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00:01:11The laughter around me grew even louder. I could not take it anymore. I ran to a corner of the
00:01:17gym's storage room and broke down crying. Suddenly, hurried footsteps rushed closer and stopped at the doorway.
00:01:23I raised my head. The next second, the door slammed shut. It was locked. I scrambled to my feet and
00:01:28rushed to the door.
00:01:29Wait! Someone's in here! We know! Stay in there. Girls like you don't get Jace. Learn your place.
00:01:35People had mocked my body for as long as I could remember. Until Jace came into my life. Whenever someone
00:01:42mocked me, he raised his fists and forced them to apologize.
00:01:47Look at her. She's so weird.
00:01:48I didn't believe enough to believe that could save my life.
00:01:50Sorry.
00:01:51But today, he crushed that hope himself.
00:01:56Don't you think you're disgusting?
00:01:57I finally understood. Girls like me never got exceptions.
00:02:04The next morning, one of his friends came to move his things to another desk.
00:02:08Jace got so sick after yesterday. He's taking three days off. He asked me to move his seat.
00:02:16It has nothing to do with you. Don't overthink it.
00:02:18I blinked against the tears in my eyes. I never understood why everyone hated me so much.
00:02:23Just because I ate half a donut more than they did?
00:02:26Three days later, Jace came back, his arm around Brielle Hayes' waist.
00:02:31The second they walked in, he started kissing in front of the whole class.
00:02:34Brielle was captain of the cheer squad, every guy's dream girl.
00:02:38She was 5'6 and weighed only 101 pounds.
00:02:41I, Tessa Lane, was 5'4 and 154 pounds.
00:02:44Champ finally got a girl? Is this real or just a joke?
00:02:47What do you mean? Do I look like I let just anyone kiss me?
00:02:50Jace lazily raised an eyebrow, silently confirming it.
00:02:54People cheered and congratulated them.
00:02:56I lowered my head over my prep book and loosened my grip on my pen.
00:02:59Okay, okay. At least no one cared about that day anymore.
00:03:03That was already good enough.
00:03:05For a long time, Jace and I had nothing to do with each other.
00:03:09College applications were less than a year.
00:03:11I buried myself in schoolwork.
00:03:12On our next AP physics test, I beat Leon Brooks for the first time.
00:03:17The best student in the class.
00:03:18As soon as class ended...
00:03:20Miss Carter says my analysis is a disaster.
00:03:23She wants me to learn from you.
00:03:26New desk mate. Nice to meet you.
00:03:27It took me a moment to realize someone was beside me again.
00:03:30I was a little excited.
00:03:32Here. This is what I use.
00:03:35Thanks.
00:03:35When I looked up, I unexpectedly met Jace's distant gaze.
00:03:39Jace looked away first, a cold smile tugging at his lips.
00:03:43I hadn't known my confession disgusted him that much.
00:03:46Apparently, even seeing me happy bothered him.
00:03:48The next morning, Leon brought me two sandwiches.
00:03:51These are for me?
00:03:52Yeah. Consider it a thank you.
00:03:55Thank you.
00:03:55A quiet laugh came from beside us.
00:03:57Jace leaned over Leon's desk, his hands braced against the edge.
00:04:01I didn't know your taste was so specific.
00:04:04What the hell does that mean?
00:04:10A gift.
00:04:12This is your type, right?
00:04:14Do you want me to help you find a few more dates?
00:04:16Who the fuck likes fat girls?
00:04:18Oh.
00:04:19You moved over here, so I thought you were into her.
00:04:22No.
00:04:22Mason and the others joined in.
00:04:24Turning our desks into the center of attention again,
00:04:26Leon cursed under his breath.
00:04:28Without another word, he went back to his old seat.
00:04:30I stared at the printout scattered across my desk.
00:04:33Why are you doing this?
00:04:37Are you so desperate for love?
00:04:41Give everything to every guy who sits beside you?
00:04:47From that day on, things only got worse.
00:04:50Whenever I walked past, my classmates would pretend to be earth-quaking.
00:04:55I went online, hoping someone would understand.
00:04:58Instead, I found my confession video all over the school forum.
00:05:02The comments were so cruel, I could barely breathe.
00:05:06Everywhere I went, people pointed at me and whispered.
00:05:09After that, no one wanted to be my friend.
00:05:13Even then, I never considered dieting again.
00:05:16The only time I had tried was when my feelings for Jace outweighed my love of food.
00:05:21But I didn't like him anymore.
00:05:23On Friday, our P.E. coach let us use class as a free period outside.
00:05:29Halfway through, a violent storm rolled in.
00:05:32Everyone rushed toward the field house for cover.
00:05:35I hadn't even made it off the track when my kneecap suddenly slipped out of place.
00:05:39I crashed to the ground.
00:05:41When the bone slid back in, the pain peaked so sharply.
00:05:45I lay on my side on the track, unable to sit up.
00:05:48Then, a person stopped beside me.
00:05:50I grabbed one pant leg without thinking.
00:05:53Rain poured into my mouth when I tried to speak.
00:05:56I can't stand!
00:05:58Could you please help me up?
00:06:00The person stopped.
00:06:01A few seconds later, he pulled his leg out.
00:06:04No.
00:06:04It was Jace.
00:06:05Brielle laughed beside him.
00:06:08That's what happens when you refuse to lose weight.
00:06:13You're too heavy to even run without falling.
00:06:17Jace held an umbrella over Brielle.
00:06:20Beside them, I looked even more pathetic, soaked from head to toe.
00:06:25Jace's face showed nothing.
00:06:26He walked past me without looking down.
00:06:28His cold voice disappeared into the rain.
00:06:31I can't help you.
00:06:32My mouth was filling with rainwater, yet my throat felt painfully dry.
00:06:36So dry, I couldn't ask again.
00:06:38I could only struggle to sit up.
00:06:40From the field house entrance, I heard people talking while phones recorded me in the rain.
00:06:47She doesn't look like she's faking.
00:06:49Should we help?
00:06:50You want her to confess to you?
00:06:52Go ahead.
00:06:53OMG, shut up, please.
00:06:55It took me nearly eight minutes to sit up.
00:06:57I still couldn't stand.
00:06:59So I sat quietly in the rain.
00:07:01I tried to imagine what grandma might make for dinner.
00:07:05Otherwise, the pain in my knee and the eyes watching me would shake me down.
00:07:10In the end, I pushed myself up alone.
00:07:13I limped toward the athletics office and borrowed the security phone to call grandma.
00:07:18Grandma took me to the hospital.
00:07:19The doctor said my weight was starting to affect my health.
00:07:22After that, grandma decided to help me lose weight.
00:07:28I rested for two days before returning to school.
00:07:31That morning, grandma only let me eat one whole wheat egg and cheese sandwich.
00:07:37I was still sulking over it when Miss Carter entered the room.
00:07:41A strange transfer student followed her.
00:07:43His entire face disappeared into shadow.
00:07:46Miss Carter scanned the room and pointed at me.
00:07:49Reed Whitley, take the seat beside Tessa.
00:07:52After that, she hurried back to the main office.
00:07:55The boy named Reed sat down beside me.
00:07:58Neither of us seemed interested in speaking.
00:08:00Mason, as usual, couldn't control his voice.
00:08:03He turned and jerked his chin toward Jace.
00:08:06Champ, look at this guy.
00:08:08He looks like a serial killer.
00:08:11Think his face got burnt off?
00:08:12Definitely.
00:08:13If he were hot, show his face.
00:08:16The fatty and the freak?
00:08:18Cute couple, right?
00:08:19Jace showed no reaction.
00:08:21He only spun his pen between his fingers and said nothing.
00:08:26Reed and I went almost a month without speaking.
00:08:29I stayed quiet, because I was afraid the same thing that happened with Leon would happen again.
00:08:34Then, one afternoon, I noticed Reed slumped over his desk after class.
00:08:39One hand pressed hard against his stomach.
00:08:42I hesitated before walking over.
00:08:44Is your stomach hurting?
00:08:46Yeah.
00:08:47The back of his neck was covered in sweat.
00:08:49He was clearly in terrible pain.
00:08:51I'll help you to the nurse.
00:08:53Thankfully, he didn't pull away when I touched him.
00:08:56Most of his nearly six-foot-three frame leaned against me.
00:08:59Good thing I was sturdy.
00:09:01Otherwise, I never could have carried him.
00:09:05The school nurse gave him medicine and asked me to bring back some food.
00:09:10I immediately agreed.
00:09:11I hurried to take on the buns and rushed back.
00:09:14Reed was alone in the nurse's office.
00:09:17His eyes curved with amusement.
00:09:20You can't stand me, but you still helped?
00:09:23You're pretty nice, Tessa.
00:09:25What?
00:09:26I don't have a problem with you.
00:09:29I thought you disliked me.
00:09:31That's why I didn't talk to you.
00:09:33Why would I dislike you?
00:09:35Because I'm fat.
00:09:36Reed laughed softly.
00:09:38His voice was clear and pleasant.
00:09:40His eyes were beautiful, too.
00:09:42Cool and bright.
00:09:44Like sunlight moving over a lake.
00:09:46I had a feeling the rumors were wrong.
00:09:48I didn't think he was disfigured at all.
00:09:51After that day, Reed and I gradually grew closer.
00:09:55But he was still strange.
00:09:57He never removed his mask or cap.
00:10:00And he never spoke to anyone but me.
00:10:02My weight was changing, too.
