"All Apologies: Kurt Cobain 10 Years On" è un documentario biografico del 2006 diretto da Jon Brewer. Il film esplora la vita del leader dei Nirvana, concentrandosi sulla sua spirale discendente, la depressione e la dipendenza. Offre uno sguardo crudo e intimo sull'artista attraverso filmati rari e interviste.
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00:09Nirvana appears on the scene in an era where music seems to lack depth and
00:14originality. Teenagers, nauseated by the banality of pop rock, are immediately bewitched
00:20from the disturbing charm of the Nowheresville band. What seduces this frustrated youth is their
00:28enigmatic leader Kurt Cobain who manages to conquer those who no longer identify with him
00:33any musical genre. A fragile and controversial character, his songs speak of cruelty
00:40and despair. Twenty years have passed since Kurt took his own life. For many
00:49He remains the spokesperson of a new generation. For others he was merely an antidote to
00:54long-haired rock band that was all the rage at the time. Nirvana is in the place
01:00right, at the right time. Kurt can still be counted among the most influential figures
01:09of rock music, or he was just a loser who couldn't handle the weight of success.
01:18On the tenth anniversary of his death, in front of a Virgin Megastore in London, it was
01:23A memorial was set up where fans were invited to leave messages to remember him.
01:29But not everyone honored his memory. Someone defaced the giant photograph of his
01:34face with the words puppet and crybaby written on it. During an interview there was
01:41who called Kurt Cobain a failed drug addict who wrote only one passable song.
01:50Kurt Nelové remembered the anniversary of his death in a very personal way.
02:08Kurt was a person who seemed to almost take pleasure in everything that went wrong. It was as if he didn't
02:15wanted to believe in the possibility that events can also end in a positive way. His
02:25The fear of failure was so strong that he preferred not to delude himself. He was very rich and married to a
02:33a woman he was madly in love with who had given him a daughter. He could have been happy and instead
02:39He didn't know how to be. How should he be remembered? As someone who sold a lot
02:47Chicago's menodischi. Do you remember their song? And he should also be remembered as a man who...
02:57blew his brains out. The fact that we're still talking about him twenty years after his death speaks volumes.
03:03long and demonstrates that his music expresses profound reflections that the attentive listener
03:08They certainly do not escape and today as yesterday their meaning must be accepted. Not a day goes by that I do not
03:16I think about him and there isn't a day that I don't talk about him. We talk about him because
03:25is much missed. The
03:27Music was everything to Kurt. I hope people learn to understand that there was nothing more.
03:32important to him. There are very young kids who wear Nirvana t-shirts despite
03:39were still little when this rock band was formed.
03:51I remember as soon as a DJ from Sheffield, Steve Lamarck, played Smells Like Teen Spirit,
03:56pandemonium broke out. Total delirium. And this happened about six or seven years after the
04:06Kurt Cobain's death. In 1991, Kurt wrote a song that would change the face of rock,
04:16the legendary Smells Like Teen Spirit, a song that in the blink of an eye took Nirvana to the top
04:22to the charts. Smells Like Teen Spirit was the song that made them famous everywhere, a song
04:32which is still very successful. It became a success in the blink of an eye. At first it was felt
04:38on the radio a couple of times a day, then every hour. It also aired on MTV. Kurt had become
04:45very famous, but for us who were his closest friends this was... disconcerting.
04:51Smells Like Teen Spirit was a hit song no more and no less than many others. It's a song
04:56Very
04:57catchy punk rock tune. We used to play it all the time and when we were in the hotel if any of us noticed
05:05that was broadcast on MTV immediately alerted everyone else. It did... I was amazed by the success
05:15immediate impact that single had. It seemed like the music world had changed in an instant.
05:21and maybe it wasn't just an impression.
05:24The momentum and excitement at the time was so great because everyone sensed that the album was going to do
05:32pretty well, you know, there was just a feeling in the air, you know, there was just like this new
05:38thing happening and no one could quite pinpoint it, but we knew that we were a part of it, you
05:43know.
05:44Smells Like Teen Spirit came out two weeks before the album Nevermind and when they started their first tour,
05:51Kurt was already famous everywhere. The frenzy he caused was like Beatlemania. If before, Americans had never
06:00heard about him, then they started wondering who Kurt Cobain was.
06:07He recorded Smells Like Teen Spirit and then the album Nevermind. Before the album came out he returned to Seattle, underwent a
06:16eviction and lived in the car.
06:19So in the interval between the making of the album and its distribution he had to live like a beggar.
06:24In 1990 he showed up at a kennel that offered jobs to cleaners, but they didn't hire him. He was in desperate conditions.
06:36but the other members of Nirvana were no better off, they were all living like vagabonds.
06:42However, for those who came from a social reality of considerable hardship, rock offered the possibility of emancipation. It was a
06:51loophole.
06:52It was a musical genre that managed to unite young people and capture them with its strong magnetism.
06:58Kurt was born in 1967 in Aberdeen, a town located in the state of Washington.
07:05Following the decline of the timber industry, Aberdeen becomes a ghost town filled with run-down bars and sex shops.
07:11who sell guns, chainsaws and electric guitars.
07:18Kurt had a happy childhood until the age of eight, when his parents divorced.
07:24Will this trauma inject anger and resentment into his early lyrics?
07:28He often spoke to me about his childhood, saying that he had been happy until his parents' divorce and that
07:36He later went to live with his father, who wanted him to become an athlete.
07:42He also told me about his ambitions and his frustrations.
07:46Kurt wanted to take up wrestling at school.
07:49One day his father went to watch a match where he was fighting.
07:56Kurt, however, allowed his opponent to beat him up without reacting.
08:02His father got angry and insulted him, but Kurt had done it on purpose and he kicked him out of the house.
08:09Kurt once took me to Aberdeen and it felt like I was going back twenty years.
08:18It had once been a prosperous logging community, but has since become a ghost town, where it seems that in
08:26every house hides a potential killer.
