
14:34If you're not hungry, you're not hungry.
14:35You're not hungry.
14:36I'll sign up for you.
14:37I'll sign up for you.
14:38I'll sign up for you.
14:39You're not hungry.
14:40It's my signature dish.
14:41Microwave to perfection.
14:42If I may say.
14:43I did try.
14:44If you're not hungry, you're not hungry.
14:45my signature dish microwave to perfection if i may say i did try if you're not hungry you're not
14:59hungry it's uh it's girl trouble he's talked to you oh a tiny bit just that really just this girl
15:12it's not um what's her name from the halfway house ellie no i don't think so
15:18don't go rushing in oh for god's sake you think i don't know by now
15:26i've barely asked him a question i know it's hard hard yeah
15:32why don't you go back to bed hmm you look like you're a death doll
15:40yeah
15:43why
16:20you wouldn't have to go to a police station
16:22it might just give you a clear idea of your options
16:27okay
16:28we went up to his office to get his stuff
16:58we were both quite drunk by that stage and he tried to kiss me i wasn't really taking
17:06it seriously and he hit me across the face really hard that's all it took
17:19and then um
17:26just seemed to go on for a very long time
17:36i was too scared to move
17:39i was too scared to move
17:43did he speak at all
17:52at all
17:53there were a few instructions
17:59he said at one point
18:05he said give me your mouth
18:12that's a terrible thing you've been through i am so sorry
18:18now i'm just going to talk to you through the process of reporting the rape yeah
18:27unfortunately look i'm not going to sugarcoat it dr carmichael being drunk will be a gift for
18:32the defense
18:34you spend the evening with this man
18:36at a party
18:37but you see where i'm going they'll try and frame it as a date rape type situation
18:41and the first thing this bloke solicitor will do if he's charged
18:44is trying to get anything he can on you
18:47any anything you've told his client any skeletons in the closet as it were
18:53i see
18:55and they look at everything internet history family friends colleagues anything they can
19:01get on your sexual history that suggests you like it rough any sex tapes or photos
19:08well there aren't any and i don't
19:11will they go after my husband
19:15they will definitely want to know about the state of your marriage yeah
19:18did you tell your husband straight away after the attack
19:22i
19:25i couldn't
19:26no
19:32what about mental illness
19:34depression anything like that
19:36would that come up in court if i press charges if they're trying to discredit me
19:40is there anything like that
19:46when i was eight
19:47my mom committed suicide
19:49she had
19:51depression
19:53well probably exacerbated by postnatal depression
19:57she never really recovered
20:00and my son
20:02when he was seventeen my son was diagnosed with bipolar disorder
20:07adam can't be part of this he's fragile
20:13it's very unlikely your son's illness would be seen as relevant
20:17but once you've brought a complaint it's not up to you to decide what's used in court and what isn't
20:22obviously i can't tell you what to do
20:25but what i would say is if you do decide to go ahead you need to report the attack to the police today
20:29otherwise things that make this really very tricky to prove not going to the police
20:34not telling your husband or forensic evidence they could become overwhelming
20:39i was the first person to qualify the reticent experiment
20:54i'm sorry i have no idea what that means
21:01i'm sorry i have no idea what that means
21:05when i started protein sequencing
21:09we were pioneers
21:11there were no computers
21:13my team
21:15name genes
21:16as they were discovered
21:17and those are names that are going to be used for as long as science exists
21:21but if i
21:23if i take this to court
21:25god it's a big if isn't it
21:27because
21:28it seems like it's all going to come out what we've been up to
21:31well we've been really careful you know
21:33yeah
21:34yeah
21:35dummy camera
21:36so okay it goes to court then
21:39the first thing that anyone's going to know about me is that i wasn't
21:46that george selway attacked me
21:50even if he goes to prison
21:52that's who i am now
21:54victim
21:59the world could be such a shitty place
22:06i thought you thought life's a been
22:09yeah
22:11it can be
22:14i'm sorry about your son
22:19must have been really hard
22:27i'm really sorry but i
22:30i don't think i can ever imagine having sex with you
22:34i
22:35i
22:36i wasn't
22:37no no i know i know but
22:40that was the reason for this wasn't it
22:44what's the point
22:47you've got your wife
22:51i've got gary
22:53and now this
22:56it's impossible
22:57there's such a way
22:59you were you were the first person to qualify the
23:04the medicined experiment
23:10i'm not sure that we should be in touch again
23:14i think it's wrong for both of us
23:17i'm really sorry
23:18i'm really sorry
23:19i think it's right
23:20i'm really sure that there is
23:21so
23:23i think i've been
23:24over
23:25you
23:26i think care
23:28you're going to be
23:30i think your mind
23:32is
23:34so
23:35Dear Ex, whatever it was between us, it was never meant to bear much reality.