00:10:04Before I realized it, I was down a lot.
00:10:06Grandma was thrilled.
00:10:08She said I looked better.
00:10:09To my surprise, Jace was the first person at school to notice.
00:10:13One afternoon, I finished Grandma's grilled chicken, brown rice, and broccoli on the grass.
00:10:19I was carrying the empty bowl back to the classroom.
00:10:22Jace suddenly caught my wrist.
00:10:23You're starving yourself again?
00:10:25None of your business.
00:10:26Let go, Jace.
00:10:27You get a coma when you're hungry.
00:10:30Did you forget?
00:10:31Planning to pass out somewhere and die?
00:10:33Yeah.
00:10:33He was so annoying.
00:10:35I was already miserable from living without carbs.
00:10:38I gave him one final warning.
00:10:40Let go, or I'll bite you.
00:10:42He finally dropped my hand.
00:10:44You really don't know what's good for you, do you?
00:10:46I stepped back and looked at him calmly.
00:10:48I slowly spat out four words.
00:10:51You're such a fake.
00:10:52I turned and walked back toward the classroom.
00:10:55Only a few students were in the classroom.
00:10:58Reed was there, too.
00:10:59When I saw him with his head on the desk again, I hurried over.
00:11:03Is your stomach hurting again?
00:11:06A little.
00:11:09I wanted to get medicine, but I forgot where the nurse's office is.
00:11:13I saw you downstairs, but you were talking to a guy.
00:11:18I didn't want to interrupt.
00:11:19He seemed almost pitiful.
00:11:22Tess, into very pain.
00:11:24My sympathy took over immediately.
00:11:26I'll go get it right now.
00:11:28Wait here.
00:11:31I'll come with you.
00:11:33Then I'll remember the way.
00:11:34I supported his arm toward the nurse's office.
00:11:37We ran into Jace on the stairs.
00:11:41Reed suddenly lost his balance and collapsed against me.
00:11:44It hurts too much to walk.
00:11:47Could I stay like this for a minute?
00:11:49I opened my mouth, but he let out a faint groan.
00:11:53I couldn't refuse.
00:11:55Jace's eyes turned cold.
00:11:57He had just taken one step toward us when Mason and Brielle caught up behind him.
00:12:02Mason saw us and shouted dramatically.
00:12:04Holy!
00:12:06The fatty and the freak?
00:12:08Hey, you two actually-
00:12:10Reed, who had been too weak to stand, suddenly straightened.
00:12:14He looked at Mason, his voice flat and lifeless.
00:12:17What did you call her?
00:12:19Fatty.
00:12:20Am I wrong?
00:12:21If she's not fat, am I?
00:12:23No.
00:12:24You're not fat.
00:12:26You're just small where it counts.
00:12:28Before Mason could swing at him, I grabbed Reed and ran.
00:12:32I didn't stop until we reached the nurse's office.
00:12:36Thank you, Reed.
00:12:37But ignore him next time.
00:12:39He's a state-ranked competitor.
00:12:41If you provoke him, he'll beat you up.
00:12:43Reed gave a nearly invisible smile.
00:12:45He was bullying you.
00:12:50Tess, I won't let anyone bully you.
00:13:21Tess, can you explain this one?
00:13:23Times fly.
00:13:25Before I knew it, graduation was only a month away.
00:13:29Brielle was in charge of ordering costumes for the graduation showcase.
00:13:33That day, she stood at the front of the room collecting costume sizes.
00:13:38Tessa, are you an XXL or XXL?
00:13:40I wear a small.
00:13:47You are Tessa?
00:13:52Grandma had told me to stop, but dieting had shrunk my appetite.
00:13:57School was stressful, and graduation was close.
00:14:00Right now, I was 5'4 and only 99 pounds.
00:14:05Everyone turned to stare at me.
00:14:07Their shock told me that, aside from Reed and Jace, no one had noticed how much I had changed.
00:14:13Holy shit, that's Tessa?
00:14:15I told you she'd be gorgeous if she ever lost the weight.
00:14:18Brielle's expression immediately darkened.
00:14:20Everyone's strange looks made me uncomfortable.
00:14:22Leon, who hadn't spoken to me in months, stared with open amazement.
00:14:26That only made it worse.
00:14:27I knew the looks people used to give me.
00:14:29Comments like these usually followed them.
00:14:31Tessa, you ate an entire rotisserie chicken?
00:14:34One burger and fries weren't enough?
00:14:35How did you finish that breakfast sandwich in three bites?
00:15:06My hand slipped.
00:15:07The blow had reopened a cut across his knuckles.
00:15:10He was so calm, he seemed unable to feel pain.
00:15:13Blood was dripping from his fingertips.
00:15:14Can I have one?
00:15:15I shook my head at Jace.
00:15:16It won't stop bleeding.
00:15:17His bleeding had nothing to do with me.
00:15:19I had no idea why he insisted on asking me.
00:15:21Jace didn't seem surprised.
00:15:24In the end, I became the lead vocalist for the graduation showcase.
00:15:28After that, my picture appeared on the anonymous school gossip account.
00:15:31For the first time, it wasn't really kindness.
00:15:33I had simply become thin enough for them to treat me like a person.
00:15:36Tessa, I accidentally bought two ice laces.
00:15:39Want one?
00:15:40I refused out of habit.
00:15:41The boy lowered his head and started to leave.
00:15:44Reed called him back.
00:15:44Hey, wait.
00:15:45Tess, I think my blood sugar's dropping.
00:15:48I want that drink, but I forgot my wallet.
00:15:52It's okay.
00:15:52I have money.
00:15:55Can I buy it from you?
00:15:57My sink partner wants it.
00:15:59The boy looked furious and speechless at the same time.
00:16:06Being around Reed felt easy.
00:16:08Even after more people started paying attention to me, he remained my only real friend.
00:16:13Soon, rumors spread that we were dating.
00:16:15Have you heard about Tessa Lane?
00:16:16She got hot and still chose the freak.
00:16:18That has to be some kink.
00:16:19I saw his whole face once.
00:16:21It's covered in burn scars.
00:16:22So Tessa likes kissing skin that looks melted?
00:16:25Reed had never removed his mask or cap in front of anyone.
00:16:28He even ate alone.
00:16:29If it weren't for me, people wouldn't be making such vicious stories about him.
00:16:33So I started avoiding him.
00:16:35Reed noticed.
00:16:36One morning during study hall, he stayed silent for a long time.
00:16:39Then he spoke quietly.
00:16:41Tess, you can ask to change seats.
00:16:43I blinked and turned toward him.
00:16:45What?
00:16:47I'm used to being alone.
00:16:49You don't need to ruin your reputation by staying around me.
00:16:53Everyone says someone ugly and disgusting like me shouldn't be close to you.
00:16:58Tess, you should find another seat.
00:17:00Who said that?
00:17:02It doesn't matter.
00:17:03At first, Reed refused to tell me.
00:17:05After I kept asking, he finally gave me several names.
00:17:09I recognized every one of them.
00:17:11They were all boys who had tried to flirt with me.
00:17:13Reed used to defend me when people called me fat.
00:17:15Now it was my turn to do something for him.
00:17:18I found those boys and rejected them again.
00:17:20This time without softening it.
00:17:22Then I warned them that one more rumor would be reported as cyberbullying.
00:17:25When Reed found out, he covered his eyes with one hand.
00:17:28His shoulders shook silently for a long time.
00:17:31I guessed he was crying because he felt wronged.
00:17:33I patted his shoulder to comfort him.
00:17:35No one will say those things again.
00:17:37Don't be scared.
00:17:38His shoulders shook even harder.
00:17:40Based on the evidence, I reached a logical conclusion.
00:17:43Reed was deeply moved.
00:17:45Nothing else went wrong before graduation.
00:17:47The only news worth discussing was Jace and Brielle's breakup.
00:17:50One afternoon, Reed and I were walking ahead of them.
00:17:53Behind us, Mason carefully tried to comfort Jace.
00:17:56Don't take it so hard, champ.
00:17:58There are better girls out there.
00:18:00Jace passed me at an unhurried pace.
00:18:02As our shoulders brushed, he said casually,
00:18:04Why would I care?
00:18:05I never liked her.
00:18:07Reed suddenly pointed toward the athletic field.
00:18:09Seat partner?
00:18:10I think a dog's barking.
00:18:12My final grades and college decisions were better than I had expected.
00:18:15The next day, Chloe organized our senior banquet at a hotel.
00:18:18When I arrived, I found Jace outside the ballroom.
00:18:21He leaned against a pillar, while the tip of his vape blinked red between his fingers.
00:18:25His dark eyes locked on me and made my skin crawl.
00:18:28I looked away and tried to pass him.
00:18:30Jace caught my wrist.
00:18:31He yanked me back against his chest.
00:18:33Are you insane?
00:18:34I raised my hand to hit him.
00:18:36Without even looking, he trapped that wrist too.
00:18:39Jace looked down at me with a half smile.
00:18:41No matter how much I beg now, you'll never give me another chance.
00:18:44Right?
00:18:45I don't know what you're talking about.
00:18:47Bullshit.
00:18:48You know exactly what I mean.
00:18:50You knew I said I never liked Brielle because I wanted you to hear it.
00:18:54Yes.
00:18:54I knew.
00:18:55I also knew you liked me long before I confessed.
00:18:58Otherwise, I never would have humiliated myself by trying.
00:19:02The first time I tried to lose weight, I hid it from everyone.
00:19:08I starved myself and stopped taking the bus.