08:30There were some pretty macabre stories circulating about this place.
08:54I was struck by how much poverty and bitterness marred his life.
08:59Kurt wrote a song about living under a bridge.
09:04To tell the truth, it wasn't exactly like that, but the reality was even sadder.
09:18For a certain period of time he did not have a home and to have a roof under which to sleep he would enter
09:25in newly constructed buildings,
09:27or he went to the hospital where he was born and where he could stay warm,
09:31convinced that in a place like that no one would ever ask him for explanations.
09:36It's really terrible that he had to suffer all this pain.
09:41I think his problem was wanting to feel accepted, since his parents had even kicked him out.
09:49at home.
09:50This is probably why he wanted to become famous.
09:57He felt the need to be loved, but at the same time he couldn't accept the fact that anyone loved him.
10:05In 1987, Chris Novoselic was impressed by a demo recorded by Kurt Cobain and became his bassist.
10:14After a few jam sessions, the rock band Nirvana was born, and they chose Chad Channing as drummer.
10:20I first met Kurt Cobain at a show at the World Theater in Tacoma.
10:26in 1987.
10:30They were looking for a drummer and they wanted me at that concert to let me understand what kind of music they played and to know
10:37what I thought about it.
10:40At the end of the show they asked me if I wanted to become their drummer.
10:44In January 1988 I received a phone call from a certain Kurt calling from Aberdeen and saying he was
10:52friend of the Melvins.
10:53He wanted to record some songs.
10:56And so on January 23rd of that year Nirvana recorded with me for the first time.
11:22He contacted about 25 record labels including Alternative Tentacles.
11:27But he was quite disappointed because no one answered him.
11:32He only received a couple of letters briefly dismissing him, and he was really upset.
11:39Our records were also produced by Jack Endino.
11:43They recorded them on eight-track at Reciprocal Studios.
11:49They left the tape with me for quite some time with the idea of coming back to work on it as soon as they had
11:56made some money.
11:57And since it was very interesting material, I asked them if I could submit it to the attention of a friend.
12:03That's how the tape reached John Poneman of Sa Pop.
12:07The Sa Pop label wanted to release a single.
12:11I remember the next session was in June '88
12:17and when we recorded Love Buzz and a couple of other songs that later appeared on the Bleach album.
12:23If you asked me what goals Kurt hoped for his band to achieve
12:28I should answer that these things didn't interest him much.
12:32It is said that he wanted to become the undisputed leader of Nirvana
12:37but in reality he never said anything explicit about it, at least to me.
12:43I would say it was more of a matter of something that I, like all the other people who knew him well,
12:49I felt it very clearly.
12:52He had such a strong charisma that sooner or later it would inevitably manifest itself.
12:58It was just a matter of seeing when.
13:01But Kurt and Nirvana don't have to wait long.
13:05Following the great success achieved in Seattle,
13:08the English music press gives them ample space.
13:11Nirvana's music was reviewed by the English press in the late 1980s
13:16especially from a journalist named Everett True
13:19who worked for Melody Maker
13:21and who discovered the band when they were performing in Seattle.
13:26This critic wrote about various rock bands, especially praising Tad,
13:31but when he discovered Nirvana he started bringing their records to the office
13:34and told us that this band attracted crowds of people with its wild shows
13:40and that Kurt Cobain knew no inhibitions.
13:50I immediately realized that of all the bands that came from Seattle, Nirvana
13:55they were unmistakably different.
13:57Their musicality was very intense
14:01and their performances were also distinguished
14:03from those of all the other rock groups.
14:07But to give a decidedly original touch to this band
14:11and an unmistakable character to its sound
14:14it was mostly Kurt Cobain.
14:16In Nirvana's music you can perceive typical grunge vibes
14:21and the album Blitz has a decidedly punk sound.
14:25The matrix is undoubtedly that.
14:27But at the same time their sound has unusual melodic traits.
14:33This kind of rockad immediately caught my interest.
14:36It is made of sounds from which something seems to forcefully want to emerge
14:40and Kurt's voice transmits a great energy.
14:45Their concert in England really impressed me.
14:49It was when they performed in London in December '89.
14:53It was a show full of vivacity and vigor.
14:57as if it were to be the last.
15:00At the end of that show it happened that that crazy Kurt Cobain
15:06he took up the guitar against Chris Novoselic, the bassist,
15:10who held the bass just like a real baseball hitter
15:13waiting to receive his last pitch during a game.
15:19Then there were the memorable, if brief, television appearances
15:24who brought a breath of fresh air to traditionalist English TV.
15:29Nirvana's album sold 600,000 copies in the United States alone.
15:34Here they are for the first time live on TV!
15:39I remember Caroline and I sitting in the cafeteria at Imouse Studios,
15:44where the television series The World was filmed,
15:47and that we made fun of Kurt Cobain, giving support to his manager,
15:50who reproached him for distancing himself too much from the band.
15:53In fact Kurt, between one test and another,
15:57He spent hours and hours sipping large cups of coffee.
16:01Yet he gave the impression of being perpetually drunk.
16:05And we laughed in his face.
16:07It was quite an impression to see him like that.
16:10He looked like he was dying, but during rehearsals he left us breathless.
16:22He made introductions like this.
16:25Kurt Ne is the best cocksucker in the world.
16:27He hoped to surprise us, but we only cared
16:30that he took advantage of the few minutes available
16:33without wasting time with chit-chat.
16:42The producers of the television series The World
16:45they didn't know who they had signed.
16:48They said they made Nirvana famous.
16:50But they already were.
16:56In 91, Nirvana signed a contract
16:58with the record company Geffin Records.
17:01And their dream comes true.
17:03The album Nevermind is a resounding success
17:07and is still considered a milestone
17:09of rock music.
17:15Nirvana!
17:17The person who came is...
17:19Nirvana!
17:21When success comes
17:23It always finds you a little unprepared.
17:27And so it was for him too.
17:30who was literally overwhelmed.