23:50That was the point, wasn't it?
23:53No real life.
23:55No feelings.
23:56No mess.
24:00But a stain might have helped, you know?
24:03Have you been to the doctor?
24:05There's no point in us there for a virus.
24:07Yeah.
24:08Yeah, it'll just be a couple of weeks.
24:12Anyway, you and Chris.
24:14How come we always talk about me and we never talk about you?
24:19Okay, it was the sex.
24:21It was great in the beginning.
24:24Well, no, it wasn't.
24:25It wasn't the best ever.
24:28But it showed promise.
24:30And then I realised it was like a script.
24:34It was like porn.
24:37Like rough stuff.
24:39Anyway, it wasn't making me feel good about myself, so.
24:44Plus, I spotted a pair of Crocs in his wardrobe and I realised that I had to split up with him before the summer.
24:49Oh, you think I've learnt my lesson after Jay?
24:56Me and man.
24:59Hey.
25:00You're fantastic.
25:02There are some truly awful men out there.
25:08I know.
25:08I've dated most of them.
25:10No.
25:11Really monstrous.
25:13I'm sorry.
25:15I'm...
25:15miserable.
25:18Hey.
25:19Fuck him.
25:21Fuck him.
25:22And his Crocs.
25:25His fucking Crocs.
25:33Hey.
25:35Nice evening.
25:36Yeah.
25:38You still look wobbly, love.
25:40Are you sure you're feeling well enough to go back to work?
25:42Can't stay away forever.
25:45Bring it.
25:46What?
25:48Mum.
26:03Carrie says even smelling coffee at the moment makes her want to puke.
26:08But the baby's okay.
26:11Everything seems fine so far.
26:12Most pregnancies are problem for you, especially at Carrie's age.
26:16Oh.
26:17The voice of reason.
26:20It's the closest arc, aren't I suppose?
26:21To babies.
26:22Being an uncle.
26:24You don't know that.
26:25There's plenty of time.
26:26Insight into my condition.
26:28All the shrinks.
26:29Say I'm good on that, don't they?
26:31It would be a very bad idea for me to pass on my genes.
26:34There's no evidence that it's genetic.
26:36It doesn't matter.
26:41There's no danger of me passing on my genes.
26:43No one wants them.
26:45Dad says there's a girl you're interested in.
26:48She's so lovely, Mum.
26:58Kind and funny.
27:03She can even sing.
27:06Like an angel.
27:07How stupid was I to ever think she'd want to hook up with a fuck-up like me?
27:16There'll be someone for you.
27:18You don't know that.
27:22It's very easy for us to tell ourselves stories about people that they're perfect.
27:27But no one is.
27:30Not even you.
27:30You've never talked about your work.
27:48Official Secrets Act and all that.
27:51But you've always encouraged me to talk about mine.
27:55Enjoying the pleasure I take in it, I think.
27:59Work's always been my refuge.
28:00Work.
28:27Work.
28:27Work.
28:27Work.
28:29Work.
28:29There are no more refuges for me.
28:39No places of safety.
28:50It's nothing to do with football.
28:52It's what these boys think they can get away with.
28:55You're not gluten-free, I am.
28:57It looks like rice.
28:58It's orzo.
28:59I mean, oral sex.
29:03That's what I don't get.
29:04How can you force someone to give you a blowjob?
29:07I mean, wouldn't you just bite it off?
29:08It's hard enough men peddling crap like that without women making it worse.
29:12I'm just saying, logistically, I'm surprised it doesn't happen.
29:17They're terrified.
29:18This girl wasn't.
29:19She went back to his hotel room.