00:19:11Instead, I walked to and from school every day.
00:19:15I wanted to lose weight as fast as possible, wear the dress I had loved for months, and confessed to
00:19:23Jace.
00:19:23But he noticed my pale face and the hand pressed to my stomach.
00:19:27He had been on his way to the boxing gym with Mason.
00:19:31When he stopped, he frowned.
00:19:32Your period?
00:19:34I shook my head and brushed him off.
00:19:36I'm fine.
00:19:38It'll pass.
00:19:39Jace refused to let it go and insisted on taking me to the doctor.
00:19:44I finally admitted that it was probably from not eating.
00:19:48His frown deepened.
00:19:49He signed us out, claiming he was taking me to urgent care, then dragged me to a diner.
00:19:55He held my hand and walked ahead of me.
00:19:58You care that much about what people think?
00:20:01You'd rather starve to death?
00:20:03I was too dizzy with hunger to understand him.
00:20:06I nodded automatically.
00:20:09Yeah.
00:20:09Jace was furious.
00:20:11His grip on my hand tightened, but after a long moment, he forced himself to compromise.
00:20:18Can you stop starving yourself?
00:20:20Next time someone jokes about your body, I'll break his jaw.
00:20:24Happy?
00:20:25I smiled faintly.
00:20:26You don't think I'm fat?
00:20:28I look ugly like this.
00:20:31Jace stopped.
00:20:32Still holding my hand, he turned around.
00:20:35Then he bent until his face was close to mine.
00:20:38He studied me with the same focus he used before stepping into a boxing ring.
00:20:43I checked.
00:20:44His voice was serious, without a trace of amusement.
00:20:47You're cute.
00:20:48All of you.
00:20:50Not cute because you're round.
00:20:52Your face is beautiful.
00:20:54Jace repeated.
00:20:55You have a beautiful face.
00:20:56He sounded as serious as if he were answering the most important question of his life.
00:21:01In that moment, everything I felt for him grew beyond control.
00:21:05I squeezed his hand and tried, for the first time, to climb out of my shame.
00:21:10Then, one second later, he shoved me straight back into it.
00:21:14For a long time after that, I couldn't stand up again.
00:21:18Jace's lashes shook.
00:21:20His grip on me loosened.
00:21:22Yeah.
00:21:23He looked down and gave a broken smile.
00:21:26I liked you long before you confessed.
00:21:29But being with you meant taking on too much.
00:21:32The looks.
00:21:33The jokes.
00:21:35My teammates.
00:21:37My followers.
00:21:38Everyone laughing at the national champ for dating the fat girl.
00:21:41And that's why you don't deserve another chance.
00:21:43I couldn't listen to his confession anymore.
00:21:45I cut him off and walked away.
00:21:48After several steps, I faintly heard his voice again.
00:21:51Maybe he knew his words meant nothing.
00:21:53They were so quiet, they sounded meant only for him.
00:21:57But I loved you more than any of them.
00:22:00I steadied myself before entering the ballroom.
00:22:04I looked around, but Reed hadn't arrived.
00:22:07Ms. Carter smiled and waved me over.
00:22:09Those college offers were impressive, Tess.
00:22:11Come sit down.
00:22:13Brielle had looked miserable since I walked in.
00:22:15Then something seemed to occur to her, and she smiled.
00:22:19Don't let her grades fool you, Mrs. Carter.
00:22:21Perfect little Tessa was sneaking around with a guy all year.
00:22:26I looked at her in disbelief.
00:22:28What are you talking about?
00:22:29Brielle widened her eyes innocently.
00:22:32We already graduated.
00:22:34You don't have to be embarrassed now, Tess.
00:22:36Before I could respond, Ms. Carter asked,
00:22:39With whom?
00:22:41Her seat partner?
00:22:43Reed Whitwork.
00:22:44Ms. Carter's eyes widened behind her glasses.
00:22:48Brielle looked even more pleased.
00:22:51I know, right?
00:22:53How does a straight-A student end up with a failing troublemaker?
00:22:59Come on, Tess.
00:23:00You can't deny your boyfriend just because he's ugly.
00:23:03Make him take off the mask tonight.
00:23:05Let everyone see those burn scars.
00:23:08The rumor that Reed and I were dating bothered me less than the way she attacked him.
00:23:12Have you ever seen scars on Reed's face?
00:23:14She faltered.
00:23:16No, but then you made it up.
00:23:19Everyone says it and used her own formula.
00:23:22Everyone also says your parents paid a recruiter to fake your dance.
00:23:25That's how you got into Westbridge.
00:23:28By your logic, that must be true, too.
00:23:31Brielle immediately panicked.
00:23:33Who the hell is saying that?
00:23:34She spun around, searching every face for guilt.
00:23:37The ballroom was loud.
00:23:38Another group had been arguing just as intensely.
00:23:41They pulled Ms. Carter into the conversation.
00:23:43We heard the principal talking about some billionaire heir in our senior class.
00:23:46Who is it?
00:23:47Is he hot?
00:23:49Of course he is.
00:23:50He's a billionaire's son.
00:23:51Ms. Carter was being questioned from both sides and couldn't get a word in.
00:23:55The noise rose until no single voice could be heard.
00:23:59Then, the ballroom door opened.
00:24:01The room fell silent.
00:24:03Everyone stared at the tall boy in the doorway.
00:24:06His features were striking enough for a movie screen.
00:24:09The girl sitting closest to him blushed first.
00:24:12Um, are you looking for someone?
00:24:16Ms. Carter finally recovered and let out a breath.
00:24:19You don't recognize him?
00:24:20The person you've all been discussing is standing right there.
00:24:23Reed Whitney?
00:24:24Someone on the other side shouted.
00:24:27The Whitford heir?
00:24:28Wait, what is happening?
00:24:31That guy is Reed, the trigalinkual billionaire's son with an early offer?
00:24:35Ms. Carter pushed me toward Reed while I was still frozen.
00:24:38And apparently, he's Tess's boyfriend.
00:24:41I felt like I had been hit by a truck.
00:24:43Reed looked strangely unfamiliar without the mask.
00:24:46He raised one lazy eyebrow at me.
00:24:48Works for me.
00:24:49What worked for him?
00:24:50The ballroom erupted.
00:24:56The ballroom erupted.
00:24:58I once handed out his test and saw he got every multiple choice question right.
00:25:01He skipped all the work and wrote only the final answers?
00:25:04I thought he cheated.
00:25:05I always knew he couldn't be ugly.
00:25:07His eyes were too pretty.
00:25:09He wore the same sneakers as my favorite NBA player once.
00:25:12I was sure they were fake.
00:25:13Dinner ended quickly under wave after wave of shocked whispers.
00:25:17On the way home, Reed patiently answered every question I had.
00:25:21When he first transferred, he wore the mask and cap because he had just been in a fight
00:25:24and the bruises hadn't healed.
00:25:26After that, wearing them became a habit.
00:25:28As for why he retook the SAT and submitted new applications when he already had an early offer,
00:25:33Reed looked at me with open amusement.
00:25:35To go to the same university as you, girlfriend.
00:25:37That reminded me of the other problem.
00:25:40You misunderstood.
00:25:41Briella was just...
00:25:42I've never dated anyone before.
00:25:47There aren't many people in my family who like me.
00:25:50I grew up being compared to everyone and crushed under their expectations.
00:25:53I was raised by nannies.
00:25:55Once, my family forgot my birthday.
00:25:57So I decided to do something to make them notice me.
00:25:59But nobody cares.
00:26:01Eventually, I got used to it.
00:26:03Reed tried to sound casual, but I still saw the sadness he hadn't hidden in time.
00:26:06My nose stung.
00:26:08Apparently, even growing up rich could be painful.
00:26:10He noticed my red eyes and brushed a thumb beneath one of them.
00:26:13Then, he laughed softly.
00:26:15Don't be sad for me.
00:26:16This is the first time someone chose me instead of leaving.
00:26:21That's already enough.
00:26:22Reed spoke as if he were used to surviving on scraps of affection.
00:26:25I pressed my lips together, but the tears still came.
00:26:28Reed pulled me into his arms and gently stroked the back of my head.
00:26:31Don't cry, Tess.
00:26:33Then, he returned to the subject he had interrupted.
00:26:37What did you say I misunderstood?
00:26:38I went still.
00:26:39My tears hung in my eyes without falling.
00:26:41I blinked quickly.
00:26:43Nothing.
00:26:44Boyfriend.
00:26:44If I rejected him now, Reed might jump into the Charles River on the spot.
00:26:48He was desperately starved for love, and I knew my feelings for him weren't entirely platonic.
00:26:53There was no harm in trying.
00:26:55Greater Boston was packed with elite universities.
00:26:58The school that had accepted Reed early, and my first choice university, were similarly ranked.
00:27:03So when he turned down his first offer and enrolled with me, his cold-hearted family didn't object much.
00:27:08By the end of summer, I had completely accepted Reed as my boyfriend.
00:27:11He knew how to take things slowly.
00:27:13The most intimate thing he had done was kiss my forehead when he walked me home at night.
00:27:17Aside from being clingy, he was almost perfect.
00:27:20My first day at college destroyed every fantasy I had about campus life.
00:27:25Two of my three suitemates ignored me when I introduced myself.
00:27:28The third was Brielle.
00:27:29Her dance credentials had given her a major advantage in admissions, so it wasn't surprising that she had gotten into
00:27:35Westbrook.