17:33Kurt Cobain in the fall of '91
17:37became popular everywhere,
17:41although until recently
17:43nobody knew him.
17:52In my opinion it wasn't stable enough
17:55to be able to manage success.
18:00Trying unexpectedly in the center
18:02attention was not easy for him.
18:05He only partially enjoyed the success.
18:08Certain aspects related to fame
18:10they created difficulties for him,
18:12especially the invasiveness of the media
18:14in his private life.
18:16Kurt said he had always dreamed
18:19to become a rock star
18:20and that having been able to fulfill his dream
18:22he would have taken advantage of it
18:24as long as he could.
18:26All Nirvana fans
18:28they were so enchanted
18:29from the figure of Kurt Cobain
18:30that hung on his every word
18:32to the point of paroxysm.
18:34This caused him discomfort,
18:36but what one felt for him
18:37it was an irresistible attraction.
18:52He said more than once
18:53that if it had existed
18:55a college course for rock stars
18:58he would certainly have frequented it.
19:01Even though he had become famous,
19:04he still carried it with him
19:05the burden of his scholastic failures
19:08and he couldn't stand that.
19:10He wanted to feel like a person like everyone else.
19:13Although he really enjoyed being famous
19:16and appreciated the fact that
19:18his songs were broadcast
19:21on the radio and on MTV,
19:24there were some disadvantages
19:27resulting from popularity
19:29that he just couldn't accept.
19:42There were aspects of notoriety
19:45which Kurt appreciated.
19:47Room service in large hotels,
19:50his name published in the newspapers,
19:52but there were also some things
19:54that he couldn't stand,
19:55like always feeling under pressure
19:57and the fact that fame
19:59it didn't solve the other problems
20:01of his life,
20:02rather, it complicated them.
20:04It was pretty much like a double-edged sword,
20:08but on the other hand
20:08success cannot be achieved
20:11and lead a peaceful existence.
20:13For a rock star, it's unthinkable.
20:15Lightning speed
20:17with which fame poured into Nirvana
20:20it was overwhelming
20:21and it especially disoriented Kurt.
20:24I was able to touch it with my own hands
20:28the enormity of their success
20:31and I would have been surprised
20:32if he had left them impassive,
20:34but for a person as fragile as Kurt
20:37the impact could not fail to be devastating.
20:40Kurt didn't know
20:42what fate had in store for him
20:43and that wave
20:45instant success
20:47it was destabilizing for him.
20:49If on one hand it was the boy
20:51who loved punk rock,
20:54on the other hand he had become a rock star.
20:56Kurt was full of contradictions,
20:58he seemed to have planned his fame,
21:02as well as his career.
21:05A part of him wanted to enjoy
21:07the proceeds of his success,
21:08but there was something holding him back.
21:12His wife Courtney
21:13he tried to make him understand
21:15that there was nothing wrong
21:17in spending his money,
21:19but he just bought it
21:21a used car.
21:23He didn't know how to let go.
21:27When we were in Portugal,
21:29Kurt came to visit us
21:30in our dressing room.
21:32The other members were there too
21:34of Nirvana
21:34and we start talking
21:37all together on various things.
21:39We laughed and joked carefree,
21:41but I remember Kurt
21:43he cynically emphasized
21:45the fact that he became famous.
21:47It was understandable
21:49that he was satisfied
21:50to be on the crest of the wave
21:52and of the resounding success
21:54redeemed by his music,
21:55but it almost seemed like
21:57that all this
22:00caused him discomfort
22:02judging by the sarcasm
22:04with which he expressed himself.
22:05He had sought success.
22:07By the time he reached him,
22:09However, he noticed
22:10that he had worked hard for something
22:12which forcefully absorbed
22:14his energies
22:15and that prevented him
22:17to dedicate himself to his fans
22:18as he would have wanted.
22:20Kurt had always struggled a lot
22:22for the notoriety,
22:24but he realized
22:26that time for himself
22:27he didn't have any more.
22:34Kurt Cobain creates a new sound
22:37where they flow together
22:38raw punk, hard metal, pop
22:39and dark, threatening lyrics.
22:43His fans understand
22:44the discomfort he feels
22:45and assimilate it to their own.
22:47This is how it becomes an icon.
22:49But that's not it
22:51what his friends
22:51they see in him.
22:53Whenever he wanted,
22:54he also knew how to be
22:55very witty.
22:56He told jokes,
22:58he played funny jokes,
23:00besides the fact that
23:02he loved the same kind of music
23:04that I liked
23:04and who had an artistic streak,
23:06since he was drawing
23:07in a fantastic way.
23:09Kurt was a person
23:10calm, kind
23:13and temperament
23:14very accommodating.
23:15I've never seen it
23:16to act like a rock star.
23:19Every time they came
23:20to pick him up at the hotel
23:22with a huge bus
23:24and luxurious
23:25and we had to leave
23:26for the next stage
23:27of a certain tour,
23:28Kurt preferred
23:30take our bus
23:31to stay with us
23:32and sat down at the back.
23:34He played the guitar
23:36even in front
23:37on television,
23:38humming
23:39some songs
23:39of the Beatles
23:40or improvising
23:42as you like.
23:43Sometimes it was
23:44of new songs
23:45and so on
23:47for Kurt
23:48it was inconceivable
23:50stay too
23:50just one moment
23:52without music.
23:53Frankly
23:54it doesn't seem like it to me
23:55that Kurt
23:55had
23:56a personality
23:57marked.
24:00he was always calm
24:03And
24:04imperturbable
24:05I would say.
24:07He was a person
24:08I have to say
24:10that rarely
24:11he showed enthusiasm
24:12for something.
24:14It was something else entirely.
24:15how passionate
24:16since how long
24:16I was able to notice.
24:18Well,
24:19if he was offended
24:20for something
24:20it was hard to understand
24:22just by looking at it.
24:23Maybe he got angry
24:25thinking about it again.
