00:00Now, as I got older, all of the anxiety and even as a child, you instinctively know this is not
00:06right. This is wrong. And you don't want to keep secrets from your mom. By third grade, I was
00:10developing an ulcer. I was always sick, you know, somatic symptoms, psychosomatic headaches, stomach
00:15aches. I was always in the nurse's office. So instinctively, I did know that it was wrong,
00:19but it wasn't violent by nature initially. As I got older and I began to fight back a little bit
00:25and grow angrier and angrier, that's when the violence became more prevalent. So when I was
00:32seven and I was told that I begged my mother and begged her to go with her bowling and I
00:38didn't
00:38want her to go. And I actually told her verbatim what I had said. He's going to stick his in
00:44my
00:44it was like he picked different forms of for each of us. So mine was primarily my older brother was
00:51primarily physical. My younger brother was more emotional. He didn't have a name. He called him
00:57all kinds of awful names, but never by his actual name and always devalued him and degraded him and
01:03belittled him. Whereas my older brother, you know, we were, we're all very small and he was a big man
01:08and he was very physical with my older brother often.
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