29:21I mean, what was she expecting?
29:22I don't know, maybe that he'd show some consideration.
29:25She'd be allowed to change her mind.
29:27Maybe she did say yes to sex.
29:28But she didn't mean yes to him assaulting her in every orifice, roughing her up while he did it and his mates filming it on their phones.
29:36If these girls are going to get so blind drunk, they can't think straight, inevitably...
29:39Well, maybe you're just too fucking complacent to think straight.
29:43Everyone.
29:44Uh, your baby's really crying.
29:50I'm sorry.
29:51You're lovely.
29:53And your house is lovely.
29:55And you give lovely dinner parties.
29:57And everything in your world is lovely.
29:58So you don't really have the imagination to see what it's like when bad things happen.
30:02Just randomly.
30:03Great currents of shit descending on ordinary people.
30:06So you're looking for who's to blame.
30:08Because that's less scary than facing up to the fact that awful things can happen, even to someone as lovely as you.
30:14Really awful things.
30:15Is this my fault?
30:41I'm sorry.
30:47I'm sorry.
30:49I have a business with Rosa.
30:53No, it's not, ma'am.
30:57Really?
31:01Well, what then?
31:02I'm thinking of leaving the Beaufort.
31:14Why?
31:16I'm not enjoying it anymore.
31:20It's really, really getting me down.
31:22Since when?
31:23You never said.
31:24I'll make up the money.
31:25I've got consultancy work coming out of my ears.
31:27It's not the money.
31:29It's nowhere like it.
31:30Is it something specific?
31:34No.
31:35No.
31:36It's just...
31:37It's just been building up, generally.
31:42And it exploded all over Marcia tonight.
31:48I'll ring her in the morning to apologise.
31:50I'm seriously, as I told you last week, no leaving, dude.
31:59Let's have a drink when the dust has settled.
32:01I'll email you some dates.
32:02I'll get it.
32:04I've got to go.
32:06All right.
32:06Bye.
32:10Secret admirer.
32:11Mum, you OK?
32:33Mum?
32:33Mum?
32:33Mum?
32:34Mum?
32:34Mum?
32:35Mum?
32:35Mum?
32:39Mum?
32:40Mum?
32:41Mum?
32:41so the beaufort dad seems a bit confused about you leaving he's talked to you about it in his way
33:01he said something about your time of life as though resigning was like a symptom of menopause
33:06is it it just doesn't suit me anymore i needed a change of direction you're not going off trekking
33:14in the pool are you or start having a wild affair because you know timing i just really like working
33:22from home and your dad's busier than ever so i can afford to take my foot off the bell a bit no he
33:27has this conference in estonia that's random
33:36mama you're not depressed are you no no of course not
33:43dear ex i loved you touching me everywhere i can't imagine that ever again
34:04but i do still want you just you
34:10and it's terrible because it keeps me feeling
34:15and the only way i can see to get through this is to be numb
34:21see ya
34:22i think about you every single day
34:32most minutes of each day if i'm honest
34:37this is what i cling to while you're off saving the free world
34:44you think of me
34:45because you saw me
34:48i really think you did
34:50and i saw you
34:53and that's a rare thing between two human beings
34:56and that's
35:18I don't know.
35:48I don't know.
36:18I don't know.
36:48I'm out of front.
36:54Knock him dead.
36:55Hello, Estonia.
36:58Gary!
37:02Gary!
37:11I thought he was leaving at the end of the month.
37:23Always had a good run.
37:24Stayed longer than we thought.
37:25Never not to say anything.
37:27He mentioned to me last night he was thinking of heading back.
37:31I presume he went at the end of the week.
37:33What did I do?
37:35Why does he find it so easy to talk to you and bloody impossible to talk to me?
37:41Adam loves you, the bits you know he does.
37:45There's a thin line and all that.
37:49I have to go to the airport.
37:51I hope it's fun.
37:53Fun.
37:55I hope it's fun.
37:57Here we go.
37:59I hope it's fun.
38:01I'll just go to the airport.
38:03I'll just go to the airport.
38:05I'll just go to the airport.
38:07Oh, my God.
38:37Oh, my God.
39:07Oh, my God.
39:37Oh, my God.
40:07Oh, my God.