24:27He also knew
24:28to be bad
24:30with whom he had it
24:31mistreated
24:32or with someone
24:33that he didn't like
24:34but usually
24:35he had respect
24:36for other people's feelings.
24:38It was like
24:39those teenagers
24:39who listen
24:40indie rock
24:41And
24:43Despite
24:44an unhappy childhood
24:45had made it
24:46fragile
24:48Kurt
24:49I had
24:49courage
24:51to tell you
24:52in the face
24:52that he felt
24:53in pain
24:54for someone
24:54or for something.
24:56It was always
24:56Much obliged
24:57with anyone
24:58that he was alone
25:00a short interview
25:01or
25:02a nod
25:03to him
25:03in an article
25:04he appreciated it
25:05very much
25:06and he didn't stop
25:07to thank you
25:08When
25:08actually
25:09you hadn't done
25:10then so much
25:11for him, right?
25:12He was an individual
25:13affected by
25:14obsessive-compulsive disorders
25:15first of all
25:16that of
25:17to aspire to fame
25:18planning it
25:18the smallest details
25:20all of one's own
25:20career
25:21he was writing
25:22rankings
25:23of rock bands
25:24slamming it
25:25someone
25:25and praising it
25:26other
25:26not to mention
25:27of his mania
25:28to prepare
25:29detailed diagrams
25:30scenographic
25:31for videos
25:31of his songs
25:32In short
25:32a maniac
25:33of the order
25:34but also
25:35a man
25:35immature
25:36and pessimistic
25:38which
25:39he always saw
25:41the glass
25:41half empty
25:42And
25:43he was pleased
25:45of anything
25:45if it went wrong
25:46he loved to reiterate
25:48continuously
25:48that no one
25:49would ever have
25:50had to be
25:52venerated
25:52like a god
25:53but in reality
25:54the duration
25:55he liked it
25:55and also a lot
25:56era
25:59Often
26:00pathetic
26:01and vulgar
26:02and the fact
26:03that he composed
26:04hit music
26:05does not take away
26:06that it was
26:06a person
26:07despicable
26:13nevertheless
26:13Nirvana
26:14they owe their
26:14statement
26:15to the figure
26:16enigmatic
26:16by Kurt Cobain
26:17and to his
26:18creepy voice
26:19with which he shouts
26:20your own
26:20discontent
26:21to the world
26:22entire
26:24one thing
26:25by Kurt
26:25that struck me
26:26right away
26:27is that he had
26:28Truly
26:29very good ear
26:30he was acting strange
26:31at only
26:33with the guitar
26:34but the part
26:34vowel
26:35it didn't seem like it
26:35at all
26:37harmonize
26:37with that
26:38instrumental
26:39but if we consider
26:40the album
26:41Nevermind
26:42I am really
26:43these dissonances
26:44to characterize it
26:45there are some
26:47singers
26:48that they have
26:48of the voices
26:49wonderful
26:49from which it emerges
26:50a pathos
26:51which makes them
26:51unmistakable
26:52and that one
26:53by Kurt Cobain
26:54it was certainly
26:55Like this
26:56one of the first things
26:57that I noticed
26:58in music
26:58of Nirvana
26:59and that left me
27:00breathless
27:01it was the fact
27:02that Kurt
27:04was capable
27:05to pass by
27:06from a murmur
27:06subdued
27:07and sappy
27:08at a cry
27:09strong
27:10and desperate
27:11effortlessly
27:13And
27:13it was understood
27:15right away
27:16that of studied
27:16there was nothing
27:17and that that
27:18he was alone
27:19and exclusively
27:20the scream
27:21of his soul
27:22his voice
27:22it was soaked
27:23of suffering
27:24you could feel it
27:25distinctly
27:26the pain
27:27it was the element
27:28through which
27:28many of his fans
27:30they identified themselves
27:32with him
27:33it may seem paradoxical
27:34but maybe
27:35his talent
27:36was
27:36fuscato
27:37own
27:37from his fame
27:39Kurt
27:40he had a voice
27:41really fantastic
27:43which reached
27:44very high peaks
27:46that of certain singers
27:48it is powerful
27:49only
27:49in the engravings
27:50but Kurt's scream
27:51it was like a volcano
27:53in eruption
27:54when his anger
27:55it exploded
27:55it transformed itself
27:56in exciting sounds
27:57his voice
27:58it was without a doubt
27:59powerful
28:00but at the same time
28:01he was able
28:02to express
28:02a quiet pain
28:04it was like
28:05if he himself
28:06opened his heart
28:07and invited
28:08all present
28:09to see
28:09what was inside
28:15it's a lot
28:18non-personal
28:19non-personal
28:21And
28:25I think that
28:27Kurt Cobain
28:28he earned it
28:29the fame
28:30of great artists
28:31and of a great rock star
28:32for his way
28:33direct and brutal
28:34to communicate
28:35his were
28:36pop songs
28:37who opposed
28:38to pop music
28:39and they were really passionate about it
28:40for their contents
28:42transgressive
28:53how did he manage
28:54his success?