00:27:35Compared with my despair, she looked almost amused to see me.
00:27:39What a coincidence.
00:27:40It really wasn't.
00:27:41A large part of our graduating class had stayed in Greater Boston, so running into former classmates wasn't unusual.
00:27:47But some coincidences were still exhausting.
00:27:50For example, Reed told me over dinner that Jace was in his major.
00:27:53After sulking for a moment, I remembered that Jace could even beat Mason.
00:27:57I quickly warned Reed, don't get into a fight with Jace when you're alone.
00:28:01You can't beat him.
00:28:02If he bullies you, tell your academic advisor.
00:28:05If it gets serious, we'll call the police.
00:28:07Reed was picking the carrots out of my dinner.
00:28:09Without looking up, he asked,
00:28:11How do you know I can't beat him?
00:28:12Reed had no idea how dangerous Jace was.
00:28:15This was about his safety, so I put down my fork and spoke very seriously.
00:28:20Don't try to prove anything.
00:28:23He's the national youth boxing champion.
00:28:26The last time you got into a fight, your whole face was bruised.
00:28:30I've seen Jace fight more than once, and he barely gets touched.
00:28:34Maybe I sounded too harsh.
00:28:36Reed went quiet.
00:28:37After a while, he pushed the carrots-free plate toward me and nodded.
00:28:41I understand.
00:28:43I'm useless, so I'll stay away from him.
00:28:45Oh no.
00:28:46I had forgotten how sensitive Reed was.
00:28:48I had heard him.
00:28:49He barely spoke for the rest of dinner.
00:28:51Even while upset, he silently peeled my shrimp for me.
00:28:53I bit my fork and watched him nervously.
00:28:56That only made me feel guiltier.
00:28:58After dinner, we followed the standard college couple routine.
00:29:02We took a walk.
00:29:03We crossed the athletic field and reached the quiet lake behind campus.
00:29:07I spent the entire way apologizing to my moody prince.
00:29:11Reed finally softened.
00:29:12He pulled me into his arms and rubbed his face against my neck.
00:29:16He looked like an abandoned puppy begging to be petted.
00:29:18Tess, make me feel better.
00:29:22I hugged him back.
00:29:23I am.
00:29:25Not enough.
00:29:26His breath against my ear slowly grew hotter.
00:29:29Kiss me.
00:29:30His lips were almost touching my earlobe.
00:29:32Please?
00:29:33I shivered.
00:29:34My breathing quickened too.
00:29:36Where?
00:29:36Both our voices dropped, as if neither of us wanted to disturb the intimacy around us.
00:29:41Reed tugged down the collar of his sweatshirt.
00:29:43His pale throat showed faint blue veins.
00:29:46Here.
00:29:46The moment I rose onto my toes and kissed him, Reed cupped the back of my head.
00:29:52His throat moved.
00:29:54His voice turned rough.
00:29:55Leave a mark, Tess.
00:29:58Let everyone know I'm yours.
00:30:00I followed his instructions, sucking the skin before biting gently.
00:30:04After several tries, I gave someone a hickey for the first time in my life.
00:30:08My face turned as red as a tomato.
00:30:10It's done.
00:30:10I pushed him away and stared at the ground.
00:30:13Reed bent until our eyes were level.
00:30:14His smile was warm and lingering.
00:30:17His thumb rubbed slowly over my lips.
00:30:19You're really good at that.
00:30:21His voice seemed designed to steal my common sense.
00:30:25That felt amazing, Tess.
00:30:28Give me more next time.
00:30:29Wasn't dating supposed to go both ways?
00:30:32Why wasn't he kissing me?
00:30:33I couldn't bring myself to ask.
00:30:35I stared at him for several seconds and shook my head.
00:30:38No.
00:30:39Hopefully, he would think about what he had done wrong and offer to kiss me back.
00:30:44Freshman Orientation Week wasn't difficult for someone who had spent senior year dieting and walking everywhere.
00:30:49Our outdoor program was run by junior orientation leaders.
00:30:53By the end of the first week, rumors were already spreading about freshmen hooking up with their upperclassmen leaders.
00:30:59Nothing like that had happened in our group, but maybe I was imagining it, because our leader sometimes stood far
00:31:04too close when correcting me.
00:31:06Tessa, lift your arm.
00:31:07He stepped behind me, boxed me in with his body, and used both hands to adjust my arms.
00:31:12I could feel his breath against the back of my neck.
00:31:15I quietly stepped away.
00:31:16You can just tell me what to do.
00:31:18He ignored my discomfort.
00:31:19Then he laughed.
00:31:21But you're a little slow, freshman.
00:31:23Without warning, he flicked my forehead.
00:31:26Most girls would beg for this much personal attention.
00:31:29Helping us was literally his job.
00:31:31During the break, Brielle sat beside him with her water bottle.
00:31:34She spoke just loudly enough for everyone to hear.
00:31:38Wow, Tessa.
00:31:39He's so nice to you.
00:31:40If you didn't already have a boyfriend, you should give him a chance.
00:31:45Boyfriend?
00:31:45The orientation leader's expression changed.
00:31:48He stared at me.
00:31:50You have a boyfriend?
00:31:51I looked away from Brielle and nodded.
00:31:53He watched me without expression for several seconds.
00:31:56You have a boyfriend?
00:31:58And you didn't tell me?
00:32:00Were you leading me on?
00:32:02That's slutty as hell.
00:32:04His conclusion was so ridiculous that I laughed.
00:32:07Did you ask?
00:32:09Besides, you're not exactly worth leading on.
00:32:13Before he could answer, Brielle slammed down her bottle.
00:32:15Who do you think you're talking to?
00:32:17Your freak boyfriend doesn't compare to him.
00:32:21He's weak and creepy.
00:32:23Anger rushed straight to my head.
00:32:25Without thinking, I walked over and slapped her as hard as I could.
00:32:28I warned you to stop trashing Reed.
00:32:31Brielle touched her cheek in shock.
00:32:32You hit me?
00:32:34One second later, she launched herself at me.
00:32:36We fought.
00:32:37I unleashed every bit of strength left from my 154 pound days and pinned her to the ground.
00:32:42It took three girls to pull me off completely.
00:32:45You started it.
00:32:46You're spending lunch on the field running drills.
00:32:49High knees.
00:32:49The orientation leader watched me with a cold smile.
00:32:53Then she gave me a smug smile.
00:32:55Under a hundred degree sun, I spent lunch alone on the field, doing high knee drills.
00:33:00He didn't release me until everyone else had already gone inside.
00:33:03By the time I reached the dining hall, lunch service was over.
00:33:06I forced down a few bites of soggy mac and cheese and went straight back to the afternoon program.
00:33:12That evening, I returned to my suite and showered, completely exhausted.
00:33:16I was starving, but I had no strength to find more food.
00:33:19In the end, Reed called and made me come downstairs.
00:33:22I threw myself into his arms and started complaining.
00:33:25Halfway through, I burst into tears.
00:33:28Reed, I'm so hungry.
00:33:31All I had for lunch was a disgusting mac and cheese.
00:33:33I want a bacon, egg and cheese so bad.
00:33:35Reed was far too quiet.
00:33:37He helped me sit on a nearby bench, then immediately ran to the campus cafe.
00:33:41He waited until I finished eating before checking his phone.
00:33:44Without showing any emotion, he said,
00:33:47Go back to your suite and rest.
00:33:48I need to handle something.
00:33:50I'll find you later.
00:33:51I studied him for two seconds, then lowered my eyes.
00:33:54Okay.
00:33:55Go do what you need to do.
00:33:57I'm heading back.
00:33:58He didn't think twice before walking away.
00:34:00I remembered the message I had glimpsed on his phone.
00:34:02Reed, that asshole junior is at the off-campus frat house.
00:34:06Get over here.
00:34:07I followed Reed without making a sound.
00:34:09For some reason, I suddenly remembered Mason showing up bruised in high school.
00:34:13Fragments of memory flashed through my mind.
00:34:16Every one of them pointed to the same truth.
00:34:18Reed had been pretending to be harmless all along.
00:34:22My suspicion was confirmed through the basement window of the frat house.
00:34:25Reed had taken down the orientation leader and three other guys without a scratch.
00:34:30The jagged glass hovered less than an inch from the leader's eye.
00:34:34His expression was darker than anything I had ever seen.
00:34:37He even smiled lazily.
00:34:38You wanted my girlfriend?
00:34:40The leader shook his head frantically.
00:34:42No.
00:34:43I swear I didn't.
00:34:44Reed casually rolled the broken bottle between his fingers.
00:34:47My girlfriend had a terrible day because of you.
00:34:50How are you planning to make that right?
00:34:52The leader trembled.
00:34:54What do you want?
00:34:55Reed had no patience left for talking.
00:34:57He turned the broken point toward the man's palm and started to drive it down.
00:35:01I stopped him in time.
00:35:02Reed Whitger!
00:35:03My voice was calm, but his entire body froze.
00:35:08Even after the four men scrambled away, he didn't turn around.
00:35:11I crouched in front of him and took the bottle from his hand.
00:35:14Reed lowered his arm.
00:35:16His throat moved several times before he spoke hoarsely.
00:35:19I'm sorry.
00:35:20I stayed silent.
00:35:22After a long moment, Reed tried again.
00:35:24I looked up sharply.
00:35:25His eyes were red.
00:35:26Are you going to break up with me?
00:35:28And filled with violent emotion.
00:35:30He looked nothing like his usual harmless self.
