00:00If I don't feel like I'm the center of his world, I get jealous.
00:04I personally get jealous when someone else says she's their best friend when we're best
00:10friends.
00:13I thought jealousy was a compliment and I learned that's not true.
00:18The weird thing about being gay is sometimes you check out the same guy, I'll see him looking
00:21at a guy and I don't want to yell at him but then I look at him too.
00:28Jealousy is an insecurity.
00:29I have a little bit and it means maybe looking through the other person's phone.
00:34I don't say, I went through your phone and who's this, it's just like I just go through
00:38the phone.
00:42You could sleep with Beyonce and give it to you.
00:46Her one celebrity would be Jared Leto.
00:49Emma Stone.
00:50Thumbs up a lot for Eric's hump.
00:52Tim Riggins from Friday Night Lights.
00:55I would be with Justin Bieber.
00:57Ew!
00:57Are you serious?
00:59I'm not gonna lie.
00:59That's so embarrassing.
01:00You should never tell anybody that.
01:03Portia from Real Housewives of Atlanta.
01:06She would definitely be with probably Michael B. Jordyn's.
01:09Yes.
01:10Absolutely.
01:13Positively.
01:14Okay.
01:15Sheesh.
01:19Jealousy is just that icky feeling.
01:22You know, can she be talking to somebody else?
01:24Like, am I not enough?
01:25And that's what jealousy is, is to see our own insecurities beating you down.
01:30Something that attracted me to him was that he wasn't jealous.
01:32I loved it that he didn't make restrictions on me.
01:36I always felt I know where her heart was, so I never really had to think twice.
01:40That's one of the things I loved about our relationship is there's no jealousy.
01:44I never worry about him ever.
01:46I feel like I could drop him on Fire Island naked and he would do nothing with anyone else
01:51but like fix his hair and dance at a club.
01:58I don't know how to do it.
02:00I don't know how to do it.
02:03I don't know how to do it.
02:05I don't know how to do it.
02:05Anything that would come up that would maybe I would naturally want to be jealous of,
02:10I'm on your side already.
02:12Like for the most part I give you the benefit of the doubt.
02:14Plus you're pretty cold to like other dudes, so I don't really have to worry about it.
02:18She shuts down guys pretty quickly, so.
02:19I had to learn that, you know, she's going to have like a lot of queer, lesbian, trans
02:27women friends and like just get used to that.
02:30You know, queer people have friends.
02:32I used to be jealous of his interactions with women, so that's evolved.
02:38You're just as jealous if I interact with women.
02:40Depends on who the woman is.
02:42Any woman.
02:43Do I kill them?
02:43Who's not like my mom or sister.
02:45Because you don't be knowing these bitches.
02:46What do you mean?
02:47Girl, what are you doing?
02:48What are you doing?
02:48Co-workers or clients.
02:50These holes are like lonely.
02:55Oh.
02:55I don't like this.
02:56I don't like this.
02:57I don't know.
02:59That's a tough one.
03:00I'm biting the knife, so.
03:01I know, seriously.
03:02The only thing I can think of is that like I'm not comfortable with my body, but I feel
03:08like you can get that like message from like me like talking about weight.
03:13And I'm always like, I love it babe.
03:15Like, I love it.
03:16All the curves.
03:17All the curves.
03:18More things to hold on to.
03:20Probably that I'm going to want a kid in like three years, not six years.
03:26Okay.
03:27I think I'm afraid to tell you how much I need you at this point.
03:31I have this huge air of independence and you know like badass, boss ass, bitch mentality.
03:39But I do need you.
03:42So.
03:42That's good to hear.
03:43Yeah.
03:44Oh baby.
03:58I think if you like cheated on me, you should just keep it a secret.
04:02But that kind of pisses me off because I don't want to think that you're okay with me cheating on
04:07you.
04:10When I meet somebody, I give them the whole benefit of the doubt.
04:14I put all of my trust into them.
04:16So once you break that, sometimes I feel, I would feel like super betrayed.
04:20I think it takes a lot longer to build the trust than it does to like betray somebody's
04:25trust obviously.
04:26Anything's possible.
04:27I just lived through too many things now.
04:29So yeah, I think trust can be rebuilt.
04:35We broke up before we got engaged.
04:37I didn't believe that maybe it would eventually be a good relationship again.
04:44But it did and now everything's fine.
04:46But I can't say the same for like if I found out he cheated on me.
04:49I think trust can be.
04:50Yeah.
04:51Yeah.
04:51I believe in second chances, 100%.
04:52Yeah.
04:53Not third though.
04:54Not third chances.
04:55Second chances are okay.
04:56Thank you very much, Sean.
04:56I'll see you next week.
04:56Bye.
04:56Bye.