28:58taking drugs
29:01at seven years old
29:03Kurt is a child
29:03hyperactive
29:04to whom it is prescribed
29:05Ritalin
29:05that in the round
29:06a few months old
29:07seems to restore
29:08his balance
29:09psychophysical
29:11but in 1986
29:13year in which
29:14start using it
29:15of heroin
29:15he is diagnosed
29:17bipolar disorder
29:45I was in pain
29:48if it doesn't kill me
29:48it kills me
29:48you have to take
29:49of drugs
29:51you can become
29:52a junkie
29:53because I feel
29:53like a junkie
29:54everyday
29:55Kurt is convinced
29:57that only heroin
29:58can give him
29:58safety
29:59which he needs
30:00and solve
30:00his problems
30:02the first drug
30:04administered to him
30:05it was ritalin
30:06which was supposed to serve
30:07to cure
30:08hyperactivity
30:09However
30:10a part
30:11of medical literature
30:12he considered it contraindicated
30:13prescribe it
30:14to the youngest
30:15many doctors
30:16they were convinced
30:17that was needed
30:18to calm them down
30:19others instead
30:20they thought
30:21that induce
30:22the children
30:23to believe
30:24that psychotropic drugs
30:25can modify
30:26their mood
30:27and have them hire them
30:28cyclically
30:29implied
30:30the eventuality
30:31which then
30:32reached
30:32adulthood
30:33they became
30:34of drug addicts
30:35In my opinion
30:36the rockstar life
30:37it was too tight for him
30:38he was upset
30:40from the fact
30:40that couldn't go
30:41anywhere
30:42without being recognized
30:44and without being
30:45hunted by fans
30:46that they wanted
30:47his autograph
30:48while
30:49Christ was
30:51more recognizable
30:52of him
30:52he managed better
30:53the celebrity
30:55while Kurt
30:56he took refuge
30:56in drugs
30:57me and his wife
30:59we didn't know
31:00that he was taking drugs
31:01Kurt
31:02he had never done it
31:03as long as
31:04which had been
31:05here with us
31:05his mother
31:07he said
31:08that it was about
31:09only
31:09of a frame
31:10advertising
31:12and that the real problem
31:13by Kurt
31:15era
31:18the disorder
31:21bipolar
31:21and that
31:23there was nothing
31:24to do for him
31:25I
31:28I believe
31:28that something
31:30for him
31:30it could be done
31:31Instead
31:46although he delighted incessantly railing against hypocrites
31:51he himself was a true champion of hypocrisy
31:53rumors that he was taking drugs
31:55and that he couldn't get out of it
31:57they were wasted
31:58nevertheless
31:59he was leaving
32:00around
32:01to tell
32:01who suffered from narcolepsy
32:03and in his diary
32:04he was joking
32:05on the fact
32:05that the stupid English press
32:08he drank all his nonsense
32:10he was not only hypocritical
32:11but
32:12even pathetic
32:13and above all
32:14a complete liar
32:15In my opinion
32:16he was also inclined
32:17to autosuggestion
32:19narcolepsy
32:20which he was talking about
32:21I began to notice it in him
32:22only
32:24after he saw the film
32:26beautiful and damned
32:26in teen spirit
32:28you seem to complain
32:29about the apathy of our generation
32:31is that right?
32:32whatever you want to make out of it
32:35it's up to you
32:36and do you share this
32:36it's your crossword puzzle
32:39and do you share this lack of engagement yourself?
32:44what? being apathetic?
32:46yeah
32:47sure
32:48why?
32:50why?
32:51because we sleep too much
32:54he started using drugs
32:56in high school
32:57accepting anything
32:59was offered to him
33:00in his diary
33:01he wrote that he started taking drugs
33:03right around that time
33:04but of evidence
33:05there aren't any
33:06I think that
33:07in Aberdeen
33:08was able to get hold of
33:09to the utmost
33:10codeine tablets
33:11taking them
33:13in some cabinet
33:14of medicines
33:14the heroine
33:16of which according to the press
33:17and popular opinion
33:18Kurt Cobain
33:19would have brazenly abused
33:21he started taking it
33:23only in recent years
33:25of his life
33:27It is precisely in those last years
33:29that his drug addiction
33:31becomes uncontrollable
33:32with inevitable repercussions
33:34on his mood
33:36I even risked it once
33:37that Kurt attacked me
33:38why I told Courtney
33:40that he looked like
33:41to Dux and Rose
33:42it looked like a caricature of him
33:44he said it wasn't true
33:46and so we start arguing
33:48and I had to give in
33:49because with us
33:50there was a photographer
33:51who was supposed to take some pictures of us
33:52for a record cover
33:54Kurt was really angry
33:58and then I thought
34:00okay, that's enough
34:00let's leave
34:02let's forget it
34:03I think it's better
34:03then that same evening
34:05he came to visit me
34:05he hugged me
34:06he kissed me
34:07he apologized
34:08and he said I was right
34:10even on board buses
34:12that we used for tours
34:14he was always ready
34:16to take some hallucinogens
34:17and this
34:19provoked in him
34:20significant mood swings
34:22he went from euphoria
34:23to despair
34:24sometimes he was high on his game
34:26while other times
34:27he was very sad
34:30he couldn't do it
34:31just to do without
34:33to take it on
34:34I would say above all
34:35when he was on tour
34:36it was scheduled
34:38at a concert
34:39at the New Music Seminar
34:42from New York
34:42but unfortunately
34:43that day
34:43Kurt
34:46he had an overdose
34:48where you go
34:51to be
34:53the launch
34:54of an album
34:55from the
34:56band
34:57more famous then
34:58but Kurt
34:59he took drugs
35:01we rushed
35:02everyone in his room
35:04and we found it
35:04on the ground
35:05he was behind the door
35:06he had a syringe
35:08in the arm
35:09and Kelly
35:10do you remember Kelly?
35:11he hit him
35:12energetically
35:12on the solar plexus
35:13and he
35:14he found himself
35:15but the concert
35:17there was
35:17well yes
35:18the concert
35:19there was
35:19equally
35:34the last time
35:36that you see Nirvana
35:36it was the very day
35:38Valentine's Day
35:39in Paris
35:40oh yeah
35:41we were on tour
35:42yes really
35:43beautiful concert
35:44I remember that I reached
35:45Kurt behind the scenes
35:46that I saw him
35:47totally turned upside down
35:48and with some stains
35:49on the face
35:50at that moment
35:51included on the fly
35:52That
35:52he was sick
35:53he wasn't well
35:54it appeared a lot
35:55down in the dumps
35:56and as jovial as he is
35:57he was with everyone
35:58it was immediately clear
35:59that there was something
36:00that wasn't going well
36:02frankly
36:02I can't say
36:04that it was
36:04our tour
36:05more exciting
36:06two weeks before
36:07I had seen it
36:08in Portugal
36:09there was
36:10a lot of harmony
36:12among the members
36:12of the band
36:13but a few days later
36:15I noticed that Kurt
36:16she had locked herself in
36:17in himself
36:17and that began
36:18to keep to himself
36:23March 1st
36:24of 94
36:25Kurt performs
36:26for the last time
36:27at Terminal Lines
36:28of Munich Airport
36:30during the concert
36:31Chris Novoselic
36:32announces to the audience
36:33the dissolution
36:34of Nirvana
36:35declaring dead
36:36grunge music
36:39not at all
36:41not at all
36:43for the last time
36:45for the last time
37:10The next day Kurt flies to Rome, where he is joined by his wife Cartney,
37:15that the night between March 3rd and 4th finds him in a coma following the intake of a
37:19sixty tablets and rohypnol.