00:35:32I sighed and slipped my curled fingers into his palm.
00:35:36Of course I'm not breaking up with you over this.
00:35:39I just don't understand why you lied.
00:35:42Reed wrapped both hands around mine.
00:35:44Because I know you don't really like me.
00:35:46You only agreed to date me because you felt sorry for me.
00:35:49If I didn't act helpless, you would leave.
00:35:51Reed, look into my eyes.
00:35:54What you see there is real.
00:35:56I feel sorry for plenty of people.
00:35:58I don't date them.
00:35:59Love isn't cheap.
00:36:01It isn't something I hand out to anyone who looks pitiful.
00:36:04He caught my wrist, obsession burning in his eyes.
00:36:07You can't lie to me.
00:36:08Reed was wound painfully tight.
00:36:10If he wouldn't kiss me first, I could do it.
00:36:12If I'm lying, may I never eat another bacon, egg, and cheese.
00:36:16Reed finally began to relax.
00:36:18We walked along the dark campus path, swinging our joined hands.
00:36:22I bounced beside Reed.
00:36:24Listen, listen.
00:36:25We're perfect together.
00:36:27You're an amazing fighter, and I'm really strong too.
00:36:30I had Briella pinned the entire time today.
00:36:32She barely touched me.
00:36:34Her face will stay swollen for at least a week.
00:36:36Reed played with my fingers.
00:36:38You don't need to fight next time.
00:36:39I'll handle them.
00:36:41But Briella's a girl.
00:36:42Reed answered.
00:36:43I'll use a pink bat.
00:36:45I burst out laughing and rose onto my toes.
00:36:48Then I planted a loud kiss on his cheek.
00:36:50I really like you, Reed.
00:36:52A sudden laugh from nearby killed the warmth between us.
00:36:55Jace watched me with dark eyes.
00:36:57So now you worship violence?
00:37:00He beats up a few people without thinking, and you fall harder?
00:37:03Reed was still bothered that I had said he couldn't beat Jace.
00:37:06The moment Jace provoked him, Reed started toward him without expression.
00:37:09I caught his arm in time.
00:37:10I turned into a preschool teacher and started coaxing him.
00:37:14Why would you fight someone that weak?
00:37:16Look at him.
00:37:17He's obviously weaker than you.
00:37:19You'd make him cry without even trying.
00:37:22Then he'd get embarrassed and call the police.
00:37:24Reed finally stopped.
00:37:26He looked down at Jace with a sneer.
00:37:28Coward.
00:37:30You couldn't even love someone openly.
00:37:32What makes you think you can compete with me?
00:37:35The words hit Jace exactly where it hurt.
00:37:37He laughed coldly and stepped toward us.
00:37:40I pulled the pepper spray.
00:37:41Back off, Jace.
00:37:42He kept coming and reached for Reed.
00:37:44I sprayed him directly in the face.
00:37:46Jace staggered blindly and hit the tree behind me.
00:37:49Without help, it would take him a while to open his eyes and return to campus.
00:37:53He stood there alone and helpless, looking almost like I had in the rain senior year.
00:37:58Jace, seeing you like this finally pulled me out of that storm.
00:38:02I would never again suffocate from humiliation whenever I remembered that day.
00:38:06I had never expected Jace to suffer exactly what I had.
00:38:09This was enough.
00:38:10At least it proved that consequences were real.
00:38:13Reed wasn't the kind of guy Jace said he was.
00:38:16He didn't solve problems only with violence.
00:38:18Before going after the orientation leader, he had already collected screenshots, messages,
00:38:23statements from other freshmen, and proof that Brielle had cheated someone to fake her dance records.
00:38:27Then, he submitted everything to the school.
00:38:30The next day, the orientation leader was suspended.
00:38:32Brielle was expelled for faking her application.
00:38:34Everything happened so fast that I could barely believe it.
00:38:37When I looked at Reed suspiciously, he flicked one of my eyelashes.
00:38:40My mom went here.
00:38:41Her foundation donated the library three years ago.
00:38:44Right now, they're discussing funding two new residence halls.
00:38:46Of course.
00:38:47I met Reed's mother on campus once after that.
00:38:50Remembering his painful childhood, I gently suggested that she treat him better.
00:38:54She smiled without warmth.
00:38:55Did that little bastard tell you we abandoned him and made him end his life?
00:39:04In seventh grade, he refused to spend Christmas at home with us.
00:39:07He stole his father's phone and texted the family assistant to prepare our private jet.
00:39:13He planned to fly to Melbourne alone.
00:39:15When we caught him, he got scared his father would punish him, so he drank laundry detergent first.
00:39:19The hospital spent all night pumping his stomach.
00:39:21Otherwise, your boyfriend would blow bubbles every time he spoke.
00:39:24Reed and I got engaged before senior year of college.
00:39:27After the engagement party, he sat with me in a hanging chair, warm and tipsy.
00:39:31He remembered the first time he saw me in high school.
00:39:33His mouth curved lazily, his eyes unfocused.
00:39:36The first time I saw you, I thought you looked like a marshmallow with legs.
00:39:43I didn't think you should lose weight.
00:39:44I thought you'd be less cute if you got thin.
00:39:47He laughed softly.
00:39:49But every other girl looked the same to me.
00:39:52Tall, short, thin, big.
00:39:54I felt nothing.
00:39:56I corrected him.
00:39:57That's because you're face blind.
00:39:59He played with my ear.
00:40:01Maybe.
00:40:02Back then, I thought I might prefer bigger girls.
00:40:05Then you lost weight, and I realized something.
00:40:07He suddenly caught my waist and turned me around.
00:40:10I ended up straddling his lap.
00:40:11You're my only type, Tess.
00:40:13No matter how you change, I'll always fall for you.
00:40:16I wrapped my arms around his neck and smiled.
00:40:18That's funny.
00:40:20I feel the same.
00:40:21I only had one thought.
00:40:22If no one else wanted you, I could happily take you home and keep you for myself.
00:40:28Summer in Boston started with humidity that stuck to your shirt the second you stepped outside.
00:40:33Instead of going home to empty houses, Reed stayed in town.
00:40:37One morning, I stood in front of the mirror.
00:40:41I was thin now, but I still felt like that girl sitting frozen on the track in the rain.
00:40:50Reed, teach me how to box.
00:40:52He stopped buttering his bagel, looked at me for three quiet seconds.
00:40:56You sure it's not cardio kickboxing with pop music?
00:40:58It's ugly, sweaty work.
00:41:00I'm sure.
00:41:00I want to know how to throw my own weight.
00:41:03Put your sneakers on.
00:41:04He took me to an old school gym in Southie.
00:41:07The floor was worn plywood, and the heavy bags had duct tape over the tears.
00:41:13Come here.
00:41:15I sat beside him, and he took my hand.
00:41:18He unrolled a long black strap and began wrapping my knuckles, firm and steady.
00:41:24Keep your wrist straight.
00:41:26His fingers were warm against my skin.
00:41:29The wrap protects your bones.
00:41:31The power comes from your legs.
00:41:33When both hands were done, he tapped my wrapped palms together.
00:41:37Rule number one.
00:41:38Tess, you don't starve your body, you feed it.
00:41:41You need fuel to hit hard.
00:41:42By the end of the second week, my whole back ached.
00:41:45Training with Reed was nothing like watching him play the helpless student.
00:41:49In the ring, he was dead serious.
00:41:52Stop crossing your feet, Tess.
00:41:54You're off balance.
00:41:56Wider base.
00:41:57You used to weight, remember?
00:41:58Your lower body has natural anchor strength.
00:42:01Use it.
00:42:01That caught me off guard.
00:42:03Most people treated my old weight like a dirty secret, or a punchline.
00:42:08Reed treated it like an athletic stat sheet.
00:42:11Plant your back foot.
00:42:14One, two.
00:42:15Go.
00:42:15I stepped in and threw a jab.
00:42:18Then a straight right.
00:42:23Not bad.
00:42:25Now rotate your hips.
00:42:26Don't push the punch.
00:42:27Whip it.
00:42:28We ran the drill for 40 minutes, until sweat dripped into my eyes and my lungs burned.
00:42:34I stumbled on the canvas, gasping for breath.
00:42:38My forearms trembling.
00:42:40Reed grabbed a water bottle, unscrewed the cap, and handed it to me.
00:42:44He wiped my forehead with a towel.
00:42:49You want to stop?
00:42:53No.
00:42:54Hold the mix back up.
00:42:57That's my girl.
00:42:59Again.
00:43:00The hardest part of summer was the diner booth down the street from the gym.
00:43:04After four hours of exercise, Reed slid a plate across the laminate table.
00:43:09Two fried eggs, three strips of crispy bacon, a mound of hash browns, and two thick slices
00:43:16of buttered sourdough.
00:43:17My stomach growled loud enough for the waitress to hear, but my hands stayed in my lap.
00:43:21Old habits died hard.
00:43:23My brain still whispered the math.
00:43:26Extra carbs mean failure.
00:43:29Reed noticed my stillness.
00:43:31He picked up a slice of toast, tore it in half, and dipped it into the runny yolk.
00:43:36Then he set the other half on my napkin.
00:43:41Your body burned 2,000 calories this morning, Tess.
00:43:45If you don't eat the carbs, you can't build the muscle to knock someone's teeth out.
00:43:49I swallowed hard.
00:43:52What if I gain it all back?
00:43:55Then you're 150 pounds with a mean right hook.