40:09Oh, my God.
40:11Oh, my God.
40:13Oh, my God.
40:14Oh, my God.
40:15Oh, my God.
40:16Oh, my God.
40:17Oh, my God.
40:18Oh, my God.
40:19Oh, my God.
40:20Oh, my God.
40:21Oh, my God.
40:22Oh, my God.
40:23Oh, my God.
40:24Oh, my God.
40:25Oh, my God.
40:26Oh, my God.
40:27Oh, my God.
40:28Oh, my God.
40:29Oh, my God.
40:30Oh, my God.
40:31Oh, my God.
40:32Oh, my God.
40:33Oh, my God.
40:34Oh, my God.
40:35Oh, my God.
40:36Oh, my God.
40:37Oh, my God.
40:38Oh, my God.
40:39Oh, my God.
40:40Oh, my God.
40:41Oh, my God.
40:42Oh, my God.
40:43Oh, my God.
40:44Oh, my God.
40:45Oh, my God.
40:46Oh, my God.
40:47Oh, my God.
40:48Oh, my God.
40:49Oh, my God.
40:50Oh, my God.
40:51Oh, my God.
40:52Oh, my God.
40:53Oh, my God.
40:54Oh, my God.
40:55as i can make it we can talk properly there all right no just don't put it in your phones not
41:02even into maps okay okay thank you i'll see you tomorrow i'm really glad you called yvonne
41:08you saved my name again yvonne we'll see each other tomorrow right we'll be together
41:17okay i've got to go
41:25so
41:35so
41:37so
41:39so
41:43so
41:47so
41:51so
42:03so
42:15so
42:25it's uh we're not talking boutique hotel obviously it's okay it's safe safe house
42:37i know you're not allowed to talk about what you do
42:49do you want to take your coat off
42:59so
43:11so
43:13so
43:25so
43:27so
43:39so
43:41so
43:53so
43:55so
44:09so
44:13i'm not asleep
44:15i'm not asleep
44:17my home is
44:19so
44:31so
44:33so
44:35so
44:37so
44:39so
44:41so
44:43so
44:45so
44:57so
44:59so
45:01so
45:15so
45:17so
45:19so
45:21as
45:23as far as i'm concerned
45:25as far as i'm concerned i think he thinks he can do whatever he likes
45:27so that has to change
45:29so that has to change
45:33i suppose you know people
45:35yeah
45:37but i'd like to see his face
45:41so
45:43i'd like to see his face
45:45and you
46:11do
46:17do i
46:19yeah
46:21stuff to do
46:29how was it all estonia
46:33go on
46:35go on
46:37go on
46:41go on
46:45you should know
46:47the thing is the conference
46:51Rosa came with me to the conference
46:53so
47:01you are sleeping with her
47:03i wasn't before i didn't lie
47:11We never have sex.
47:16So it's my fault?
47:18I'm not trying to blame you.
47:20It's an explanation.
47:25It's pretty standard midlife crisis stuff, I'm afraid.
47:35Sean.
47:41Yvonne?
47:45The recycling place gets mocked on a Saturday so we can talk about it when I get back.
47:50You don't need me!
47:54Is that what you think?
48:11Yeah?
48:13Yeah.
48:14Okay.
48:15Yeah.
48:17Okay.
48:18Okay.
48:19Okay.
48:20Good morning.
48:21Thank you all.
48:23I'm so glad.
48:24I'm so glad.
48:25I'll be right back.
48:26Yeah, okay.
48:28Okay.
48:29No, I'm so sorry.
48:30I'll be right back.
48:31What's going on?
48:33Oh, I'm so sorry.
48:35I was like, okay.
48:36That's all I can do with this one.
48:38What are you going to say?
49:08I thought I'd freestyle it.
49:38I thought I'd freestyle it.
50:08I thought I'd freestyle it.
50:38Is there any such thing as a point of no return?
50:43I used to think there wasn't.
50:45Would the defendant please stand?
50:48And then I met you.
50:50Fucking bitch!
50:52You deserve everything you get!
50:55I don't know how many of you have destroyed our lives!
50:59Oh, you bitch, you evil bitch!
51:01I don't know how many of you have
51:07but I don't know how many of you have died either.
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