00:00Going and living with her put me into a different kind of hell because she was a narcissist and
00:06I was there to mother her and raise her one year old. I would have to tell my half-sister
00:12because I was 12 years older than her and that I'm your sister not your mum. She would
00:16call me mummy. You know I did all of the things and that really destroyed me as well because
00:21I still hadn't dealt with any of my trauma. I was having so many flashbacks. I was like
00:27missing time and I was having really weird experiences. The first one I really remember
00:34it was before my mum got me. We'd moved to Exmouth and my dad's mother and father moved there like
00:41literally just down the road and I was 10 year old and they they moved into this flat and we
00:46all had
00:47to go and welcome grandma and granddad the predators and you know see their new flat which is literally
00:52a hop, skip and jump away. It just felt so intrusive and then this big boat was on our driveway
00:57and I had to scratch past with my bike twice a day and I'd feel so resentful that his boat
01:02was on the
01:02thing and I had to scratch myself this side and then that side on the way in and the way
01:07out on
01:08this pebble wall. All the cousins were there and like loads of the cousins were going to sleep over
01:12and because I hadn't been spoken to about it whatsoever I'd like all but put it right back
01:18back as if maybe I just dreamt that or made it up or whatever.
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