00:44:06Eat the potato, Tess.
00:44:09You earned it.
00:44:10I picked up the fork.
00:44:12The hash browns were salty, crisp, and warm.
00:44:16For the first time in two years, I ate food without feeling like a criminal.
00:44:21By late July, my knuckles had calluses, and my shoulders had rounded into clean muscle.
00:44:27I wasn't the skinny girl who looked like she might blow away in the wind anymore.
00:44:31I was solid.
00:44:37Live rounds?
00:44:38I'm gonna make you work.
00:44:40Land three clean shots to the ribs, and we're done for the day.
00:44:44You're gonna regret giving me a free pass.
00:44:48Try me, Marshmallow.
00:44:49We circled inside the small ring.
00:44:52Reed stayed light on his feet, using his reach to jab at my forehead and keep me back.
00:44:57He was fast, annoying, and completely relaxed.
00:45:03I ducked under his left, slipped right, and stepped in.
00:45:06I fainted high with my right.
00:45:08Reed raised his guard.
00:45:10I pivoted and drove a short left hook into his padded ribs.
00:45:14The impact pushed him back half a step.
00:45:17Reed froze.
00:45:18Then, his eyes lit up with something feral and entirely thrilled.
00:45:25Damn.
00:45:26That actually stung.
00:45:28I wiped my nose with the back of my glove.
00:45:32That's one.
00:45:33August passed in a blur of morning runs along the esplanade and cheap iced coffee from the cafe downstairs.
00:45:41Two days before sophomore year started, Reed dropped a small box onto my lap.
00:45:47What's this?
00:45:49Open it.
00:45:52Inside was a pair of new shoes.
00:45:55Nothing flashy.
00:45:56Dark green, lightweight, exactly my size.
00:45:59Looked up at him.
00:46:01You bought me shoes?
00:46:02Your old ones are falling apart.
00:46:04I glanced down at the worn sneakers by the couch.
00:46:07They're fine.
00:46:09They have a hole in them.
00:46:10That's ventilation.
00:46:12Reed rolled his eyes.
00:46:14Just try them on.
00:46:19I slipped one foot inside.
00:46:21Of course it did.
00:46:23You remembered my size?
00:46:24You complain about your feet every morning.
00:46:26Kind of hard not to.
00:46:27They look fast.
00:46:27They're shoes, Tessa.
00:46:29He shook his head, but I caught the smile before he looked away.
00:46:33Outside, the humidity was finally breaking into early autumn air.
00:46:37Students were already hauling boxes into the dorms.
00:46:41We packed our duffels into Reed's truck.
00:46:44My phone buzzed with an orientation email about Pan-Hellenic recruitment, sorority rush week.
00:46:50Everyone said sophomore year was when you had to pick a side on campus.
00:46:54The social elites?
00:46:55I looked at the green leather gloves on the seat between us.
00:46:59Well, I didn't plan on being invisible, and I sure as hell wasn't begging to fit in.
00:47:04Move-in day at Westbridge.
00:47:06Cars parked on the narrow Boston streets.
00:47:09Parents sweating through polo shirts.
00:47:11The quad completely taken over by sorority rush tables, draped in pastel banners.
00:47:17I was carrying two heavy storage bins to my new dorm when I heard the giggles.
00:47:21Two girls in matching pleated pink skirts were huddled over a phone by the bulletin board.
00:47:38I didn't need to ask to know what they were looking at.
00:47:42Somebody had dug up my sophomore high school track photo and posted it onto the campus anonymous thread.
00:47:48The caption was pinned right at the top, the biggest glow-up catfish in the sophomore class.
00:47:55Watch your bids, ladies.
00:47:56I set the storage bins down with a dull thud.
00:48:00The two girls jumped, turning around in surprise.
00:48:03They recognized me instantly.
00:48:05The girl holding the phone instinctively hid her screen behind her back.
00:48:08Six months ago, I would have run to the nearest bathroom stall to cry.
00:48:13Now, I looked her dead in the eye.
00:48:17If you're going to screenshot my old photos, at least pick the one where I had bangs.
00:48:22It was funnier.
00:48:23I picked up both bins without breaking a sweat and walked right past them.
00:48:27I hadn't planned on rushing a sorority, but my roommate, Maya, a quiet biology major who wore oversized, thrifted hoodies,
00:48:35had begged me to walk with her to the open house mixer.
00:48:40I just want to make friends, Tess.
00:48:42Just come for the free mock childs.
00:48:46The Zeta new house smelled like expensive vanilla perfume and hairspray.
00:48:51Pretty girls stood in two neat lines, clapping and chanting like a rehearsed cheerleader.
00:48:56At the front of the room stood Chloe Vance, the chapter president,
00:49:00holding a clipboard with candid headshots of all the Rush candidates.
00:49:03When Maya introduced herself, Chloe didn't even look her in the eye.
00:49:08She just glanced down at Maya's worn canvas sneakers and rejected her.
00:49:13Thanks for coming by, sweetie.
00:49:15The exit is through the garden doors.
00:49:18Maya's eyes welled with tears.
00:49:20She shrank into herself, her shoulders caving in.
00:49:23Then Chloe spotted me standing behind Maya.
00:49:26Her smile tightened into something venomous.
00:49:28Oh, Tessa Lane, the celebrity.
00:49:32We were wondering if you'd show up.
00:49:34Our Rush committee takes personal discipline very seriously.
00:49:37We usually prefer girls who have consistent standards.
00:49:41A few girls stifled sneers.
00:49:44Tess, let's just leave.
00:49:47I gently pulled my wrist from Maya's grip.
00:49:50I took three calm steps forward
00:49:53until I was standing inches from Chloe's clipboard.
00:49:58Chloe lifted her chin.
00:49:59Personal discipline?
00:50:02You know what I mean.
00:50:04Zeta Nu has an image.
00:50:05Maya had a 4.0 in organic chemistry
00:50:07and spent her summer tutoring kids at the community clinic.
00:50:10You cut her in four seconds because she's wearing old sneakers.
00:50:14Excuse me?
00:50:15You don't get to talk to me like...
00:50:16Keep your plastic sister, Chloe.
00:50:19It landed with a sharp clack, splashing strawberry lemonade across her sweater.
00:50:24Gasps echoed through the foyer.
00:50:26I turned, grabbed Maya, and walked out.
00:50:28Three girls followed us down the steps.
00:50:31Hey!
00:50:31You heading to the dining hall?
00:50:33That was bullshit.
00:50:33I looked at Maya, who was suddenly wiping away her tears and smiling.
00:50:38Then I looked at my phone buzzing in my pocket.
00:50:40A text from Reed, bringing four large pepperoni pies to you.
00:50:45Heard there was a commotion at the Greek houses.
00:50:47Need backup?
00:50:48I typed back,
00:50:48Just bring extra garlic knits.
00:50:50The Rejects are starting our own club.
00:50:52By midnight, our fourth floor dorm lounge looked like an accidental headquarter.
00:50:57There were five of us.
00:50:58Maya, Jules, Sam, and me.
00:51:01Reed sat on the floor, quietly working through a garlic knot.
00:51:06They take attendance at parties.
00:51:10Zeta New literally makes pledges log their daily a***** stories.
00:51:13And you have to buy a $200 dress for every formal.
00:51:17My scholarship doesn't cover it.
00:51:19Maya looked around the room, her cheeks flushed with excitement.
00:51:22Why do we even care about getting bids from them?
00:51:25We don't.
00:51:28That's the point.
00:51:29We don't need a sorority charter to hang out, study, or throw parties.
00:51:33She sat up straight.
00:51:35We can register as a new one.
00:51:37The university gives funding for every organization.
00:51:40Reed swallowed his garlic knot.
00:51:42Well, need an annoying name?
00:51:44I greened.
00:51:46The outliers.
00:51:47No dues, no dress code.
00:51:50Just homework, lifting, and pizza night.
00:51:52Maya clapped her hands together.
00:51:53I'll join in first.
00:51:54The application was approved in two hours.
00:51:57Dean Alvarez loved anything that promoted alternative student engagement.
00:52:01We even got an official room.
00:52:03The first week, it was just the five of us, studying and sharing snacks.
00:52:08By the third week, word had spread across the freshman dorms.
00:52:11Kids who didn't fit into the fraternity circuit started drifting in.
00:52:15A nervous kid who played competitive chess.
00:52:17Two commuter students who had nowhere to go between lectures.
00:52:20Girls who wanted to fit in and avoid frat boys.
00:52:23One evening, while running stairs in the stadium, I saw Chloe and a few of her sorority sisters watching us
00:52:31from the running track below.
00:52:32They had their matching leather jackets and iced matcha lattes, whispering and scowling.
00:52:38A month ago, their stairs would have made me check my waistband.
00:52:42Now, I wiped the sweat from my neck and shouted across the bleachers.
00:52:46Two more steps, outliers!
00:52:48Drive with your heels!
00:52:49Maya didn't even look down at them.
00:52:51She just pumped her knees and sprinted past me to the top of the concrete stairs.
00:52:55Second-year classes were brutal.
00:52:57My hardest class was chemistry.
00:53:00It was full of competitive pre-med students who treated every test score like a state secret.
00:53:08On Wednesday morning, the classroom was dead quiet.
00:53:11As the professor filled the board with formulas, the wooden seat beside me creaked.
00:53:17I didn't turn around until a familiar, heavy sports bag dropped onto the floor by my sneakers.
00:53:23It was Jace.