37:23Many suspect that Kurt attempted to take his own life.
37:29Kurt tries to soothe his discomfort by abusing psychotropic drugs.
37:33Last month in Rome, his wife found him in a coma due to a deadly cocktail of sleeping pills.
37:38and champagne.
37:40Having seen him so upset, we should have immediately understood that the situation was getting out of hand,
37:48but obviously the problem couldn't have been solved by snapping one's fingers.
37:54Kurt's biggest mistake was overdoing it with antidepressants and resorting to
38:01'heroin.
38:01If he had found another way to cure his malaise, for example by limiting the number of tours
38:08and withdrawing further from the public eye so as to gradually become accustomed to notoriety,
38:14Maybe he would be here with us now.
38:25On April 8, 1994, Kurt was found dead with a shotgun blast to the head.
38:31The autopsy revealed that he had taken a potentially lethal dose of heroin before shooting himself.
38:38He was only 27 years old.
38:45When I heard Kurt had died, I was with a friend.
38:52We were driving around, we didn't have a specific destination.
38:57At one point we felt like turning on the radio and we tuned in to a local station.
39:05The speaker gave the news that a body had been found somewhere, the identity of which had not yet been revealed.
39:13identity revealed.
39:15Immediately after that there was a commercial break.
39:18I remember that during that break I had a kind of revelation.
39:22I don't know how, but I immediately thought of Kurt.
39:26I can't say what made me think of him.
39:30I think it was an intuition.
39:32I don't know, it may seem strange, but I've always feared that Kurt might do something like that.
39:53Kurt's death was no surprise.
39:58It was certainly shocking news, but certainly not a surprise.
40:05His health was deteriorating very rapidly.
40:12No, I expected it.
40:14I was at home.
40:16I remember it was a weekday and I hadn't gone to work.
40:20A friend of mine called to tell me she heard about it on the radio.
40:23and of course I was inundated with phone calls from friends.
40:31I had a hard time accepting it, especially since he had a little girl who was only a few years old.
40:37I was shocked.
40:38And although many of us feared that Kurt might die of an overdose,
40:43No one thought he could commit suicide by shooting himself.
40:47It was tough.
41:08It was around six o'clock when Alex called and told me that Kurt had died.
41:16Already.
41:17I was totally shocked when I found out.
41:24My world fell apart.
41:26It was the first time I lost a loved one.
41:30Of course, it's true that...
41:34Kurt...
41:37era...
41:37well, he became a rock star and the leader of Nirvana,
41:40but for me he was just a friend.
41:42Yes.
41:42And I think I can safely say that he was a friend to all of us.
41:47It was a shock, because it was him, because he was young and because of the way he wanted to take his own life.
41:57A devastating pain.
42:00It was really difficult to accept that a young, famous and very talented singer wanted to kill himself like that.
42:10an incomprehensibly violent manner.
42:15Immediately after his death, I had to write an obituary in the New Musical Express, which was coming out that week.
42:23No one had understood the seriousness of his problems.
42:28We all knew he was upset, but not even his closest friends knew the severity of his illness.
42:39Here you are...
42:43I already said it, but...
42:46It seems impossible to me that he is no longer with us.
43:00The leader of Nirvana, a rock band loved especially by the younger generation, killed himself today with a gunshot.
43:07firearm in his Seattle home.
43:09The electrician had to carry out some repair work and when he entered the house he found a man lying on the floor with
43:17a gunshot to the head.
43:31For several weeks I received phone calls from my friends and the journalists from People magazine did everything they could to get in.
43:42at my house, even though I was denied.
43:44And then when the funeral happened, well, it was really heartbreaking.
43:50I couldn't look at all those pictures of Kurt as a child.
43:56It was the outcry that made everything more painful.
43:59You couldn't open the newspaper without seeing a picture of him.
44:03It was the funeral itself that made me feel the most penetrating, the most excruciating pain.
44:13That was the day he suffered the most.
44:16Although there were seven, maybe eight completely empty pews in the church, I don't know why,
44:24but I felt the need to not join the others and to keep to myself.
44:30In fact I went in and sat at the back.
44:33I felt like I wanted to observe it all from afar like an outsider.
44:38I know, it's strange, but I felt like I was in a place that didn't belong to me.
44:46Two days after his disappearance,
44:48Seven thousand fans hold a candlelight vigil in the heart of Seattle.
44:54With Nirvana music in the background,
44:56a message from Chris Novoselic is read
44:58and the note Kurt left before he died.
45:01Shortly after, Cartney Love distributes clothes that belonged to Kurt.
45:09The reasons for his mad act will remain unknown,
45:11but not his inability to reconcile fame and artistic sensitivity.
45:17Although he was aware of being a reference figure for his fans,
45:21Kurt felt internally torn and guilty.
45:24for his inability to bear the weight of the role attributed to him.
45:28Unable to lie to his fans or to himself,
45:33suicide was his only escape.
45:36His suicidal tendencies can be explained
45:40in light of numerous elements.
45:42In the past, in his family,
45:44there had already been suicides.
45:46And above all, that's where we need to start, I think.
45:49Even if Kurt Cobain hadn't been a rock star,
45:53he could still have taken his own life.
