00:00don't kill yourself.
00:03And I know that sounds direct,
00:05but sometimes direct is what you need when you feel like this.
00:08Because you don't need a perfect reason to stay alive tonight.
00:11You don't need to suddenly know that it's going to get so much better,
00:14but you just need enough hope to trust that it will.
00:18Right now, your mind will be telling you that nothing's going to change.
00:21It will be telling you that everyone would be better without you
00:25or wouldn't even notice if you were gone.
00:27It might tell you that you were too broken or too weak
00:30or just a failure in general.
00:33But your mind is not giving you the full truth right now.
00:36And I know that because on my 19th birthday,
00:38I tried to take my own life because I thought all these things about me
00:42and they were all wrong.
00:44Because pain changes the way you see everything.
00:47It makes the future feel too far away and empty.
00:51And it makes love feel far away.
00:53And it makes this bad situation, this bad chapter that you're in,
00:57feel like the whole story.
00:59And you won't believe that it'll get better yet.
01:01I didn't.
01:03But that's okay.
01:05Because you just have to leave the room of possibility in your minds
01:09and the fact that you could be wrong about it.
01:12Because your mind has been wrong before.
01:15There were days you thought you could never get through.
01:17Somehow you did.
01:18There were nights that felt endless, that felt so depressing.
01:22And you still came through to see Morty.
01:25And if you're going down a path where you are just blinded with nowhere to go,
01:30then you should breathe and stand up
01:33and realize that your direction can always change
01:35and you can always help it go into a better direction.
01:37Because the hard truth is that it won't magically get better.
01:40You have to fight through it.
01:43You have to fight through it every single day.
01:45You have to fight through not eating.
01:47You have to fight through not drinking.
01:48You have to fight through not wanting to go to school or work.
01:52But for now, your only job is to stay.
01:55And put some distance between you and whatever you could hurt yourself with.
02:00It is important to talk to other people in a time like this.
02:03To have other people.
02:04I think my best friend saved my life because he was there for me.
02:08And you feel cringy or weird telling them about it.
02:10But at the end of the day, the people that love you are there for you.
02:16People ask for help when they're drowning.
02:17And they don't apologize for needing a hand.
02:19And that is the same thing that you're in now.
02:22You are drowning in your emotions.
02:23And that is no better.
02:25Because how you feel right now has taken lives.
02:28And you are so beautiful and meaningful that this should not happen to you.
02:33Because it can.
02:34And it will.
02:35And it almost happened to me.
02:36And it's happened to people that I know.
02:37And I promise you that the people who love you would rather sit with you on the worst night of
02:42your life.
02:43Than lose you.
02:44And spend the rest of their nights wishing that you had cult.
02:49You matter more than the discomfort of asking for help.
02:54And I know in this feeling, it can suck when people say it gets better.
02:58And it just sounds like something that no one would understand.
03:01And it sounds empty.
03:03So, I'm not going to say things will get better.
03:06I'm going to say things will change.
03:08Because people will enter your life that you haven't met yet.
03:11Places will feel like home that you've never been.
03:16There are so many beautiful memories that you have not seen that I promise you, you will see.
03:23And you don't need to know what they are yet.
03:25And that's part of the beauty is that you don't know what they are yet.
03:28But the only thing you need to do is stay long enough for them to come back and reach you.
03:35Because your current life is not the only life that you can ever live.
03:40No.
03:41And the way you feel right now is not the way you'll feel forever.
03:46And I know that feeling better will take a lot longer than you want.
03:50You might feel like it never will.
03:53But therapy or communication or starting over more than once, it's a lot better than not doing it at all.
04:02And you're not hopeless for needing help.
04:04The strongest people in the world need help.
04:06So do not let shame keep you silent.
04:09Alright?
04:11Reach out to someone.
04:12For me, it was my friend.
04:14And he might have saved my life.
04:15And you can find someone even in the comment section.
04:18If not, you can talk to a parent or a co-worker or a neighbor or a counselor or a
04:22therapist.
04:24Because at the end of the day, your life is worth so much more than you realize.
04:28And it's funny.
04:29You know, if I start the video at kind of an ugly place, I end up at a beautiful place.
04:33And that's your life.
04:34It's ugly right now.
04:36But before you know it, you will be in a place more beautiful than this.
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