00:53:24He wore an oversized gray hoodie, the hood pulled up, and dark circles under his eyes.
00:53:29He had lost weight.
00:53:31His knuckles were taped with white athletic wrap.
00:53:34I didn't speak.
00:53:35I just kept copying the notes into my notebook.
00:53:38For ten minutes, the only sound between us was the scratching of my mechanical pencil.
00:53:43Finally, Jace cleared his throat.
00:53:45Tessa?
00:53:47I kept writing.
00:53:49You missed a line.
00:53:51Just copy the board.
00:53:53Jace took a breath.
00:53:57I lost six pounds.
00:54:00Coach says I've been off lately.
00:54:01I capped my pen and looked at him.
00:54:04That's nice, Jace.
00:54:05Tell your coach.
00:54:06I'm studying.
00:54:07Jace didn't leave, but he didn't push it either.
00:54:10After class let out, a crowd was gathered around the bulletin board.
00:54:14A bright yellow poster had just been pinned to the cork board.
00:54:18Annual Greater Boston Collegiate Boxing Invitational.
00:54:20Novice and Amateur Divisions.
00:54:22Open to all registered college students.
00:54:24Three guys from Alpha Sig, the fraternity where the campus boxers hung out, stood near the board, laughing at the
00:54:30sign-up sheet.
00:54:31Jace Wilder is already in the championship, bracked.
00:54:33Nobody's beating him.
00:54:35Then he glanced at the bottom.
00:54:37Women's featherweight and lightweight exhibition.
00:54:40A junior named Brody snorted.
00:54:44Who even signs up for women's novice?
00:54:47The field hockey girls?
00:54:49I pushed through the crowd with my backpack over one shoulder.
00:54:53Without saying anything, I grabbed the marker hanging beside the board.
00:54:58On the women's welterweight novice line, I wrote,
00:55:02Tessa Lane, The Outliers Society.
00:55:06Brody stared at the paper, then looked at me.
00:55:12You?
00:55:14You're from that weird study club with the freshmen?
00:55:17It's an athletic society.
00:55:20I looked at the poster.
00:55:22See you in November, Brody.
00:55:27When I told Reed about the tournament, we were sitting on the floor of his living room, eating Thai takeout.
00:55:32I expected him to tell me it was a bad idea.
00:55:34Instead, he put down his chopsticks and looked at my hands.
00:55:38How are you feeling?
00:55:40Good.
00:55:40I've been training all summer.
00:55:41I'm stronger now.
00:55:43Reed reached over and brushed his thumb over the small scar on my knuckle.
00:55:47They're going to come in hard.
00:55:49Most beginners get nervous and waste all their energy in the first minute.
00:55:54You're not going to tell me not to do it?
00:55:56Reed laughed softly.
00:55:58He leaned forward until his forehead rested against mine.
00:56:01Tess, I watched you train for months.
00:56:05You don't need my permission.
00:56:07He paused.
00:56:10Brody and his friends think they can look down on anyone who doesn't fit their idea of a fighter.
00:56:15Show them what you can do.
00:56:17Are you fighting too?
00:56:20Reed shook his head.
00:56:22No.
00:56:23If I step into that ring, my family will turn it into a whole disaster.
00:56:29This is your moment.
00:56:31He picked up a spring roll and held it out to me.
00:56:36Eat.
00:56:39We train tomorrow morning.
00:56:43For the next six weeks, our basement lounge became our training ground.
00:56:48Maya helped me fix my meals and keep my energy up.
00:56:52Sam used her sports background to push my strength and endurance until my whole body hurt.
00:56:58Jules printed white shirts with outliers across the front and made sure everyone had one.
00:57:05Every morning before sunrise, Reed waited outside my dorm.
00:57:09We ran through the cold streets of Beacon Hill until my legs felt numb.
00:57:15He taught me how to control my breathing.
00:57:18He taught me how to stay calm when things got hard.
00:57:22One afternoon, I was wrapping my hands in the recreation center.
00:57:25When Brielle walked in, she had just finished a class across the hall.
00:57:29She stopped when she saw my bruised arms and sweat-soaked shirt.
00:57:33There was no crowd around her anymore.
00:57:35No sorority sisters.
00:57:37Just her and me in the mirror.
00:57:40She looked like she wanted to say something cruel.
00:57:43Something like the things she used to say back in high school.
00:57:46I didn't look away.
00:57:47I tightened the strap around my wrist.
00:57:49The sharp rip of the Velcro filled the room.
00:57:51Brielle lowered her eyes.
00:57:52Then she turned and walked into the studio without saying a word.
00:57:56Tournament Saturday arrived under a gray Boston sky.
00:58:00The university field house was packed with students.
00:58:03The noise from the bleachers shaking the room.
00:58:06Two rings stood in the center of the gym.
00:58:08My match was called at two.
00:58:10My opponent was Sarah.
00:58:11A junior from B***h.
00:58:13She was taller than me.
00:58:14With broad shoulders and a confident stance.
00:58:17In the locker room, Reed tightened my gloves.
00:58:20My hands were freezing.
00:58:22Look at me, Tess.
00:58:24I looked up.
00:58:25You don't fight for anyone else.
00:58:27Not for Jace.
00:58:29Not for Chloe.
00:58:30Not to prove anything.
00:58:31He held my gaze.
00:58:33You fight because this is your choice.
00:58:37The bell rang.
00:58:38Round one started fast.
00:58:40Sarah rushed forward, throwing heavy punches.
00:58:43One hit my guard hard enough to shake me.
00:58:45For a second, that old fear came back.
00:58:47Then I remembered every morning training.
00:58:50Every painful run.
00:58:52Every time I wanted to quit.
00:58:55I moved.
00:58:56I stepped aside, let her lose balance, and found my opening.
00:59:00One.
00:59:01Two.
00:59:02My punch demanded from me.
00:59:04Crowd on her side exploded.
00:59:06By round three, Sarah was too tired to keep her hands up.
00:59:10She breathed through her mouth and stumbled forward, throwing another left hook.
00:59:14I dodged it, stepped closer, and drove my left fist into her ribs.
00:59:19The same punch I'd landed on Reed in July.
00:59:22Sarah gasped and dropped to one knee.
00:59:25The referee stepped between us and waved his arms, stopping the fight.
00:59:31Winner by referee Stuffridge in the third round, Tessa Lang.
00:59:36The outliers were on their feet in the second row.
00:59:41Reed stood at the edge of the ring with his arms crossed.
00:59:44Reed was grinning at me.
00:59:47I'd never seen him look so proud.
00:59:50Jace stood by the athlete entrance, leaning against the padded wall.
00:59:54His fight wasn't for another two hours, but he was already there.
00:59:58The referee lifted my arm.
01:00:06Reed reached over and pulled off my headgear.
01:00:09I looked up at him and smiled.
01:00:14Then I caught Jace's eye.
01:00:16We held each other's gaze for three seconds.
01:00:19I wasn't angry anymore.
01:00:20I didn't need to rub my win in his face.
01:00:22I didn't even want to see his reaction.
01:00:24I looked away and turned my back on him.
01:00:27Maya and Sam were waiting for me outside the ring.
01:00:30I climbed down and threw my arms around them, letting them pull me into a hug.
01:00:35Success always brings pests.
01:00:38Monday morning, Maya got an email from the college.
01:00:41Someone had filed a complaint against the out-outers.
01:00:44Chloe's name was at the bottom.
01:00:47She wanted us kicked off campus.
01:00:49Our hearing's tomorrow.
01:00:55Let them try.
01:00:56Tess, this could go on our records.
01:00:59My school applications.
01:01:01Sliding into the booth with her laptop, she turned the screen toward us.
01:01:05We didn't break any rules, but Chloe's sorority did.
01:01:08Their group chat exposed it all.
01:01:11Body rankings, bullying, and secret fees.
01:01:15Where'd you get this?
01:01:17Their old treasurer joined our tutoring group last week.
01:01:20She hates Chloe, too.
01:01:21Chloe stopped at our table with three freshman girls, smiling smugly.
01:01:25Enjoy your little club while it lasts.
01:01:27Maya stiffened.
01:01:29What a pity.
01:01:30None of your attacks hold up.
01:01:32Tell it to the dean.
01:01:34I'd rather show your new rook or something.
01:01:36I opened the screenshots and handed one girl my phone.
01:01:40Find your name.
01:01:41You!
01:01:43What's wrong?
01:01:44You were so proud of your standards.
01:01:46The girl scrolled.
01:01:47Her smile vanished.
01:01:48This charity case can't even afford a t-shirt.
01:01:50She stared at Chloe, hurt and furious.
01:01:53I promised.
01:01:53You don't care about money.
01:01:54That wasn't my comment.
01:01:55I pointed at the next message.
01:01:57This one was.
01:02:01The girl's voice shook with a-
01:02:03Spill something on her.
01:02:04Maybe she'll leave.
01:02:08Well, that's-
01:02:10But you were going to do it?
01:02:11Give me the phone!
01:02:12Chloe snapped.
01:02:13The girl pulled it away.
01:02:14Bitchy queen bee.
01:02:16Chloe's voice rose, shrill and desperate.
01:02:19I'm kicking you out!
01:02:20The girl shoved a chair back and sat beside Maya.
01:02:24Sure.
01:02:24Fuck you.
01:02:26Chloe stood there, fists clenched.
01:02:29I looked up at her.
01:02:30Anything else?
01:02:31We're trying to eat.
01:02:32Chloe stormed out of the dining hall, red with humiliation.