45:55Given the precedents,
45:56he himself was convinced that it was a genetic defect.
46:00I think he felt oppressed by the fact that he had become,
46:05how to say,
46:08an icon in the space of an instant.
46:11And that must have totally thrown him off.
46:14His existence was turned upside down in the blink of an eye.
46:18I don't know if this was the trigger,
46:21Perhaps it wasn't just fame that destabilized him,
46:26but he certainly suffered greatly from it.
46:29Kurt was surrounded by people
46:33for which he represented,
46:37without a shadow of a doubt,
46:38the goose that lays golden eggs.
46:40And even though it was known that there were many of them
46:44to show towards him
46:45firmness for the greater good to keep him away from drugs,
46:49the fact remains that in many
46:51they tried to speculate on his talent
46:54and this made his balance unstable.
46:58They must have been unbearable pains
47:01for having driven him to commit suicide.
47:05It's like he realized
47:07day after day
47:09of no longer having the energy to fight.
47:12Well, in my opinion
47:13he was also killed by the media.
47:17They chased him wherever he went,
47:20without ever giving him a bit of breathing space.
47:24Maybe I contributed too
47:26to push him to the breaking point.
47:28People said that,
47:29being a rock star,
47:31the press had the right to be informed,
47:34but this is only partly true.
47:36With Nirvana the journalists
47:37they really exaggerated.
47:39It almost seemed like they wanted to devour them.
47:42Being a famous singer,
47:44It was inevitable that he would be followed everywhere.
47:47this feeling of being hunted
47:49it certainly wore him out,
47:51but he can't be blamed for that
47:52only the press.
47:54Kurt could have given up his career
47:57instead of killing themselves.
47:58He could have made this choice.
48:00And instead he wanted to decide differently.
48:02I think that what pushed him to that extreme step
48:05it was his fragility,
48:07rather than the burden of notoriety.
48:09He related to each other in an extremely contradictory way
48:14to the lifestyle of the famous rock star.
48:19And although he liked it,
48:21he didn't know how to handle it
48:22and he never managed to find
48:24a meeting point
48:27between these two opposite aspects.
48:29Man and myth
48:30they were two completely different people.
48:34He never seemed comfortable
48:35under the photographers' flashes
48:36who gave him no respite.
48:37His closest friends
48:39They are still troubled by his death.
48:42For me it was a bit like...
48:44like being robbed.
48:46Well, there are several things
48:48that I wanted to tell him.
48:50Things about which
48:51I would have liked it very much
48:53be able to talk to Kurt.
48:55Nothing specific to tell the truth,
48:58but I never had the chance
48:59to have a long conversation with him.
49:02And the fact that now it's too late
49:04it makes me feel bad.
49:05He's dead now.
49:06and there will no longer be the possibility
49:08to tell him anything.
49:11After his death
49:13I was no longer able,
49:15In short,
49:21to listen to his songs.
49:23Well, at least for quite some time.
49:26They reminded me of too many things.
49:28But now I can listen to it
49:31when I'm in the car
49:32with my friends
49:33or maybe
49:34with my children.
49:38I still feel a lump in my throat,
49:40but I don't feel like crying anymore.
49:42I will remember him for that
49:44which really was.
49:47I do not want
49:47let me be influenced
49:49from the falsified portraits
49:51that we have of him.
49:52the boy will remain
49:54witty
49:55but sensitive
49:56ever.
49:58should be a model
50:00of reference
50:01for anyone who wants
50:02and know
50:03look inside yourself.
50:05His consistency
50:06in scrutinizing one's soul
50:07was
50:08truly commendable.
50:11On the contrary,
50:12if we wanted to remember it
50:13with an epitaph
50:14this is what
50:15that we should write.
50:17I think Kurt
50:19must be remembered
50:20with love and respect.
50:22It would be enough to reflect
50:23on the texts
50:23of his songs
50:24to understand it
50:25the character
50:26and sensitivity.
50:28He is no longer with us today
50:29but if his will
50:30it was just that
50:31to leave us
50:32we should respect it
50:34everyone,
50:35I believe.
50:36Life
50:37it wasn't easy
50:39for him.
50:40I hope people
50:41learn to consider it
50:42like a singer
50:43who gave to music
50:45a valuable contribution.
50:46This is it
50:47what matters.
50:49I would like
50:49that it wasn't
50:50exclusively remembered
50:52like a musician
50:53that burned
50:55one's own life
50:56with drugs
50:57but also as
50:58an artist
50:58who was very good
50:59to paint
51:00who knew how to write
51:01and how
51:02a sensitive man
51:03thoughtful
51:05and careful
51:05to what was happening
51:06around himself.
51:07I remember him
51:08like a child
51:09diligent
51:10era
51:11always available
51:13to help everyone.
51:16Kurt was
51:17Good.
51:19Every time
51:21that transmit
51:22smells like Teen Spirit
51:23on the radio
51:24they receive a lot of phone calls
51:25and they are amazed.
51:27as if it were
51:28a new song
51:29Yes
51:29because its sound
51:30it is still current.
51:31How much Nirvana
51:33they represented for us
51:34and how much are they today
51:35for the current generation
51:37their music
51:39can overcome
51:40any barrier
51:42and even transform itself
51:44in pure nourishment
51:45for the spirit.
51:47And however numerous
51:49are the singers
51:50talented
51:51there is no one
51:52that can
51:53compete with
51:54Kurt.
51:55I think the greatest
51:56merit to be recognized
51:58to Kurt Cobain
51:59be it simply
52:00his music
52:01in which he succeeded
52:02to immerse oneself completely
52:03without holding anything
52:08for himself.
52:22If he had lived
52:23what would he have done to him?
52:24reserved fate?
52:25What would it be like?
52:26progressed musically?
52:28He would have succeeded
52:29to experiment
52:29other musical genres?