01:02:36Maya grabbed Jules, laughing with relief.
01:02:39Did you see her face?
01:02:40We actually beat her!
01:02:42We headed out for hot chocolate.
01:02:44Near the athletic center, Jace stepped into our path.
01:02:47His left eye was swollen.
01:02:49His lip split.
01:02:50He'd won his match that week, but now, he looked miserable.
01:02:55Tessa?
01:02:56Maya and Jules stopped wary.
01:02:57It's okay.
01:02:58Give me a minute.
01:03:00What do you want, Jace?
01:03:03I watched your fight.
01:03:04You were good.
01:03:05Really good.
01:03:05Thanks.
01:03:06I'm sorry.
01:03:06For high school, for that night in the rain, all of it.
01:03:08I was a coward, Tess.
01:03:09I know that now.
01:03:10Two years ago, I'd wanted those words more than anything.
01:03:15Now, I waited for the hurt or the relief.
01:03:18Neither came.
01:03:19I wasn't angry.
01:03:20I wasn't glad.
01:03:21His apology simply didn't matter to me anymore.
01:03:25I know you were, Jace.
01:03:27I don't hate you.
01:03:29Now, you're nothing to me.
01:03:30I turned back to my friends.
01:03:34I walked over and joined them.
01:03:36Jace said nothing behind me.
01:03:39December brought snow and a week of Christmas events before finals.
01:03:43More than 60 people came to our Christmas party.
01:03:47Maya stared at the crowd, delighted.
01:03:49Need more cups?
01:03:50Already?
01:03:51And cookies.
01:03:52Nobody touch the music.
01:03:53I'm getting more.
01:03:54We pushed tables together, passed around hot chocolate and decorated cookies.
01:03:59Sam insisted hers was a reindeer.
01:04:01It has six legs.
01:04:03Stop judging it.
01:04:05I laughed so hard, I nearly spilled my drink.
01:04:08Reed sat beside me, looking suspiciously pleased with himself.
01:04:13He slid a cookie across the table.
01:04:16He'd written my name in crooked icing.
01:04:18I picked it up, grinning.
01:04:20That's supposed to be me?
01:04:23The boxing gloves weren't easy.
01:04:26You gave me angry eyebrows.
01:04:28By nine, people were packing up, exchanging numbers and wishing each other luck on finals.
01:04:33I dropped into the chair beside Reed and rested my head on my arms.
01:04:38I'm exhausted.
01:04:40Nobody asked me to organize anything ever again.
01:04:42You had fun.
01:04:43I did.
01:04:43Come on.
01:04:44Where?
01:04:45My mom sent a package.
01:04:47Homemade gingerbread.
01:04:48Why didn't you say that sooner?
01:04:50Let's go.
01:04:52Finals were days away.
01:04:53Boston was freezing.
01:04:54I'd spent the afternoon studying at Reed's apartment.
01:04:57I sat on the rug in my socks.
01:05:01Reed was in the kitchen, cooking in sweatpants.
01:05:08Something smells good.
01:05:11Dinner.
01:05:12Put the notes down.
01:05:14One more.
01:05:17You said that ten minutes ago.
01:05:19I reluctantly set them aside.
01:05:23You cook like an Italian grandma.
01:05:25Our chef was from Napoli's.
01:05:26I got his sauce recipe when I was twelve.
01:05:28Twelve?
01:05:28I hated those dinners with my parents' business friends.
01:05:30Cooking gave me an excuse to hide in the kitchen.
01:05:32He bought over two plates of chicken and pasta.
01:05:35I moved my notes, and he settled on the rug beside me.
01:05:40Oh, I'm definitely staying for dinner tomorrow.
01:05:42You're welcome.
01:05:43I kept eating until I noticed him watching me, smiling fondly.
01:05:46What?
01:05:46Sauce on my nose?
01:05:47No.
01:05:48You're cute when you eat.
01:05:49Always have been.
01:05:50Come on.
01:05:51Stop staring then.
01:05:52No.
01:05:54Do you miss it?
01:05:57What?
01:05:58The parties?
01:05:59All that stuff your parents do?
01:06:00His smile faded.
01:06:02He reached over and wiped sauce off my chin.
01:06:06No.
01:06:08Everyone wanted to know my last name before they bothered talking to me.
01:06:15I'm happy here.
01:06:16Eating dinner with you.
01:06:18Good.
01:06:19Because I'm not sharing the leftovers.
01:06:21Finals were finally over.
01:06:23I got an A- in organic chemistry.
01:06:26Maya got an A,
01:06:27and cried with relief before rushing off to catch her train home.
01:06:30That evening,
01:06:31Reed and I walked through the public garden,
01:06:33I guess freezing.
01:06:35And we almost had the place to ourselves.
01:06:37He tucked my hand into his coat pocket.
01:06:40Cold?
01:06:41A little.
01:06:42Want to head back?
01:06:44Not yet.
01:06:45No exams?
01:06:47No alarms?
01:06:48Don't call me before ten.
01:06:50I'll be asleep, too.
01:06:53I leaned against his arm.
01:06:58Grandma wants us over for Christmas dinner.
01:07:00Turkey, sweet potatoes, the whole thing.
01:07:03Us?
01:07:04She specifically asked about you.
01:07:08What did she say?
01:07:09Is that pretty boy coming?
01:07:10The one who barely eats?
01:07:12I had seconds.
01:07:13She expects thirds.
01:07:14Fine.
01:07:15Tell her I'm bringing two pies.
01:07:16You know she'll send you home with a love gift.
01:07:17That's the plan.
01:07:19At the bridge, he stopped.
01:07:24What?
01:07:26Nothing.
01:07:26Let me look at you.
01:07:30Reed,
01:07:31my face is freezing.
01:07:35Thanks for sticking around.
01:07:37Even when I was being weird.
01:07:39You're still weird.
01:07:42I caught the front of his coat and pulled him closer.
01:07:45But you're okay being square in a round hole.
01:07:49He kissed me in the snow.
01:07:54When he pulled away, he was smiling.
01:07:57Home?
01:07:58Please.
01:07:59I can't feel my toes.
01:08:00He laughed and tucked me against his side.
01:08:03We walked back to his apartment, holding hands.
01:08:06At the start of sophomore year,
01:08:08I dreaded seeing another old photo of myself online.
01:08:11Brielle and Chloe had made sure everyone knew my size.
01:08:14They wanted me embarrassed.
01:08:15Quiet.
01:08:16Out of their way.
01:08:17I looked down at the calluses on my knuckles.
01:08:19But now, I'd won my fight.
01:08:21I had friends who showed up for me.
01:08:23I was proud of that girl now.
01:08:25She hadn't deserved any of it.
01:08:30My phone buzzed.
01:08:33My phone buzzed.
01:08:37Good news.
01:08:39We got a bigger room.
01:08:46Of course you did.
01:08:49Inside his apartment, I kicked off my boots with relief.
01:08:53Tea?
01:08:54Yes, please.
01:08:56Come sit with me.
01:08:58I curled up on the couch.
01:09:00He brought our mugs over, and I lifted the blanket for him.
01:09:03Later that night, we settled by the living room window with a blanket over our legs.
01:09:09I leaned against Reed's chest, warm and content.
01:09:14I saw my green boxing gloves sat on his bookshelf.
01:09:19You actually put them on display?
01:09:22Of course.
01:09:23I'm proud of you.
01:09:24They're staying.
01:09:25For a while, we just watched the snow.
01:09:29Next year, let's get a house off campus.
01:09:33Together?
01:09:34No, Tess.
01:09:35I'm asking you to help me move.
01:09:37Hey, come on!
01:09:38Yes, together.
01:09:40Somewhere with a yard.
01:09:40We could get a dog.
01:09:42The dog gets its own bed, though.
01:09:44Good luck with that.
01:09:45You'd let it sleep with us?
01:09:47Obviously.
01:09:48I'm already losing my side of the bed.
01:09:50What kind?
01:09:51A golden retriever.
01:09:52Sweet, playful, loves to cuddle.
01:09:54You have a type, don't you?
01:09:57Just you, Tess.
01:09:58It's always been you.
01:09:59The next morning, I pulled on a fleece and tied my running shoes by Reed's front door.
01:10:03He was already outside, bouncing a tennis ball against the wall.
01:10:06You started without me?
01:10:07He caught the ball and pocketed it.
01:10:08Still warming up.
01:10:09Grinning at me.
01:10:10I stopped on the steps, smiling back.
01:10:14What?
01:10:15Nothing.
01:10:16I like you like this.
01:10:19In sweatpants?
01:10:20Being yourself.
01:10:22Come on.
01:10:23Three miles to river and back?
01:10:24His grin softened.
01:10:25He held out a hand.
01:10:28Make it five, Whitaker.
01:10:29Let's see if you can keep up.
01:10:34You're awfully confident this morning.
01:10:37I've earned it.
01:10:38Yeah, you have.
01:10:41I tucked my cold hands into my sleeves and settled into my pace.
01:10:45Reed stayed beside me.
01:10:46Breakfast after?
01:10:49You're cooking.
01:10:51I figured.
01:10:52And I'm having seconds.
01:10:54Gave me an amused look.
01:10:55I'll make extra.
01:10:57I laughed, already looking forward to going home with him.
01:11:00There would be breakfast, a hot shower, probably another argument over my sweaty gloves on his bookshelf.
01:11:09I nudged his arm and picked up the pace.
01:11:11He matched it.