52:32Kurt said
52:34that he would have wanted
52:34to be successful
52:35like Sonic Youth
52:36that they had succeeded
52:38to do all this
52:39that they wanted
52:40and that today
52:40boast a career
52:42which has lasted for 30 years.
52:44Kurt would have been
52:46very happy
52:47to be artistically
52:48so long-lived
52:49but unfortunately
52:51then life
52:52it is completely his
52:53got out of hand.
52:54But the title
52:55of spokesperson
52:56of a generation
52:56which had been attributed to him
52:58it was a burden
52:59too heavy
53:00for a man like him.
53:02The comparison
53:03with Bob Dylan
53:05in representing
53:06a generation
53:07it was a thing
53:08that he couldn't stand.
53:09The claim
53:10to be taken
53:12for such
53:12it would have been
53:13worthy
53:14of a mythomaniac.
53:16We often ask ourselves
53:17the question
53:18he deserved it
53:19to be
53:19flattered,
53:21revered
53:21and to receive
53:22so much praise.
53:24We should instead
53:25ask us
53:26what kind of music
53:28would have done
53:29if it weren't
53:31died.
53:33If he had come out
53:34another album of his
53:36it would have been
53:37like Nevermind.
53:38The comparison
53:39it would have been
53:40inevitable.
53:41I'm sure
53:42That
53:43how much
53:44he left
53:44unfinished
53:45could be
53:46pick up the thread
53:48if he were still here.
53:49The discography
53:51of Nirvana
53:52it is notoriously
53:53in short.
53:54Sincerely
53:54I don't see
53:55as
53:55you can there
53:56put
53:57on the same
53:58level
53:59of the Beatles
53:59or the Rolling Stones
54:01whose music
54:02yes it is
54:03evolved
54:04in the course
54:04of several decades
54:05reaching
54:06of the peaks
54:08qualitative
54:08decidedly
54:09very high.
54:12It would have been
54:13interesting
54:13see
54:13what kind
54:14of music
54:15Today
54:15they would have played
54:17or rather
54:17how it would be
54:18transformed.
54:19He repeated
54:20frequently
54:21which was
54:21fed up
54:22of songs
54:23scream
54:23and music
54:24deafening
54:24and what he wanted
54:25try
54:26a style
54:26more
54:27soft
54:28and melodic.
54:29However
54:30we won't be able to
54:31never know
54:31with which
54:32results.
54:33He was speaking
54:33of collaboration
54:34with others
54:35singers
54:36as
54:36Michael
54:36Stieb
54:37and he said
54:38jokingly
54:39that he wanted
54:40to duet
54:40even with
54:41Good.
54:41In short
54:42there were
54:43several things
54:43that would have
54:44wanted to do
54:45in his life
54:46but unfortunately
54:46we won't know
54:47never what kind
54:48of music
54:48would have composed.
54:50Own
54:50I can't stand it
54:53the idea
54:53of not being able to
54:55listen
54:56new songs
54:56written by him
54:57or from other singers
54:59that I like
54:59as
55:00Jimi Hendrix
55:01Jim Morrison
55:02Janis Joplin
55:04or other artists
55:05of which
55:06I composed
55:07obituaries.
55:09Call him
55:09failed
55:10it's not correct
55:12above all
55:12by
55:13whose
55:14he didn't try
55:15his own
55:16suffering
55:17and all that
55:19that for him
55:19was
55:19so painful
55:21unbearable
55:22the weight.
55:23Certain
55:23who succeeded
55:25to get out of it
55:26may also
55:27judge him
55:29without
55:29but
55:31ignore
55:32That
55:32each of us
55:34reacts to pain
55:36to fears
55:37to the anguish
55:38and to situations
55:40problems
55:41in his own way.
55:43If he came back to life
55:45I would like
55:46that he did not dedicate himself
55:47solely to music
55:49but also to art
55:50and that
55:51would win
55:52all his fears
55:54once and for all
55:55Like this
55:56he might be happy.
55:57if he were still here
55:59to make records
55:59I think he would sell some
56:00few
56:01but of quality
56:02since at least
56:03in this
56:04Well
56:05he knew what he was doing.
56:06In one of his
56:07latest interviews
56:08he said that
56:09he aspired to a career
56:10solo
56:10like that of
56:11Johnny Cash
56:12he was very happy
56:14because he had discovered
56:15recently
56:15the blues genre
56:17and he said
56:18that he would have wanted
56:19experience
56:19a simpler music
56:21and immediate
56:22to be played alone
56:23and transform
56:24in a kind
56:25of minstrel
56:25if we may say so.
56:27it's beautiful
56:29initially
56:30start playing
56:31acoustics
56:31and be thought
56:33like a singer
56:35and a singer
56:35instead of a rocker
56:37Why
56:38then I could
56:39take
56:40after you
56:40when I am
56:41beyond
56:41and feel
56:42in a scene
56:43and play
56:43acoustics
56:44like Johnny Cash
56:46or something
56:47and it won't be
56:48a large one
56:49history
56:49but who knows?
56:52that he killed himself
56:54because it was
56:55short of ideas
56:56and he couldn't do it anymore
56:57to provide for oneself
56:59it's a statement
57:00which does not make it certain
57:01merit
57:02to his music
57:03which was
57:04in the center
57:05of his life
57:06and the only source
57:07of joy
57:08that pushed him
57:09to move forward
57:10Therefore
57:11the ideas
57:12to him
57:13there was no shortage
57:14for sure
57:15maybe he isn't there anymore
57:16felt like composing
57:18but
57:19his problem
57:20it wasn't
57:20certainly
57:21creativity
57:22I want to change
57:23our style
57:24of music
57:24I want to do
57:25something different
57:26really different
57:28and I want to have
57:29Enough
57:29to do it
57:30and if
57:31alienated
57:32the people
57:32it's too much
57:33bad
57:55a single word
58:08a single word
58:18I'm so tired
58:22of being alone
58:24tired of being alone
58:29I know
58:31will you take me home
58:35take me home
58:37yeah
58:40I'm tired of being alone
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